#it's also very angsty tbqh.

[chamaleonsoul]

Always In Spring

Rating: M Pairing: Calum Hood/Luke Hemmings Word count: 17,757 Summary: Luke and Calum’s friendship has gone through many highs and lows, and it’s so full of parallels and full-circle moments that it’s almost like the universe is set to make sure they grow, love and stay together. Spotify playlist

Written for the 5sos Friends to Lovers Fic Fest 2024!

@5sos-fic-fest

#hi friends #'tis me. i wrote another fic can u believe it #and way longer than i ever thought i'd be able to #anyway #this is actually a quite personal story. it may or may nor be based on real life events #up to a point ofc #but yk #what's fic for if not for trauma dumping am i right #it's also very angsty tbqh. #thanks so much to Hazel for organizing this!! ur a legend #op #a. fics #a. moodboards #*sighs in luke hemmings* #cal #luke hemmings #cake fic #calum hood #5sos fic #5sos fanfic #5sos friends to lovers fic fest 2024

[republictrooper]

So since I dont wanna burn myself out on coral island before the 14th, I decided I'd fill the gap in my heart by playing ANOTHER farming sim.

So I picked up My Time At Sandrock.

Now I might have to delay playing coral island anyway cuz I gotta finish helping the people of Sandrock and building my dream workshop.... oops...

Anyway, gotta decide who to marry HERE too. Top 5 initial candidates:

Owen. Beefy older guy, Salt and Pepper beard, deep voice, kind and helpful, good storyteller, and basically I want him to throw me over the bar and have his way with me but I also want to move into a nice cozy little cottage with him and be the mother of his children and listen to him tell me stories while we huddle up by the fire at night.

Fang - Tall, Quiet, and Handsome, has a funny Raven pet, not clear if he's more of a compassionate healer or a mad scientist, but I can dig it either way tbqh.

Logan - Okay, I technically haven't met him yet, but hear me out. White Haired Bishounen bad boy, possible less evil than his Wanted Posters make him out to be, likely angsty backstory? I fully reserve the right to fall head over heels with him when my builder eventually actually meets him.

Nia - Havent met her yet but I assume she eventually comes to town given I get rep when I answer her letters. Listen, I dont care what the exact gender configuration is, Childhood Friends to Lovers is one of my FAVORITE Tropes, and Nia's letters already paint such a GOOD picture of the quiet, introverted builder constantly getting dragged on escapades by Nia and I love it. I am wearing her scarf forever even if we dont actually get married at the VERY least.

Mi-an: What if we both moved to the same town together and worked side by side to revitalize it with our hard work just like we both always dreamed of doing as children even if we didnt meet until now but it feels like we've always shared this dream together.... and we were both girls?????

#my time at sandrock

[hinnyfied]

20 questions for fic writers

Thanks for the tag, @lanaturnergetup, @merlins-sequined-hotpants, and @pocket-lilacs

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 39

2. What's your total A03 words count? 86,766

3. What fandoms do you write for? Harry Potter (probably won't ever stray from that tbqh)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Free as a Bird - Al coming out to Harry (also my very first fic ever?? 🥹)

Happy Little Accidents - How James Sirius came to be

Saying Goodbye - The morning of Fred's funeral

Fight or Flight - A Harry PTSD moment through Arthur's POV

Someone to Hold On To - A Harry and Ginny fight & a tender moment between Harry and Teddy

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes!! Every comment I get makes me so happy. I always want to say thanks!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angtiest ending? Easily Dust to Dust, which is a Remus POV at James and Lily's funeral. No cheer to be found, I fear. 💔

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Honestly, a lot of my fics have moderate-to-severe fluffiness at the end, but one that is particularly feel-good and flufftastic is Two Scoops, which is a very wholesome moment between Al, Molly, and George.

8. Do you get hate on fics? nope! T god.

9. Do you write smut. If so what kind? I've dabbled in very light smut. I don't even know if it counts as smut TBH, but there's a tiny bit in You Could Have Mine (Padma/Alicia) and a little more in A Harpy's Nest (Harry/Ginny).

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Nope! It's not for me.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? I don't think so!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before? Have I before? No. Am I currently in the midst of doing so? Maybe. 😏

14. What's your all-time favourite ship? Hinny babyyyyyy

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? All my current and planned WIP are ones I'm hell-bent on finishing (psshhhh what perfectionism??)

16. What are your writing strengths? I think I write pretty natural/in character dialogue!

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Clunky descriptions (why is prose so evasive?)

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? It would be super cool! I doubt I will though.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Harry Potter

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? I don't know if I have one that stands above the rest as my single favorite, but one that comes to mind right now is Duty (Bill & Molly & Gideon & Fabian). It's hella angsty and touches on both wizarding wars.

tagging @ashesandhackles @turanga4 @celestemagnoliathewriter

#harry potter #hp fanfic #tag game

[hopetorun]

It's me again, and I'm becoming increasingly invested in this Quinn-as-Anne AU as well 😂

yes, Quinn's fam 100% thinks he's wonderful and has a ton to offer, but it's one of those situations where there are multiple family members in mini crises and when Quinn keeps insisting that he's totally fine, no need to worry about him, they don't have the bandwidth to question it too hard. Especially when he's very much an oldest sibling who's always been pretty together, always taken on a little bit extra responsibility, and he's subdued at baseline so it's hard to tell that he's pining. (And it's not like he's gonna say that he's been pining for his teenage crush for EIGHT YEARS, whose heart he broke, even, that's humiliating and wouldn't do anything for him anyway!)

Yes, them not being friends is sad, but it is a sacrifice that must be made in the name of pining. (also v much into the idea that Quinn breaks things off because he's trying to protect his siblings.)

meanwhile in much more lighthearted land, Leon is tempted, Leon is daydreaming, Leon is contriving ways to talk to Matthew and run into Matthew and when Matthew is visiting his mean and judgy aunt, show up on the same paths Matthew tells him he takes for morning strolls (and not notice that matthew is perturbed by this.) and he continues to imagine touching the curls as he sabotages Matthews' friend's relationship with Connor and composes what is sure to be a memorable marriage proposal. (I am also amused by the idea of this very differently toned romance happening in parallel to Quinn's angsty Persuasion or perhaps beforehand, so Matthew and Leon can fall into a Admiral and Mrs Croft role.)

okay sorry it took me so long to answer this i was dealing with the horrors (a job) but yes i think this is perfect. quinn probably never even told anyone that brady proposed! he just said no and brady went off to do impressive boat things for 5-8 business years and no one really thought anything of it. they assumed everything's peachy with brady and quinn and it very much is not.

cackling at matthew and leon as admiral and mrs croft tbqh. inspired.

#ask maggie

[foreverydinger]

Write your RPer Resolutions for 2023! (What are some goals for yourself as a writer? Improve descriptions? Plot with more members? Etc.)

Write at least one resolution, or “goal,” that you have as an RPer for your character(s):

I would love to buckle down and get more done with their actual hardcore plots. 2022 was really not my year when it came to writing what with the changes in my job/health/life/universe tbqh and I’d love for me to just sit down and focus on the parts of these characters that I’ve promised not only to my fellow writers but myself as well!

Write at least one resolution IN CHARACTER for your characters. What do THEY want to accomplish or change in the New Year?

