#related to a convo we had last night

[jjmaybankswifeyx]

don’t play with me princess

zach justice x fem!reader

warnings • smutty smut smut, zach : daddy, kissing, use of yn, pet names, oral sex, flirting, angst, jealous zach, swearing , 18+

summary: you went on dropouts after being friends for years and him begging you for ages to come the podcast , you finally give in and things kick off.

*zach has his own place in this*

you were messaging zach all last night about the podcast, what time to come etc he was being so sweet telling you he’s gunna be with you the whole time but knowing zach he will probably bully you for it tomorrow on the podcast “i’ll be fine” you mumbled before dozing off to sleep.

you wake up at 11:06 to zach phoning you making sure your awake as you always sleep in, unfortunately you had just woke up and had an hour to get ready and leave as you had to be there for 12:30 and it takes 20 minutes to get there “yea you just woke me up” you say rolling out of bed “good can’t have my star guest not come” he says, you hang up the phone starting to get ready doing a natural look as you didn’t have time nor effort to do a glam look, once you finished your makeup you chose your outfit then left.

you got there about 5 minutes before the pod started saying hi to everyone “omg yn” alyssa shouts across the room running towards you engulfing you in a big hug “alyssa ahh i missed you so much” you say with a massive smile “alright alyssa she’s mine calm down” zach says appearing around the corner with a smug little smirk on his face “oh shut up zach” turning around to face alyssa again and walking into the studio.

“hello welcome or welcome back to dropouts today we have an extra special guest, my girlfriend yn y/l/n” looking at u in shock “oh you wish” looking at the mic “i do i really do, so yn” your quick to answer as your nervous as what hes gunna say “yes zach” already dreading the question “how have you been” relieved with this you start to smile “yea it’s been great honestly i’ve started my own clothing line and makeup and it’s going great!” smiling knowing how far you’ve come “wow that’s great! any boys recently ?” jared says adding to the convo “oh jared you know” you say winking at him before you both start bursting into laughter, you look over at zach and he looks like he’s burning a hole into your brain, he looks mad ? you chime in “no guys i’m jk don’t clip that” you say with a nervous laugh zach still does not look impressed until he spits out “oh yn you wouldn’t even kiss jared on the cheek never mind do the devils tango with him” smirking you reply “oh and how would you know that” he stares at you for a second “okay guys if your not subscribed to the patreon you get a 7 day free trial, you get extra bits from these podcasts also you get them earlier plus extra videos like the drunk episodes when we get me and some other people drunk and try spill some secrets” you just look at him unimpressed as he carries on.

by now your on the subject of sex and relationships jared talking about this girl he is going out with tonight and how he would love to have something with her as theyd been speaking for months “yea jared i think you just gotta go for it, no woman wants a man who takes their time, and they don’t want to beg for it either ” you say giving him a woman’s perspective “oh yn you were begging for it last night” zach says smirking earning an oh and oh shit from jared and alyssa you just completely gobsmacked on what this man just said to you “oh please like i would go to you for that your probably not even as good as you make out zach, actually alyssa can you relate to this a man always says he knows what he’s doing yet he can’t get it in the right hole” jared and alyssa start laughing hesring a very quiet yes from alyssa as zach says “oh trust me i know what i’m doing” you didn’t look impressed “hm ye still don’t believe it sorry zach” he’d had enough at this point he wanted to throw you over his shoulder, take you upstairs and prove it while you were screaming out his name “don’t play with me princess”, jared just gasped and alyssa just started laughing you however just turned over and said “of course i’m gunna mess with you other wise your gunna wind me up so” looking over at him letting your eyes drop for a mere second you saw him readjusting himself seeing a massive bulge in his pants looking up with him smirking at you.

alyssa and jared start having a conversation about something i’m not sure what i was zoned out thinking about what zach said and his bulge until you were pulled out by zach coming closer to you wanting to whisper something “i’m gunna fuck you so hard after this your not gunna be able to even speak and say i didn’t know what u was doing, you understand me gorgeous?” you nod while backing away just smiling jared and alyssa obviously caught on “um guys what you saying over there” knowing you were caught until zach chimes in “oh i was just asking yn about something i heard about her clothing line and it’s true but not able to say sorry. it’s a secret” you sigh knowing zach just saved your ass and his.

