#im tired of the double standards yall

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

wow i hate living with my family as an adult

yknow every damn weekend morning i feel Guilty for walking around in my room because the floor squeaks and it wakes up my brother, but EVERY DAMN NIGHT he hollers at video games, sometimes until TWO OR THREE IN THE MORNING, and i have to go to fucking work about it so. he can just deal with it, i've decided.

#text #personal #whine whine whine #im so fucking tired of trying to show courtesy and having NONE OF IT RETURNED #but im ALREADY the bad guy in the house and according to my bro and dad Everything Is My Fault #so if i stop trying it WILL turn nuclear #but im fucking tired of the hypocrisy and double standards and absolute REFUSAL to compromise and ngl yall #i am absolutely STRUGGLING about it #i cannot take this shit for another year #i know its hormonal hours and thats not helping but ive never had intrusive thoughts in traffic before today 🫠 #i hate it here #(video game hollering is Current and Ongoing and im trying to wind down to get up to go to work fucking early. again.) #(and today was the shittiest day ive had in a while and i cannot do it three more times this week but i have to because im training someone

[demonicintegrity]

Watching from the sidelines as photomatt makes a fool of himself. and I'm just tired.

Listen im not gonna say "i hope someone dies in a car explosion full of hammers" has like, the strongest high ground standing. I'm above that. So may you. But I am gonna say it highlights the double standards pretty well. Are we gonna pretend like half the site wasn't openly wishing for Trump or any sort of alt-right politician to die? Not even like in a cartoony way? Just straight up memes about preparing the crave rave if anyone went? Which was a lot more passionate and strongly motivated than this? I watch so many people get straight up nazis in their askbox. I see so many bigots remake blogs without a sweat if they're even deleted in the first place. Misinformation and racist memes abound. But this small thing gets someone and all their blogs nuked off the website? Okay. Sure. Yeah. That tracks.

Hell, the fact no one can even tag him now shows a special standard. Wdym none of us can blocked being mentioned by others but the specialist ceo can because he's getting flamed for his own double standards? We can actually, its just buried in my settings I didn't know was possible until writing this and double checking. LMK if yall knew that was an option cuz I sure as hell didn't. @staff can still be mentioned and replied to on some of their posts, I'm sure some genuis is gonna have the bright idea to bother them even though they have no control over him. Hell, I've seen them being tagged in posts about policies and drama and all that! The ability to bother the working folks is never taken away but the ceo is above that.

(and no, it's not comparable to a kys joke, which I have never and will not ever condone. That's a fucking crime and terrible.)

(And if the average person can't get the police to do anything about the weirdos in their dm's, if celebrities couldn't get the police to help by being stalked by paparazzi, I doubt they're gonna take "someone on the internet I don't know wished I would be dead by a silly way" seriously. They wouldn't even take my roommates bike being stolen on camera seriously. That was a bluff out of his ass and we know it. He just wants to throw around power he doesn't/shouldn't have.)

("I hope X person dies" is harassment at best but not a credible death threat. It's hard to prove any sort of legitimate attempt behind the words. I would know, queer people get told they should be dead all the time and there's nothing that can be done because it's not a threat. I don't even think it was mentioned at him or anything like that, so it wasn't even intended to be seen by him. So yeah.)

And that's what all the outrage is about. It's the double standards. It's about how all these legitimately awful people still stick around because its not hard, but some random queer or otherwise marginalized person will get scrubbed off the face of the Earth because they were a little rude once. Or because they've done nothing at all. Remember when normal-horoscopes' blog got nuked for no fucking reason at all? Have no idea if that blog was ever restored. But man, all those posts unable to be searched for again.

And to be clear, I'm not surprised by this. In the slightest. When have ceo's ever reacted will to the people using their product not giving a shit about them? I may not know the entire story of who this trans women is and her history but like. But this part doesn't shock me. It sucks but its not surprising when Whatever Rich Ceo picks an enemy out of thin air and tries to drag them around as an example. It's happen so many times. I'm not shocked.

Nor does seeing the transphobia spike AGAIN because of it.

It's just exhausted that I set up myself here all comfy and everyone I follow is considering jumping ship again. I doubt I'll ever use any of the tumblr copycats. I got rid of my twitter. I've been putting off making an instagram for forever. If this goes assume your best chance is finding me on discord or by carrier pigeon. And ill be upset as hell because I love tumblr, it's my homebase, and I just set up my art blog here.

Yeah. So none of this is surprising. Disappointing, but not a surprise. You mean the website that regularly thinks any depiction of a queer person deserves a mature label with no ability to really appeal and fight against that, is being mean to a trans person?? Is the sky being blue also shocking??

Yeah whatever. This isn't changing or personally affecting me in any way but like. Man. Sure. Okay. Might as well be an issue on top of the others on this god forsaken webbed cite.

#rambles #photomatt #current events ig

[allysartblog]

I'll be taking a break from this account for a while I'm just fed up the lot of things and regards to the stranger things fandom I'm sick of the double standards and vile attitudes from some people in the fandom.

People are allowed to ship whatever they want to and that's OK but jargyle fans get paid in dust while more popular ships which shall not be named get fed with things every single minute.

Ive tried to get more people intrested but it didnt work nobody gives a fuck they are far to invested in their own ships which if fine Im not forcing yall to ship it but if people do mention jargyle they are always the fucking after thought in their steddie based fics. It pisses me the hell off yall dont give a shit and I hate how yall pretend to actuly care about jargyle when you fucking dont. We want fics of our boys where they dont take a backseat to steddie or some other uber popular ship that everyone loves and that you see on every fucking social media platform in the stranger things tag.

Ive accepted that the way people overlook jargyle and just use them to get clicks on their fanfics wont change and I give up on trying!

There are a lot amazing fan artists and fic writers in this community and I am extremely grateful from all of you.

The is tag is just so dry and only becomes semi wet every once and awhile. I try my best to provide you with content when no one else is posting but Im tired. Dont wanna sound like Im bitching but I'm grateful for everyone of you all who follow my account and enjoy the things that I post but I'm just burned out right now. I don't have any more head cannons or ideas left in me.

