#okay no its not but it is to me because i HAVE to have symbolism in everything

[purgemarchlockdown]

Ah what the heck I'll post it through here

So in some discord servers, you've seen me specualte that Amane's uniform is inspired by the private Catholic Fukuoka Kaisei girl's school affiliated primary school (福岡海星女子学院附属小学校)

Now, because of the name, I assumed this was an all girls primary school And that the picture above was of 4 girls and the school simply allowed children to wear either skirts or shorts (its uncommon for Japanese elementary schools to have uniform to begin with so I could see a laxer dress code when it comes to stuff like this)

However After a bit more reading of their website Turns out that the Fukuoka Kaisei girl's school affiliated primary school Despite the name Has in fact been a co-ed/mixed gender primary school for the last 50-so years And while I can't find a dress code on their website It does seem like all the students in pictures on their site who wear shorts are boys

Anyway to cut a long story short: Amane's uniform actually resembles the boys one more than the girls (shorts instead of skirt + no ribbon + more central buttons)

And I know you like the trans girl Amane theory so I figured you'd enjoy this info

The only disclaimer I have to give is that the long haired child whose father tattles on Amane is in the same uniform (shorts and all)

So like if this is a girl then occam's razor is that girls at Amane's school just wear shorts (also it'd be strange for Amane's cult to follow gender rolls Except for hair?? idk maybe im overthinking)

TRANS AMANE BELIEVERS WE MIGHT STAY WINNING!!!! It would be weird if they did follow the entire dress code Except for the hair. Additionally those buttons are tripping me up since their Buttoned like the girls so this actually comes somewhere more in the middle of the Both of them...if it does turn out my insane "Amane perceives gender in the same way a cat does, it's just there" catthing Amane idea is real I'm going to explode.

Regarding the girl though...I can't believe I can unveil my insane Queer Infighting Amane idea- okay so in cults it's generally heavily encouraged to outright spy and tattle on people who misbehave:

(BITE)

Information Control: Encourage spying on other members a. Impose a buddy system to monitor and control member b. Report deviant thoughts, feelings and actions to leadership c. Ensure that individual behavior is monitored by group

I think, and this is pure speculation there's is very little supporting this I just like the idea. It be fun if they were BOTH trans.

My reasoning behind this is, first of all Amane doesn't seem to have many friends. Her T2 distorted voiceline has her say:

Father is a very praiseworthy person. Once his virtue increases, he'll come back home, right? It's a little lonely, but I'm fine!

Which, okay it's fair that her homelife is lonely, this doesn't necessarily inform her school life. But if we go to the Prison she's rather isolated overall.

Even in T1. Yuno and Mahiru are people she considers "close" but that's after mulling it over a bit due to being asked.

T1Q10: Is there any prisoner you're close with? A: If I were to say, I guess it would be Yuno and Mahiru.

It's not for a lack of Trying, she tries very hard actually. It's just that people tend to note the way she acts is weird and that gets exasperated in T2 where it's said she's pretty isolated.

But also, I was discussing with a mutual about her relation with this peer and they said that it's possible that this question:

T2Q11: Did you love the person you killed? A: I loved them.

Is referring to a Second Victim (This child) and Not her mother because...well one Amane has shown Very Little Fondness for her mother, and two it's entirely possible she killed multiple people because her staff in Purge March has blood on it Before she gets to her house.

Second thing: Cat Symbolism, Cat Symbolism stay winning forever. There is substantial amount of subtext you can wring out of the Cat being representative of sin and impurity, and Amane taking care of it and also being the Cat. Same with having her be "found out" by a peer and then sold out to, to her Religious Fundamentalist parents.

So now we go into my insane, circumstantial evidence, idea of Queer Infighting. I love WKTD and a big thing in that game is that even if your a "bad kid" if there's someone "worse" than you, you can live another day. And this kid can be anyone, the devil can be Anyone.

Amane has stated an inability to be a good girl:

Only if, only if, only if I could be a good girl

And a lack of desire to exactly "be one" since it requires her not being...herself, and she's happy with who she is.

T2Q20: How do you feel about you not being like everyone else? A: Nevertheless I was born as myself, so I'm happy

So, I'm just saying on a purely speculatory "this would be fun" basis. If we got queer infighting 12 year olds who are trying their best to be "good." I would explode.

Also, she is paralleled with both Mukuhara Kazui and known Genderless Freak Es so, yknow.

#asks #other analysis #doctorbunny #sorry if this is all over the place I have a lot of disconnected thoughts on this

[echoes-in-the-multiverse]

DID and The Grand Unified Theory

Personal Post. Mentions of Fusion and Splitting.

Written by Oliver.

As the host of a system of quantum, particle, and nuclear physicists, I have found comfort in relating our disorder's elements to physics concepts. These concepts help them feel less scary and more manageable to accept. Today, I will discuss the Grand Unified Theory and how it has helped me interpret, understand, and come to terms with the ideas of Splitting and Fusion in our system. However, this is not an educational post on splitting and fusion in (Dissociative Identity Disorder) DID systems. Those will be separate posts. This post is my symbolic interpretation of these concepts in a simplified way to aid in acceptance. I want to share what we have done, as it may help other systems do the same with topics they are interested in and help them come to terms with their disorder. 