after 1 hour of you and zachs glances you started you flirt with jared to get a reaction out of zach, must say he contained himself pretty well until the pod finished you said your goodbyes to jared and alyssa claiming you were gunna hang out with zach for a while as you haven’t seen eachother in months they believed it obviously as it is true you did miss him but you needed him now, as soon as they walked out that door you said “so you gunna prove it to me or what?” walking over to him looking up batting your eye lashes without a word he smashes his lips into yours quietly letting out little moans and gasps as he picks you up taking you to his room he throws you on the bed hovering over you “hm you look so good today” moaning while he’s kissing your neck “you too baby, wanted to have my way with you since i first met you” you moan against his touch not knowing this as you thought you guys were just friends with the occasional flirt “take your clothes off princess wanna see you” he says throwing his shirt some where across the room, after hearing those words you have never done something quicker you were lying there naked while zack still had his jeans on he slowly started kissing down your stomach reaching down to your bare dripping pussy “this wet already baby? hm someone’s needy” saying with a grin before you could answer he dived into your pussy sucking your clit making you scream out in pleasure “hm zach more baby please” he starts to pump his fingers in and out of you sucking and licking your clit, you could hear his tiny little moans and the vibrations coming off, “could jared eat your pretty pussy like this baby?” he says hint of jealousy in his voice you shake your head unable to focus “words princess” he says picking up his pace “no! daddy you do it better than anybody” you say about to come until he stops what he’s doing and looks up at you “what did you just call me?” you now are very embarrassed yet the words come out you couldn’t stop it “d-daddy” he smiles looking at you “fuck princess i cannot do this i need to be in you” you sigh then spreading your legs for him as he unbuckles his belt letting the cold air hit your core “fuck gorgeous such a good girl for daddy” he says slipping into you, he’s massive so much bigger than you thought “fuck daddy your huge” that just gives him a boost and he starts picking up the pace, “oh baby you don’t how long i’ve wanted to do this” he says moaning in your ear “me too daddy needed your cock for so long hmm” screaming without a care who heard you “your mine princess” you moan at the words nesrly making you cum alone “all yours daddy” you say trying to fight for breathe “what princess didn’t quite hear you?” ramming into harder and deeper “i’m yours daddy all yours!!” shouting even louder before he utters “good girl” as his thrusts get sloppy “where do you want me beautiful” without even thinking you say “in me daddy i’m on the pill” he does a couple more thrusts before you both are cumming the hardest you ever have, nobody has ever made you feel this way and you loved it, he pulls out of you now all cocky “that prove it to you huh” saying all confident “wasn’t even that good” you say smirking “hm i wish i could believe that but your moans and words say different gorgeous” he says before getting something to clean you both up.

as you were laying there he says “i meant it you know” you look up at him confused “your mine now, not letting you go” you just kiss him as you fall asleep tangled up together.

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hope you guys like this, i am currently on the ganja writing this so i apologise if there’s any mistakes or anything❤️❤️

#zach justice #zach justice smut #zach justice x reader #zach justice and tara yummy #zach justice podcast #dropouts podcast #jared bailey #alyssa ali bert i #smut #youtube #podcast #jealous #drew starkey smut #colby brock smut #jake webber smut #jj maybank x reader

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AiTA for not wanting my friends at my booth anymore?

I (29 F) have been trying to get started as an artist at our local conventions. So I found a few friends willing to booth share so we could split the table cost. I always put the down payment on the table for cons in full.

The first year was really hard. People haven't shown as much interest in my fandom merch as I had thought they would (prints/keychains/etc).

They (25) make bags by hand (non fandom related). They're cute items, but people don't show as much interest in them.

The first year we boothed together they were late to the con, and to when the vendor hall opened, and to when I had set times I needed a break from the booth, and wasn't answering their phone. When they have been on booth duty, they spend all their time on their phone and don't talk to attendees unless people ask them questions.

I had a convo abt how disappointed I was with the lack of communication and them being late months after the con. They said they'd work on it and I tried to make it clear that this was my booth (since it's my money we're gambling with). I didn't mind renting out space on it. I had already promised them they'd have space at the table this year, so I didn't push the issue further, but I made it clear if we were to keep being friends I couldn't be in a position where I relied on them professionally. They said they understood, but we had been drinking when talking abt it.

This year, they were late to set up again. They brought people not involved with the booth to sit with us without asking me. So there was four people and my partner didn't feel comfortable being the fifth even though though my partner was the one that helped with set up the day prior. They were an hr late to dinner plans with us that night with 0 notice for an important phone call (their partner found out abt the DBZ guy dying. That was the importaht call) They didn't show up today until 2 hrs after open today with no notice of what was going on (they're rooming with 2 other people that have my # and were at the booth day 1) supposedly due to a migraine, but I know they drink hard after con closes. They have been there when I needed a break and responded when I asked where they were, they've had matching cosplays with me all con and it's all things I'm into. I can see they genuinely tried compared to last year.

Then my partner thought they heard them complaining about me while I was on lunch break today. (I only got food for my family/SO during the 2 hrs their half of the booth people was MIA. I assumed they were getting their own food in that time. Since yesterday they had food before showing up and didn't want lunch). And I had included them in my paid cosplay shoot without asking for them to chip in.

I spent way more money on the table this year literally the day we drove up to the con (long story, but point is I locked in the space, they weren't involved in getting table space this year) It's turned out better than before against all odds. I broke even day 2 not including their sales.

Then they were talking abt how next year they want more table space to take commissions and bring more stuff and be "more involved" with the table. I don't want that. It's like they don't remember agreeing it was my table at the end of last year.

I'm known for being flat/blunt when I'm upset. And at this point it's gone passed inexpeirience to just not thinking abt this as work.

