#like TUESDAY of LAST WEEK

[amyisherenowitsokay]

hahahahaha this morning i woke up with the symptoms of an illness that traumatized me for life in 2017 that nearly killed me, left me crippled for 3 years, and still effects my ability to go to hospitals/receive medical care/my relationship with food/my bodily autonomy/paranoia about my weight and the fact I haven't (and won't) own a scale in 6+ years/is just generally triggering to my mental health in literally every way hahahahahahahahaha

#i just got over covid a week ago #like TUESDAY of LAST WEEK #was the FIRST DAY ive been out of my house since JANUARY 15TH #i am spiraling down this slide into mania and its only been 12 hours since i realized what was going on #waiting for the labs but i KNOW what this fucking feels like #within 5 minutes of describing my history to my doctor she went from 'well lets wait and see' #to #'as soon as the labs come back i'll send the prescription' #anyways im doing GREAT

[newttxt]

apartment shenanigans

from utilities included, ch. 9 (mind the tags and rating!)

masterpost

#one piece #sanji #zoro #zosan #utilities included #this week was… NOT a good week. i struggled to draw and i didnt feel well #and i was BUSY too. just a whole slew of things #so i didnt thumbnail/sketch this comic until tuesday. and then i like. did 2 pgs of lines?? but i hated them and deleted them??? #but i hated those lines and deleted them!! so last night at 2am (as u do) i relined all four pages. slapped on the colors. threw on text. #so apologies if the quality is off. haha. i rly did this in like 7 hrs and now i need to sleep #im just incredibly stubborn and refused to miss the second to last chapter!!! ok time to sleep im rambling

[becca-e-barnes]

Can i request something where bucky has a smutty obsession with sundresses? Just the way his doll looks in them and stuff?

I've definitely written Bucky loving sundresses before but now that there's a bit of a chill in the air, I'm imagining the same sundresses but with tights underneath 😏

Having the tights keeps you a little bit warmer but it doesn't give Bucky the access he's used to. The tights are such a tease because he knows how flimsy they are but they're in the way of what he wants and that would never do.

He does love the feeling of them though. The thin material is so smooth under his fingertips, there's an attractive sheen to them and he finds he can't take his eyes off your legs, right at the hem of your dress.

"Sweetheart." Bucky's voice is firm and it makes you smile to yourself. "Come here."

He's sitting by the kitchen table, sipping his coffee and you know that he's been watching you since you came down to make your breakfast.

You peck his lips softly when you reach him, enjoying the way a smile tugs at the corners of his lips. "Everything okay?" You ask, letting him press his knee between your thighs, spreading your legs.

His hands land on your legs out of instinct. The silky smooth feeling does something for him that he didn't quite expect and for a second, touching you over the fabric feels just as intimate as touching your bare skin.

"I like these." Bucky teases, squeezing your ass, making you roll slightly against his thigh.

"I'm glad you like them. You need to be gentle though, you'll rip them."

That wasn't even something he'd considered but now it's all he can think about. Those perfect tights, totally ruined, your panties pushed out of the way so there's nothing between your body and his fingers.

"You've never really liked it when I'm too gentle." He reminds you and you can't help but giggle because he's right and you know it. "What if... I just ripped a hole. Right here. Between your legs." His fingers tap the apex of your thighs, through your tights and underwear and your only option is to grind down on his thigh just a little harder.

"That would ruin them." You rock your hips back and forth, enjoying the friction against his insanely muscular thigh, letting your own need build.

"I don't think so. I think it might make them better. You know I like those pretty dresses you wear. Putting that flimsy fabric in the way is just a tease." Both of his hands meet under your skirt, testing the resistance of the material when he tugs in different directions.

"Rip them." You whisper, half pleading.

He huffs out a quiet laugh, pulling harder and you feel the fabric give the whole way across with little ladders beginning to run down the legs.

"Bend over. Let me see." You do as you're told, standing up, pulling the skirt of your dress up to expose your clothed sex to him.

It's not clothed for long though, he widens the hole just a little, slipping your panties to the side to allow him to sink a finger into your wet, eager, inviting cunt, quickly followed by a second.

