#it's okay he's bipolar

[dis--mayed]

My mom hates Trump and doesn't really care that someone is, apparently, falsely accusing him of assault (most likely, she was just trying to tell me brother to fuck off by saying she "doesn't care"). My brother started yelling at her about how Trump is a victim and he doesn't want to see him prosecuted for something he didn't do.

My brother has spent THIRTY FUCKING YEARS blaming our mom for how HE was accused of rape by someone he chose to fuck and has spent 25+ years blaming her for encouraging him to take a plea deal, where he was made a tier one sex offender, after he repeatedly broke the fucking probation he was only put on, again, for RAPE. He's now tier two for refusing to register and sits in my home, smoking weed and vapes with the SSI my mom got him on.

This girl accused another boy of rape, btw, and he took the same deal as my brother.. don't know what happened to him.. but I guess my mom ruined his life, too, right????

#Blame shifting #Emotional abuse #dysfunctional family #tw r*pe #tw r4p3 #tw rap3 #toxic environment #toxic siblings #it's okay he's bipolar #and bipolar renders people to act like a piece of fucking shit for thirty fucking years #just like it made my aunt /s

[super-psycho-lov3]

i cant rant abt this on tiktok they want tof ucking kill me but holy shit is anyone else fucking tired of how many people behave as if ian being bipolar is the end of the fucking world? like there are so many fucking edits where its ian exhibiting BD traits with mickeys reactions and shit and its so fucking annoying as if mickey didnt STAY WITH HIM? not just that, fucker, he dealt with ALL of that and found out why and he did his fucking DAMNEDEST to help EVERY FUCKING WAY HE COULD hello what is wrong with you why are you using the stupid fucking "i dont recognize you anymore" sound SHUT THE FUCK UP ‼️ FUCK. mickey CHOSE ian WITH all of his symptoms FUCK you guys FUCK off jesus CHRIST

#''he doesnt recognize ian anymore...'' YOU ARE STUPID GOODBYE #fuck off #yknow what he is? WORRIED #thats his fucking boyfriend thats his FUTURE HUSBAND thats like half his fucking world #of course hes fucking worried but hes not like fucking? betrayed? or some shit? its upsetting because he wants ian to be OKAY #he JUST wants ian to be okay and safe and happy thats fucking it shut the fuck up shut UP god fFUCK #sorry this is like #very #rant #vent #-y #im angry mostly because its my fucking source #and also our boyfriend is bipolar and im just fucking sick of it #ugh #shameless #shameless us #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #gallavich #bipolar disorder

[hatsunevitu]

okay so since the Cupid Ye was aired i’ve been constantly thinking about cartman’s mental condition. we know he’s probably taking medication now, so i hc him having antisocial personality disorder and bipolar disorder. and i’ve been imagining him having his depression episode for the first time after he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. he’s not used to it, he has no idea what’s going on and why he suddenly feels so tired and numb all the time, so he just stays at home skipping school and avoiding social contacts. he’s scared and the “it’s all because of your illness, poopsikins!” from his mother doesn’t help at all.

and sooo i wrote a short moment about this?? i’m sorry for any mistakes because it was originally written in my native language, not in english :(

***

Ever since early childhood it was clear and obvious to everyone that Eric Cartman had problems. Not even like that, Kyle corrected himself in his thoughts. Eric Cartman had Problems. Sociopathy, sadism, aggression – all that a person could notice in Cartman after only half an hour of communication.

And Kyle wasn't too surprised when bipolar disorder was added to all of the above in a sloppy psychiatrist’s handwriting.

By the time Cartman was finally diagnosed he had already gone through several phases of mania. Kyle even did a little research on the disorder. "To know what to prepare for the next time I meet this psycho," he told Stan. "And to know how to help him if necessary," he added silently to himself.

By the age of fifteen, Stan's company was already used to Cartman's regular explosive mood swings, which were accompanied by crazy ideas, aggressive behavior, and, if absolutely unlucky, deaths of a couple or more people.

It was typical: after a short break, Cartman would burst into Kyle's room (often through the window), start showering him with business plans, startup ideas, and opportunities to have extreme fun. Kyle was silent, trying his best to ignore him and frowning irritably when Cartman smiled ecstatically and rushed to Kyle, tugging at his sleeve and almost shouting that everything would be better this time and that it’s a one hundred percent successful scheme.