Last year we agreed they'd give me $50 or what sales they made and this year it looks like they won't sell enough to make it to the $50. If I don't take their cut, I know my SO will be frustrated with me for being a push over and them for not following through on our agreement.

Idk how to firmly establish the boundary that it's my table and I don't want them having any more space/control over it without them saying I'm the asshole. I think it would be shitty to do that after demanding all their sales, but idk when to bring it up. It's also their birthday week this week.

I don't mind renting space, but at this point they don't understand that's what they are doing and I'm kind of done. This is our 2nd year doing this convention together, but my 4th table. My partner's furious with them abt the whole thing. I just want the freedom of making choices with my booth without being disappointed by people who say they care about it, then act like working the booth isn't a job.

AITA? Is there a way to not have them less involved with the booth next year without coming off as an asshole?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[makelemonade]

Genshin Men Snoring

THIS IS PURE CRACK LOL

Relations; Albedo, Ayato, Alhaitham, Cyno,, Kazuha, Thoma, Pierro, Zhongli x GN!Reader

Warnings: uhm…snores? the word babe and sweetie are used just once

Albédo

- i don’t think he snores??

- like I can’t tell cuz he’s not exactly human

- if he does he only lets out those short snores every once In a while

- what I mean by that is it’s once every half an hour but it’s so LOUD AND INTENSE

- AWOOP JUMPSCARE

- you can sleep that night though but if ur randomly awake cuz u can’t sleep and u hear it…

- I’m not even joking you might flinch so bad you’ll fly off the bed

- it only happens when he’s in DEEP sleep like if he hasn’t had sleep for days

Ayato

- they’re so magnificent

- idk how to explain it?

- like they’re very LIGHT snores so you’ll sleep easily thag night

- it’s just if ur laying on his chest ITS SO BAD

- like they’re such magnificent snores but his chest rumbles rlly badly

- I think he’s an angel

- like they r SO ANGELIC

- they’re every 5 mins though

-you’ll be able to sleep that night dw

Alhaitham

- It takes a LOT of time to get used too

- It’s the last thing anyone would expect because he’s a quiet and reserved person

- and he snores so harshly that even you are shocked

- thankfully it’s only when he’s had very stressful days

- he always has stressful days.

- they’re harsh and loud and Kaveh can hear them from across the house

Cyno

- THANK FUCKONG GOD HE DOES NOT SNORE

- if he ever does they are very light

- they’re not as angelic as Ayato’s but calm

- it’s only once in a while so you’re good!

- you indeed can sleep every night

- it gets annoying when he’s holding you and if it’s on a day where he didn’t have much sleep and it’s DEEP, he’s snoring right in your ear

Kazuha

- he snores like the wind

- get it

- I’m so funny

- the snores are AIR

- first time sleeping with him you might confuse his snores for a fart

- “beidou he’s farting constantly when we sleep together what the fuck do u feed him?”

- “no sweetie those are just his snores”

- you r indeed able to fall asleep though

Thoma

- GUYS HE ACC GOES LIKE “MIMIMIMII”

- ITS FUCKING HILARIOUS

- very light snorted but they can get a little bit louder sometimes, but they ALWAYS end up with “MIKIMIMI”

- he’s such a light sleeper that his own snores scare him

- “babe did u hear that?”

- “yes it was ur fucking snores”

Pierro

- that man has snores from 1000s of years held back

- they’re so fucking loud even the Tsaritsa is praying for you

- HALF THE HARBINHERS FEEL BAD FOR YOU

- Pierro will prob come rlly late at night while you’re asleep

- you won’t hear him cuz it’s late and ur so tired

- then the first snore comes out AND UR WIDE AWAKE

- ITS SO SCARY

- IT SOUNDS LIKE A DEMON HAS CORRUPTED HIM

- takes weeks and maybe even months to get used too

- just imagine this convo after the first few nights of sleeping together

- “childe he sounds like a DEMON.”

- “did you know the Tsaritsa actually prayed for you when the two of you started sleeping together?”

Zhongli

- ur not fucking sleeping.

- he’s worst than Pierro

- I think all of Liyue can hear him.

- your gonna walk by Madame ping one day and she’ll literally say “do you want some special tea to stop his snoring?”

- He has SIX THOUSAND YEARS of snores held in bro

- the adepti gotta pray to Barbatos or some shit so Zhongli doesn’t bear the prayers

- if the last points weren’t enough, his are very harsh and at one point the whole room was shaking cuz he let out the harshest most intense snore

- takes MONTHS to get used too.