Tony: This year my New Years Resolution is not only to survive but thrive. I want to not fall into the pit that I always do in the spring. Ian remembered, Ian knows me better than I know myself at times, and I need to stay hopeful that our life and our love is strong enough to keep ourselves safe.

Riley: My New Years Resolution is to involve myself more fully into this community outside of the sports arena (okay, maybe it’ll still be sports-related but I wanna branch out dangit!)

Martin: New Years Resolution: Learn a new skill and stick with it!

Taran: Make more friends that are my friends.

List one or more characters you have never interacted with that you would like to do so:

Man, there are so many characters I wanna interact with (and I’m gonna touch on this more in my vocaroo answers) but a few off the top of my head are Boo, Kristoff, Barbie, Howl, Mads, Jeremy, etc. I could go on (and I definitely will) but this RP is so full of such interesting characters and I’m so excited about all the possibilities!

Talk a bit about your plotting style – what plots are you most drawn to? Do you prefer to come with a fully-formed idea and plot off that, or throw stuff at the wall and see what sticks?

So I have a complicated relationship with plotting. I’m almost never the person that will approach you with a very fleshed out plot. I more so go off of vibes and want to see how our kids interact before setting anything else in stone. But, at the same time, I always love when people approach me about things that are more fleshed out?? Because other people in this group are just so clever and creative and I’m just always a mess for plots and grateful to be involved.

I do tend toward a good angsty plot, even when it’s meant to be cute. I think everyone who plots with me is used to me being a downer and an enabler.

Talk a bit about character relationships – what relationship are you most drawn to? How do you prefer to approach shipping (if at all!)? What, specifically, are you looking for right now for your character relationships?

I’m such a sucker for a cute ship. They’re almost always accidental (Tian & Mighty especially have been complete accidents and I wish I could express just how accidental these were) but the thing that matters most to me is chemistry and trajectory. Are these characters going in a similar direction? How do their desires move forward? How do they push one another and/or get in the other’s way? I feel like right now I’d love to see more butting of heads with my characters outside of what I’ve already established because they need to be pushed more by non-NPCs lol

Talk about your dash reply style and your Discord reply style! (And if applicable, also your doc reply style). What do you like about each type of interaction? What is something you feel is difficult?

I feel like my main struggle with Dash vs Discord vs Doc is that I never know what order to reply to things in! I just get overwhelmed by what should be prioritized but that’s my biggest weakness.

Dash: I feel like I try to do either as much as I can in longer-type threads but in my gif replies it’s All Vibes Baby!! I just try to really read what sort of interactions my characters are having.

Discord: These tend to be much shorter (unless Z is involved, they always make me write more lol) and much more dialogue focused. These are more event type threads where I can devote more of my attention to a lot of different things.

Docs: I usually reserve these for either more specific plot type threads or threads that I can reply to on the go. I can reply to my docs on my phone which is harder for Discord/Dash for me. These threads are always so near and dear to my heart in a way that is very different but not necessarily more so than my other threads!

Plotting Exercise! Pick one of the resolutions/goals in #3 and plan a rough guideline to how you could accomplish it:

OPERATION: MAKE MY OWN FRIENDS!

TARAN will find someone that he is fairly confident is not in EILONWY’s group of friends (i.e. BOO) and try to approach during an activity that they feel confident in (i.e. drinking probably) (Event probably)

TARAN will invite JEREMY over to the park to do winter activities and hopefully HEN WEN will be able to keep SUSIE busy so the guys can have Bro Time! (Para)

BARBIE might notice that there’s something a little different about HEN WEN if TARAN isn’t subtle enough about her divinatory powers and he will have to befriend/convince her to not share this information with anyone else (Para)

BARBIE could involve the RAS resources in order to help TARAN more successfully keep his own secrets (Para)

EILONWY could notice TARAN becoming slightly more distant and then the the two of them could discuss where the lines really are for what constitutes making his own friends (Doc/Dash Para)

TARAN, EILONWY, and perhaps EDWARD could then have a movie night (because it would be fun) (Discord Thread)

#swyntask #[ resolutions ]

[ohnomybreadsticks]

Ao3 WIP Tag Game!

I was tagged by @itshype - thank you for including me in your tag list <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 160! Which is an absolutely wild number to think about, tbqh

2. What's your AO3 word count? 917,682, although some of those aren't mine due to some of my longest works being shared RPs I posted

3. What fandoms do you write for? I have works mostly posted for Detroit: Become Human and the Witcher Netflix, but I've written a few for others, like Transistor and LotR. And now I have 2 that are original works!

4. What are your Top 5 Fics by Kudos?

Starting with most kudos:

1) More Than Enough (Witcher, E)

2) Alike in Both the Heart and Mind (DBH, E)

3) What's It Going to Take for You to Feel Good? (DBH, E)

4) Too Tired to Ask, but Not to Receive (Witcher)

5) In Which Gavin Learns to Love an Elder God (DBH)

shocker lmao, almost all of these prominently feature smutty sections!

5. Do you respond to comments? Always! If a reader has made a comment, I'll make sure to reply, even if it's just to say 'thank you' :) It just might take me a while to get to it sometimes

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? There Are No Atheists in Foxholes (DBH, E)! Can't get much more angsty than MCD lmao (altho does it count if he comes back in like 300 years?)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I am a fluffy gal usually lmao, almost all of my fics have happy sappy endings!

8. Do you get hate on fics? Thankfully no, I've never gotten any hate on my fics. Very grateful for that, but I'm very much not afraid of the block button.

9. Do you write smut? LOL I've written my fair share. I've got 41 E rated fics on AO3, and 17 M rated fics, so that's a decent amount of the spice. Lately though I haven't been feeling that vibe as much, so much so that the last bit of smut I wrote was quite difficult!

10. Do you write cross-overs? Mmmmmm not sure if I've written a traditional crossover, where characters from both franchises interacted... But I popped some Witcher characters into a LotR setting, and some DBH characters into a Witcher setting at some point!

11. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope, but I've had podfic made of my fic, which was incredibly flattering <3

12. Have you ever cowritten a fic before? Yep, several times.

13. What is a WIP you would like to finish but doubt you ever will? Mmmm...I don't tend to abandon WIPs, even if it takes me a long time to return. The few chaptered fics that are 'unfinished' on AO3 are the only ones I'll never return to

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship? I could never pick while I was in the trenches lmao, and now that I've been kind of out of my fandoms for a while I don't have an opinion either XD

15. What are you writing strengths? Folks always tell me my descriptions are engaging, which makes me happy because that's something I work very hard on. I hope my characters and their relationships are a strength as well

16. What are your writing weaknesses? Probably niche-ness lmao. I love to create a hyper-specific scenario that only I enjoy, so it doesn't reach any kind of audience. I also know I'm very bad at writing action sequences, which is why I never write them lmao

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I'm not a fan, tbh. Unless it's a language you're really familiar with, the chances of getting it wrong are too high. And the clunkiness of putting it in the fic makes it...oof.

