#not because I don't think it belongs in that tag

[all-purpose-dish-soap]

550 words / 25 / more ghost + gaz with free use medic reader

...

"Come here, medic."

"I told you, I'm fine."

"Ain't a request." Ghost takes you firmly by the back of the neck before you can flee. He squeezes tight enough to make it clear he's not asking.

You feel his and Gaz’s eyes on you--on the bleeding laceration sliced through the outer cartilage of your ear and on the bruise forming on your cheekbone. You got tangled up briefly with an enemy tango and almost became a hostage. Or a statistic. But you're fine now.

"You're making a big deal over nothing,” you tell them.

Ghost pulls you forward and angles your face this way and that, trying to get a better look at you.

Gaz crosses his arms and stares you down. "Fine is when you burn yourself on a shell casing. You're not fine." He's barely holding back the edge in his voice. He can't pull rank on you--none of them can, technically--and he's supposed to be polite and respectful. But seeing that happen to you, and the adrenaline running through him, is making him thoughtless.

"He only grabbed me. Didn't hurt me."

Ghost hisses at you, his voice just as rough as the squeeze he has on the back of your neck. "What happened isn't important. What's important is that he thought he could touch you." His grip tightens. "You're in our squad. You're under our watch. No one messes with you."

Your gut twists. That's not fair--acting protective. It's part of their job to keep you safe, but they don't have to talk like this. You glance at Gaz for help, but the look on his face tells you he doesn’t disagree with Ghost. You swallow the protests on the tip of your tongue and close your eyes, silently letting them examine you.

Ghost finds another few nicks and fresh bruises. You’re a medic—you’re not as armored as they are because it’s a goddamn war crime to kill medical personnel. "Jesus,” he mutters. “Bastard snuck up on us.”

"Thank you," you say quietly.

"For what?" Ghost snaps back. As usual, he's not expecting gratitude from you. You're supposed to take the insults, the berating, the harshness. And the protection, because you belong to them. At least, that's how they see it.

Gaz speaks up. "No one treats you like that again, alright?"

"It's not like I asked him if he needed a hostage."

"Doesn't matter," Gaz retorts. "If someone puts a finger on you like that again--"

Soap ducks back into the room, his rifle’s muzzle on his shoulder.

"Take care of it?" Ghost asks.

"Aye," Soap says. "Bastard won't be layin' his hands on anyone anymore. Not enough fingers left, for starters." He turns to you with a look of sympathy, but you recognize the wild edge of adrenaline still present. "You alright, hen?"

"I'm fine." You use the opportunity to worm yourself out of Ghost's grasp. "We going?"

"Affirmative," Gaz says. “We should move.”

Ghost turns away, forcing his attention back on the mission even though he carries himself with cold anger. Soap looks you up and down once more, his eyes lingering on your cheekbone a little longer this time. He seems about to say something, but thinks better of it. His blue eyes soften just a bit before he turns to follow Gaz and Ghost.

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more Gaz / more Ghost / more multi-141 and poly 141 / masterlist tag

#mine #story #cod #cod x reader #call of duty #call of duty x reader #cod mw2 #cod mwii #tf 141 #tf 141 x reader #poly!141 #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #ghost x reader #gaz #gaz x reader #healslut #johnny soap mactavish #john soap mactavish #soap x reader

[lifeandlies-of-regulusblack]

Please….Please save me from the regulus discourse I keep seeing…i saw 7 posts about it in succession…he doesn’t deserve this…I need…regulus headcanons…

JUICY HEADCANONS HERE WE GO.

tagging @rizzulusarcturizz @villain-crown @ilovefanfics @arcturusblackregulus and @queerregulusablack because i love them.

regulus smokes his first cigarette in his brother's room, taken from a pack sirius left behind. he keeps the pack even after he's smoked all of what's inside, because that's where he puts all his little notes for sirius.

—

sirius likes to tell regulus that he loved regulus before he was ever born, and little regulus would always laugh at that. he tells his big brother to stop being silly, and sirius plays at being offended. "i'm not being silly! it's true! i was waiting for you all along!"

—

pre-hogwarts regulus and sirius once fought over regulus fussing over kreacher. sirius was looking for regulus only to find him trying to convince kreacher to let him wrap his injured finger with his handkerchief.

