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gemsofgreece · 18 days
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OK some things about Greece's Marina Satti results and we're done with this
JK I am not done with Marina I love her but we're done with the circus Marina was in, for another year
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So, she is a perfectionist but I hope she will soon understand how much SHE SUCCEEDED. And it will look like a love delirium but no I am not being biased.
Marina Satti got 11th place. Missed Top 10 by one. She was basically killed by the juries.
In the televoting she won 8th place. So she was in the top 10 of all people's votes. She was also 8th in the votes from the Rest of the World, which is a big deal in my opinion.
I won't be mad at the juries because their voting overall made sense in many ways and we were aware that Zari was a not jury-friendly song in any way. It had zurna, it had rap, obviously juries don't go for this stuff. So, it's okay. We knew that.
BUT Marina Satti got 8th - 11th place:
By singing exclusively in the Greek language.
By singing in an entirely Balkan, eastern melody during a year that a lot of the Balkans and East Europe had withdrawn from the contest.
By kinda rapping / reggaetoning, which is generally hated in Eurovision.
By doing exactly her thing, despite knowing how much she would be fought by certain people.
By knowingly choosing the very risky song instead of a ballad and a typical dance song that she also had available as options.
By not trying to be "understood" and get sympathy votes.
By being given a tiny budget from the Greek delegation, much smaller than any previous years including to last year's NQ lame tycoon nephew entry. So GD gave a famous artist like Marina much less money than to those small unknown kids that had gone before her. WTF
By being hated for her song and her (genius) music video and a large percentage of the population writing in English and asking foreigners to not vote for her and blaming her for insulting Greece, Greek culture etc (HINT: No she did not insult it and a blog called gemsofgreece tells you that so relax) and insulting her, her morals, her family, her father's descent and her talent relentlessly for three months
By the unprecedented thing of the freaking SHOWBIZ of the country making openly insulting attacks against her and her song. Like, seriously, there were FAMOUS celebrities going on TV and calling her song "cat vomit", a fashion designer (before her dress choice lol) saying she should go to Eurovision naked because there's no other hope for her to get votes. I am serious. You might say, oh, she must have done something. NO. Guys, no. She has never said or done anything wrong to any celebrity in the country as far as I am aware. She was attacked by musicians, fashion designers, TV shows and honestly nobody knows why. It's a different thing to not like something than to get a polemic position openly as a celebrity against another famous person. This has never happened before, I don't remember anything like this. Celebrities shitting on another artist's effort out of nowhere, especially in advance. To put it simply, now that Marina will have to return to Greece (poor thing), she has good reasons to sue half the country.
By losing her father one month ago.
By getting pretty ill during the semi-final, losing her voice and being administrated medication every three hours.
By suffering chronically from severe anxiety, which is why she refused three prior propositions from the Greek delegation to represent the country.
Well, by receiving a new massive wave of hate from people from or supporting Israel and the Greek government controlled media and press, who all started a fierce campaign against her the last two days before the final. The reason was that she showed intentionally boredom / sleepiness during the time the Israeli contestant was speaking. Make of that what you will, I am only presenting the facts of how her placement was formed here. Many Jewish people wrote they had voted her in the semi but now they wouldn't. I believe because Israel is an eastern country, probably several people of Jewish descent voted for her and then all those votes were lost. It's no matter, I am just explaining that she would probably otherwise be 7th in the televoting, 10th overall. Here we analyze if Marina succeeded her goal, we don't nitpick for Eurovision's sake.
And as you see, she succeeded. With all the odds against her, with a LOT of people hating her and making her life harder and her effort impossible, with the loss of her father, she succeeded in her vision. Bring back Greek language, the eastern sound and having the world dance with it. Shoutout to Armenia who also succeeded in this and made top 10, the song was a little more conventional. Let's be real, Satti achieved all this with a VERY difficult song. The definition of a difficult song and in a little known language. Nothing else, just congratulations to her and I hope she realises all this and does not let her trademark anxiety and perfectionism get the better of her. Also, she really created an international fan community with this and I think there are good things coming for her in the future :)))))
PS1: Odds had her 8th-10th place but they underestimated the juries and the last day's hate she got. In general odds were not very successful this year.
PS2. No worries Greek and Cypriot televoting exchanged the 12 points again :D
PS3: to the ageist haters who wondered why she looks 20 though she is 38, kitties reach her age and you will be crying to look like her
PS4: Marina’s 8th place in televoting was the best placement since 2013, surpassing Amanda and Stefania with the English jury friendly songs 😃😃😃 Greek delegation take a bloody hint
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hopefully this isn't too weird to say but - i read the tags on your last post, and you said you were on your last year of childhood – don't worry about that!
im currently 25 and im starting to collect lps again, and ill tell you, even though there's more responsibilities, you still get to be a kid! no one ever truly grows up! my 67 year old grandma keeps one of her ragdolls from when she was a kid and always sews it new dresses. one of her favorite hobbies is watching anime with me! my 46 year old mother loves tv too, but one of the things she's crazy about is boardgames! we have a big collection and we all always play together. (she's got crazy competitive spirit btw. i never win). my 28 year old sister goes out with her friends just to wander around town and eat fast food like she did back when she was a teenager. you're never too old to have fun :) you just gotta let yourself have it. <3
thank you for this !! tbh it's kinda hard to let myself be a teenager when i seemingly have so much to do kgjdnbkjgb, and it doesn't help that i have less-than-supportive around me (not friends. i mean family) who are quick to belittle me or dismiss the things i'm interested in. i just can't stop thinking about the time my aunt saw my lps collection and started laughing, it hurt a lot especially since she's (usually) the more understanding one, and it may have been a "woah??" kind of surprised laugh instead of a "i'm making fun of you" laugh, but it felt that way kjgsnbkjgsfbn
i did have friends who actively made fun of me for what i was into (i no longer associate with them, so phew), and they're one of the main reasons i'm always so hesitant to share and infodump about the stuff i like kjgnbkjdbnkdfgjb
i feel like kids shouldn't be pressured to grow up fast. like, once you reach a certain age, you shouldn't have to stop playing with dolls or watching cartoons. you can stop doing those things when you aren't interested in them anymore, not when people tell you that you should stop, because they don't know anything.
in february i'm gonna be 18 and it's a tough concept for me to grab. i've always been told that i am ""mature for my age"" (i am not, by the way.), and i think that also kinda warped my perception of myself, because i've always felt like i Had to act a certain way, or else people are gonna see me as childish instead of this serious and mature person, but i was only like, what, 14, 15 ?? i should not have felt that way !! i should've been doing what young teenagers usually do, not feeling the need to impress middle aged adults.
it's only now that i feel like i have a sense of self because i'm trying to distance myself from certain people (ahem. family) who made me feel that way, and i'm trying to embrace who i really am: i am not mature or serious at all. i'm 17 years old who enjoys toys, cartoons, coloring, and playing video games with my friends. but i'm also ready to embrace my up and coming adulthood, and i'm serious when i need to be. i'm me and i think that's good enough.
very sorry i went on a bit of a mini tangent there. your ask made me very happy, so thank you !!
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OTEP Covers BILLIE EILISH's 'You Should See Me In A Crown'
It's been nearly five years since the release of OTEP's last full-length album, the crushing "Kult 45", and since then the world has gone to complete…well, let's just say it's become the kind of world that desperately needs the band led by singer, poet, illustrator, author and activist Otep Shamaya. Not only is Shamaya a revered musical figure, known for her intrepid blending of metal genres and hip-hop, as exemplified on her notorious 2002 debut album "Sevas Tra", but she's also amassed an enormous following based on her fearless performances and confrontational, spiritually tinged lyrics. It's that combination of radical artistry and galvanizing message that the world desperately needs now more than ever, and OTEP is ready to answer the call.
Today marks the release of OTEP's first new recorded material since 2018, and it may come as a surprise. "You Should See Me In A Crown" was the lead single from the 2018 debut album of another controversial female figure who cut across musical and social norms to carve out an identity all her own. That artist is, of course, Billie Eilish, and OTEP's cover version is no mere homage to a young acolyte but rather a radical reimagining of the song that mines all of its dark sonic complexity as well as its bold lyrical message, transforming it into the kind of modern metal epic that nobody does better than OTEP.
As Shamaya herself puts it: "To me the song is a warning against cultural reduction, biased underestimation and the volatile anti-Newtonian reaction of judging someone before you know their true power."
Last September, Shamaya told the 96.7 KCAL-FM program "Wired In The Empire" that OTEP was putting the finishing touches on its ninth album for a tentative early 2023 release. "We've just finished mixing, and we're about to go into mastering," she said. "And then it's really up to the label to decide when they're gonna release it, what they're gonna release, which single they're gonna release. I have some say as to, you know, what I recommend, but ultimately it lies on them."
Regarding the songwriting process for OTEP's new album, Shamaya said: "This record actually was written with a couple of different songwriters, which I was really excited to work with. 'Kult 45' was my last album, which is four years old now. It's insane to believe that it's been four years, but it has. When I went back in the studio, the band had sort of dispersed at that point — everybody was trying to make a living and trying to find other jobs — and so I just went to the producer and we sat down and we found some really, really talented, creative people. And even though I've been doing this for a long time and have accomplished a lot — at least I think I have — I really work best with mentors. I like people that are, I feel, creatively better than I am so that I can have this sort of spiritual intercourse between all of us where we're sort of sharing ideas and I'm inspiring them and they're inspiring me."
Throughout the span of her career, Shamaya has been an undeniable force in bringing awareness via various acclaimed mediums to social and political injustices felt by various communities and subcultures. For years, publications such as Revolver magazine have lauded Shamaya for "following in the footsteps of outspoken musicians from folk singer Woody Guthrie to RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE's Zach de la Rocha, dubbing her "one of music's catalysts for social change".
OTEP's latest album, the aforementioned "Kult 45", was released in 2018. The LP was recorded at The Lair in Los Angeles, completely utilizing the same equipment used for OTEP's first album, "Sevas Tra" (down to Shamaya's vocal microphone, a SHURE Beta 58),in order to create a sound reminiscent of their roots. "Kult 45" was produced by the band, with assistant engineering from Larry Goetz, Nicolas Schilke and Lizzy Ostro.
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Chugga’s Lost Innocence
Also called/Sub-memes: Do Daisy on Hard, Chuggaa Wood, Emile x Daisy, Daisy’s heart-shaped box
Channel of origin: The Runaway Guys (technically ProtonJon’s Twitch)
Explain the joke: During TRG’s first livestream on ProtonJon’s Twitch channel, the group played a game of Mario Party 6 on the board Faire Square. Since there was no guest to be player 4, they had to pick their AI opponent and difficulty, with Jon suggesting Daisy. When asking what difficulty to set Daisy to, Emile very awkwardly worded his question “Should we do Daisy on hard?” a wording choice that Jon had to repeat twice in disbelief, and chat called him out on.
During an early minigame in which players are searching for underwater treasure chests, Emile again used questionable word choice as he stated “And I get… wood” as he found a wooden treasure chest. While Jon missed the quote at the time, chat certainly didn’t. Emile soon made it worse by pointing out that it was almost morning, making it into a “morning wood” joke, and a comment in chat made a connection to the earlier quote, saying “Well now you’re ready to do Daisy on hard.”
Later, the 1-vs-3 minigame Crate and Peril came up with Daisy as the single player, holding and tilting a box that the other three players have to run around inside, avoiding obstacles. Deciding to have fun with the joke ship/running gag, Emile declared “I am inside Daisy’s heart-shaped box.” He knew it was a song reference, and just assumed it was referring to a heart-shaped Valentines chocolate box, and Jon had to spell it out for him, stating “It means vagina!”
Soon after the stream, Lucahjin visited with TRG to record the Littlebigplanet 2 LP and refused to let Emile live down his Daisy comments, especially as she played as Daisy in Fortune street, pointing out anything Emile said that could be turned into innuendo and telling him to read the book she got him (which I plan on making a separate post for). When TRG started their LP of Mario Party 5, Emile had hinted that he’d be playing as Toad since Donkey Kong was no longer a playable character. However, due to the infamous stream, Emile decided to play as Daisy instead, saying goodbye to his sanity as he picked her.
