#now I'm not so sure

[completeanduttermess]

Riddle: ...

Dazai: ...

Riddle: ...

Dazai: Chuuya... why did you not tell me about our Wonderlandian love child?

Chuuya: Our fucking what?

Riddle: Your what?

#I'M SORRY I'M SLEEP DEPRIVED OKAY #riddle rosehearts #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #a bit of skk Ig #soukoku #twst #bsd #twst x bsd #LOOK. LOOK. #CHUUYA: READHEAD. SMALL. ANGRY. PRETTY. #RIDDLE: REDHEAD. SMALL. ANGRY. PRETTY. #ALSO ''OFF WITH YOUR HEAD'' (RIDDLE'S SIGNATURE SPELL) IS KINDA SIMILAR TO ''NO LONGER HUMAN'' (DAZAI'S ABILITY) #IDK IT JUST MADE SENSE IN MY HEAD #NOW I'M NOT SO SURE #But like. oh well yk. #bungou stray dogs #twisted wonderland #twst riddle #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #twisted wonderland x bungou stray dogs #anyways Dazai would obviously be in octavinelle #and chuuya... either heartslabyul or savanaclaw. #I mean he could potentially go to pomefiore too. I just think heartslabyul and savanaclaw make more sense.

[scarfacemarston]

Fandom time;

This might come off as annoying, but I don't care. I've done so much for this fandom since I started posting in 2018ish. I'm the one that did all the history, the journals and the audio files AND all the Abigail and John Meta. (There are many others who have written Meta, but I really dug into the Abigail stuff for sure.) How is it that I literally write several big metas about Abigail, repost a few and then suddenly there are a ton of them. I get great minds think a like, but I had some pretty unique points and I had sources.

I'm not saying they're stealing. I think could be potentially speaking, but it's frustrating because I've been around for ages trying to get people to pay attention and yet I bring up new points, get ignored, someone else brings up points and they get all the reblogs. Heck, I've even had hate mail sent to me over my Abigail posts. Some of this literally happened with my John posts, especially my creative ones and my modern au ones magically appearing nearly word for word. Or people stealing my editing work. Literally, I see people saying what I'm saying and shortening it. That's one of the ONLY differences. This fandom sure likes to borrow things because this is more than just "I agree with Abigail being treated poorly thing" or "Dutch was lying". That's fine and cool to see people agree, but using SO MANY of my same talking points and in such detail? I'm tried of it.

#fandom discourse #abigail marston #abigail roberts #this is why I don't post #I was going to post some of my hc's for the first time in 3 years #because that's the last time my written work was stolen #now I'm not so sure #I LITERALLY posted something yesterday and there is a copy of it out

[green-aeggs-and-spam]

Hey❤️ I’m a huge fan of your fic and I’ve noticed you haven’t posted in a long time… do you have plans to continue writing?

Hi there - I know you didn't send this with ill intentions, so I'm going to do my best to answer in good faith.

I have spent the past month laboring over the start of Arc 3. I've made several posts to that effect - that I'm taking extra time to redo some outlines and get the next arc in order, that I've scrapped several thousand words to start a chapter from scratch, that I'm stalled out on an emotionally heavy scene because I'm not in a good mental state to write it.

So in the midst of all that, to get an ask about if I have "plans to continue writing" as though none of that has happened and I haven't been writing at all?

It really strikes a nerve.

I'm sure you meant well when you sent this, but this isn't the kind of ask that encourages me to update. It's the kind that makes me feel shitty.

#asks #and for those who were wondering #i had been hoping to update on august 1st #now i'm not so sure #please do not show up in my inbox on august 2nd to ask where the chapter is #fic: ashes and stardust

[undeadfreakart]

This past few days the only things I did are reading Clavis route and making this fanart. I would've finished reading it in the same day of the release, but I didn't had enough tickets :( Still, he is now threatening Motonari for the first spot in my top tier husbando list!

Please reblog don’t repost.

#ikemen prince #ikepri clavis #ikepri #Clavis lelouch #ikemen prince clavis #he is such a sweet troll #I though Gilbert was going to be my favorite #now I'm not so sure #he came in like a wreckin ball #my art

[lizzieonka]

I know what rebagel means on this blue site, but to be absolutely sure, I looked it up and--

#now I'm not so sure #heeelp #rebagel #miyamiwu.src #questions #image id in alt text #tumblr #not fandom

[megane-sama]

The entirety of HnK chapter 96 had my chest clenched up in this tight knot. We asked and Ichikawa delivered a nice healthy dose of misery. And it wasn't because all the moon gems were happy or whatever, it was that none of them had even a bit of thought for Phos (with the exception of Euclase, Cinnabar ans Antarc, gems that are obviously not in a really good mental headspace like Yellow, also Padpa cause i want to have that much faith in them). I really dont think I've felt such a visceral dislike for the gems till now and i think it's cause through all Phos did, no matter how bad, they geninuely always wanted to help, even tho most of these gems never acknowledged them or dare i say even liked them they wanted to be of help to every one, no matter what they did they always thought they were doing the right thing and look where it got them, a pawn in this entire gigantic *extremely thought out like wow Achmea really planned this out* galactic plan, drowing in misery and replaying Kongo's thoughts over and over again. Personally i don't even think the moon gems "forgiveness" amounts to anything, i just want them to realize they all have a hand in what has happened, they are all somewhat responsible for what Phos became, a reason for their desperation to be of service and prove their worth. Anyways I hope when Phos does get that power fully downloaded and installed, when they are asked to pray, they will say no.