Sirius calls regulus out in annoyance because he didn't want his brother touching the elf, he was uneasy around them and he didn't think it was regulus' role to care for beings meant to serve them (as they've heard their entire lives). but regulus wouldn't budge. he grips on to Kreacher's hand tighter while glaring at sirius. the shock at regulus' ire turns into petty rage and jealousy, as the poor elf keeps telling regulus that it was okay, mumbling out a dozen other protests about how master regulus didn't need to lower himself and— and— this makes sirius angrier. so much so that he ends up yelling at kreacher to shut up. which in turn makes regulus scream at sirius to go away.

and so sirius does, angrily, hurt, and feeling slightly betrayed. so unused to regulus... fighting him. "Stupid little brothers," he says to himself. "See if I ever play with him again!"

Sirius was still by himself, thinking of turning regulus away when his brother inevitably came to his room later at night, to sleep in his bed, when he hears his brother's wailing cries. this puts a primal fear into his being that far overshadows whatever childish anger he was clinging to. he runs down the stairs to see what's happened. and there, he sees his brother, clutching at his cheek and cowering from the tall figure of his mother looming over him, wand drawn.

regulus was caught with kreacher.

for once in his (relatively young) life, sirius is frozen. he doesn't know what to do. this isn't a broken vase he can say he broke. this wasn't something he could say regulus did for him. the act of nursing an injured elf was so clearly an action belonging to regulus. only regulus would do this.

he looks at their mother and sees the disgust and disappointment lining her features. regulus was her perfect boy.

and her perfect boy had wrapped his handkerchief, with the black family coat of arms embroidered right at the center, and used it to bandage an elf's bleeding finger. his mother is incandescent.

sirius is too slow, too short, to reach his brother as walburga reaches to shake his brother with a frightening vigor that has regulus crying out in alarm.

"Don't you ever do that again, you hear me?" his mother shouts over regulus' panicked cries. At sirius' shout of alarm, she lets regulus go with a harsh shove and makes her way to him.

"You should've taught him better! What use are you to the family if you can't look after your brother?" she yells at him. she prods at his chest, making sure her nails dig in painfully, "This is your fault, you foolish child." Sirius can't even muster the rage he so usually feels at his mother, yet again, finding ways to blame him. At least she's let regulus go.

When, after their mother has left, sirius gathers his little brother into his arms and shushes him, rubbing his back best as he can. they're both reeling. regulus at being punished for what he thought was right, unused to being the recipient of their mother's anger. and sirius for not being able to do anything, to help him — replaying the way his limbs froze, his mind unable to think of something quick to say or do.

he wants to punish kreacher for his brother's tears.

—

regulus is top of his class in potions. really, it's him and severus that become the talk of the school. prodigies. Slughorn's two favorite students and the topic of most his open bragging. a lot of students remark on them being fortunately in separate years, avoiding the cutthroat competition that would've been for the top spot. they don't necessarily like each other, but the respect is there.

regulus expected to receive the brunt of severus' anger regarding his brother. he tells him this as they end up in the same library aisle, discussing which potions book had better methodology. and the older scoffs.

"It's sad how you keep wanting to be like your brother."

and the statement stings. he idolizes his brother.

"Get over yourself, Black. It's a compliment. You're not your brother and you've already made a name for yourself."

oh...

"Never talk to me about this again. I don't hate you but we're not friends."

After finishing 6th year, Severus gives him his potions book.

"Here, see if you can do better than me. Use it and let me know how it turns out." he stops before he walks away, "Or not. I'll probably hear about it from the professors."

—

something something regulus asking to apprentice under madame pomfrey. regulus slowly gains her trust and respect. eventually, she lets him help with remus, after he comes to her telling her how he knows, and how remus knows that he knows.

"I mean... Moony? Really?" he asks incredulously. He shoves his wand harshly under Remus' throat, "Do you think I'm stupid?"

—

Regulus tells Sirius to leave. He'll follow but not in the near future.

"Come on, Sirius. I'll survive without you. But you won't with me." "That's not true! Together or not at all, remember? We promised. I promised." "What, you think I'm not brave enough? Too soft to ever completely leave the family behind? That I'll lose myself to them?" "No, I think you've always been brave. Too brave. You don't have to be brave for them and not this way. Can't you see Reggie? This way's fucked up. We can just leave!" "It's... It's not that bad Sirius. Or at least it never was for me. I can be strong for the both of us and I want to — just promise you won't go where I can't follow." "As if. What do you want me to tell moony, you little shit?" "That I love him." "This hurts you know? This entire conversation has been one big pain in the ass, and it's going to be for a long while. Man, fuck you. Honestly. I can't blame you, but this hurts, just so you know." "I know. I love you." "...I know."