"Pretty little hole to fuck you through." He muses, watching you try to resist the urge to fuck yourself on his fingers, getting more and more desperate for his cock.

#asks answered <3 #becca writes spice #anon #this is in honour of the fact that my winter wardrobe is really just my summer dresses plus tights 🙃 #this week honestly came with enough problems for an entire year #I don't know what happened this week #It felt like it lasted FOREVER #somehow each day got a little bit worse than the day before #I lost my cool completely on Tuesday afternoon #and there was no getting it back last week #so I've taken time off to work in my other job this week and hopefully that helps #need a bit of a break

[dear-ao3]

alright WHICH ONE OF YOU stole my earring and can i PLEASE HAVE IT BACK

#context is that one of my earrings went inexplicably missing on tuesday night of last week #im about 98% convinced its in my apartment i just can't find it #and i would like to!! #it was a graduation present!! #which one of you stole my earring !!! #give it back please!!! #not a tag #from saph

[why-the-heck-not]

22.03.23, wednesday

took the start of this week way too chill because “I have plenty of time for the end of the week deadlines” and then today realised that it is in fact the middle of the week and I gotta hurry tf up now

#I always do this #deadlines on sunday so on monday I feel like I'm organized and on top of things and then tuesday also suddenly goes for like mentally #preparing and focusing on things I've neglected during the last week's school work catch up (aka cleaning etc) and then I once again have #just a few days to get a week's worth of stuff done so I have to catch up again and so im tired of things on monday again #and so the cycle continues lol #also im aware I have like almost identical pic posted here before but like only so many different types of pictures u can take of one desk #studyblr #study #studyspo #aesthetic #aes #dark academia #chaotic academia #march 2023 #2023

[pebblezone]

She is soooo Living Dead Girl core

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #a #okay I need to explain myself I started a journey last week to get world without logos on Apple Music which worked but before involved me #searching through hellsing playlists and one of them had dragula and I was omg wait rob zombie I’ve never given you the time of day that #ends now to which I listen to all of hellbilly deluxe and am like this is sooooo seras core my baby girl #so starting Monday I’m evening what cool drawing can I make so I can be like living dead girl core #also so on Instagram I can have it be the little jingle that was the main driving point #the important thing to note is I finished ultimate Tuesday and decided that I have to watch the abridge because it seems like #required reading so that same night I begin watching the abridge as I’m finalizing the sketch for this #next day comes I’m going ham and I hit the 7th episode and imagine my absolute horror to find they used it for her going ham #I’m unoriginal beyond reason and I’m very distressed about it that’s it I’ve bared my soul to the harsh harsh world #abridged makes me remember that cishets interact with media too

[pepperpixel]

A pic of my human whirl design and holomatter avatar whirl hanging out together! Cuz I thought that’d be cute! And I was right… it is!

#transformers #mtmte #whirl #tf whirl #humanformers #mtmte whirl #doodles #Srry it’s been so long since uploading anything. I got a job! last month #and! it’s been going good… but also I do not have as much free time… #also… I’m.. it’s at a daycare… and I got a 102 degree fever last LAST Tuesday #2 Tuesdays ago. and I’m still fucking coughing. every time I start feeling better I go back to work and the sickness like resets itself. #also one of the kids gave me pinkeye!!! #im… thinking about looking for a diff job lol #im rlly proud of how well I’ve been handling this one. and its def boosted my confidence! #but.. like… i live with old ppl. who have there own serious issues. also I have my own issues! #espec w the eye thing like i had to go to an eye doctor ever month for like 2 years cuz my eyes were screwed up #and finally last year i got the ok that my eyes were doing good! and they weren’t screwed up anymore. and then i get fucking pink eye! #that freaks me out!!!! and Ive been sick for 2 weeks straight! that sucks!!! #like.. ive just realized… this level of exposure to illness and bacteria.. is not worth it lol #ive still got to do like 2 weeks notice tho so hopefully im not fucking sick for 2 more weeks #I feel like that’s a possibility ghgh #anyway yeah I got a job that’s why arts been scarce. gonna get a new job after this one so art will probably still be scarce lol #it’s ok that just means it’ll be more of a treat when I do post! like u guys’ll cherish it more right? lol #absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that #maccadam

