#lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[berk-brain-rot]

Brain worm of the day: Christian symbolism without preaching Christianity.

Literally just that, Berk can write a book, with a Christian story (Lazarus) on the title cover, and carry that story metaphorically through the entire book, while never making me, a person with severe trauma due to Christianity, ever feel triggered.

Because it's just symbolism, it's just metaphors, and to be quite frank, sometimes it's fueling my religious blasphemy:

That's it, that's all you get for the day, they're good at what they do, and what they do is sometimes weaving Christian symbolism with Greek mythology with a fictional angel with a single episode of the fictional angels show with their own personal grieving process until you're not actually sure where one of those starts and one of those ends.

As always, the source is always more interesting than anything I have to say, so if you haven't yet, go read Lazarus Rises(amongst other things) and follow them on their Tumblr @icaruspendragon because they write so many cool things beyond just their published book.

#lazarus rises amongst other things #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #berk #berklie novak-stolz #poetry analysis #brain rot #analysis #loosely

[aceing-on-the-cake]

Quotes from Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) by Berklie Novak-Stolz (@icaruspendragon)

#my two biggest hyperfixations #destiel #destiel edit #destiel photos #lazarus rising #lazarus rises amongst other things #lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[moonybeam3]

Getting literal chills while reading Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) by @icaruspendragon that I got for Christmas

This is brilliant and heartbreaking and real and just amazing

#Lazarus rises amongst other things #I’m on the verge of tears in the best way #poetry #incredible #I want to study this for a course #I want to teach this book

[high-quality-tiktoks]

what a whacky life i’m living

#video #tiktok #tiktoks #november 5 #november 5th #november fifth #book #books #poetry #lazarus rises amongst other things #berklie novak stolz #icaruspendragon

[mintcakeart]

hey @icaruspendragon ! i recently sent my copy of Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) to my friend who i bonded with originally over supernatural, poetry, and death (she loved it). its something thats made me weep every time ive read it and i am so unbelievably touched by your words and your content. i came across the last thing i drew of u in anticipation of this book recently, and wanted to take the chance to redraw u with this image that completely consumed my brain when i first saw it. from one jack allen obsessed, dean coded, misha collins nemesis to another, i love seeing fellow person being insane about fandom in their day to day life and i wish u the best :)

#jam draws stuff #art #fandom #digital art #illustration #fanart #supernatural #lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[icaruspendragon]

#grief #web weaving #lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[ethannku]

i’d rot with you too, if i could

tumblr post by @girlhorror​ / revenge by xxxtentacion / the lovers of valdaro / lazarus rises (amongst other things) by @icaruspendragon​ / mahmoud darwish / gravestone of james robert irwin and millie michaels irwin / wuthering heights by emily brontë

#web weave #words #poetry #songs #web weaving #word webs #love #on love #on death #lyrics #poem #poems #girlhorror #icaruspendragon #xxxtentacion #lovers of valdaro #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #wuthering heights #emily bronte #ethan talks #almost cried making this xD

[wrenwinchester]

Poem three from Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) by Berklie Novak-Stolz (@icaruspendragon)

These words have been stuck in my head the past couple days. And I hadn’t read this poem in a while. I keep the book on my nightstand, a comfort that it’s there, but most of the time it goes untouched, not because I don’t love it, I have it highlighted and marked up the wazoo. But it’s so much easier to spend my time scrolling than to do other things I really want to do.

But anyway, I’m getting off track. This poem came back to me a couple days ago when I reblogged the post about which person in tfw 2.0 would be most likely to keep a diary. (X) and I used Berks words specifically for my analysis on Dean, because they felt right. And since then these words have been floating around my brain.

I have so much to say, so much I want or need to say, but in order to do so, I would have to pry myself open, lay myself bare in front of the people I care about most. And that’s. One of if not the most scary things I can imagine. Because the fear of being rejected for opening up. For saying what I feel and being shut down or told I’m not important. Or being made to feel like I’m not important again.

Emotions are hard, and finding words to explain them is even harder for me. It should be easy to explain that I’m happy or sad or why I’m feeling how i am but they all just get stuck in my throat. Clinging to my teeth and cutting my gums and my tongue. Choking me and taking over every ounce of entire being and it’s killing me.

I can’t get the words out, and I can’t pry them from my teeth. And I don’t even know what I would say if I could. I don’t know the words hiding behind my teeth. Hidden away from the world, and if I started talking I wouldn’t be able to stop. But I can’t start.

