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thetechnicolorphase · 4 months

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silly doggy save me

#my art #fanart #fetch with ruff ruffman #fwrr #ruff ruffman #pbs kids #hi guys! i have a debilitating illness and it’s called being obsessed with the funny dog show #ive been fixating on it on and off for like um. 3 years now. but this last month has been like a hurricane that swept through my head #now its all i can think about. oops!#i have a lot of art but i prob wont post most of it sorry </3 the world isnt ready for my ideas #maybe once i finish rewatching the show i will post some things #sorry for typing so much in the tags also . im writing a whole essay here whoops

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skitskatdacat63 · 11 months

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“Do you think love can bloom even on the battlefield?”(Monaco 2010-2013)

#the caption is (mostly)a joke and i *do* think im being funny with it #but that quote just suddenly popped into my brain and I could not stop laughing #but honestly tho that is my motto for any f1 ship but particularly abt drivers on the podium being touchy #like 'yeah you just beat me but i can respect that and so im gonna hug you about it'#(yeah yeah ik them hugging probably isnt that deep but their affection to their competitors means to much to me emotionally <3)#i like that the red bull boys are always at the scene of the crime its like they started it in 2010 and then committed to it #im particularly insane about the sebson and martian ones but as always webbonso going above and beyond #nando really said fuck these weak mfs bro-hugging im gonna clutch mark like hes my lifeline even tho he just beat me #btw i did research into all of the past 24 monaco podiums for this but these had the most flavor and theyre all directly chronological #sorry ik the spain gp is practically upon us by now but im still in monaco hell #i gotta get all the monaco posts out of my system #monaco: all bangers all the time #also this was meant to just be a photo post but then i looked at the actual footage and it turned into a gifpost oops #sebastian vettel #mark webber #jenson button #nico rosberg #fernando alonso #martian #sebmark #sebson #webbonso #sico #f1 #formula 1 #monaco grand prix #monaco gp #we do a little bit of f1

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liquidstar · 1 month

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a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

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ms-all-sunday · 3 months

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water 7 geopolitics.

water 7 is an independent citystate of the world government despite having a working contract with the world government they don't have to enforce their law because they're not under the world government

it's complicated, the laws are independent and the world government doesn't enforce their law 99% of the time because of the fact galley la could just stop making boats for them and that would be extremely bad

galley la is able to use the boat relationship as leverage politically to the detriment of the world government (this is why they got away with enies lobby no consequences style) as long as they keep making boats for them/in aid of the civil war on pirates.

water 7's political strategy protects their own independence while playing both sides in regards to the civil war on pirates, which you could argue is actively harming other nations independence of the world government (like wano)

#modposts #i LOVE the politics of water 7 #its so interesting because theyre the first independent nation we see #that actually welcomes pirates #and the fucking. the fact they make boats for the world government and they use that as political leverage to do basically anything they #want. is hilarious.#water 7 is my favourite setting in one piece because of its politics and political history #w7 is less special now that we've seen other independent nations #- a loser would say that they still have the best political worldbuilding in all of one piece #the themes of workers rights within the relationship between galley la and the world government... yeah...#i was having a discussion with my friend about one pieces political commentary and talking about how one pieces villains can often be #shallow political props like wapol and i made the argument that while i do think that that isnt the case sometimes #the thing that makes one piece amazing political commentary is the worldbuilding and stuff like the political history and reality of water #meta #i have to tag this now because i accidentally did commentary in the tags oops.#op #one piece

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sysig · 12 days

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I hope you blink before I do (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #DAX #Blood #Fuck you *reinjects romance into your song about love-lost*#It's the ''I want to be the one to lay you to rest'' of it all #Or if not that then at least to be the last one suffering #See him off - make sure he goes knowing that he's not alone #I'm Fine just Don't Look at me and I'll Be Fine #Schrödinger's Fine lol - I am simultaneously Fine and Not Fine until I am observed #I simply subsist largely off of angst and then whatever small scrap of comfort that can be coaxed from there hehe #I am very mean to them considering how much I want them to be happy lol #Honestly I think what would be meaner is seeing ZEX off and then somehow DAX survives alone #Night ends just as he's about to blink out and oops you're still stuck here sorry about that <3 #But I wouldn't do that to them would I?#:3c #I also think it's interesting that I started doodling this before I actually read ZEX's death - I finished it after but still!#Does he just give off gutted vibes? Canonically he's eviscerated so #And not just in the eye way - in this case it's enucleation #Did you come here for eye removal surgery puns? I don't see why you'd expect anything different *b'dm tss*#I've done way more research on eye removal than I ever expected to but now those two terms will be forever seared into my mind haha #Hhh ZEX's death was very affecting to me ;; I'll talk about it more with its accompanying doodle but really 💔#I wanted an honourable death for him - and if not that then a death where he wasn't alone - and if not that then to rest #He got one of the three ;;

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toytulini · 5 months

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terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.