#asks #regulus black #the black brothers #sirius black #marauders era #regulus headcanon #hp marauders #sirius and regulus #severus snape #remus lupin #moonwater #the marauders #marauders fandom #dead gay wizards #marauders fanfiction #marauders fic #my writing

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[uncanny-tranny]

Even if you don't agree with incarcerated people having access to education, monetary compensation for work, or whatever, I really hope you acknowledge that so long as you provide the state incentive to imprison people (free labour or whatever it may be), the state will continuously imprison people - especially for non-violent crime.

#politics #ask to tag (genuine) #same with the death penalty #like you can think certain people deserve to die for the henious crimes they've committed but that power should *not* belong to the state #see also: expanding the definition of crime that USian politicians are wont to do #like you see people desperate to expand what is a crime - such as providing trans healthcare #like yes this is a complex issue but also... i just can't get behind the state having that ability #i do not trust that there will not be overreach because see: the united states' LONG history of overreach to an *excessive* extent #this is very much in the context of being an american but also i believe this regardless of that context #(it's just that american politics quickly changed my tune) #(like i used to be pretty pro-death penalty until i actually started thinking about it and started actually being realistic about it) #(because yes maybe some people deserve that outcome for their actions. but the US has proven it CANNOT handle that power) #(you don't have to look that far into the history of the death penalty to realize how egregious it gets)

[francesderwent]

Jonathan starts out the story with a very close-knit family unit, a mother and a brother who all love each other deeply but who have already faced a lot of hardship. this leads to him having a very batten-down-the-hatches, circle-the-wagons kind of approach to life. his circle expands (minutely) as the story progresses, to include Nancy and Argyle, but he always has a limited list of people he cares for, and his goal is to protect them. he’ll make sacrifices for them, he’ll shape his life with them in mind. his whole universe shrinks to fit the few people who matter, and everything else fades away—including the possibility that those people could find happiness in the wider world. the world is a threat, something to be guarded against. you can’t take on the world and win, it’s not going to change for the better no matter what you do, you just have to keep your head down and deal with the tragedy of it. he’s seen monsters, he’s known loss. he knows all too well that the picture-perfect happy family is an illusion painted over resentment and cruelty, or even just an illusion painted over the complications that come with loving flawed people. any other outlook is naivety—this is why Jonathan has so little patience for Bob Newby, who is decent but simple, buying into all the things that Jonathan has already seen aren’t unbreakable. and this is why Jonathan walks away from Steve and Nancy kissing in the high school halls in season 2, not out of jealousy, just out of impatience with how juvenile and unrealistic it seems to him. they’re playing into the image of what teenagers are supposed to be and do, the path they’re all meant to be on, and Jonathan doesn’t have any time for that. the image is a lie. the path where you try to fit into the world and put down roots there can only destroy you. when Will feels bombarded, Jonathan doesn’t tell him that he’s going to be happy and people will come to understand him; Jonathan tells Will that he understands him. Jonathan will do absolutely anything to be there for the people he loves; the world will do nothing for them but break them. their happiness, if they find it, is going to have the quality of escape: stepping outside the stifling boundaries of what’s expected and hiding out in a Castle Byers, somewhere they can be safe with the people they love, away from everything that wants to hurt them.

Steve starts out with a couple of merely surface-level friendships and no close family; he’s an only child, he has nowhere to direct his love and devotion, and no one giving that unconditional love to him. he’s already won everything small town high school life has to offer him, reputation and good looks and unsupervised freedom. when all of that is revealed to be vanity of vanities, useless trappings laid on top of an empty cynical life, he too sees monsters and comes to know loss. but his reaction to it is different. in season two, Steve still sees some value in going to a party and wearing the costumes he and Nancy worked hard on. he sincerely misses his girlfriend after an hour, without any cynicism, without needing to appear cool. he’s thinking about getting a job with benefits, so he can be someone to rely on. and as soon as anyone steps into his peripheral vision, Steve loves them. he loves Dustin who orders him around, he loves Robin who makes fun of him, he loves the kids who don’t listen to him, he loves Nancy who broke his heart. his perfect popular ordinary life was empty—so he fills it up with real things, that are still very much real ordinary things. he gives ice cream to the kids and watches movies with Robin, he remembers the song that the carousel horse plays, and through it all he keeps on looking for love and believing in love. the more darkness Steve sees, the more fully he throws himself into the world. it’s after he’s come very near to dying that he tells Nancy his deepest wish is to have a big family and see the world with them—he wants to bring MORE little people into existence and then he wants to introduce them to the whole of the world. he wants to have adventures with them, ordinary people in an extraordinary world, forging through it all together. and then, it’s in the oppressive hell of the upside down, where darkness is literally all around him, that he confesses that the dream is still tied up with her—not some picture-perfect fantasy, but a grounded hope, rooted in his real and abiding love for her, as he really sees her. the world is dark, and wilder and more complicated than it appears. but Steve finds his hope in the most ordinary thing there is: a husband and wife and their children. he is the sane man in a mad world that G.K. Chesteron talks about: the normal boy who becomes the fairy tale hero. 

