#jesus i could do this all day

[badolmen]

I wish we got more moments of the Walkers being Family like. The opening of “Brave New World” where Hesh says he let Logan sleep a bit longer because he figured he could use the rest set the bar too high for the rest of the campaign. You don’t really get anything like that line again - there’s the “Sin City” and “The Ghost Killer” cutscenes as well but those are both high tension, ‘holy shit don’t hurt my brother/I am dying son but I’m proud of you’ lines. And honestly Hesh’s “All or Nothing” Rorke File where he talks about his misplaced guilt after losing Elias…it’s almost a bit weird that he doesn’t reference how Logan is handling it at all (especially considering he was the one manhandled into shooting their father).

I guess the first unlockable Rorke File where Elias talks about taking the boys to the beach counts, and Hesh’s “Logan’s got my back, and I got his. He’s my brother.” but it just feels a bit stilted compared to the natural tenderness of the “Brave New World” opening.

#ra speaks #personal #cod ghosts #call of duty ghosts #david hesh walker #logan walker #elias walker #beans are you seriously complaining about a decade old game’s character writing? #yes. yes I am. #there’s way more to complain about to the whole. everything that is the ghosts worldbuilding. #but as someone with lil bros they really dropped the ball on drawing the connection between hesh and logan #hesh should have been panicking on comms more in the hunted that’s all I’m saying #or at least give me a post mission ‘jesus fuck thank good you’re alright we really need to get you an aac device bro’ moment #oh your nonverbal brother got separated from everyone in a fucking plane crash? no need to worry a friend saw him get snagged on some trees #(which he could very much have been dead for as you do see other soldiers corpses caught up in the trees) #also the Angst™ of Elias’ death being so focused on Hesh like…bro you didn’t pull the trigger. #speaking of like. did hesh even tell the other ghosts. elias is just listed as KIA in the file. #hmmmm #<- has spent all day achievement hunting and replaying levels multiple times

[nero-neptune]

front/back of a bookmark i made for my program's bookmark design competition

#top 3 get 25 bucks and i need all the money i can get in this expensiveass city tbh lol #if nothing else tho it hopefully(???) got me out of my art block funk #if you Really tried ig you could guesstimate what school this is for. but that'd be weird. don't be weird #my art #grad school #artists on tumblr #mlis #the theme i was going for was sorta like 'information getting passed down through different eras of technology' something like that #last person is a semi-self portrait of my 'working in the rare books archives vault' days. good times. #also my drawing tablet literally died when i was 80 percent done with this. most of the coloring was like me doing finger painting JESUS

[catboysalmon]

The fucking DEMONS

#FHEY WINT LEAVE ME ALONE I #iM NOT SIXTEEN ANYMORE OKAY YOU CAN STOP PLEASE #you have to stop doing this shit its fucking embarassing its unbecoming youre an embarassment #crying over fucking nothing #jesus christ youre selfish arent you #and all youll do is get pissy and angry and frustrated with yoursekf and go NOWHERE BUT DOWN #you could. idunno. take an ounce of responsibility for your own stupidity #but nooo youre just going shame spiral and drink about it. like you FUCKING always do #THAT ISNT AN ANSWER STUPID AND YOU KNOW IT. ITS JUST A NEW WAY FOR YOU TO HURT YOURSELF ON PURPOSE #you never stopped self harming you just found new invisible ways to do it #thats why you smoke all day like a fucking loser hacking up black slime #youre an ugly stupid child and you always will be

[cattatoir]