Anyways this is my favourite panel in the chapter ITS SO PRETTY AND SORTA MELANCHOLIC AND UGHHHH.

Also omg padpa scraps.

#houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #manga #chapter 96 #phosphophillyte #at first i wanted happiness for every one #now I'm not so sure #but all in all #my hate for Achmea remains as constant as Phos's misery #fuck achmea #all my homies hate achmea

[reveriesofawriter]

so here's to everything coming down to nothing here's to silence

that cuts me to the core

where is this going

thought I knew for a minute

but I

don't

anymore

#Was I out of line? #Did I say something way too honest #made you run and hide #Like a scared little boy #I looked into your eyes #Thought I knew you for a minute #now I'm not so sure

[iamanartichoke]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

#fanfic #ao3 #archive of our own #fandom things #tumblr things #i may have said this at some point #i'm sure i have #but whatever - just in case #i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics #but just if anyone is so inclined that's all #ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog #i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting #but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen #not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy #at least of fics bc i save everything #not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about #that i've made or done and only posted here #anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today #i have plans to stare into the void now

[afewnovelideas]

#slice of life #tumblr #tumblr polls #i thought my field of fucks was barren #now I'm not so sure #question #can i ask you a question?

[lhoandbehold]

First proper looktest of the "Locked Tomb but make it Castlevania" project is completed! Gideon just isn't having it

#lho animates #the locked tomb #gideon nav #gideon the ninth #2D animation #now that I have uploaded it I'm sure I'll be spotting all the mistakes but #so far the style works!

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #good evening friends!! how are you doing! C: #I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself #I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose #I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years #thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!! #not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ* #but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint #he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it #my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago #as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds #he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where #I think tattoos are super cool (´｡･v･｡｀) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo #it was heath ledgers face as the joker #at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years #a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets #can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street? #I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet #he might have special abilities #I hope you're having a good day friends!! C: #I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week #miss you!! ♥♥♥

[aeide-thea]

on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance

#it's such an ugly word but like. self-pleasure is good‚ actually #it's good to know yourself and what you like and lovingly treat yourself to it! #like similarly 'meretricious' is extremely tempting if you ignore the underlying metaphor #but. hard to. #language #and quite frankly i think people who whip out 'masturbatory' in this sneering sort of way #are leveraging‚ if we're honest with ourselves‚ a particular framing of it as a gross thing that boys do #because like. when have you ever heard a *woman's* self-indulgent art described as masturbatory #like don't get me wrong we absolutely still dismiss it! but we dismiss it in other ways #that are usually about how embarrassing her *yearning* is #and so even our sneering is reinforcing an idea that men Act whereas women Feel #anyway this was prompted by some things but i shoved it in the queue so now i forget what lol #so here you are getting some contextless thoughts on the use of 'masturbatory' as sneering dismissive assessment! #just what you were hoping for i'm sure :)

[egophiliac]

this is basically what happened, right?

(these guys are very lucky that everyone at NRC 1) has the combined intelligence of a sack of bricks, and 2) is easily distracted by shiny things.)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #these two are SO sleazy and i am utterly delighted by them #can't wait to find out their tragic backstory in approximately 3-4 weeks! #fortunately i have like a month to figure out how the heck to draw their hair (spoiler: i will never figure it out) #also. god. i love it whenever leona accidentally reveals his Mom Side. #he doesn't care about any of this but he WILL be tagging along to make sure no one else gets into trouble #once again he has to be the Responsible Adult and he hates it. the whimsical hat weighs heavy upon his head. #anyway this is me so excuse me while i now talk about diasomnia for three hours #but lilia being all 'kids gotta have some adventure in their lives!' is hilarious #specifically because you know silver would NEVER. #100% silver not only never snuck out but he always went to bed on time AND brushed his teeth AND flossed even when nobody made him. #lilia: aww but you should be enjoying your youth! >:c #silver: i am. i enjoy being respectful and disciplined and honoring you as my father. #lilia: #lilia: maybe i'm TOO good at raising kids #you know i was going to say none of his kids would be involved in this but i actually think malleus definitely would #he would not see it as a moral quandry though. he would just be excited to be invited along. #(the only reason he isn't there is because he was busy admiring a termite-infested beam somewhere and yuu didn't get a chance to ask him) #i mean MAYBE if lilia as his single authority figure told him no then he would have some reservations #but lilia's the one who's screaming HELL YEAH LET'S SNEAK OUT AND DEFY AUTHORITY while dabbing so moot point there #sebek would never and he would rat on everyone else. unless malleus is going in which case he's already there. #and i guess if everyone else is going silver probably would too #but he'd. y'know. feel conflicted about it.

