#just followed you sobs :')

[chappellrroan]

life when you stop caring about fandom discourses

#i am just happy to have more content to sob to #i am trying to follow the advice of no matter what you say nothing will change a person's mind if they've already decided what the truth is #so just enjoy indulge as much as you want and stay away #v.txt

[mobius-m-mobius]

thought we had it all, thought we had it all, thought we had it all...

- So Much (For) Stardust - Fall Out Boy (i/n/sp)

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #well y'all #somehow hit another follower milestone #and in my disbelief and appreciation may have made a set with enough layers to carry the weight of the world 🤣💖 #couldn't love them or any of you more for what an amazing experience spending time on here has become #so just unbelievably happy these gifs turned out in a way which hopefully reflects that and our time collectively shaking and sobbing lol #will also be taking gif requests to celebrate if anyone's got some in mind so just let me know and i'll do my very best 🥰 #that goes for all my fandoms btw even if lokius taking the lead there is the understatement of the century 😅 #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs #flashing cw

[jopzer]

something about roy tucking his face into jamie's neck during 2x12 as a direct contrast to jamie having fully melted into the hug during 2x08 but still taking a few beats before his eyebrows turn and He tucks in his face and starts hiccuping. yea

#beebles #royjamie #ted lasso #roy kent #jamie tartt #i don't have anything smart or sexy to say about this one it's just like. damn #jamie has accepted the affection but the shock and sheer terror in his veins slowly falling off of him #till he's just sobbing quietly into roy's shoulder and the whole team is just fucken. Watching. #to then roy head butting the fuck out of him because their relationship is sort of built on violence?? #and taking it from him and treating him delicately would be theeeeeee last thing jamie would want from him #especially at that stage in his character arc #tbh in both of their character arcs. #but to immediately follow it up with such unwavering and blinding affection #not even just hauling him into the hug but tucking his nose against jamie's next #directly paralleled to jamie tucking his face into roy's #god. God!!! #roy gave the first affection after an act of violence twice!! in such differing contexts!! #and they were both equally meaningful!!! #roy kent!!! you fascinate me!!!! #so deeply deeply the zeitgeist of their whole relationship #they have to have some sort of violent undercurrent before they can really connect and even when they do that violence persists #in a really compelling way btw i love it #theyre besties they inexorably tied to one another theyre sharing traumas and secrets and they also canonically knock one another senseless #i love it. love their relationships to love and violence and emptiness and consumption #man y'all's baggage just lines right up don't it.

[bonchobrick]

(angst alert !! death + slight blood tw !!)

Tim is stuck in a sticky situation and has to call a certain 'spooky' friend for help.

Jason would probably call him a dumbass for trying to do something so stupid. Well, atleast thats what Tim thinks Jason would do, he isn't for sure though, he isn't certain.

Because Jason's laying on the ground with a flat pulse and he wont be giving him any answers anytime soon.

---

“Don' look so weird replacement, its just anoth’r day in gotham.” His brother slurs with the slight quirk of his lips

"Jason don't fucking do this to me!" Tim hisses tears cursing his eyes

And Jason, oh that bastard—bleeding out on the pavement and in Tim’s arms sends him his classic beaming Robin Smile. 

"Love ya' little bro take care of yo'rself, kay?" he says eyes fluttering

"Jay," Tim cries, "You dick."

For all the joy and hope and belief his smile conveyed for the first time in a long time—his red blood muddled what should’ve been such a nice sight. Tim held him on the pavement with someone yelling on the comm mic on the floor that he just can’t bother trying to pay attention to. 

The pavement is cold. The air is cold. His brother is cold. It’s all so cold tonight. 

All the younger boy does close his eyes and slowly, In. Out. In. Out.

He lets himself breathe for a minute. Lets the horror wash over him. Lets himself absorb what just happened,

Then he gets back to work. 

Like a switch his brain is back online running at a hundred miles an hour–what is the best scenario, what should I do when my brother's wrist is limp and his eyes are shut, what do I do if he’s dead again, what can i do, how can I Fix. This.

Thoughts cloud his mind, whirring around his head like layers and layers of messy documents has just been dumped on his desk and he’s shuffling through them panicked trying to find the right file because its somewhere here, there is something and he just needs to sort. it. out. And–

Then it all becomes clear. 

His desk is back to clean and stationary. All of the papers are gone back into neat piles in neat manila folders, stored away in tidy filing shelves–

Everything is gone aside from one little yellow sticky note in the center of the desk.

“Well, Jay?” Tim chuckles with a cracked voice, “Second times the charm right?”

