#maybe embarrassing but whatever

[media-please]

How lucky we are to be in a world where the 8ball keeps shaking and the questions keep coming- to know that anything is possible and everything will have its time and day.

How lucky we are to watch it return six times over and not believe our luck. How lucky we are to wake up early to check the setlist and have our days started off in awe. How lucky we are to know something so special we can be so jealous to have not been there. How lucky we are to have a place in the world carved out just for us (it’s empty without you).

Just… how lucky can we be that music can feel this important?

Six 8balls, man. Six 8balls.

Six 8balls from the beginning to the end (you already got your TTTYG and SM(F)S fix earlier, c’mon). I got an honourable mention. It’s been said so many times I’m not sure it matters. We’re so miserable (and stunning). We’re all fighting growing old. I think you’re my best friend. I became such a strange shape.

I dunno, it just drills a hole in your chest and fills it back up, yk?

#tir​ed 8am thoughts before a poetry slam #so of course it’s bad poetry #but making things is important no matter how bad #fall out boy #fob #2ourdust #maybe embarrassing but whatever

[jeiyuuen]

So Luffy and Law reunion after two years, some totally biased thoughts...

Luffy really just recognized Law right away like that, huh? After two years of not meeting at all, and barely having interacted prior to Marineford. What was the first thing he recognized that he was sure that's the guy who saved him then? (Is there something you would like to share with the class, Luffy?)

It's so funny because nothing could've prepared Law for Luffy's sheer joy when they met again. He was so genuinely happy to find Law and it's ruining Law's emo vibes.

Like damn, he built up a reputation!

Pretty much everyone else up to that point has called him cruel, ruthless and all that. Back to Marineford and Sabaody, people talked about bad rumors about him. Even when he saved Luffy, they doubted his intentions. They were so sure there must be a catch to Law's help. (There was no catch.) It's just fun to think about because here Luffy is treating him as something good that happened in his life. Poor Law couldn't handle that much positive attention.

And uhm no, trying to deflect saving someone's life from death as "nothing" or something like that wouldn't really work. Especially when Law really didn't need to risk it all like that to get Luffy out of Marineford. They barely had a connection and even a potential rivalry is hardly worth the risk. Calling it a "whim" is the most Law can call it before he starts questioning his life again. But whatever the reason is, the fact still stands that he helped Luffy... And isn't that what matters, anyways? To Luffy, at least.

Law: "We are both pirates." (we're enemies)

Luffy: ":D Okay, anyways, you saved my life."

Law !!!! He ADORES you already !! It's over !! And giving more helping hand doesn't actually help your case !!

Also more exhibits of Luffy being excited over Law that I just find so cute. The way he perked up when Law was mentioned... He likes him.

He didn't say anything during Brownbeard's story until Law was mentioned, Luffy my guy.... He likes him so much, not necessarily romantic, but Luffy really just likes Law.

Law really stood no chance and asking Luffy for that alliance was the final nail to his coffin. He sealed his fate to be Luffy's super duper mega best friend FOR LIFE.

#I love Law getting showered by adoration for a good thing he definitely did #And thinking Luffy has a crush is so fun #A crush in whatever Luffy way that would be interpreted as lmao #one piece #punk hazard arc #trafalgar law #monkey d. luffy #lawlu #lulaw #the agenda never ends #I could probably write more about them but maybe another time #I never run out of thoughts about these guys it's embarrassing

[mihotose]

the same. you know what i mean

#steban's is honestly more embarrassing ive got to be honest bc this is about being given feedback on an essay #how did you get That out of it. whatever #maybe uli needs to give him some harsher feedback #gemitus #disco elysium #Brother you cant know how many times i reloaded so i wouldnt ask if women are bourgeois #and then i found out i needed interfacing for the matchbox scene so i had to do it again. and once again when i found out about h/e. lol

[tswwwit]

I feel like if Dipper were ever reincarnated as a demon, he wouldn't fit in super well with the others. Yes, he's been raised to vie for power and step on everyone in his way using whatever means is necessary - it's the same toxic bizz as when he was a human, appealing to gender norms. He's tougher, scarier, more powerful (than ordinary humans, that is), but when it comes to asserting control - being Evil - he doesn't have it in him. Given enough time, I think he'd grow pretty vocal about leaving living things alone. NOT torturing organisms for the hell of it, or stealing people's souls, or conquering planets. Sure, he's a demon. That's no excuse to be a MONSTER.