18. First fandom you wrote for? For my own sanity I'll pass on this one lmao. My first AO3 fic was most certainly DBH

19. Favourite fic you’ve ever written? Also hard to choose...Privately I'm very fond of Let Me In (i'll be good to you, i swear) - any of my prairie-based fics hold a special place in my heart

20. What fic would you want to rewrite one day? Hard question - right now I'd have to say none! I'm very much a 'when it's done it's done' girlie

Tagging: @catoeirienind @sinclairsolutions but no pressure <3

#bready blabs #tag game

[sage-nebula]

Each of my romances in the three Dragon Age games has been like:

Lyra Mahariel/Zevran Aranai: Decided to use sex as a distraction from trauma, caught feelings by accident

Briar Hawke/Isabela: Heard “be gay, do crimes” and took it very literally

Devana Lavellan/Josephine Montilyet: Oblivious lesbians having their first real romance

#i like that all 3 have had very different flavors tbh. it fits w/ the different personalities of all 3 #Lyra & Zevran are both traumatized in different ways + are keenly aware how close to death they are at all times so they're like #''nothing matters! let's just work out restless energy + distract ourselves!'' #and then they caught feelings & were like ''well fuck (and not the fun kind)'' #(but kind of went w/ it bc it was the end of the world so like . . . why not right) #Briar & Isabela had instant attraction & chemistry & both use sass & humor to deflect things so they also got along great on that front too #+ both being rogues + both being criminals etc etc just a ton of things in common tbqh #the feelings came along organically & though Briar was the first to admit it to both herself & Isabela she also never pushed #bc she was fine with just seeing how each day unfolded (esp since wild shit happened every other day so. why try to plan) #so they just kind of live in the moment & the chaos & go w/ with it. with feelings involved despite Isabela's best efforts #and then Devana & Josie are just . . . hopeless. literally took Leliana intervening to get them to go anyway smdh #Devana at least has never had a romance before ever & honestly despite Josephine's fury at Leliana saying she's innocent in love #I'm pretty sure the same goes for her. she is oblivious too. but since it's a first romance they are so sweet & soft & fluffy #just cuddles and handholding & kisses for the time being. feels scandalous even though it is anything but #so in a way it went from like - most angsty (Lyra/Zev) - balanced (Briar/Bela) - fluffy (Devana/Josie) #something for everyone tbh #dragon age

[onbeinganangel]

we're now more than halfway through 25 days so i thought it would be the ideal time to come in with the most unhinged rec list you'll ever see. ever wanted fic rec'd to you like a shitty 3am infomercial? well, your very niche weird wish has come true! so, in the random order they're open on my phone:

Haven by bluefay/@thesleepiesthufflepuff — cosy vibes but with an underlying mystery!! delicious forced proximity but not of the super angsty type! proper winter mood, it’s all very lovely and domestic but actually the ministry is corrupt AF and they gotta sort it! how fun for everyone!

Desperately Seeking… @maesterchill— sharp, witty, clever, [just insert that lady gaga gif here tbh], the multiple POVs are to die for, also I am so very truly thirsty for this Draco and we have met him like twice???? help

Find It (In the First Place) by @the-starryknight — starry eats your heart in front of you and you like it? spicy but it hurts, a little bit like a vindaloo? idk, like, 10/10 would recommend to anyone with strong masochistic tendencies

Harry’s Christmas Carol by @gnarf — i thought the muppets had the ultimate christmas carol adaptation but gnarf may just take the cake. do you love a sad harry? like properly properly sad? also will the memory of dobby or sirius hurt you like it does me? yeah you should read it

Kaleidoscope by saras_girl — it’s saras_girl? duh? fun side companions, harry’s house is a bit wild, they spend a lot of time together (like a lot a lot and it’s glorious), PINING! SO MUCH PINING

the call of sweet things by @softlystarstruck— look i would like bee to write my obituary one day tbqh. harry has pink hair! draco works in a stationery shop!! there’s… cat music? truly deeply insanely christmassy and it makes my heart happy

A Melody of You and Me by @academicdisaster24 — draco is lovely, his ex is a twat, harry NEEDS LOVE (mostly he needs to accept that he needs love and take the love he’s given, the stubborn bastard) they sing!!!! (actually the playlist to this is glorious, god bless). every side character is brilliant (lavender brown, my love) and this will make you shout ‘JUST KISS’ at these idiots like… many times

twenty five days by @babooshkart (see this is where you decide if it’s eight or seven idc) — *opens window and lets out one long scream* INTIMACY!!!!! (that’s it tbh that’s the rec. boo has made me cry every day of this advent and for that I am deeply grateful)

as well as the ones above, there are currently over 50 fics in @slythindor100's 25 Days of Draco and Harry collection on ao3 so if you're looking to gorge yourself on beautiful christmassy fic ('tis the season), you know where to go

#drarry #drarry fic rec #advent fics 2021 #this is me wishing i had the time to embroider for all of these wonderful fics #while i am in fact still stitching november birthday hoops #RIP my fingers #so yeah #unhinged rec will have to do for now #:( #m babbles

[prinxlyart]

God bless ya for providing your perfect takes on Willumity! If anyone hasn't beaten me to it, I would like to ask your headcanon on how their relationship would start, and how do you think thwir children would be! Oh, and on another ship, how you think Boschlow would unfold?

My heart is too full for this, I need to dump it all out into this post

Hmmm, their relationship could start any number of ways. I don’t have a favorite that I can pull from my imagination. My sad angsty polyamorous heart wants there to be a lot of sad tension between all of them (Willow is upset because she can clearly see that Luz and Amity like each other, why would either of them pay attention to her?? // Amity is upset because Luz was able to befriend Willow so easily and so quickly and they were immediately affectionate with one another on the first day they met. They deserve to be happy together without Amity ruining it or having her overbearing last name hanging over them. // Luz is upset because she’s helped Willow and Amity rekindle their broken friendship and watched it blossom into potentially something more?? She’s so scared she’s going to be left behind again. She’s had friends in the past that ditched her once they became closer to one another. Luz is downright terrified that it’s going to happen again. ) [projecting?????? Whose projecting I’m not projecting]

I feel like if anything, the dam would break what with all these unresolved romantic feelings bearing down on them all. I don’t know who would break first, but whoever she broke in front of would let her know she needs to speak to the other two about it ASAP. Because if worse comes to worst, they’ll gently reject you and insist you all remain friends. None of them would break off their friendships with one another due to unreciprocated feelings.

Once they do sit down and confess their feelings for one another they all just. Start crying in utter relief. They don’t have to lose anyone, and even better, they like me back.

RE: Kids? I have no idea. I’ve never been one for fan kids much, I usually leave that to others and appreciate it when someone makes one I actually like. I think the only thoughts I’d have on them having kids would be that these three would be the Most Supportive Parents in the world with an even more supportive network of grandparents. Like. Any kids they have will be adored so much they might accidentally smother the poor thing(s).

I feel like Luz and Willow would insist they have more than one kid (if they do decide to have kids). Neither of them have siblings and grew up rather lonely as a result. They don’t want that for any kids they might raise. Amity is only a little reluctant to agree because she grew up with Edric and Emira, but ultimately agrees with her wives that that would be best.

Oh, and family gatherings at holidays would be so fucking chaotic oh my god. They either need to enlist the help of someone in the construction coven to expand a portion of their house or consider renting out a public space if they all say they’re going to come because there’s just so many people. Absolute Chaos. Luz adores the family gatherings because she always wanted to be part of a big family and now she is.

They tend to stress Amity out only because of the amount of planning and cooking to be done, but ultimately ends up enjoying herself (it’s still weird to see her parents attend these gatherings and playing with her children and wait- did dad just sneak her some of the dessert?!?! UGH, she’ll be awake for hours thanks dad).