So, what is the Grand Unified Theory?

Simply put, it attempts to combine three of the four fundamental forces in the universe into one singular force at the start of the universe. 

These forces are the Electromagnetic force, which acts between charged particles (such as two protons with a positive charge), the strong nuclear force, which holds the nucleus of an atom together, and the weak nuclear force, which is responsible for types of radioactive decay. The fourth fundamental force is Gravity, which acts between any two objects with mass regardless of distance. The ultimate goal of the theory is to combine all the forces into one singular force at the start of the universe, and then model when each force splits off into its separate fundamental force. This would combine classical physics (gravity) with quantum physics. 

How do I use this theory to bring comfort to myself? 

The idea of unity:

Even though these forces are now very distinct and have grown more distinct as time went on, they all have an underlying unified and linked identity. In the same way, dissociative identities in DID are distinct but not completely separate personalities; they are fractions of one whole. So, even when things are tough or unmanageable, or when people do not get along (similar to how gravity does not fit into the theory right now), there is something that will hold us together ultimately, and there is a chance of unification. 

Splitting over time:

In the theory, if gravity can be combined into it, it is believed that gravity split from the electronuclear force at the end of the Plank era. This is so early in the universe that not even subatomic particles existed yet. The Electronuclear force split into the electroweak force and strong nuclear force, and then split again into the electromagnetic force and the weak nuclear force. This initial split at the beginning of the universe could represent the initial split the brain must undergo during early childhood to develop DID. However, the theory also represents how those splits may change or not change. An alter may not split again after their initial split; they would be, like gravity, and remain the same but develop more distinctly over time. Or, they may split again, just like the electronuclear force did. These splits can occur later in life if trauma is experienced again. 

Fusion:

This theory brings both the comfort that fusion can work and that it is also okay if it does not. The theory is not perfect and cannot combine all four forces; similarly, a system, may not be able to fully fuse, perhaps only fuse into two or three final forms,  because of trauma, or may not have the skills to do so yet, and that is okay. If the theory is wrong, we will find another way to explain the universe, just like if fusion is not possible, we will find a way to progress through life. Some may also strive to reach the stage where they can form a final fusion, but this does not have to happen right away and can take a long period in therapy. 

Energy conversions and fusion:

Fusion can be a scary concept because it will change the alter and the way the system will function later on. As dissociative identities fuse, it begins to restore the unity of the psyche, it coalesces experiences, memories, and feelings. This mirrors the principle of energy in physics, where it states that energy cannot be created or destroyed but transferred from one state to another. This means that even though that alter appears to be gone they will forever exist even though it is in a new form. Their experiences, memories, and work they have contributed to survival will always remain within the individual unity.

Written by Oliver.

Personal Post. Mentions of Fusion and Splitting.

#did system #actually did #actually dissociative #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually system #dissociation #traumagenic did #did osdd #did alter #osddid #traumagenic system #system stuff #plural system #endos dni #ossdid #osdd #anti endo #did #disability #pdid #didosdd #osdd did #quantum mechanics #quantum physics #physics

[strangewiggles]

You were spilling all my will out I was bleeding my last brains It's nothing like the nothingness That normally numbs one's pain

Goodbye, oh goodbye

some closeups for you

#almost forgot to put tags #pathologic #pathologic 2 #my art #pathologic albino #albino pathologic #ill keep my ramblings IN THE TAGS this time . #oomf finished patho2 and we had a long conversation about how the albinos feel like. wasted potential for what they SEEM to symbolize #in the nocturnal ending anyway #this art is of the diurnal ending if that isnt. clear #because TO ME #what they symbolize is. a dying culture. and that seems. like its true? and not just “oh this is how i felt about them” #but some people are bigger pathoheads than me so idk #but they had been presented as fictional or a part of artemy's mind #as theyre first shown in the tumbler human #then the dream #but yknow when things get so unbelievably desperate they have to get out of hiding #and come out of hiding i mean literally cuz i like to think they went into hiding deep in the abattoir #sorry if i am just explaining stuff that is very blatantly in the game . ive been thinking about this for the last few days #let me feel smart okay #“give the albinos a voice” is very on the nose #IN A GOOD WAY!!!!! [SPONGEBOB ROCK FALL IMAGE] #in a WONDERFUL way actually. when i think about the kin too much i start crying #HENCE #THIS DRAWING #i wanna draw some herb brides soon. maybe nara

[arom-antix]

@shh-im-writing-queer said Yuuri would listen to This Is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco and then I blacked out

#i just #i read that heard the song and i just #i NEEDED to make this #for no reason #i rushed it and you can tell but i sure as hell enjoyed #yuuri would so have done an exhibition to this at some point #AND NO I DIDNT FORGET THE RING THIS IS BEFORE VIKTOR AND YES IT HURTS ME TOO #i just thought it fit well for something hed have done before #i might add the ring at some point just for the sake of my sanity #not me spending like 2.5 hours on this instead of doing the drawings i actually have to do #also yes ive committed a sin of design #okay no its not but it is to me because i HAVE to have symbolism in everything #and theres no symbolism in this #i know ive betrayed my brand im sorry #but the pattern i used for the jacket is called japanese pattern so like #theres a little #oh and the gay smoke on his leg but i stole that from the album cover and i also stole the jacket from there #but eh #im allowed a little sin as a treat #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri on ice fanart #yoi fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #katsuki yuuri #also i dont know anything about p!atd and have been informed the singer of a bunch of their old songs is a pretty terrible guy #so just a disclaimer: i do not support any of the terrible stuff that brendon urie guy has done