For some time Broflovski genuinely believed that everyone in their friends group was going through such tortures, but after a short questioning, he found out that they had not seen Eric's mania with their own eyes. Kyle understood — and they won’t, when Cartman just chuckled at the outraged "What the fuck, Fatass?" and replied, "I guess you're just special, Kahl. They wouldn't understand." His eyes flashed especially maliciously, and Kyle looked away hastily so as not to give Cartman the opportunity to start another fight.

Well, all in all, no one's world collapsed when Cartman was diagnosed with a new mental illness. Over the past months of insane hallucinations and obsessive intrusive thoughts, he managed to make everyone sick of him. He refused to go to the therapy sessions for a long time, shouting, running away and trying to get into a fight, and Liane was too afraid to find out another unpleasant truth about her son, preferring to go with the flow and shut him up with the fulfillment of every single of his whims. Kyle doubts that anyone would have done anything to help Cartman if he hadn't intervened. Why – it was unclear to Broflovski himself, but Cartman's first depressive phase hit them both unexpectedly too hard.

Disappearing from everyone’s sight for two weeks, Cartman ignored calls and messages (although Kyle had a serious doubt that anyone other than Butters and Broflovski himself texted him) and skipped school despite Mr. Harrison's threats of expulsion.

Liane avoided answering questions, pursing her lips in frustration and talking her way out with a trivial "He's sick." Kyle didn't believe a damn second, knowing that if Cartman was sick, Kyle would have known about it the very first. Something was wrong. For some reason, the desire to find out what exactly was much stronger than it should have been when it came to Eric Cartman.

***

Perhaps Kyle really shouldn't have worried so much — not to the point of climbing into Eric's window at night. But the Cartmans hadn't opened the front door all day, and by that time Kyle's nerves were so stretched that they threatened to break if he didn't get answers to his questions in the next few minutes. Disturbing thoughts and images of possible turn of events appeared in his head. Perhaps Cartman was dead? Or, on the contrary, has killed someone and had been dissolving dismembered body of his victim for two weeks? One option was no better than the other, but nothing was even close to what he saw in Eric's bedroom.

Haggard, seven kilograms thinner, with an unhealthy skin color and bags under his eyes, he looked painfully wrong, not Cartman-like. He didn’t look exactly ill — more like lifelessly tired. But that wasn't even what hit Kyle so hard.

He did not suspect how much had been hidden in Cartman's eyes before – lively fire, hatred, anger, enthusiasm, passion – all this was gone, dissolved, buried under this empty, dead, unblinking gaze. For a second Kyle even thought (hoped?) that he was really dead, but the heaving chest under the blanket and almost inaudible sound of breathing exposed life in Cartman. He was lying on his back, his head slowly turned towards the window. Kyle sought recognition on his face, but did not see a single shade of any emotions.

He froze in the window, making eye contact with Eric, feeling like he saw something he shouldn't have. He tried to revive the old familiar hatred that usually boiled in him as soon as their eyes met, but Cartman’s emptiness totally killed all the anger. Kyle climbed through the window – Cartman didn't react in any way, lazily closing his eyes – and walked up to the bed, touching his shoulder timidly.

“Hey, Cartman?” he said, shuddering at the way his voice echoed throughout the bedroom. Cartman didn’t open his eyes but smiled hardly visibly.

“Hey, jew”. His voice was empty and emotionless and Kyle pursed his lips with a bit of a pain.

“You need to see a doctor, Cartman”, he said firmly as Eric finally opened one eye disinterestedly. “I’ll help you. I promise”.

And he did.

#OKAY THAT WAS LONG IM SORRY #im not satisfied with this and after translation it has become even worse but uhhh fine #actually doubt someone would read this much #pls let me know if you like it– #and yes kyle is protective and he will not let cartman just fight his mental illnesses by himself #:( i love them #he will go to the doctor with cartman #and he will convince liane that medication and help is necessary #and its such a hurt/comfort i am actually crying #(btw i dont have bipolar disorder sooo sorry for any mistakes!! but i probably do have depression so i know a bit about how it feels #south park #sp #eric cartman #kyman #sp kyman #kyle x cartman #kyle broflovski #cartman x kyle #kyman headcanon #kyman au #sp cartman #sp kyle

[0809sysblings]

it is always a little funny to me when people try to make psychologists and psychiatrists out to be the only people ever capable of being able to accurately diagnose mental illnesses and disorders and that their word is law as a way to criticize self diagnosis when like. once i was hospitalized and the psychiatrist there who i had not even known for more than a day tried to diagnose me as bipolar despite me having No history of mania because he.. couldn't really understand why i acted the way i did i guess???