#toy txt post #this was meant to be a quick post it got a bit longer and more in depth than i planned oops #i just hate when ppl act like All Dogs have Inherently Correct Judgement Of People #like from every angle. its funny to joke about but i know theres ppl out there who might be feeling like #very fragile in their gender or smth and seeing a post like that if they meet a dog that normally hates men but not women but it doesnt #recognize your inherent true gender im sure seeing shit like that post can be a horr #got interrupted by a phone call while typing it and the post is glitching so i cant see where that tag is cut off so uh #dogs are like ppl in that they can develop biases and have bad judgement and they dont always get it right #they are not like ppl in that it is not possible to ask a dog to examine its biases. you cannot make a dog take a class on #critical race theory. you have to work to socialize and desensitize them against those biases or at least make sure those biases theyve #developed dont negatively impact ppl. in this sense i guess im morally obligated to try to learn more spanish to see if it helps my dog #chill. shes nervous around all new ppl but parents have anecdotally noted she extra dislikes men speaking in spanish. she was a stray so we #dont really know her history. she also does Not like fire pokers outside. weirdly even tho its basically the same tool she is unfazed by #the indoor poker for the woodstove? but ig she wouldve had less exposure to indoor woodstoves as a stray in Louisiana?#but i can see like ppl having a little backyard barbecue and threatening the big mastiff looking stray dog with a fire poker and i think #that region of the country prolly has a higher number of spanish speaking ppl than our current residence so the odds of her running into a #spanish speaking guy who isnt very nice are prolly higher just due to a denser population as a whole. and we think shes part mastiff which #i think is a breed already prone to disliking strangers that probably cooked up into a little cocktail in her brain #luckily shes bad enough with All Strangers that i think honestly it would be hard to even notice her bias? but. ig i need to see if i can #desensitize her? idk. sighs but im scared to open duolingo now 😭. but i could maybe do it. when other ppl wear hats she fucking hates it #i wear a fucking face covering mask that looks like a giant eyeball she looks at me a little quizzically but is fine. jester hat? fine #i am like that video of the person desensitizing that horse except thats just like. living w me. minus the cat thing. id never do that to #the cats or dog. everyone would hate that. squirrel already cant tolerate being held while a dog is out cos he THINKS im going to do that.#it would traumatize the dog cos he'd injure me escaping and then prolly her trying to scare her off to get past her and shes just minding #her business. solo i cant hold that long but is less likely to injure anyone. shadow. first of all all 3 are way too heavy to be holding #like that #im getting lost in the tags again sorry im chewing caffeinated gum. i should go try to buy some catnip #ive made my Phone Calls. im gonna try to go get dressed and buy various catnip products. maybe lure him with a toy this time. need my #parents to help me but not be so visibly Ready to help me next time cos i do not want to chase his ass again...

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leonardalphachurch · 1 year

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ε-gamma is so funny. gary is all like, oh i’m going to be gay and evil and torture the alpha again and try to take over the galaxy and fall in love with a man with a mustache and ε-gamma is literally like bro i am just s i am just sitting here

#rvb #this is my ‘gary and alpha were genuinely friends’ propaganda train. epsilon remembered him fondly.#‘what about all the murder’ ‘uhhhhhh it’s okay this one didn’t do that’#the way that ε-sigma is just this nebulous evil thing is also fascinating #like i know it’s bc. elijah wood expensive. but. in canon #he doesn’t talk! and if i will remind that is What Sigma Did. he talked.#but Sigma is not how epsilon remembers sigma. Sigma is not who epsilon introjects.#epsilon introjects The Meta.#obviously nothing like the actual meta. just this terrifying growling concept that epsilon can only understand as ‘the bad man’#i don’t think epsilon could let himself think of what the meta’s actual goals were. could let himself understand that HE is #essentially what the meta wanted to be. he IS the complete meta. in some ways #we KNOW miles understands what the meta actually was. price says it clear as day. the meta wanted to be human.#yet epsilon still presents it to carolina as a bid for power #because i don’t think it’s the meta’s goals epsilon is afraid of. i think it’s its methods #i think it’s epsilon knowing so deeply inside of him. that he could’ve walked that path. to get to her.#everyone seems to know what’s best for texas right? sigma seemed to know what was best for the other ai #and maybe he was right yknow? maybe he was right. isn’t epsilon so much happier now that he remembered the fragments?#was sigma wrong for wanting to gather everyone again? was epsilon wrong for wanting to see her again? were they wrong?#who has to die to prove they weren’t wrong??#oops i. wrote a sad novel in the tags of silly post.