so what about Nancy? Nancy’s outlook on darkness and the world is very much “ride out and meet them”. she sees evil in the world, and chooses to face it head on, and then, as much as possible, she tries to shoot it in the face. not for nothing does she tell Jonathan in season one when he asks what they should do about the demogorgon, “I want to kill it.” she’s not just being dramatic. she means it. what Nancy most wants, from the moment she discovers the tragedy and violence of life, is to eliminate evil in the world. she wants to kill the demogorgon, she wants to root out the unprincipled men who let it loose and see them punished for the harm they caused, she wants to banish the mind flayer even if she has to chase him out with a hot poker, she wants to set vecna on fire and then pump him full of hot lead.

and so, initially, Jonathan’s perspective seems attractive to her, because he too is aware of precisely the evil that she wants to fight, whereas Steve seems to still be appreciating the shiny surface, the veneer of normalcy and happiness that has ugliness underneath it. “it’s all bullshit,” she tells him. she can’t play the role anymore, she can’t pretend everything is fine when everything that she once knew was poisoned by death. and not only is Jonathan aware of the darkness lurking under reality, his rejection of it is so total that he’s willing to reject the entire world along with it. he so hates the evil that Nancy wants to fight that he will turn away from everything else to hide away with just her and Will. that’s romantic. it is! eros loves to say “you and me against the world”, and the romanticism of that does win out in season two. Nancy picks Jonathan and the escape he offers, picks him because he sees the same world she does. but as the story progresses, we see that their worldviews don’t align perfectly. they’re not in agreement about how to deal with the world. Jonathan wants to get through his internship with a minimum of conflict and go home to his family; Nancy wants to prove herself, change people’s minds, make a lasting difference. Nancy is starting to imagine a life she can build with him, Jonathan can only see what he already has and wants to preserve.

so what we see starting to happen in season four is Steve’s perspective is becoming more and more appealing to Nancy. she’s surprised by that, and I think confused by it. it doesn’t make any sense to her, but suddenly his hopes and dreams don’t sound like bullshit anymore. the picture he paints for her of the life he wants sounds nice, especially because he knows what he’s talking about; he’s been quietly practicing for it, taking care of others younger and weaker than himself, attracting no attention and asking for no reward. it’s not bullshit, it’s not naive—it’s the dream she had before everything fell apart, and now it could be real. and why does Steve’s hope become steadily more and more attractive than Jonathan’s escape? because Jonathan can only retreat, into the safety and solitude of the Byers homestead or into a cloud of smoke. Steve can enter into the world and transform it, light it up from within. Steve can act, and Nancy is a woman of action.

#meta whine and rant #tagging for spoilers: #stranger things s4 #me writing this like: i don't think i have anything to say about nancy except that she wants to fight #which - in fact - IS all I said about nancy #I DO not understand her like I feel I understand the boys #but I think I am correct on that one point #also. do not ask me to explain what jonathan's deal is vis a vis college in s4 #because I do not remember #also catch me putting the g.k. chesterton reference in the body of the post instead of in the tags where it belongs #can't stop won't stop babyyyy #also. like. look at this. #steve is a chesterton hero for SURE #but jonathan IS a taylor swift leading man!!! #I'm sitting here writing meta for a fantasy show!! obviously I am ALL ABOUT escape!! #but I do think nancy is gonna go the other way! #also. just. #'high school is fake but marriage is real' is my favorite love triangle take of all time #yeah! reject the ruling forms of teenagerhood!! it's so stupid!!!!! #but then get married and have six little nuggets #stranger things

[lilacs-stash]

ii headcanon: Trinkets.

Trinkets are little accessories that two or more object's wear when they're in a relationship with each other.