In his mind, at the center of it all, on a yellow sticky note lies the words in green ink: ‘Contact The Ghost King.’

Slowly he shifts and with a loud grunt he lifts up Jason, “Up we go!”

“--im? Why do you have Red Hood’s Comm–Tim what happened! Tim!” the comm speaker plays faintly in the background of his head, “Tim! Whatever you’re thinking off doing, don’t!” someone Tim can’t think about hisses

Tim hums absentmindedly towards the mic, almost automatically, “Don’t worry Babs, I’ve got it covered.”

Walking away from the roof he thinks to himself, I wonder where Jason would wanna wake up? Perhaps his apartment? Yea, i think that would go well by him–let’s head to the apartment.  

And just like that Tim leaves a crime scene—shuffling away with a dead body over his shoulder and a plan.

“Jay,” Tim murmurs to the corpse on his shoulder, “You’re really gonna hate this, but i’m doing this for you anyways cause I love you. So dont be too hard on me when you wake up okay asshole?”

Tim stumbles off into the stairwell making his descent and sometime as he walks away Barbara faintly catches him on the comm saying

“-Your gonna love Danny and making your lame 'im a dead guy' jokes with him man .”

#(Aka i wanted to write brothers jason and tim fic featuring Danny as the resident unemployed friend) #tim hates jason #he loves jason #siblings r silly like that #tim through sobs: *sniffles* im a bad bitch ive got work to do #what follows is tim pleading with the most heartfelt words for him to bring jason back and danny is like lol okay #was this all made to reference that one line in robin 1993 annual 7 #yes. yes it was. #ill add the comic panel soon bc oo that line mmmm #girl dinner #danny doesn't control life or death. but! #tim: please bring my brother back i know that is such a hard request to ask you but-- #danny making grilled cheese: not really hes supposed to be alive anyways dude no biggie #tim whose been begging and sharing his whole life story on the floor for the past 30 minutes: what #this is a fic in which tim spends another absurd amount of time bringing back a 'dead' relative (jason is dead but like tim's like no) #and danny is just with him the whole time hanging out and showing him wild shit as the helps revive him #dc x dp #dp x dc #jason todd #tim drake #danny is a little shit #danny phantom #there are so many tags #i swear i write more story in here than in the actual post... #angst #sorry #its literally kinda cracky though #just a bit more 'character analysis-y' than i usually share w u guys #kinda funny how this is dc x dp but danny is just like only hinted in this scene (he is literally in every other scene) #OH BY THE WAY ITS BEEN AWHILE hi

[sin-sidejob]

Pls tell Delaney I’m free whenever if she needs a wife

Maybe in another life~

art credit and many thanks to @olexxx who immediately jumped at the opportunity to draw this after hearing me talk about this specific ask, which btw anon, thank you

#lmao but thank you anon in full seriousness and additionally — that’s what au’s are for ;) #good to know y’all think she’s wife material — camera pans to me sobbing in the corner clutching my laptop and prints of every piece of art #I’ve ever seen made of her from cowboylovin and mollicutes and flyingspicerack and radioactivebowtie and olexxx #and r3d-artist as well!! #and maybe more that I’m forgetting at this current point and time which feels at least to me like a criminal offense like lock me up sirs #Lex tag #ART REC I GUESS?? GO GIVE LEX A FOLLOW I LOVE THEM SM #thank you so much Lex my eternal love and gratitude is yours #never gonna get over this #y’all just hear me screaming and running down hills into the woods #just leave me be ok I’m unwell #Lex’s art #inside job #sona: Delaney #jrdelaney #asked and answered #anon #personal inside job #my inside job #jr #art rec #jr scheimpough #Delaney tag

[foxgloveinspace]

People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.

#very much so #tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks #listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point. #you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it. #‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July. #‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others. #‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one #‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans #I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next? #sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway). #idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t #mean it when you said sleep token was important to you. #like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks. #but I know this too shall pass #this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change #and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’ #1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive! #2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing #I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love #I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show. #tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask #if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good. #he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck. #I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it. #idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.

[dailybloopy]

#hope the event has been treating you kindly...!! #spalter and irene were kind and came home together in 50 pulls :sob: #share ur pulls with me if you'd like !! #also hello new influx of followers from twitter..!! #i am just as inactive on here as there... but i hope you enjoy your stay :'o #spalter #irene #lumen #blue poison #bloopy #edit THANK UUU for taking time out of ur day to share ur pulls <333

[writeouswriter]

Reading a fic that's so well written I wish I could close my eyes and just let the descriptions and atmosphere wash over me, but the dilemma with closing my eyes is, well, I then would not be able to continue reading this fic, now would I.