#milgran't #tw hospital #tw psych ward #i just randomly remembered this (i say randomly as if i dont know exactly why im thinking about this stuff). dont mind me #tbh i should make a tag for like. more personal posts. but. idk what to make the tag name.. #oh well #apologies for not being cool and collected and expressing things that show that im a human with emotions and needs recently #The Holidays are probably. one of the worst times of the year for me </3 #its not even seasonal depression or whatever its just Oh Jesus Oh Fuck Oh God (gets hit by 99999 trauma bullets) #that psychiatrist sucked SOOOO fucking bad btw #trying to prematurely diagnose me as bipolar was one of the tamest things he did during my stay #i hate him i genuinely hope he dies <3 #tbh i think he actually did. Break The Law with me. he probably couldve argued it was for the safety of others bc im crazy :3. but. #sometimes i just Remember That and im like. huh. hey what the fuck actually #but seriously. so many mental health professionals just make you sit there and go. .. how the FUCK did you get your license?????? #ive heard some of The Most ''oh only people who are completely ignorant about mental health say this!'' type of shit from professionals #idk why im the one being labelled as insane when they think saying some of that shit is okay and professional MFKDLSFMDSf

[smileyg0th]

tell me why some “dumbed down” kinder detransed version of the host’s ex just showed up in the headspace? she’s like some sort of manifestation of his fears but they’re apparently insys dating again.. like a week or two after said ex abandoned the host 🙁 genuinely if any systems could explain id absolutely love that i’m so sad

#dear god help me #this kid is so delusional it makes me cry /neg #i hope he’s okay #actually osdd #bodily a minor #osdd 1b #system bullshit #actually bipolar #actually bpd #cluster b #abandonment issues #autophobia #shameless #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #shameless us #i love joy division

[suncaptor]

There's no way they aren't writing Kendall bipolar on purpose after talking about him buying all those fucking lunchboxes to try to return them and wanting to song billy joe while being Jesus crucified then crashing and desperately wanting to go home without it being about mania and then a depressive drop. is the thing.

#incoherents #kendall roy #bipolar kendall roy #okay also everything about him ALWAYS #hes sooooooo #kendall #succession

[sleepdeprivationandcoffee]

If any of you plan on having kids, please for your sake please have a good support system. I mean people who will take kiddo for a few hours so you can sleep/clean/relax without stressing, people who will help with chores and help pick up the slack when you start feeling worn thin, and people who will encourage and remind you that you’re doing great. It’s so so so hard when you can’t get the help you need.

Future parents, please do this for yourself. Please ask for help and build yourself a safety net of people you trust to care for you like you would care for them.

#I’m am not great and it’s not my kid’s fault at all #I just physically have not been away from her more than 2 weeks (collectively) since she was born #I have had little to no babysitting #my partner daughter and I share a room with our dog #while cleaning his parent’s hoard so we can have more space in the downstairs #my family has been so weird going between actually loving to cold/rude/critical when I don’t let them treat me like a doormat #my CPTSD and bipolar have been ripping me apart mentally #I’m so so so tired and sad and upset and guilty for everything I’m feeling #for little outbursts of yelling/slamming stuff down/shutting down entirely/feeling disdainful towards everyone around me for short periods #none of this is okay #I’m trying so hard to get the help I need and I’m getting there I’m so close guys I’m so close #but I’m breaking under the weight of it all #if it wasn’t for my partner I would’ve certainly killed myself in the past couple years #he’s been my rock and best friend from the moment I met him #and he’s the only thing keeping me together #uuuugh long rant uh #just please take care of yourself before you lose friends and find familial relationships stressed/broken

[threadsun]

Oh WAIT more silly Secret Sun Lore™: I didn't suspect I was bipolar until my roommate in uni watched me go into a manic episode and clean our entire dorm room top to bottom in half an hour (like fully scrubbing the floors and all) while rambling at top speed about how I'm probably immortal for the third time in like a month and was like "hey bro, you know that's not normal, right?"