[satans-knitwear]

Could really do with some proper alone time 👀✨

Treat me ~ Tip me

#I am desperate to get some of my toys out to play 🥺🥺🥺 im sure ill get a chance soon #It feels like its been a long day already! Despite it being only half 10. A long week actually. I thought it was at least Tuesday already #I think my family (myself included) are all coming down with colds at the moment #Satans knitwear #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #My gif to you #Any tips or treats would be massively appreciated right now 💕 i have about £10 to last me until the 18th 🤢 #Pretty lingerie #Lingerie body #Legs for days #Thighs #Matching choker #Choker #Blue mesh lingerie #Mesh bodysuit #bi girl #uk girl #cheeky #wlw

[museenkuss]

loving and moving my body this week (06.11.-12.11.)*

Monday. 20 MIN EVENING PILATES TO RELAX AND FEEL CALM - EASY AT HOME WORKOUT

Tuesday. Beginners Belly Dance Tutorial | Beautiful Hips & Arms!

Wednesday. Everyday Pilates Mobility and Stretch | Posture, Hips and Hamstrings

Thursday. Victoria's Secret Train Like An Angel Live: Martha Hunt + Ballet Beautiful

Friday. 20 MIN FULL BODY PILATES WORKOUT FOR BEGINNERS - AT HOME PILATES or Waistline Shimmy | Belly Dance Workout

Saturday. 30 MIN FULL BODY PILATES WORKOUT FOR EVERYBODY - AT HOME PILATES

Sunday. "Chocoholics" Valentine's Day Waist Winding Workout

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* the idea here was to find fun little ways to stay active according to my schedule this week. This is completely 'no suffering, joy only'. :)

In case the suggestion doesn't feel right for that day, here are some alternatives (12 minutes or less, can also be used as add-ons). No shame in taking it slow! Let's move according to our needs! :) nightime flexibility stretches // bedtime yoga stretch to release stress & tension // 8 min beginner's ballet flexibility. // 10 min | Beginner Belly Dance Workout | Slow & Smooth Tutorial // 15 min Gentle Pilates Workout For Beginners

#my personal highlights for this week are - well. most of them tbh. #the Saturday one is new and I don't think I've done 30 minutes with Isa before? that's exciting. #I'm also really looking forwards to the Victoria's Secret Angel one. I've been meaning to try those videos for SO long and never did #so this is my excuse to finally do it! <3 I'm excited. If it's too hard I'll most likely add it again a few times #like the waist shimmy vid! I thought I might add it in the evening during the second half of the week whenever I feel like it #we'll see how often I really end up doing it hah. #but I also wanted to add something new so I put a new one on Tuesday. exciting!!! #I really liked Lottie's energy - I tried her for the first time last week and liked it a lot! she explains things very well imo. #I'm excited about Wednesday's stretching one in particular because i've been MEANING to add more stretching to my routine #and oooooh I'm pumped for Sunday again!!! I remember doing this one a WHILE back and I just love Tiffany #I feel like she's perfect for sundays with her high energy dancer sensuality and this looks so fun!! #I try to balance new things / dancing / pilates -- relaxation / energy #Museenkuss #Workout

[brown-little-robin]

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#robin processes emotions on main #would it be evil to stay home from family thanksgiving because I don't think I can do all my homework if I go. would it be selfish #it probably would be selfish #I'm just feeling overwhelmed tonight because I remembered All Of The Homework due on Tuesday next week and I was planning #to do most of that homework today but there's more than I thought and I also chose to do a thanksgiving dinner and online games #with the uncle who also stayed home from family thanksgiving this year. and it was fantastic and I wouldn't trade that for the world #but it was last minute and I'm SO OVERWHELMED NOW 😭 #and I just DROPPED THE PIZZA SAUCE from the pizza he bought me and it was just the last straw folks. now there's pizza sauce #on the floor and tears in my eyes and my throat hurts. and I'm aware this whole upset is selfish but STILL #still #wellllll anyway sorry #big sniff #I'm fine and everything will be fine this is just a lose/lose situation #also I'm not feeling well physically and driving four hours tomorrow for a stressful event sounds really sucky :( #four hours round trip for like six hours in person

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

sharing one of my all-time fave poems totally not because I spent the last hour crying uncontrollably over graduating <3 LMAO

LISTEN I LOVE YOU JOY IS COMING!!!