Anyway this is what I mean by I want to see Adam and Jesus talk

#graphic design is my passion #listen while I'm super excited to hopefully maybe see angels & demons in the GO universe actually form an identity that isn't just not #their adversary and start taking actions based on something other than a game of spiritual Telephone #the symmetry of human raised Antichrist averting the first Apocalypse with humans and the Human raised (and killed sure) son of God (possib #le part of the Trinity?) help avert the second one #I mean I'm curious how we're gonna get all of them vs all of us with Jesus so. 🤷‍♂️ #anyway. I literally could not sleep without expelling this awful thing #I have leave in in my hair bc I left my shower to let it sit when I realized I was not gonna stop itching to do this nonsense #do not @ me #I only use MS paint and meme generator and I did my best #cmo's log #I guess #also I fought for my life to get transparent Jesus and I am could not get the freeform crop on paint to work not to mention my hands are #so unsteady they evoke the concern of strangers #I might regret this in the morning #and by mornign I mean presumably like 3p tomorrow when I wake up #I untagged this bc it should never see the light of day #ok actually just execute me #good omens

[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time... #Still more time... #Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough? #It certainly is now #Alright start: #I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state / #/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not / #/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I / #/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my / #/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with / #/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[origamiyoda]

Oh my god OUT OF CURIOSITY I divided the amount of playlists ive made on spotify by like. 30 (days in a month) to see how long it would take me if I listened to one playlist everyday. IT WOULD TAKE ME. ROUGHLY SIX (6) AND A HALF MONTHS TO DO THIS.

#JESUS. #If I were to actually do this it wouldn't take that long bcos not all of my playlists are 8 hours long I could get thru multiple in a day #Tho I prob wouldnt do this on weekends. Hm #ALSO if a playlist is longer than a workday THAT DOESN'T MATTER. End of the day the next morning we're MOVING ON #I KINDA WANNA DO THIS LOL

[bat-the-misfit]

i only know two Ni doms irl but they're both driving me crazy

#internet people be like “oh ni doms are so mystical and clairvoyant” no they're not #lemme tell you what they are they're ANXIOUS #and they're making me ANXIOUS TOO #i love you ni doms but pls stop predicting your life in 20 years you could die tomorrow #i'm sorry but it's the truth the future holds so many possibilities that can ruin your “vIsIOn” #pls use your inferior Se once pls i beg you i promise you won't die if you live in the moment for 5 minutes #“Bat you don't use Se you can't complain about them” i know but at least i can switch between my Ne and my Si sometimes #one of them (INTJ) says EVERY SINGLE DAY: “i'm gonna do this i'm gonna do that and i also have this project for next month and-” #but he never does anything which translates to “what the hell happened to his Te?” #his Ni must want to choke his Te #and then there's my mother (INFJ) who not only keeps telling everyone what she's gonna do ignoring the fact that Stuff Happens (inf Pe agai #but whenever smth bad happens she always think it's “meant to be” and “part of the process of people's soul growth” #i vent to her and she's like “this is what g0d chose to you as a mission for your soul to evolve" #no wonder jesus was an INFJ as well their Ni-Fe is so pUrPOsE oF LIfE #mom i just wanted to tell you my day sucks idc about my mission on earth i just wanted you to comfort me #i know we all should be kind and avoid being superficial but sometimes shit happens and it's not bc of our spiritual growth or whatever #sometimes life sucks and we don't learn anything with that and sometimes we have to be mean with people #bc they suck or bc they're mean to us #well aNYWAY #tio morcego tá azedo #every cognitive function is amazing on their own way but each one of them will drive you crazy #there's no better type or function: everyone will drive you crazy #today i'm pissed with ni doms tomorrow i could be pissed with se doms which are their opposite types so who knows? #you can't escape it you will want to choke people of all types #if you only hate one or a few types only you're not studying mbti right you have to be pissed off with all types #same with the opposite if you only like one or a few types you're not studying mbti right #you have to love every type with a passion that no one can explain #if you don't get why a type is so special and so annoying at the same type you're not studying mbti right #i just complained about ni doms but i could write why i also love them in two minutes after i post this #ok i'll stop now i'm rambling too much