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[themaladaptivewriter12]

Mirai Yuhara and Heartslabyul

Mirai | Ramshackle | Heartslabyul | Savanaclaw | Octavinelle | Scarabia | Pomefiore | Ignihyde | Diasomnia | Staff |

c/w: none

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Ace Trappola

You couldn't tell if the two hated each other or liked each other

One moment they're at each other's throats, and the next moment, they're laying on each other, scrolling through Magicam

Most of their relationships consists of flipping each other off

or constantly jabbing at each other

Ace: "'Sup, Loser" Mirai: "Hey, Moron" Ace: "Bastard" Mirai: "Jerkface" *slappy fight noises can be heard and Riddle's scolding*

They once got in a fight that lasted about a week

The rest of the Freshmen were so annoyed their their moping that Deuce, Jack, Epel, Sebek, and Ortho locked them in a storage closet until the made up

And let's just say things were said, voices were raised, and tears were shed

Partners in crime Ψ( `∀)(∀´ )Ψ

Anything that goes wrong on campus can most likely be traced back to Mirai and Ace

The frogs had been let loose? It was Mirai and Ace. Someone TP'ed the Courtyard? It was Mirai and Ace. There was a brawl between the Freshamn class? It was Mirai and Ace.

Stupid late night convos that sometimes lead to arguments in the morning

Ace: "This you?" *sends a pic of some ugly fish* Mirai: "Nah, but this is you" *sends the ugly pic of Ace he secretly took* Ace: "DELETE THAT NOW!" Mirai: "No" The next day, fighting ensues

Ace Trappola - Dating Mirai Yuhara

Not much changes

Just like above, you can't tell if they're together or not

They're not too public about it

their pet names are any insult they can come up with atm

Although, if you are unlucky, you just might find them in some secluded part of the hall sucking face

They fight often

No it's not healthy, Trey has told them so, but they always bounce back

Their silliness is honestly how they show affection

Ace and Mirai at Basketball practice Ace: "This is for you, Mirai!" *Shoots the ball and proceeds to miss* Mirai: ......凸(`△´＃)

Deuce Spade

Mirai is slow when it comes to his academics as well, so he can relate to Deuce with his academic struggles

they do their hw toghter, but it normally doesn't end well

most of the time they get help from Trey or something

if Deuce is fighting, so is Mirai (((ง’ω’)و三 ง’ω’)ڡ≡　☆⌒ﾐ((x_x)

And sometimes, Mirai is his voice of reason

patches Deuce up if needed

Mirai: "Deuce, we talked about the fighting" Deuce: "I know." Mirai: "At least invite me next time, we can whop 'em together."

grocery shopping buddies because Deuce always gets the best deals

goes to Deuce's track meets to cheer him and Jack on

Mirai also brings snacks

Cheers Deuce up when he's down

especially when Ace is the cause

and Mirai has and will beat Ace for it

Cater Diamond

Has a mega crush on Cater

Likes to try out different trends with Cater

likes to let cater dress him up and give him makeovers for fun

Does best friend quizzes to see what they get

Cater: "It says we're hardly friends." Mirai: "Lies! What my favorite color?" Cater: "Blue" Mirai: "Food?" Cater: "Blueberries" Mirai: "Hobby?" Cater: "Gaming" Mirai: "See, you know me."

Likes accompanying Cater to cafes so he can have the little cakes

Cater is Mirai's most trusted Junior

Let's Cater confide in him with things he's insecure about

Cue the therapy session and the tears

but that's okay, whatever happens in that room, stays in that room

gossip sessions are a must! And there's lots of them

Sleepovers! o(≧▽≦)o

No matter if it's Ramshackle or Heartslabyul, they always have a blast

Cater teaches Mirai how to skateboard

It doesn't go well at first

Mirai likes to tell Cater about the Media back home

anything he can remember he tells

Mirai just loves how fascinated Cater gets when he does

And did I mention the crush?

Cater Diamond - Dating Mirai Yuhara

Mirai has a MAJOR crush on Cater

They are the couple everyone hates!

Because either you envy them

Or you're just plain disgusted at how sappy they are

*Cater running up to hold Mirai in his arms* Cater: "Hey, Baby" *kiss* "My, little muffin" *kiss* "My, Sugarplum" Mirai: "I missed you too, hun" *kiss* Cater: "What do you wanna do, Babydoll?" MIrai: I don't know, but there's this totally hot strawberry blonde that just mig-" Ace: "GET A ROOM!"

Pet names all the time, those are a must!

and so are kisses (っ˘з(˘⌣˘ ) ♡

and hugs and cuddles are a must too!

Always touching somehow ♡ (˘▽˘>ԅ( ˘⌣˘)

In class? Their ankles and intertwined. "At lunch? Their knees are touching. After school? They walk hand in hand.

They don't post much on Magicam, but when they do, Cater likes to keep his followers guessing

They do couples quizzes, do couples trends on Magicam, and wear couples outfits

Anything can be a date!

they move so flawlessly together, it was like it was meant to be!

Trey Clover

Mirai helps a lot with baking

Trey even started to give him pointers

Fingerprints left in the dough

Who knows where they came from? ┐('～`;)┌

Trey: "Prefect?" Mirai: "Yes, Trey?" Trey: "Why is there a fingerprint in my cookie dough?" Mirai: "I don't know" *slowly tries to escape* Trey: "Shall we compare prints then?" Mirai: (⊙_⊙) Trey: ▓▒░(°◡°)░▒▓

Unofficial official batter/dough taster

Trey doesn't mind

Mirai prefers Trey as a study partner

Hes the best at explaining things

and he's patient

and for every right answer, Trey gives Mirai a cookie

Riddle Rosehearts

Mirai finds the second year very pretty

but ofc he won't say it in front of the Heartslabyul Housewarden, lest he wants to lose his head

Again

*Mirai staring at Riddle* Riddle: "It's rude to stare, you know" Mirai: "Did you know you have pretty eyelashes?" Riddle: "I do not!" Mirai: "You do. All of you is pretty!" Riddle: ∑(O_O;) Mirai: (O u O) Riddle: "Off with your head!"