Being a jargyle isnt fun anymore (it honestly never has been people just shit on our ship 24/7 and think its a fucking joke!) nither is being in the ST fandom. It feels like a popularity contest and seems like people are always fighting over ships or being racist af Im so damn fed up with it all. 😢😭

#thoughts #anti steddie #anti stranger things #fandom #im so sick of your bs

[trikruismybitch]

MoM Spoilers Ahead

hmm

If yall seen the movie you know that Doctor Strange and Wong are grade A fucking hypocrites.

dream walking is bad.

You cant kill an innocent kid.

Yall blame her for all the deaths but couldve been easily fixed if yall just give her what she wanted 🤷🏻‍♀️

Its like "oh Wanda used the darkhold shes evil"

"Wanda wants to kill an innocent kid shes evil"

"Wandas dream walking which is really bad"

😐

Doctor Strange dream walks into his variants dead body. And the ghost fucking things went after him bc it was so wrong and ion see any of yall commenting on that.

Wong at the end wanted Stephen to kill America bc Wanda would get her powers but yall rlly trust doctor strange after literally everyone in the movie said the biggest threat to the universe was doctor strange 💀

I just think its so funny these double standards yall praise killmonger and some of yall even agree with Thanos.

Wanda had nothing and everything she loved ripped from her grasp and nobody was there to help her.

So was it wrong for her to kill all them bitches? Yes. Do i think she had a good reason. Yes. Am i team Wanda till the end of time? Yes.

BUT at the end she realized who she became to get what she wanted she realized her mistake and fixed it and therefore her destroying every darkhold in the universe saved countless lives then she took.

Also i dont think she's dead and believe she'll end up coming back. When? No idea but i have hope.

also would like to say i do love strange and wong i jus cant with these "mcu" fans massacre wandas name after the mcu has given us her entire backstory. It could be misogyny or something else but fuck im just tired of MCU killing off my girls

ALSO if 616 Wanda is dead then i think they might have the other wanda with her kids somehow be brought into it she has her powers yk

also how depressing is it that EVERY SINGLE FUCKING UNIVERSE WANDAS WITH HER KIDS BUT THE ONE WERE WATCHING WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

okay im done

#natasha romanoff deserved better #and so does #wanda maximoff #give wanda her happy ending

[sn0tcl0wn]

im not mad about people having fun, im mad because im tired of A) being compared to ramona even without dying my hair (i had to stop having colored hair because i was tired of it) and B) there are things i'd like to enjoy in peace and cant despite the fact that they're just as bad as scott pilgrim. like you all realize a self aware groomer is still a groomer right? how is it everyone is so quick to cry about how triggering other shit is but scott pilgrim, a series that has a whole fairly realistic subplot about the mc being a groomer, is a-okay and im the crazy one for not liking it? also what about the queer rep in that series is good if shit like helluva boss has bad representation? it's the same goddamn thing. im so confused. how is it not because the main couple is white and het-passing? because that's the only reason i can see any of this shit flying in scott pilgrim when it doesnt in any of the shit i like. it feels like a double standard and honestly so regressive. like yall are quick to say let people enjoy things and i agree but the same people i see loving scott pilgrim are the same ones quick to shit on people for liking stuff i actually do enjoy so idk man. it's so fucking annoying though.

#and no ones given me a real reason to think poorly of vivsiepop outside of her not paying people but guess what netflix also does lmao #and it isnt just her stuff but that's the main one cause the same people who shit on that are losing their minds over SP #it's wild

[poetlcs]

im so tired of watching people hype up basic ass hetero white boy charas who have some white boy angst and then absolutely SLAM female characters / queer characters / characters of colour and any combination thereof for exhibiting the same traits phew boy yall are boring

#YA BASIC #yall: uwu special baby boy i lov u king xoxoxo #yall: this girl has one (1) unlikeable trait I HATE her #i dont get it yall say u want complex characters and then tear down any u get do u eveven KNOW what they are #also the double standards w/ queer women versus any other ships phew yikes #im extremely tired tbh #can we just stop hyping up basic ass white boys fjghkd if I see fucking trc kavinsky on my tl again imma puke

[verseziam]

when will this fandom finally see that all the boys are still under contracts not just harry and louis? like one direction has 5 members not 2 so i don’t understand why some of yall mostly larries act like harry and louis are the only ones closeted and still have to stunt when all the boys are still obviously under strict contracts? 

#like im real tired #double standards are so real #i lowkey feel like most of this fandom is larry vs ziam #bc most ppl still seem to like niall #but the rest of this fandom continues to shit on ziam #which im kinda bitter about but not mad #bc ziam out here doing the best on the charts #i just don't get how yall preach something about larry but then #don't do the same with ziam #i know why but still

[nix-that-rad-lass]

Taking a Hiatus

so i’ve been debating doing this for a while. like three months actually.

i’ve been active on radblr since early 2019 and never taken a break for longer than about 5 days.

I’m exhausted.

I’m sick of the doom and gloom, and I’m sick of the infighting. I’m sick of being harassed instead of engaged, sick of having my opinions and debates misconstrued. Sick of people on here not even reading my argument before responding, often attacking me, as a person, instead of critiquing my opinions.

I’m sick of the shitty debate skills, the narcissism, the selfishness. I’m sick of it all.

I’m sick of the gaslighting, saying that being a radfem isnt about ideological purity but the moment one woman has an opinion that is different from the groupthink, even if its minor, then y’all have zero issue dogpiling on her.

I’m sick of feeling the pressure to label and define myself before im even an adult, and sick of it being used against me.

Sick of the double standard, that its ok to ackowledge there isnt a permanent state of self and that people and opinions change, that its ok to not know yourself until youre a mature adult, only for that all to be thrown away.

I am just fed up and sick and tired of it. The worst part? I thought, all this time, we were a generally good community. I thought we were for the most part amicable acquaintances. I thought that many were friends. But no. Radblr says the catty woman myth is fake, but goes on to prove it at any given chance.