[dynmghts]

i did NOT linger on ch402-405 long enough because as far as i can tell katsuki brought himself back right before all might was brought over by all for one, right? but with the distance, he wouldn't have seen them, nor did he have any sufficient means of closing such a distance THAT fast. so how did he know to go to the ledge and observe below?

either those on the field told him where izuku was, or he heard izuku scream for all might. or BOTH - which is more plausible, because yes, he can trust izuku will win, but with all might in danger and dragged toward ua by all for one, it put everything in jeopardy.

and so what do you mean katsuki bakugou, dynamight, symbol of victory, likely heard izuku's cry for help from below, and charged straight to him - trusted that he would be pointed in the right direction? what do you MEAN he probably heard the desperation in izuku's voice the moment he breathed life again, and his first thoughts were; izuku is in trouble. all might is in trouble.

katsuki didn't even give himself time to live again before he went into another life-or-death fight, because what follows is that he doesn't just save all might from all for one's clutches. he goes to end all for one so he'll never achieve his goal.

because those two people are the largest testament to the man he's become, and he'll defend them with his life - like he did before.

i am unwell.

#💥 ⸍ i. out. #💥 ⸍ ii. headcanon. #bnha spoilers / #bnha manga spoilers / #long post / #/ ok big ramble in tags #/ like. do you think i.zuku believed that everything will be okay the moment he saw k.atsuki standing on the edge of ua? #/ do you think that he saw his symbol of victory freshly arisen like a phoenix from ashes and felt at ease knowing he'd win? #/ because i can guarantee that k.atsuki - if he heard i.zuku as soon as he was alive - knew EXACTLY what he had to do. #/ he was always going to throw himself down to i.zuku and take his hand and trust that he was going to be where he had to be. #/ he was always going to believe that i.zuku could win his fight without him. and that meant he could save their mentor from death. #/ the fact that k.atsuki brought HIMSELF back which means he nearly bound himself to the afterlife but didn't ............. #/ he was satisfied with his death and yet he knew there was more he had to do - not necessarily for himself but for others #/ i mentioned this to bella yesterday but it was like taking the fruit of the underworld and holding it in his hands. ready to eat. #/ but then something stops him from sinking his teeth into its flesh. something that tells him he still needs to return. #/ like he KNEW that there was more he had to do in life first. that his sacrifice was - somehow - not the end for him yet. #/ and they may not have fought side by side in the war n they might not have interacted much since it began. but their trust? #/ tho everything's gone wrong they trust each other to make it right #/ one of these days y'all will be sick of me preaching abt their bond #/ but today pls let me have this i can think of nothing else

[incidentalblr]

listen valvert is a better exploration of les mis’s themes than enjoltaire could ever be

#swinging at the hornet’s nest here but it’s true #redemption and forgiveness??? #mercy vs justice??? #like valjean and javert are literal embodiments of the work’s central questions #so in asking how these two people could come to love each other you must needs confront these questions head on #with the same grace as the original narrative #enjoltaire just have some dense political metaphors packed into their relationship and characterization #but they’re often taken out of the original context because in the 21st century their intensely specific symbolism just isn’t as relevant #les miserables is a transcendent work and valvert are transcendent #maybe im just pissed off because like 90% of the fandom attention goes to the amis when valvert is. right there??? #and i used to be one of y’all but #anyways 🥰 #and like i get it fighting for a new dawn is compelling or whatever sure #but self sacrifice i think is given more credit than it deserves when the real profundity to me is the human drive to live #like okay #giving yourself up for something greater than yourself??? #whatever #played out as all hell #choosing life in spite of all its hardships #choosing life as the only way you can experience love or growth? #self sacrifice is too glorified #show me learning the value of the self and then we can talk

[steddie-there]

Just another bit of my Steddie wip Holding Out for a Hero (ETA: new name - I'd Fall For You Twice). It rapidly got away from me, as this particular story has been wont to do 😅 (over 18,000 words and counting!)

Eddie’s curled up on the couch in the living room, afternoon sunlight slanting warm across his shoulders and onto the notebook on his lap. He’s sketching a new tattoo design, a baseball bat studded with nails surrounded by winding vines and a fucked up monster bat. Steve’s quiet steps shuffle into the room and Eddie raises his cheek for a kiss but doesn’t look up from his work. There’s a moment of nothing and Eddie smirks, knowing Steve is rolling his eyes, but then he feels the press of lips against his skin and he sighs happily.

Steve settles next to him on the couch and it’s quiet for a while.

“Hey, Eds, I, uh, I have something for you.” There’s something about the way Steve says it, the uncharacteristic nervousness, that has Eddie tearing his eyes from his notebook and focusing on his boyfriend.

Steve is holding his hand out toward him, fist clasped tightly around something Eddie can’t see. He tilts his head sideways, studying the outstretched hand before he meets Steve’s eyes, questioning.