Willow also loves the family gatherings but gets easily overwhelmed by the amount of people in attendance. She’s the one that would go one by one with everyone that came and just spend some time with them, catching up until the conversation naturally flows to the next person. She has now idea how Luz can ping pong off the walls with the energy she does, but she’s always admired that about Luz. It also tickles her heart and makes her feel warm and fuzzy inside whenever Luz’s pinballing ends up aimed at her because Luz will always put both hands on Willow’s shoulders, give her a kiss on the cheek and check in with her. Once they’ve confirmed they’re both doing okay, Luz will kiss her cheek again and kinda nuzzle their heads together before she’s off to talk with someone else. Luz does the same thing with Amity and even still after all these years, it reduces Amity to a blushing mess. Anyone around that witnesses it either coos at how cute they are or gags at the display of affection (take your pick at who lol).

You can’t just ask me to switch gears right in the middle of domestic fluff and just rewind way back to potential Boschlow stuff oh man. Let’s see....I personally am a huge proponent of Boscha getting her act together, not related to her feelings for anyone, before she tries to pursue Willow. Whether or not Willow is part of the process of her changing for the better can be up to you. But Boscha has a lot of stuff she needs to sort out before I let her anywhere near my plant daughter Willow.

I actually follow a couple fics dedicated to exactly that. Jackal’s Ladder was REALLY good and has finished! Idk if the author is going to continue it as a series but I’ve got my fingers crossed 🤞. The New Normal is another favorite of mine. It really looks into what bothers Boscha and makes her the bully she is, tears it all down, and makes her build herself back up. And she’s not doing it to please anyone. She’s just doing it for herself. (But then there’s tiny hints of Boschlow on the horizon that I’m super eager for).

All in all, I think Boscha is an interesting character and could have a great relationship with Willow; she just needs to get her shit together first. Idk how it would happen tbqh, but maybe Willow sees how hard Boscha is trying at being a better person? Maybe she sees Boscha doing something genuinely kind to someone else like helping an elderly witch at the market? Idk, something soft like Amity reading to kids that proves that she’s actually doing this “being better” thing for herself and not for an audience that she’s trying to fool. I think at that point Willow genuinely believes Boscha is trying and is encouraging her in her efforts, even going as far as extending an olive branch so they can try being friends. Willow’s curious about the person Boscha is when she’s not a bully. And now that she knows for certain that she’s not lying or doing this for some kind of cookie points, she’s willing to put in the effort.

I think it’d be very fun to watch Willow realize Boscha has a crush on her and then use that to flirt with her mercilessly. Because she does kinda sorta reciprocate those feelings?? But she’s still not certain of them yet. And it’s so much fun to watch Boscha turn the same color as her hair. So until she sorts out those feelings, she’s just gonna flirt relentlessly with her until something changes.

#prinxly inquiries #wam-hope #the owl house #willumity #boschlow #hot diggety this turned into another long one

[roughentumble]

I'm almost afraid to ask...

What are your werewolf au ideas?

GSHBDKSND oh its not horny or anything its just like. kind of angsty, but like, in that way where sometimes angsty daydreams are fun, you know?? like

ok its like a geraskier thing cuz im a one trick pony, but basically geralt gets cursed, three nights a month he goes all wolfy. he's an intelligent werewolf with pretty great self control, BUT he's like, ridiculously worried that he's gonna snap and hurt people. (he's not, but, you know, he's had to put down werewolves for that before, and he's not a man with a lot of faith in himself, So.)

uhhhh i cant remember how jaskier finds out tbqh, but after traveling together a while, it comes to light, and jaskier is of course very "its just you, im not scared, and im not judging you." they hang out, they figure things out, and geralt starts to relax.

so all the time he's been cursed, he hasnt gone back to kaer morhen-- its only been a year or two, but still. he feels like they'd know right away, he's worried they'd just put him down, he doesnt think they should get used to "monsters in the keep", he just feels Real Bad about it, but jaskier convinces him that this is his family, they'd understand, and they must miss him.

geralt agrees, eventually, goes up to kaer morhen with jaskier in tow.

but once they get there, he just... totally refuses to explain anything. none of the other witchers have sussed out that something's wrong(other than jaskier's hushed whispering about how geralt should "just tell them, they'd understand")

geralt's genius solution is, he'll just sleep outside three nights a month, he'll bring blankets and his fur will protect him. jaskier doesnt like it, but he's not about to tell geralt's secret, and he cant bodily drag a werewolf inside, so. his only condition is that he gets to sit outside with geralt for a bit, cuddle with him n' such. their excuse is that theyre gross love birds who are going out for moonlight picnics. everyone buys this, partially because its sort of true, partially cuz no one wants to walk in(or out) on them fucking.

it actually works the first trio of nights, to jaskier's surprise, but the 4th night they try they arent so lucky-- they forget something inside(a bottle of wine, a blanket, who knows) and eskel is like "i'll fall on my sword, be the one to bring it out to the happy couple". he steps outside, and what does he see?

a gigantic werewolf pinning jaskier to the ground.

bit of a frenzy after that, eskel attacking and shouting for backup, trying to keep the werewolf in sight while also looking for geralt, getting between the monster and jaskier while jaskier shouts-- eventually jaskier gets through to him though. thats geralt, dont hurt him, its geralt.

geralt isnt saying anything though(despite the fact he's perfectly capable of it, even transformed), and eskel sortve misunderstands. doesnt really get that this has been a long-term affliction, and assumes this is the first transformation. so with geralt not responding, eskel says "not right now it isnt," and gets his hands on one of the training blades they keep in the courtyard.

more chaos-- everyone's outside now, jaskier is absolutely not having any of it but also three grown witchers versus one bard isnt much of a fight, no one's listening to him, and geralt's just pinning himself against the wall like a prey animal and not saying anything.

jaskier proves just enough of a distraction that geralt manages to hop a wall, takes off into the woods. jaskier is calling after him, while the three remaining witchers each make a gameplan(STILL not listening to jask). after a moment, jaskier darts and weaves and makes it just out of their grasp, so they've got a werewolf AND a bard loose in the woods in the dead of both night and winter, which. Bad.

eskel goes after geralt, vesemir stays behind because they need someone in the keep, and lambert's on bard wrangling duty. lambert doesnt have much trouble finding jaskier, but he does have trouble keeping a hold on him, because he's worried about breaking his tiny human limbs(and also he's wearing a lot of thick layers, which he has no compunctions about ripping to shreds to get out of lambert's grip.) he loses a boot and a sleeve to the ongoing tussle, as he keeps slipping out and darting away. lambert even tries axii, but the biggest trick to getting out of axii is just training a lot to resist it, so geralt and him'd run through that a long time ago, so his response is to go fake-limp, then kick lambert in the dick and run off into the night with one shoe.

lambert is extremely annoyed. its not jaskier's best plan.

he finds the cave that geralt had backed himself into by some miracle, and also because eskel'd made no efforts to hide his tracks and there are currently shouts coming from the cave. jaskier gets himself inbetween the two of them and refuses to budge. geralt's still pulling the silent routine, ears pinned back, looking like a kicked dog, and eskel's trying to coax jaskier away from the "monster".

lambert comes bursting in as well, pissed and sore, but stays near the entrance, the four of them locked in a sort of stalemate. the three of them argue about what to do, but jaskier is shivering because of his wrecked coat. eventually geralt breaks his silence to rumble out a worried "yourrr fingerrrs..."