Video of origin: https://youtu.be/0uRH1evT8eY
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Other significant videos:
Daisy’s heart-shaped box: https://youtu.be/gI6Ca2Prp2k
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Lucahjin references the stream while playing as Daisy in Fortune Street: https://youtu.be/pUMT0dY3WUU
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Emile picks Daisy as his new player character: https://youtu.be/IUXfo6Qod-Q
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the-hindu-times · 1 year
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KT Tunstall – Shepherds Bush Empire 7/03/23
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Appearing as a 3 piece, with utility man, Stuart Wilkinson, half-hidden behind the side curtain on guitars and keys, KT Tunstall asks if we’re ready for some new music before playing the whole of her latest offering ‘NUT’. Stuart, the former drummer of late ‘90s indie popsters, The Dums Dums, had just been in the limelight as the opening duo with fellow sticksman, Andy Burrows. Neither are behind the kit, keeping it reserved for Andy to play in the KT Tunstall band later on. The guitar and mandolin pair are no stranger to each other, having played In David Brent’s Forgone Conclusion in Ricky Gervais’ ‘Life On The Road’ film and when performing Burrows’ ‘The Snowman & The Snowdog’ film soundtrack. We’d seen Stu a couple of months ago, off-stage in his hometown of St Albans, checking out Andy’s (Razorlight’s) frontman, Johnny Borrell, with his new outfit, Jealous Nostril. Incidentally, it will be their drummer who will be supporting Razorlight on tour. Now, it was We Are Scientists’ frontman, Keith Murray, who was checking out his former rhythmist, Andy Burrows, open the night with a Galt MacDermot cover from the American tribal love-rock musical, Hair. 3 songs from his 2012 album ‘Company’ and two from his 2019 collaboration with Matt Haig ‘Reasons To Stay Alive’ were sandwiched between the Burrows/Borrell Razorlight co-write ‘Before I Fall To Pieces’.
Completing the KT Tunstall band on bass was Seye Adelekan, who we recognised from playing with Damon Albarn and Gorillaz. You can catch this supergroup for another week on this UK tour, airing at least one song from each of her albums, apart from 2013’s ‘Invisible Empire // Crescent Moon’ but for tonight only, there was the addition of a special guest appearance from Natalie Imbruglia, who performed 2 of her songs with KT. She wasn’t the only unexpected rock royalty in the house, as the co-writer of Britney Spears’ ‘Toxic’, Kylie Minogue’s ‘Can’t Get You Out Of My Head’ and Katy Perry’s ‘I Kissed A Girl’, Cathy Dennis, was in the attendance to see how KT got on with ‘I Am The Piolt’ and ‘Dear Shadow’ – songs Dennis penned with Tunstall for the new LP. It was 2005’s Tunstall/Terefe single ‘Other Side Of The World’, from 2004’s ‘Eye To Telescope’, that followed the later in the set, that really stood out as one of the great, timeless pop songs. though
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coghive · 2 years
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Yancy Shares ‘Out Of This World’ Worship Resource For Kids
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Dove Award-winning Worship Leader, Songwriter, Author and Producer of hundreds of songs sung around the world that make Jesus loud, Yancy offers her newest worship resource, Out of This World, available now at digital and streaming outlets via https://sc.lnk.to/YPotw-lp as well as at numerous retail stores. Written by Yancy and produced by Stephen Leiweke, the release is the latest music offering for young children from her popular Yancy and Friends, Little Praise Party series, which won her a 2021 “Children’s Album of the Year” GMA Dove Award for Ready Set Go. Described as a “super-sized” worship resource for home and church, Out of This World features eight all-new songs from Yancy and was created with preschool and early elementary age children in mind. The songs may be previewed below or streamed via Apple Music, Spotify and more. “It’s time to blast off into space and celebrate the ‘out of this world’ love of God!” exclaims Yancy, as she talks about leading children in worship with this new resource. “We can look around us at the world God made and see some really amazing things, but even more than that, I want to tell kids that ‘God loves this world, but He’s crazy about you!’”
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Known for skillfully creating music filled with the right bite-size piece of lyric, melody and repetition for kids, Yancy is a passionate advocate of raising young disciples to worship, planting ‘big truths’ based on scripture on the hearts of all who listen and sing along. Oh, Oh, Oh, God made me Oh, Oh, Oh, God made you God loves this world, But He’s crazy ‘bout you! God’s love is big, Outrageous It’s out of this world, Amazing! (2xs) It’s OUT OF THIS WORLD God’s love is big (Lyrics from “Out of This World”) From the catchy, upbeat title cut to the thoughtful “Coat of Many Colors,” which talks about the Biblical story of Joseph, Out of This World and the Yancy and Friends, Little Praise Party is about inviting young hearts to a relationship with Jesus by beginning a foundation of theology through the discipline of worship. Yancy wrote these songs and crafted the arrangements with an intentional focus to this phase of life, creating songs that kids love and adults value. “I love writing songs that have an educational element to them,” shares Yancy. “For example, I am super excited about ‘The Opposite Song’ that talks about various things that are all opposites of each other. It’s such a fun song that I know your kids are gonna love and learn from. The chorus talks about the opposite way of life that Jesus invited us to. I truly believe there is one way, and it is God’s way. His way is the best way. This song is a party. I hope that you play it and sing along over and over again!” The full Out of This World track listing follows: - Out of This World - Choosing Happy - Don’t Monkey Around With the Devil - Even When - The Opposite Song - Thunder - All the Things - Coat of Many Colors Along with the new music, the “Out Of This World” Church Resource Bundle offers game-changing worship solutions for church leaders and includes all eight new songs for year round worship plus singalong tracks complete with background vocals. The USB and DVD Bundle also offers cartoon music videos with lyric lines and audio in three formats (full mix, sound track and split track files), lyric sheets, coloring pages, motion tutorials, worship leader trainings, group viewing permission and more. https://youtu.be/m_SIWPWo7KE Read the full article
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holdinbacksecrets · 3 years
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boyfriend things // you feel like you belong 
namjoon: you’re kind of in love with his family, and the way his sister took your hand to show you your room for the weekend. his mom invited you into the kitchen: her safe space as she called it. his dad said he heard you love to paint, wondered what artists you admire. who inspires you. you nearly said, namjoon. instead, you said, thomas cole. you laughed through dinner and didn’t mind their eyes on you. eyes shining like ones you know so well. being with his family feels like home
jin: the final piece is placed, and you complete the puzzle, giggling over the picture showing a scene from Mama Mia. only jin would get you such a present. you rest your head in his lap, stretching tired limbs, yawning into the back of your hand. “thank you for such a lovely birthday” being with him was all you wanted. “of course, my puzzle connoisseur ...a secret puzzle connoisseur?” “if i was a Puzzle Connoisseur, you best believe i would wear an honorable badge. you would’ve known at our first date. i would hang a plaque too” “a badge? a plaque?! christmas this year will be wonderful. i’ll make a matching hat too”
yoongi: on mornings you wake up earlier than normal, and his schedule doesn’t begin for a good few hours, means homemade. breakfast. you’ll pull on a pair of jeans, brush your teeth, grab your bag and head out. the grocery store is nearly empty. the rising sun shines bright rays through the storefront, highlighting the cereal isle, landing prettily on stacked peaches. coming home to the aroma of brewing coffee, and a boyfriend who’s ready to help. hello kisses and a mumbled you look pretty i missed you against pink lips. “pancakes with blueberries or chocolate chips?” 
hoseok: you feel like you belong. it exists in the way he hands you the phone to talk to his sister because her saturday morning is free, and she knows you love the farmer’s market. you feel like you belong. it exists in the hand that holds yours at the kitchen table. an evening with friends, shared over dinner, and there’s something about the way he says he’s not drinking because he’s driving tonight before topping off your glass of red. you feel like you belong because he kisses your forehead every time he says goodbye. and he greets you the next day in your apartment with a made up melody and quick steps: a waltz that ends in laughter. loving doesn’t have to be hard because you belong here, with him, together 
jimin: it’s so late. you aren’t used to being up when there’s an AM beside the 3 on your home screen. it’s so late, but you don’t plan on leaving behind the blanket beneath you. you don’t plan on moving the hand away from your cheek or drawing your gaze from his and sometimes the starry sky. a light breeze fans cool air across your skin. can we live on the beach? “so this is what i’ve been missing? i should have confessed to you years ago” “did you say years?” “i’m surprised you couldn’t tell” 
taehyung: for the first time in your entire life, you spent the night in the guest room at your parents’ house. it’s secluded in the basement with a gorgeous view of the ocean. if you squint, sometimes you see sandcastles. he’s still asleep beside you, clutching the stuffed little lamb you loved as a child. you take his picture, and smile to yourself as you save it to the album filled with captured moments, perfect for days that call for reminiscing
jungkook: the housewarming party was a success. the balloons have floated to the ceiling. the playing LP has started over again. and now, you’re finally unzipping your dress to change into something more comfortable. he’s humming in the bathroom, asking where new tubes of toothpaste are and what kind of essence you want to use for the diffuser tonight. eucalyptus with citrus wins. a t shirt replaces your dress, tossed into the hamper. barefoot, stepping across bathroom tile to open the drawer beside jungkook’s waist. “one over next time, babe”
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Darkwing Duck Reboot
New Beginnings
"Gosalyn!" Drake called out, his voice slightly echoing in his hideout. The sun was just starting to rise. Drake hadn't gone to sleep yet because of his move and Launchpad leaving only at 4am. "Gos, you come out here right now!"
"Sorry sir, but she is not here," Wanda, his computer gifted to him by Fenton, said matter of factly. Drake put his hands on his on his hips and glared at her.
"If she's not here, then why are you on?" It was silent for a moment, but Wanda gave a sigh.
"She's in the rafters."
"You traitorous computer!" Gosalyn's voice yelled from above.
"Hey, I told you this wouldn't work!"
"Gosalyn," Drake said, glaring above him. "Get down here. You are going to be late for school."
"I'm not going, Drake. You can't make me."
"Gos, we really don't have time for this! If you're going to stay with me, you are going to school!"
"No way! I never had to before and I won't now."
"Unbelievable," Drake groaned, facepalming. "I am the terror that flaps in the night, I am the one that villains fear. And yet I can't get an 11 year old girl to go to school!"
"Wow," Gosalyn said, seemingly from behind him. Turning around he saw her hanging upside down, wearing what seemed like a gadget of his. Drake did his best to grab her, but she pressed a button and shot up. "That is sad." Again, she was behind him, again he tried to grab her, and again she shot away. "Especially for a hero."
This continued for a few minutes, Wanda giggling the entire time. That is until an incoming call interrupted it.
"Hey Drake!" Launchpad yelled, smiling. Drake, unfortunately had his head stuck in a railing. "I was just calling to... see how... um, are you ok?" His face was close to the camera, but the Sunchaser, or Cloudslayer, (depending on who you asked) was still visible in the background.
"I'm fine LP," Drake groaned while using his legs to try and push himself out. After a minute of struggling, he got out. Unfortunately for him, he threw himself back into a wall. And getting up, slightly dazed, he fell down the stairs and into a box of smoke bombs.
"You sure?" LP asked as Drake got up, coughing from the smoke bombs. "Also, what are you doing in your headquarters? Shouldn't you be getting Gosalyn ready for school?"
"I am trying!" Drake yelled, waving a fist to the rafters. "She's in the stupid rafters and won't come down!"
"Stop trying to make Hueze a thing!" Huey yelled at Louie in the background.
"Hey Huey," Dewy said from the doorway of the plane. "I need you to tell me one of your nerd stories so I can take a Hueze. It is going to be a long ride." Huey growled as Louie laughed.
"Wait, where are you going?" Drake asked. Launchpad had likely only just gotten back to Duckberg, so flying a plane should be the last thing on his mind.
"Oh, we're just going to try and locate some of the Inca gold and stuff."
"And are you- are you flying there?"
"Oh yeah. Della is coming too, but-"
"Alright, you two! Knock it off!" Della yelled at Huey and Louie, dragging the former off the latter.
"I get the feeling that I'm going to be the only one who's flying."
"Launchpad," Scrooge called fromthe plan. "I don't pay you to be on the phone. I pay you to fly the Sunchaser."
"Cloudslayer!" Della yelled in protest, still rangling Huey.
"Whatever! Point is, we need to get going! The way to the treasure only opens when the sun is at its lowest point. If we want to be there by sundown, we need to leave now."
"I got to go, Drake," Launchpad said. "Good luck with Gos!"
"Thanks," Drake waved. "Good luck with your-" the phone cut off and Drake sighed dejectedly. "Adventure."
"You ok, Drake?" Gosalyn asked. She was hanging upside down next to him, a concerned look on her features.
"Yeah," he answered, his voice betraying his real answer. Goslyan pressed a button on the gear and flipped around. Now she stood next to him with a hand on his arm.
. . .
"I can't believe you," Gosalyn pouted in the backseat.
"Rule number one of being a hero, Gos," Drake smirked at her in the rear view mirror. "Never let your guard down."
"Ugh."
"Oh, come on Gos. School isn't that bad."
"Shows what you know."
"Gos, I thought you've never gone to school?" Gosalyn didn't answer and the rest of the drive was silent.
"Bye Drake," Gosalyn muttered when they arrived. Before she left though, Drake grabbed her arm.
"Look, if you at least try to have a good day, I'll take you to that pizza place you love for dinner."