It's a VERY unpopular opinion amongst neighboring demons, and rumor spreads fast about the Goody Two-Shoed Activist imp raining on everyone's blood-splattered parade, so much so that it makes it to Bill, who's immediately intrigued. Call it intuition, but only one soul's capable of overriding goddamn demon nature for some preachy bullshit about "Doing Good." Lucky for him, demons occupy the same plane of existence, so all it really takes to verify the guy is a snap of his fingers, and POOF! He's floating right next to him. Sure enough, Dipper's fashioned himself a new and improved demonic form, and it is lovely!

No one likes Dipper's kumbaya "Can't We All Just Get Along" ideology, but Bill's almost instantly smitten with the guy, whoever he is, so he's gotta be at least somewhat powerful. Demons take notice when the all-powerful Bill Cipher starts lending his time (and magic?) to some low-leveler like Dipper. Is he being blackmailed? Are they working together? No. Not possible. Bill doesn't "work" with anyone, save for whatever human catches his eye every few decades. Doesn't look to be doing him any benefit, either. The opposite, even. Lending power to a saint like Dipper only makes it harder to cause chaos, after all. Why would he actively go against his OWN best interest to cater some imp's? It's almost like he's. He's.

A henchmen.

(Bill's also 30% more affectionate the first month they reunite, because he still can't believe that his adorable little human husband came back as the same SPECIES as him! He'd never complain over having a sweet human to squeeze, but one with teeth and claws and cute pointy ears doesn't hurt).

#answers #I can't help but picture demon dipper starting out all like #I'm Bad 😡 I'm Mean 😡 I'm Evil As Heck!! 😡 #And still having a HUGE hatred for things that are Unfair or Unjust. One time he saved a kitten from a tree and got embarrassed about it #Eventually he just has to give into his nature and speak up about all the BULLSHIT he sees going on around him #Sorry Dippin' Dots even the society that 'raised' you can't prevent you from your do-gooder ways #Don't worry Bill loves you for the stupid idiot you are #Everyone is completely BAFFLED by Bill acting like a friggin' henchman though #I bet they don't even peg it as romantic interest at first. Dipper sure doesn't #He's thinking this is some Grand Scheme to convince him back into the evil fold #And to be fair Bill's very tempting in that respect. But not leaning as hard into it as he *could* be #Maybe he thinks Bill's trying to 'mentor' him for something. Seems like the kind of thing Bill would imply and let Dipper fill in the gaps #They're technically not the same SPECIES since Dipper's probably some human-shaped 'demon' #And Bill's originally from a two-dimensional weird universe. Technically speaking he's His Own Thing #Aside from whatever refugees escaped that plane. If any. #Demon covers a LOT of different beings that don't have much or any genetics in common #But you KNOW Bill's thrilled as hell that Dipper's Slightly More Immortal than usual!! This one's gonna last a WHILE #*slams fist on table* Give Dipper A Tail With A Tuft That Bill Can Pull To Be Annoying #Final thought: In this incarnation Bill might have been wondering where the hell Dipper got to since there's no human around #Given a long enough time he might even wonder if he was LOST #So you know that when Dipper reemerges on the scene everyone else was dealing with a VERY unhappy Bill Cipher for QUITE a while

[kennysdeadbody]

dead boyfriend

#thinking about them whats new #embarrassed to admit this was inspired by fucking greys anatomy #but whatever #i rly only drew this to procrastinate writing #i wanna relearn how to write and ive got maybe a third of a fic done but its so hard #massive respect for fic writers i love yall 🫡 #sp k2 #kenny x kyle #south park k2

[crushedsweets]

hiii im kinda finished with my little au thing :9 LOL this was mostly just for myself but i figured if i spent time on it, might as well share