#fanfiction #fanfic #reading #i don't read longform fic very often but this one is so good wow i'm in awe and clicking next chapter next chapter #the movie it's for I'm not even a particular major fan of itself but I am a fan of the character and the ideas and oh my god #they perfect it to a tee in every way even better than the movie could and yet keep their characterization spot on in line with the og #it's amazing the way they balance the humour and banter with the suspense/tension and drama/horror #and their descriptions are gorgeous/pick out just the right details #their follow-up is more canonical to me as a sequel than the actual official sequel which is wrong in so many ways #and I am in love with their writing style so much my god #i'll say the fic if asked probably will honestly make a rec post for it when I'm done just because wow but here i'm just vague posting #i mean it's 10 yrs old and I've been reading fic for 8-9 yrs and it is truly one of the best I've read in all of that #from all my tags I mean you can labour a guess for the fandom or fic and if you were to guess it wow good job I'd be impressed #but anyway !!! love finding masterpieces I hope this person decided to become an author in those 10 yrs almost *sobs* #I'm gonna say the fic anyway whatever it's From Out the Ocean Risen by Bluestar god it's good (for p/acific r/im)

[thehappiestgolucky]

Been doodling. My brain has been snatched girl help me i stg

Girl i am going fucking and what- girl whaT! I didn’t see the trailers wtf GIRL HELP WHAT I HAVE OS MANY THOUGHTS. Congrats on your lil 2 year old niece ig Heket and Leshy-

I don’t sacrifice. But you need to for the doors. Luckily i have the best substitute :)

#cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb spoilers #cotl spoilers #relics of the old faith #doodles #narinder #leshy #heket #pupdessa #narithor #(still love that narinder just got wifed by a random follower) #going in order that i beat the game in shamura i WILL get you i stg #going insane why of all fucking au fandom stuff was THIS CANON GIRL H E L P #also playing around with an older pupdessa thing ehe. the brainrot so real i’m making ocs n storyline shit #sorry if this is all i draw for a bit i am so engrossed #teh game also runs so much smoother on switch now so i can play it longer happily! #the brainrot is REAL sobbing into hands

[saltpepperbeard]

i think i’m going to pass out when i hear stede and ed say “i love you” for the first time 

#OFMD #Blackbonnet #Gentlebeard #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #maybe a little dramatic BUT MAYBE NOT EVEN AN EXAGGERATION LMAO WHO KNOWS #I KNOW I'M GOING TO //SOB// THAT'S FOR SURE #I'M GOING TO JUST LOSE MY EVER LIVING MIND #And I won't be able to shut up about it either #Rip my old followers from previous fandoms #Y'all think I'm insufferable NOW LMAO??? #JUST YOU WAIT #I WILL ASCEND TO A HIGHER PLANE OF GAY PIRATE EXISTENCE

[daily-linkclick]

thank you everyone for following this blog for the daily doodles! i think i'll officially stop the daily doodles (for now) but i'll still be uploading doodles from time to time! i'm so happy to see a lot more link click fans on tumblr, and to see a lot more people appreciate the trio and the stories they touch :]

#i'll still be around!! just wont be uploading daily doods anymore #maybe when the hiatus starts or if the manhwa picks up!! #especially after that last scene im so excited over lu guang KDJFDF #i just cant keep the daily part for now #i would LOVEEE to make bigger illustrations so im kinda happy to be relieved of the daily doods #dlc says #thank you so much for the ppl who followed this lil humble blog!! #im glad to have seen the early days of lc tumblr where no one was uploading anything #and now theres so much #glad everyone can find something they like in this show !! #i only made this blog as some kind of drawing exercise #so im kinda emotional to see how far ive come from hehe #i love this show for inspiring ppl to move on... WAAAAA LINK CLICK SOBS #SORRY FOR RAMBLIGN KJFHFSKF #btw for any ppl ive regularly reblogged or feel free to ask for my main HEHE #^ or talked to in dms* forgot that bit

[finzphoenix]

Trying something new for Patreon: 20-minute videos of whatever WIP I'm currently working on! ^_^

Gosh, I hate advertising my own Patreon account, I'm so sorry for spaming about it! ;w;

#Scriddler #Jonathan Crane #Scarecrow #Edward Nigma #Riddler #WIP #I gotta do something new; I already lost two patreons this month #Perhabs I shouldn't look so much at the numbers but augh #Plus I of course want to offer something that really is worth its money. #I always feel SO bad about not being able to post quality content every week which is definitely what they'd deserve ;w;. #And y'all here on Tumblr would deserve it too! But sadly there just isn't enough time for Patreon Commissions... AND Tumblr ;__; #I'm so sorry for everyone who followed for consistend content on here. I appreciate you all! </3 #Ah man... maybe I should now stop sobbing into the tags #Sigh... I guess I just wish I could draw again without having to be dependent on the money

