#now- 19

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[girlstressed]

well i may not be the prettiest person in the room or the coolest person in the room i think im at least the third funniest

#scheduling this for a month from now im at a party rn and I’m feeling silly (Dec 19) #text #ok to rb #^

[curioscurio]

I'm rewatching Steven Universe and I will never forgive Fandom for what it did to her

#also watching it at age 19-20 as it was released and experiencing the resulting clusterfuck online fandom response was a wild trip #im finally rewatching it again at 25 and really really feel lucky to have seen it at the age i did #i have completely different perspective on it now that i have 3 young nephews and a neice where before i was in college #the music is still as incredible as it was back then #and the animation #i cant beleive people got honestly and truly upset and violently aggressive about characters being off model sometimes #early stevens voice though kills me after awhile...... the yelling .... but his characters growth and development also being reflected in #his voice changing as he grows up #they also go crazy hard on some scenes #who am i kidding the show was a masterpiece and ahead of its time

[whetstonefires]

The thing is that the most interesting and novel invention of the MCU is a universe where billions of people turned into dust and then were physically reconstituted on the spot five years later, in a world that had just barely adapted to their absence.

That is wild. That is intense! That is a series of pathos-ridden emotionally complex doorstoppers waiting to happen. Half the entire world! All dead! And somehow we coped with that! And now we have to cope with them all being back?

A whole street of empty houses--surely not everyone there became ash. Some of them moved to better places, now opened by the mass mortality. Some of them died afterward. Who will live there now? Even if inheritances are reversed by resurrection, surely leases aren't renewed. What the fuck happens to everyone who remarried?

What happens to the children snapped back to a world where their parents didn't survive, or the reverse?

But they had to then hastily smooth over this utterly batshit sci-fi premise and get the world mostly back to normal working order as rapidly as possible, without too much emphasis on how literally every person in existence has been placed in a mason jar by a narcissist and shaken twice in five years.

So they could get on with more superhero whack-blam business, which is customarily done against a background of Normality.

This is, tragically, the most Comics thing these movies have ever done.

It is beyond satire that they did this immediately before and during a worldwide pandemic that everyone was pressured to smooth over and 'return to normal' about within 2 years if not sooner.

#hoc est meum #mcu #sure they vaguely acknowledge that The Snappening had lasting effects but come on #come on now #the parallels #covid-19 #disney #current events

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Obviously we have to wait for the video to know the story, but for anyone who’s studied any kind of social history/psychology/sociology/etc. And knows a little about the diagnosis of hysteria, Victorian mores, the use of lobotomies/shock therapy/etc to treat women who failed to live up to patriarchal ideals and the minimizing of women’s physical and mental health issues historically in the medical and psychiatric fields plus the old Hollywood of it all… the imagery is Telling The Story. I am fucking SEATED.

#I feel like I’ve been slammed back in time to being 19 in college right now lol #AND I SAID MY DEGREE WOULD NEVER COME IN HANDY LMAO #social psych social history film comms LOOK MA ALL MY CLASSES ARE GIVING ME AN A IN SWIFTIEISM #oh yeah I forgot history of western medicine I did that one too lol #the tortured poets department #fortnight mv

[halorvic]

Futurama S11E07

#sigh. #sars cov 2 #covid 19 #futurama #gotta love how they are once again downplaying the seriousness of the developing h5n1 situation too #definitely not concerning that many mammals in the wild are being infected by birds #and definitely not concerning that cows and chickens are being infected now #and about 3 detected cases in humans (so far) #it's nothing serious anyway - it's not like viruses can keep spreading and mutating if left to spread without appropriate mitigations! #that's never happened before! it's definitely not happening with anything else right now! #''ABC'' right???? #so weird and ''random'' that cases of rsv flu tuberculosis mpox measles are popping up constantly everywhere these days right?? #love this new normal!!! #ppl continue killing and disabling themselves and other ppl and FOR WHAT #FOR FUCKING WHAT