Radblr is almost just as cultish as the trans and queer movement.

It’s worse because most of radblr is adults.

And it sucks. It sucks that the feminist movement has devolved into mainstream woke mens-rights bullshit with a minority that claims to believe in actual feminism, but doesnt practice it.

Radblr is more concerned with harassing women who dont ascribe to their extremist ideological purity than with actually making a difference.

I don’t know if or when i will be back. I still hold radfem beliefs, sure. But i cannot sit here and keep taking harassment and cruelty and mockery in stride while juggling a horse, college apps, and school. I cannot sit here and be the more mature person than grown ass adult women. I cannot sit here silently while all of you enable this, brush it aside, claim its a minority.

because guess what? its not a minority. the majority of radblr is narcissistic assholes with a victim complex.

I am sick and fucking tired of seeing the best in yall when you cant even treat me and each other with basic fucking respect.

I am sick and tired of seeing vulnerable young girls peak and make their way into radical feminism only to be silenced and harassed and shunned away. I am sick of seeing this excused and erased and swept under the rug.

Most of all, i am sick of being harassed for calling it out.

Until you all get your priorities in order and your ethics in check, you have no right to be calling yourselves feminists.

The only difference with me vs other teens bullied off radblr is that i’m not going silently. I’m not deactivating in the middle of the night and disappearing without a trace.

I am telling all of you straight up what the hell is wrong with this community. I am calling you out because i know you can be better.

But i will not be a part of this.

Get your own goddamn movement in order.

#radblr #rant #personal #vent #radfem #radical feminism #radical feminist #radfem safe #terf safe #radfems do touch #radfems do interact #radfems please touch #radfems please interact #terfs do touch #terfs do interact #terfs please touch #terfs please interact #callout post #hiatus

[witch-apologist]

Im so tired of catra antis being like "Youre mad that I don't like the catgirl" no no im not i could literally not care less about whether you personally like Catra I don't! I dont care. What I do care about is yall using that dislike of catra as an excuse to spread hateful racist and ableist double standards and rhetoric ajd spread misinformation about abuse trauma and recovery. If yall kept to your own damn little corner and weren't obsessed with turning your every dislike into a goddamn moral dilemma so that you can freely spread your bigoted shitty ass opinions I would not give a single shit about it. "I dont like x character, its just not my taste" its that fucking easy. Its that fucking easy and yet instead yall dedicste HOURS UPON HOURS to spreading the most vile bigoted shit to try to turn your dislike of something into a moral high horse. You're not slick we all see right through it. And for the love of God go to fucking therapy you might actually LEARN something for once.

[henrycavell]

Hi. So how about a story where Henry or one of his characters (your choose) comes home to find his S/o (reader) bent over the oven door, ass in the air, as she scrubs the oven clean. Her head inside the oven, trying to see what she is doing and her torso twisted at an odd angle . He hears her grunting and groaning and cursing cuz it’s so nasty and caked on.

Okay, so I've been in a Marshall kick and he probably wasn't the first character to come to mind when you sent me this prompt, but he's the one I'm going with, haha! Also, sorry this took forever. Literally. Also I loved writing this and kind of want to make a series out of it omgg.

Pairing: Marshall x Reader

Warnings: uh i leave you hanging right when the smut is gonna happen so sorry about that use yalls imaginations im tired today bahahaha i was in a writing mood but not in a mood to write smutt so i apologize if thats entirely what you were looking for!!! also i did not really edit this, i gave it a quick proof read and that was it, enjoy babyyyy

Word count: 1.4k

Marshall had been a little aggravated by your pushiness. He wasn't used to having a woman coming on to him and rather, he didn't much chase women either. After going through his divorce, he had decided to focus on his daughter and his career, deciding love just wasn't in the cards for him. And that had seemed true for a few years until you came along. He often wondered if you just felt sorry for him, if you were just looking at him like a pathetic, lonely man, nothing more than just someone to gift your time to. And for that reason, Marshall had walled himself off from you, sure that you were just going to walk out of his life just as quickly as you had barged in. 

But you were persistent. You had started with bringing him coffee to the precinct and that was already bad enough because it got people talking. Other officers had started asking Marshall if he was having lunch delivered too, and every time it brought a red, burning hot blush to his face. He didn't like it. He wanted to tell you off, ask what your problem was, but he never did. Something always kept him from blowing up on you. 

You had started sending him text messages more often, too. Little ones, just 'Hey, how was your day?' and 'Good night.' It wasn't like Marshall to hold a conversation through text, you were lucky to even get a reply, but you kept at it anyway, not liking the air about the man. Marshall always seemed so lonely, sad and you just wanted to help. You thought you had started to get through to him when he had finally invited you over. It wasn't the cleanest place, but you hadn't expected it to be. He was a single man living alone and while that wasn't an excuse, you knew he probably didn't have the energy in his downtime. 

Downtime, as if he had any of that. 

Even now, you stood alone in the hallway of Marshall's home, looking into his office at the spiderweb of photos and news clippings that were stuck to the wall. He was always working. Sometimes you even brought dinner over to him, late in the evening when you knew he'd gotten off after a double shift and wouldn't have the energy to cook for himself. Marshall had started to warm up to you and that was how you'd gotten a key to his home. 

This was your first time being alone inside, however, and it felt heavy. Like even though the detective wasn't here, the heavy feeling of what he carried still remained. You turned your attention to the kitchen, reminding yourself why you were here. The man's house wasn't clean by any standard and no one deserved to live with such a mess around them. You had already made your way through the rooms, throwing out food containers and cups, picking up any dirty dishes that were scattered around. And now the kitchen needed your focus.

It felt like hours had passed since you cleaned out the fridge and cabinets and now the stove was your next target. Opening the oven, you got down on your knees next to the open door and peered inside at the grime and gunk that was burned and caked-on inside. You felt your shoulders tense, your lip curls up in a snarl as you winced at the filth. Exhaustion was already overcoming you, but the rest of his house was clean and now this was the last thing you had on your list. The only thing that kept you going was the hope of seeing a smile on Marshall's face for the first time.