#poems #poetry #icaruspendragon #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #emotional #feelings #poetry book #there’s something wrong with me

[wordsthatmattered]

9.11.2023

"I am empty in a way that exists outside the bounds of vacancy. In a way I have yet to find the words to describe."

- Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) by Berklie Novak-Stolz

Surviving through grief is something you can only fully learn by going through it yourself. Finding other sorrow-hearted sufferers healing through poetry has been a light of its own during times of need.

#Berklie Novak-Stolz #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #poetry #grief #books

[the-likesofus]

Lazarus Rises (amongst other things)

by Berklie Novak-Stolz (@icaruspendragon)

#OMG IT FINALLY ARRIVED #gonna sob my way through my Saturday for sure #meegs says stuff #poetry #lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[berk-brain-rot]

So Berk posted a video of some poems that never made it into Lazarus Rises and I wanted to talk about my favorite one.

It's this, it's this one.

If you're just here to read the poem, fair, it's amazing and stands on it's own, honestly click the link and read the rest of them, because they're all so good!

If you're here as a fellow-feral-unhinged-raccoon and want to read my honestly unneeded analysis, it's below the cut.

Oh my god. Are you kidding me?? This was a poem that didn't pass the cut??? And it's this good?????? (Once again I feel justified in telling literally every person who spends five minutes in conversation with me about how good of a poet Berk is)

Honestly though, this is one of my favorites of the poems in that video, because it's so short, it's so simply written, and this says so much that I feel like I could write an entire essay on each of the lines themselves and their meanings (I honestly might anyways but I'm not gonna subject you guys to those rambles)

"Life loves Death"

In the same way you can't help but love an impossible task you just want to give up but that at this point is the only company you truly remember and the only thing you know how to work towards.

"Life loves Death"

In the same way we can't help but try and find meaning in beauty in the thing that truly only takes from us, because if there isn't meaning and beauty in our pain, then why the fuck do we have it?

"Life loves Death"

As something we can't take seriously. As something we truly don't understand the risks of until it's too late. As something that for some of us, we rush forward to with joy and open arms because we think it'll feel like the warm embrace of the sun but instead all we are met with is the cold cold ocean.

"Life loves Death"

As a burden, a burden that some claim is a gift. A burden enforced upon us poor poor sinners by a god in punishment. Am I talking about Apollo or Jesus? Both, neither of them, I don't believe in either, but I mean no one believed Cassandra either.

"Life loves Death"

As a needed tool, as a part of every flower we decide to put in a vase, as every dye we put in paint, as every food we are forced to consume and as the tool that at the end of the days ends up changing us.

Also something something, gods punishing poor sinners for wanting to enjoy life something something an apple and a weaving contest being the show of ultimate pride something something I don't have religious trauma you do

Like do you get it???? Do you see how insane this is??? How much information they've packed into six lines???

And I'm not even gonna go over the way Life and Death are capitalized and personified, you all already know how I feel about how impressive it is they do that, but regardless, this poem is amazing and you can pry it out of my coffin-bloodied-cold-dead hands.

As always, the source is always more interesting than anything I have to say, so if you haven't yet, go read Lazarus Rises(amongst other things) and follow them on their Tumblr @icaruspendragon because they write so many cool things beyond just their published book.

#lazarus rises (amongst other things) #lazarus rises amongst other things #berk #berklie novak-stolz #poetry analysis #brain rot #poetry #analysis

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@icaruspendragon

#yes this is about #lazarus rises amongst other things

[techolas-deck]

some nights, there is a strangely familiar irony to how poetry about grief is a comfort to me.

grief is sadness and anger and pain and stress and numbness and acceptance and

hope

and somehow

amidst all the chaos of it all

there is love.

i am not grieving tonight. but i am loving. loving the few i call friends because they are teaching me to be loved.

teaching me to hope

and maybe

maybe that’s why it’s so comforting

#i was having a moment #but we stay silly #because i have cool people #and i had #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #i luv that poetry collection #im fine now btw dw #needed to be so normal for a sec tho

[saybiwithme]

I did not expect a poetry book to make me cry and yet here I am

#my bs #I’m reading Lazarus rises (amongst other things)

[icaruspendragon]

hiii, this might be weird, but who is Lazarus? I'm not religious, so I've tried searching for who he is, but I can't seem to get a clear answer and was wondering if you could explain him?

ah yes, lazarus of bethany. a man i consider to be equal parts friend and foe.

lazarus lived in bethany with his two sisters, mary and martha. and when we meet him, he’s sick. so much so that his sisters send for jesus of nazareth saying, “lord, your dear friend is very sick.”