Trinkets come in many forms. Sometimes they match, sometimes they're traded accessories, but most commonly they're a bracelet or ring that is the color of the partner it represents.

There's two things in canon that are trinkets in my stuff. The Crystal Candle gave to Silver (which he'd wear as a big earing), and the bowties Taco and Mic had.

#I love creating random culture things for fictional worlds #it's really fun #inanimate insanity #silvercandle #I'm not taging as t@¢om1¢ because I don't like them. I just think they're exs and this lines up perfectly with my trinket headcanon #ii microphone #ii taco #ii silver spoon #ii candle #ii headcanons #lilac's ii designs #not actually but because they're such an important part of my designs I feel like this belongs in that tag #object posting

[databent]

why the fuck is it that some people cant seem to acknowledge that people can just... be disabled. not through any fault of their own, not because something "happened" to them, just because, you know, sometimes people have disabilities. like, come on

#.pdf #rd #kd #just a warning these tags are long. like. really incredibly long. i had thoughts. #sorry for the vague ass post i'm just upset about some stupid shit my dad said yesterday. #namely: outright telling me that he doesn't believe i have non-24 (circadian rhythm disorder). #and that even if i do he doesn't believe it's possible for it to actually be a lifelong and disabling condition. #*also: this post isn't meant to imply that disabilities that did have some inciting incident are more accepted or anything. #it's just that i'm frustrated with the “you're disabled? why? what happened?” sentiment a lot of people seem to have. #nothing happened to cause my disability. i'm just like this. no i can't change it. what the fuck do you want me to tell you? #i'd guess it probably has to do with society's focus on work and productivity and career-mindedness above all else. #and when someone comes along that doesn't fit in with the way things are structured it just doesn't compute. #because the idea of people who can't dedicate their entire lives to working is so fundamentally contradictory to their view of... i don't- #-know. meaning in life? fulfillment? that they feel a need to reject the possibility altogether. #this is mainly when dealing with invisible disabilities from what i've seen. because i think there's a tendency to view visibly disabled- #-people as belonging to a different category altogether. which of course is its own issue but i'm not visibly disabled so i don't feel- #-like it's necessarily my place to speak on that. #anyway. i just want my struggles to be acknowledged as real. because they are. and i need people to understand that I Have A Disability. #albeit one many people don't even believe could be real because there's a sort of belief that circadian rhythms are purely a product of- #-external forces like sunlight so “you can't possibly have yours be different and have you tried just going outside more?” sigh. #sorry i also just remembered my dad telling me he doesn't believe i can have something so rare because the chances of having it are too low. #which is some ridiculous logic to me. rare doesn't mean it's impossible. some amount of people have to wind up with it regardless. #i just lucked out i guess. #n24 tag

[bluejayblueskies]

turns out i'm still mad at how everyone in t/ma treated jon actually

#like. okay. #without getting to far into discourse bc frankly it's not worth dragging that all up again out of the depths of hell where it belongs #and because i have thought about the other characters' motivations and about the nuances of how a terrible situation impacts all involved #etc. etc. #there really was no reason to go so hard on the 'jon is The Embodiment Of Everything That Has Ever Gone Wrong In The Podcast Ever' thing #it got to the point where it was actively frustrating to listen to especially in season five #((and tbh listening to rq commentaries only made it worse bc it made me realize 'oh they. they don't think that the way jon was treated #is actually as bad or as big of a deal as i did' #which kinda turned me off canon tma content for a while)) #anyway. idk i just sometimes question whether or not the other characters acting the way they did toward jon was actually #necessary or if it was just a remnant from when jon was supposed to have a corruption arc that was never corrected for some reason #discourse #tma discourse #(if this shows up in the tag i'm sorry i just. hghhhhh. if tma2 starts pulling the same nonsense i am quitting immediately #and retreating into the arms of male/volent my beloved)

[musical-chick-13]

Hey, can you re-imagine a wholy genderbent Deathnote, is too cursed?

Okay, it is SO funny that you mention this because I was talking to my Long-Distance Best Friend the other day about the fact that there is, apparently, (or at least was, at some point before the strike?) a plan to make a live-action TV series adaptation of this for Netflix. Which is...a whole other thing I don't want to get into, but ANYWAY.

