#loving myaelf and loving others

[biioniic-biiohazard]

i love you systems with different or more specific experiences <3 i love you introjects with different/mixed sources dating or being friends <3 i love you undiagnosed systems <3 i love you introjects with multiple sources <3 i love you introjects with creators who are aren't the best people and/or not working on their source anymore <3 i love you factives that are nonhuman in headspace <3 i love you introjects with specific and lesser known sources <3 i love you introjects who look/act nothing like their source <3 i love you systems with detailed headspaces <3 i love you systems with little to no headspace or low detailed/smaller headspaces <3 i love you systems with small amounts of headmates <3 i love you polyfragmented systems <3 i love you frontstuck alters <3 i love you alters who are scared to front <3 i love you systems who switch all the time <3 i love you systems who rarely switch <3 i love you alters who are animals, objects, concepts, and songs <3 i love you brainformed alters without sources <3 i love you systems with complex sexualities and genders and romantic orientations <3 i love you systems with majority one gender or sexuality <3 i love you transgender systems <3 i love you disabled systems <3 i love you autistic systems <3 i love you schizospec systems <3 i love you systems with ocd <3 i love you systems with tic discorders <3 i love you systems YOU ARE ALL VERY COOL AND AWESOME MWAH you're all doing great and i hope every system who reads this has an amazing day and night ^^

#not endos tho. never endos. get exploded or something lol idfk #THIS POST ISN'T FOR ENDOS💥💥💥 DIE #anyways HIIIIIII ACTUAL SYSTEMS #twirling my hair idfk. #genuinely though i had been thinkign about making a silly little post like this #feels like a lot of posts in the system tags are arguing and syscourse n shit.. we need some positivity :) #anyways yes i hope all systems have a great day and have good luck for a million years #mwah luv ya guys/p #system #sysblr #endos dni #lol. get exploded or something like i said #system positivity #honestly thought i could also direct a bit of these to myself lol #i've been needing some positivity myaelf recently so :)))) i think this makes me feel better #loving myaelf and loving others #proxxtalx

[seraphimsinful]

I need to just take something and shut up and lay down.!

#my car gets used and i get used and no one wants to put anything back into it #that stupid car has a dent and i dont take care of what im supposed to #im not even a person im not even of value to the leople in this family #maybe if i just went off the deep end like mom itd make someone look at me #my family doesnt even KNOW me #they dont know anything about me my parents dont know my favorite color and everytime i have #an interest its shot down or made fun of #i hate existing around others i hate being such a burden i wish someone would stuff me full of some sort of medicine to make me normal or #sedate me in some way so ill never bother anyone else ever again #i fucking hate tbis. i hate myself. im so ugly. how could anyone truly really genuinely want me #its why those people decided to spread sleeping around allegations its why f1nn and m3t decided i was worthless to them #why all those exes decided i was awful #im the common denominator #im the problem. i am. #i should hust hang ojt with jason and then drive off forever #he wouldnt stop me i bet #idk. im ashamed of myaelf. #all i do is burden the poeple i love.

[anamelessfool]

8, 15, 19, 21 <3

8 Want any tattoos?

I have one, a copy of a 2500 year old elk tat found on the Siberian Ice Maiden mummy. I am planning on getting a woodcut-inspired one of Copia in his Year Zero cornette outfit that I designed. I'm getting a little squicked out and anxious about it so if you are a tattoo friend please reassure me.

15 Favorite Movie

Tie between The Big Lebowski and Hellraiser. Yeah, that explains a lot.

19 A fact about your personality

Past few years I have tried to modify my speech patterns. Stopped apologizing all the time, stopped using the word "just". I feel different. Some people don't like how direct I speak now, but I'm okay with it. I'm terrible at being vague and trying to understand when people are being vague with me. I've accepted that part of myself. It's been tough training the people around me, but I'm a happier less stressed person now and they feel it.