[martyrbat]

red hood: the lost days #3

[ID: Talia Al Ghul holding Jason Todd as she submerges him in the Lazarus Pit. Her hand is cradling the back of his head as her other hand gently holds his bandaged side. Her long hair is down and flowing slightly as she's in a pink robe, the excess sleeve fabric floating. She looks down at Jason with a somber, caring expression. Jason is shirtless and has scars littering his chest and biceps. There's red around his closed eyes in the shape of his Robin mask and he has dried blood coming from his open mouth. In front of them is the red pill helmet that Jason will later wear. The chemical liquid is a blend of green and yellow as there's soft orange flames that rises from around Jason and behind Talia. The background is soft pink and white with dark pink, halfwilted trumpet shaped flowers curling behind them. END ID]

#screaming sobbing throwing up #always choosing to ignore the last few pages of the series because god #dying for a mother that betrayed him to having one stand against it all just to give him an opportunity of life #something about the theme and parallels to talia and jason being mary and jesus just always gets to me #raising a son knowing the sacrifice he will do. the way he'll surely change the world. for better? for worse? it doesnt matter #he'll be your son regardless. you'll love him the heartbroken way only a mother could as he becomes larger than life and in his inevitable #death you can only pray youll be there to hold his hand and wipe the blood from his lips because thats still your baby. he always will be. #also the bandages is to cover up how the pit stole his bellybutton. he SWEARS something used to be on his stomach before but ?? guess not ? #jason todd #talia al ghul #crypt's panels #c: red hood: the lost days | i: 3 #lost days #covers

[p4nishers]

i know some people already pointed it out but like. eddie was in black. BLACK. he was in LITERAL MOURNING CLOTHES. he was already mourning. already prepared for the worst.

#buddie #crying about this is not enough i need to jump off a building. #no cause THIS hurts so bad actually now that i think about it cause if u had a loved on in hospital in critical condition u KNOW this #feeling so intimately where u think u already lost time. that time frame before the confirmation where u cant help but to wear black cause #u dont know what else u could possibly do and doing anything else feels impossibly #its such a simple thing really to wear a specific color but it feels like equivalent of giving up. in the days leading up to my #grandmothers death i wore nothing but black all the way to her funeral which i couldn't attend. god i understand him so bad. #god i love him so much he was already prepared for the worst he's so familiar with grief he just knew. im so glad he didn't to lose buck #but also just that whole entire scene. how the moment he knew chris was secure he turned away and wipped a hand down his face and the #moment he started to speak his eyes filled with theirs bc its just so much easier to hold it together when u r silent #like OF COURSE we didn't get a scene where eddie was only w buck OF COURSE like he couldn't even look at him he was only there bc of chris #cause he just couldn't face the possibility of losing buck. im so not well #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 6x11 #911 spoilers #911 6b #jesus fuck the typos are embarrassing im so sorry

[piplupod]

will i get in trouble if i make a joke about wanting to hire a hitman (not seriously asking but now i AM a little curious actually LMAO)

#i am so............... sigh. #trying to be so good about this whole situation but jesus christ i am close to tears i am just so fucking tired of it all #can my mother be normal about my generation struggling to make ends meet and fat people just existing for like. five minutes. please. #those are her two favourite groups of ppl to complain about endlessly and i am so fucking tired of it #even worse is that she does it in a way of like ''oh im just concerned :) you should all be taking better care of yourselves'' #i think i would rather she come right out and say she thinks we're all stupid and awful and wastes of space #anyways here's to another day of having complex feelings about Le Abuser and wishing she was Not Existing while also not wanting her dead #head in my hands i wish i could disappear myself #also so fun knowing she thinks my body is disgusting bc of the body hair i have 👍👍👍 really doing great today #abuse tw #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[bandzboy]

Before wonho getting enlisted we knew (wenees) he had some girl or grown woman waiting outside his building every single day for hours idk for how long but during vlives he asked PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE he knew she was here for him 💀 it was so annoying, he had closed curtains every day for sure. I don't think it was only for safety filming his video vlogs for youtube.

It's so worrying how no one does anything, i understand at least the majority of idols are adults and they can do things by their own but the company itself should protect them always and they never do. And i also think only a few could pull off some dominant personality making people respect their safe space and physical integrity by sueing a stalker.