#sunshine #he was very chill about it but was just like 'you know that's weird right man?' #and then I talked to a psychiatrist and she was like 'oh yeah you hit every criteria for bipolar type 2' #and now I'm on meds that mostly help :3c #but sometimes I still get a lil manic and then you get me rambling in the tags and thinking about everything way too much way too fast #but it keeps me in control of my impulses now #so I don't do or say things I regret later during manic episodes anymore which is nice! #now I'm thinking too much and too fast about social stigmas around mental illness #and how people worry about interacting with me when I'm manic #which is annoying because I'm still Me when I'm manic? What are people so afraid of? #like people will listen to me talk/watch me post when I'm manic like 😬 cause they expect me to feel embarrassed about it later #or like... not feel the same way as I do when I'm manic and therefore no longer mean what I said/posted? #but nah that doesn't happen when I'm medicated #I'm just Sun but like 5x speed and that's okay #I can be interacted with safely when I'm like this #like listen if I'm coherent enough to format things and correct all my spelling errors and stuff then I'm fine #if I wasn't okay then my posts wouldn't be readable #secret sun lore

[cyberstabbing]

my dad and little brother are flying to japan tomorrow so i get to ask them to bring a bunch of stuff back for me :))) i'd ask for some obscure manga but most of it will be in japanese (duh), so maybe not. although wait i would love the new edition of sugar sugar rune! and some make up!

#if anyone knows a make up brand or anything interesting that i should ask them to look for #let me know!! #i was in japan in 2018 but that was before i was into makeup or clothes so i didn't buy anything #except for a shirt from a thrift store #mine #i hope it goes well -- my brother shows a lot of signs of autism (even though he instead got diagnosed with bipolar disorder) #so i hope it'll be okay with the crowds and noise #that was a weird thing i wasn't prepared for in tokyo #random pop songs and sound effects blaring from hidden speakers on shopping streets?? like from the lampposts

[dis--mayed]

My mom decided to make pasta salad and turkey sloppy Joe sandwiches and she's upset that I don't want to help her because she "can't" do it on her own....

She doesn't understand that I don't want to cook "for the family," and while her nazi fucking son stands over us, eating and spewing Nazi shit.

#dysfunctional family #toxic environment #She's yelling at me from the kitchen right now #He's bipolar so it's okay! #He suffers from trauma so it's okay! #He's not on actual fucking meds or so much as going to therapy though

[theangrypomeranian]

not me getting emotional about my OCs at nearly two in the morning 🫣

#pom ponders #holly anderson #declan tisdale #listen at this point dec is basically an oc okay #they're relationship is so god damn weird and complicated #like they love each other but they know they'd be terrible together #she was way too young when they met and he was still deep in his alcoholism #not to mention she was unmedicated bipolar which didn't help anything #and they both have different partners who they love so much and would never do anything to betray them #but at the same time they will never get over each other #all too well 10 min version is about holly okay it's her song #it's mostly about declan but a few parts are also about zeke and her father #one day i am going to write the period of time they were together when she was pregnant with zeke and it's gonna hurt #but i also just love it so much #this is what happens when you listen to one song over and over and think about your stupid ocs lol #they're exes but they're in love

[thefiresofpompeii]

session with the psychiatrist today and he finalised getting me a s*roquel prescription… upon a google i discovered that one of the most common side effects is supposedly weight gain so now i am actually considering the preferred alternative option of recovery which is k*lling m*self

#he is 1. russian 2. the sessions are being paid for and monitored by my father #i tried calmly and reasonably explaining to him that i do not suffer from bipolar disorder and that #the prevalent part of the symptoms which cause me direct discomfort or suffering in my day to day #life most closely correspond to adult ‘female’ adhd and autism; and that the #only psychiatric pharmaceuticals which would cause a legitimate positive impact on my life would be those prescribed to ADHD patients; #which means that what he really should be doing is writing me a reference form to speed up the diagnosis process. his response? #‘you have labelled your issues with these developmental disorders to absolve yourself of a responsibility to heal from them; since; unlike #mental illnesses; they are not temporary and cannot be cured; only alleviated’ #ok mental illness isn’t temporary either; total recovery is nigh impossible. plus; i don’t want meds for a cure. i want meds to be able to #manage and live like a functioning adult human being. as in; be able to concentrate on what i am invested in; to ameliorate skills and put #in an ounce of effort instead of floating mindlessly without concrete goals or desires #okay maybe i need depression meds. MAYBE. but i have a sneaking suspicion that the moment i start taking adhd medication and become #far more productive and accomplished by my own standards; my depressive state will begin to dissipate without psychiatric intervention #jamie.txt #tw ed implied #antipsych

[unlicensed-un-proffesional]

can i be honest for a second...

we not staying silly :(

we seriously sad and sopping...