“Oh, come on, just hold out your hand. It’s not anything weird, I promise,” Steve says, rolling his eyes, any hint of nerves gone now.

Eddie has to bite back a giggle because, out of the two of them, Steve is not the one who drops weird things into people’s hands. No, that would be Eddie. Like two days ago, when he caught and handed Steve a tiny frog while they were walking through the woods behind Loch Nora. Or the leaf with a ladybug crawling across it a few days before that.

So he holds out his hand, palm up, and blinks when something silvery plinks into it. Then blinks again as he stares at the item now resting in his palm. His eyes widen.

It’s a ring. A class ring. Steve’s class ring.

Eddie blinks. Blinks again. The inside of his chest has gone all fluttery and his breath hitches a little and, as usual, the soft squeeze to his heart melts the connection between his brain and his mouth.

“Isn’t it a little early in our relationship for rings, Stevie?”

Steve opens his mouth. Closes it. “I - no, that’s - that’s not what I - I just wanted you to have something of mine! I thought, you know, this might - work. The best. With your - your style,” he babbles, gesturing to Eddie’s multitude of rings.

There’s that squeeze to his heart again. Not just because of the gift and the thought that went into it, but because a flustered Steve is an adorable Steve. And a very teaseable Steve.

“Why, Steve Harrington, are you asking me to go steady?” Eddie asks, mischief in his tone as he bats his eyes playfully up at Steve.

“Eddie!” Steve splutters, blush spreading up his cheeks. “You know what, never mind, I’ll just take it back, clearly this was a bad - “ he reaches for the ring as he speaks, but Eddie clutches it to his chest possessively.

“Nope, this is mine now. No take backs. You’re stuck with me now, whether you like it or not.”

It has the desired effect of making Steve snort a laugh and murmur, “That’s why I gave it to you, ya dork,” as he runs a hand through his hair.

They’re quiet for a moment, Eddie turning the ring this way and that, admiring the way the clear stone set in the middle catches the light, Steve watching and pretending he isn’t still feeling a little self-conscious.

Finally, Eddie glances up at Steve from under his lashes. “Put it on me?” he asks, uncharacteristically shy, as he tentatively holds out the ring.

Steve smiles, the one that lights up his whole face, that makes Eddie feel like he’s looking directly into the sun. He takes the ring and Eddie’s right hand and slips the band onto the middle finger. Then he brings Eddie’s hand to his lips, presses a kiss to the ring, and oh Eddie might actually combust now.

He tugs a lock of hair over his mouth, trying to hide the blush he can feel rising up his neck. But Steve just grins knowingly. With one last, lingering press of his lips to Eddie's hand, he drops it in favor of gently tucking Eddie's riot of curls behind his ears, even the one he's trying to hide behind.

"There you are," he murmurs, eyes locked with Eddie's. He gently cups Eddie's cheeks, runs his thumbs across the skin under his eyes like there’s something precious there, like Eddie is something precious. And all Eddie can do is stare into those honeyed eyes, his lips parted and heartbeat kicking up more than a few notches.

Steve’s grin turns soft and he presses a gentle kiss to Eddie’s lips before leaning their foreheads together. Eddie’s eyes slip closed, needing that illusory barrier to settle his jumping pulse. It still all feels so new, is so new, but that’s not what has his breath catching in his throat. Because, despite the newness and despite the fact that it is still totally incomprehensible that Steve wants Eddie, of all people, he can’t deny how right it feels to sit so close to Steve that their breath is mingling and their hearts are beating in sync.

For just a moment, Eddie can see them in his mind’s eye, sitting exactly like this - but they’re older, gray in their hair, crow’s feet at the corners of their eyes, and laugh lines framing their mouths - and he wants so desperately that he doesn’t even think before he’s pulling back, hands going up to his neck.

Steve frowns, a question forming on his lips, but then Eddie is yanking the chain with his guitar pick over his head and holding it out to Steve. He swallows, takes a breath. “I want you to have something, too. Something of mine.” Something of me, he doesn’t say, but it’s there between them anyway.

And now it’s Steve’s turn to just stare for a moment, for his breath to stutter in his chest. He gingerly takes the pick from Eddie’s fingers, holding it like it’s made of crystal and not just plastic, and slips the chain over his own head. 

“This is the one that you used in -” he starts to ask, voice hushed.

“In the Upside Down, yeah,” Eddie answers, just as softly.

With quiet reverence, Steve runs his fingers along the smooth edge, then just brings the pick up to his lips and holds it there for a moment, his eyes distant.

That squeezing sensation seems to have taken up permanent residence in Eddie’s chest. He can’t take his eyes from Steve and he knows if he opens his mouth now, he’ll say something wrong or crazy or too soon, too fast. Something like I love you or marry me or I wish I could climb inside you and live there forever. But he’s also terrible at stopping himself from doing anything, so he opens his mouth

and laughs.

Immediately, he claps his hands over his mouth because he didn’t mean to do that, it’s precisely the wrong reaction to the most romantic moment he’s ever experienced in his entire life. Even saying “I love you” would have been better than this. Because he’s laughing and Steve is looking up at him with a flash of something in his eyes and his shoulders are shaking and oh dear god, I’ve completely fucked this up, haven’t I? and if he could bury himself in the couch cushions he would, because he cannot handle the hurt he knows he’ll see in every line of Steve’s body, because Steve is… Steve is laughing, too.