#creeped #chatterbox #mmmmmm do i tag ? do i do it guys ? ok whatevs #creepypasta #ticci toby #jeff the killer #jane the killer #homicidal liu #clockwork #natalie ouellette #ben drowned #eyeless jack #literally i hate tagging creepyopasta w mrble hornets or slendeverse i feel so bad flooding their tags #i wont do it . im too embarrassed. #sally williams #im NOT AN AUTHOR im really bad at writing guys forgive me. i draw thats it #may do this with the fantsy au but prob not but maybe will bc i enjoy these

[hersweetrevenge]

okay but i think it says a lot about eddie that he clearly wanted to graduate high school.

in some way or another, it was clearly something he actually wanted to do, or he would have just dropped out when he flunked his first senior year.

but he didn't. he tried again. and again. those aren't the actions of someone who couldn't care less if they get a diploma or not. the whole school thinks he's a freak, he goes through the embarrassment every day of being the 20-year-old super-duper senior, but he does still go to school.

idk whether it might be partly on his uncle's suggestion (wayne seems to want the best for eddie and that probably means getting some qualifications), or whether he wants to do it for himself (to prove that he could, in fact, do it) but either way, instead of dropping out when he so easily could have (especially after his 2nd try) he didn't.

and this is why i so desperately wanted to see him graduate. it wasn't just about "getting out of this dump" (which he could have done years ago by dropping out) it was about proving he could do it, that he could accomplish this mile stone and then move on.

#eddie munson #stranger things 4 #god i love him so much #and i will never forgive that he didnt get to walk that stage #disclaimer. i do not think its bad to not graduate hs first time around #the school system isnt suited to a lot of people #and academic achievement is not the be all end all by any means #but. eddies situation #for whatever reason. he wants to graduate. and that means going through senior year 3 times for him #hs is often terrible and there would be people there that think hes a total idiot for being 20 and still trying to graduate #but the thing is is that he still does it #instead of being embarrassed (as far as we see) he sticks it out and is willing to keep trying #the big thing is #he doesnt have to do this #he could have dropped out and probably still been in a similar position career wise (esp. in the 80s) #so like please god i just wanted to see him graduate #yeah maybe music is his dream but graduating clearly meant somethin g to him too

[cocksley-and-catapult]

the asks you get on here are absolutely fucking deranged and im glad you have a sense of humor about it and dont let it turn you into the joker

#the truth is i was the joker all along im actually very evil i just dont externalize it. which i think makes me not evil maybe. oops #that or its just stuff that i genuinely think is funny. like asking me about if they lay eggs. dont start doing that again but #but its so ridiculous it couldnt jokerify me because its too stupid #like id be embarrassed getting joker over someone asking me if they touch tips or whatever #c&c asks

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it... #I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀 #irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living... #just the ol regulars yknow? #and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want? #I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what? #whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate? #so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it? #that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk

[kicktwine]

oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

#say one thing wrong to me and you will have a wonderful few days with the rock #if angry silly girls have 100 fans etc if they have 0 fans i have died #sorry i saw a YouTube meme i vehemently disliked on principle and got mad at the only child behavior- #kipspeak #she is just short tempered and uses anger to mask other more ‘shameful’ emotions!!! alphy did the same thing with just deciding not #to express them. which is still not good and I think why he breaks and ends up teary so often now #this shortness does not translate to actually being mean to people. she only uses being mean as a shield for herself and being snarky #Is just fun for her. it’s fun for Me. you have to inconsequentually tease people or they’ll never learn to laugh at themselves #the twins and thancred 🫵 do this thing where they have big emotions but they don’t want anyone to SEE they have big weird emotions #so alphy pretends he doesn’t have them under a veneer of dignity and alisaie pretends the emotions are Something Else. thancred is #just so emotionally constipated he has trouble expressing anything. he’s got enough baggage for a flatbed #anyways. alisaie is such a compassionate and kind girl and she learned how to make snarky jokes and went ham. and she hates appearing sad o #weak or vulnerable so she blocks it off with an unapproachable emotion so no one pities her and they maybe get on with the plot #it is in fact also great at getting ppl to move away from the sad or embarrassing topic. even if the tradeoff is being more offputting #she would never (grabs youtube meme) she would never seriously bully her brother. this is sibling ribbing only. Cain instinct #just leave her be she is learning how to snark humor and she loves it she loves being sharp. alphy has wit he just keeps it close #my brother didn’t learn how to tell or receive a joke until he was 14 he took everything so seriously. he can do it now though and he’s #HILARIOUS. Don’t tell him I said that. my man knows exactly where the funny points are even if he hasn’t learned when to stop yet #too many tags. Whatever. jokey snark alisaie who sometimes compliments is happy alisaie grouchy snappy angry alisaie is way too stressed #very easy way to tell between the two. even alphy can tell between the two I believe! He tends to rib back in protest if they’re having fun #and try to stop her if they’re not having fun. case in point ‘what is that supposed to mean?!’ vs ‘alisaie ryne was only trying to help.’ #I know they’re twins but that’s such an intensely older sibling thing to do that it reels me #LONG TAGS AND THREE EDITS TO ADD ON SHORT I resent this stereotype taken too far into ooc behavior. it happened with nya #It will happen again and as a postscript let me regale you with Things U Can Notice About Character Motivation and Actions— #I’m not done let me s #she and raha are friends now I decree. ‘haha you like me’ SPUTTERING PROTEST FROM BOTH