21 what I love most about myaelf

I take other people's art seriously. I try to believe in other people. I'm excited when I see people live their dream.

Nosy anon ask game

#ask answered #nosy anon

[snickiebear]

in the middle of chest and tri day and realizing my issue is that i am constantly embarrassed of myaelf and the things i like because everytime i expressed that i liked something someone would always critize it or me for liking said thing. so now im here and everytime i like something and i want to tell people or communicate that i like it, im filled with this absolute dread of being known and seen and perceived. im constantly caught in between wanting to share things with people i care about and not wanting anyone to know anything about me at all. just. the other day i was tentatively telling my best friend about how this show is literally keeping me afloat and she put her hand on my shoulder and told me "i wanna hear all about it, you seem to really love it" and i almost cried. like no one has ever done that for me and now im thinking about it and just. I find it so embarrassing to be alive and like things and that mindset is such a CAGE, so now im trying to break the bars down

#im slowly letting myself be weird

[pyonkyuun]

i feel like shit i want to claw at my head until i reach my brain i hate everything and i hate myaelf even if i do get helped nothing will get solved i wont start loving myself others wont start loving me its a never ending cycle until i finally get the courage to kill myself. i hate living. i truly wish i could just have someone else end my life, and perhaps afterwards i will be missed. perhaps then theyll think i had significance in their life. anyways have this kitty michiko ball

[cogbreath]

ok serious note am reading abt npd/narcissism more and

my dad is arguably very much describable as like. vulnerable narcissist type. and i did not like that i hated how he was always like that so most of my life ive been making sure to not be like that, be the exact opposite. ans i get so fucking angry when my mom ever compares something i did to something he might do. even if its like, mundane things. but like he is always like "ouhh everyone hates me nobody wants me here" in response to any criticism very resentful ....

so honestly ive been driving myaelf almost crazy at times to Not Be Like That which means i believe everyone loves me and should be grateful for me, i believe i am super beautiful...and i am very much stonefaced to insults or criticism outside of if they are a certain kind that always makes me blow up in anger rather than feeling guilty or shamed. .... especially in alters like japhine the personality traits r very very grandiose.

also this isnt me saying that like. my dad was ever doing some aort of narcissistic abuse because rhats. not a thing that exists. ultimately the behaviors he chose to do to express his personality were his choice and i dont have sympathy for him in regards to that. and he has never taken a single opportunity to treat others better.

idk how much it means in terms of me specifically but i believe it is pathological irt how i gained these traits because i saw parents fight due to dad having those traits ans behaviors and i did not want to get yelled at too so i made extra sure to never say that i was unwanted or inferior to the point i guess i really do view myself as superior at times especially compared to him and i dont think its wrong of me to think that either because outside of that he IS a mean and cruel man to my mom and refuses to stop

[missindependentdiaries]

It's just different, you see. Before, I knew that I had traits that make me unavailable to love. That I cannot even love myself fully. Thus making me be unable to love somebady else, I cannot give to others what I cannot give to myaelf.

But this time, I feel like I'm ready. I can see myself loving myself. I am in love with myself, including and understanding my imperfections all the same. This may and I probably will never reach the final version of myself until the day I cease to breathe. But I have found myself, I know where I am and love it all the same, even as my in progress self.

Therefore, it hurts. Really. To see the version of myself that I love be unseen, unnoticed, unappreciated and unloved. Just because what? I don't even know anymore. Because of the imperfections that I have learned to overlook and love because I know, I am more than them. There is more of me to be loved more than the imperfections, I believe. Do I really have to be perfect just to be loved? Do I have to look perfect? Is it not enough that I can love, finally?

Damn it, I will never be perfect. Can't I just be enough to be loved? Am I not enough? Am I that ugly and fat to be loved? Are these all that really matters?

I am ready to love, will anyone ever be ready? It does not matter if it's not my fault, love is not here all the same.