Tea time with Riddle

Mirai likes those moments, because Riddle is always his most relazed

He's more open and himself during those moments

Mirai loves the Unbirthday parties and is happy Riddle always extends an invite

Mirai likes to paint the roses red as well

But he always loses to Riddle at Croquet

But then again, it's not so bad, at least Riddle is happy

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This took way longer than expected, but it's done! You can see who my biases are *Cough* *Cough* Cater and Ace * Cough* *Cough* But I tried to give them all enough content

And as you can see, Mi-Mi is shipped with Ace and Cater. This will be a reoccurring theme with these. All of my faves will get a dating bracket with Mi-Mi!

Anyways, stay tuned for my next part, Savanaclaw!

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[wrongcaitlyn]

need more apollo and darren lore to see if i can relate them to back to december

you can ONE HUNDRED PERCENT relate them to back to december if you just ignore the tiny detail of them not breaking up in december (but like, who cares because it’s the VIBE that matters and in this case the vibe is definitely accurate)

i will definitely be adding more apollo and darren lore…let’s just say… archery world championships happening soon…. olympics in one year…. kayla’s an icon mastermind…..

but! some little notes in specific relation to back to december

i know you may think this is apollos pov, but after looking over the lyrics again to refresh my memory… it’s from darren’s perspective. 100%

I'm so glad you made time to see me / How's life? Tell me, how's your family? / I haven't seen them in a while

apollos family!! not referring to his dad. duh. but darren’s prob just talking abt like the 1-2 times he met will and austin as babies, he hasn’t seen them since so “a while”…. sure darren, that might be a bit of an understatement

You've been good, busier than ever / We small talk, work and the weather / Your guard is up and I know why

small talk is SO real with them. they’re so awkward esp rn. they don’t know how to talk to each other. apollo says “nice weather we’re having” completely unironically and darren responds “oh yeah it’s nice”

cue silence for like 2 minutes until apollo asks how his coaching is going and more and more stilted conversation

AND!!! they’re both busier than ever!! apollo returning to being employed (kinda? i mean, he has a job so) and darren with olympics being next year

Because the last time you saw me / Is still burned in the back of your mind / You gave me roses and I left them there to die

i don’t wanna spoil exactly how they broke up… bc me and wronghuntress had like an hour long convo abt pollen lore a few weeks back and. guys. when i tell you i am SO fucking excited to write it‼️‼️

HOWEVER. this line. is very. very. very. fitting. from darren’s pov that’s all i’m saying hereeee

bc ik in one of the other chapters i said that apollos like “i ruined his life” and he DID but also like. it’s messy. it’s so very messy.

So this is me swallowin' my pride / Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night / And I go back to December all the time

not technically in front of him but!! the phone call!! abt kayla!! him swallowing up his pride, and there wasn’t necessarily an apology for the… things that happened, but it’s a step forward

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you / Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine / I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright / I go back to December all the time

change it to march and make darren a singer instead of an archer and this would be one of his songs😭😭

These days, I haven't been sleepin' / Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin' / When your birthday passed and I didn't call / Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times / I watched you laughin' from the passenger's side / And realized I loved you in the fall

god… this timeline is actually SO real. if anyone’s making a pollen playlist out there (i should probably do that when i have timeHDKDJD) THIS SONG‼️‼️‼️

anyway ofc apollo is associated with summer in darren’s brain… and also apollo def thinks of summer too when thinking of darren :)

and oh yeah, ofc apollo’s in the passenger seat. bro probably grew up with drivers and doesn’t have his license.. rip sun chariot!!! (he gets his license eventually, ofc, but only bc it’s to drive will to school)

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile / So good to me, so right

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

i mean, do these even need to be explained? well darren, i can assure you that you WILL love again. it’s what we all need

okay so. i can’t really. explain the rest of this stuff. but here are the lyrics that stand out to me SOOO much because of how they broke up. that is all i can say for now!!

And then the cold came, the dark days / When fear crept into my mind / You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

And how you held me in your arms that September night / The first time you ever saw me cry

thank you so much for the ask!! it’s been a while since some pollen content but i swear it’s coming soon :))

#wrongcaitlyn #talk ur talk asks

[thatcasualgamergirl]

When I was in my single-digits, one of my cousins was really into Dragon Ball. I’d go up to him and watch him play a game about a diverse cast of characters with powers I’ve never seen before. But I pushed it aside, as it didn’t look that interesting at the time.