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unicornsaures · 19 days

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i’m getting TOH all over my dash..i think the only time i’ve ever even watched the show itself was the morning after one of the most fever dream-like sleepovers of my life that i’m still not sure ever happened

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byanyan · 9 months

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being friends with byan is so weird bc they say they want you to have the balls to be bluntly honest with them, but then the very moment you're honest about something they don't like, they're peacing out, all "lmao ok friendship ended byeeeee"

#honesty is great until you're addressing their insecurities or anything they're currently in denial over #they have a... weird relationship with honesty lmao #they'll be harshly honest about almost anything and not pull a single damn punch #they will tell you easily that their biological mother didn't want them and that they've lived on the street #they'll tell you that they haven't had a foster home last more than 10 months & that one of their foster parents almost killed them #but they won't tell you about the misery these events caused & how its shaped them as a person #and then there's the way they can dish it but can't take it #they'll tell you to your face everything that's wrong with you (in their opinion)#but the moment you do the same back.... lmao fuck you what the hell kinda bullshit #they're so SO sensitive. so much more so than they let on. and they don't tolerate being called on their shit well.#but I think part of that is bc they spent a lot of their life being belittled rather than built up #and they ended up feeling like every time they were abandoned it was bc of their flaws #so if ur pointing them out........ it's only a matter of time before ur leaving too. so they better leave first.#but also they just hate being Seen. they hate when someone can see behind their facade.#if someone else can see ur pain that means it's really there or something :)#idk I have way more thoughts about this than I realized when I started typing and now the tags are gonna be longer than the post oops #might....... have to make a note to get into all this in a more in depth headcanon at some point #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.

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aaravos-answers · 10 months

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(same anon here with the touchy guy best friend) Don't get me wrong, Aaravos, I never reciprocated his romantic feelings...I always knew they were there, but I didn't want our friendship to get awkward because of it

What I didn't know was he'd been alienating me from the other guys for MONTHS, and I'd always feel left out and lonely in groups, and he'd be the person i'd turn to, the person i thought I could trust

So when i found out he was the cause of all my misery, my heart just absolutely shattered, you know? Because I didn't know this was the sheer extent of his feelings for me...and it creeped me out, because he was the kind of guy who didn't take no for an answer

my sixth sense would always scream at me whenever he'd touch me in a way I wouldn't like...like the one time he put his hand on my waist, and honest to god, I was not only creeped out, but I was also scared. i don't know why, and i didn't know how to tell him to stop touching me, but it scared me...i was thirteen years old, and i still remember my heart pounding-

and i do hate him, but honestly, i feel like its my fault too...the signs were all there from the start and i chose to ignore them in a desperate bid to revive a friendship and a person i knew was too adamant to change

and i think this is the first time i'm really, genuinely talking about this, since i don't think i have any friends at all anymore

Oh, goodness, little one, you've been carrying this around for quite some time, haven't you?

Starling, breaking away from such a thing with little to no support is incredibly difficult, and I am so, so proud of you for it. <3

...Do let me know if you ever see him again. I have a blade you can borrow, if you'd like.

#aaravos answers #ask #anonymous #and i would happily cause harm to any who wish it on my flock #you have friends here little one <3 #mun says:#making friends is both easy and difficult #if you make a rp blog for your blorbo its an easy way to find people who also like them #and then sometimes they will geek out bc their fave character is talking to them and you can be internally shrieking #and you are both internally flipping out about This Is Such A Cool Person Why Are They Even Talking To Me Aaaaaaaaa #and then they??? like talking to you????#oh look you made a new friend #(THIS HAPPENED MULTIPLE TIMES I SWEAR IM NOT COOL AARAVOS IS JUST MAGIC)#anyways <3 you got this!#Talk To People is really hard believe me i know but surprisingly often they Talk Back and they Like You and Are We Friends Now??#it's weird #harder and easier than you think all at the same time #or is that just me?#oops rambling too long sorry #anyways. my spell slots are limited my friend slots are not. hi #okay goodnight <3