(werewolves roll their 'r's in tw3. dont ask me why, just go with it.)

eskel and lambert are stunned into silence, and jaskier is immediately turning towards geralt, letting him fret and dote on him. slips his arm inside his jacket so his fingers dont fall off-- lets geralt wrap a giant, warm paw around his foot to get some heat back into it.

lambert's like "wait, so you CAN fucking talk?????"

it all got escalated way out of hand, partially because of eskel's reaction, but also because geralt was too ashamed to stand up for himself-- thought maybe they were a little bit right. was basically just going to curl up and let it happen, which he admits with some gentle prodding, and leaves eskel looking sick.

jaskier, though, is absolutely nuclear levels of pissed, because he was explaining everything, even how he'd known for months, and that geralt was perfectly safe to be around, but all the non werewolf witchers were just tuning him out. and geralt nearly died because of it. so he's, like-- he's unspeakably angry at all three of them.

eventually, they do all four make their way back to the keep(geralt carrying jaskier cuz he's still missing a boot), and explain everything one more time for vesemir. everyone looks pretty ragged, because it was a lot of drama very suddenly late at night.

geralt still hesitates in the doorway of the main hall, says he'll make the keep smell like monsters, that it's dangerous, but jaskier just gently encourages him inside and they curl up together in front of the hearth, nice and warm.

from there its little bits and pieces of geralt showing his werewolfy-er side, like dragging in a deer one night to devour raw by the fire. (he looks bashful about it, but jaskier insists its a part of their routine on the road, helps geralt clean his muzzle afterword.) and jaskier slowly encouraging geralt to relax, come deeper into the keep, curl up in a real bed.

jaskier gets less mad, but never quite gets over the fact that geralt's family proved his fears right. geralt gets less ashamed, but never fully sheds his anxieties about being allowed inside. everyone else gets less tense, but never quite sheds the shame of nearly killing their brother in arms while he was fully cognizant-- or quite comfortable with a "monster in the keep". it's still their first winter, tho, so with any luck things will someday get smoothed out.

[the porny ending is that geralt knots all three of them and this wildly smooths over any remaining tensions, but thats just a little fun off-shoot, not the Official Daydream Ending]

#witcher tag #ogc tag #ummmmm im trying to think of further details but these are the broad strokes #its self indulgent a little overly angsty and has some back-and-forth issues #but /i/ enjoy it a lot i can like. visualize it in my brain very clearly #mmmm i think i couldve worded this better because usually my daydream starts at them at kaer morhen #and then goes on to have jaskier reveal the backstory #in a way i think is slightly better than ive worded it here #but ive spent long enough on this reply that i dont want to entirley rewrite it #EDIT:: added a new sentence that was meant to be there but i straight up forgot to type it out last night. whoops #highlighted in blue. if it looks/reads worse with the new shit hmu and i'll toss it. couldnt decide if i liked the idea of changing it sooo #cut removed & post reblogged cuz fuck it i make long posts sometimes and also u asked so now u have to look at my angsty werewolf daydream! #XP

[faejilly]

Replies to “Reticence”

@janoda said:

I love this so much!!! My heart ached!

#LIGHTWOOD FAMILY FEELS FOREVER

/Persuasion feels forever too, tbqh, tho this bit is obviously not much of an Elliot cognate. Perhaps it fits, though, for how Lady Russell felt about Anne’s father and sister in comparison to her mother?

@princess-shepherdess said:

Malec and Persuasion fusion are the match made in heaven tbh. Second chances! Two people in love finding their way back to each other! YES GOOD MORE OF THAT!! Alec as Anne Elliott is a delight. Maryse as Lady Russell is also an interesting choice because I’ve got so many conflicting feelings about both of them.

I’m also intrigued by Magnus in this universe and maybe a little bit worried; ngl I’ve never been very fond of Captain Wentworth  

I really quite like Lady Russell because she does mean well, she loves Anne with all her heart and she truly thought she was helping. (She wasn’t, obviously, but there’s a reason Anne never thinks there’s even anything to forgive, though obviously Frederick had some different opinions there.)

And yes! Anne is my favorite for many of the same reasons Alec is, perception and self-worth and external validation issues that are so related... though she’s not quite as salty 😅

I’m not sure what to do with the second half of that because I love Wentworth beyond rhyme or reason? If it helps, you can do a correlation with their temper; Magnus is quite capable of being vengefully petty after all, and Wentworth refuses to see Anne how she is when they meet again in the future, largely because he’s still holding on to how much Anne hurt him.

/the fact that she hurt herself more is not a thing he would have any way of knowing, really, though perhaps it should have been obvious to anyone who knew her well. But he perhaps didn’t know her as well as he thought? It was not a terribly long romance, the first time ‘round.

and @sharona1x2, I saw those lovely tags, I can rant about Magnus & Persuasion forever and ever feel free to ask any time *laughs*

(and wow I’m behind on my replies, this uh. keeps going. for awhile. sorry?)

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@leahazel said:

Augh my HEART. After doing de Vega’s romance and then going back and seeing him at his worst, it was so PAINFUL. I love this.

agony.gif

(thank you)

@teaandinanity said:

Your answer for knight and prince(ss) filled me with squishy feelings, just - not being able to cross lines because he knows he’ll have to meet her eyes the next day? That SO PERFECTLY SUMS UP the beauty of that route and I think I have to replay now.

whoo! I AM ALWAYS HAPPY TO BE BLAMED FOR REPLAYS

/and also agony, see above *laughs*

Replies to “F, I, and/or L?”

@shadoedseptmbr said:

:D:D:D:D i asked because I *KNOW* you’re a dialogue addict and I adore you for it! *evilgrin* Butoh, that’s perfect.  Joker as a screwball comedy hero, I love it. <3

I mean, I can see him dangling off a dinosaur skeleton and swearing? That seems entirely in character :D (Or trying to hide a torn dress with his fancy hat. Basically, apparently, I need to watch Bringing Up, Baby again. As Always.)

Replies to “F, Q, and R”

@tarysande said:

I did not ask for these Feelings, jilly ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

WELL YOU CAN HAVE THEM ANYWAY, SORRY NOT SORRY 🥰

@jadesabre301 said:

JILLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :O :O :O :O :O :O :O AUGH <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

ilu2 😘

Replies to WIP GAME

@stillwaitingformagic said:

Can I just say, I’m sold on your Wing!fic wip? Like if you end up finishing and posting it, I will definitely read this. The idea of Alec’s wings flirting with Magnus with a s1 Alec attached to them is pure gold. I think the idea or fake-hating is interesting 🧐it’s a nice twist. Also… don’t mind if I go check out your Mer-curse series 💨

WHY THANK YOU ON ALL COUNTS!

And yes, I love the idea of wing!fic, I’m glad other people do too, I’m just bad at actually writing atm. 😅😭😐🤷🏻‍♀️

@la-muerta said:

I would read demon!Magnus contemplating priest!Alec’s feelings/thoughts/beliefs on faith!                      