Steve is laughing, too?

Eddie stares at the other boy, at his mouth stretched wide around his laughter, his face lit up with relief and mirth and joy and love and sheer astonishment - all the emotions Eddie feels swirling in his own burst of laughter. And then he’s laughing again, too, and they’re leaning into each other, giggles spilling past their lips even as they press them together and cling to each other’s shoulders to stay upright.

They laugh until their stomachs hurt and then keep laughing, quiet giggles escaping every so often as they kiss and hold and breathe each other in. They’re so immersed that they don’t even hear the front door open or Robin’s voice calling to them from the entryway. They don’t notice her step into the room and stop and stare at the manic picture they make. They have absolutely no clue she’s even there until she says, “Hold up, are you two high?”

They look up at her, blinking like deer in the headlights, before Steve catches Eddie’s eye and they dissolve back into gales of laughter.

“You two are so weird,” Robin mutters, dropping her bag on the coffee table and heading for the kitchen. If she has to deal with them the way they are right now, she needs a snack.

#steddie #stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #my fic #holding out for a hero #<- it's about fifty fifty at this point that i won't be keeping that name #this fic is running itself at this point and its not going quite the way i originally envisioned 😅 #but that's okay because the direction it's taking itself is working for me #also i am so terribly soft for my ships exchanging rings or necklaces or some symbol of them belonging together #it's about each of them having a little piece of the other to remind them how loved they are #and it's beautiful #and eddie is definitely the kind of person who reacts in unexpected ways when he's overwhelmed with emotion #thus the laughter #but steve gets it and he loves it about eddie and i really hope that comes through here #ETA: new title is I'd Fall For You Twice #i'd fall for you twice

[canichangemyblogname]

I finally saw the Barbie Movie and it was… really just a movie. Gave me something to do for two hours, but it didn’t feel substantive. Had some good messaging for women who needed to hear the same message the “brainwashed” Barbies needed to hear, even though that concept sounds patronizing now that I’m putting words to it. I have other thoughts, but voicing them feels a little like beating a dead horse. Women far smarter than I have provided incredibly cutting critiques of this movie and its portrayal white feminism, girlboss feminism, and capitalistic feminism.

#really weird that the genocide of indigenous people happened in Barbie Land too. I caught that Barbie Land Mt. Rushmore scene #no one making that movie probably thought of the implications of that #a part of me was wondering if I was Too Trans™️ for parts of this movie to make sense to me #because I have never understood the way we sort things into binaries and the way we gender things #So I was constantly like: '*This* is their masculinity?' There was no teeth in its critique of masculinity. Hell. There was no critique #there wasn't even a real critique of the patriarchy as a system of power or the masculinity it inspires #it was just a vague caricature of men and the idea 'Men don't understand us. They just talk at us rather than to us; mansplain and stuff... #...but they desire us and want our affection and attention so we can weaponize that to our advantage for our power.' #Umm...no you can't. They don't actually like you; they see you as a status symbol. You can't use a feature of the patriarchy to take it dow #whatever... #oh. also: #Me: ‘Oh my god. Look at all the fanny packs.’ #my mother: ‘Do you see they’re in a Metallica font?’ #‘Yes…’ #‘You know what Metallica’s logo looks like right?’ #‘Yes.’ #‘So you get it?’ #*blinks* ‘…No.’ #‘🙄 So you don’t know what it looks like.’ *proceeds to show me a picture of the Metallica logo* #‘Okay. Yeah. Looks cool? I suppose they chose that font because of that.’ #‘They chose it because it’s masculine.’ #‘Huh? What?’ #‘Have you even heard Metallica before?’ #‘Yup.’ #‘So you know it’s music for men.’ #‘Umm… I don’t know about that. I think any one can like their music. I get it’s a band of white men but anyone can like metal & that genre. #‘🙄 It’s men’s music. That’s the point.’ #‘Is it? Or have the Kens just appropriated anything they think ‘looks cool’ and proclaimed it as something ‘for’ men?’ #(like— I got the impression they were just repeating what they saw and heard #did the creators think Metallica is 'for men' or did they recognize men's tendency to appropriate and gatekeep?)

[the-acid-pear]

Glad I'm aro so I can fucking say some other aros out there are so fucking annoying.

#luly talks #also i hate when they try to have beef with aces because they're derailing the conversation #BROTHER WE ARE NOT ENEMIES WE ARE ONE IN THE SAME DEEP DOWN WE ARE FIGHTING FOR THE SAME THING SO WE CAN SEE NON CONVENTIONAL FORMS OF #LOVE AND RELATIONSHIPS IN MEDIA AND FOR MANY THE EXPERIENCE OVERLAPS TOO STOP ACTING LIKE THE WORLD STARTS AND ENDS WITH YOU #i also hate when aros act like romantic love is the only form of love #this isn't as big of a deal but it is for me like maybe you as someone who doesn't experience romantic love should be aware more than #anyone of how vast the love experience is and how malleable it is #also yesterday i saw something that pissed me off so I'm pointing it out here since i won't be complaining anymore in the future probably #but like. i saw someone being like you shouldn't hc q/ueen as aro just bc she's a robot. and then w 1 post of separation someone was calling #k/ris aro and saying the ripping your heart out thing was symbolism for it #and like. the second op from the k post yeah sure okay if that makes you happy then godspeed brother but. the fact that they were both on #the same blog like. brother c'mon is being heartless an equivalent to being aro or not? #anyway she's definitely aro. and she fucks. but she has to run the horny.exe so until that happens she has 0 attraction #demisexual queen for da win 💪💪💪💯 #i should post that on its own i think it deserves its own post

