#my autism

[nyaifyz]

#nyaifyz art #murder drones #littlest pet shop #lps #crossover #murder drones au #lps giraffe #lps beagle #my autism

[ascendingconures]

I WISH I had my own Michael to speak to me, I'm so jealous.

He's all yours anon.

Just a little note- These are Pre-Distortion Michael. I couldn't get usable results training on Michael Distortion due to the, well, distortion in the sample audio. So if you want Mikey D, you'll have to put the result audio in the something like audacity and distort the output audio from the model (aka add some echo, high pitched noise/static and mess around with high/lowpass filtering) Michael 1.0 is a model trained from the raw data of his lines from MAG 99. It has a lot of noise and a bit of speech slurring due to the cassette tape SFX. it has VERY good magnus-y results, but isnt good for something like singing. Michael 2.0 was trained using audio I heavily edited + the one blooper where his VA speaks without the cassette filter over it. it has the low end of his voice restored that the lowpass filter of the tape recorder destroyed. it makes him sound very different. it was also trained with feature extraction which sort of reconstructs his voice from scratched based on the "features" of it if that makes sense. its more likely to retain an accent when you feed it non accent data (though its super rare due to the nature of speech2speech). I still have mixed opinions on how this model turned out and it has more unstable results than 1.0

But yeah, TLDR, just download RVC, select input audio, select the model, and you can run this locally. its very lightweight and can run on a laptop from like 2014!

#michael shelley #tma #michael distortion #ask #rvc #ai #s2s #my autism #michaelposting

[skullivancrossbones]

PEACEMAKER IS FILMING!!!!!!!!!!

#peacemaker #vigilante x peacemaker #vigilante #vigilmaker #james gunn #the suicide squad #chris smith #adrian chase #leota adebayo #im so excited #my autistic ass #my autism #autistic adrian smith #🧜‍♂️

[halcyonnnn]

GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED GOOD OMENS SEASON 3 IS CONFIRMED

#good omens #good omens 3 #good omens season 3 #I AM GOING SO FUCKING INSANE RN #MY AUTISM #I NEED TO START BITING THINGS

[perpetualmushrooms]

I commissioned alex koval because there isn't enough art of my wife!!!

credit to @lovanxart!!!!

the boy!!!

#alex koval #alex emh #slenderverse #everymanhybrid #grahahhhh #my autism #he's so!!!!

[aezelartist]

Reblog if you wanna get bitten and bite.

#transgender #trans #trans rights #trans woman #let me bite you #bite #bite me #transfem #transgirl #my autism #does this to me #I will infect you with my gay furry autism disease

[geckobowl]

i just had a nervous breakdown/meltdown because I'm hyperfix on zadr, and one of my moots posted an anti zadr video on tik tok.. what is wrong with me.. stupid fucking autism bro 😭

#oh boy #my autism #i hate my autism #WHY #invader zim zadr #invader zim

[nympha-foresta]

I'm not autistic enough to appear autistic. I'm not normal enough to appear normal.

I'm just the weird girl that talks to much or just don't talk at all.

I'm the autistic that people don't want around.

I am lovable from a distance, sweet and charming until they get too close, and they realize I'm sensitive so they have to walk on eggshells around me.

The closer they get, the more they see that too much sensory causes meltdowns and that sometimes I can be a bitch because I don't want them to talk to me.

Because I don't want to be touch.

Sometimes I'm too weird because all I want to do is talk.

And I talk way too much about things I like, and then to become bored and angry when listening to things I don't like.

I'm loveable from a distance I'm people pleaser because I smile often and laugh easily.

I care about others, until I care too deeply, too quickly and I scare them away.

I'm loveable until they get to know me and then I'm too much.

I'm weird and sensitive, selfish and entitled.

I'm manipulative and ungrateful and disrespect.

I'm a crybaby and too intense..

I'm not normal enough to fit in but not autistic enough to "excuse" my behaviour.

They don't believe me when I say I'm autistic. So it doesn't give them an explanation on why I growl when my flow is interrupted or why I complain when the systems, the plans are changed.

It doesn't explayn why certain clothes, textures, pressures cause meltdowns and anger.

Or why I talk really loud when I get excited, or why I get quiet and upset when I told I meed to lower the volume just a little bit.

I see other autistics around me celebrated and loved of their differences and I feel like I got stuck with all the traits that make me unlovable.

And got none of the traits people like and admire.

Even in the autistic community, I don't feel like I'm autistic enough and it's so incredibly hard to feel like I don't fit in whit even with the other "outcasts and misfits"

#vent post #actually autistic #autistic adult #autistic problems #autistic women #my autism #asd #asd life #tism tag #autism spectrum disorder #autism vent #vent tag #autistic community #autistic girl #i have autism #autistic feels

[faeyuh]

you think YOUR special interest is "too childish"?? well it could be "too horrible". like my special interest with cults, cult leaders, and manipulation tactics.

#my autism is still :3 though #autism #cults #cw cults #childish interests #spin #autism spin #special interest #sanrio #dhmis #cult of the lamb #my autism #neurodivergent

[spaced-out-cosmos]

@lightningzombie listening rn (these are my live reactions)

oooh i love the intro

hehe im grinning it’s just a vibey song wtf?? it’s so sweet

…kinda depressing wait but like. in a “nothing matters! :D” way which i vibe with

AAAH CHORUS SO VIBES SUMMERTIME SADNESS OR LIKE AUTUMN W SUNLIGHT FILTERING THRU LEAVES

gonna get me back into my imagine dragons era

“i was a validation on your sleeve” crying

it’s giving lucky people

gah his voice on the “seleeeeeene” is so shiny i love it

what’s with the ghost sound

i like the clickies tho

it’s really summer sunset magnificent nostalgia i love it actually

adding it to my liked songs!!