Yes I can love myself, yes I can live. I can survive. I can be happy but damn it still hurts. I go back to what I said earlier, it hurts to see myself whom I learned to love be unseen.

You do not understand, it took me so long. It was so hard to live day by day for years criticizing myself and seeing all these imprefections and insecurities. I changed so much. I was so aware, that it came to the point that I learned to just be who I am needed to be. Then it was hard but I had to and did unlearn and balance it out with becoming who I wanted to be. It was excruciating to reform my mind soul and body every single day just to be the version of me that I can love. Then it took so much tears, nights, numbness, emotions and understanding just to learn to learn to love that version of me.

And not receiving love like this, not being seen like this: it all validates and resurfaces all the insecurities that I took so long to heal. It wasn't band-aid heal that I did, but damn the wounds are opening again. It just hurts to see someone I love not receive the love they so freely give. It hurts to see someon I love not receive the love they deserve.

Hey universe. Dear God, I love You and I trust You the most. But if I may be honest, it really hurts and I feel so lonely. Believe me, and I know You know the efforts I made to be able to love myself and be able to live regardless, if I do this life with others or not. But even after loving myself, and learning how to give love to others: I cannot help but feel so unloved. This cup of mine filled with only my love so stagnant, becomes stale. I keep on going back to feeling unwanted.

I cannot do this by myself Lord God. It cannot just be me seeing me and loving me. There are so many parts of myself (both to be loved and to be hated but accepted) that I cannot see, I have blind spots that I need others to reflect back to me. And I try Lord God, to be that mirror to others, You know that. I try to reflect to others the love they deserve. Because that's the form of love that I know others need and consciously or unconsciously want. For them to be seen? Why can't I be seen back?

Was I really born in this world just to be alone? Why wasn't I born a tree or a lone person abondoned in the desert instead?

There was a time, when I felt I was seen. I thought it was reciprocal until one day, I felt so empty and dried up. Then I learned, that I was seen to be used. Can I not be seen just to be loved and wanted?

Really? Am I that ugly? Am I that unlovable? Am I that unwanted? Am I really not enough?

[lupismaris]

Sometimes you get overwhelmed and stressed out and to the brink and the best thing you can do is cook yourself dinner

#today has been good but !!! stress!!! planning!!! things i do not control!!! #and our original plans to have a proper family dinner were ruined by no one else wanting to have a family dinner #and so? i have made myaelf a date night dinner after a busy day of packing and commission work and planning #i love cooking for others but im still learning to love cooking for myself

[transgaysex]

^ lots of anger in a small body

#wind howls #i dont wanna talk about it again bc every time im angy its bc of 3 causes and i tire myaelf out thinking about them #i am going to sit in a corner and look at the wall until the emotion passes. grrr #'why dont you let it out' im just repeating myself over and over and im not bringing anything new to the table. so ill just be mad silently. #anyway i love not being active on this website. i dont like it here and sadly its better than anywhere else or something #i dont care enough about social media to really look elsewhere for other like. accounts or whatever

[notthelasttime]

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#for the record.... crowe/luna sugar.. daddy(?) au is happening #bc ive got it half plotted out in my head (not zoning out at work today?? a challenge) #aside from that thought if there is an idea youve seen me mention or an ongoing fic you want an update for #please let me know!!! ive overwhelemed myaelf with ideas again #other current top priorities are: that she/ith oneshot i keep not working on and ch2 of a loving feeling

[the-cooler-king]

being gay is unironically hard

#I've never met another gay person that HASNT unlocked eternal suffering via love #Gay people love way too much for their own good we need to chill on that one #I have halfway panic attacks over how full of love I am #Because I dont know what to do with it sometimes #I keep it locked up tight because i think it would make people uncomfortable #Not even like... in a homophobic way #Just because they know me and im not like that #And its so hard to change when people know you. #Thats the big gay emotion fellas. You know what I mean #I want someone that just lets me love them. Let's me be tender or hard and its not a shock. #Not even a significant other just a friend like literally just 1 friend i dont make uncomfortable #Its hard for me to make friends because people are really easy to read #And im very very annoying lol #I can smell discomfort a mile away and if im the source I will remove myaelf #By ghosting the shit out of you