Grabbing your sponge and cleaning solution, you lightly let a knee rest on the oven door, your other foot still planted firmly on the kitchen floor as you arched your back and leaned into the oven. Grumbles and curses fell off of your tongue as your elbow ached from scrubbing at the oven wall, your nose wrinkling from the charred smell. Inside the oven, it had dampened your hearing, muffling the sound of the front door open opening and closing. You had twisted your torso to the left, at an awkward angle as you tried to get your hand into the far back corner of the oven, wanting the whole thing practically shining before you'd be done with it.

Marshall stepped into the kitchen, expecting to find you somewhere from your car being parked out front, but he hadn't been prepared to find you like this. The leggings you had worn, only to be comfortable while you worked, were stretched tight across your round ass and Marshall wondered if you were swaying your hips like that intentionally, or if it was just a coincidence as you tried to clean. The sight caused his jeans to feel a bit tighter, caused his heart to race just a little faster. His eyes were ripped away from your bottom when another f-bomb fell from your lips. A chuckle fell from his lips and he brought a hand up to his jaw, stroking the growing beard that decorated his chin. He hadn’t meant to just stare, but he was.

The sudden noise startled you, Marshall's footsteps having been oddly quiet, causing you to gasp and jerk up, hitting your head on the top of the oven. You heard Marshall's breath catch in the back of his throat and before you could fully crawl back out of the oven and rub the top of your head, he was already at your side, one arm wrapping around your waist and the other gently applying a bit of pressure to your skull. 

"Didn't mean to scare you," he frowned, his shoulders slouching as he pulled you up to your feet, his hand still resting on your lower back. His hand felt like a weight, yet still sent a little shiver up your spine as you moved to stand just a bit closer to him, your body gently pressing up against his. 

"You didn't... I mean... it's okay," you laughed, your face blushing a bright pink, worried you might've embarrassed yourself. 

"What are you doing, by the way?" Marshall's mouth set into a straight line, his brow pulling down as he looked around the kitchen. It hadn't gone over his head that she'd cleaned his whole house, but he hadn't quite understood why. Things tended to go right over his head and even now as you pressed your body against his, any attempt to feel his touch, even more, he seemed oblivious. 

"I just..." You weren't trying to admit that you just wanted to help him, not wanting to get into the conversation about how you did feel bad for him. Being alone all the time, with nothing but his thoughts and his work and occasionally getting to see his daughter. But you knew how that would sound and you didn't want him thinking he was just a charity case. Every time you stare at Marshall you realize you forget to breathe and you spend most of your time away from him wondering how he's doing, but you also didn't even know where to begin with explaining any of that to him. "Just because," you decided to leave it at that. 

Something must have clicked in Marshall's mind because while you stood there, dumbfounded, trying to come up with an answer, Marshall's focus had been fixated on your lips. His arm was still wrapped around your waist, holding you close to him and he was so muscular, so large you thought there was nothing more that you could do besides stand there and be his prisoner. 

"Well, it was a nice view." 

His blue eyes fell to yours and without speaking, Marshall backed you up against the kitchen wall. His hand that had been applying pressure to where you smacked your head, now cradled your neck and his body was flush up against yours. You weren't sure what Marshall was feeling, but for you, a mix of anxiety and nervousness filled the room and you clung on to every second as you stared up at him, terrified before he leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. 

"Guess you deserve some sort of thanks," Marshall breathed as he pulled away, your eyes falling to watch his tongue gently graze along his bottom lip. 

"Yes, I think I do."

@littlefreya @mary-ann84 @wondersofdreaming @forthebrokenheartedthings @geralt-of-baevia @asylummara @dearlybelovedluke @promptandpros @mansaaay @daddys-littlewhitegirl @vacant-writings @80scavill @kaatelyyynn @madbaddic7ed @iloveyouyen @henrythickcavill @hell1129-blog

#ruthoakenshield #henry cavill fanfic #henry cavill x reader #walter marshall x reader #walter marshall x you #ask

[littlemix-discuss]

people can write about snythinf they want tbh. im tired of them using breakup songs or sex songs as singles when there is a bunch of variety but that doesnt mean little mix shouldnt write about breakups. specially since you can be in a relationship and married and talk about past experiences or get inspired by them. If not every single celeb on a relationship or marriage couldnt sing about breakups or hooking up. Pink is married and did beautiful trauma. the double standard yall have

.

#anonymous #ask

[fiovske]

at the start of my wildemount game i had to separate the assembly into “who would take part in a coup” and that’s really how i’ve interpreted them ever since. weird that like in terms of things that have backslid their political understanding and caution seems to have also!! like didn’t she fucking tell them to prepare to fight dynasty soldiers in an ARMS RACE and they were just like “war machine go brrr”???

i DONT KNOW tbh, the m9′s lack of self-awareness (except Caduceus)... idk lmao what they think they’re doing but i dont think they can corner Derogna by trying to sweep whatever god-killing machine from under her nose, they’re about to be bigger agents is something really awful and the fact that they havent talked to Yeza about it yet... BAFFLES ME. their whole idea of ‘morality’ as a whole is like: “no no, its ok when WE do bad things. bc we’re CHAOTIC!!”

which is not a criticism as much as... uh... double standards and um. yall aint as smart as you think you are. iDFK how they’re gonna handle it to fight Dynasty soldiers. they’re clearly aligning themselves w the Assembly without ZERO consultation from people who’ve worked w them recently and know the perils of it (Yeza, Essek). its just... ugh. idk. big carelessness and im just... im tired. eiselcross is something I look forward to but idfk what its gonna be and I’m excited for matt’s worldbuilding but the m9?? idk man i havent had much faith in them recently so.. idk.

