#mind blown really

[quietresistance]

apparently i've made 5,600 posts exactly now on this blog, not including ooc posts i've deleted.

#mind blown really

[andromeda3116]

look, i know everyone said that the new interview with the vampire show was incredible but holy shit i was not prepared for how incredible this show is

like, not only is louis interesting now, he is incredibly compelling! his once-bland internal dilemma is now given actual weight because it's not just the same old Thou Shalt Not Kill But I Am Hungry story, it's tempered through his righteous fury at how black people have been treated all these years, how many people have wronged him and laughed and expected him to laugh along, how his ties to the community that once saved him are now turning to nooses around his throat, how his family that he once provided for and relied on have now come to fear him

that, combined with his explicit homosexuality, and with lestat being the only one who seemed to accept him and love him for all that he is, and how that is both comforting and incredibly toxic and combined with sam reid's insane charisma and mania and gravity as lestat that make it completely understandable why louis would still be drawn to him in spite of everything

and how they've used the changes from the original to this one to examine how memory shifts regarding someone who was so intense and formative in your life even if they were ultimately so controlling and abusive but still left such huge gouges in your personality like knives

like

fuck

this is the best-written show i have seen in a long time like this is top-tier writing holy shit

#interview with the vampire #iatw #i kept thinking ''eh idk if this is for me'' but now i'm just. frothing at the mouth over the quality and the nuance of the writing #and the incredible acting and the shifting timelines and the nods to the original not as easter eggs but integral parts of characterization #i mean. mind blown #at the sheer level of writing going on here like holy shit this deserves so many awards #FUCK AND CLAUDIA IS JUST #FUCK #like if i had to pick the ''worst time to be made immortal'' it would undoubtedly be 14 #i mean kirsten dunst being 10 is definitely awful but 14 would be so much worse #because you are on the very *cusp* of adulthood #and to be denied ever reaching that adulthood would be an unspeakable torture #like you're just old enough to *know* but just too young to really *experience* #and you're at the very peak of being Your Worst You #like 14 is undoubtedly the worst time to be made immortal #literally nobody would ever even remotely want to be 14 forever that's everyone's idea of hell

[dyke-pollinator]

It constantly astounds me how little the vast majority of cis people actually know about they ways in which their primary sex hormone impacts them.

#trans #lgbtq #but really #i feel like i have talked about estrogen with a lot of cis women #who are blown away by how much it actually affects in ones body and mind

[kaltacore]

i would really like to see people appreciate beau's growth and character arc more without trying to convince newcomers that "she'll get better eventually just you wait" implying she was such an unbearable character you have to make yourself sit through her scenes. i assure you, she wasn't

#you may like or dislike any character for whatever reason mind you! i'm not arguing with that! #but her flaws are so blown out of proportion in fandom while other characters' flaws aren't treated this way at all #and i'm yet to see someone saying that caleb gets better later on. or that veth does. maybe this is also a thing i don't know #but it surely doesn't happen under all relatively popular content centered around them #also beau surely wasn't the only one guilty of being rude and picking fights at the beginning of the campaign. this is just. not true. #the way she's usually referred to as the least cooperative member of m9 #and she wasn't the one who got threatened with a sword for putting the whole party's lives in danger for her own interests. is interesting #this just. makes me sad. i really don't get why people who like her adopt that misconception invented by people who openly disliked her #and sound like they feel guilty for enjoying her character and have to beg other people to give her a chance #i got into m9 with little to none exposure to fandom opinions and honestly. it was really surprising to find out she upsets people that muc #critical role #beauregard lionett #the mighty nein

[melodiesofmidnight]

honestly the best part of the show last night was the little boy sitting with his dad right next to us, front row as well. he was dressed in a little suit and bowtie with his hair slicked back and a phantom half-mask on his face. it was so damn cute and i hope he had the time of his life.

#phantom of the opera #seeing kids really fall obsessively in love with musical theatre is the best #and bless his amazing dad too for supporting him instead of making fun of his interests #hope that kid's adorable lil mind was blown

[shikai-the-storyteller]

It's still so crazy to me that Pac made it canon that Felps saw Cell maul him in prison. I wonder who he hated more in that moment — the perpetrator or the bystander

