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daddyswitchyvixen · 2 years

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I feel like online shopping would make my sky a little bluer and my sun a little brighter 😅

#just neurodivergent things #online shopping #bored #a little sad #reality sucks sometimes #*sigh*

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justagayiguess · 2 years

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I just wanna float. Somewhere. Anywhere. Away from here

#reality sucks sometimes

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softerhaze · 9 months

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idk if it was the venus retrograde or what, but july 2023 was quite literally the worst month i've ever experienced in my life like.....every single day? awful? worse than the last? it's more likely than u think

#u know sometimes you'll experience something bad in the moment and look back later like lol that was fine actually!#not july :) she was actually really bad :)#tmi but if u wanna know why i was gone lol #my partner of 6 years cheated on me in early may. on her birthday. at her party that i planned. with her coworker. and i saw it #on top of just being like. completely devastated? i was just so embarrassed? i hardly told anyone because it made me feel like #just SO worthless. and then i was embarrassed about feeling worthless and it was a whole thing #anyway they started dating in july and it was really tough for me #it was like every day i'd wake up and have to like grieve? and come to terms with reality? and accept that a lot of my future plans #were no longer going to happen - at least with her :/ it's a really tough thing to grapple with #esp since it felt like she wasn't nearly as sad as i was - which unfortunately makes sense but still sucks #ANYWAY im doing a lot better now lol i started telling people in my life and letting them be there for me and it's helped so much #it's still hard sometimes but i know now that i'm gonna be fine eventually #this is so dumb to post on my sims blog but it feels good to get it off my chest so SUE ME I GUESS

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the-yearning-astronaut · 4 months

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I wish I could be agender the way Murderbot is agender. Right down to the lack of biological sexual characteristics. So agender that the term agender comes with too much associated gender to accurately apply. You know what I mean?

#help the dysphoria is kicking my ass again today and everything about me looks and feels wrong #demigirl still feels like it is applicable but also i wish i was more masculine but NOT in that way only THIS way #am i uncomfortable with my curves because of internalized fatphobia? because of the association with being feminine? both?#is it my actual curves themselves or is it the very reality of having a physical body that will be gendered some way no matter what i do?#i hate it I hate all of it #Murderbot #agender #gender #gender dysphoria #body dysphoria #dysphoria #fox thoughts #'maybe if i dress more masculine that will help'#nope no thats still leaning into gender #how do i do both at once so that they cancel each other out?#i don't want to be masculine but i don't want to be female lite™ either #I don't want to be perceived as having any gender at all and its not fucking possible #fuck i don't even want to deal with pronouns 80% of the time and i don't care for my name either #why does physically existing suck so bad sometimes #☉

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theparadoxart · 7 months

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I wish a man's value wasnt decided just by his assets, his money and how much he can provide.

#and if u think im wrong #then sorry to break it to you but its the reality #honestly ive accepted it now #but it still sucks #theres so much more to being a man and sometimes its sad nobody sees that #i wonder if my father felt the same #the expectations this constant pressure of being-#forget it #rant ig

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jukeboxhound · 1 day

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I'm serving as a mediator for some folks and, since I have to be mindful of what I say and do to any of the involved parties and because it has been a long fucking day,

THIS IS SO STUPID. EVERYONE IS SO STUPID. IT'S A GODDAMN BASIC MISCOMMUNICATION AND EVERYONE IS IN THEIR FEELINGS AND MAKING WILD ACCUSATIONS AND IT'S ALL SO STUPID. I HATE EVERYONE INVOLVED.

IF ANYONE USES A POP PSYCH BUZZWORD AGAIN I'M GONNA THROW A TABLE AT THEIR FACE.

I WILL NEVER ACT AS A MEDIATOR AGAIN. I WILL BE THAT HAG IN THE WOODS WHO SHOUTS AT PEOPLE TO EITHER GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER OR GET THE FUCK OFF MY MOUNTAINSIDE.

"hey what do you do for fun" I FIND PLACES AS FAR FROM OTHER LIVING HUMANS AS POSSIBLE AND PRETEND THAT MY SKIN IS BEING SLOWLY REPLACED WITH MOSS

#kudos to professional mediators because i might technically be trained for this but fuck me this job sucks #i'm an advocate! by definition i take sides and help someone fight their fight and sometimes provide fucking reality checks!#tomorrow is another long day. early morning in court and then a late night at a county forum on restorative justice. fuck me twice.#hound barks

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eddie-rifff · 3 months

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anywya. had a hallucination the other night where i heard someone whispering to my right and when i looked over there was a small crumbling tower on my nightstand. i screamed because it startled me/i was confused by it and the whispering and it went away.

#i sometimes hallucinate when i am waking up now . it sucks #like im almost 100% awake so i can see everything in my room and know im not dreaming #but my brain is still booting up #so it overlaps dreams with reality #at least thats what i understand of it #theres a word for it uh #hypnopompic hallucinations #yeah if anyone else has this lmk so we can commiserate #a beast that can talk

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sweet-lil-subby · 1 year

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You know what I love about the last of us? Every sci-fi, fantasy, Zombie, apocalypse, whatever movie EVER has the military 110% ready to attack and ignoring the scientists. But the last of us?