"Little Ceasars?!" Gosalyn gasped. Drake nodded and Gosalyn attacked him with a hug. Drake hugged her back and she left, smile on her face. Drake waited until she was in the school to let his smile fade. He only got pulled out of his stupor when a horn honked. He quickly pulled out and headed back to his apartment.
. . .
Drake checked his phone to see where Launchpad was or if he had texted him or something. There was nothing. Nothing except an annoying scraping sound coming from next door.
It kept going on for a few minutes, on and off, and finally it became so annoying that Drake couldn't relax. But going into the hallway to ask if they could keep it down, he saw a couple familiar faces. Lena and Webby.
"Oh, hey girls," Drake waved. Lena and Webby waved, the latter more enthusiastic than the former.
"Hi Drake!" Webby yelled back. He winced at her loudness but smiled back anyway.
"What are you guys doing here and not in Duckberg?"
"Violet and Lena are moving here and I'm helping! Sure, I'm missing an adventure, but my friends needed me."
"You are? Why?" Drake asked Lena. She just shrugged.
"Something about Duckberg not being a suitable place for learning anymore," she said.
"Indeed," Violet said from behind him, causing him to jump. He turned to see her carrying a box labeled "V'S BOOKS" and Beakley behind her carrying two more. "I do love the things we did and things I learned, but I am getting behind in my normal studies. If I wish to be a world renound Historian one day, then I need to focus a bit more school."
"But she's still going to be adventuring every now and then," a man, not much older than himself but way more built, said. In fact, he was only slightly smaller than Launchpad. His feathers were a light lavender and his beak was a dark purple, his hair dark black and in the style of a side buzz cut.
"Yes," Beakley said from inside. Given a quick wave and nod from the man, Drake walked into his neighboring apartment. "Anytime she wishes to go on an adventure or just have a simple sleepover-"
"Which, let's be honest, would turn into an adventure on its own," Lena interrupted. Webby and Violet nodded along.
"Fair, but as I was saying, you and Violet are welcome whenever you wish."
"Well, that's nice," Drake said. "Maybe Gos could join every now and then. Doh!" He exclaimed as the man behind him patted him on the back. Almost as hard as LP would.
"It looks like we're your neighbors now,  so she won't have to go far," he said, holding out his hand. "I'm Tyrian. Ty for short." Drake took it and Ty's shaking was so enthusiastic that Drake could hardly get a word out.
"I'm Dr-dr-a-a-k-k-e!"
"Ty, I need your help down here!" A voice called from the hallway.
"Comin hon!" Even when Ty let go of Drake's hand and left, Drake was stuck in the motion of his hand moving up and down. Webby walked over to him and stopped him.
"Thanks Webby," he said, shaking his head to regain his senses. Lena was using her magic to unpack and put together a bookshelf as she also moved other things out of the way. Beakley was in the kitchen area doing something, probably putting things up and or putting something together.
The apartment wasn't so far off from his own. A master bedroom right next to another, slightly smaller room right across from the kitchen. Right now, there were more boxes than his apartment had, but that would likely change in the next week or so. He really was getting new neighbors.
. . .
"Launchpad, look out!" Dewy shouted, jolting the pilot awake enough to where he actually pulled out of the way of the of a large building and almost crashed into it. He still crashed, but it wasn't as damaging as many of his other crashes.
"Launchpad!" Della yelled. "I know that crashing is your thing, but can you please be more careful?"
"Sorry everyone," Launchpad yawned. Scrooge and Huey looked on and exchanged a worried look, especially as he fell asleep again.
"Woo hoo!" Dewy exclaimed as he jumped down to the loading area, doing some trick that ended in him crashing into boxes. He was undaunted and got up, running to leave the plane. Della and Louie followed quickly. Scrooge and Huey decided to climb up to where Launchpad was sleeping.
"Uh, you ok, Launchpad?" Scrooge asked, poking him with his cane.
"I'm awake!" He yelled and sat up straight again. Scrooge sighed.
"Launchpad, I know you like that boy and-"
"Well not as, you know, more than friends, but yes, I do like him," Launchpad interrupted, a blushing and nervous mess. Scrooge eyed him.
"I didn't insinuate otherwise..."
"Oh. Sorry Mr. McD." The red remained on his cheeks. Scrooge kept a suspicious eye on him, and continued.
"As I was saying, you can't keep doing this to yourself. It's putting others in danger too now." Launchpad let his head fall in shame. He never meant for it to happen, to have everyone in danger because of his lack of sleep. Sleep... that sounded good.
"Launchpad?" Scrooge asked, seeing as he got no answer. Giving him a little nudge, the big man fell over and began snoring. Muttering to himself, Scrooge grabbed a piece of paper and wrote him a note before leaving for the adventure.
Launchpad's snoring echoed in the plane.
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Bonding Exercise - Chapter 2
DT 17 Fanfiction
Summary: Scrooge is sick of Della and Launchpad fighting over the Sunchaser, which is costing him money, so he sends them on a 40 hour flight and orders them to sort out their differences.
Chapter 1
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Scrooge was right. The flight was too long. Having someone to help share the flying sounded like a good idea, but by the time they arrived in Sydney, Della would have happily risked falling asleep at the controls. She finished the power-down checks and then glared across at Launchpad, where he sat in the copilot's seat. "You going to fuel her up, or do I have to do it?"
Launchpad glanced up from his phone and blinked. "Huh?"
"Never mind. I'll do it." Della could just see them taking off and trailing an entire fuel truck behind them.
Launchpad didn't even offer to do it himself, argue or apologise; he just shrugged and went back to playing with his phone. Seriously?
Della stomped off to arrange for the fuel and left Launchpad hunched over in the copilot's seat.
"Complain about never getting to fly. Then spend half the time playing on your phone… what is your deal this week?" Della waited, tapping her foot, as the mechanic chugged fuel into the Cloudslasher. The metal ring of her fake leg on the concrete seemed to unsettle him; he kept glancing her way warily.
By now, she was sure a few hours together, no matter how much they dragged on, would not fix her and LP's issues. And Launchpad didn't seem keen on cooperating. He'd been more interested in his phone. If it had just been Scrooge complaining about a few cents here and there, it wouldn't have irritated her so much. But they'd upset Dewey as well, and she knew Launchpad cared about her son. He could at least try to have a conversation with her. As frustrating as that sometimes was, it would at least mean he was trying too. They'd never patch things up if it was just her doing all the work.
Della's gaze fell on the gauge on the side of the mechanic's truck, and in her flustered state, it took her a few seconds to comprehend the reading and connect it to Scrooge's words earlier. "Hey, slow down, don't overfill her." She jabbed a finger at the rapidly climbing gauge. She could at least get one of Scrooge's instructions right and not get ripped off buying more fuel than they needed to make it home.
The mechanic raised an eyebrow as he looked between Della and the fuel truck. "You sure…"
"Um, yeah. I know how much fuel my aeroplane takes."
The mechanic shrugged his shaggy shoulders and got back into the truck. Well, at least some idiots wouldn't waste their time arguing with her.
Della climbed back into the Cloudslasher's belly and shut the bay door. "Right, we're refuelled, and… are you still playing on that thing? Better send whatever the heck you've been spending so long on. Once we start heading out towards Scrooge's sheep station, you're not going to have any reception."
"Um, yeah, okay."
Della prepared the Cloudslasher for takeoff. Then slammed the throttle full on. They were both thrown back into their seats, and Della couldn't help but smirk as Launchpad yelped and his phone skittered across the floor.
***
As they approached Scrooge's sheep station, Launchpad was at the controls. Della shuffled over to stand behind his chair and rubbed the sleep from her eyes.
"We're nearly there," Launchpad muttered. By this point, he sounded more tired than irritated.
Della was pretty sure they were both over it. If anything, whether they worked their issues out or not, they'd plain just be sick of bickering. "Good."
"You'd better land her. You don't want me screwing it up."
Della rolled her eyes. Then she squinted out the windshield. "Wait, what the heck is that?" Ahead of them, a red wall of cloud reared up. Its edges churned, and faint flickers of lightning played at its interior.
"Sunchaser, come in," the radio squawked.
Della's eyes narrowed. Launchpad reached for the radio, but Della leaned over his shoulder and snatched up the handset before he could get to it. "This is the CLOUDSLASHER. We read you…
The radio crackled. "Wait, who? We're trying to contact the McDuck plane…"
"Yes, this is the McDuck plane which is, and always will be, called the Cloudslasher. We… what the heck is going on down there?"
"Dust storm, mate. You won't be able to land. You can go into a holding pattern; she should clear soon. Or you could head back…"
Della groaned. "We can't circle up here for hours!"
"Hey, up to you."
"It'll take twice as long to fly all the way out here again if we go back," said Launchpad.
He had a point, and it was the first helpful thing he'd said all trip. Here for a couple hours. Or adding on a whole pile more, including another landing to try fumble their way through together. "We just refuelled; we'll be fine. We'll hold up here. Let us know when it's safe to land? Please."
"Roger. Sheep station out."
Della slumped into the copilot's seat. "Great. More bonding."
Launchpad glanced across at her. "I don't like fighting with you, you know. Even if it wasn't upsetting Mr McDee. And Dewey, but…. I guess that's kind of important."
Dewey. Della sagged back in the seat and let out a tired sigh. Something, someone, they could agree on. Finally, it seemed Launchpad was ready to talk to her. "Yeah. I suppose we could just pretend, right?" she said. "For Dewey's sake? We don't have to be best buds. Just not fight like we did in front of him in the hanger."
They sat quietly for a moment. And then, or all the things Launchpad could've done, he once again pulled out his phone and started tapping away at the screen. Della's eyes narrowed. They'd actually been talking sensibly about Dewey. It was an important topic for both of them and the stupid phone… "There is no reception out here, Launchpad. But you know that, don't you? I get the message, alright? You're not interested in making this work. And I understand if you've got a problem with me; I know I've been harassing you about the plane, and I'm sorry, alright. But what about Dewey? You're supposed to be his best friend."
That brought Launchpad's gaze snapping up to meet hers. "I am his best friend!"
"So what, you've not been trying to ignore me for the entire trip? What's so important on that stupid phone; you got a new girlfriend or something?"
"Mind your own business." Launchpad hefted himself out of the chair and moved over to lean on the railing. The glow of his phone illuminated his creased brow and the darkened cargo bay behind them.
Della took over the controls. "You know," she said through gritted teeth. "You pretend like you’re everybody's friend, but you really don't seem like you want to put in the effort when things get a little tough."
Launchpad ignored her.
***
Three hours later, and Launchpad was still ignoring her. At this point, it was probably for the best. Della couldn't imagine anything he could've said to her that wouldn't result in an argument. He'd ditched the phone, maybe he'd run out of things to do on it without reception, but that hadn't stopped him making it clear he did not want to talk. Now, he had his notebook out on his lap. He sat in the copilot's chair, scribbling and crossing out what he'd written again and again.
Della called the station. Their reply was garbled and crackling, and the storm still showed no signs of clearing. They were probably getting sick of hearing her voice. She hung up the handset and flopped back into her seat. "Maybe we should have just flown back."
Launchpad looked up, pencil hovering over his paper. "Huh? What, you're blaming me?"
Della sighed. "No." She'd call him on ignoring her, but there was no point snapping at him for something she was as much to blame for. "We both made that decision. At least we have plenty of fuel."
Launchpad scowled at his notebook, then flipped it shut and tossed it up onto the console.
It wasn't just her he seemed irritated at, Della realised. Maybe she'd been wrong. Maybe his distraction wasn't intentionally directed at her. "What are you writing anyway?" she asked tentatively. She'd try, just one more time. Both to give Launchpad another chance, but primarily for her son. "Darkwing fanfiction?" It was the only thing Della could think of off the top of her head. But why hadn't she thought of this before? Even if Launchpad was trying to ignore her, she was sure he couldn't resist talking about Darkwing Duck. And Della didn't care squat about it, so she'd have no reason to fight with him over it.
"No, I… never mind." Launchpad got up and looked over her shoulder at the console.
Not the reaction she'd expected. At least he hadn't walked away from her, but Della did not appreciate him hovering. "You know what, this is getting boring. It's your turn. "She grabbed Launchpad's sleeve as she stood up and wrested him in the direction of the seat.
Launchpad gave in and sat down, taking the control yoke in his big hands. Then he closed his eyes and frowned.
"What are you doing now? Don't fly with your eyes closed!"
Launchpad's eyes shot open, and he got up and pushed past her. "I'm going to check the fuel."
"The gauge is is right there! It's…" Della frowned "… still full?"
"She feels a bit light."
Della sat down and tapped the gauge. "Launchpad, did you glue the needle in here?" Out of all the annoying things he'd done today, somehow, this wasn't so bad. She just didn't understand why he did some of the things he did. At least she'd put in the fuel herself. If she'd let Launchpad do it, she'd be real worried right now.