Text version here.

#when rachel cries it's bad because rachel doesnt cry!!!! #you ever........ grieve for a location <3 #it's not like I'm even obsessed with the city I live in rn but #a younger version of me was #and it's not like I even like my degree now #but a younger version of me did!!!! #not the impending future looming upon me lmao #my last class will likely be tuesday (likely because I might... skip some LMAO) so I'm just... in it #writing session at the starbucks turned into writing session at the library's coffee shop #which I used to go to every week to visit a friend in first year & I loved it #which then turned into writing in the student union building which might be one of the last times I ever go there #& my last week of classes ever starts tomorrow #umm not it coinciding with holy week um that's very lonancore of you university #I OBVIOUSLY live very far away from my uni city so I'll probably never come back here ever again #the autism is rlly autisming about this LOL #to everyone else graduating this month... #LISTEN I LOVE YOU JOY IS COMING

[whumpacabra]

The Target

Angst, back from the dead, memory loss, amnesia, guilt, implied past abandonment, referenced past captivity and torture, referenced past illness, therapy mention

[Directly follows Tea]

The set up was cliche for a reason: it worked. No fancy equipment, as few moving parts as possible, and complete deniability. Jackson had taken the target to a small tea shop in the heart of the city. Crowded but not too busy. Bribing the waiter to sit the pair behind her table was easy.

The hard part was resisting the urge to turn around and look at him -

(She needed to be patient. Even if it was her Wolf back from the dead, she wasn’t sure her presence would be soothing.)

(…)

(If it was her Wolf, if Ghost had left him for dead, if he had survived all these years - would he hate her? Would he forgive Ghost?)

“You’re looking well, East.”

“Thanks. Helps to not be half dead and sick as a dog.”

The voice was…wrong. Too gravelly, too low - the accent though, the cadence of his words…oh, how desperately she wanted to believe it was him. A waiter brought her the tea she had ordered, creamy and warm and sweet. She didn’t have the stomach for it, thinking about the target behind her.

“I’m sorry I haven’t been around lately. I know it must have been a…rough adjustment.”

The man behind Liza scoffed.

“It’s been…an adjustment, to be sure.” He sighed, voice softening. “But I’m…doing better. Thanks to you - ”

“Oh, don’t you dare give me credit. That’s all you. And Nate, of course. I just dropped you at the door and left.”

“You didn’t have to. Help me, I mean.” East clearly meant to elaborate, but a waiter came by to take their order. Liza forced herself to swallow a few sips of her drink. She told herself she didn’t shiver at his coffee order - it didn’t mean anything, anyone could enjoy black coffee and four sugar cubes without milk.

“Speaking of, helping you, how’s Judy been?”

“Helpful.” The word was clipped and professional, but East worked some levity into his voice as he continued. “Starting to feel like a real person again.”

“I’m glad.” The warmth in Jackson’s voice almost took Liza off guard. So sickeningly tender and genuine. “You have no idea how relieved I am that you’re - ”

He cut himself off, their drinks served by an unwitting waiter. There was the clatter of tea cups and coffee mugs and sugar stirred with honey.

“Careful, it’s hot.”

“I know - it’s still good.”

“How can you tell with it burning your tastebuds off?” Jackson’s amused huff and East’s chuckling sigh only made the pang of nostalgia all the louder in Liza’s heart. Wolf (her Wolf) never waited for his coffee to cool; too impatient to wait - he always claimed it tasted worse once it cooled to a drinkable temperature.

“I’m glad you’re back, Jackson.” East’s voice was still warm, but there was a tension under his words. “How have you been? Is everything…alright?”