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piplupod · 5 months

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hate that you can have possibly the most horrific realisation of your life and your body completely freaks out and starts fighting itself and you are just expected to keep going with your day like normal. i feel like maybe i should get a month away from any and all responsibilities at the very least to recover and adjust to having this knowledge

#my god!!! my god!!! the horrors do not end!!!#in fact old horrors will come back to haunt you again!!!#i wish i had not gone digging and prodding but oops i am so stupid and also i cannot stop my brain from putting pieces together!!#i have a counseling appt tomorrow but i honestly dont think i can bring this up. how do u bring up such a thing! esp when u have no proof!#i do not think the pieces would all fit together so perfectly and the body and brain would not react so violently if it were not true thoug #i do not want it to be true dear fucking god can this not be true please. can i be mistaken maybe. can it be just a series of coincidences.#i do not know how to cope with this if it is true. and the most awful thing is i'll likely never know for sure #i do not have memory of any of those times. i will never know unless another part comes forward w memories #and maybe its better to not know? but i feel sick. i feel so very sick!! i cannot deal w this!!#Chase took over for half the day and he's sooo pissed at me for digging but i sincerely could not stop putting things together #everyone in the brain is so mad at me i think fsdjkl i feel so awful and sick and the body is so fucked up now #i want to bring it up w counselor but i'd have to bring up a lot of other things and she's about to go on pregnancy/maternity leave #i dont want to be... burdensome. and idk who will be replacing her #idk !!! i wish i could just undo all of that thinking this morning!! i fucked up!! i shouldnt have thought about it!!#i regret it but i also cannot stop wanting to know the truth!! and i hate this!! i dont want this to be real!! please i hope its not!!#pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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todayisafridaynight · 7 months

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extra thoughts but sawashiro hurts my heart so like. yeah we know his character is like sad and tragic but like. REALLY think about it and like let it set in i swear he makes me want to rip my hair out he was just a boy... wish him happiness w like. a Labrador or smthn i dont know dog breeds

i can't really. call sawashiro 100% innocent; the abuse he went through during his adolescence is definitely sad and undoubtedly contributes to his behavior now, but uhhh he still put a newborn baby in a locker LMAO?

sawashiro's agony is purely a product of his own actions. at the very least he's trying to rectify the damage he did, and that's definitely better than him not having any remorse at all

#snap chats #sawashiro's perpetual crime and punishment is my favorite thing ever its so evil #like he Justifiably feels this immense guilt for the stupid shit he did- like he very much should feel awful forever #do we comprehend. putting a baby in a locker. like i joke about it all the time but Truly Honestly #fortunately (or not LMAO) masato survived but he was ultimately left damaged for half his life #lest we neglect to note that masato's condition specifically bred that hatred in him that made him wack as hell so.. uh oops #literal domino effect moment Sawashiro And Ikumi Didn't Get Sex Ed -> Japan's Most Vulnerable Are Being Oppressed pipeline #a set of stupid actions ultimately tarnished someones life. masato sucks but he didnt do anything as a baby to deserve that #in any case the severity of sawashiro's actions and his guilt is so integral to his character and aoki's character honestly #of course he's going to do everything for aoki now- but as a result now aoki's spoiled on that servitude yk #and aoki will never know why sawashiro was that dedicated all he knows is that he can get whatever he wants from him #and of COURSE. NOW we have a bratty 42 y/o LOL #you cant really feel bad for him because the punishment fits the crime- hell some might say its not enough #almost killing a baby is pretty indefensible. like i get why neither of them just gave the baby to an adult #yk TRAUMA and undoubtedly having a general distrust towards adults will influence your actions like that #but to put it in a LOCKER. at the very least they couldve just left it in a basket or somewhere someone could see it #but they put. a baby. in a locker. where it was supposed to wither away like the thousands of other coin locker babies #at most it wouldve been great if the adults in sawashiro and ikumi's lives didn't fail them but.. that aint the timeline we live in #FORGIVE THE RAMBLE i just. love this aspect of sawashiro it's so funny to think about #despite it all he should get a dog tho. for my amusement

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shimmershy · 2 years

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I need you guys to know that I spent the better part of today cross referencing The Owl House episodes trying to piece together Caleb and Philip's entire backstory. I'm so invested. I need to know absolutely everything there is to know about them.