"Felt a bit light…" Launchpad climbed down the ladder to the cargo bay and paused above the fuel tank. He opened a panel in the floor, which shouldn't have opened, but he'd probably modified it so he could easily access the fuel tank. Instead of, you know, simply using the gauge which was right there on the console.
Della punched the gauge, not hard enough to break it, but just give it a really good whack. The needle jerked itself free and dropped. She waited for it to settle. They were probably still above three quarters, at a guess. The needle stayed almost smack down on empty. Maybe that's why he'd glued it; it was broken. Unless she'd just broken it, but Launchpad couldn't really blame her after he'd glued the thing. She leaned over the railing. "Launchpad, why did you put glue in the gauges?"
Launchpad popped his head out of the hatch. "How much fuel did you put in?"
"Why'd you glue the stupid needle in the fuel gauge? Now it's broken! At least I know how much I put in, and she should still be nearly full…"
"The tank's nearly empty. I mean, we've still got a bit, but if that storm doesn't clear like now we'll have to go back, and…"
"Good lord, no, we are not going back. And we don't need to…"
"We're nearly empty!"
Della's hands balled to fists at her side. "I know what I put in! We'd both know if you hadn't screwed with the gauge, why, why do you even…"
"Because it reads low!" Launchpad exploded. "And everyone always leans over my shoulder and says Launchpad we need fuel now, and I tell them she still feels right, and they just tell me Launchpad you don't know how to fly the plane! But I know what it feels like! I glued it so everyone would stop telling me how to fly my plane!"
"The Cloudslasher is mine! I know how much fuel I put in her; she's nearly full!"
Launchpad flung his hands at the hatch. "I know how a fuel tank works. That's how I can tell she's nearly empty."
"Urgh! You're as bad as the mechanic. I know how many gallons my own damn plane takes!"
"Liters."
"We're American, LP. I know how many gallons…" Della slowly lowered her arms. Back at the airport, she'd been in such a fluster. "Oh no."
"Nuh, but I think in Australia they use metric. It's weird. So the numbers on their stuff are different… or the fuel fills up a different space in the tank or something. So I normally just tell them to fill it up. It's less confusing."
Della put a hand to her forehead. "The fuel truck was reading litres. The mechanic put in way less fuel than I thought."
Launchpad's shoulders slumped. "Guess we got to go back."
"Yeah. So I'm stuck with you for even longer."
"Hey, I'm trying to be nice. You were the one who screwed up fueling the plane."
"I would've known if you hadn't messed with my gauges! Seriously? People wouldn't keep telling you you don't know how to read them or tell you you forgot fuel… if you weren't… if you weren't such a bad pilot. Why does Scrooge even employ you!?"
The aeroplane lurched. Della's eyes widened. "Who's flying the plane?"
"You're supposed to be! You're just as bad a pilot as I am, you know that, right? But at least no one's going to fire you because… at least you're actually part of the family!"
"Can we raincheck this?" Della ran back to the console, and Launchpad followed. Della slid into the pilot's seat, grabbed the yoke and steadied the plane. Outside was nothing but red. They were practically on the edge of the storm now, far closer than they'd been when Della had left the controls, and she wasn't sure how either they or the storm had moved so much. The engines whined, louder than usual. The dust couldn't be good for them.
Launchpad gripped the back of the pilot's chair. "I think we gotta put her down! She's getting sandblasted up here."
Della squinted through the windshield. "I know… I know… but I don't know where the ground is."
"You gotta feel it…"
"I would use the gauges, but someone put stickers all over them!"
"Decals! You don't need them."
The Cloudslasher bucked again. "Aw, fooey, we're going to crash." The ground could be inches below them, and they wouldn't know. Or centimetres. Because, you know, bloody metric.
Launchpad huffed. "Yeah, we're going to crash. Big deal. So we may as well do it properly. Now, move." He grabbed Della's shoulders, picked her right up out of the seat like she weighed nothing, and placed her to the side.
"Hey, don't you dare pick me up!"
Launchpad sat down and grabbed the yoke. And then he closed his eyes.
"What are you…"
"Shh."
Launchpad's chest heaved as he took in a deep breath, and then he stilled. Della wasn't sure, but maybe the aeroplane was a little steadier. Relatively speaking. Outside the windshield, red dust ebbed and flowed. And, Della thought she saw a shape. A serpentine form; a snake in the sky. Between the red dust, it seemed to glisten with a rainbow hue.
Della grabbed Launchpad's shoulder. "Um, LP? Maybe you should open your eyes."
"It's too distracting."
"But there's a…"
The impossible flying creature was suddenly upon them, a giant rainbow-coloured snake that slammed into the front of the plane. It dwarfed them. The storm roared, the snake hissed and bucked as it tried to tear itself free of the metal beast that had rammed it. It was like they'd collected an angry fluorescent anaconda on their jeep's windshield. But this completely engulfed the nose of an aeroplane with loops of muscle, scales, and sharp spines.
Launchpad's eyes shot open. "Wha…"
The snake hissed and whipped its body free. The harsh motion triggered the prominent spines along its back, and they shot free and pelted like a hailstorm of arrows towards the windshield.
"Launchpad, duck!" Della hit the deck. A dozen spines punched straight through the glass and slammed into the back of the cargo bay. "What the crap…" Della shot back to her feet. The giant airborne snake was gone. The windshield was punctured by a dozen holes like someone had peppered it with bullets, but thankfully, it had not shattered.
"Hey, Della? You're going to need to crash this for me. I… can't reach the yoke." Launchpad clutched his shoulder. One of the spines stuck out near his hand, and the other end had punctured straight through both him and the back of the pilot's chair.
"Oh shit, LP." Della shot to her feet and put her hand on his arm. "Are you okay?"
Launchpad winced, then took his hand away from the spine and swiped at the yoke. His shoulder seeped red around the spine and into his jacket. "It's okay… I can't really feel it. I just… can't reach. We're losing control again."
Heart pounding, Della moved in front of him and grasped the yoke. Just don't look. She had to concentrate on flying the plane. Landing in one piece was the first priority. But she couldn't read the instruments, and she couldn't see anything… and then she was going to have to deal with that spine in Launchpad's shoulder, and she wasn't even sure how bad it was, and…
Launchpad reached out and squeezed her arm. "Close your eyes. You don't have to keep 'em closed. It'll just give you a chance to feel what the... the Cloudslasher's doing. You can't see outside anyway."
"Okay…" Della closed her eyes. It was certainly less distracting. She tugged the yoke slightly up, lifting the nose of the plane.
"There you go…"
"What about the ground?"
"Hopefully, it's not red too."
Della squinted as she cautiously cracked open her eyes. She wasn't sure, but maybe the hue outside and below them looked darker. She tugged the nose up slightly. The plane let out a crunch of tortured metal, and the impact flung Della into the console.
***
Chapter 3
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The Humility of Family and Being a Hero: A Darkwing Duck and Drake Mallard Analysis.
Special thanks to @stoopakoopa @mighty-ant @drakepad because they inspired me.
Ducktales 2017. A show that a lot of people saw a simple cash grab and the exploitation of nostalgia of 80s and 90s kids alike. But it was a true surprise. A show of adventure and family and exploring yourself in the family name. This show brought so many characters from the golden age of Disney Channel called “The Disney Afternoon Era” with faces from shows like: Gizmoduck, Talespin, Goof Troop and Darkwing Duck. 
The whole concept of Darkwing Duck is quite silly really. A parody of Batman, superhero tropes and even James Bond but with a duck in the suburbs of the fictional city of Saint Canard living with his boyfriend sidekick Launchpad and his adopted daughter Gosalyn. As someone who watched the show in reruns back in the day and recently rewatched it on Disney Plus, I didn’t think I would have appreciated this show as much as I thought I would. Dry and witty humor that caught me off guard and it truly doesn’t seem as dated as other shows from those times. 
But I’m here to talk about Drake Mallard and what it means to be a superhero and a parent. 
(For the sake of the analysis, I will be referring to Drake Mallard from the Ducktales 2017 reboot as “Drake Mallard!17” and the Drake Mallard from the OG Darkwing Duck show as “Drake Mallard!91”.)
Ducktales 2017 for a long time was alluring to bringing Darkwing Duck into the universe of the show. Many fans didn't know how this was possible until a certain episode that was the rise of another superhero and Darkwing Duck’s long time rival: Gizmoduck (now voiced by the guy who wrote a Broadway musical that won many awards-- Bring It On the Musical. I’m kidding. Lin Manuel Miranda). In the episode ‘The BUDDY System’ we are shown what looks like a fight scene between Darkwing Duck and his villains, MegaVolt and QuackerJack. But then it’s abruptly cut when it’s revealed to be a video. An episode. Launchpad explains to Dewey (the blue duck nephew of Donald Duck) that Darkwing Duck is his favorite TV show’ meaning that Darkwing Duck is a TV show in the Ducktales 2017 universe. A show inside a show. 
Weird, right? 
But what does this have to do with being a superhero and a parent and how family humbles you? Well, in the OG Darkwing Duck show the character of Drake Mallard is shown to be a late-20s to early-40s nobody in his two-parter episode debut-- “Darkly Dawns the Duck”-- who spends his days locked inside an abandoned bridge tower and out fighting small-time crime at night as a purple masked weirdo. And I say this in the kindest way ever but Drake Mallard!91 is an asshole. It’s later revealed in the show that he wanted to be a superhero not because he wanted to protect the people in his city -- that is a parody of Batman’s Gotham -- but because he wanted the praise and attention of being a hero. He’s a hero for a selfish reason. 
But how is it possible to have an asshole for a main character that lasted 91 episodes? Drake Mallard!91 has a child. It isn’t his biological daughter really but she is his daughter. In his two-parter episode his first real ‘save’ is the granddaughter of a scientist that was murdered by the mafia and now they are after the granddaughter because she has the code for a machine that they are going to use to rob banks and release mayhem across the world. Darkwing Duck!91 goes to save her and they start to have a bond that makes my daddy issues burst into tears. 
Hiding her in his secret hide-out, she isn’t comfortable and Gosalyn needs to sleep so as a way to calm her down he sings her dead grandfather’s lullaby to her. I won’t reveal the rest of the episode or the “plot twist”(?) because I think it’s a cute episode. But here we see that Drake Mallard!91 does have the ability to care about others that isn’t himself or his reputation. 
At the end of the episode, he goes out of his way to adopt Gosalyn and officially makes her his daughter. Throughout the series, you see that Drake Mallard!91 bonds with Gosalyn. Taking her to school, talking to her about emotional things, and doing everything in his power to protect her from the harm that comes with him being a superhero. But in one of my favorite episodes “Toys R Czar”, Drake Mallard!91 has come to the conclusion that he can’t both be a hero and great parent after one of Gosalyn’s teachers points out that she has been causing a lot of issues at school. He blames himself for not being a good parent, reading parenting books and following them to the letter. Cleaning, baking cookies and even being the director for a play where he made Gosalyn the star. 
He gives up being Darkwing Duck. He gives up the one thing that he worked so hard and was so proud of. Drake Mallard!91 put his ego aside to be a good parent and was ready to throw away his cape and pick up an actual job to raise Gosalyn. He did the toughest thing about being a hero, a figure of salvation: having a family. 
I think that the reason that I enjoyed the OG Darkwing Duck a lot despite me being a bitch to the pain character’s ego and pride was that yes, he would probably be a terrible parent but he has Gosalyn and Launchpad to guide him. He has them to ground him and not let his ego overrun him into believing he’s such a big-shot hero because he stops supervillains with only a gas gun, smoke bombs and a purple mask. His family makes him human-- despite him being a duck. 
Now moving onto Ducktales 2017. In the episode ‘The BUDDY System’ when Launchpad is telling Dewey about Darkwing Duck being his favorite TV show and growing up on it he mentions an actor’s name: Jim Starling. 
Jim Starling plays Darkwing Duck. Remember that. 
(Fun Fact: the actor who voices the OG Darkwing Duck/Drake Mallard!91 does the voice of Jim Starling.) 
In my favorite and comfort episode “The Duck Knight Rises” we are shown that Jim Starling has suffered the same fate of Bo Jack Horseman: a washed out actor from the 80s/90s that is living on the steam of his former success. Jim is no longer as popular as he was back in the day, making money off of signing autographs and openings of less-than-desirable stores. It isn’t until Dewey mentions the fact that there is a Darkwing Duck Movie ready to release that we see Jim Starling happy and ready to jump back into the role. 
The Role of a Hero. 
We discover that Scrooge McDuck is the one producing the movie and after watching the trailer both Launchpad and Jim Starling agree that this isn’t faithful to the character. Yet Jim doesn’t really care, he wants to be back into the light and have the attention and adoration of an actor. Of being a hero. How very of Drake Mallard!91 of him. 