#music #imagine dragons #my adhd #my autism #synesthesia #cos reacts! #your recs <3

[kkoct-ik]

seeing fnaf tomorrow yaaaayy

#my autism #kostik speaks #i love fnaf so earnestly im looking forward to it idc

[moogiepoo]

"STOP BEING AUTISTIC!!!!!" - @werm-arises, 2023 in response to me talking about a bluey episode i like

#bluey #my autism #it knows no bounds #loveu werm

[imkrisyoung]

ONE HOUR LATER...

SpongeBob: Just a few more minutes of mental preparation and I'll be painting this wall...

TWO HOURS LATER...

SpongeBob: I'm getting to the paint...

THREE HOURS LATER...

Patrick (holding the time card): Can you move along? I'm all out of time cards.

#spongebob #spongebob squarepants #wet painters #cartoon #cartoons #2000s cartoons #old cartoons #nickelodeon #nicktoons #tv quotes #my verbal stimming #my echolalia #my autism #patrick star

[ajarorworms]

me giggling n kicking my legs n flapping my arms around and swaying back and forth after seeing literally any content at all of mepad inanimate insanity

#my autism #mepad ii #inanimate insanity

[gorillaxyz]

final sweep through of all my playlists until i get to the one where i dumped a few songs

#txt #AND THEN... IM DONE... IM SONE WITH THE PHASE 0 PLAYLISTS #for now #URRGHHHHHH i want to work on my other ones so badly #THEY ARE NOT GOOD. i need tonsave them #my autism

[othellovonryan-1000]

TW for description of a sensory meltdown

Ok I've been having a very hard day, and I'd like to talk about it, because I think things like this should be talked about

I was woken up bright and early today with the gong by my father, cause it's ✨eAsTeR✨ and my little brother must be appeased with an easter egg hunt. So immediately my day started with a very loud and offsetting noise, and my brother running around yelling, which I think is in big part why the rest of the day went the way it did.

My friend came over for breakfast this morning, which was great, I always enjoy when she comes over and I was happy to provide her with a nice breakfast on a day she typically wouldn't. But she's also very unpredictable, and kind of loud, and my family is loud, and my little brother likes to cling to my friends, so he was constantly around us, and when I tried to get myself to calm down with a fun game with my friend, my controller started lagging uncontrollably, and I just absolutely fucking lost it.

There were a lot of things that led up to this. The house being cold from all the doors being open, the bright lights, all the yelling, my clothes being uncomfortable.

And I started yelling and I threw my controller and it almost broke, and I kept hitting myself and the table and couch next to me, so much that my brother seemed scared to come near me. But I couldn't think rationally, and I was just.. incredibly out of it. Then my father calls me into the next room after I've calmed down just slightly, and he tells me to do something else because this was making me so upset.

However, I was unable to think of anything else I wanted to do, therefore I went right back to playing the game with my friend.

This however led to, more or less, a repeat.

Eventually I got it through my head that I could just play my game by myself without it being on the TV making the controllers lag, and I managed to come down a little bit, because I was doing the thing I enjoyed without the frustration.

However, many of the other sensory factors were still present, such as the noise and light.

I managed to get through most of the day with very few incidents after that, but I have just been excused from dinner by my parents because I was acting.. less than table appropriete.

And I recognize that, I was acting angry and rude.

But I didn't have my music because it's not allowed at the dinner table, I didn't have my comfort item because hats aren't allowed at the dinner table, my brother was in my face talking to me, and the bird was screeching, crawling all over me, biting at my clothes, it was still loud, it was still bright, and I hadn't had any time in the day to calm down.

Today, to put it simply, sucked.

It was a really terrible sensory environment with very little room to breathe because all of my siblings and my friend were here the entire day, and I couldn't find a way to step away without seeming cold and mean. (Looking back now, I could have just explained the situation, but it's hard to think when your senses are attacking you from every angle)

This is an example of what a sensory meltdown can look for me. Today was not only rough for me and my friends and family, but it was absolutely exhausting as well, because I am used to sensory meltdowns being 1-2 hours or less.

This is the first time one has lasted an entire day in over a year.

It wasn't super intense throughout the entire day, but it was always there.

I'm feeling better now because I am in my room with the lights off, close to no sound, my weighted blanket, hat, and comfort stuffy, and I feel as if I might be able to come downstairs in a few minutes because I have been given space to breathe.

If you're a neurotypical person seeing this, know that I am very embarrassed by my behavior. I'm embarrassed, and ashamed, and I wish with every part of me that I didn't have outbursts like this. It hurts me, it hurts my surroundings, and it's very taxing for every single person involved. But it's especially taxing for me, and that's why I wanted to talk about this.

As tiring for you it may be, or however embarrassed you might be, think about how I feel. I feel out of control of my own body and emotions, I feel overwhelmed, I feel embarrassed, I feel anxious, I feel scared.

Most of the time, I don't even realize that I'm overstimulated! All this stuff I'm saying was realized in retrospect.

So please, just try to take a little time out of your day to make life less of a sensory hell. It doesn't have to be the full 9 yards, just.. if you see someone struggling, maybe try to take the time to turn off any lights that don't need to be on, find a way to offer a relief from sound (whether that be earplugs, headphones, whatever), just.. try to be kind.

Stay lovely <3

#actually autistic #actually autism #being autistic #my autism #autism