#i talk #qsmp talk #obviously they're on good terms now but it's still wild #I want all the juicy details I want to know more about what Pac thought about that #anyways maybe Pac didnt even hate either of them! hes a weird dude #tbh I think his brain was in full-blown survival mode so hate and anger weren't really at the forefront of his mind #But I do wonder how he felt when he first saw Felps again #especially with the sainthood thing? #Aren't saints bystanders by nature? Something to watch over people but not directly interviene? #<- I guess it depends on the mythos or specific branch but #Felps' whole thing intrigues me. Jailer Bystander Saint #anyways I think it's interesting that Pac's kissed both Cellbit and Felps #fandom tropes read him well

[atruesweetheart]

okay, so nobody laugh but i recently learned that there was more than one robin??? like, as in batman’s sidekick??? looks a bit like a traffic light, THAT lil guy??? apparently there are many and i’ve just been living under a rock up until a couple of months ago and honestly idk what to do with this information because the deeper i dig the more i find. nothing is as it seems, and most pressingly of all none of them appear to be okay. one seems like he’s holding on by a thinning thread, another one apparently became a crime lord for a time, another one just gives off the same energy as that one kid at the back of the class who chugs energy drinks and never knows peace, and another knows how to use a sword. a SWORD, people. he’s, like, ten. he is an infant with a murder weapon. oh, and apparently there was a blond girl one for a second???? guys please i’m spiraling GUYS—

#this was my initial reaction verbatim guys #my mind was blown i was confused i was puzzled #i was confuzzled #gobsmacked really #batman #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

#i got SO carried away LMAO #i dont think ive ever written any posts about gorgug specifically #i made a lot about colin. and some about pib. and some more about zacs performances in general. #but never anything gorgug-focused. i just wasnt on tumblr at those other times that hed been on my mind like this #you can tell i still couldnt resist talking about colin lol #he was just so fucking good. a fantastic character all around. i cant imagine a better example to get my point across than him #when i do posts like this its all very much just me taking a vague idea and working with whatever comes out in the moment #so when i tell you i very much did not plan to get lost in the counterargument and had to stop for a second to remember what my point was #my point still stands but so does everything else #you dont realize it. how similar gorgug and colin really are. or how metaphorical the bug tunnel was. #or how gorgug IS the epitome of little details. small acts. quiet rights and wrongs. the faint causes and the even subtler effects. #u dont truly realize it until youre writing it yourself in a free flow fugue state and it all comes to a halt cuz youve blown your own mind #anyway i love gorgug and i love zac pcs and i hope this post makes sense cuz finding the right words was fucking hard hah #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #the ravening war #trw #colin provolone #zac oyama

[books-are-my-life-stuff]

Finished series, Fall 2023: Akuma-kun (2023)

"What is happiness to all humans? Are they happy if there's ample food, clothing, and shelter? Do they want self-fulfillment? Recognition from others? The psychologist Maslow said--" "Hold on. Hey, Ichiro. What is happiness to you?" "To me?"

#akuma-kun (2023) #akuma-kun spoilers #ichiro umerogi #mephisto iii #shingo umoregi #strophaia #flashing tw #eyestrain tw #my gifs #finished series gifs #long post #userartless #(hope you don't mind if i tag you even though this series might not be in your watchlist!) #one of my most anticipated shows this season and WOW I WAS BLOWN AWAY #it's really great!! i enjoyed it thoroughly #i had no experience with this franchise unlike gggnk so a lot of the references might fly over my head #but i still can enjoy this series so much i finished it in one sitting #it never fails to leave me on the edge of my seat! #shigeru mizuki-sensei's works are always astounding and timeless #(though this is less of a reboot and more of a sequel of sorts?? i dunno) #now to watch the original akuma-kun! #i actually was planning to make the entire gifset into black-white-red focused #but i wasn't really good at focusing on just one color pallette #aaaaa i was going to just choose one scene per episode for this set but i ended up making multiple gifs from one ep #this series is just so pretty and has so many beautiful scenes i can't help myself

[sunbathingfox7]

I was just reading S-classes manhwa and I noticed this in one of the earlier chapters when Han Yoojin didn't know about Sung Hyunjae's weapon yet,

Sung Hyunjae is looking at the moon. It's literally a crescent moon. Crescent Moon. This is before she was introduced. Like, oh my god, the foreshadowing in this panel given the significance of that entity in Sung Hyunjae's life.

It took me so long to notice this 🤯

#sctir #tsctir #s classes that i raised #sung hyunjae #crescent moon #little moon #my mind was blown #they really sneaked that there

[dirt-nerd]

You know The Sandman series tells us that any story that goes on long enough eventually ends in death... But since the Endless siblings can't technically fully die until there's no longer any living thing left to Dream, Desire, Despair etc etc I think a far funnier finish to that story would be the entire universe ending, except for Hob Gadling who is stubbornly floating around in the void refusing to die because "Guys, I really want to see what the next universe looks like 😃". Meanwhile the seven Endless are all just stuck eternally bickering inside his head.