I knew DBZ had a huge influence on the world. Most of the videos I watched at the time were 2d Sonic sprite animations with choreography and techniques were very heavily inspired by the anime (I mean, look at Nazo Unleashed for example or Super Mario Bros Z). But looking up “dragon ball fights” just to get a taste, I wasn’t nearly as interested in it as the fan-made Sonic fights.

Fast forward to about September 2023. I was 16. While watching YouTube, a short clip about a YouTuber named Lythero playing Dragon Ball FighterZ with his friends. The game looked really fun, so I watched his other videos, and with each one I slowly got more interested in getting this game, even though I barely know anyone the cast besides the one with the orange gi and the rival with the cool armor and the cool device on his ear. So I bought the game for my Switch, started playing it, and then…well…

Something just snapped…

I know through a video game is not the best way to get introduced to a franchise, but boy did this game really did it! It introduced me to so many new characters and aspects, like I didn’t know that this Goku Black and Zamasu were the same guy! AND THEY CAN FUSE?! That hairless cat can destroy worlds with just a finger?! A dude that can skip time itself?! And SO MUCH MORE! It was all mind boggling.

It even got me into actually learning the HUGE story and watching all the iconic fights. I even learned about DBZA and even despite its humorous tone, I could understand the story.

It even got me into drawing these characters and while I did struggle on them for a bit, Toriyama’s art style and how he drew these characters helped me in how to draw them.

I had a new hyperfixation. So when I heard about his death on this here site…

I didn’t know what to feel.

Actually, no. I do know. I should feel glad that I finally have been impacted by his work. I should feel glad that I now understand why is work basically impacted the world. Dragon Ball is at lessons thing that connects all of us. Case in point, I had a conversation about it with a grown man last night after he caught me playing Dragon Ball Legends. We talked about our favorite character (Vegeta), favorite sagas, best moments of the show. It’s convos like that that make it so timeless.

Here is my latest sketch related to Dragon Ball. A drawing of these two Saiyan warriors who have impacted the world.

So on behalf of me and everyone else in the world,

Thank you and Rest in Peace, Akira Toriyama.

- CAZ

#rip akira toriyama #akira toriyama #dragon ball #dbz #dragon ball z #dragon ball fandom #dragon ball super #dbs #caz’s art tag

[chawarin-panich]

cant believe big dragon would be something i need to sit with/sleep on. really the most confusing part for me last ep was their conversation because what were they even saying? it was like everything they said kept flying over each other's head and it was so frustrating because it felt like they had their points and were having roughly the same conversation but also...not? and i have to thank @lelephantsnail for her tags on my post because it really helped streamline my thought about this.

this kind of subtle and nuanced form of miscommunication is not only unprecedented in thai bl but rare in media overall. however, it happens all the time in real life - where you are having a conversation and you understand each other's words perfectly but not each other's meaning/perspective.

b/c the truth is as fuckboi extraordinaires they have different stakes in this issue of Mangkorn's engagement and they're both right to prioritize their own skin in this game - in fact it's the healthy thing to do.

So some of the critical points of miscommunication in this convo (according to me) under the cut

whether or not to share this secret:

this was hard because on one hand mangkorn is trying to set a boundary and he does it in a fairly decent way: there's something im dealing with and i need time to deal with this and ill tell you everything when im ready. But...this is a fairly insane boundary to set with your lover esp when this 'problem' directly affects your relationship. Yai is right to demand to know more because you cannot deal with a problem affecting a relationship one-sidedly. But Mangkorn is also operating here in good faith - he has no intention of betraying Yai, he has all intentions of being with him so why does he have to admit something that will make yai misunderstand and leave him? Mangkorn wants a chance because being duplicitous is not his intention or his goal and its not fair that Mangkorn has to sacrifice his chance at love because of something that was decided for him. But Yai needs a chance too! A chance to decide if he wants to pursue this relationship despite the risks. And this is a good thing! Perhaps putting your life on hold for the dude you've been hate pining over and had one night of hate-love fucking is not the best idea! And thinking about his own heart and impending heartbreak is the right move.

He corners Mangkorn into telling him and Mangkorn tries his best to curtail the pitfalls - you'll understand me, right? im scared you'll leave me so you'll stay by my side right? - and Yai's answer 'its better than knowing nothing' isn't a promise that he will stay with Mangkorn. He's saying that at this point the only chance Mangkorn has of keeping him is by telling the truth. But Mangkorn hears what he needs to hear to tell Yai the truth. And so when Yai's reaction is this:

When Yai's first reaction is to think about himself and not focus on how difficult this situation is for Mangkorn (which it is!) it feels like a huge betrayal!

I had warned him it wasn't going to be easy and he reassured me we will be fine (he hadnt) so why is he saying this to me now? All I'm asking is for him to keep faith so why is he assuming the worst of me?

and Yai isn't assuming the worst of Mangkorn but of the situation itself but you can understand why Mangkorn feels so attacked because he's all raw and vulnerable from sharing something he did not want to share and his partner has reacted in exactly the way he was afraid of the most despite him saying he wouldn't react in that way (yai hasn't said anything of the sort)

And then being classic fuckbois - which honestly relatable - they say the absolute worse thing they could have to each other:

its like they picked the one thing the other was most insecure about and threw it in their faces which honestly was almost comic. they have tried for this long to talk like normal human beings and at the most critical moment of showing support and reaffirming commitment - they both default to their baser instincts of running away from hard things [which fair lmao].

