#like a lot lol

[i-dont-exis]

first drawing of bish :)

im probably gonna try something proper later {and not a doodle} when i have more time on my hands ^v^

#i really liked her #like a lot lol #evil women stay winning #my inner demons #aphmau #lady bish #daemos should have tails im right /hj #shes wonky lookin but i love her <2

[jerzwriter]

(The first paragraph sounds like I'm judging, but I swear I’m not! I’ll explain better in the next one.)

I saw you said, “I couldn’t do that to them.” Meaning you couldn’t have Tobias and Casey not getting a happy ending together. And we’ve seen Ethan losing the girl more than once, sometimes is for some years, sometimes is forever. And, unlike Casey and Tobias, in some stories someone better for them does come along in time. In no way I’m judging YOUR decisions on YOUR story based on YOUR character.

But this is the perception I have from your work. T&C is the “fairytale” couple who always gets their happy ending, they love each other in every universe and there’s no one better for them than each other. While E&K/C feels more like a normal couple who can broke up/separate, find someone else and move on, or not, they can also find their way back to each other.

And there’s nothing wrong with it. I take it the same way of having T&C portraying the “big happy family” and E&K/C portraying the “small happy family”. Different approaches to different people.

That's why it makes me curious to know if this is made deliberate or just something your mind does unconsciously, and it jumps into your writing?

Because we know fucked up people tend to fuck up things more in life. And we know Ethan is the perfect example for that, given his complexity. So if someone is going to often lose love it makes sense it’s not the man with two loving parents, rich, handsome, with charm and a good heart.

And it’s something I admire from your stories, HC or AU, the characters tend to stay in the same spectrum of their personality. I think that’s why I see things this way? Like a collection of Ethans and Tobiases lol following a pattern of conducts. Hence my question! It's this something that just happened or you made it this way for a reason?

I hope this made sense :)

Ah, Nonny. I wish we could meet up someplace with a cup of coffee (tea for me) and a couple cookies and talk about love and all that goes with it for hours. I can go on and on about it.

The truth is love is a dangerous game. It shouldn't be, but it is. The greatest highs, the lowest lows... and precious few emerge unscathed. That's kind of OK, though, because I think it's from those scars that we learn who we are, who we want to be, and who we want to be with IF we want to be with anyone (because it's not a requirement).

None of my pairings will ever be permanently separated in my headcanons for them. That's where each is the other's perfect match, their soulmate, their forever. Not bringing irreparable sadness there.

In AUs, anything is game. The only time I permanently ended Tobias/Casey was in Till I See You Again, where Casey died. But it's not to say I never would. Although, after living through the after-effects of "hurting" a pairing, the idea of one couple being the one that will fall in love and stay together in any world is appealing to me. (Hi @liaromancewriter), even if I don't necessarily believe in this concept in real life.

I think all of us are a little broken. Tobias is not perfect, either. Sure, he had parents who modeled a loving relationship, but sometimes their relationship was so all-encompassing he felt like an outsider, even as a young child. Then there was the racial dynamics. Tobias didn't feel his father did enough to understand what it meant to be black in America. He certainly didn't think he did enough to understand what it was like for Tobias to grow up in our society, and he felt he tried to whitewash him. This led to their estrangement, and they didn't get to fully heal before his father's untimely death. His younger brother resented Tobias terribly at the time. He felt he left him to carry much of the burdens of the family alone, and he borderline hated Tobias for a bit, thinking he hurt their father and he had to die feeling that pain. All of this led to him making some seriously fucked up choices and could have permanently derailed any relationship.

Kaycee/Casey is really the most together - two loving parents who doted on her and supported her every step of the way. She has a secure base and knows she is loved unconditionally. Yet, her mother suffered a long-term illness and nearly died, and that had lifelong effects on K/C. She also had insecurities that did not stem from her family life which did impact some choices she made and could have derailed things easily.