#they spend most of their time in the Dreaming which mostly looks like the Whitehorse these days #except when it gets regular blown up by some family fallout #but nobody really minds because atleast that means Destruction gets to stick around and he's pretty great #Lucienne is there too #because you can bet Hobs still keeping the Dream Library afloat #except these days it mostly consists of self help books for surviving the apocalypse and whatever bs sibling drama the Endless have on #the sandman #hob gadling #dream of the endless #desire of the endless #death of the endless

[endenope]

Omg do you think kaveh would get all jealous and try to out perform ratio 🎤

i think kaveh would be more eager and motivated to get the same reactions out of haitham, get those sounds out of him (i rlly like to think he has a voice kink when it comes to hthm, explains why he gets all hot and bothered during arguments and why hes so addicted to hthms moans)

#headcanons #kvh doesnt strike me as someone competitive (smth i can see cyno for example) so i dont think hed wanna outperform desperately #kvh is only competitive when its hthm hes up against AHHAH #hed rather be spurred on to get at least the same reactions and sounds out of hthm #and be really proud and happy when he manages to #meanwhile hthm is having the time of his life. lit getting his mind blown away AHAH #reply

[boylikeanangel]

the whole "izzy is gay and homophobic" take that early ofmd fandom collectively agreed on was literally correct actually and we all lost the day people decided that was a reductive analysis of his character and started fooling themselves into thinking he was ever supposed to be more than exactly that

#i blame one specific person for changing everyone's minds about this but in the interest of not getting my head blown off #i will not name names. im just feeling really bitter tonight about the absolute state the meta of this fandom is in rn #our flag means death #wails from the abyss #negative //

[todayisafridaynight]

papas day

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #masato arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #i said i was gonna post something lighthearted today but i LIED !!!!! #in truth its because the art block is HORRENDOUS and the only thing ive felt lately is sad ☠️☠️ #so i let my soul guide me. i guess. i wish i could hang with my dad today #i wish i could hang with my dad ever but thats the way the cookie crumbles #thats why i draw and write these things now innit ╮(╯▽╰)╭ #anyway if i can muster the will to write later i actually do have sweet things in mind #i think i do wanna do a ficlet of that arakawa and ichi post i made yesterday #but i also have something silly for masato and jo in mind #things i initially planned to make comics of but i really cant muster the energy for full-blown comics at this point #hopefully that energy comes back... #but for now :) uh enjoy ig idk #its not much. yeah thats it this aint much LMAO #love how for mothers day i posted somethin sweet despite hating my mom #yet for fathers day. Weh. #maybe its because i love my dad that i post somethin sad at first LMAOOO #idk i can psychoanalyze myself and my behavior LATER

[crabussy]

when did you first realise you hosted a system?

sometime in 2020 if I remember correctly? had been experiencing very obvious osdd symptoms for YEAAARS but had no idea what it was before meeting some friends who did. learned a bit about it and went okay interesting! and then a few months later went oh fuuuuck.

#IT WAS REALLY FUNNY I DONT KNOW HOW I DIDNT REALISE PREVIOUSLY #like hey man. #you had full blown conversations with another presence inside your head every day on the way home from school for MULTIPLE YEARS #this presence didnt agree with me on everything either like. #dude arguing with someone else inside your own mind is NOT average 11 yo behaviour #anyway ya its been like three or four years. wow #also had an 'imaginary friend' named ivy at the age of like 7 who was mean to me and just. never wanted to play or anything #ask tag #and like. my interests and attitudes towards relationships and even the way I spoke changed almost daily #inchresting stuff ^_^ #I DO WANT TO ADD that disorders involving being a system are VERY COVERT. you might not even HAVE symptoms #I was just. very special or something

[astragatwo]

In contrast to my last two Rain World OC posts, these guys aren't one offs and are part of my current core OC group. More info about them under the cut since it's lengthy.

First starting with The Serpent —

The Serpent is one of AV's many bio-engineered slugcats - if you can even call him a slugcat at this point - as part of a simple passion of experimenting with flexible slugcat biology

They share several traits in common with red lizards, those being constant hyper-aggression, tremendous strength, projectile spit and size

As for similarities with slugcats, well, a general elongated shape? Oh, mobility, unlike red lizards, the Serpent is very adept with vertical movement

AV didn't really have a clear goal in mind with the Serpent unlike the rest of their tube babies, they just sort of... happened.