[boizandgurlzinthehouse]

Could I ask for a fluff headcanon with Damiano but witha S/O who has the complete opposite aesthetic? (Sorry my english is not well I'll try explaining myaelf) but like the S/O wears fluffy dresses, frills, bows, soft pastel color, pinks (it's kinda my aesthetic, I hope you understood what I meant, love you!❤)

𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐨 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐨'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞 𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐢𝐦

a/n: that was one of my favourite requests >:) i'm a softie too myself, so my canons are my imaginary in a large measure. enjoy loves !!

you know that picture when the loli girl and darth vader give tips for each other in front of the pink atm? or when the most metal-head guy and the white-laced girl sits beside each other, eating ice-cream?

ladies and gentlemen, i just let you know that that's basically the two of you

when it comes out that the two of you are dating, you kept your instagram profile locked down, so nobody knows who you are, just from the bio and profile pic, but that's not everything (and the måneskin's and others's stories). so, everybody is freakin' curious about you !!

damiano steps before you in the crowd at the airport, or cross the hall in the hotel, the fans and cameramen expects the typic rocker-girl with black, smokey makeup, smudged, chrome lipstick, two-toned hair, chains everywhere on your body and platform boots–

but then here you are, all in your adorableness, laces and manifold skirts, pastell colors, white and silky long slveed blouses, and they're just... like, who's that girl? the manager? or just his sister, who clearly hates him

but when damiano holds your hand and kisses the crown of your hair, every flashlight begins to flicker like a bomb in the night. if you're uncomfortable with the lights, or the journalists, or just with the whole situation, damiano just strokes your face, keeping you close to him to keep you away from everything that can make you uncomfortable

now, thanks to you, the soft, ethereal styled people joins the fandom too, some fans even try to cross the two style, creating extravagant, but unique pieces –you even highlight the best works into your story, getting closer to the fans, and they're just adore you because of your immediacy.

but now, speak about just the two of you (you know, the spicy stuff uwu)

you can be shy, but i think the shy girls can be really horny, the only difference is that they're on the other side –the secret side, you know ¬‿¬

lacey outfits means that everything can be frilly and flowery –your skirts, blouses, bras and panties... did i mention that men can be turned on from intimation more than too much revelaing stuff? because yeah, damiano's head over heels for you when you wear that lace nightgown (we soft people all have and imaginary lacy nightgown that we could wear but we don't have, don't we? >3<)

he likes to stroke the nightgown and then your skin at night, saying stuff like "i can't decide which fabric is softer, love"

at one point, when you decide to try out new things, you sit beside him when his band take a break during rehearsal, you hold onto his arm as damiano scrolls through instagram, asnwering questions. lucky for you, a question is about "how doesn't get y/n bothered with that much layer? doesn't she get too hot?" "look honey, here's a questions for you" he says, but instead of grabbing his phone, you lean into his ear and whisper him a thing like "if i'm not weraing anything under those layers, i can't be too irritated, don't i? and... a dress can't make a girl hot, but her really hot boyfriend can."

he tosses his phone aside, pulling you into his lap, running his hands up on your thighs, ridding up your skirts bit by bit more, you try grab his hand, but instead of stopping, he kisses you roughly

"you spoiled my answer-session, baby, do you know how difficult is to reply to my fans with you around?"

yeah, soft ones can be perky ones too | ू•ૅω•́)

and i headcanon that that he would help to button up your blouse (ask him too if you want to button down, dam would do it much more gladly i swear （＞ ་། ＜)), or making your hair with a bow, stroking your face.

mystories, mystories, mystories !! i mean, social media au canon, but after your relationship is revealed, and your personality too, he would take pictures when the two of you go out to an antique store in the actual city, or when you set up a little picnic with him/and the other members.