The director of the Duck Knight Rises movie tells Jim that he isn’t playing Darkwing Duck. A younger actor is. Outraged, he attacks the actor and is kicked out alongside Launchpad. Jim Starling believes that he is owed this role. That this role only belongs to him and no one else in the world. Roping Launchpad into his plan, here we see that Jim Starling never truly let go of his past when he slips on his old Darkwing Duck costume to play hero again. 
It is Launchpad that begins to question him when Jim starts to ramble about revenge, Launchpad still looking at his old idol with nostalgia tinted glasses and goes along with the plan. 
Here is where the analysis begins to pick up again. When LP sneaks into the actor’s trailer and immediately panics, locking himself, the Actor comes to his rescue. After some light fighting we see that the Actor is a big fan of the Darkwing Duck; possibly bigger than LP himself. LP does have a connection with the show but it seems that he Actor here takes it up more personally. That his whole ideologies and all of his morals came from a silly little show from his childhood and is the reason he is the way he is today. This whole movie is his big shot and a dream come true. 
Immediately after this, we see Jim Starling running around and knocking people out. Actually hurting people just to get back into the role he’s clinging on to. Paralleling the Actor’s acceptance of the role and Jim ready to draw blood because he can’t let go. 
Finally, we see the Actor and Jim Starling have a “sane” interaction. That it’s a huge honor to be here with him, says the Actor. That he wants to play the role of Darkwing Duck with Jim’s blessing. That they can do this together. 
But Jim wants this for his own. All for himself. 
After knocking the Actor out, we see a glimpse of how gone he is. How attention thirsty he is and that he will literally stop at nothing to get back on screen. 
The whole climatic fight of the episode is the Actor putting on his new Darkwing Duck costume and heading off face first into danger to save people as Jim Starling just snaps. The new confronts the old. With the trademark, goofy Darkwing Duck openings of I am the terror that flaps in the night but more modern. 
As they fight, it’s LP that finally gets to Jim with him telling him how much Darkwing Duck means to him and what it means to be a hero like him. As a power beam prop is ready to fall on top of LP, Jim does what a hero is supposed to do. Sacrifice. By pushing his biggest fan out of the way, he completes the role he has been yearning to play. 
They don’t find the body. (Yes this is a kids show). But here is where we learn that the Actor’s name is Drake Mallard. 
Drake Mallard!17. 
Launchpad is the one that convinces Drake Mallard!17 to be the true Darkwing Duck. For Jim. 
Jim Starling is what the OG Darkwing Duck was. Egotistical, wanting fame and attention, having all of the qualities that would make anyone doubt that he is truly a hero. The thing is that if Jim Starling only played Darkwing Duck, not Drake Mallard (because in this universe he is a real person), then it means that he didn’t have a Launchpad or a Gosalyn to ground him. Jim Starlings is what happens when a hero is isolated and is only a hero and not a person. 
Drake Mallard!17 is a person who becomes a hero while Jim Starling is an actor who pretended to be a hero. Jim was stuck in his own vanity, not having anyone truly reminding him that he isn't’ the roles he plays; that he isn’t Darkwing Duck. 
Drake Mallard is Darkwing Duck.
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I’m like literally sobbing the finale is so good I’m about to watch it again and I just finished it.
💖Spoilers💖
DAD!!! (It was even better that I thought it would be I don’t know if I’ll ever get back from this)
It is a very long ep so I don’t know if I can give all my thoughts but I can put a few!!
1. Funzo’s has some creepy animatronics. Also Blue Sebastian the crab
2. Gyro and Boyd are going to kill me with cuteness
3. Manny has no right to be so amazing (jk yea he does)
4. Lena helps her sis win with magic (poor Dewey 🤣)
5. I love Jane
6. Scroogey really is good and ha your words in Last Crash of the Sunchaser can’t hurt me anymore (not really that episode breaks me every time he says “You are not family”)
7. WHO WOULDNT SHOW UP TO WEBBYS PARTY!?!?
8. Gladstone is makin bank$$$
9. Glad to see Della is also bad at ski ball 🤣🤣
10. Daisy is good and Donald loves her imma cry
11. Della almost kills Daisy about two seconds after she was praising her 🤣🤣
12. Feathry you dummy shut yo dang mouth (I also love Feathry)
13. Feathry saying “just the two of you” makes me think of the song “just the two of us and now I can’t get it out of my head.
14.awe awkward family drama (at this point I was basically sobbing over two things, the show is over and Donald deserves his time but awe Della just got him back)
15.Good lord I’m only like a minute into the episode I need to calm down (maybe I’ll just “Dew” a few different posts) ha I’m hilarious clearly
16. Yes Fenton we been knew. Also we love drake and Lp being supportive friends. Also Lp was scarily close
17. “Absentee avenger” Gizmoduck. Gotta write the full name
18. Lp really wanted the cake
19. “Aweee I missed your Scroogian alliterations.” How does Tennent say all them words?!?
20. MORE PEPPER. She’s so perfect. Even if she is technically a bad guy. Love that she’s main crew.
21. Jose and Panchito are perfect they should be in every show made from here on out because I said so
22. “No maniacal laughter”
23. Gizmo calling DW “Wingy” made me cry during the table read and then again in the ep
24. I’m sorry this is really long but I’m still going (I’ll try to condense my thoughts)
25. Petty Della cracks me up for some reason
26. Me too Lp, or maybe I just need to work out more
27. Dad Donald has a large space in my heart
28. Lena’s very cool magic powers are cooler than Gyro (I’m sorry I love Gyro) also for a mad scientist he’s really not up to the technology 🤣
29. I thought May and June were Webby clones a while ago but I didn’t even think about what Webby was. Plot twist bout made me cry. Who am I kidding I was already crying
30. Awe Beakly really does just want to keep Webby safe
31. Even if that includes some lies
32. It’s the finale of Ottoman Empire too. I’m crying about two shows for some reason.
33. Lp draws good boxes
34. Evil scientist Gyro
35. Huey almost dies from Beakly’s death stare after he calls her Bentina
36. Scrooge has a long history of beakly being mad at him and that makes me laugh
37. TEAM SCIENCE FAMILY
38. I paused and looked at that board for so long. Did Webby steal that locket picture of Goldie from Scrooge? Who are the people Webby thought were her parents? Lena was very ready to fight when June was cutting the strings.
39. Della opens up and made me cry more. “Daisy’s my adventure” also made me cry. And “is it 1996” cracked me up
40. HE GOT THE ORIGINAL DONALD OUTFIT. (And Della calls him cheap😂😂)
41. Webby is still a very bad liar
42. Awe Webby is so trusting and I love her.
43. Scrooge sprang for a new tea bag just to get answers and then gets knocked out. He’s got a lot going on in like a day.
44. Beakly loves her house plant
45. Did Beakly find out Webby was Scrooge’s after she saved her or did she just know the basics?
I’m only about 20 minutes in so I’m gonna stop here for now because this is probably super boring but I like putting my random thoughts down so there. I hope this was at least a little interesting. I’m gonna make another post of some drawings later (maybe) that I did while waiting to be able to watch the finale. And maybe tomorrow I’ll do another part of this and just do it in groups. idk though it depends. 💖💖
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OTEP Covers SLIPKNOT, EMINEM, LIL PEEP And OLIVIA RODRIGO On New Album 'The God Slayer'
OTEP, the band led by singer, poet, illustrator, author and activist Otep Shamaya, will release a new studio album, "The God Slayer", on September 15 via Cleopatra. The follow-up to 2018's "Kult 45" offers up a mix of inspired original tracks as well as covers of Eminem, Billie Eilish, SLIPKNOT, Lil Peep, Olivia Rodrigo and more.
The LP's first single, the cover of Eilish's "You Should See Me In A Crown", was release during OTEP's U.S. tour earlier this year and has been generating massive buzz as well as landing in top 10 most popular tracks on Spotify.
"The God Slayer" track listing:
01. My Violent Appetites 02. Ostracized 03. Good 4 U 04. Exit Wounds 05. You Should See Me In A Crown 06. The Way I Am 07. California Girls 08. Pet 09. Territorial Pissings 10. Star Shopping 11. Purity 12. God Slayer
Not only is Shamaya a revered musical figure, known for her intrepid blending of metal genres and hip-hop, as exemplified on her notorious 2002 debut album "Sevas Tra", but she's also amassed an enormous following based on her fearless performances and confrontational, spiritually tinged lyrics. It's that combination of radical artistry and galvanizing message that the world desperately needs now more than ever, and OTEP is ready to answer the call.
"You Should See Me In A Crown" was the lead single from the 2018 debut album of another controversial female figure who cut across musical and social norms to carve out an identity all her own. That artist is, of course, Billie Eilish, and OTEP's cover version is no mere homage to a young acolyte but rather a radical reimagining of the song that mines all of its dark sonic complexity as well as its bold lyrical message, transforming it into the kind of modern metal epic that nobody does better than OTEP.
As Shamaya herself puts it: "To me the song is a warning against cultural reduction, biased underestimation and the volatile anti-Newtonian reaction of judging someone before you know their true power."
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Hi there! I saw your wonderful post about mianmian and female rep in cql. What are your opinions on cql!yanli and book!yanli? I haven't read the books but I hear that cql added depth to her. Fandom mostly see her as "steel under silk" and seems to ignore every other aspect of her character. What do u think of her death?I mean, she ran into a battlefield knowing she could die, making JL an orphan, to talk to her brother, who as much as she knew, lost control and had a hand in her husband's death.
Hi there!
I’m glad you enjoyed the lengthy MianMian meta.
My gut reaction is to say that I don’t think that CQL added depth to JYL’s character, but just created more dangling threads or contradictions within it. However, to get at the bottom of the issues with their portrayal of MianMian, I had to “close read” each of her appearances on CQL as well as in the novel, and to be honest, the idea of doing so with JYL is a little bit exhausting because it’s not like I can limit the exercise to three or four scenes. I think the conclusion of the MianMian meta will still apply to JYL: that while some will read the production’s choice to increase her presence as an effort to address “”””MXTX’S problem with female characters”””” it is more likely a decision motivated by market logic and, in any case, not a choice motivated by a will to tell a stronger, more nuanced story than the one we can find in the novel. 
To a degree, I understand the criticism with the strong women stuff: while we are made aware of female cultivators, some of whom are very powerful, they tend not to exist in the current timeline of the story in MDZS. Aside from Yu-furen, and to a small degree MianMian, we do not get to witness strong female cultivators fighting and being “strong” in the standard of the term. I think MXTX could have done more to highlight the presence of female cultivators in the Jiang/Nie/Jin sect or during the Sunshot war campaign, for instance, even without adding too many new characters to her roaster. But that doesn’t mean that JYL specifically needed to be a strong cultivator. I had to go and read the tv trope entry about silk hiding steel to be sure what people meant with that, but I don’t think it applies. 
I do think JYL is strong in terms of will. I think it is pretty interesting that no one notes that JYL carried both WWX and JC when they got hurt as kids: sure, someone could read that to mean that she was actually very strong, physically, but to me I see it more as mind over matter: she endured it because she wanted to help and protect those she loved, and pushed her body past what it could normally do. Although she is more meek in her manners and will not necessarily fight for herself, she is ready to fight for the people she loves even if it means having a lot of attention on her or going against the opinion of people she values. She also cares for others in general, be they the people of LP or by wanting to do her part during the war. She is also someone who seems constant in her affections and opinions: she is steadfast and loyal. Those are all really positive things, and yes they are more feminine than being good at kicking ass: but what’s the point of wanting female characters if all of them should have attributes that are valued in men in a patriarchal society? 
Regarding JYL’s death, I think there are many ways to look at it. Narratively, the way the story is shaped up, JYL kind of *had* to die at that point. The question is, does it feel satisfying and earned--and of course people may come to different answers to that. I am personally not a big fan of the “person dies without being able to finish what they meant to say” cliché. I think I would have preferred it if JYL hadn’t said, literally, “I have something to say” and had just died right after telling WWX to stop the fighting first. Considering that WWX accidentally killing JZX is a moment where he breaks down and he takes it really badly, and he feels awful towards JYL, it’s good in terms of conflict that WWX never gets to hear how she feels about him and what he’s done to her. At least it isn’t her dying saying “to save the day you only need to ......”, I suppose. 
I’ll maybe articulate my thoughts on JYL a little bit more in the future! But this is what I’ve got for now.
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Little Pistol - Millstone
Chapter 4
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This feels almost like I'm starting a new story and in a way I am. Tim's story. His side of this world in creating. That being said, for those who only got into DC and Batman and the Robins through the Maribat fandom, this actually gives a lot of background on Tim that isn't normally covered from what I've seen. Or at least, not in depth. Sure, I'm giving my own perspective on how canon events could of turned out, but all the way up to Damian taking up Robin is technically canon compliant.