#mail tag #disk horse #im salty yeah #i just... what they're doing is just plain and simple carelessness #and i dont care for it #backssliding on political understanding is exactly how i'll put it #i feel like they're unable to see the bigger picture #or even REALIZE there is one #im just perpetually :/ w them #and am trying to cut back on my investment #seafleece

[mayapenelopeclutterbucket]

*SPOILERS* Thoughts I had while watching TGD “Unsaid” AND WHAT WAS UNSAID WAS DR. NEIL MELENDEZ’S BLATANT FEELINGS FOR DR. CLAIRE BROWNE so many things I predicted in the group chat also came true 🙏🏼😂 I ask can’t even think of funny gifs to add rn I think I’m still in shock

Oh my god y’all shit the ep hasn’t even started yet and I’m so stressed and nervous and excited and I’m ready but at the same time really not. It’s gonna be such a big night for melendaire 😭 and I wonder if any feelings will actually be CONFIRMED/ADMITTED fuuuuuck my hand aren’t going to be able to keep up with my typing so I hope I don’t miss anything 😩😩

-apparently someone saw it early and said Neil made the right choice WTF does that MEAN?! Hopefully that he doesn’t start anything with Claire until after her residency is up!!! Also why did she get to watch it early 😩 now I’m so much more stressed guys fuuuck group chat is now freaking tf ouuuut

-aww shaun sharly is adorable and I’m glad they’re working through their issues freakin cuties

-oh shit shit is gonna go down I already feel it

-damn damn wow this is so awkward Melendez is apologizing to all the residents about playing “favorites” and everyone knows who it’s really about but not saying anything

-this lil boy is so cute

-I wish I knew sign language I really should learn I’ve always wanted to

-Morgan okay you helped Carly with her jealousy but plz stop “helping” shaun with his relationship and damn shaun calling Morgan our for being sexist

-uh oh claire is bringing up the favoritism complaint to park uh oh it was park that complained called it

-I get where park is coming from because Claire getting “special treatment” even if accidental will affect her residency and career at st bonaventures because if double standards and sexism 🙃

-shea friendship is adorable and lmaoo that interaction between Morgan and lea was soooo fake at least on Morgan’s part

-ooof awkward Claire was gonna step in but Melendez told her nooo let park keep doing it he’s trying to push her away

-park is a competitive jealous hoe

-uh oh Morgan’s arthritis is acting up 😩

-Morgan quit trying to psyche shaun out because your arthritis is acting up and lim thank god for telling her to shut up Morgan I love you bby but PLEASE STOP

-no oh noooo oh my oh my god SHE JUST CALLED HIM NEIL SHE SAID HIS FIRST NAME 😭😭 AND HE JUST SAID HES NOT ABANDONING HER AND THAT HELL SUPPORT HER AT WORK HOLY SHIT HOLY FUCKING SHIT

-and Claire’s right it’s sexism at its finest and if it was Melendez and a male resident hanging out it wouldn’t be an issue but Melendez said he agreed but rumors are already spreading fuck

-shaun is stressing about the patient and Morgan is STRUGGLING with her arthritis everything is quickly becoming a train wreck

-lmaoo lea calling Morgan out on her bitchy-ness love it

-Claire’s hair this episode is looking adorable I was tired of them just putting her hair up with a headband

-shaun projecting on the patient is breaking my heart

-I have mixed feelings about this mute patient and making a larynx for him to be “normal” like why this show have ableism when it’s supposed to be fighting against it??

-okay so that clip was out of context god bless she was annoyed he didn’t step in when Claire and park were arguing about their ideas but then he told her SHE WAS OVERREACTING and she needed to get over it 🙃🙃 FUCK HIM UP CLAIRE wow

-the elevator scene between lea and Carly was cute WE NEED MORE FEMALE FRIENDSHIPS AND TO STOP PITTING WOMEN AGAINST EACH OTHER

-lim telling Neil he does have a problem yes queeeen and he needs to face it and fix it but what is she saying his favoritism?? Or feelings for Claire?? Or something else?? I need to pay better attention lol

- @pinkobsessedfreak being a downer in the group chat again 😂💕

-aww adorable sharly at a karaoke bar

-yay shaun is comfortable with pda now 😭

-yeah park you fucked shit up for the both of you and Claire because now he’s trying not to upset Claire by just letting you do it and not trying to upset you with his “favoritism” for Claire and letting her do it

-oh my god this is adorable they’re singing along to super bass 😂😭😭 I freakin love how this double date ended up and oop it got serious real quick shea is having a moment and Carly is feeling insecure again but karaoke was always a shea thing

-oh shit bar scene here we come

-and Claire confronted him about his behavior and he decided to just leave :// because he’s trying to make things right and say he can’t be friends with his residents not what I WANTED to hear

-oh my god y’all I was right about park lying he reported it just so he could get the perks of it 😂 but damn lim tore Morgan up for reporting him to cover her ass which I knew was gonna happen also ://

-Claire oh my god no please don’t spiral again oh my god oh my god never mind he came back in NEIL MELENDEZ CAME BACK IN AND IS NOW HAVING DINNER WITH CLAIRE FUUUUCK OH MY GOD OH MY GOOOD IM STILL YELLING OH MY GOD AT THE TV I CANT FUNCTION I CANT DEAL

-and oh shit Carly is breaking up with shaun wtf god damn it 😩

-I’m sad about sharly breaking up but I ain’t mad but lea still isn’t ready for commitment and Carly really shouldn’t be telling shaun how HE FEELS

-BUT HOLY SHIT YALL THIS EPISODE DIDNT END IN ANGST LIKE WE ALL THOUGHT OH MY GOD LIKE OH MY GOD THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS GOING TO KEEP BUILDING WOOOW TODAY WAS A GREAT FUCKING NIGHT JESUS

-and now we have shaun going to say his “feelings” to lea but is it actually love he feels for her 🤷🏻‍♀️

-but wow that melendaire, a little anticlimactic like @gilbxrt-blythe said by just think y’all right now melendaire isn’t gonna have the setback we thought so their RELATIONSHIP IS ONLY GOING TO CONTINUE TO GROW AND GET STRONGER SEASON FINALE KISS HERE WE COOOOME