[jeanmoreaue]

the fact that nora made Jean gentle at heart is so special to me. despite everything that’s happened to him and although he’s a bit abrasive, he still cleans the damn dishes and puts away leftovers without being asked i love him so much

#i just finished the whole book and i’m gonna have to reread that shit again #i’ve loved Jean for many years now (catch the username) and i just feel so special about him #and i can’t get over the fact that he’s 19 #which means he was 18 during the events of the foxhole court series #and the parallels between him and neil #WHEN HE SWITCHES OVER FROM CALLING NEIL NATHANIEL #that part made me lose my mind #tsc #tsc spoilers #the sunshine court spoilers #jean moreau #my love and light

[kabukiaku]

dug up a wip I had of the young emeritus brothers + young primo!! I tweaked just a bit. ❤️💚💜

#my art #the band ghost #ghost band #secondo is about 10 and Terzo is 9. #primo is like 19-20 #primo #secondo #terzo #papa emeritus i #papa emeritus ii #papa emeritus iii #young secondo #young primo #young terzo #ghost band fanart #also im chill now guys. still not happy about my class but we dont officially start the unit until next monday #so i can enjoy my weekend

[marzipanandminutiae]

as a woman who grew up with an emotionally abusive mother constantly telling me I needed to wear more makeup/more revealing clothing/date (boys) more/go out to "normal" parties more, I despise "she should be at the club"

god forbid some people- especially young women, who already have to deal with a thousand different behavioral standards from a thousand different directions -not have the same dreams and desires for their lives as you do for yours

fucking hell. the correct response to "women should stay at home and have kids and be submissive wives" prescriptivism was not MORE PRESCRIPTIVISM

(I also just saw a poll asking if people partied as teenagers, and OP responded that the answers were "killing them" because No was winning. like? why is everyone so personally invested in other people having a very specific kind of fun?)

#memes #s t o p telling women what to do #being the partying type does not automatically equal being a Free Independent Woman and vice versa #guess what? I'm a 30-year-old lesbian with no kids (yet) and a career and I have NEVER liked clubbing. #I didn't like it when I was 19 or 21 or 25 and I still don't like it now #(I do love my mother; we have a complicated relationship. but the fact is that she did some things fitting the definition of emotional abus

[inkskinned]

for a second, you did the bad thing and bargained about it.

if it meant that you would never be numb like this again, what would you give up?

maybe it's the childhood stuff or the religious trauma or how your dad doesn't believe in medication, but this is how you are, right. you need to have a counterbalance. suffering has to have its own reward. there needs to be a point to it. and if you're happy - if you could just be happy, and the world could actually fill in enough space that the edges of your spirit actually meet the horizon of your body - you would need to pay for it.

your passions? that one seems fair, but how could you actually be happy without them. well, you'd never be numb again, so maybe you'd be able to find joy in the small things like you used to. gleeful, you'd make coffee and breakfast into an artform. you'd find a way to make it make sense, somehow. you'd move on. it'd be different, but it would be doable.

your lover? your friends? this would be hard. you owe so much to your community. still, you could maybe make yourself a small home in the woods. you could live a quiet life, one devoid of friendship - but also without this horrible grey mist. a life like bigfoot, then. you'd figure out how to make the most of it.

your hair. your teeth. all of it.

sometimes you are jealous of mental illness as it appears in media: a big stroke of a meltdown, a firestorm that resolves prettily in therapy. it is flashing lights and thin teenagers. you've absolutely had breakdowns that stole the show - but life after resolved into a pixel art of things you managed to piece together afterwards, not a tapestry of a heart made suddenly-beautiful. that people could pick up blades as if they weigh nothing, that the way it all appears is as a cry for help, not a slow backsliding.

you have to stop the thought: i'd give up everything.

but also - be real. you'd never give up your dog. nor your best friend. nor the way you feel walking while through deep fog. you'd never give up the last bonfire of summer, the reckless laughter of halloween. so you do still love things.

maybe that's the problem: you know it should be easier. you have everything you could possibly want. so how come you are still trapped? still yearning?