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #hmfcu #riley savage #graydon weaver #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #furry #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[dykedvonte]

Yes-Man resents a lot of things but I feel like he kinda liked Benny. It’s never implied Benny had the knowledge to continuously upgrade or update him after Emily so I like to think Yes-Man respected Benny enough to adopt some of his opinions willingly.

Like personality wise, Yes-Man is like if Benny was forced to be a kiss ass; he’s equally pointed and jerky even if unendingly helpful. No matter if you spare the Great Khans, Yes-Man dislikes them and is kinda violent about things. What this says about Benny and the way he talked about things behind the scenes is one thing but the other is Yes-Man ingrained it enough to keep it.

I can imagine Benny mentioning Vegas was for them and while Yes-Man is logical, as any machine would be, I think it’s sweet if the personable part of his programming was looking forward to running Vegas with his “creator”.

#Benny would be a bad dad but not a bad whatever he is to yes man #cause like Benny was like You’re it pal the key to a better swankier Vegas >:) and if I was yesman I’d be like yep #Benny is my dad and I can’t wait to shoot a khan and Mr house for our future #next post probably about the WGS cause god I love them for some reason #fallout #fallout new vegas #yes man #yes man fnv #benny gecko #benny fnv #also can we talk I about how violent the chairmen were when roaming the Mojave???? #like Benny is just like I stabbed a dude in the next is willing to shoot you point blank and swank mentions how they scalped people #which is a horrifying experience and not inherently lethal and they did that for fun like???? #and they are the less unhinged of the families as the WGS were eating people and seem to see it as an embarrassing past experience #and the Omertas being violent pimps who are planning to like violently overtake Vegas in a way that makes you want to root for Benny #like I know the only other options were the fiends and khans but lord house no wonder you can’t trust them with heavy fire power to guard #the streets like look at these track records #to think I thought Yes Man was gonna be my fav #maybe he will be I have not gotten far into end game quests I’m on a dlc run #fuck honest hearts and Dean domino

[dol-dee]

Fallen Sydney is definitely the type that enthusiastically buys all sorts of kinky outfits. For themself as much as their s/o haha

Sydney buying a bunch of outfits she really wants to see on Dee. Forgetting she will have to convince/beg her for weeks to actually wear them

#sydney trying to rizz Dee up to get her into the incredibly tiny bunnysuit: PLEASEPLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEEEEEEPLEASEPLE #im kinda torn I think Dee has a thing for costumes as well but she already has to wear them a lot for the stripclub which is like…. #sure.. it’s work.. whatever. but the association sticks #and then on the other hand I think she’s partly embarrassed that she’s into it. maybe even ashamed #smth smth this shitty town makes you feel like a piece of meat so it’s difficult to feel like you have ownership over your own body and kink #I love this hc because it’s so fun and cute but Sydney would need to spend soo much money on custom tailoring for Dee (realistically) #which would be suuuuuper expensive and makes the hc way less fun lmao (like Sydney would NOT have the budget for that) #< I keep doing this but i can’t help and be acutely aware how difficult it is to get cute clothes for anyone who’s not thin #sydney the fallen #dee the defiant #dol pc #on one hand I feel a bit guilty that I keep making these posts about Dee on the other hand… this is my blog I can do what I want and.. #the blog name kinda indicates it don’t it (fork spotted in kitchen etc etc) #doldykes