A big tough military man who is begging for an answer, who wants science to save their ass, who asks for help. And a little old granny whose solution is "Bomb. Bomb everything."

It's fucking refreshing

#the last of us #the last of us tv #the last of us game #bella ramsey #ellie and joel #ellie williams #pedro pascal #joel miller #science does not have all the answers #sometimes reality sucks #did the military do something useful?

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vamptastic · 2 years

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it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks)#it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size.#so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

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confier-boyfriend · 4 months

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Sometimes I get the feeling I have negative gender

#somehow I am less than no gender #you look at people and are like ‘wow they have such gender’#like gender is specific to them and how they appear and how they act #every bodies got their own gender #but sometimes my gender goes into the negatives like ‘wow this guy is sucking the gender out of the air. get him out of here’#and I don’t know if I love it or hate it #but maybe that’s just my own perception of self #I know I have a friend who looks at me and goes ‘he has such punk masc gender’#I know there are people who see me and go ‘damn they have such gender’#but I’ve never said it about myself #maybe it’s because I’m living as myself and therefore my perception is different #I am always me and view myself with every single bit of information out there about me #I know me inside and out #so maybe it’s not that I (or you) don’t have gender #but that I (or you) don’t perceive yourself as having gender. when in reality you’re very gender #to someone else you are the most gender person ever #and there’s always a possibility you’re what someone else wants to emulate #idk speculating

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parsleymusic · 6 months

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the urge to respond to critique about portrayal of unpolitically correct attitudes or phrases or actions or whatever in regards to mental illness with "what if I told you that it's not my job to tell my readers that when my character says stuff like 'my binge eating disorder is not as bad as my brother's bipolar + PTSD combination; he has to win at something' that it's Bad and the Wrong Attitude to have when it's largely a tongue in cheek joke about living with mental illness and watching the people you love experience a different flavor that is also worse

#one of my characters tells another character that her grandmother committed suicide #and the critiquer said that I should have said died by suicide #because that is now the “correct” way to talk about suicide #and... I know that #I work in the psychology field #and i'm aware of how speech impacts perception #however #my character does not care about this distinction #and honestly neither do I #it doesn't matter to me whether or not you say “committed suicide” or “died by suicide”#and I have had someone close to me kill themselves #it fucking sucks but no amount of “died by suicide” takes away the reality of the action being performed by the person dying #imo it's a cheap trick that purports to discern the complexities of suicide in that people who do it aren't fully to blame for it #but it doesn't! that conversation needs to happen in full without shying away from the reality that the person did choose to die!#I just... I don't know #i want to portray life as it is not as we wish it to be and I'm not writing a message book about mental illness #also this critiquer comes from the YA space and this book is adult and I fear that the gearing towards YA generally meaning a more actively #condemning attitude towards “problematic” attitudes regarding characters that doesn't have to be present in adult fiction #dealing with someone else's mental illness for years and years is taxing and takes a toll on you and that's problematic sometimes #but you know what! everything is!#/this person had a lot of good things to say but there is something so blah about this in particular #“say die by suicide”#no #anyway

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aisdoodling · 11 months

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Day 8, the fabulous Peter 3 Fab.

(Shhhh I haven't been gone for 2 weeks I have no idea what you're talking about)

#In reality i am so sorry i did not mean to be gone that long #real life sucks sometimes and i'll leave it at that #mission to zyxx #zyxxaday #my art #Peter 3

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phoenixcatch7 · 2 years

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Been reading svsss fanfic and fan content for nearly two years now and I gotta say I am appalled by the lack of diety bros!sqq and sqh.

Like, we don't have nearly enough creator deity sqh anyway (the feral ones are e x q u i s i t e) but I haven't seen any where sqq is on the same level!

Consider: at one point in the past sy, in full hater inglory, starting (accidentally or otherwise) a full scale fan war over pidw. Trolls rampaging through comment sections, toxic ship wars spilling into social media sites and trending for days, streams of hate mail, attempts at doxxing poor sqh even. It culminates in the crashing of the entire site he posts on, obliterating the chapter he was working on and the site admins banning his work.

For the days it takes for him to get it put back up with his account unsuspended sqh suffers, and he almost successfully gets peerless cucumbers account terminated for starting it until he realises that pc jumped right back to paying for chapters and extra content like he was doing even in the final days of the war. Like he never did anything. Yeah, like he'll be forgetting that username any time soon.

Skip to the final chapter, and the fan war has calmed down, and actually benefitted sqh in the long run by giving pidw such a huge cultural platform. He posts, sy responds with the most scathing vitriol he's ever commented (having successfully pressed send before his body gave out) with allusions to another fan war surely brewing, and sqh jumps from his chair in fury and terror - he's on complete burnout, he hasn't got anything left to give, he can't afford to go through that again -

Trips, spills, the ramen gets everywhere. Killed by his own sparking computer, he dies before he sees the files corrupt, the entirety of pidw corroding away into terabytes of faulty static.

They both die within minutes of each other, sqh, the creator of pidw -

And sqq, who destroyed it.