The POINT is that we were talking about what would have to happen to make me have some modicum of hope that this might not be the worst idea ever (remember what happened the LAST time we did live-action Netflix DN, we got the 2017 movie no one needs to live through that again). And what I ultimately came up with was:

Every single character, except for Light and Raye, is now a woman. (Obviously this isn't wholly genderbent, but. It's close enough to this ask that I found it to still be a humorous coincidence.) I think in the hands of the right writer, it could be an interesting examination of misogyny and how baked-in that concept is to the justice system. (And I think it would lend extra context to the fact that Light was able to keep operating for so long. If the people opposing him are all women in a historically male-dominated field, they'd all have to contend with a type of professional and societal discrimination that he'll never have to, thus giving him an advantage. Also L would be a Weird Girl™, which would absolutely raise some interesting questions in terms of the scope of this character's influence and their societal perception. Also femslash Near/Mello would be canonically possible which is OBVIOUSLY the most important factor to take into consideration.)

Soichiro's difficulty in believing Light's guilt would gain an extra dimension if this character were also grappling with the societal expectations of motherhood (especially while being in a position of authority in a """masculine""" career). And Matsuda...I just think some woman, any woman, should get to shoot Light repeatedly in a fit of rage. (Also something-something calling women in the workplace idiots/making them the butt of the joke/consistently overlooking them, I think you could do something there.) I think this theoretical concept I spent way too much time thinking about really only works if, even though the major and supporting characters are women, it's still made clear that they work in an environment overwhelmingly occupied by men.

As for a FULLY genderbent story...Light as a female character is, to me, indeed an idea too cursed. I will not elaborate.

And I don't think the Shinigami experience the concept of gender in the way that we do, so tbh I'm not really sure a whole lot would change in that regard. But I do think a female Ryuk would be very funny.

Naomi being a man I think would be...not cursed, I just don't particularly enjoy it. But mainly that's because I am A Gay™, and I love thinking about women who are tough enough to have the word "massacre" as part of their nickname. :)

Misa being reimagined as a guy could be really interesting, though, given how a) the entertainment industry treats women differently from how it treats men, and b) the world at large generally expects men to react differently to trauma than women do. (Although I still very much prefer the version of Misa that serves as a deconstruction of the Manic Pixie Dream Girl). And I'd be curious to see what the viewer/reader response would be if this character were a man. (Mainly because, historically, audiences are a lot more positively receptive to extreme, unhealthy displays of devotion when they come from a male character than when they come from a female character, but this answer is already probably too long, so we don't have to talk about that.)

(Best Friend ALSO mentioned the idea of Rina Sawayama playing L, and I am now gay on a level I previously didn't ever think was possible, but we don't have to talk about that either.)

Uhhhh....TLDR, full-genderbent DN kind of cursed, but there are some really interesting ideas you could examine. (The one veto I'm gonna make is that I do not think this story works if Light is a girl, but-you guessed it-we really don't have to talk about that.)

Also, stan the stage musical for serotonin and clear skin!

#THANK YOU FOR THE ENRICHMENT #MY GOD I MISSED ASKS I'M SO GLAD I TURNED THE ANONYMOUS FUNCTION BACK ON #I...don't think I'm gonna put this in the tag #I'm not sure it belongs there mainly because I do not know if this makes ANY sense #you're telling me a god of death made this note? #(I guess that's the tag I'll use for when I talk about this property but don't want it to show up in the tag?) #enjoy this peek into what goes on in my brain when I am not on this website #multi t(ASK)ing

[mortiscausa]

ngl i find it kind of wierd when people tag my arthurian stuff as fanart because i really do not think about it that way at all haha

#not that i have anything against fanart #literally like 50% of my output the last 3 years has been babylon 5 fanart #but i don't really think about it the same way #i feel an ownership over my arthurian art that i do not feel about fanart #like the stuff i've been doing recently is actually for a graphic novel i want to try and get published one day >__> #best way i can put the divide in my head is fanart is for something that is someone else's ip #whereas arthuriana belongs to us all and we all get to own what we create from it in a very real way #if that makes sense haha #idk i think it's very much a matter of personal perspective and i know other people have a definition of fanart/fanworks that is broader #and ANYWAY im not like demanding people tag my work a specific way #it's just something i've noticed that i found interesting #because i just never think of arthurian art as fanart unless it's art of a specific show or novel or adaptation like that bbc show salkjdl #if this somehow starts wank i will take another month off the internet alksdjlksjlkdsa