[piosplayhouse]

what are your controversial wwx views? 👀 (asking as a fellow controversial wwx view-haver)

In the grand scheme of things I personally think my opinions are pretty lukewarm but I got a lot of shit a while back for making a post saying that it's important to acknowledge that wwx has privilege as a male cultivator member of the gentry and certified genius, and that that's important because even though he knows that his position in society is extremely tenuous and that so many people are willing to fight to force him to lose it, he still chooses to stand up for those even lower in society (in that post I was thinking specifically of the women in mdzs, particularly the brothel women because they're basically never considered). And then? A bunch of people started shittalking me because apparently wwx is the most underprivileged character in the story? And he's lower status than even the non cultivating sex workers because he was homeless as a kid?

I'm also neutral-positive on Jiang Cheng and made the great sin of making a completely neutral poll asking for people's opinions on him correlating with if they grew up with siblings and got a bunch of accusations of being a wwx anti, rigging the poll, and misrepresenting the answers (the results of which were completely even btw) based off . The fact I used a picture of grapes as the poll banner. Yeah . Wwx was never mentioned in the poll at all also. You can probably still find all that shit if you search my username, anons were just fully accidentally pinging me and everything, it's why I don't name search any more even though I know some people make posts based off my ideas but are afraid of pinging me (don't be btw!!! Please ping me 🥺🥺)

I actually really didn't like wwx in my first read-through of mdzs because I really related to teen lwj and felt very personally about the idea of overly pushy boundary breaking teenager attitudes, but I definitely grew to like him lol. I don't know how much that shows through in my posts, I think I've made a few comments about thinking that he was definitely a little bit of a dick as a teen but I don't know how controversial that is

So overall I'm sorry to disappoint, not very controversial opinions, but I've gotten so much grief for them anyways you'd think I posted some shit like wwx is my least favorite character in all of fiction 😵‍💫😵‍💫 there's probably more stuff that could be considered controversial but I'm so disconnected from mdzs fandom at this point that I don't really know what the general consensus is. I'd love to hear yours though!!!! Feel free to anon or message or whatever you feel comfortable with, I won't judge

#sorry this got kind of ranty i feel the need to bring this up because this is like . the only reason i think im maybe controversial #and i wouldve never known except someone forgot to block me BEFORE POSTING AN ASK FULLY @ING ME #its been like a year since that so whatever im still just recovering from how embarrassing that is.. childs play vaguing . #jiang cheng level subtlety. come on at least put a space between the @ and my username so i dont have to see that shit #😭😭 #long post #long posts

[moonsidesong]

touhou guys but tge funny online objects haha. thinking about how characters woulg behave in game show settings is fun

#idk who anyone else would be. maybe patchouli can be book character number 8 million #bri object stuff #hesitating to put this in main tags cause im a little embarrassed but Whatever im cringe but free #touhou project #reimari #moonsidedoodles #2022

[plulp]

duuuuude oh my god i had to redesign this guy like THRICE because i couldnt get it RIGHT! heres EDEN. for you.

#turning off rbs until i wake up in the morning (not in US) #just in case i want to fix anything #still doesnt have Everything i want but its OK whatever #dol #my art #eden the hunter #colors are still a little off. i dont particularly Know what i want him to look like :( #sorry for not giving him a beard i dont have the confidence i can make it look good #sorry i keep giving the older guys long hair i swear it isnt a thing (it is) #i swear i promise cross my heart ill stop. i promise #i promise i wont give avery long hair #also my art is better than my first post now...... maybe i should turn off rbs for those........ sigh #its a little embarrassing seeing it rbed still 😓 #WHAT. I FORGOT CHEST HAIR. WHO AM I? THIS CANT BE ME. og my god give me a MINUUUUUUUUTE #done. imagine if i accidentally uploaded my oc file instead <- guy who had oc files open #i should probably make an about post at some point #maybe tomorrow #OK edit: fixed you can do whatever with it now