-that girl on Twitter was right Melendez did make the right decision 😭🙌🏼

#the good doctor #claire browne #neil melendez #tgd #melendaire #shaun murphy #carly lever #lea dilallo #shea #sharly #morgan reznick #alex park #audrey lim

[bma-2020]

Okiedok here’s the delio. I have a list of all the blogs from the last six months who’s actively either responded to a meme i sent, responded to a message ive sent, replied to something regarding mally herself, has actually written with me, written a starter for me from my liking a starter call, has at least liked a starter i wrote for them to awknowedge it exists, all that jazz, i have a lot of open field so it’s not just a possible tumblr didnt let them no option anymore, because i send memes to everyone who posts them that i see. I reply to most peoples ooc posts. I like most starter calls I pass by. I try my darndest to actually interact bc i know how it feels to be ignored and its… i’ve been called one before so i’m using the word, thats fluffing cunty behavior, and honestly if you complain about not being interacted with but never even try when i try with you, ya being cunty, end of. I gotta list. That list only entails Mally because she’s who I care about the most. I’m probably gonna start instilling a new rule in all my blogs that if you ignore Mally and/or Darcy( @tasedandconfused ), since I would say they’re my two main blogs tho darcy gets ignored even more than mally does, probably bc i denied canon and left it entirely we know fandom hates that, if either of them is ignored then… Ya out of luck, I’m gonna unfollow you. I’m debating soft blocking everyone who ignored me on both of them but I don’t want to like be mean and deny the chance to eventually try again but at the same time i shouldnt feel bad for taking a stand and saying this is bullsheet, idk my anxiety says im awful for giving a fluff about myself but also i should give a fluff about myself probably, ive nearly died in the last three months, my brain almost exploded, i just had three root canals on one corner of my face, i have to potentially get surgery on my inner ear which i cant even afford, i dont got time to deal with only being used for like smut memes or like as a resource blog or utter bs like that, i dont got time for it. So new rules here. 1: If Mally or Darcy are not acknowledged, written with, responded to, viewed as more than just their fluffing bodies? ya dropped, im unfollowing, potentially soft blocking, which means blocking and unblocking for those not in the know, on all accounts I follow you on. Every single one. I know most of my muses are on sideblogs but despite not being able to send memes from sideblogs you can block people from sideblogs fun fact, i will do that if i have to. 2: I’m gonna be posting SCs, PCs, memes, etc. I like and respond to plotting calls, starter calls, i send memes, all of that. If I don’t get any response within.. I’m giving one week for people who don’t run on a queue and a month and a half to people on a queue based system, if i dont get anything within that time like at least an im being like ‘its posted’ or ‘its queued i wanted to let you know in case tumblrs a fluffbutt’ (i do this sometimes if i dont get even just a like on the starters i post so i at least know people saw it since i know tumblrs bs, i wait until the day they’re active to do so in case theyre busy yknow) basically i need acknowledgment at all. No you can’t claim this is abt follower count bc when you unfollow someone they inevitably unfollow you too, thats gonna drop my following, not as quickly as soft blocking would but i wanna be fair i guess, which leads to: 3: I’m basing this on your activity too, like if i like a think and you’re gone for a month after that its fine, im not gonna unfollow you unless you never come back or youre online and posting others just not mine because that tells me youre specifically ignoring me and im gonna drop you for that end of. I’m done with the bullsheet im done w the dillish behavior, i love friendship but if im giving and never receiving thats extremely one way and not gonna work. I check through my follow list weekly and i go back about five-10 pages on someones feed before i unfollow them to see their actual activity and see if theyre here or if its a q so. I’m thorough basically. 4: You dont have to be active with me on all your blogs, i mean i’d prefer it but thats hard as fluff so essentially if you have like five blogs and are just like trying w me on two or three thats fine. Ten blogs, four or five with at least a plot formed is cool. Multis just one muse is all I’d need. I’m not gonna unfollow the blogs youre not writing w me on if you at least write w me on some. Again, specifically Mally and/or Darcy. If you ignore both of them, we’re done. I havent been active on darcy because of being ignored and its a huge butt mess and im just tired i wanna use my babies, you don’t get to have my ‘better’ muses like i know a lot of ppl only follow me for my boys or my villains, you don’t get them if you ignore my baby. But, there is a limit there too. 5: If you never respond to a meme or thread even once with Mally or Darcy, or post a starter, i reply, its never replied to again after a month, I’m unfollowing and/or soft blocking for that too. Bc that means youre just raising my hopes to fluff with me or get someone else and honestly, youre even more cunty than than the people just flat out ignoring me if you do that. And this isnt a specific person, this is five of the people actually on my list. Yes, my list is also annotated with specifics again I was very thorough on this yesterday, I hyperfixated I’ll admit it, I’m in a fluffing depressionary bubble and being told to get over it because people want something they dont deserve to have to. I am a believer that people deserve good things but if youre purposefully being cunty… no you dont. 6: No I’m not releasing my list, maybe I will and I’ll omit the urls because I don’t want people being buttholes to each other too but otherwise, yall not seeing it im not giving a callout because… really thats just unnecessary here. I don’t think yall are toxic people or something i just think yall are unintentionally being cunty. And no I don’t mean everyone that follows me i mean the ppl that add up to what i’ve documented so far and fit the bill of butthat that i’ve shown, its behaviors yall gotta check before ya wreck. Yes there will be some people who have priority, everyone has those people, I write w kathryn on other platforms since she doesnt go on here as often but when Kathryn returns from war here (if she does cause she also agrees most ppl on this platform are cunty, i feel really bad saying that word so often but im gonna keep doing it i recently deleted an ask saying I was a huge cunt for not sending someone smut memes when I didn’t even follow them or know they existed so, again the travesty of this place is nutballers) same with owly, alex is here too, my most active partners are always going to be priority because theyre the ones who show the most interest and the most care. I understand that with others as well which is why I have the timeframe set up, because I want to be as open and shizz as possible while atill being firm i guess. I don’t want to have extreme double standards like its impossible for double standards not to exist at least a little bit but I want to avoid a golden chest full of them I guess. 7: I don’t have a seven rn, this was an even number and it bothered me. Seven is nust my warning that I’m bittery writing this on mobile so formatting is not real but i tried my dandest to make this look like something people might actually mind. I dont want to be butty, i dont want to be awful, i dont want to start drama or have drama but that shizz comes around anyways so i might as well make my space as okay for me as i can cause im supposed to avoid stress so my brain doesnt almost explode again, like again i almost fluffing died i dont need ppl fake being my friend or anything, i want stuff to be real and clear. I want to be happy to be on here again and have fun like i used to since my health is plummetting and I’m not allowed to go outside near plants by myself anymore because i welt up. I have plants outside my work place and im surrounded by chemicals all day long I’m welted from here to new york constantly and never comfortable in my own skin because of it and constantly see people online acting like these actual real problems are pretentious because ‘its an excuse’ when, im a fluffing sagittarius, do you know how much i want to magically be a millionaire so i can pay for friends and my own medical stuff and go on traveling and adventures, be outside probably not camping bc as a pagan i know thats a death sentence but like be outside, lay on grass, go back to swimming because i used to swim competitively and due to health reasons i can barely even go in a pool anymore because theres too much sunlight which, bit plot twist i know, im fluffing allergic to vitamin D and the rays of the sun, so go figure, attempts to be healthy kill me more, i also cant eat most plants and am constantly dying from just eating food, they dont know whats wrong with me. i cant fix it by going ve/gan for a month inf act i tried and it almost made my heart stop thanks society. These arent excuses these are the lives of disabled and diseased and to a lesser but still very real point, ethnic lives every fluffing day. This is real shit and its murder and online and gaming? It may be all I have soon since I can’t just go out and make new friends cause, again, I’d fluffing die. I get sick going to the mall or the movie theater, I miss theme parks so much but have to minimize it to weeks i dont have work so i dont get fired for having a welt while working in the beauty industry. I may have to get a degree online and change my field entirely because of my illness that nobody understands. People even make fun of it constantly online and I wish I could just drop online entirely because of how unbelievably ableist the entirety of the world is, i wish i could drop humans in general for their ableism, but i cant. I don’t have choices in most cases, but throwing away people who maybe purposefully maybe unintentionally thats why i’m giving you this warning and will be repeating this warning for awhile, this is where i have choice. I have to use what little choice I have in life while I can since everytime i go to movies or a concert or a theme park i almost die because of not having an immune system that functions or being in certain air qualities pr being near plants or unclean people, I may not have much time and I gotta do whats best for what little mental health I have, and if that means dropping people i care about and really want to write with and do things with but who ignore me then, i guess so be it.