And l love that they are able to call each other out on it! That they don't take the stoic okay that's done then bye! route. Mangkorn expresses what's hurting him - you're my partner and you're supposed to support me - and yai expresses whats hurting him - was giving me a choice in this relationship ever important to you? And of course Mangkorn just gets down to it. Things are spiraling and there's really one way out of this where they can stay together: that despite all the hurtful things they just said to each other - is there a way out of this together Yai knows what Mangkorn needs to hear but Yai answers in a way that is consistent with what he's shown is important to him: honesty and god is it heartbreaking and the way Bank plays it here is so GOOD

So no this conversation achieves nothing and narratively the two characters will engage in the terrible decision making that they would have had they not been so real with each other - Mangkorn will try to run away and Yai tries to distract himself. But boy, if they are to come back to each other in a way that feels realistic and not in a fantastical 'true love conquers all' copout way that can really only ever happen in stories, then having this conversation was absolutely critical.

#big dragon #mangkornyai #big dragon meta #big dragon the series #this is one of the longest meta i have ever written for a show #let alone for one scene #big dragon and its surprising amount of depth is a slap to the face for sure #gotta go and cleanse my heart! #i was promised nonsense! and i was given it! but with a side of whatever this is #nani's hot takes

[storiesofsvu]

it's thursday, lets round up law and order night

Just discovered I can select citytv toronto so I can watch this shit at 5pm. Fucking win. 

Okay, the way these eps are airing doesn’t make our hypothesis about the maddie case coming to canada to launch CO:TO make sense, we’ll see… 

Not shaw instantly knowing it’s a dating app 👀👀 

Jfc...word on my laptop doesnt want to open, im stuck doing this through safari, fuck i hate the way technology is changing... hoping it works later, i was planning on writing tonight. Ugh. 

Man, the way that receptionists/door staff is always all “hey! Excuse me! You can’t go back there” always makes me laugh, like, first off, how do the cops know where they’re going/that the person theyre looking for is actually back there?  

Why are there no lights on in this courtroom? Wtf? 

Nolan just tells sam to do all the work and then takes lead on all the cases, huh? 

The way this ep is going its lowkey looking like mccoy is getting fired/forced to retire, not doing it voluntarily lol. 

Lol, i give no shits if they fire nolan, just don’t touch my samantha bebe pls. 

Okay so they really are setting mccoy up to being fired, hey? 

All of these shows would be SO much better if they actually just acknowledged that they all exist in the same universe/city. Like... i’d love to see the same recurring cast members as the defence attorneys/judges/etc as the same characters in all three shows. Or like, have them mention each other, like in this ep they easily could have at least been like “hold on, I'll call benson, maybe she caught the case” no need to guest star, just mention it. Though they could guest star the other characters considering svu is only giving screen time to M and Ice... 

I am SO bored watching jack in court... where’s the spunk? 

There is way too much political shit that goes into this. Ugh.  

Also this send off is lame. They really couldnt have done it any better? The promos made me think it was some big celebratory thing... 

Yeah that was lame as shit. 

Alright... moment of truth.... is CI Toronto going to be good or absolute crap? 

Why is it tinted blue? This is like when shows “go to mexico” and they just tint the screen yellow. Do they think canada is blue tinted because of the snow/cold? 

Theme song does not slap. 

Where did my subtitles go?? 

Okay the liutenant is my faourite part so far. I like her. Female detective is on the fence for me right now, i don’t like the dude. 

Are they not carrying guns?? Does dick wolf think canadian cops don’t carry guns? Cause i assure you they do... 

LOL at the casual dropping of facts about characters we know nothing about. She has a kid, noted. 

... i stopped paying attention, i can’t lie. This isn’t terrible, but it isn’t great. We coulda had For the Defence... 

Okay, so like i said, not terrible, but i found it pretty boring.  

Moving on to SVU 

Okay this is clearly some kind of abduction situation going on. 

Velasco got a line! Yay! 

Wanna steal that plaid...ngl. 

“aren’t you a captain” THAT IS EXACTLY MY QUESTION, HOW DOES THIS SQUAD NOW HAVE TWO CAPTAINS??!! Make it make sense!! 

“and you needed a rollins” thank you fin for telling it like it is. 

Liv is off her fucking rocker man, like yeah, the kid on the train obvi needs help, and they should intervene and there is a slight chance that it is related to the maddie situation, but that’s the only thing she can see righ tnow and it’s not making for a good show. 

Say pittsburg one more time. I dare you. 

“it’s captain benson” uh... eileen called *her* why did that phone convo go like that? 

The delulu in this episode is stronger than my delulu imagining being married to fictional charaters jfc.. 