That being said, here we go. (Song is Millstone by Brand New. All songs are featured on my Timinette Angst Playlist)
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Traveling downhill seemed so much easier than trekking up. In truth, it all depended on how you went. Slowly making your way on foot could end in braced, straining joints and burning calves from the effort of keeping balanced on steeper angles and rougher terrain. You could bike down faster, but you might miss everything that happens along the way or hit an edge and end up crashing to never see it through one way or another. Taken out of the race too soon. Running proved dangerous and much the same as a bike. One could always roll down the slope, but that leads to veering off course and coming up dizzy and disoriented. Falling was easy, but there was no control on how you went or how fast and many end up injured or lost by the time they hit the bottom.
Tim decided to mark his own path. He hadn't necessarily meant to find the bottom, it sort of found him to be honest, but nevertheless, he chose to make his way slowly down from the start. Twisting and winding carefully, every step deliberate and calculated until he stood where he is now, living in the brownstone with Jason Todd of all people. His would be murderer.
Funny how that worked.
It started early on, far sooner than most would guess, with his blackmailing his way into the mantle of Robin. Sure, it was ultimately Bruce's decision, but what else does one do with a kid with photographic evidence of your identity who saved your skin and insists on helping any way he can? Train him, send him around the world, and hone his skills under the nose of his parents, apparently.
Then his mother died and his father went into a coma. Bruce feared he'd fall to anger and vengeance, bringing up Jason as a reminder of what not to do.
It was interesting, the amount of times Jason was brought up as a form of warning. As a guidance for what not to be. It came to a point where he resented hearing the name, equated it to disappointment and idiocy. To brashness and brute strength. To death. His opinion of Jason was similar to that of a dumpster fire. Contained and expected, but needing to be put out before it could do any real damage to something actually important. 
That was in part due to being a child who'd grown up watching Dick fly in the Robin colors and seeing how his successor performed afterwards. In some ways, the magic of the Robin suit transferred with its new owner, still amazing Tim with its ability to make Gotham a little brighter, a little safer. But the disconnect between Robin and Jason was too strong for him to see them as the same person. He still thought of Dick as Robin, despite knowing he wasn't in that suit. Then Jason died and soon after he began his training, not really out of desire to BE Robin, but more for knowing someone had to do it. 
Then Bruce and in parts, Dick himself, kept reinforcing the story of Jason as something bad. As something to be avoided and better than. Jason was no longer a person at all in his mind. More of an urban legend told in bedtime stories to scare children into being good.  It only furthered the disconnect he felt between looking at the case with the old Robin suit and hearing the name Jason Todd.
It was a while afterwards that his next step down occured, with his return to no man's land, his rescue and finally, his father barring him from Robin and Stephanie taking up the title. He didn't mean to feel resentful, but it happened nonetheless. He fought so hard to be good enough, to hold the Robin title and be worthy of it only to have it ripped away by Jack Drake's form of blackmail. Oh, the irony of it being the same as his own from long before.
It took manipulation and carefully working from the other side, but soon he convinced his father of his need to be Robin. Of how Gotham needed him. And Jack let him. Too bad it led to him being killed.
He faked an uncle to avoid being completely under Bruce's thumb. Wanted a say in his own life and felt adoption wouldn't be the way to go about it. Didn't want to replace his dead dad so soon after losing him.
Things went faster after that. Stephanie died. Then Kon. He switched his colors in remembrance of his fallen friend. Became a little darker. Colder. Distant. Bart died. He fell further. Stephanie was alive. She let him think she was dead. Batman knew and felt no need to tell him. She lied to him. Bruce lied to him. Everyone he loved left him one way or another. Jason tried to kill him. More than once.
Surprisingly, almost dying at his hands was what began to help Tim see Jason as he truly was. A human being. He opened up the files on Jason and began his own research, no longer taking his mentors for their word. If Jason was alive, he needed to know who exactly he was up against. And he did, now. He knew who Jason was. A guy who'd been just a kid, taken off the streets and thrown into the nightlife of Gotham. A kid who loved his mother and did what he could to keep her alive. Who did what he needed to keep himself alive. Who loved school and maintained perfect grades and read classic literature. Jason Todd wasn't some punk who died because he was a brash idiot who got in over his head. No, he was just a boy who found out his birth mom was alive and went looking for her. Who died trying to protect the woman who birthed him, despite being the one who betrayed him. The Robin costume wasn't magical. Wasn't it's own living thing. The mantel was only as strong as the one who wore it and Jason had worn it well.
Funny how the resurrected version saw who filled the suit now and decided to try and kill him. Guess he couldn't really fault him for it, though. Talia threw Jason in the pits and practically siked him on Tim. If only she had kept Damian to herself. 
Tim took the child's attempt on his life to heart, despite the pardon to Jason for much the same. See the difference there was that Bruce didn't treat the two attempts the same. Both tried to kill Tim. But while Jason was condemned and seen as the enemy for it, Damian was barely punished. Sure, Bruce expressed anger and disappointment, but all and all, that was it. Quite frankly, Tim thought Jason was more justified and yet, he received the harsher treatment. 
The injustice and unfair treatment of the Robins was never more clear than in that moment.
The true fall of Tim, however, was after Bruce died, leaving the others as orphans to battle over the cowl.
He never wanted to hold the title of Batman, but Dick was so reluctant and then Jason started posing as Batman, so Tim took him up. Just to put an end to it. To make the madness stop for just a second.
And finally, finally, Dick took his rightful place. After the loss of his father and adopted father and so many friends and teammates, Tim was ready for a semblance of normal. He'd worked under Dick before and it'd gone so well, he knew this is what they needed. What the city needed. Something was finally going to be okay.
But then it really wasn't. Dick gave his position to Damian. To the kid who killed, who tried to kill him. To an ungrateful, insubordinate, murderous child who held no morals or standard for anything that wasn't an animal. Dick took the only thing Tim had left and gave it away to the person who hated him most.
Well. 
It should have come as no surprise that when Jason showed up, offering him refuge, a place to belong, a place at his side. He took it. 
He took it on his own terms.
Taking up the mask, not behind Jason, but at his side, as his partner, Tim took over the Brownstone building and created his perch. His and Red Hood's basis of operation. Dick thought Gotham needed a cruel, brutal, ruthless Robin? Fine. He'd give it one.
Sipping on his mug of hot chocolate and looking out into the night, he couldn't help the twinge of a frown that creeped onto his face. The downhill descent was a difficult one, yeah, but one way or another, he found his way to the bottom.
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Lingua Ignota — Sinner Get Ready (Sargent House)
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SINNER GET READY by LINGUA IGNOTA
There’s a truism you hear about Pennsylvania that some people find hilariously pithy: “Philadelphia on one end, Pittsburgh on the other and Kentucky in the middle.” Like many truisms, it has circulated far and wide because its cleverness communicates a small measure of accuracy, as a side-effect of its desire to score cheap points. But it sure as hell isn’t funny. Spend some time in rural Pennsylvania — you’ll see. The intensities of fiery religious fervor and of old-growth-forest darkness run deep in those hills and valleys. Combine them with the struggle and immiseration created by the American economy’s shift away from manufactory production and coal mining, and the ongoing punishments sustained by the independent family farm, and the energies you feel, if you tune into them, are potent and thick, often infernal. Kristen Hayter, who records and performs as Lingua Ignota, spent some serious time in the Pennsylvania countryside during the pandemic. She tuned in. The consequences of her experiences are in part represented on her new record, Sinner Get Ready. It is intense, infernal and spiritually alive, in ways that are both ecstatic and frightening. It’s terrific.
Much of Hayter’s work over the past several years has been perceived and categorized as metal, or at least metal-adjacent. Early support from label Profound Lore and from the Body (with whom Hayter has collaborated, on that band’s records and side projects) has underscored the perception, and her previous LP Caligula (2019), which featured sounds from the Body’s Lee Buford, Full of Hell’s Dylan Walker and Uniform’s Mike Berdan, seemed to solidify her relation to the genre. It’s also the case that her music’s themes share metal’s prevailing interests in violence, extremity and religions’ conceptions of evil. Thematically Sinner Get Ready continues and sharpens her explorations of that dangerous terrain, and comes close to literalizing it. “Perpetual Flame of Centralia” references the Pennsylvania mining town, now almost entirely abandoned due to the coal-seam fire that has been blazing beneath it since 1962 (if not for considerably longer). Hayter sings, “I am covered in the blood of Jesus… / I rest my head in a holy kingdom / Mine is the venom of the snake of Eden.” Seemingly a straightforward deployment of Christian symbols, it’s complex stuff: “mine” has at least two potential semantic and syntactic functions. In a material sense, the coal mine, its products and their climatological effects have wreaked havoc on human habitations, both local (Centralia, which as of 2017 had only five remaining citizens) and global. Venomous, indeed. 
At the record’s close, Hayter refers to another, smaller and less notorious Pennsylvania town. “The Solitary Brethren of Ephrata” locates the listener in Lancaster County’s Amish country, and it also gestures back to “Perpetual Flame of Centralia.” A CNN soundclip captures people in argument, likely over COVID-period considerations: a man asks, “Aren’t you concerned you could infect other people, if you get sick inside?” A woman responds, “No, I’m covered in Jesus’s blood.” When the man protests further, she asserts that she’s “in Walmart” and “Home Depot” every day, but she’s not afraid of the virus because she’s “covered in his blood.” The other people she encounters? She seems less concerned for their welfare. And a sinner like me? She’d probably be quite content to consign me to illness and death. Throughout Sinner Get Ready, Hayter inhabits the cruel, harshly judgmental ethos of Christian fundamentalism. On “Repent Now Confess Now,” she sings in a chorus of multitracked voices, “No pleasure in this year / No wound as sharp as the will of God… / O he will knock the breath from you / He will ram your eyes with glass.” It’s fierce, harrowing.
Of course, inhabiting and performing that ethos is different from endorsing or celebrating it. Hayter has a long, intimate relationship with Christianity, but she doesn’t proselytize. As she situates her lyrics in Pennsylvania, she similarly situates her lyric speakers and her songs in that place and its volatile ideological and cultural environments. Musically the environment is registered in the instrumentation and the compositions, which gesture toward folk traditions, gospel and chorale. The industrial and metallic dissonance of Caligula has been supplanted by the wooden feel of fiddles and pews, of ploughs and churchyards and forest. But it’s still a Lingua Ignota record, and those resources often create feral, livid noises, complementing the power of Hayter’s resonant voice. Even at its most spare, Sinner Get Ready feels mighty. On “Many Hands,” she plucks and bows what sounds like a cello, layering the drones and zings, and sings, “Upon your pale, pale body I will put many hands / And rough, rough fingers for every hole you have.” 
In much contemporary Christian rhetoric, being filled with transcendent glory is represented by the term “joy.” In the couplet from “Many Hands,” Hayter figures the feeling of being filled (all those “fingers” and all those “holes”) with metaphors that conjure a related and more densely complicated idea: jouissance. That is a state ultimately beyond language, so we can only gesture toward it. Elevation and subjection, unifying and shattering, searingly pleasurable and obliterating — jouissance is those things and more, and all at the same time. The Pennsylvania she sings about is similarly complex, simultaneously post-industrial and verdant, desolate and vibrant. Hayter’s voice admirably performs that complexity on Sinner Get Ready; it’s a beautiful instrument that will fill you with terrible woe, and then terrible wonder. 
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twist | lty
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➩ pairing: gamer/barista taeyong & reader ➩ genre: (extreme dosage of) fluff ➩ words: 5k ➩ warnings: too much fluff. handle uwus with care.
a/n: OH LOOK. ICEDCAPPUJAENO’S POSTING A FIC AGAIN?! I thought it was a meme blog--!! Hell yes I am! Supposedly this fic was going to be posted last Christmas (I gave you my heart-?) but we had to go out-of-town to celebrate the holidays, thus no proofread and all but voila! I present to you, my gift to everyone on this site who’s been with me all throughout 2019! I know I haven’t been the best in posting my works now and then but please don’t blame me, I got the job that I wanted so it kept me busy and I’m a person that would prefer career over hobbies most of the time. But yes, anyway, enough being sappy, thank you so much for everything and please look forward to more works in the upcoming year!
It's never too late for a really big plot twist for you and player rubbiesyong.
Christmas — the season of joy, the season were everyone would momentarily forget conflicts and be giving, the season to be jolly. 
Everyone in the dorms already left to come home for the holidays, but not you. Not with the burden of a thesis, the expensive amount of plane tickets, the hassle of being stuck in a crowd in airports — you decided to stay in your dorm, alone, yet maybe, this was another experience you’ve yet to face.
However, it wasn’t as joyful and breathtaking as you thought. 
Being scooped up in the dorm was most likely the most boring experience you had—and the motivation to complete your thesis chapters was downright zero. The weather isn’t cooperating as well: the low degrees and negatives making you wrap yourself in a blanket and stay under its warm covers, along with some Netflix. 
But at some point, you got tired of watching. 