[ghostlysoupcan]

the way phallo and top surgery is criticized just makes me want it more tbh. like im mutilating myself? im destroying bits of my body? thats almost more gender affirming than the parts themselves. i want somebody to look on at me with disgust. they cant find anything to claim ownership of in a body they find grotesque, and thats beautiful to me, and it tells me right away that they matter less than dog shit.

the complete and utter freedom of having a body that somebody doesnt claim ownership of based on the fact they find it unappealing. im done with the shame or the guilt of being unattractive or lamenting it. i want to celebrate it and romantice it. the way society treats people who dont look a certain way is sad and instead of a world where everyone is 'hot', i want a world where people are deeply attracted to their own bodies and dont need to rely on outsider opinion to feel hot or beautiful or wanted.

maybe its just an aro thing but this body is mine and god is it euphoric to transform into something thats beautiful and cherished to you that you get to enjoy all to yourself. its like getting a hair cut that your parents hate times a million. oh, i have such pretty breasts? wouldnt it be such a shame if they were to come off and leave me so profoundly disgusting and ugly to you. i dont listen to compliments from people who call other peoples euphoria about their own bodies unnatural or wrong.

#trans bodies are and can be hot but whats really special is when youre infatuated with how you look and reclaim it for yourself. #you are not there to cater to other peoples definition of hot and this is something that makes people agonize so much for no reason. #of course if you find you like being hot to people thats completely okay and im glad you feel that way #also this aint to say trans bodies are grotesque either im just saying if they wanna call me ugly or mutilated then do it. #because good god do i want to wake up and see my mutilated chest and mutilated body and be overwhelmed with how beautiful they look #as a symbol of self autonomy and self-making in a society where you truly own nothing. #and honestly normalizing scars and 'ugliness' as something to embrace in the process is nothing but good too #enough 'youre not ugly youre actually hot to me!' more body positivity thats not about what you are or not to strangers. #ive been through enough feeling like my body is owned by others to want to have my level of hot determined by them. #i havent seen near enough body positivity that intersects with human autonomy and its a damn shame.

[brainrotdotorg]

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#sorry to do two of these in a row #but bro i fuckign hate having my brain #do the corny ridiculous shit that it does #im sitting here eating some heated up fries and they arent as good #and my brain deadass went #'wow... so symbolic....' #'they dont have the warmth they once held.... theyre a cold fascimile of how they used to be......' #'you truly can never go back...... it will never be the way it was before.....' #'how apt..... how appropriate.....' #GOD DAMN JUST LET ME ENJOY MY SHITTY POTATOES #THAT ARE GONNA GIVE ME THE FUCKING HICCUPS!!!! OKAY!!!!!! DAMN!!!!! #you can laugh its okay. its stupid #almost started crying because i can never catch a break from. making connections. #how did my brain get wired to be like this to fuckign. treat myself like im a character in a novel #i swear to god. i always used to daydream about my life being like. a show that my guardian angel was watching #i really hope that bitch is writing an essay about these past few weeks ive been having #she has a lot of content #babe. do you see the potato symbolism too #i hope she does it would make me feel less alone #google how do you delete a tumblr post

[tatoasting]

The sexual tension between my BMTH shirt and the country bar I'm in rn

#I'll bow for your king when he shows himself #edit: I did in fact survive and some guy asked me to dance. i declined as I was severely uncomfortable with his cowboy aura #but yeah I'm like. haha this band? the band that I resonated with because we both have trauma about Christianity?? #yea... no.... totally not uh... um... yes hello cowboy men and women.... I was just uh... zipping my jacket up! nothing to see here!! #oh this symbol on my shirt? dont worry about it haha. I'm just hiding it for no reason. yeah. #okay edit over its time to sleep its 5am

[im-still-a-robot]

INSANELY curious about what you mean by "if he dies the band becomes real" what does that mean that sounds so fucking cool

Oh lmao! Its for a backup character!

Our campaign is very much one where the threat of death is looming, so I have the bones of a character in the works in case I need to scramble together another one. I have to keep myself from coming up with too many ideas for him, but Dionysian Nightmare is supposed to be his band :]!