“Fine. I’m doing just fine - happy to be home, if I’m quite honest.” Jackson’s reply was immediate and open, but dreadfully vague. “Everything’s just fine.”

Liza couldn’t see East’s reaction behind her, but whatever it was compelled Jackson to continue. She could almost see him, in her mind’s eye: her Wolf…a decade younger, face pinched in worry - always worried - and eyes bright with determined preparation for every scenario.

“Things are dying down. Americans are keeping to themselves for once, and it’s looking like a cold case.” Jackson’s voice was almost too quiet to hear, but Liza could practically feel the tension bleed from the man behind her. “Almost out of the woods - just some finalized paperwork and seals of approval.”

“And what happens…after?”

Liza stared down at her tea, trying to picture it. The great and terrifying Ghost - who swore off apprentices after losing his first, his last - being told the man that was practically his son had survived. (Had been abandoned.) Wolf - who went through a hell at the hands of the enemy, who spent years abandoned and alone - survived and he could come home. (To a stranger in his room and the dog he loved long dead.)

(Her one regret in her life burned bright in her throat - oh, how he would have loved to meet Casey. How different things could have been if Wolf was around to protect her boy.)

“After…we get you home.”

“Which is?” East (Wolf?)’s whisper was hoarse, laced with a sad desperation that broke Liza’s heart. Jackson had told her he might have - she didn’t really think, she hoped -

(She was a fool, always blinded by hope and it’s empty promises.)

“I - I thought you said things were going well with Judy - ”

“Nevermind. Your tea’s getting cold.“ It was like a switch had flipped, words suddenly steady and strong. Whatever fledgling hope Liza had that this was her Wolf, that he could come home, died in her chest.

(Wolf hadn’t had a home to come back to in along time.)

“Hey, I just - East…it’s fine. We said it would probably take some time. We’re not in any rush - ”

“You seem to be.” There was a thin bite to the words, defensive but still smothered in that muted parody of nonchalance. “I don’t know. I don’t really want to. It sucks to think about. I thought maybe you…figured something out that I couldn’t.”

“East…love, I - ”

“It’s fine. I like my job. I like my friends. Think Al and I might get a flat together - rent’s too high to not have roommates in this economy.” East’s sigh was decisive, a harsh swallow before he continued. “I just - God, fuck - I like my life right now. And I don’t want to leave it all behind. But I know - I don’t know - what you need or, or want me to do in return for - ”

“Nothing. East, I’m not here to take you away I just - I didn’t know if you had somewhere else you’d rather be. But, if you’re happy here…I don’t see any reason for you to leave.”

“Really?”

(Why did the relief in his voice sound so much like a nail in the empty coffin they buried for him?)

Liza wanted to get sick; she stood up a bit too quickly, chair bumping into the man behind her. She pulled on the mask of a stranger, perfect and apologetic and calm, and looked a dead man in the eye.

“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry - ”

“No worries.”

Her heart dropped to her feet, his polite glance failing to betray recognition, even though she knew that face and those eyes so well, even a decade removed -

(He looked so much older than she remembered him. Tired. Contented. Scarred and worn by time and it’s ravages. Where was the soldier more boy than man she remembered? Where was his fiery eyes and burning passion? Where was his fight?)

(…)

(Was it better, she wondered, for him to live a life without that fight, that fire in his heart? God knew how it had burned her and everyone else who knew him when it was snuffed out.)

Liza took her leave, heart in her throat.

—

“Did you - ?”

“I don’t know him. This was a waste of my time.”

“I’m sorry - ”

“I’m sure you are.” Liza let her voice soften as she looked out at the rain hitting her hotel window. She sighed into the phone, speaking before she could regret it. “Agent Jackson?”

“Yes?”

“I don’t know this Wolf of yours, but it sounds like he’s having a pretty good life.” She almost paused, almost stopped to consider telling him the truth before deciding better of it. Liza was far more comfortable in a lie. “Don’t fuck it up looking for something he doesn’t need found.”

“…Thank you, Liza.”

She snapped the phone closed, and closed her eyes, remembering the face she knew on a man who didn’t know her.