#out. #illness cw #health cw #food mention #ive been writing this since noon and its now two pm so this is great #i’s usually put this under a read more but... maybe most people dont deserve a read more rn lol #their behavior will keep being awful if its not pointed out to them so #im done im gonna go welt up from hugging my cat and cry for a bit because i feel mean

[fictionxlover]

Last of The Starks aka D&D SUCK

Be warned, I didn’t rewatch this episode because I didn’t want to (lol) but after thinking about it more I have a lot to say.

I want to touch upon the misogynistic writing in this episode because you could TELL it was written by men. We had to watch:

Sansa, a rape victim tell Sandor that being raped made her stronger.

Dany, who fought on the battlefield, not get any credit but Jon is praised for riding a dragon for 0.5 secs

Brienne, begging for Jaime to stay after he took her virginity

Varys, say MALE heir like that means shit

Misssandei, a black woman who was a slave having to get her head chopped up in chains to progress Dany’s arc.

All of these things were disgusting to watch and made NO SENSE!! 

Sansa would NEVER say that Ramsay and Joffrey made her stronger. She would say something like life is not a song, that she deserved better but she does like the new her. but also reminding the audience that didn’t have to happen to her for Sansa to become the woman she is today. 

I understand Dany being isolated from the North because she is the Dragon Queen and they want Northern Independence HOWEVER, this woman who fought on a dragon when jon wanted to wait, who picked up a sword and fought with her fellow soldier, gets NO credit??? NONE?? It’s just oh cool jon you rode a dragon dudee and burnt them all. BRO WHAT? Story wise it makes no sense too because Tormund saw Dany save them in s7. Jon isn’t the first one to do it all so....what is the truth?

Varys has always been this shady character and I know that motherfucker is a Blackfyre but him saying male heir shows he is also only considering Jon because he is male. It makes no sense too cuz well Varys has no cock lol and s5/6 he was ROOOOTING for Dany. HE was the one to push Tyrion to believe in her and for what?

You can like Missandei/Dany rl in the books/show but its problematic. I’m happy Dany saved her but Missandei still chose to work under Dany and that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Missandei is also Dany’s trusted advisor but we never see that and now Missandei, a former slave, the ONLY black woman in the show has to get her head cut off in CHAINS, her last words being Dracrys just so the audience can be like ‘dany is right to burn KL to the ground’. It’s just horrible they used a woc for that stupid trope. JESUS. 

Even if George told D&D that Dany is going to burn some shit down cuz heart in conflict with itself, villain is a hero on the other side blah blah (im tired & grrm is problematic but that’s another discussion), d&d should have wrote it better. 

Then you have Brienne cry over Jaime’s dick? REALLY? Jaime has never been on a redemption arc! A character can grow, a character can do some humane things after doing some fucked up shit but doesn’t mean they are going to turn into this shining fucking knight. I would have preferred Brienne just being angry at Jaime more than her begging him. WHY? 

Oh, I forgot, so we have this scene where Dany begs Jon to keep his identity a secret. I hate this scene on so many fucking levels. 