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Why has Barnaby made TWO hospital visits in one year??? What was the first one about??? [<-Talking about the Human AU]

no yeah the first one was Howdy's brief stint (a couple hours) for the whole smoke inhilation minor injuries from the fire thing.

the second one was for Wally's festive lil car crash where he comes very close to Fuckign Dying!!! and. well. technically there are many different visits for that one cause he's in the hospital for a hot sec, but yk. technically only two hospital-worthy events

#barnaby: oh man howdy being in the hospital was terrifying! #barnaby: i sure hope i never have to experience anything like this again! #and- whats that? WHY ITS WALLY DARLING WITH A STEEL CHAIR- #its a very distressing event for everyone!!! #a long night of a bunch of colorful Very Stressed friends in a waiting room followed by several weeks of equally stressed visits #its a Bad Accident #like a 'its a borderline miracle that wally survived' accident #the rest of the au is pretty feel-good and the angst is more mild & normal/expected #this is like. just the Big Dramatic Event that fucks everyone up ahaha #i needed to include at least one!!! #its very detailed in my mind... #from the call getting cut off to barnaby sobbing his heart out in the hospital parking garage to etc etc etc #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #its fun! for me. and anyone who enjoys this flavor of Fictional Drama #ive been going through reddit threads & articles & sites all morning researching medical stuff #as i am wont to do when thinking about characters getting injured <3 #usually its for stuff like stab wounds and disembowelment and hypothermia and lung collapse and- you get the picture #car crashes Surprisingly are rarely in my wheelhouse of angst! for some reason! theyre very juicy! #anyway i like to get everything as accurate as possible in my head #and then take Creative Liberties bc this is fiction #but! they're purposeful (mild) inaccuracies! if im gonna do something wrong im gonna do it Correctly! #do the. do the something wrong correctly. do the wrong thing Right! on purpose! #so that if people go 'well uhm acktually' i can say with my entire chest I Know! I Did This On Purpose! Thank You!

[daddy-long-legssss]

The Story Behind The Song: Arctic Monkeys’ early ambitions on ‘A Certain Romance’

Lucy Harbron – Far Out Magazine | January 17, 2024

It was 2006. Mortgages were crashing, and businesses were going bust. Tony Blair was on his last legs in office as the longest-serving prime minister since Margaret Thatcher, and the hangover of ‘Cool Brittania’ was beginning to set in with an unexpected ferocity. Things were bleak when a young Alex Turner sang, “There ain’t no romance around there” through the public’s speakers. Arctic Monkeys were about to write themselves into musical history as the voice of a new generation.

The final song on their debut album, there has always been something special about ‘A Certain Romance’. In 2022, after the release of their seventh album, The Car, Turner seemed to find himself reflecting back on that 2006 track. To the musician, that early cut holds a clue to everything that was to come as he said the piece “showed that we did actually have these ambitions beyond what we once thought we were capable of”.

Coming in at over the five-minute mark, ‘A Certain Romance’ almost feels like the Arctic Monkeys’ version of a rock opera, summarising all the themes, feelings and energy that came before it on their seminal album Whatever People Say I Am, That’s What I’m Not. It has the cheekiness of ‘Fake Tales Of San Francisco’ and the catchy instrumentals of hits like ‘Dancing Shoes’ or ‘I Bet That You Look Good On The Dancefloor’. Utilising the northern charm of ‘Mardy Bum’, it stands as a final, neatly summarising point on the social commentary found in their early tracks like ‘From The Ritz To The Rubble’ or ‘Riot Van’. Really, it could be argued that ‘A Certain Romance’ is the ultimate example of Arctic Monkeys’ original sound, perfectly encapsulating all the things that made the world listen up and pay attention.

It’s like they seemed to know that, too, always allowing the song a special place. In fact, it was really the band’s opening remark. Years before the offer of a debut album came around, the group were a well-oiled machine with their own local hits. They had the northern live music scene in their hands as their homemade demo CD was passed around like everyone’s worst-kept secret. Beneath the Boardwalk features eight out of the 13 songs that would be on Whatever People Say I Am, That’s What I’m Not, albeit in a slightly different, lower-quality version. But the opening number, ‘A Certain Romance’, sounds just the same.