#today has just been. the best it could be. #which sadly does not mean i'm doing good :) #i kinda wish i was drunk right now #sometimes i wish i wasnt a bipolar schizophrenic queer hobo. but then would i really be me? i have to be me. it's my curse. #i shouldnt complain though. i really shouldnt. im not dead. and im not set back in life. #im hovering just above rock bottom. this bird flies using sheer rage rn. #but please dont let me bring you down. just have a good day okay? #i dont want to make this all about me. #just know if you're having a hard time i am right there with you like the patron saint of hard times. #one must imagine sisyphus happy #because if he can find happiness. than anyone can. #if i can get through this. i believe you will too. whatever it is. #we're going to get through this. that's what she always said. #i wish she was here to tell me that right now. sometimes i think she is. #tommorow is another day... #we're going to get through this. #we will stay silly once again :3 #hexacles.txt

[ozymoron]

eveery one shu t up im having blorlbo thoughts oughh

#PAIN #*clutches chest* i love them so much #AIAGHAHSHAGHA #thinking about ian from shameless #lke bruh despite his fucked up family and bipolar hes fuckin tryna make the best with the hand life dealt him and OIYDUAGAUGHSHGDJ #lile he got a fuckin job he got a fuckin bf cheated on him but still #and hes helping out with his bfs fuckin youth ceneter #hamding out supplies and shit tryna help #fuckin in the episodes im up to in season 8 fionas tryna get these art guys to buy this place down the road form her apparentment buildinh #but oh no ian and trvor (the bf) want tgo buy it to make it into a shelter and fiona doendt want that cause shes like ''the homeless people #will bring down the property value or someyihing" (fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you) and ians like ''thats fucked up'' (love you king #you tell her) so he rents thr property next to her aparentmnet andn gets the kids to sleep there and is like throwing eggs at her window (i #love him so much) and like UAGAHH i love this fucking GUY #okay and then in the episode im up to fucking fiona TRICKS THE KIDS INTO LEAVING WHILE IANS AWAY AND THROWS AWAY ALL THEIR SHIT #WHCIH BTW THEIR SHIT IS NOT ON HER PROPERTY AND SHIT LIKE I. HATE. HER. #and of course ians upset and pissed and fionas like ''🥺🥺🥺dont be mada t me 🥺🥺🥺🥺'' #i hope she gets hit by a car #anyways blrobo thought suapouiohiu oughughhogiugh #holy shit thats so many tags

[emotionaldisco]

O6:43

why now.

why NOW is he doing this.

#he fucking proposed to me #irl #personal #text post #new beginnings #bipolar disorder #I am crying #I am not okay

[sluttymickey]

Drish, music anon here. I literally just heard this song for the first time and had to rush to your inbox because THIS ONE.

Heart Like Yours - Willamette Stone

Picture this: Ian’s first depressive episode. Mickey’s sitting on the floor next to Ian’s side of the bed, his head resting on his elbows propped on the edge of the mattress. He slowly cards his fingers through Ian’s greasy hair, whispering gentle words to Ian’s vacant eyes, hoping and praying he’s hearing them; gentle words telling him Mickey’s here, he isn’t going anywhere, how much it means to Mickey that Ian is okay. Mickey’s scared shitless, feeling useless, but he keeps his voice low and calm because for the first time, not only does Mickey have to be the strong one, but he also has to be the steady one.

Who is gonna write the fic? 😭

Hi!!!!!!!! Did you know I adore you!!!!!!!!!

Ohmygod. Everything about this is gonna make me cry 🥺

He just wants to let Ian know that he's HERE. He's scared bc he doesn't know exactly how to help but fuck if he isn't gonna try everything he can. Ian's FAMILY and he's gonna take care of him.

GOD. And the idea of Mickey just sitting there, gently running his hands through Ian's hair, letting Ian know that it's gonna be okay, HOPING so hard that it'll be alright, having no other option than waiting for him to respond. Fucking hell 🥺

You!!!!! This ask ended me and I honestly think you should write it 🥺

#you won't believe me but i was LITERALLY thinking about you the day i got your ask! #bc i was listening to 'i know you all over again' and i thought OKAY this is so s7 ian and i wish i could somehow tell music anon to listen #to it! #but then life and work got in the way 😐 #anyway! I'm off today and I'm gonna go answer your other ask now #ily! ily! #lmk if the song reminded you of s7 ian too <3 #it just makes me think of s6/7 ian trying to move on from mickey and then realising he absolutely hasn't when he sees him in s7 #asks #music anon 🎶❤️ #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #depression #depressive episode #<- lmk if any other tags are needed. i tried to tag everything