jesus of nazareth was in jerusalem when he received the message. and despite being only a few miles from bethany, and despite jesus loving martha and mary and lazarus, he waited. he didn’t go to them straight away. he waited. he waited until lazarus died and then said, “lazarus’ sickness will not end in death. no, it happened for the glory of god so that the son of god will receive glory from this.”  

and when jesus finally made it to bethany he was told lazarus had already died. that he has already been in the grave for four days. and when martha, sister of lazarus got word that jesus was coming, she went to meet him. and mary, sister of lazarus did not. and when martha saw jesus she said to him, “lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.”

and jesus said to her, “your brother will rise again.”

but then mary arrived and she saw jesus and she fell at his feet and she said, “lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.” and she wept over her brother. because she loved him and he was gone. and jesus should have been there. because if jesus had been there, her brother would not have died.

and jesus saw her weeping. and he saw the other people wailing with her. because lazarus was deeply loved. and now he was gone. and they had sent for jesus. they had prayed for a miracle. and that miracle didn’t come until it was four days too late. and they didn’t know that jesus was going to bring lazarus back. they didn’t know that jesus had waited that long to teach a lesson. to prove a point. they just knew jesus was too late. and now they were forced to grieve.

and then a deep anger welled up in jesus. and he was deeply troubled. and jesus asks, “where have you put him?” and the people say, “lord, come and see.” and he does. and when he sees, jesus weeps. when he sees, we get the shortest verse in the bible. a mere two words to sum up an entire town’s grief. two words to convey the loss of a sibling. two words are offered for the preventable death of a loved man.

jesus is four days too late. and jesus?

jesus wept.

and the people who loved lazarus turned to him and said to jesus, “see how much he loved him!”

jesus loved lazarus. and then he let him die.

and some of the people said about jesus “this man healed a blind man. couldn’t he have kept lazarus from dying?”

and then jesus, who knew all along that he would revive lazarus. jesus, who let all those people mourn. jesus, who let those sisters lose their brother. jesus, who let them weep. jesus, who wept with them. that very same jesus said to those who loved lazarus, who mourned him, jesus of nazareth said to them, “didn’t i tell you that you would see god’s glory if you believe?”

and then the stone of lazarus’ tomb was rolled aside. and then jesus looked up to heaven and said, “father, thank you for hearing me. you always hear me, but i said it out loud for the sake of all these people standing here, so that they will believe you sent me.” and then jesus shouted, “lazarus, come out!” and he did.

lazarus the dead man came out, his hands and feet and face wrapped still in burial cloth. and then jesus of nazareth told them, “unwrap him and let him go!”

and then lazarus of bethany became lazarus of the grave. lazarus of the grave that will never be left behind even though he has risen and relinquished. lazarus of the grave who did not make good his escape unscathed. lazarus of the grave who will now check each darkened doorway as death and his sting is keenly felt.

lazarus was a man. a man whose family loved him. a man whose sisters sent for a miracle. a man whose sisters mourned him in the four days it took for that miracle to show up. a man who was made an example for no reason other than being loved by jesus. a thing that we are all told to be. loved by our savior.

lazarus is a man who makes me wonder three things. firstly, if jesus had been there that my brother may not have died. secondly, if jesus of nazareth too weeps for me. and thirdly, if jesus loves us and we in turn love him too like the scriptures command, why does he use us in the lessons he teaches.

why must we be the men he makes believers of?

so lazarus was just a man whose crime was loving jesus. and martha was just a girl whose crime was loving her brother. and they both suffered a miracle because of it.

#cw religion #yeah it’s always time to religious trauma post on main #lazarus was just a man #lazarus was brother #and my brother was a man #and i am a sister #and i too loved jesus as martha and mary did #so why did he get to come back when my brother did not? #i also tend to think of lazarus as dean winchester before i think of him as lazarus from the bible lmao #hence the title of my book being ‘lazarus rises (amongst other things)’ #bc of hit cw show supernatural #and the bible too ig #but mainly supernatural

[ethannku]

i will love you after you’re gone

here with me by d4vd // lazarus rises (among other things) by @icaruspendragon​ // the adventure zone episode 69: story and song // in case you don’t live forever by ben platt // inkpot gods by the amazing devil // heart to heart by mac demarco 

#web weaving #web weave #words #word webs #word weaving #ethan writes #lazarus rises (amongst other things) #songs #poetry #love #on love #grief #poems #icaruspendragon #d4vd #the adventure zone #ben platt #the amazing devil #inkpot gods #heart to heart #mac demarco