As long as Eddie is alive (which is hopefully the whole campaign o7) the band will just be a fun easter egg. However, if he does die, I will go full Band Development mode. It will be fun and sad. If the extra doesn't get used, I'll still probably recycle him for another campaign or release him from dnd and just have him as a standard OC

As a treat here is the better mockup of the album cover + notes

#dnd #thank you for the ask >:]]]] #i have had the name for the back up character for genuinely years but i haven't used it. its so good. i will not tell you #uhh #oh i guess the blue vein imagery probably doesn't invoke anything to people that are not my dm. #so. hm. how do i explain the undertow. its like the climate crisis and systemic oppression of those in poverty had a kid #its. its like a metaphor for the prison industrial complex. the keep calling it classism but i think its like. more than that #but i don't have the to get into that! #anyway. gosdurec. its blue. its highly addictive. its made from organs! its an easy symbol for the problems with this society! #but yes. theres a lot going on. my dm made a wiki. i will not share it because i don't know how much real life info is on there #but i spend time on there. i don't think he knows how much i love his creation #uhhh. Dionysian Nightmare: its like if an oc was a band. #this post also does not mention my google doc of band/artist names that i made i decided i wanted to talk to one of the npcs about music #i gave it to my dm and told him. do whatever with these. i need them out of my brain. #theres so many. give me 15 min and I could get you so many more. its wonderful i love it #anyways. music. dnd. i hope eddie doesn't die. #actually. okay another tangent. #my dm jokingly threatens us by saying he'll kill our pcs but more often our favorite npcs. there are not many comebacks to this. #Except. i have gotten him attached to eddie. so now i have the perfect reversal of just saying ill just let eddie die #so. as ive said before. job security or something.

[secondbeatsongs]

as a bi person, the bisexual flag brings me infinite joy and always puts a smile on my face, however as a person who has a Passion for Graphic Design, that undersaturated shade of purple infuriates me when it's used digitally

like, on an actual flag - which was its original purpose - it looks great!

those look fine! lovely, even! with the semi-transparent fabric, the way it catches the sunlight, it looks beautiful!

but now look at how it looks digitally

the pink and blue are so vibrant compared to the sad, lonely lavender!

and let's look at this statement from Michael Page, the creator of the bi flag:

(sidenote: he created this flag in 1998, so if his takes on bisexuality is different from yours, it's okay to notice that! a lot has changed since the 90s when it comes to lived experiences and the way we describe them. but, it's also important to respect his thoughts about this and the way he presented them, even if today, we'd probably not say that bi people "blend unnoticeably into both the gay/lesbian and straight communities.")

so in pantone colors, the pink is 226 C, the blue is 286 C, and the purple of the flag is 258 C.

but...here's the deal

Michael talks here about how the key to understanding the symbolism is to know that the purple blends into both the pink and blue. and on a physical flag, I think you can see that!

but digitally, it absolutely does not blend. it clashes badly, and looks oddly separate from the other two colors.

which got me wondering...what purple do you get if you actually blend 226 C and 286 C?

oh! oh, my god.

look at that! look at how nicely it fits between those colors!

look at it next to the original color scheme! look at how much more vibrant the purple is!

and friends. this is just blending through rgb! you get even more purple variations when you use other color spaces!

let's compare all of them:

(top: original, lab. middle: lrgb, lch. bottom: rgb, hsl)

look at all of the different purple options you can get just by combining these two colors!

if you want almost too-vibrant saturation, you can go hsl, if you want something more relaxed that's closer to the original, you can go lab or lrgb. and if you want to split the difference, lch is bright and violet, while rgb is there with its saturated but darker purple.

anyway, I guess I don't really have a point here? this isn't so much an informational post as it is Me Getting Weird About Colors, but I think it is a useful lesson about how colors look very different on screens compared to how they look on objects in real life.

and sometimes, I think it's okay to compensate for that.

out of all of these, this is my favorite bi flag:

it's the one where the colors were blended in lab color space. for me, the lighter, softer purple is close enough to the original bi flag purple, while also feeling like a smoother blend of the blue and pink

but that's just me! and it might not even look the same to you, since every screen is different, because technology is a nightmare!

anyway, thank you for coming with me on this colorful journey! I will now retreat back to inkscape and make pained sounds about inkstitch gradients until something tangible pulls me back into reality

#bi #bisexual #bisexuality #bi flag #bisexual flag #sbs rambles #graphic design is my passion #id in alt text #but #the ids are probably deeply unhelpful for the different variations of flags #in the alt text of the six flags all grouped together #I just put what method the purples were blended with #and then tried to describe them more in the paragraph below #but this is an inherently visual post #so if you're reading it with a screen reader I am sorry :(

[amu-says-hav-says]

I can’t believe I went through all of Season 2 assuming Nina was the stand-in for Crowley when you actually pay attention it’s so CLEAR that she’s Aziraphale. I was tricked by her spiky, sarcastic, cynical outer shell and lulled into a false sense of security by Maggie’s bubbly optimism and wholesome goodness, because on the surface they reflect the ineffable husbands perfectly, in their personalities, their aesthetics, even many of their actions and morals. but not, and this is the real key, when it comes to their “relationship”. but those first impressions really had me damn fooled. 