First off it paints Dany in a bad light imo. Dany begging Jon didn’t come off has romantic or so they can live at peace. It came off has I want the IT to myself.  And I can’t even argue with people who say it had underlying themes of toxic relationships because if the TABLES WERE REVERSED, and Jon was asking Dany to do that shit, internet would be in shambles. There would be articles EVERYWHERE about how Jon is abusing Dany adjhjkdhdjk.

 Although, I have seen people say she is protecting Jon? But...the scene didn’t come off like that. Especially since the scene before you saw her POV of seeming out of place, paranoia, jealously. Whether we like it or not D&D are planting those seeds. And I understand what Dany is saying about people will want Jon on the throne but also not telling anyone isn’t protecting Jon? 

It’s just another secret weighing on top of him like it did Ned, that would eat him inside out. And from Jon’s POV I would have understood if he was like bitch what lmaoo? Cuz you KNOW the history of Targaryens. Not saying Dany would kill Jon but if there was some scenario like no one would know the truth. And it ISNT the same how Ned kept Jon’s identity a secret because Jon would have died from Robert’s hand. So far from what I see no one wants to kill Jon cuz is a Targ. Cersei does cuz he is a Stark. 

The truth of the matter is Jon’s parentage only affects Dany negatively. If you want to view it has a tragic love story for them? Sure, but my Ravenclaw senses are still like nah keeping it STILL after Robert is dead isn’t protecting Jon. It’s protecting Dany because he is a threat to her CLAIM.

Again, if you want to be like FUCK JON SHE ASKED ONE THING FROM HIM! Sure, go for it. 

Also, I would rather Dany not get on her fucking knees and beg fucking Jon too. Are you KIDDING ME? She doesn’t need to beg Jon for shit! What has Jon done? She’s been more a True Targaryen than him, fuck Jon! But this is another thing D&D can’t write fucking conflict. They just can’t. This story between Jon and Dany should be MORE. But its not going to be. Its just going to be Dany going mad cuz she is a woman and lost her bff blah. That's it. 

Then what Sansa did was SO Littlefinger but I am going to roll my eyes when Jon is mad at her because in s7 Jon Snow couldn’t even lie to Cersei. *mimics Jon* This man told a speech to Tyrion about how lying is WRONG and just causes more drama for the realm. BUT NOW because your auntie-girlfriend asked you to keep your identity a secret, you want Sam, and the Starklings to keep it to the grave. Especially when  the secret isn’t putting him in DANGER. He also sold Dany out because before he was like YOU GOTTA PROMISE. DO YOU NOT KNOW SANSA? ONCE THE TEA SPILLED SIS KNEW DANY MOST LIKELY BEGGED U NOT TO  TELL DUMBASS! 

And now you’re going to be mad at Sansa Finger (TeflonTV made up that nickname not me lol) for PLAYING THE GAME OF THRONES, to protect Starks/North HMMM VERY INTERESTING. (im done roasting jon but s8!jon sucks sm omg-)

With Sansa this episode it isn’t even surprising she told Tyrion. She knew he would tell Varys. She wants Dany off that throne because Dany rejected Northern Independence. It’s that simple. And I know people are calling Sansa a bitch and a traitor but to me it isn’t being a traitor towards Jon, she is betraying DANY. Like people keep saying oh she betraying Jon. No, you’re not getting it. She is betraying Dany who she probably doesn’t even think she is committing treason against because she isn’t Queen of Westeros YET. 

And not to go on another fucking rant. But yall hate when Sansa was submissive and not say shit but oh now she playing the game and its affecting your favs now you’re mad?? oookay, and I have mentioned this before. If Robb was alive do you  think he would really be siding with Jon/Dany? Robb we’re not bending the knee Stark? Sansa is finishing what Robb started, she is just being cunning so the North gets what they wants/House Stark comes out on top at the end. 

And again Bran/Jon be telling the truth and I don’t hear shit. Honestly, this episode had sm problems with double standards. How they wrote the women was BAD  and how some of the audience reacting to the women is offputting too.

There are other things that make no sense but they did have a Starkbucks cup in a scene like its a Modern AU so guess this show makes no sense anymore-

#anti got #anti d&d #game of thrones #got spoilers #got #should I tag characters? #idk #I don't want drama #lmaoooooo #asoiaf #grrm wwhyyy #last of the starks

[sugarchains]

ok so im working on costumes still and im making hella progress

and just.

dealing with work

but we got our data! SO LEMME EXPLAIN. we got all the state scores over. the kids from our school and the original school we were merging with are all in the 2 range, some kids in the low threes

but the kids that they dumped on us from the other schools we werent expecting are LOW 2s and 1s. if youre a low 2 or a 1, youre pretty much not reading or doing math on grade level

and like all the 8th grade teachers were swearing we were crazy but now that we physically have the data in front of us, its like 

OH

IM NOT SEEING THINGS

but i have my homeroom and they are powering through history and i love them. like its the class i love the most. like they had to extend their activity bc they gotten into a full yelling debate over slavery and if we should get over it, and i just let them go 

it was a DELIGHT

however! work is hella and now that im a 3rd year teacher and that i got rated effective last year they expect me to do things? like leadership things??? 

like i looked at the principal in early september and was like “...i feel like you want me to actually be a leader” and he was like what gave it away

i hate everything but im TRYING

how yall want me to be a leader, let me pretend like im a bottom for a bit longer i dont want responsibility 

like ive been GOOD and i have like lessons planned up until mid next week so im ok during nycc. BUT LIKE. i still have to: grade another set of notebooks, set up groupings for all 5 of my classes, start working on differentiated assignments, double check the standards, start working on the trackers for standards, start conferencing with students, find....intervention....books....., steal like 200 sets of dividers from the cage, start working on my data binder...more lesson planning....

ANOTHER HOWEVER. one of the new teachers has called out monday and today bc she felt “overwhelemed” and i really want to feel bad but she was like there is just so much

my guy at least you have a head of math who gives you things when i started literally i was winging it 

help yourseLF. PLEASE anyway im tired 

#work things #long post for ts #long post