#writeblr #warm up #dlkfjsldkjf #ive been dealin w/some pretty bad [ mental illness ] for about a year now. like the kind i got at 19 #and ..................... i have everything i want. #i wish it was easier for both of us #it is easier in a lot of ways. i am glad i stayed. but ya lol i am so tired in the Very Bad No Good way

[sentientsky]

The Quite Nice and Fairly Accurate Good Omens Script Book Depiction of Gay Yearning by Neil Gaiman

#he's just like me fr #like if my ex-bsf had turned to 19 year old me like “go fight satan or i'm never speaking to u again” #u can bet your ass i would've gone “yes ma'am” and hauled myself up off the ground and towards certain death #eugh 19 year old me was a mess #like the physical embodiment of phoebe's bridge in moon song (you know the one. the dog one. the “oh and now im crying” lyric. yeah.) #crowley #aziraphale #david tennant #gomens 2 #michael sheen #aziracrow #go2 #good omens 2 #gomens #good omens script book #good omens #queer #gay yearning #gay longing #good omens shitpost #shitpost

[doctorsiren]

Part 10

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#doctorsiren #ace attorney #ace attorney au #gregory edgeworth #miles edgeworth #metis cykes #ace attorney fanart #astro boy edgeworth au #comic #digital art #my art #procreate #guys…I made 100 comic pages in 19 days 😳 #oopsie #dw the reasoning for Gregory snapping at Metis does exist #it will be elaborated on lmao #for the first full colour hug of Gregory and Metis #I referenced the picture of Lana and Ema hugging #METIS SAYING THE THING ABOUT GREGORY SMELLING LIKE COFFEE LIKE HER DAD DID #IS REFERENCING MY DEFENSEWORTH AU WHERE MILES THINKS OF DIEGO SMELLING LIKE COFFEE LIKE HIS DAD DID #😭😭😭😭 #also their lighting switched (now Metis is the backlit one whereas Gregory used to be in earlier parts)

[motianz]

Why is He Tian here?

Because he wanted to see you so much

#he'll come back goys I swear #it will only take several years #and an insane heartbreak for mo guan shan #who finally found someone who would bear the weight of his life alongside him #and who was scared to open up to someone just to be abandoned #and will now spend several years not knowing where that person is #while he tian who spent his entire life lonely and scared to not be able to save the people around him #will have to leave behind the one person who saw all his darkness and still loved him #its fine #just a few years guys #we know HT will fight to come back every second of it #19 days #tianshan #mo guan shan #he tian

[systemrestart]

For those unaware, the deadline to order 4 free Covid-19 tests in the US is March 8th. So if you haven't already claimed your free tests, do it now!!

#covid-19 #covid #covid tests #just learned that theyre ending the program so i wanted to let others know #and this is the second round of free tests so if you ordered some back in 2022 you can order a second set now #as long as you put in the order before the 8th

[eevech]

Yes, he will be

#will he be sad if I leave #Mo missed him a lot #My babies are happy now #19 days #he tian #tianshan #mo guan shan #old xian #jian yi #zhan zheng xi #zhanyi #19 days update #she li #19 days old xian #19days #19天 #he tian x mo guan shan #mo guan shan x he tian #they are in love #i love tianshan

[sea-shanthis]

my birthday cake of my favorite splatoon image. unfortunately it cost one hundred dollars because safeway does not say that different types of cake cost more or less on the custom cake form and i accidentally made it twice as big as i should have. so many people were looking at me funny in the safeway so it was both hilarious and embarrassing i think. i hope yall enjoy this stupid joke

#i am 19 now! #splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #agent 8 #agent 3 #agent 24 #marina ida #pearl houzuki #pearl splatoon #marina splatoon #octo expansion #cake #xxxtentacion #splatoon meme