Four days into the holiday season the app was already boring you. Thus, you mindlessly searched for games - the hobbies you once enjoyed when you were younger. Any genre was fine, although there was a magnet between you and MMORPGs. Searching for one, and alas - a free to play with good reviews appeared, downloading the installer not a minute after.
As soon as you installed the game into your laptop, the dialogue box said it would take around 5 hours. With that, for the first time that day, you looked at the time - 3 minutes past 2 o’clock. A low growl came from your stomach, it was no surprise as you’ve only been eating chips and coffee since you woke up. With a stretch, you rose from the bed, trying to beat the lazy syndrome that’s gotten to you.
You hissed as your feet pressed flat to the cold floors. To be honest, you don’t want to leave the bed, however, your back already started to feel some pain from lying all day. You got up, trotted your way to the bathroom and washed. Once done, you fished the coat, gloves, and scarf, and bag from behind the door, leaving your laptop open while the game installs.
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The cafe bell that hung loosely on the glass door rang as Taeyong entered, the warm breeze brought by the heater comforting his near numb senses from the cold wind outside. Even with the low temperature, Taeyong decided to open the shop even he thinks that the customers won’t come to this kind of weather. It was a tough decision from him, especially the part where he decides to get up from bed, an addition would be texts from his baristas that they’ll pass work for today. 
But the cafe work attracted him like a magnet, even if he was up staying up all night playing a game. Nevertheless, if he did reach half the quota for today, he’d close up, snuggle into the warmth of his blanket once again, lost in the virtual reality his game would bring.
Time passed quickly in the cafe, and when Taeyong looked up the wall clock, it was almost past 2, and while he didn’t reach half the quota of the day, Taeyong decided it was time to close up. Looking outside, it seemed like the weather isn’t clearing up any time soon. A grunt escaped from his lips as he stretched, his back and butt aching from almost sitting all day. 
As he was about to reach for his cleaning tools, the bell rang, signaling an entrance of a customer. A smile automatically waved through his lips, a manner he got out of habit. 
“Hello, welcome to our shop.”
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The walk to the nearest cafe was tedious: the icy path made it quite hard to balance and the chill breeze hitting your cheeks wasn’t helping at all. Your lips are chapped brought by the cold wind, thus making you hiss as you enter the warmth of the shop.
Though the heat from the cafe was comforting, the slit you made from trying to remove the skin from your chapped lips stung. You didn’t even hear the barista greet you—going straight to the counter without even minding the polite gesture from the staff.
“Caramel macchiato, and a slice of banana bread.”
“Are you okay? Your lip is bleeding.”
You touched your lip in reflex, for a moment your eyes widened at the sight of red within your fingertips. You were about to fish for the handkerchief from your pocket, but when nothing came to your senses, you bite your lip—hissing as you made the wound even worse, tasting the irony substance within your palate.
He hands you a tissue, and to be honest, you almost forgot about the barista in front of you. You looked up to thank him, noticing his sharp features—his brows were thick and manly, the shape of his jaw carved in an almost perfect sculpture. Although skinny, he looked so menacing, but when he showed you the softest smile you’ve ever seen—the intimidating aura blew away. His eyes started to grow a little bigger in your vision, pursed lips as he tried to suppress the laughter coming.
“So, it’s a caramel macchiato, and a slice of banana bread, correct?”
He chuckled, a low vibrato heartily coming from his as he punched your order in. He asked for your name and you answered rather immediately. And if you weren’t embarrassed enough after the scenario, your stomach growled once again, and the urge to run away to avoid further shame from the cute guy was spiking. 
“Is banana bread enough?” He asked, very amused with the situation. 
“Yeah. It is.”
He hummed, telling you to take a seat as he prepares your order. You did as told, sitting on the closest chair next to the counter. You watch him work behind—and you have to admit that encountering a cute barista like him, in winter, was a scenario you’d only imagine in dramas and fiction, it was surreal. The fact that someone this good looking exist was beyond your comprehension.
Needless to say, you developed this tiny, tiny, bitsy crush on this guy.
You turned to look around the shop: you ordered here before but most of the time, you ordered your coffee to go before going to the university. With the rush, you never noticed the cozy atmosphere that lingers on its surroundings—an LP player on the side, a touch of antiquity that brings some unique features for the shop. It emits a calming aura that reminds you of home.
It seemed like you found a new place to stay.
“Caramel macchiato, and a plate of carbonara with garlic bread on the side,” you hear the barista say that broke your reverie, along with the clink of the utensils when it collided with the glass table. The pasta’s smell was inviting, but pretty sure that you only brought enough money for a slice of bread and a cup of coffee.
Incredulously, you declined his offer, polite enough to let a smile pass your lips. “I didn’t order it…”
“Taeyong,” he finishes your sentence, although it was not what you had in mind. “It’s on the house.”
You gulped, looking at him foolishly for a moment, then pushed the plate away while standing up to only get the warm coffee cup. “I’m not that hungry…”
As if on cue, your stomach growled once more.
You groaned, face flushing from another embarrassment brought by your involuntary body actions. Taeyong laughed this time, not just a giggle, rather a hearty one that made his eyes crinkle in delight, showing the molars and fangs that made him look like a lion cub.
“Eat up. You need it.”
He said as he gently pushed you back to your seat with your shoulders. “I’d be disappointed if you’d decline my offer.”
With the aroma of the food in front of you and the request of the cute barista-slash-waiter of this cafe, you submitted. Whole-heartedly. Taeyong never left your side as you took the first bite, and when you hummed in satisfaction of how great it tasted, a smile plastered on his lips. 
“This is good Taeyong!”
He shrugged, and you feel smug in his aura as he did the action.
“Expected. Now, finish that up so I can close up.”
You didn’t need any reminder. There was nothing on your plate as you finished the food.
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Your stay at the cafe took longer than expected. The initial plan was to order take out and stay at home, watch some Netflix again as you wait for the game to download. But once you took a peek at your laptop, the game was done and ready to play.
Once you pressed the button, a young woman, elegant and pristine in her frilly dress, welcome you to the virtual world. She was all smiles when she made the entrance cue, and let you decide the class you want to main. You spent a few minutes in the tutorials and customization, and when you feel your neck ache from numbness and eyes strained, you stopped, satisfied with the character on the screen.
The first quests were easy—making you lose track of the time. Not with how your character seemed to be enjoying to slay the demons and monsters in the game, time passed by so quickly that it was past dinner when you glanced at the clock. You stretched your arms, forcing yourself to get up to get dinner, starting by boiling water in the kettle pot to make instant ramen.
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Thirteenth day on your vacation.
Character? Leveled up. Accessories included an armor that boosted defense. The headdress that increases magic. The staff that was initially without power now holds ice magic.
Thesis? Still on the same page.
You sighed. This wasn’t part of the holiday plan. Initially, you were going to finish your paper after Christmas, have it revised and to be submitted before the new term starts. But here you are, sitting on your study table, but no word applications opened, nor any site with related literature. Instead, the whole screen was engulfed in bright colors, your character (fully armed, by the way) smiled at you while she stands while you’re on AFK.
When you glance at the time, it was fifteen minutes past five. You called in for pizza, and after the beep, there was contemplating between your thoughts:  should I finish at least ten pages of my paper, or wait until my order arrives and start doing work after eating?
You sighed. The former was a better option (in terms of productivity), to say the least. At least you’re starting.
But as you were about to log out, a bubble appeared on the side of the screen. 
Hey.
The bubble flashed, signaling a personal message.
It was from player rubbiesyong . That dude who helped you during a difficult mission; as you presumed—but turns out you got lost with a fork and went to the high-ranking road instead. Player rubbiesyong slew all the enemies, and even though you are trying your best to keep him alive by healing, it seemed like you were only there for the cheer and tickles.
Heya ruby! 
You typed back, a nickname you gave to him as calling him with his full username was kind of a hassle. 
You up for a short quest? I need a hand with some as well as my daily.
Oh shit.
You bit your lip. The offer was tempting, but since rubbiesyong messaged, the decision was changed into the latter: doing your paper after eating pizza for dinner. However, with the circumstances—truly, it was stressing. The temptation is there, and deep in your heart and mind you wanted to keep playing but the obligations and guilt of finishing your work were making your heart heavy.
As you were typing your reply, you see a notification that says rubbiesyong is in-game.  His character spawned next to yours, all in his glorious armor. 
Sorry...gotta do some work first...maybe next time?
You don’t see his reply for a while, and while you were waiting, the doorbell rang. It was the pizza delivery guy, and once the food was paid, you slide your laptop away from a little to the side to have space for your food. When you thought everything was set, you sat back down, feeling the warmth of the chair against your bottoms once more. Ruby replied to your message.
Damn. But that’s okay. I understand.
It’s only virtual, you thought, but you can’t help but feel guilty with a slight pang of the chest. Although you’ve only known this person for days, it was as if you knew each other for a long time. Even though you’re only doing quests in the virtual world, with how he helped you leveled up and gave tips soften your emotions. 
There is a living person behind rubbiesyong , and although you know how dangerous it is to trust someone you met online, talking to him was comfortable. You already considered him as a friend.
I guess I’ll see you later then.
You sighed and bite your lip. Your anxiety levels were rising as you stared longer at his reply. No emoji? He’s disappointed. Before munching on pizza, you replied to his short farewell.
If I get this done I’ll come ASAP hehe. Wait for meee!!  With the emphasis on the triple ‘e’. Somehow, there was guilt in your chest, mainly because of leaving a friend, and partly because you want to play badly.
Alright ^_^ 
He replied, and this time with an emoji that lessened your worry. A smile crept to your lips, anticipation with finishing your work for you to set yourself into the virtual world.
Brb!! Enjooooooy and see ya later! :)
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It was half-past eight when you glance to your desk clock, the pizza box now empty along with the 2 mugs of coffee you made for yourself. You managed to finish what you ought to do, thankfully, but not leaving a sore back and strained eyes from staring at the computer screen for a very long time, with only trips to the restroom as breaks. You cleaned your mess but not before taking a sip of water.
When you returned to your desk, a sigh escaped your lips. Ruby is probably offline by now. Who would wait for long hours for a stranger? He’s probably resting by now, in his bed, maybe with warm cocoa…
You would be lying to yourself if you didn’t imagine how Ruby would look like, but for sure he’s a guy as you asked in the early stages of your meeting to make sure the pronouns you’ll use are spot on. The assumption was there, ranging from good to bad, however, it isn’t bad to dream that he’s quite the good-looking fella, right? It was inevitable as his character looked so clean and fresh, so you’d imagine he’d look the same—but as they say,  don’t keep your hopes up. You try to keep it away from mind.
You logged in-game, and to no surprise, player rubbiesyong is offline.
Although it was expected, the notification brought you a heavy heart. Playing with Ruby is always exciting, but what can you do? The banters were always fun, most especially when you two role-play with each other’s role. The priestess, who met a swordsman on the way, bickering as they do adventures together. It was in this virtual world that you can feel genuine happiness somehow, that is why you look forward to every game with him.
With a heavy heart, you go on with your daily quest alone.
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Two days later, you found yourself sitting in the cafe where you encountered Taeyong, but the barista was different for today. Frankly, you were hoping for Taeyong—somehow he made you feel comfortable, a feeling that would equate like home. Although you only met him once, the atmosphere he radiated was warm like the confines of your room, but for the most part, you kinda feel guilty for the pasta he gave you as you’re not the type to owe favors, so you’re to return the favor.
Not only that, for today, the agenda was to finish at least chapter three and prepare a presentation for your upcoming defense. The game was left untouched for the time being as you were trying to make up for the lost time you spent playing games. You were so immersed in your paper that you didn’t notice Taeyong coming in, although not dressed for work. He immediately noticed your slouched figure and the cup of coffee beside your laptop, so dangerously close that a little, leaning mistake would spill over your desk. 
A hand pushed your coffee cup away from your laptop, and you were about to spare a glare but you see Taeyong’s toothy grin. He was dressed casually: you noticed how odd the mix in his fashion taste but it fits him either way. 
“Good morning, Ms. Caramel macchiato,” the grin never leaving his lips. “I see you’re working hard even on the holidays.”
Baffled by his use of nicknames, you chuckled. “I am, good sir. I see it’s your off today.”
“Well, yeah,” he shrugged, then took his coat off his shoulders as the warmth of the cafe started to seep into the fabric of his clothing. “Mind if I join you?”
“I would be lying if I said no, because I badly need to finish my agenda for today and you distracting me isn’t a great idea.”
Taeyong momentarily stopped as you were speaking. He looked at you quite a few seconds after you talked, then blinked almost comically. He never expected for you to blurt out like that, but then, when he glanced at the screen of your laptop, it was quite understandable as to why you’re acting as such. His eyes started to roam around to find a vacant seat, or he could always hang out in the staff office.
“Oh, Uhm, sorry. I’ll just take another-”
“But a company is great,” he heard you say, and when he glanced back at you, you were sipping your coffee, eyes glued to the computer screen. You then looked at his back with a raised brow. “You didn’t let me finish.”