It’s all there, from the rolling opening drums to that final guitar solo. Recorded and produced in a rented studio at only age 17, the existence of ‘A Certain Romance’, one of the band’s most explorative and energetic numbers, in this form this early in their career feels like a diamond sitting in a mine. It proves that they were always onto something special.

They never needed any help. In fact, their producer, Jim Abbiss, noted that they even seemed nervous about the help. “I think they were probably a bit weary, like ‘who’s this guy? And is he gonna make our sound this or that.’”

They didn’t want anything to change too much, as the group already had the songs figured out. Turner certainly did, as the track’s meandering narrative about hometown lads, fights, and local boredom is already there. Talking on a podcast, original member Andy Nicholson revealed the story behind the song. “We had a practice room with a pool table in, and we had a party in there, and we invited another band who were friends of ours, and we all had some drinks,” he said. “Then something happened, someone throws a pool cue, someone throws a pool ball, and everyone ends up fighting,” he added, explaining the lyrics, “there’s boys in bands / And kids who like to scrap with pool cues in their hands.”

But the magic of Arctic Monkeys lies in their nuance. What begins as a snooty analysis of his local landscape is a genuinely affectionate take. “Well, over there, there’s friends of mine / What can I say? I’ve known ’em for a long long time / And, yeah, they might overstep the line / But you just cannot get angry in the same way,” Turner sings, looking around at his bandmates and lifelong friends. ‘A Certain Romance’ is not only a time capsule for the group’s beginnings but is an ode to all the people who were there with them. It’s an ode to the hometown that made them and all its various characters.

But as the last guitar solo roars to life, there is an unspoken statement that they’re going to be bigger than what they came from. “I remember when we were recording ‘A Certain Romance’ and having a conversation with the producer about the final guitar solo,” Turner told NME, recalling the moment these songs were reworked for their debut. But they wouldn’t let anyone mess with ‘A Certain Romance’, knowing exactly what they were doing and trying to say with that one. In the 2003 demo version, all the feeling is already there, and Turner wouldn’t risk it.

“There’s something that happens at the end of that track where we break some rules in a single moment,” he continued. What happens at the end of the piece feels even more special, considering how the album was recorded. “These are the songs we wanna do, and I think this is the order we wanna do them in,” Alex Turner told their producer, recounting the conversation in 2007 to RadioX, “And he goes, ‘alright, we’ll try to record them in that order as well.’” As the final song, that last guitar solo is the last thing recorded for the album, standing as a cathartic outlet and a chance for the band to prove themselves.

“We focused on the [emotional] effect of the instrumentals over the words,” Turner reflected on the track, concluding, “and I feel like we’ve been trying to do that again and again since then.”

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#I could talk about 'A Certain Romance' until I'm blue in the face or a sobbing mess #lucy did a good job on this one #she perfectly encapsulated how this song makes me feel #the moment I heard it I knew that this band was something incredibly special #it is so near and dear to my heart I will never stop singing it's praise #the fact they made this song that is so compelling and takes you an emotional journey from the beginning to end over 20 years ago???? #and how protective they were of it when making the first album cause they knew it was something special #and Alex drawing similarities between 'ACR' and 'The Car' & letting the instrumental moments of the song convey more emotion than the lyri #like he always said they continue to follow the same instincts from the very beginning nearly 20 years later #i just want to write an ode to ACR so i can ramble on about it #but im gonna shut up for now #anyways please enjoy this article LOL #arctic monkeys #wpsiatwin #whatever people say i am that's what im not #a certain romance #alex turner #jamie cook #matt helders #nick o'malley #andy nicholson #far out magazine

[sehtoast]

me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK

also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up

my hairline: two hops this time!

#i'm so stressed man #sehtoast rambles #sehtoast vents? fuck if i know #i just feel like i can't get ahead #i used to be able to get all my shit done by friday and have the bulk of the weekend to myself #but that's not doable at all this term #i just had a whole ass mental breakdown over fucking homework #like i'm almost grateful T made it near impossible for me to cry bc like #i was going to have a whole sobbing crying breakdown and at least i only had to feel the mental and physical anguish of it instead #it's 3am and i just made coffee so i can do the rest of my work #luckily the last two are super little in comparison but #i can't keep doing 30 pages of notes with 10 pages of homework and a 40 question 'quiz' for math #on top of making like 7 excel spreadsheets a week #not including the 50 page readings for management plus the 50 questions that follow and the writing assignments #i'm so glad my ids class is easy. dr s is my personal jesus christ for being so gentle with her students #idk i'm just... really not doin well rn #at all #idk if anyone read this far in #if you did ily and appreciate you

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)