[a-wins-a-win]

ivy robinson is the prettiest boy and I mean that unironically in a gendered way

#what if I told you he was a gay trans man? what then? #she isn’t aware of it in most universes but I just. i know it in my soul #like I am fully aware that so much of Ivy’s story in inextricably related to her female-ness & her girl-ness by extension #(sex & gender as different concepts from where we stand. within the canon they're pretty interlinked but you get me) #and absolutely i don't mean to malign or detract from or ignore the significance of that within the bapo canon - not at all #and obviously ivy is an interesting and compelling and complex character in the way she exists in canon as a cis girl! #but like. just for fun. he is transmasc to me #sometimes he knows/realises this. sometimes he doesn't. #bare a pop opera #mouse talks bapo #Ivy Robinson #transmasc ivy robinson #i actually have many thoughts on this that may warrant an Actual Post but for now im rambling in the tags #for context I was thinking about bapo at work (as I am prone to do) and was struck by the concept of Ivy being right about her relationship #with/attraction to Jason being something more special (for lack of a better word) - on a deeply subconscious level she feels as though she #*belongs* with a boy Like Jason (read; a gay man) because on this subconscious level she knows she too is a gay man #[ask me to elaborate on the femaleness vs girlness aspect of it as it relates to Ivy and I will btw! I think it’s an interesting concept]

[declawedwildcat]

📸 picrew time babes

🎶 Spotify ON REPEAT 🎶 Shuffle your On Repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, tag 10 people.

1. Prelude - Over the Garden Wall 2. Genesis - Amelia Day 3. Arrival of the Birds - The Cinematic Orchestra 4. Spinning Over You - REYKO 5. Sofarinrunning (Acoustic Halloween Version) - Raccoon Tour 6. In regards to love ~ Agape ~ - Yuri on Ice 7. How Many Blankets Are In The World? - Saintseneca 8. Slip - Elliot Moss 9. Three - Sleeping At Last 10. Bloom - LULLANAS

Thank you for the tag @whatthebodygraspsnot!! Tagging in @sharkinlovewithadolphin, @dragon-of-timeless-blue, @legendaerie, @haasegawa, @namesarehardforme, @howtotrainyournana, and @smoothjazz98 if anyone wants to!

#tag game #i'm pretty sure these were two separate tag games but they have been inseparably combined now #(Spotify is hilarious‚ some of these aren't even on a single playlist of mine) #it just keeps repeatedly putting them on my discover weekly and apparently decided I like them because it said so #I cheated on a couple songs I've literally never even listened to that it's just decided belong to me for some reason #on my hands and knees begging pls I don't watch Steven Universe. stop putting SU covers in my generated playlists #sofarinrunning fucks tho. was my top played track of the year to no surprise #I think at least one of these people can tell what playlist I had on lately based on these pulls LMAO

[akagamiko]

thinking agian about how shanks wanted to see roger cry and that he tells luffy he should cry but that shanks himself takes after roger in that regard and won't cry in front of people !!!

#was about to go to bed but saw the emotions thing and started spiraling into my shanks thoughts #the boyish want of needing to see your dad figure/mentor/hero/favorite person show those emotions #because shanks was such a cry baby as a kid but thinking about how he didn't see roger cry and started internalizing it !!! #and wanting to see roger cry because he cried when he was sad or frustrated or angry or ANYTHING AT ALL #but then he grew up and learned the weight that's carried as a captain and #...probably understood roger a lot better #because you want to be seen as put together of course but you also don't want to worry your crew #they look to him for comfort so he doesn't feel like he CAN boohoo all the time (unless he's being totally silly) #even though his crew would be totally fine with him crying and would simply love on him !!! #but him still wanting luffy to cry #wanting him to know that it's okay to cry !!! #YELLLLLS #he wants luffy to be so much better than he is in literally every way #like his crying is definitely a private thing when it happens #beck probably being the only one #maybe yasopp and roux too since those are all his fellas <3 #i'm fine #once again i am saying roger really did a number on him lmao #(intentionally or not sorry roger) #<3 #now i'm going to bed fr #OOC. #honestly this half belongs in the hc tag even if it's a mess of me rambling sorry #HEADCANON.

[mrcspectr]

do you think Jake keeps mental inventory of all the body’s scars and can tell where each one came from

I think.. there are a lot of things that the armor heals, but despite that, Jake would remember every wound, before and after. In the same vein that Marc remembers every death, Jake would be haunted by every cut, every bruise, every moment he couldn't dodge or strike back. Every failure. He already remembers, but Khonshu makes sure he never forgets.