What a strange fellow, indeed. Taeyong thought and was about to retort back when his co-worker behind the counter called him. He excused himself, telling you that he’ll be back in a minute. Honestly, you could care less, but the kick of the caffeine was needing you to move your lips, hence the disappointment was washing your features. You hid it with a smile though and sent him off, going back to the paper you’re working on.
And true to his word, Taeyong did come back, two cups of steaming drink in his hand. He placed them on the table, pushing one to your side. It was chamomile tea.
“Yours.”
“It’s not in the house, is it?”
“It is,” he chuckled, sitting on the seat opposite of yours. The scent from the tea was inviting, although you’re not much of a tea person. Taeyong seemed to notice this and pointed towards the cup. “It will help you relax.”
“Biscuits, as ordered,” you hear the barista say as he carefully placed the tray of assorted biscuits on your table. Taeyong thanked the guy, and while you were so focused on the cute animal-shaped biscuits, you failed to notice the smirk growing on the barista’s lips. He gave Taeyong a quick nudge to which he shooed him off quietly, making the barista leave but without suppressing a peal of silent laughter.
“You’re paying for this, Taeyong. I don’t have enough allowance anymore.”
“I am,” he laughed, and the way his lips widely stretch that showed his pearly whites and the eyes crinkling reminded you of a baby fox. You can’t help but laugh along as it was contagious, and never have you felt comfortable in the presence of another person in a long time.
“Sorry, I know I’m distracting you. So I’ll just sit down and behave quietly while you work.”
“No, it’s fine,” stretching your arms was almost as relaxing as you were slouched for hours now. “I need someone to keep me sane. The words are already jumbling-look,” you turned your laptop screen to him. “The grammar is everywhere, all I can see are red lines.”
He laughed, once again, and to be honest, every time he does, you were becoming more and more infatuated. “Alright, I’m Taeyong and here to keep you sane.”
You giggled. People like these are genuinely rare these days. Your instinct also seemed to like him, as normally you’d be avoiding these situations as much as possible. But, for the one who gave you free pasta when you were starving and now, free tea and biscuits? How can you be so wary of such a guy?
“If you don’t mind me asking,” he started, and your gaze shifted to him as he trailed off his question. You nodded as you took a sip of the now-warm chamomile tea, urging for him to continue his query. “What do you do?”
You put the cup down and tell about yourself. That you are a full-time graduate student and working as a part-time assistant professor at the university. In your field, although there are holidays, your principal investigator will roast you if you haven’t done anything over the holidays- where is the data? Have you thought of another problem already?  -  cute phrases that your principal investigator will ask you. He seemed to be so interested that a question led to another, and that when you glanced at the clock of your screen, two hours had already passed and nightfall was about to come as it was getting dark outside.
“Ah, shit. Sorry, I took most of your time.”
Taeyong said, and his tone sounded so concerned and genuinely apologetic. You shake your head with a smile, putting back your laptop inside your bag and taking one last of the biscuit on the table.
“It’s really fine, Taeyong! I enjoyed it as well, plus, I told you I needed a break. That’s exactly what I needed,” you chuckled. “So thank you.”
“Sure, always here to help,” he mirrored your reaction as a light chuckle escaped from his. “Anyway, is it okay if I asked your number? I mean, you don’t need to, just, you know, if you need someone to talk to-”
You laughed at how he stuttered, lightly hitting his shoulder with how stupidly cute he looked. Of course, who would miss an opportunity to get a number of a cute guy? Not you. So you asked for his phone and vice versa, both of you satisfied with your goodbyes as your numbers were saved directly in your contacts.
You also never missed the opportunity to hit the button favorite upon his contact details.
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Going to the cafe became a habit, and time passes so quickly that you didn’t notice that it was the 24th of December already: the sign on the cafe door the only thing that reminded you of the day. 
You sighed. And you were even looking forward to the coffee, pastries, and Taeyong’s company. His presence and the coffee he brought seemed to boost your efficacy—you finished your due papers in time, and today was going to be a break, but with the locked door and closed blinds, the plan was ruined. Along the way home, you ordered a small cake for yourself, and a bottle of red wine for later’s celebration.
Going home was the only option, and when you’re back at the comforts of your duvet, you opened your laptop, log on to the virtual world. The usual, with a smile, your character greeted you. At the very least, you’re happy. Maybe in another world, but it’s all good. 
You started clicking on the quests on the side of the screen. Spending the Christmas online sounded lonely, but celebrating it alone outside—just the thought of it makes you shudder for it was freezing, and walking nor eating along on the eve of Christmas will earn you pitiful stares. You stood up and boiled water to make hot cocoa, a perfect drink to accompany your online adventures. And who said it was lonely? The lobby was full of online players publicly chatting and greeting everyone a  Merry Christmas! , and of course, although alone but with the spirit, you greeted them back as well.
The first quest was not so bad, it was only delivering some goods to one NPC to another. The second one wasn’t so bad either—slaying low levels monsters in the forest nearby. However, the third quest, unbelievably, was consuming your time. The former only took around 30 minutes each, but an hour has passed and you’re still stuck: escort this NPC to the palace without him dying from bandits along the way. 
rubbiesyong is now online.
The notification never failed to catch your attention, and genuinely surprised. There was an assumption that Ruby is the type to spend Christmas with his loved one: may it be family or friends—there was an aura behind his character that radiates. You haven’t been online for days finishing your paper, and how badly you want to greet him a Merry Christmas, but wouldn’t it be awkward? The thought crossed your mind, but another notification bubble popped on the side of your screen.
rubbiesyong: Merry Christmas!
A smile crept on your lips, anxiety decreasing as you replied a  Merry Christmas! back. 
rubbiesyong: Haven’t seen you for days, busy?
You replied with a yes. You wanted to tell him everything that happened in the past few days, though you know it isn’t an obligation, and you were too lazy to type.
rubbiesyong: I see.
rubbiesyong: mind if I join you? Bored to death lmao
A sigh of relief came through, and there were no options as you desperately want to finish this never-ending quest you’re stuck on (which you weren’t supposed to be, you are just a noob).
Not a minute later, Ruby joined your group, his character stood side of yours. You explained the quest you’re currently doing, and it seemed like he was typing something so long that the group chat was continuously showing rubbiesyong is typing…  notification.
rubbiesyong: can we voice chat instead? It’s too long to type haha
Voice chat. 
Honestly, it was a thing you avoid as there is an underlying feeling of insecurity—you weren’t very confident with your voice over the line. Another is the anxiety of struggling with your words—a very common occurrence every time you’re on the line. However, as you agree with Ruby with the feeling of laziness, plus his tips will probably lead you better on finishing your quest.
rubbiesyong entered the voice chat.
You turned on the voice chat as you put your earphones on. You waited for him to speak first, but since he was not saying anything, you were about to open your mouth as you hear a masculine voice over.
“Hello?”
Oddly familiar, you thought, but you shrugged the idea off. Maybe all guys sounded familiar over the line? You weren’t sure, but it wasn’t of priority. You whispered a subtle hello back and you hear him laugh, a deep baritone resonating on the line. 
“I guess it’s connected,”  there goes the laugh again, and you can’t help but imitate the action. 
“Cute voice,”  Ruby commented that halted your laugh. You were thankful that he couldn’t see your face as you were sure that you’re flushing with the sudden compliment. 
“Whatever,” an attempt to change the topic, you asked him what to do and of course, you told him where you’re stuck on. He guided you throughout as expected—the quest being chicken with Ruby at your party. He guarded your back as you escort the NPC to the designation, and although he took a few hits here and there, Ruby slew the bandits that resulted in success.
“Ah, finally!” You stretched your arms when the screen flashed glitter gold letters of completed! for the quest. You hear Ruby laughed and there were sounds of clapping in the background. 
“Congrats.”
You chuckled, taking a sip of the water beside you that you got while on a short break. “Couldn’t have done it without you, Ruby!”
“Calling me Ruby in type-chat is okay but it feels weird hearing it to be honest,”  he chuckled.
“I kinda feel the same when you call me with mine, but it’s fine? I’m not sure how to feel, to be honest.”
“But you know, you sound familiar, I swear I heard your voice before.”
“You know what? I thought of that too!” Unbelievably, you feel like you’re closer to this stranger as well—not only because you met for a while now, but his voice just sounded so amicable. “What are the chances, right?!”
“Yeah,”  you hear him pause and breathe, and when you feel like the silence is getting awkward, you initiated another conversation by asking him:
“Why are you online this very Christmas eve?”
“Got nothing better to do,”   he sighed, and you thought he drank from something as an exhale from his lips rang over the line. “Don’t have work today since it’s Christmas, and plane tickets are hella expensive. I miss my sister and mom though, especially my dog.”
Hearing him talk about family made you think of your own, and the feeling of homesickness hit you like a deer-in-headlights. You sighed and rested your head comfortably on the pillow in front of you. “Yeah, same.”
“What about you?”
You told him your reasons—that you were a graduate student finishing a paper for your defense on the upcoming semester, and the tickets for the same reason. Although he chuckled, it was cut short as he asked:
“By chance, do you ever stop by a cafe to do your work?”
“Yeah, I do,” you quipped slowly, eyebrow-raising from the sudden question from him. 
“Sorry if this is personal, is your name (Y/N) by chance?”
You feel your heart race faster than normal, how did this stranger know your name? No words were forming in your confused and tangled thoughts, and the only thing that came to mind was to disconnect, but Ruby beat you to it by saying:
“Shit, sorry, that was weird huh?”   You hear him sigh and he continued. “But like, in this cafe where I work, there’s this person who always comes in stressed—clearly, and you know, cute and all, we’ve become close you know? I have this tiny—hell, I have this crush and I even thought it was you.”
Did he just tell what happened to your daily life the past few days?
“They’re cool when they’re doing their stuff you know? Ah—I’m rambling. Sorry,” he chuckled apologetically, and even over the line you hear the sincerity in his tone. 
“No, no, it’s fine!” You bit your lip, a habit you got when you feel your anxiety reaching roof high. “Uhm, is your real name Taeyong, by any chance?”
What plot twist it is when you hear a pause—followed by a rather loud vocal of your name. In a questioning tone.
“Seriously?!”
“Lee Taeyong!?”
Another minute passed with exchanges as such, tossing your real names back and forth. It was the biggest plot twist of the year, you thought, as from what he said not too long ago was a subtle confession, isn’t it? That he had this crush on you?
Because you feel butterflies in your stomach as you feel the same way for him. The smile that grew fondly on you, his strong features that soften with every conversation, no matter how silly the topic is. You remember the first time you met, embarrassment was all around your facade, but his presence and soothing existence were enough to radiate a calming and comforting persona that you got infatuated with.
This has to be a joke, isn’t it?
Maybe he’s a hacker—stalker, who knows all about Taeyong and since they do know about Taeyong, they know about you as well? Maybe they’re using some sort of voice changer to make it sound like him. It’s a threat to National Security! It’s some overthinking, but—
“It’s me, you idiot! I can hear you overthinking!”  You hear a roaring laugh on the line, and it sounded genuine that he’s having fun.
“Yeah? If it’s you what was the thing I ordered in your cafe when we first met?”
“Caramel macchiato. A slice of banana bread. That was your order,”   with an emphasis on the word your. “Then I gave you a plate of carbonara, with garlic bread, all made with love.”
You feel the blood rushing to your cheeks. 
“You’re not being discreet about it, Taeyong.”
“Well, I kinda confessed anyway. Not in the way I planned, but—“
“No need to worry about that,” you chuckled, burrowing your head to the pillow you’re propping on to muffle your next words.
“I like you too.”
“Come again? I think the line was choppy.”
You were sure that he still heard it, and that he was only teasing you, but with your heart almost bursting out from your ribcage, and the amount of embarrassment and butterflies fluttering in your stomach, you sighed.
“I like you too, you idiot.”
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He was clad in a brown coat and scarf that you gave to him as a gift to protect himself from the cold. His hands, however, were inside his coat pockets, fidgeting the heat pack that kept his digits warm. 
When he looked at the side, he noticed your shivering figure, hands inside your coat’s pockets as well, and the tip of your nose beet-red from the cold. A smile tugged at his dry, thin lips—though it was cute seeing you like this, he can’t let you catch a cold.
Taeyong moved to your back and wrapped his arms around your waist, his warmth radiating to yours like a heater. You sighed and basked in his comfort, laying your head on his chest as he hugged you from behind.
“Happy New Year, babe.”
He said, looking down to meet your gaze—a galaxy that you considered home. His presence that made your cold, lonely holidays warm and colorful unlike what you expected, and additionally, a friend that you could confide in—whether be it in real life or virtually.
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 And when his lips descended on yours, the colors in the sky long forgotten, you feel safe.
Though not back home, Taeyong was and had to be, the biggest twist of your life.
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