YAY. I am enjoying it, I just have no idea where I’m going if it’s no longer slightly heretical smut in front of the angel stained glass 🤣

Replies to “Anonymous asked: wip meme :)”

@angelrtsy95 said:

oh i just made an absolutely inhuman sound at the last paragraph of the amnesia!fic section…. I want to read so much more of that

to be clear all of them sound amazing, i just especially love the /angst/ 

awww, thank you (istg, that’s not even that angsty? In comparison? I mean. It’s a sequel to the “he died” after all.)

#jilly replies #princess-shepherdess #angelrtsy95 #la-muerta #stillwaitingformagic #jadesabre301 #tarysande #shadoedseptmbr #teaandinanity #leahazel #janoda

[captainderyn]

5 Writer Questions

Thank you for the tag @elveny <3 I’ve been particularly bad about fandom participation lately with all that’s going on, but I want to get back into it~

I’ll leave the tag open on this one!

1. Do you have a favorite character to write? Who and why?

Obviously I love writing my own characters--that’s a given. I think out of my fandom characters Wulfwryn or Raenor are my favorites to write, something about the two of them either separate or alone just hits different. 

Original character wise, The Queen is probably my favorite, just because she’s so damn regal while still having a bit of wit about her. 

And canon character wise I am such a sucker for writing Alistair. Let me write my soft, humorous boy any day please. 

2. Do you have a favorite trope to write? Or one you want to write?

I love writing angsty tropes lol, more specifically highly emotionally charged moments that end up working out. There’s just something about writing angst that I just live for. 

I also love writing really soft romances. On the entire flipside. 

3. Share your favorite description you’ve written?

“Set the basket down if you’d like.” her queen’s voice broke through her skittering thoughts. Her voice was like a melody, a siren’s song to lay her duties and all the lessons of her teachers’ aside.  “The water feels divine.”

“I–” Sparrow’s breath hitched, her thoughts scattering entirely as her Queen brushed long strands of hair from her neck, working at the encircling clasp of her dress. The fabric fell, catching around her waist. Ancients around, grant her strength. “My queen?”

With careful fingers the breeze stirred across the water, lifting the gauzy veil just enough so that Sparrow saw the corner of a forbidden smile. The Queen turned to look at her, hair shifting over her shoulders in a shining curtain. “I’m not going to ruin my dress for a swim.”

Her queen had always been so bold, so unabashed. Sparrow knew that she should look away as her queen shimmied the fabric from her waist, letting it pool in shimmering pale blues and purples. The cuffs shaped like soft petals slid from her arms and wrists.

This description of the Queen is one of my favorites, as well as the scene setting that comes just before it tbqh. 

All around the forest hummed with life. Though night had fallen, turning the shadows to inky black and the sky a dark blue with the bright pinpricks of stars, the forest had not died with the setting sun.

Water whispered across stone, singing a sweet song. Above, branches hung with moss tangled together and draped low across the pond. Fireflies flickered over the water.

The water was beautiful, running crystalline and blue enough to see the depths beneath like it was under glass. Moonlight created a silver path like a stripe across the simmering surface.

No matter how beautiful the water was, Sparrow’s eyes couldn’t help but stray to her queen, who walked in front of her to the water’s edge. Her bare toes touched the water, sending ripples skirting across the surface. It dampened the hem of her gown, darkening the sheer fabric.

The Moon, cruel was She in her meddling, left little to the imagination as Her light drifted down to snake around her queen’s silhouette. Sparrow could feel heat creeping up her face, burning like stoked flame when her queen turned to look at her.

4. Share your favorite dialogue you’ve written?

“No, you won’t.” Her voice dripped with misery and truly, what did she believe that made her sound that way? She was shaking her head at him when he found himself unable to keep from looking back, her brows drawn tight together, expression bitter. “You won’t come back from her. I know you won’t, the grief will take you, easy as any sword.”

“Enough,” Emotion was starting to build in him, he could feel the pressure behind his eyes. “Please, you have to trust me.”

But she was merciless, unrelenting as the ocean waves on stone. “You’ve already almost lost her once! What keeps it from happening again? From truly happening? What will you do then? Hm? Look at me and tell me you’ll come back.”

“I came back!” he snapped. He hadn’t wanted to, but he did. He had ridden back down the banks of the Ford, crossed into the protection of Rivendell at Wulfwryn’s insistence.

“Fine,” Nárissë snapped in return, “What about when she grows old while you don’t?”

“Stop.” A warning note took up in his voice. He’d already thought about this, he’d already lived through enough contingencies in the shelter of his own mind.

“When she starts to wither away and you can do nothing but watch?”

“Nárissë enough.”

Nárissë refused to give, her voice almost pleading with him now to understand something. “When old age takes her mind first, erasing you, and then finally her body? When you’re left alone here?”

“Enough!” his shout rang loud enough to spook the horse next to him and he forced his voice to soften, though there was still a growling edge until finally it tripped and shattered on his last word. “I’ve heard enough.”

This scene from chapter 28 of Moments In Time...I’m very attached to this particular set of dialogue lol. 

5. Scene you haven’t written, but want to?

This fricken sex scene between Wulf and Raenor of all things xD It revolves entirely around how they first met and the initial spark felt between them and I’d really like to share it. If I could just stop getting so embarrassed while writing it lmao. 

#captainderyn memes #writers questions

[fialleril]

replies to the DAV Mara snippet

Instead of reblogging that post endlessly, thought I’d collect my replies here.

@bookwyrmie said: I remember the ask about including Mara in the DAV AU, looks like that turned into yet another thing that was not going to be written and then happened anyway.

Is there anyone that Anakin hasn’t adopted yet? There is the Free Droid Network with Kaydee and friends, the nicer imperial officers and the OBV-Squad, Leia once she becomes a senator, and he is probably keeping an eye on Pooja as well. Now here is a young force-sensitive child, who desperately needs someone to help her learn how to be a person without alerting the Inquisitors. Guess it’s about time he adopted an actual child as well.

Ha ha yeah, I was just waiting for someone to comment about that lol. It’s true I once said I wasn’t going to write Mara in DAV, but three things happened to change that:

1. I promised @astudyinimagination a pick-me-up fic and I knew Sky really wanted a fic about Mara. So I was damn well gonna write one! (The moral here is that you should always make friends with your writers, because then we will happily write you things by request!)

2. I’d been thinking for a while that I needed to somehow address the question of what happened to a Force sensitive kid who was picked up by the Inquisitors before Anakin became a double agent.

3. I’ve said a couple of times that I’ve always liked the concept of Mara, but I’ve always hesitated to write her because I dislike and discard the vast majority of Expanded Universe material and I didn’t particularly want to deal with the inevitable hate I’d get if I wrote my own version of Mara, since she’d essentially be an OC. But eventually I just decided that I get enough hate for not using EU canon anyway, so I might as well just fully embrace my multiverse theory of Star Wars canon and do what I want.

So there you have it! :)

@aeneasoftroy said:# DAV Anakin is a mix of mysterious old wizard and troll dad humor  # and it suits him so well

This is one of my favorite things about writing OT Anakin. Not that he can’t be a troll in PT AUs, too, but just...there’s a kind of settledness to his character in the OT, partly a result of everything he’s lived through but also partly just because of the fact that he’s older now. Though there’s also a bit of tragedy to the fact that he can and absolutely does carry off the Mysterious Old Wizard trope in a fic in which he is (although Mara doesn’t know it) only 32 years old.