So much time took starship to sued that woman who had a yt channel and created so many bad things involved wonyoung, the same woman who went against monsta x members and cravity as well.

that's genuinely wild... it will always be odd to me how companies never actually take action when it comes to sasaeng/stalkers and just let it happen every time like their main job should be to protect them from anything! there's only so much an idol can do but especially when it's idols that are just debuting they don't have the liberty some of their seniors have and they just let them get harassed irl or online by these people i mean... riize is a good example of that. sm has been letting them getting harassed by this one person on twt who got seunghan on hiatus because they invaded his privacy and also they have done the same thing to the other members at this point and yet nothing really has changed! it's all empty words with these people they put out the same statements over and over again but things escalate and nothing changes! these companies are sometimes the reason idols get targeted so much they have all of this money and connections and yet do absolutely nothing with it and then think we are dumb

#there have been so many situations that just make me crazy #ofc there will always be obsessive fans but jesus christ #it doesn't mean you shouldn't do something to protect them #at the end of the day they only care that these idols bring money to the company #and not about their well being and that shows in so many things #i could be here all day listing everything it's just crazy #asks #anon

[agayconcept]

.

#oh for fucks sake #if i have to listen to my shithead of a mother bitch and whine and moan about me being disabled one more fuckinG time i s2g #she's been going on for 20 mins abt how annoying it is that i had to go lie down for a bit bc i had a migraine and a pain flare up #which meant i guess that she didnt get to make dinner when she wanted to (i told her she could just eat w/o me like who cares) #so now she's on a rampage abt how inconvenient it is to her and how i ruin her schedule and her life all the time etc etc #and when i responded calmly w 'well what would u like me to do- snap my fingers and not be disabled anymore? u TOLD me to go lie down.' #she exploded and is like 'oh noOoo ofc not nothing is ever ur fault u just accidentally do these things' #bitch WHAT THINGS ????? #exist as disabled ??? be in so much pain i spend most of my life these days in bed ??? be unable to function to ur standards ???? #do u Hear urself ?? #now she's sitting on the couch pouting and fuming like a toddler bc i was in bed for 2 hours instead of 30 mins (bc too much pain to get up) #and throwing a tantrum like that is in any way normal or acceptable behaviour #'u always do this! but nooo u can do w/e u want cant u ?? u dont have to consider others!!' #ma'am... #a) no i dont have to consider others when it comes to taking care of myself and my debilitating illnesses. that's an insane thing to suggest #b) nobody told u u could not do w/e the fuck u wanted while i was out of commission. u just did this to have more to complain abt #c) ah yes bc i 'want' to be bedbound in excruciating pain. that was a choice i made. for funsies. for the bit. #whaT ????? #god someone save me im gonna lose my mind w this shit #not to mention she's also belligerently drunk so like. there's that also. cant have any proper convo bc of it (not that i wanna talk to her) #jesus fUcking chrisT #i gotta get out of here #this woman is so immensely hateful #ya sorry i ruined ur life by being born this way and now ur stuck 'putting up' w me and 'my shit' (<- actual things she has said many times) #fuuuuuck me. #anyway. #negative #ableism #verbal abuse #ask to tag

[bowtiepastabitch]