Now let's jump out of OH land and go to WTD-land. Eli & Zoe are literally living in a zombie apocalypse. They've seen/experienced loss and horrors most of us can only imagine. The "broken-ness" is REAL for both, even though they process it very differently. Yet, in my mind, when they come together, they cherish what they share even more than others because of what they've endured. They know it's a precious gift, and they're going to fight for it. Beyond that, they love each other, scars and all, because there is an understanding. We've been through hell, it's impacted who we are, but I still love you completely. In some ways, it's the purest love of any pairing I have.

Ethan had his struggles, he had his damage for sure, but I don't think it's anything insurmountable. It only is when Ethan refuses to acknowledge it and move forward. Where he fights rather than accepts. I think there is so much beauty in his character because of the broken parts that are put back together so beautifully. In some worlds (DTI), he comes to a place of healing through terrible decisions and painful loss. In others (like HC), he comes to the same place through patience and love. But he is worthy of love, and I hope I always make that clear.

I truly love all of my pairings, I just love them in different ways, because they're so unique.

#whats love got to do with it #like a lot lol #asks answered

[nat-seal-well]

Idk if this song actually has Huxley vibes but it’s one of my favorites and it does to me 💙

#redacted asmr #redacted huxley #I also just love that band #like a lot lol #Spotify

[kithtaehyung]

Oh I have one! Do you practice any other art forms besides writing and your beautiful photoshop gif sets/ pictures?

Like I’ve been a visual artist for as long as I can remember (visual as in if it involves my hands I can usually do it) and have always been lovingly jealous of people who can write, act or play music because I’ve never had the knack for anything else. Hence my consistent praise for your works because god what I wouldn’t give for talent like yours. I’d love to expand my talents (tried writing a book. Got 60k in and gave up) but I nothings stuck as much as art.

I’ve had half the mind to doodle 3tan things (like pin/sticker ideas - me and anatomy aren’t the best of friends) cuz it inspires me which is super rad as it happens less and less these days. -J

Awhhhhh J!! You can always make 3tan doodles or fanart whenever🥺 I would love to see what you come up with<33 And 60k?? MY LOVE.. that is fcking impressive I’m so proud of you either way.

As far as your question: I dance and play instruments :D literally on my way to dance practice rn. I used to sketch and do word art regularly, too, but stopped doing it as often unless i have a commission.

#ask me anything! #I also journaled a shit ton for my studyblr #like a LOT lol #j! #ask games #*art #mailbox💌

[muunliight]

My absolute worst quality is thinking that Jack from Mojave is so fucking funny like fr my sense of humor is FUCKED

#and tbh even if he wasnt played by Oscar I'd love his character #but oscar helps #like a lot lol #but fr my murder bf #and im probably gonna end up writing something fucked about him :^] #jack from mojave #mojave

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[louderfade]

#i loved this movie and book as a kid #like a lot lol #a little princess #gif

[bixels]

I watched Starship Troopers tonight.

#personal #dumb #my art #immediately after finishing i was pumped to watch some analysis vids on it #cuz i heard a lot of the drama about the original author being a pro military fascist and the director going “fuck that” and making a satir #scrolling through youtube search results was not promising. lots of male film buffs i would Not trust even on a first glance. #“The Critical Drinker” (pfp of a bearded man drinking alcohol) lol. #and then I saw cinemawins did a video on it and was like oh nice i haven't seen his stuff in a while but he's a pretty leftist creator #scrolled through the comments #second panel face #this sucks i'm outta here. #just leagues and leagues and leagues of anime pfps and right leaning people dogpiling on him for “not understanding what fascism is” #idk it's pretty alien and weird to me watching this movie and going “wow yeah that was pretty obvious huh” like literally the from opening #to the teacher preaching militance and only giving voting rights to “those who serve their nation first and earn it” #and then seeing droves of people online going #WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? It's not anti-fascist and even if it was it's #the director's fault for desecrating heinlein's incredible sci-fi epic vision. ermm media literacy is dead.