@hyratel said: #I am Nobody is CLASSIC   #and delivered perfectly

It is indeed classical. ;)

@elf-kid2 said: This is beautiful and excellent and fantastic, and I love it. Thank You for writing this. 

Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed it.

@katharkness said: I like this very much, and would love to see it added to the Double Agent Vader series. I also wouldn’t worry too much about your Mara not fitting with the Legends Mara, because everything the rebooted EU has added, the Inquisitors and such, doesn’t really fit with the original Legends Mara. I suppose this is more like a rebooted Mara.

Thanks! I’m not so much worried about Legends canon, though, since I never am lol. I’m more worried about people who do like and care about Legends being unhappy with the ways I’m...basically beating up the EU in a back alley and rifling through its pockets for loose change. But you make a good point about this take actually kind of working as a rebooted Mara!

I mean, tbqh I actually don’t think the Inquisitors fit in with film canon at all. But I’m working on the multiverse theory here, and they do work really well with the story I’m telling in DAV, so I’ve basically borrowed them from Filoni ‘verse and created my own canon. So I suppose borrowing Mara isn’t a step much further.

@shadaras said: I always forget how much I love Mara as a character  she's the best EU character and so much of that is because her arc is just   'I was brainwashed and then Luke's refusal to believe I wasn't a person made me able to be a person and I chose good once I could'  this AU version is delightful because it stays true to all the essential aspects of her character   it just places them in some new-EU elements (because yes that's what the shows are tbh)  and also within a great AU context that is already all about what Mara's arc always was  it just changes the Skywalker who saves her from the Emperor's brainwashing   and that isn't a big change at all really  anyway the intro implies there will be more of this eventually and that delights me  because that last line is FANTASTIC and so true to the kind of story this is  excellent job perfect story   

Yeah, that bare bones essential aspect of her character arc is why I’ve always really liked the idea of Mara Jade - she basically hits all of my trope buttons. And the themes of her story when distilled like that are a perfect fit with the themes of DAV.

Also I’m delighted that you recognize Filoni ‘verse as EU because it absolutely is!

@figmentera said: I love this fiercely and cannot wait to see the rest! Mara is such a cool character and I love any permutation of her relationship with Vader. I feel like it's barely ever explored but it's such fertile ground. Plus there's some great glimpses at the rest of this universe, I always love that! 

Thank you! I’m having fun exploring their relationship, though because it’s me and this story seems to keep growing, it may be a while before I have it finished. I’m kind of envisioning it as a side story to the main DAV storyline. It’s going to span pretty much the entire timeline, almost from the beginning of Anakin’s double agent career all the way to the death of the Emperor, but Mara’s story line is really running in parallel with the rest, rather than intertwining.

@frostbit-sky said: I still have to catch up, or really I should start again and binge read DAV, but I love 💗  the inclusion of Mara and encourage you to add this to actual fic. 

At this point I’m pretty sure I’ve talked myself into including it, so you will likely get your wish. :)

@clockworktea said: people who care Very Much except they have no idea how to express this even to themselves! finding allies and immediately adopting them as Family! kadee the ex-torture droid turned fiercely overprotective aunt gives me LIFE and ''yes master' she whispered' just OUCH mates the levels of mindscrew (is he her slaveowner or is she his padawan or apprentice) (haha jokes on anakin the answer is up to you as long as it's painful) anyway yes good fia is back MORE ANGSTY GENFIC FOR ME MORE PLATONIC DEEPLY MEANINGFUL RELATIONSHIPS TO ENJOY MORE CHARACTERS WHO ARE TRYING THEIR BEST TO GET HEARTBROKEN OVER ...... hang on a second this was all a trap wasn't it 

*Megamind goattee stroking face* You’ve fallen right into my trap!

In all seriousness, though, I’m delighted to see people getting excited about genfic! I still remember the days in fandom when writing genfic was like releasing words into the void.

Damaged people trapped in horrible circumstances and being insistently human to one another in spite of that is kind of my brand at this point, so I’m glad that’s holding up I guess.

I think basically everything Palpatine does in relation to Vader is a mindscrew on at least one level, but calling him the “Master of the Inquisitors” is definitely a master stroke on his part (if you’ll pardon the pun).

#replies #bookwyrmie #aeneasoftroy #hyratel #elf-kid2 #katharkness #shadaras #figmentera #frostbit-sky #clockworktea #nice things people say to me #double agent anakin #mara skywalker #anakin skywalker #star wars #references to #brainwashing #harm to children #long post

[ofwindydays]

𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞  𝐮𝐩𝐨𝐧  𝐚  𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞  …  dr.edward jekyll/mr.ezekiel hyde   was  known  as  the  reliable  & intelligent   doctor  with  a  reputation  for  being  a  henry golding  doppelganger  .   but  now  ,  under  the  stress  of  the  war  on  the  horizon  ,  the  natural  born  unaffiliated  cambion  has  become  widely  known  for  being  rather  vengeful  &  volatile  .   let's  see  how  long  the merovech native  will  last  during  this  war  .   after  all  they're  only  thirty /  immortal  years  old  .   +  he/him  &  cis male ,  The strange case of Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde .

Extra Information

For first important note, for the sake of not spreading the neurodivergent stereotype, I hope maybe to say he struggles with his worst urges. Because there's humanity in him. Also for this sake, he will say it's another person but because he's strongly in denial that he could be That Bad (™)

Born to a demon and a human, Edward doesn’t know his mother. He lived in his home, spending time with his books. His father was a recent born again Christian, holding the Bible dear. But Edward never liked the Bible. In one instance it burned to the touch. Still it caused tensions for young Edward from an early age

Rather the books on medicine, science, and apothecary intrigued him.  His father was always against the sciences, sighing it would poison the brain. Nights were spent smuggling the books under his chest in hopes of not getting caught.

Finally he told his father, he wanted to become a doctor. He ignored his father beet red face as he left the house.

Edward worked as an apprentice under a doctor lanyon. He was known as a bright student, always working hard.He was the youngest recipent of the lifetime doctorate.  But one night he found something he shouldn’t have.

It was in a chapter in a book- unlocking your true potential. Edward was fixated on it. He studied the potion almost becoming his matra. Edward was going to become the best doctor.

But potion only brought up hisdemonic side. The side that he didn’t know he had until now. He woke up with blood dried on his mouth. And a dead patient on the bedside. 

The panic and fear spread within himself. There was a sinking feeling that he has killed someone? How could he even explain the truth.

Edward, trying to reconcile, Made up a character, Mr. Ezekiel Hyde. A man he saw kill the patient.

Edward was a convincing man, who wouldn’t believe someone as mart as him. 

Lanyon and the others believed him. It was a moment of relief

But now Edward has to hide the truth from everyone.

He can’t let anyone know he’s the Hyde who terrorized that office

Personality 

Edward is a very smart guy, ideally the best gentlemen.

He's also a pretty chill dude, albeit lately he seems very tense. Most people attribute it to him being a doctor at such a young age. 

Edward really wants to believe he's a good guy, like really really. He wouldn’t be able to sleep at night if he wasn’t

“Ezekiel” on the other hand represents the more selfish and evil parts of Edward

Ezekiel represents everything he has held back, all his desires he wanted to pursue but couldn’t. Basically a repressed hedonist because of his father and upbringing .