vic and you are simply best friends, tiktoks and short videos about the two of you, holding hands, jumping up and down in a circle like too happy anime girls (is it too happy or am i just too positive today hkdshf)

you drag damiano, vic, ethan and thomas to watch some soft movies with you, like dead poets society or howl's moving castle, and when you come back with the sweets and elder-juice, you see the four rocker staring intently on the screen, watching as sophie and howl dance.

it turns out that it's much more better than anyone thought ♡´･ᴗ･`♡

#damiano x y/n #damiano headcanon #damiano david x you #damiano david x reader #damiano icons #damiano imagine #damiano x reader #damiano david #maneskin moodboard #maneskin gives me bi panic #maneskin oneshot #maneskin headcanons #maneskin imagine #maneskin

[insufferable-bastardz]

Fanfic recs - Week 22 (october 23)

HELOOOOOOooo

YeAh, I’m writing this while considerably tipsy so don’t mind me. I’m glad I went to get a bottle of wine and ordered some chinese food today. I’m also watching How I Met Your Mother,again, because it’s on tv, so yaa...

anywyas, ignore my-tipsy-college-self and let’s get into the recommendation

(btw, i’ve been talking rto myaelf in english, because for some reqson noteven my almost drunk self speaks my native languege... heh. whatever *shrgs*)

(if you want to check previous recommendations, here my (sort of) masterpost )

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You are the Space that's in between every page and every chord - Jaskier x Reader by @moonlights-inkwell

Summary: Rest and relaxation leads to Jaskier sharing poetry with you.

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A Little Prankster  - Avengers x Reader by @wokeupinawalnut

Summary: Reader gets turned into a kid, and what better way to have some fun than by pranking the agents around de compound.

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Ice cream -  Diego Hargreeves x reader by @verboetoperee

Summary: Anyone would be scared after a robbery, but your anxiety makes it even worse, luckily, your boyfriend Diego knows how to take care of you.

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Oblivious Sketching - Steve Rogers x Reader by @wokeupinawalnut

Summary*: Reader and Steve are both oblivious to each others works of art.

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It’s Too Damn Hot - Bruce Wayne x Reader by @rynne311

Summary: Heatwaves and inadequate air conditioning do not go together well

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Hope you all enjoy and please, please, please, please, if you end up reading any of these recommendations and like it as much as I do, give the writer some love, even if is just a like or a reblog.

Sending lots of love to all of you ♥

*(this piece does not have an official summary)

P.s.: if u’ve come this far, I DID finish and scheduled this post sober and the only reason I started writing it while considerably tipsy is because I had a 4 hour lunch break and nothing (actually a lot, I’m in denial) to do. thanks for coming to my ted talk

#insufferable-bastardz #insufferable bastardz #fanfic recs by insufferable-bastardz #fanfic recommendations by insufferable-bastardz #fanfic recommendations by insufferable bastardz #recommendations #fanfic rec #fanfiction #fanfic #jaskier #jaskier x reader #the witcher #the witcher x reader #jaskier imagine #Avengers #avengers x reader #avengers imagine #steve rogers #steve rogers x reader #steve rogers imagine #diego hargreeves #diego hargreeves x reader #diego hargreeves imagine #bruce wayne #bruce wayne x reader #bruce wayne imagine #batman #batman x reader #batman imagine

[starving-aesthetic]

I’m well and fucking tired of telling “newbies” to “go get help! This isn’t worth it!” I am not asking you nicely anymore.

You just got here and are looking for trendy weight loss tips? Got a mindset of “well they’re sick, I’m not. I’ll be fine for a couple of months just to lose the weight fast!”

Fuck off. If you are here with that mindset, you’re already sick. Go get help now and don’t let us all sweep you up in our sickness. I will not be polite in telling you that your misguided attempt to take on our bad coping mechanisms so you can get where you want, is just that. You are taking them on.