Oh by the way don't go on twitter rn

#genuinely get closer every day to deleting my account because what the fuck guys #okay just gonna rant in the tags for a minute ignore me #because what the actual FUCK #I made a twitter account so I could see what Michael Sheen posted #because it makes me happy and that has value for me #and I've checked back every couple days then every couple weeks since october to see if he'd posted anything #and people are sTILL fucking going on about it #guys #guys I'm begging y'all to realize that bullying someone off a website is not the activism slay you think it is #there are celebrities that are PROUD zionists can we PLEASSE focus on them?? if we're gonna talk about celebs at all???? #your time could be doing so many more valuable things than posting over and over about your opinions #about some other random uninvolved guys opinions #about a complex conflict in which it is not a wrong desire for innocents to not be killed!!! #in which a ceasefire is what we've been demanding from our reps for months!!!!! #and some fucking statements he made MONTHS ago #statements which by the way were not wrong or incorrect #y'all forget that being anti-zionist in the modern imperial hellscape of america and the uk has very serious consequences that I have seen #in my own actual goddamn life #calling for a ceasefire is exactly what we were asked to do by organizers jesus fuck are y'all that dense???? #have you done so little actual activism that you don't know that??? what is happening????? #and now georgia tennant deactivated her fucking account because she got dogpiled too #for not providing a full PR defense against claims she was a zionist #like guys come on we all know how that goes #it doesn't matter what you say someone is gonna get angry and pick it apart she doesn't owe us proof she's not a zionist #I'm not here to say she responded correctly but there's nothing she could have said that would have made twitter happy #because that's how celebrity drama works and you know it #so now of course everyone's buzzing again about michael and georgia and neil and fuck him fuck her whatever #people are blocking each other for supporting or not supporting and shit it's a bloodbath #and for what #for. fucking. what.

[nerdie-faerie]

I've got two family events coming up during term time and I'm trying to decide if the trips are worth the cost by asking if my family is actually going to be attending them and my mum's response was 'I might be able to convince your dad if we know you're going :)' girl I'm not spending nearly £60 just to come down for the weekend only to then find out I'm going by myself

#+Extra #travel tag #one of my cousins has a babyshower coming up in may on a Sunday when i have class on Monday #i already know my mum isnt intending to go to that one and my aunt that lives in between me and them also isnt going so i cant go with them #its the most inconvenient of the two and i have to be home a week after so ive declined that one #but another cousin recently announced an engagement/housing warming party weekend at the end of april #and when my mum told me about it i asked if she was going so i knew whether or not to look into tickets #and she hit me with the 'might go if you do :)' girl im not risking £60 on a maybe especially cus getting there will be a nightmare #its not all the way down south with the rest of my family so its technically closer but if im travelling there i need to know #whether to come early and go all the way home so i can arrive with my family on the day or travel down the day of & get there a little late #in the day in the city where its happening and figure out how to get to the event by myself and sort out getting ready and everything #or like to not bother what so ever and theres no guarantee which day theyll go cus its both Saturday and/or Sunday #ideally id only go Saturday cus i got class first thing monday but i also dont wanna be there by myself #im not close with my cousins and my dad doesnt get along with my mums side of the family so its highly likely id be there by myself #which i absolutely do not want especially if im getting there late cus of relying on public transport #edit: itll cost between £50-£120 to travel o.o depending on how i travel #if i get the train the whole way cus its quicker and times are more convenient itll cost £120 for a return for a 3 hour trip #or i could spend £40ish to get there by train then £10 on an overnight coach back #which is cheaper than the £60ish it would cost to get coaches both ways and the travel times for coaches were ridiculous #but jesus christ 🤦‍♀️

[ezraphobicsoup]

exams really just go on forever and ever and ever and ever

#sorry about this one but it’s just hit me that i’m literally not getting a break cause of the german listening #3 days between them i guess and then that’s it we’re back with 6-7 hour school days #how the hell do they think this is sustainable we just don’t get to stop ever #what’s the line like. it keeps happening it fucking keeps happening and i just want to lie down without needing to be doing something else #hghhhgvhnbgghhbghnbghvvbvav #the biggest break it’s possible to get is one school week. 5 days without exams or revision sessions jesus christ what are they doing #and i know i know it’s not their fault and that ultimately it’s an inherent flaw within the way exams work #and that actually they probably don’t want this either. but could they at least say that to us at some point #if they just went hey this sucks but this is what you’ve gotta do and offered a shred of sympathy rather than just shitty #seemingly non genuine positivity i would feel so much better #ok. ok i’m more normal having said all those words probably still gonna post this but then like delete it later or something #i’ll be fine i’m just so tired and will apparently be so tired for the foreseeable fr #but then there’s the future beyond what’s foreseeable and it’ll all get better then. it’ll be fine #ezra’s real life rambles