It wasn’t worth unburying that empty casket. It wasn’t worth uprooting a good, clean civilian life. It wasn’t worth opening old wounds. Wolf was dead, as he had been for a decade. Liza needed to make sure he stayed dead, and that East stayed alive and well and untainted by the world he left behind.

[Before Smoke Break]

(Part of my Freelancers: Changing Tides series)

Taglist: @stargeode @sacredwrath @genuineformality

#whump #angst #back from the dead #memory loss #amnesia #guilt #abandonment #past torture #past captivity #past illness #therapy mention #freelancers #*squeezing Liza like a squeaky toy* her track record for deciding she knows what’s best for people in her life sucks so bad #but she keeps doing it because she cares too much to let anything be anyone’s fault but hers. #and east…oh east. this is just a random Tuesday for him. it’s the last time she’ll see the face of her friend and he doesn’t even know it. #I am unwell abt my own ocs. *autism creature stare* I just think they’re neat. #in other news it’s [redacted] today so. worst case scenario I’ll explain whatever the fuck keeps me away from the internet #whenever I can get back. best case scenario nothing happens and life goes on as usual for my blog schedule here. o7 #regardless just gotta get through the week and I’ll have a better bead on the risk level we’re looking at. #personal rambling done. mwah I love you people who read my goofy tags.

[bruno-boobccellati]

#trans #tgirl tummy tuesday #mtf #idk #my face #idk some people liked the ones i posted last week so heres another #trans girl #hi

[anipgarden]

Oh yeah quick question

So my new swamp milkweeds have little brown spots??? Theyve had them since I got them from the store but I feel like the Spot Density is increasing (or I might be crazy) would anyone know what the deal is?

#swamp milkweed #milkweed #asclepias incarnata #asclepias #gardening help #ani rambles #out of queue #IVE BEEN WATERING THEM #and like the lawn guy my friend’s mom hires came to do Mowing Things earlier this week but all he did is mow I think #and the spots have been there since I bought the plants #the first few pics are from at the store on Tuesday #then a pic from Thursday #then the last 3 are from just now #I’m hoping to keep them in these pots until Novemberish because I’m staying at my friend’s house #so I was thinking have a lil mini pollinator garden for Serotonin Reasons until i go back home in November and then put them in the ground #but if this is a ‘they need room bucko’ thing then maybe I’ll just plant them when I have to go dogsit for my parents next week

[calamitys-child]

Local knowledge will always beat advertising for actual useful outcomes my colleague recommended a cobbler that's a tiny wee place down an alley across town but by god if they won't fix my boots just as well as the big brand name shoe repair place in the town centre faster and for half the price

#they told me the price and i was like 'per shoe?' cause last time i went to the big place and it was £68 so i had prepared for that #and he went no all our services are for the pair as standard itll just be £35 we can do em by Saturday #and i was like oh i was expecting it to be longer im away next weekend and he went ah thats grand in that case come back on Tuesday #like???? last time it was £70 and two weeks at a big company with loads of staff and resources #what do you mean two dudes in a hundred year old hole in the wall can do a 5-day turnaround for half that?????? #every day i learn a little more about the wider community ive found myself in and every day it is a delight

[alsojnpie]

good news: i found a four leaf clover in my yard!

bad news: i did break a bone after all! IT HURTS!!!!

#glad i went in for a follow up #but i won't be able to get a cast before Monday or Tuesday.... :(( I'm kinda scared it's healing in the wrong spot... #it wasn't hurting that much until they straightened out my hand to put it in a temporary cast #hey. but you know what. this is ok #i needed to slow down anyway #my knee was in the middle of overuse and i kept trying to rest but didn't. I'm gonna take these next few weeks to just slooowww dowwwn #and at the end I'll be all healed. it'll be so good. I'll use my hand again and I'll run again. and until then I'll read and draw and nap #it isn't even a hairline fracture. it's like a whole piece of the bone broke off. it's unfortunate that they missed it last week :( #I'm not gonna think about this.... I'm gonna think about....a abut...paprus instead -///-