The spontaneity of their creation though has been very interesting as despite initially being created with the solitary lifestyle of a red lizard, the Serpent still keeps his slugcat instinct of adopting random children they find

Though the Serpent seems at first, displeased with this development but rest assured that if you ever LOOK at his pup wrong they will kill everyone in the room and then himself

Though not pictured in his reference since he was my first Rain World OC, created with very little knowledge of the lore and started as a one-off, he has a citizen ID drone which AV uses to keep track of him

He was also simply created out of my desire to have a long slugcat and my obsession with red lizards combined so there's that, too

Speaking of AV, moving on to Administrative Violence —

Named after the song of the same name by Lauren Bousfield, you'd expect them to be - well - violent. They're not, at least not with those they commonly interact with

They are actually quite sweet with Blown Blooms, their partner, and Peach the slugcat

Weather conditions, all things considered, are pretty mild where they are but far, far off into the distance their partner Blown Blooms isn't so fortunate and natural erosion as well as other random unfortunate events unrelated to weather, has taken quite the toll on them

As a result and fearing for Blooms in every way possible but especially for their communication's inevitable severing and also Blooms being lonely all on their own, AV created a slugcat who resembles a strawberry lizard - a species of lizard Blooms is especially fond of

Peach was designed for protection and companionship first and foremost and an emergency messenger/relay secondly.

Outside of worrying for Blooms' condition and yearning & longing for close physical proximity to them the way creatures who aren't supermassive structures have the luxury of, AV spends most of their time studying their bio-engineered slugcats.

Each and every one of them is given a citizen ID drone for ease of tracking as well as general classifications

They couldn't give a shit about whatever problem the other iterators are working on - just these funny little slugcats

They take the occasional interest in other animals too but it's mainly slugcats

And finally, Blown Blooms and Peach —

Blooms, like AV, is named after a song of the same name by Lauren Bousfield. Peach is just named after her colors.

Blooms, like their partner AV, has a complete disinterest in the great problem and a very big interest in bio-engineering

This time with plants rather than animals though they have a soft spot for small critters but they're usually never the subject of any experiments - just study and admiration

However, due to a deteriorating state, Blooms isn't quite able to use their equipment to manipulate genetic information like they used to - which is upsetting

So instead, they help AV with their current studies as well as keeping tabs on their own prior experiments

They have Peach now, though, which brings a much appreciated break from constant studying and nice close companionship

Peach will often catch prey outside and come back to eat it with Blooms and occasionally Blooms will play around with Peach and levitate the prey around for Peach to chase in anti-grav

The event that pushed AV to create Peach was when a creature entered Blooms' chamber and attacked them, partially damaging their puppet before being killed and then expelled from the chamber

Blooms is absolutely still capable of themselves and ultimately damaging the puppet a bit is nothing when taking account the sheer scale of an iterator - but AV will be AV

Plus, Blooms isn't complaining about getting a cute little companion from AV

And general trivia/info —

Everyone here is aroace. All of them. AV & Blooms' relationship is non-romantic in a sapphic way

The Serpent's pup's name is Pipsqueak

I know rudder tails shouldn't curve like that but I decided that after I finished drawing the Serpent and I wasn't about to redraw anything at that point

The other Iterators in AV and Bloom's local group are Illuminated Crown of Fire, Projections of Watchful Eyes, and an unnamed lunar-eclipse inspired iterator.

I have little information on them right now, but they are each based off of solar eclipses, stars and lunar eclipses respectively

In all, this local group is just a bunch of experiment freaks to varying degrees except for ICoF whose presence is often forgotten because of how little they speak but is also ever looming

And that's all! Thank you for reading this far in <3

#my art #my ocs #fanart #rain world #oc tag: the serpent #oc tag: administrative violence #oc tag: blown blooms #oc tag: peach #THE READ MORE IS VERY LONG i have Thoughts about my little weirdos #i have a whole iterator log between AV & blooms written out that i really want to draw something for but idk if i'll get to that #sure iterators off their string is cool but im obsessed w the fact that they're supermassive structures that cannot move from where they ar #yet feel so deeply and can create deep meaningful relationships with one another #i can only dream of articulating and capturing The Longing AV feels to be close to Blooms physically #it's there just trust me it's just stuck in my brain and i'll never be able to translate it out of my brain but just trust me on this one o #av looks at slugcat colonies and wishes that they could live with their local group in close proximity like that #blooms longs and yearns too but not as much as AV their mind is more preoccupied with their inevitable collapse and ruin