[stellarspecter]

@pscentral event 20: antagonists ↳ THE LORDS IN BLACK in NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE

#nerdy prudes must die #npmd #starkid #npmdedit #team starkid #the lords in black #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #npmd spoilers #userisiah #userfaiths #userbaz #usercats #userhallie #noooo fucking clue what to tag in this fandom lmao #musicaledit #? sure #anyway yeah i watched npmd and immediately had to make this i was up until 1 am last night #wouldve been earlier but i had to take a break for dnd lol #i was gonna do a tua set for the event but this is easier and better so like. slay #i just wish they had more screen time. pokey and tinky have less than 20 seconds each </3 #oh and the titles and stuff are from the fan wiki. hope i didn't get anything wrong #i've been getting a lot of use out of this motion blur text transition its so funky fresh #*edits

[weaselmcdiesel]

Do You Love The Color Of The 413?

#HOMESTUCK #413 #HOMESTUCK 413 #john egbert #dave strider #rose lalonde #jade harley #vriska #kanaya #terezi #karkat #HAPPY 413 YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!! #THIS TOOK ME 4 DAYS PLEASE LOVE IT #AHHHHHHH IVE NEVER MADE ANYTHING THIS BIG BEFORE #IT'S NOT AS FINISHED AS ID LIKE- LIKE I USED A LOT OF JUST MULTIPLICITY LAYERS FOR SHADING BUT #I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME LMAO #ALSO IM PRETTY SURE TUMBLR WILL EAT THE QUALITY SO PLEASE CLICK TO ZOOM LOL #ART #MY ART #heavens. i dont know if i should tag all the characters? #ill only tag the bigger characters i guess #since so many are in there #it's supposed to be transparent and not black #but apparently tumblr will turn transparency white if the photo is too large #fucking great

[inafallsaway]

Drawing time!

#one piece #monkey d luffy #luffy #nico robin #nami #I think they draw together a lot #both can’t draw tho lol #I tried to base robins style after the couple eps she we do see her drawing #she has lots of sharp lines lol #also wanted to include a ton of tiny cute things on the fridge #I wanted to add more but i think I went a wee bit overboard #the things in the corner if you can’t tell are magnets that represent all of them #ok no more rambling I hope you like I worked hard on it hehe #my art

[tubbytarchia]

This is the first proper kiss I've ever drawn, anyway so Real Life huh

#the only mouth to mouth kisses Ive drawn before this point (which is like three) have all been covered up. This moment was too compelling #smallidarity #trafficshipping #sigh feeling a lot of things about them lol #Let the homies kiss please #tubby art

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

which movies have you watched the most amount of times? they dont have to be your actual favorite movies, just the ones youve rewatched most. for example: mine are the final destination movies and scream

#mutuals especially i really want to know #a) because movie rec but b) because i feel like it says a lot about you as a person JSDHGFHJ #but fr i fuckign Love the final destination movies they are so much fun #and i used to play the first scream every time i cleaned my house lol i dont know why #txt #if no one reblogs this ill cry talk to me Boy

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[verflares]

(click for higher quality!) draconified link concept ive been chipping away at this past week ..... here's my funny little compendium concept for him:

"A heroic spirit has taken the form of this bestial dragon. Unlike it's kin, this creature exhibits an extremely aggressive disposition. It appears highly territorial, and will relentlessly chase down those who disturb its skywide patrols - of which it seems to be endlessly searching for either a long-time vassal or foe. Unfortunately, it seems the spirit within has long since forgotten exactly who it was looking for…"

#now. how on earth do i begin to tag this. um. #link #loz #totk #totk spoilers #light dragon #dragon link #loz au #totk roleswap au #there . i'll add more if they come to me LOL #um i can talk about some of my insps i guess?? might make another post too #so mostly i just dont really like turning him into 'light dragon but male' and giving him slightly darker colours or something like that #this also obviously isnt exactly like the botw dragons either though and its a bit more of a mix of other creature concepts i enjoy #since everyone agrees he'd have a farosh horn i wanted to make him a kirin/unicorn :) which is why his tail looks like that #aside from the obvious eastern dragon insps and what ive picked and chosen from the botw dragons #and obviously this looks a lot like wolf link. thats on purpose #i wanted to give him some fierce deity design refs too but because this is so dark/earthy they didnt look very fitting #but honestly you could do a whole fierce deity dragon design on its own i think #okay lots of tags but IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR A WHILE. okay. let me have this. #my art

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.