I missed the blatantness of Nina’s “we’re just friends. actually we’re not friends. we barely know each other.” the same thing Aziraphale said in season 1.  the way he still struggles to quantify their friendship when Nina asks. Nina’s sarcasm when Crowley asks about rain and awnings because it worked for him (we all know it LMAO). hell, that whole convo the girls have in the rain is so AziraCrow (“I know. I’m not your type” “...You have no idea” hits so much harder the second time, help meeeee.) “Lindsay” maybe being symbolic of Heaven and Aziraphale’s toxic relationship with them and their abuse? (the handwritten text messages in red pen make me think of angry notes on paperwork, anyone else?) because Crowley has never actually cared about what Hell thinks of him, just not getting into trouble (or him or Aziraphale getting hurt). Maggie is always chasing Nina. NINA NEVER GOES IN THE RECORD STORE. Just like Crowley always goes to the bookstore, to Aziraphale, Zira NEVER WENT TO THE FLAT (apart from The Swap but that doesn’t count imo). Crowley has always chased Zira, not the other way around. Always there to rescue him, always going to him for company, always relying on their shared connection, always US. OUR SIDE. All through season one, he comes to Zira every time to work together, never trying to work alongside Hell in any way that isn’t to save their skins or Earth, while Zira hides things from Crowley because he STILL thinks Heaven is ultimately good and will do the right thing if he can just show them. fix it from the inside. 

Maggie working up the courage to finally say something, to put herself out there, while Nina is utterly oblivious and then when she does realise Maggie has feelings, becoming standoffish, putting up that barrier, fighting it, denying it, ITS SO CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE IN THAT ORDER. the way I was fooled into thinking Nina’s trust issues are Crowley because he does have trust issues ofc he does BUT Crowley has ALWAYS TRUSTED AZIRAPHALE. has always relied on him. has always been hurt when Aziraphale doesn’t immediately reciprocate the way he expects (the holy water request, the bandstand, the “off in the stars” etc). he’s always the one putting himself forward. Aziraphale has always been the one to second guess everything, to fight their connection, their similarities, their friendship. the girls really made me think it was going to be okay when they sat Crowley down, even as my inner sirens were going haywire about Metatron interfering, they were telling Crowley he just needs to open up and it’ll all work out BUT HE’S ALREADY AT THAT POINT. he may not say it, and by gosh is that part of their damn problem, but he’s always SHOWN IT. he’s not Nina who needs time to heal and recover from her broken trust, he’s always been Maggie believing it doesn’t matter, they’ll end up together in the end anyway AND I WALKED RIGHT INTO THE TRAP THAT THIS MEANT THEY WERE GOING TO BE OKAYYYYYYYYYYY

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #GO2 #GO2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #not me going to my basically unused sideblog that isn't GO related because I NEED TO YELL THIS SOMEWHERE #I mean outside of the relationship thing there are so many ways #that Nina and Crowley line up and Zira and Maggie #but the girls story isn't about them as people #it's about this relationship the boys are tryna push on them and what that relationship reflects about the boys #anyway I'm on my first rewatch for all the clue I missed #so I imagine I'll only spot more clues to berate myself about as I go #HOW DID I FALL FOR ITTTTTT #I can't believe I was so blind #OFC the Disaster Puppy Lesbian was Crowley #and OFC the Emotionally Abused Tortoise was Aziraphale

[j4gm]

SPOILERS!!! REFERENCES AND EASTER EGGS IN F&C ep. 1: FIONNA CAMPBELL

Here's a bunch of stuff I spotted. Feel free to add more.

During the anime girl hero dream Fionna mentions Hans Brinker, a character from a novel which introduced speed skating to the United States.

The BMO style alarm clock has BMO's voice.

The ducks that steal Marshall Lee's money look like one-headed versions of the two-headed duck from the original Adventure Time title sequence.

Cheers is a real sitcom. Simon previously sang its theme song in the episode Simon & Marcy, and now it seems to have manifested in the human AU due to his connection with it.

Fionna says "stop acting crazy" to Cake with the same meter as Marceline said "stop acting crazy" to Ice King in the episode I Remember You.

We all spotted this in the trailer but there's a Magic Man hat in this shot. Magic Man's hat was most recently seen being worn by Betty.

The Betty statue also suggests that Simon's psyche has significant influence over this world. The fountain includes frogs, a symbol of change that was previously also used in Temple of Mars. And Fionna mentions the statue underwent renovation twelve years ago, which is the same amount of time that's passed in the prime universe since Betty's amalgamation with GOLB.

It would seem Mrs. Abadeer runs a vacuum cleaner company as well as being Fionna's landlady. And Queenie runs an accounting business as well as the tour bus.

The stickers on Marshall Lee's guitar case are all references to real life punk rock bands. X-Ray Pex = X-Ray Spex, Daikini Kill = Bikini Kill, PM might be a reference to AM as in the Arctic Monkeys. I'm not sure what Las Crudas and Dark Eyes are references to. Perhaps someone more familiar with punk rock can let me know?

In case you were wondering, the credits confirm that this is human genderswapped Fern. It's a bit more obvious now that we can see all her green clothes and backpack, and given what she said about her dreams being super messed up. I'm not gonna go through the rest of the cameo characters in this episode because most of them are pretty obvious or already got figured out when the trailer dropped. That said, if anyone knows who the bus driver is meant to be please let me know.

The sword in the window of this games shop looks very similar to Fionna's sword from the original comic series.

The latte that Gumball - ahem I mean Gary - makes in this scene features PB's swan.

Okay one more cameo mention because I feel like it might become significant later. This is Ice Queen.

Fionna and Cake are dreaming about their apartment block in the credits of this episode, but it has a roof like the Tree Fort and the same little boat with a telescope and parasol.

Episode 2 to follow!

#adventure time #fionna and cake #easter egg posts