[taxinealkaloids]

girls will literally turn their parents’ corpses into meat puppets to prevent the House of their birthright from being annexed by other powers 

#my art #tlt #the locked tomb #harrowhark nonegesimus #the corpse puppets were actually the reason I instantly became obsessed with her #also i'm nearly certain people on the ninth realized p&p weren't right. as ortus said harrow isnt the only one who can add 2 and 2 and #get four!! like those guys were dead. they were for sure dead. and everyone just kinda agreed they'd pretend not to notice. #picturing some nuns sitting around like ....ok so we all know they're dead right? we know they're dead? #and the other ones are like yeah but shhhh #yes the 10 yr old is doing the budgeting now. just ignore it. #also tumblr decided to absolutely chow down on the quality of the first pic so uh it just looks like that now. crispy.

[paarthursass]

Baldur's Gate 3 Companion!Tav Ask List

What if your Tav was a recruitable companion, instead of the main character? (contains major spoilers for the game, and for some dark urge runs as well)

General

Where can your Tav be recruited?  Are they first encountered on the Nautiloid, or in the Nautiloid crash region?  Or are they not recruitable until a later act?

Do the other companions have special comments or reactions upon recruiting your Tav?

Does your Tav have any comments or advice when you recruit other companions?

What sort of general actions raise or lower their approval?

Are there any instances where your Tav can permanently leave the party, depending on player character actions?

Do they have any secrets that can be revealed?  What are the prerequisites for this secret coming to light?

Do they have their own personal quest that spans the course of the game?  Can it take different branching paths depending on the choices the Player Character makes?

What do they say when the Player Character asks them to stay in camp?  How about when the Player Character asks them to come adventuring again?

Does your Tav have any escalating conflicts with one of the other companions, like Lae’zel and Shadowheart’s knife-fight?

Are there any unique NPCs associated with your Tav that can show up during the course of the game?

Are there any moments in the game that trigger unique dialogue for your character? (Like Gale’s anecdote about the barfight after you save the goblin prisoner) 

Story Specific

How does your Tav advise the player character when it comes to the Dream Visitor?

How do they advise the player character on Raphael?

How do they react to Astarion biting the Player Character?

How do they react to the Player Character letting Abdirak whip them?

How do they react to the Player Character taking their first tadpole power?

Will they stay with the Player Character regardless of siding with the goblins or the tieflings, or is it possible for them to leave the party permanently?

What can they be found doing at the tiefling/goblin party?

Do they have comments on who the Player Character chooses to spend the night with? 

Do they have unique dialogue if the Player Character lets them die when they steal the Blood of Lathander?

How do they react if the PC licks the dead spider in the Gauntlet of Shar?

What do they say if the PC tries to force them to go up on stage with Dribbles the Clown?

Is it possible for your Tav to be kidnapped and replaced by Orin?  How is Orin's deception revealed?  How do they react to the PC rescuing them in the Temple of Bhaal?

How do they react to the PC either allowing Astarion to ascend or convincing him to spare the 7000 spawn?

How does Tav react to the PC becoming a mind flayer?  Can they offer to become one themselves?  Does their reaction change if they’re romanced? 

How do they react when the Dark Urge first reveals their amnesia and murderous thoughts to them?

How do they react to the Dark Urge killing Alfira?

If romanced, how do they react to the Dark Urge trying to kill them in Act 2?

Romance

Is your Tav a romanceable character?  Are there any specific requirements to romancing them?

Does your Tav need to be flirted with to start the romance, or will they approach the PC themselves if approval is high enough?

Are they a polyamorous or a monogamous option?

Do they have a special romance scene at the tiefling/goblin party?

Does the romance have different branching paths, or just one route to take?

How do they react to the player character breaking up with them, or choosing another character over them?

What questions can Zethino ask the PC about Tav in the Love Test? 

If they’re poly, do they have a reaction to the PC engaging in a relationship with Halsin?

How do they react if the PC has sex with Mizora? The Emperor?  Haarlep?

Will they join in with the PC and the Drow Twins, or no?

What are Tav’s plans for the future?  Do they propose to the PC, or is marriage not something they’re interested in?

Free space! Share anything from your companion!Tav au!

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #ask list #oc ask list #bg3 oc #bg3 tav #i've been thinking about this au for far too long now and i've written FAR too much about aurel w it #also i'm sure the durge portion of this is incomplete but i haven't gotten super far in my own durge playthrough yet so. bear with me #anyways. pls ask me about aurel im unwell abt him

[mariana-oconnor]

The AO3 search/filtering system has just ruined me for every other search function ever. I genuinely go onto websites, click 'advanced search' and then look at what paltry options they've given me in utter horror. How does anyone find anything? How do people survive?

#AO3 #I'm not saying that I can always find exactly what I'm looking for if I want a specific fic #but 9 times out of 10 I can #And yes this is as much down to the dedication of the users tagging things effectively #If people didn't use the tagging system it would be useless #But people do #and then the tag wranglers make it all work so well #Glory to the tag wranglers #and it's just beautiful #I could weep #Also I'm pretty sure some of the fics I'm looking for have been deleted #Which is tragic #and I can't find them on the wayback machine either #Lost to the abysm of time and now living only in my memory #Alas #alack #alas and alack