#i've been asked before if i think #the armor heals past scars too #and i've been trying to flesh out this idea #because we don't really.. see the body with any marks #and tbh i do think khonshu might heal that #'you think you own this body? it belongs to me' #but i don't think he'd let them forget either #and i have.. ideas for how i think that might go #a n y w a y #iscarusholmes #asks #percy tag

[bi-sapphics]

just read a “positivity” post that went along the lines of something like this:

“i want to be able to go to a lesbian bar! i want to have cute little deserts available and a peaceful place for butches and femmes to meet and set up dates together. i want trivia nights, bake sales, and weekly club meetings to learn how to write sappho poetry. i want spaces that are safe for talking about women having sex with other women and i want young women to be able to experience the joys of same-sex love in full like it was done in the old days. i want feminist love to be lively again. oh but i don’t want them to be bi tho”

(yes, it explicitly mentioned excluding bi sapphics at the end like that)

like ??? hello ???

what was the point of that last part ????? no really, what was the reason ?????

that was so unnecessary and unrelated. you can say that the post is about lesbians without expressing a distaste for bi women who partake in WLW culture.

i don’t know if you think bi women are incapable of loving other women properly and seeking out gay bars or if you just don’t want us to be cultured but i’m calling biphobia, even if that term means nothing to you.

i understand wanting lesbian-exclusive spaces and that makes sense. but the post a. wasn’t specifically about lesbians, but about wlw in general (”lesbian bars” use the word lesbian broadly in real life to include bisexuals, and always have due to pre-dating separatism), and b. wasn’t talking about about discourse at all. it was just a positive daydreaming post. where did that comment come from out of nowhere? why prohibit bi sapphics from having a fun night with other WLW?

excluding bisexuals from lesbianism isn’t supposed to turn into excluding bisexuals from sapphism. but we all knew where that was headed anyway from the start.

#i know some dumbfuck is about to come into my inbox 'why can't lesbians be left alone you homophobic freak' #as a response because there always is one. without fail. #read it again and please justify why saying 'i don't want bisexuals in gay bars' out loud isn't weird as hell #in a bar with all women that is only about engaging with other women #please tell me how you think some bihet is gonna be looking for a straight hook-up or to suck dick #we're not so dumb that we're gonna be looking for men in a group full of women you fucking idiot #if we don't belong anywhere then what ARE we allowed to do? (rhetorical question) #bi tag #biphobia #bimisogyny #bi women #bi wlw #bi sapphics

[maddy-ferguson]

Why wouldn’t I go in the Byler tag? Genuine question. I enjoy seeing everyone’s thoughts and ideas and headcanons and art and polls and keeping up with all the discourse, even if I disagree with it. There’s always something happening. I even tend to follow most of the Byler accounts I see there and I know I’m not alone in this. Because why not? We’re all in this together. The Byler tag is my home. I eat, breathe, sleep the Byler tag and check it throughout the day. It’s all a family, y’know? We all know Mike is fruity

it's like this: if you (forgive me for saying this) have no standards and want to read what every single byler thinks at all times (literally since people have decided that them doing well on a test belongs on the byler tag "because it's their home") because everyone agrees that "mike is fruity" then you'll enjoy checking the tag throughout the day. but there's no selection there, every post that's pro-byler can be tagged byler, talks about there being discourse on the tag shouldn't exist because EVERYONE can tag a post byler so of course there's gonna be disagreements? because everyone "knowing mike is fruity" doesn't mean people agree on like anything else? you said you don't mind discourse and that's great but that goes without saying because you can't just forbid some opinions, it's not a forum, it's supposed to be an organizational tag. i only check a tag when i don't follow enough people interested in the topic for the best posts to organically make it to my dash. or if you get into a new fandom it makes sense to see what people are saying. is everyone that tags a post succession my family? they're not, that doesn't make any sense, if i loved their posts and felt the urge to follow them (selection process), then they would be my family.

tldr any post that mentions byler in a non-hater way can be tagged byler if people are interested in reading that then good for them ig but they're NOT because they keep complaining about people not being civil (literally just disagreeing with something someone said 10 days before) on the tag which shows that they don't understand the way tumblr tags work! if they only want to read things they agree with then they should...follow like-minded people and stop frantically checking the tag. and complaining about the tag being dry is stupid too

#this is slash nm and not directed at you since you said you don't mind but this is why i don't think relying on the tag for your byler #content makes sense it's unfiltered there's stupid posts that do belong on the tag but that would never make it to my dash yk #this is a very random ask to get because i never talk about this lol #ask