Ezekiel basically is the core opposite,  raunchy, curses a frickton, murdery, and of course gets all the gentlefolk 

But regardless Ezekiel is Edward- and Edward knows this but he keeps it under wraps.

Abilties: 

Most of the abilities of daemons but probably diluted- also proably due to lack of practice the powers (like fire control , speed) are probably choatic bursts 

Also more vulnerable to being stabbed/killed

But I also imagine as Ezekiel he probably tries to pull out ll the stops to not get recognized. Because the book was like “he didn’t look that different, he just had bad vibes) 

Wanted Connections (ehehehehe I have a lot tbh but for starters)

Secret Keeper- someone Edward begged to keep the truth of Ezekiel under wraps 

Blackmail- someone who knows Edward ain’t slick and can tell he’s a cmbion 

Patients- people he takes care of and know him as the  good doctor (no pun intended) 

Friends- well of course 

Hookups- can also go into the secret keeper category because Edward/Ezekiel don’t look that different tbqh. I imagine it being mostly dudes (because the related works kinda hint at that)  but hey Im open to most stuff tbqh

Love Interest- Maybe someone whomst likes Edward despite being a nerdy gentleman. Would be angsty or happy depending on chemistry. 

Embrace the Dark Side- someone who is like “look eddie boy you’re part demon, you might as well embrace it.” 

#tales.intro #eso;intros #ch;jekyll #jekyll;intro #(surpriseeeeeeeee)

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a question: do griffguts ever get insecure that the other doesn’t love them as much as they do and how would they comfort/ensure them that they love them very very much...?

lol absolutely they do, this is Guts and Griffith, I can’t imagine them not feeling insecure about their feelings being completely returned, at least sometimes.

Though I also can’t really imagine either of them readily voicing those insecurities lol so idk this is a little tough.

Well, I could imagine Guts expressing frustration with Griffith paying too much attention to nobility and rising up in the world and not paying enough attention to him. He wouldn’t phrase it in terms of wanting reassurance, he’d phrase it like complaining about nobles wasting Griffith’s valuable time when he could be the one wasting that time lol. And tbqh Griffith’s response/solution would be sex imo. Which actually is a good lead in to the flip side of the question about Griffith feeling insecure.

Like Griffith’s response to Guts’ complaints would be to initiate sex more, to pretend not to be tired after a long day of political machinations, that kind of thing, in lieu of actually having a real conversation. I don’t know if it would occur to him that Guts just wants like, quality time together sex or not. I think Griffith would want to just spend time hanging out with Guts and he would often enough just by default, but if he got it into his head due to Guts’ complaints or comments that he wasn’t paying Guts enough attention, I think his mind would leap to sex as the solution moreso than just more time spent chilliing together.

And imo Griffith’s shoe-in issue would be thinking that Guts just wants him for sex, because he’s unable to see his inherent value to someone else. He knows Guts doesn’t particularly give a shit about the promotions or the money that he gets being a Hawk, and now he’s not even providing the opportunity to swing his sword in battle since the war’s over, so presumably Griffith’s value to him now must be sex, he thinks. Like he would have a very hard time internalizing the concept of Guts loving him just for existing.

And he also wouldn’t voice this insecurity lol, at least not purposefully. But if Guts picked up on it, like say Griffith accidentally casually implies it at some point which I could definitely see happening bc it doesn’t even register to him as fucked up, Guts would probably go for verbal reassurances and actually trying to hash everything out in a heated emotional discussion. Idk maybe it would make for a good angsty lead in to their first “I love you”s lol. And that probably wouldn’t fix everything immediately, but it would be a good start and Guts initiating the more mature conversation about their issues would help them actually discuss problems they have in the future too, maybe.

Tho obviously this is just one possible idea for angst and emotional idiocy in response to the question lol, there are plenty of other ways this could go and ways their respective insecurities could manifest. This is just the first thing that leapt to mind.

#madchen #ask #headcanons #sorry this took a little while i was busy yesterday #a #b #and ty for the ask! lmk your thoughts as well if you want bc this is always fun to talk about #character thoughts

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April 14: Release

Some notes on Release, my fic for Round 1 of Chopped: Madness. I don’t really have that much to say about it but I also don’t want to be awake for that much longer, so, it works out.

This is my favorite of my Chopped Madness entries, and also (this is not a coincidence I’m sure) the one that is most Me.

That said, I was a little nervous to write it, because it was the Harper round and I have written very little Harper. Like truly she’s been a supporting/background/chorus character in a handful of my fics, and I wrote a couple Harper/Monroe ficlets 20 years ago when that was a thing, and that’s it. This isn’t really a coincidence--I don’t like Harper that much tbqh. I was thinking perhaps I should try to rehabilitate her a little in my own mind, though, so Chopped was a good excuse to do that.

Hopefully I captured her in some way lol.

The hardest thing about Angst as a genre is that I’ve never really know what genre a lot of my writing fits in; I think some fics that I consider to be very fluffy read as sad in parts, and those that I consider to be angst are...well, like this one. There’s no Big Angsty Event. It’s just a mood. Like porn, I know when it when I see it. I think.

I also thought my very first Chopped fic was insufficiently fluffy, and then it won third place for the fluff theme, and had a fic I consider to be fluffy nominated for an angst award so what do I know.

This was the only idea I came up with and I knew pretty soon that it would work for me. The hardest parts were pinning down some of the details, and deciding how much backstory to give. For example, I had to figure out how Harper and Murphy could start out as strangers, even though they were also ex-delinquents in the same detention center. Segregating the facility by gender solved that, and then having Harper and Miller be friends from before prison solved the next conundrum: how her ride was both a boy and another ex-inmate. Not actually hard but I had to work through it.

As far as the backstory: I did initially intend to explain more about what Arkadia is like and how it’s ended up with this particular detention center but... I thought it would be stronger without making everything explicit. It helped that I was purposefully copying from the source material, so I didn’t think anyone would question why characters are getting released at 18 rather than after a certain time served. Because that’s a weird detail from the show lol, obviously!!

But in my head, it’s basically a depressed area where lack of opportunity, environmental degradation, and economic downturn have taken away a lot of parents, in a way not dissimilar to the loss of adults in the canon: to prison, to overdose. That leaves more young people without families and without places to go, and leads to the creation of ad hoc group homes like the one where Harper lived. And in turn to more crime. The juvenile detention center is how it is because it’s an invention of this particular locality: it takes young offenders in, at least nominally attempts to rehabilitate them, and then releases them when they become adults. It’s not predicated on punishing a particular crime but on reforming a childhood; hence why a sentence there ends at 18, always.

Ten points to me for including the word “brownfield” by the way.

I spent part of my own adolescence in a depressed area and that’s why this is Peak Angst for me.

On a lighter note, Miller and Bryan’s van is 100% unabashedly The Tank from Daria and not even subtly so. Daria is also the reason they played “I’m going to the picnic.” I wasn’t going to go that way and then I thought ‘what the heck, it’s an homage.”

Shout out to K--- E----- for inspiring parts of the hotel room scene.

I’m such a ho for sharing a bed that I obviously had to include it in a road trip story and then I straight up cackled when it showed up as a required trope in the next round.

#the year 2020 #2020: writing thoughts #the 100 chopped #longer than i thought quelle surprise #release