#now you know the sad truth... i am NOT normal about fictional characters... so sad #sorry to my followers who follow me for undertale.... which is probably most of you guys lol. the owl house has me in its death grip.#but GENUINELY all day my brain has been like HOW CAN I ANALYZE THIS SITUATION IN A WAY THAT MAKES IT 100X MORE TRAGIC?#in regards to the wittebane brothers #and by extension hunter #i think i can safely say i am Emotionally Attached #oops #the owl house #toh #things I say

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snekdood · 1 year

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if ur gonna make the argument that trans men suddenly gain the privileges of a cis man when they pass you gotta make the same argument for trans women who pass as cis women,,,,, , ,

#when can i start talking about white women tears: trans women addition #or is now Not The Right Time. but somehow its still the right time to pretend trans men have the same privelege as cis men #sure go ahead just throw us into the fire without the rest of the queer community purely out of Vibes.#sure trans men just have all this privilege and now we dont have to think about them ever again and in fact pretend they're our oppressors #do yall even hear yourselves sometimes?#anyways we gotta focus on shit that actually matters for once instead of this dumb kinda discourse #be real. trans men dont have significant privelege. now link your fuckin arms you tool #just felt like i had to say this 👋 goin back to my break #edition* oops #also to be clear: i dont think trans women just gain priveleges like that by being perceived as cis. just like trans men dont #hope that helps!#tbh any trans white person whos read as fem gets the x gender tears label when they weaponize their femininity #and the percieved innocence by default and vulnerability to their advantage to manipulate people.

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astrxealis · 1 year

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my mind is a mess but wow. fuuta

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚#love fuuta fr!#tbh yeah 2nd trial focuses less on his 'crime' and more on the whole morality bit of it. i think #by which i mean his perception of himself and milgram as well as his guilt #so interesting... wow #hes better than in the 1st mv (doesnt see himself as much of a hero anymore) but hes still. not taking responsibility #for his acts and all. i looked away for a second and forgot what i was writing about oh my god #hes so interesting i cant think anymore #i should chillax i think. getting too heated up (just by myself? hm) haha continuing fire related puns and shit #me listening to fuuta on repeat so true #i think its interesting to think abt which milgram characters i relate to most #and w/o a doubt there is. at least. haruka and fuuta #i can go on for hours talking about this but i don't feel like it rn oops!#sometimes i realize smth whenever i realize i relate to a character #id prolly say i 'kin' haruka and fuuta but sone characters i dont Vibe as much in a vibe way uh. yeah?#going thru enw and relating to every word meteion said and knowing that it is all about despair and...... yeah #relating to fandaniel and zenos. was such an experience and helped me realize I Have Not Been Okay For A Long Time #and even now. maybe. i still kin characters like them (fanda zenos akechi)#and getting into a media that is admittedly pretty dark (milgram) is so... interesting in various ways #on a lighter note im obsessed w fuutas voice

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doublekanble · 2 days

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Hi. Read your fic WHAT THE FUC- (/POS ITS SO GOOD??) BRUH I WENT INTO IT BEING LIKE "oh I'm just curious as to what this'll be, I'm sure it's just like some short self indulgent thing" THEN GOT STABBED LIKE TWELVE TIMES OVER. INSTANT FOLLOW. OH MY GOD.

its actually IS self indulgent! just in the opposite direction! i want him to kiss me so badly but i also want him to hate me until its all he knows its a bit of trouble really

#im going with this not because i want to. but because i want to survive even if its horrible-#but i will also be complaining the whole way through.#alastor did one wrong thing that he thought would've been ok but turns out that of all thing is the-#invisible line he could never cross so oops he's hated forever and ever now nothing to do about that #/kbtalk #TYSM WAHHH WORDS LIKE THIS ARE THE REASON I WRITE SO MUCH #MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!! TY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #and since whenever someone send me an ask like this i just start diving into my thoughts on al and shit-#i have great trouble processing my own worth and the fact other people think of me still makes me go ??#also a general sense of #like very obviously morally corrupt protag but not to the point of murder on their own accord #my favorite thing ever is also #thats why al never get his happy ending fully its always him biting #im very firm on my take of al already its just dif flavor of him #if i want to kiss him i wouldve just kiss him but what about the fun part where he agonized over the idea of loving something so much-#he can die for it but also refusing to lay his ego down for it #to love is to be vulnerable and frail and weak and to accept the unknowing. alastor hates all of the above. in this essay i will-

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