Yeah I know I know, I’m a fucking hypocrite. I’m still here. Well, that’s my problem not your problem. Don’t be an idiot and make it your problem.

Getting help gets harder and the behaviors become more compulsive and less of a decision making process over time but there are decisions involved.

I spent all day long explaining that concept to my child. You choose your actions, they have consequences, they won’t be what you want if you make bad fucking decisions. Staying here is a bad fucking decision.

I am not the bitch who will dress this up as your “safe space.”

It’s not safe here AT ALL. Best case scenario a bunch of people give you tips on how to get worse while pretending they aren’t.

Worst case scenario? A REAL LIFE PREDATOR who is taking full advantage of your youth, naivety, and desperation is going to put you in IMMEDIATE DANGER.

You didn’t come here and “get a disorder” you came here with one already and you are about to make it worst. You didn’t choose to have an eating disorder. I won’t put that on you. What I will put on you is that you can leave situations that put you in even greater danger at any point.

I want to put the fear of god in you over this place, because we are ED twitter but we are dressing ourselves up in fluffy rhetoric and a sense of moral superiority when at the end of the day the end result is the same.

That result is that you will die. We will die.

Anorexia and Bullimia alone have THE HIGHEST mortality rate of any mental illness. That is an actual statistic. so if you want to eventually find a way to be happy and okay someday, get. the fuck. away from my blog. I say it with love, but I don’t want you here. I will not seek to make you feel comfortable or welcome here.

Go feel welcome in the arms of the ones who love you and would rather know you’re suffering before they can physically see it, or in a counselors office. Gtfo.

I’ve been wrecking the ship that is my body on the rocks, called by the false lighthouse of ana, for 10 god damned years now. I watched my mother writhe in it for even longer. I am angry and miserable, and nothing pisses me off more than watching people come here and have their heads gassed up with false ideas about what you will actually get out of this. What you will see in yourself.

What YOU will see is nothing, what others will see they will find uncomfortable and off putting. I know from experience, I know from being my goal weight and the only friend I had who knew, looking me up and down and saying

“Claire, you don’t look skinny you look fucking disgusting.”

So I won’t make you feel welcome here. I will gatekeep this throng of sick people everyone keeps calling a community as much as I possibly can, fully fucking aware that I am being a massive hypocrite by staying myself.

I don’t do this because I think I will be beautiful or that I will accept myaelf if I do it anymore, this is a compulsive disease. I do it because my brain says I have to. It’s not the fucking lifestyle I would have chosen that’s for fucking sure. I’m sick. I was sick when I got here, you were sick when you got here. Just don’t be a dumb ass like I was and stay and poke an already deadly beast with a flaming stick just for the sake of making it angry.

I don’t want you here. You make me fucking pissy. You can find other places that support actual recovery and don’t tag triggering shit so people can find it and get triggered on purpose.

God damn it. I hate this place. I hate myself. I hate my disease. And most of all I hate seeing people toss themselves down the same fucking hill as me.

#anarecia #ana thoughts #ed things #ed thoughts #tw ed things #tw ed thoughts #not pro #just using tags #anamia

[takethisroad]

Idk this kyle bosman dude but lmao who helped u pick out ur spex i hate it?

(rest of my liveblog under the cut to save ur dashes; LOTS of capslock

Lmao i can't stand the main character or Luke's narrative style but whatever. I'm not here for his book im here for the bs cast

OMG LANDLORDS ARE PARASITES AT LEAST HE FUCKING SAID IT.

Fuck. Cops.

The mooment sjskdjfjtjg

"i had a bad enough reputation" is it bc you LITERALLY DON'T SHUT UP U JADED CISHET MASTURBATORY FANTASY god i cannot STAND cis men!!!! Oohh i drank three whiskies oooooo she left me oooooooh im so b r o k e n oooh i have an anger problem get some HELP

Oooh I've mentioned "pimps and dealers" so we know it's ~super gritty oooohhhhhh wow UGH.

Omg toby scmitz aaaaa u dress like a lesbian

A CAPE. disjekrkgjjt okay at least other characters are as annoyed by fetch as i am

Also fetch sounds like felch which means i think of felching EVERY TIME

ZAC

HELP

Ajsidjfjfjkfjg

Oh no

IM CRYING EOEKDKKRKFNFJJJGJ WHAT IS THIS. AHAHAHAHAAHA. Who is zm supposed to be? Im yelling. Did luke arnold write self insert oc fic for CHARLES VANE. IM SCR E A AM I N G

Literally gonnaDIE

I hope there's a porno. Felch filth-ips.

A SELF-INSERT FANFIC READER X VANE WOWOWOWOOWOWOW IM CRYING AND SCREAMING WOW DMY HEAD JUST EXPLODED AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

CHARLES SON OF RANGER

It's my ship. THE VOICE

ONCE. IT'S NOT AS EASY AS YOU THINK IT'D BE. HELP IM CRYING. WHOMST IS GOING TO WRITE ME A FANFIC WHERE CHARLES VANE IS A TOTAL DUMBASS BC I N E E D IT. NEED.

(literally haven't breathed for two minutes. Cannot look directly at my laptop screen for the secondhand embarassment. Am dying. Hit in the chest with a comet of #feels so big and bright it feels like I'm a teenager again when emotion just eclipsed everything)

Interesting people. TOUCHY SUBJECT. PINNED TO THE WALL.

You're forcing the top drawer between two of my ribs. USED UP HIS QUOTA. A BAR. HELP. FEEDING TIME AT THE ZOO.

I will. CRY. AND YOU DID IT SO BADLY THAT PEOPLE SAW YOU GETTING AWAY.

TKSODKFJJRNDKSKDJJDJF. I CANNOT DO THAT. OH NO.

I FULLY. WILL THROW MYAELF. OUT A WINDOW. OH MY GOD. IM GONNA DIE. IM GONNA SCREAM. IM GONNA INCINERATE MY COUCH. HOLY SHIT. THERES NOTT E NOGUHT CAPSLOCK. HELP.

C H A Z

*TOBYYYYYY FUCKING SCHMITZZZZZZZZ AAAAAAAAAA@AHHHHHHHHHHH*

C H A Z. HELP. PLEASE GOD. I WILL PUNCH MYSELF. I AM FUCKING. GONNA CRY. AND ALSO SOB FOREVER. I CAN'T DEAL WITH THESE EMOTIONS. ANNE PICKED A FIGHT WITH A SNAKE PERSON. HE JUST HAS ONE EYE. THE FOOD IS SHIT.

HE DISAPPEARED. SMALL SMILE. KILL ME. TIME TO DIE. IF ONLY I HAD SHARPENED MYS WROD. TOBYYYYYYY

im cryign

Im not even alive rn im just cryign TOBS. lukey. Don't. Don't even look at me. Dont look at me. Wtf zms voice is so different than Vane's! He's feeling the word out. Aoskkdjfjjr

God i love this CAST. I'm punching myself in the face.

#bs bs #The sunder city spectacular #Anyway this is the post wheremst I'll keep the rest of it #I'M FULLY FUKCING YELLING #CAN I TAG THIS BEST OF BS #BECAUSE IT TRULY FUCKING WAS #I'M LITERALLY GOING TO PUNCH THE WHOLE WORLD IN THE FACE #GOD #HE CALLS HIM TOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #FUCKING. THEM. GOD. #BS CAST BEST CAST #THE DRAWN ON MUSTACHE #THE EVERYTHING #i'll cry forever god i fucking?????????????????? #WHAT DO I DO WITH ALL THESE EMOTIONS #IF ONLY I HAD SHARPENED MY SOWRD #WHERE IS. THIS FIC.