“happi burger” ?!?!? I'm having s9 flashbacks 

Aaaand a guest star that was on the show in the last year and a half is guest starring again... as a different character... not surprised. *sigh* (at the v least she’s acting her ass off and is good at what she does so...) 

Liv you have as many issues as this agent, don’t try and make her seem like she should open up to you lololol. 

“you sure youre not just projecting?” THANK YOU 

Thank fuck this gd maddie shit is finally done with. I am over it lol. 

Liv's out here just adopting rescues from all sorts of different departments temporarily, this doesn’t make any sense. 

Omg this OC flashback just made me so excited, all the amazing shit that happened last week LOL. 

Literally thought that old man was mcgrath.. 

I'm sorry... if i find something in a *bathroom* garbage can, the last thing I'm doing is putting it in my *mouth* 

Ayanna being all “gimmie!” about the stuffie is adorable. I may have to write some kind of fix it fic for her/this situation.... 

Okay that was lazy writing, Rita’s friend literally just basically repeated the exact same phrase twice... 

“no gps to pull from a camera” that is a straight up fucking lie. Both my point and shoot and my dslr have gps... 

This other tech guy working for them (ai guy?) he reminds me of kevin from crimi. Not sure if that’s just the over eager-second choice tech- guy vibes or if its something else... 

I don’t trust this bitch. At all. She's gotta be in on it. 

Hahahahaha elliot’s face when he walks in to jet and bobby in the room lol. 

This hate crimes guy is growing on me. 

Anyone else looking at the parallels of liv being hyperfocused on maddie and finding her, meanwhile elliot was so wrapped up with the Rita situation in the last season and now is so upset/lost about losing her... 

AYANNA CUDDLING HER LIL STUFFIE AHHHH *soft* 

#law and order svu #svu #law and order #law and order special victims unit #law and order organized crime #law and order criminal intent: toronto

[bisluthq]

Lets be real Taylor probably offered to pay for the suite and he was like nope. Can you imagine if Taylor paid? all the news article saying how he's cheap?

for all we know they went halvsies and she’s reimbursed part direct to him like how tf would we know? Why does it matter? Why do we care how they deal with their finances??? He absolutely CAN afford it. He can’t afford spending upwards of a mil daily (Taylor tbh can lol) but he can do a big splurge on his biggest night of the year.

Again, given I’m in a relationship with an income discrepancy (not that my bf has Travis money lol or even fwiw Joe Alwyn money but he earns well) I’ve had a lot of convos about shit like this. He does pay more in terms of bottom line. But like beyond my household contributions (groceries, utility share, some of the reno costs) that doesn’t mean I haven’t taken us on a weekend away (I did, to a nice place, and I paid for everything except petrol because we went in his car and yes he offered to go halvsies at least but I said no) or that I don’t pay for dinners out (I’m actually likelier to pay for nicer ones because he likes to go out like twice a week for a meal and that gets a bit steep for me but I’d still be going out if we weren’t together so if we go somewhere nice I tend to pay) or that I don’t pay for all takeouts (which we do in lieu of meals out some weeks or if we’re both busy because he hates like dealing with the apps or the delivery people so I just do it) or that I don’t cover most of our streaming subscriptions (I had them before we moved in so like I just pay those). Where we’ve gone away and he’s paid for it, I try cover the meals as much as possible (unless he beats me to the bill). At the end of the day, I’m still paying significantly less but it’s not like I’m not trying and it works for us.

I also feel the need to justify it a lot though and I’ve had friends - especially female friends actually - assume he pays a lot more than he does towards me because income and age gap. A friend of mine is having a big birthday this year and wants to do a weeklong girls’ trip and I was like “that sounds amazing but I can’t really swing it because I wasn’t working for part of last year” and she was like “but didn’t he give you money??” and I was like “not like an allowance lol” and then she was like “well just ask him to cover part” and I was like “I don’t feel comfortable doing that at all” and she got really pissy with me so idk I’m further relating to all of the dudes Taylor’s dating who obviously can’t afford all that she can and where obviously she’s gonna pay more but like that’s really none of our business and I don’t think any of them want a free ride.

Travis can afford to pay for this suite for one night in a whole year. It won’t financially destroy him. The house he bought, similarly, was a good investment since he’s still got to be in KC for a couple years at least and generally property appreciates so idk man. If he buys a private island just for them I’ll be like “Travis dude chill” but rn he seems to be acting quite sensibly and if they move in obviously it won’t be 50/50 - Taylor will pay more - but that doesn’t mean he won’t contribute as far as he can.

[luckyqueenreign]

Honestly, it took me a min to process this weeks episodes.

I have been reading people thoughts about the episodes, and i miss when the Islanders had their own personal opinion on MC.

I'm also getting tired of FB desperately trying to make LI so shady in this case, Lewie, for me.

Like pls make up your mind. Is Lewie a sweet guy, or is he a red flag. Is Jamal the chilled cool guy, or is he a snake. Like i get there has to be drama but why is everything surrounding MC at least season 2 and 4 we had Priya/Noah/Hope drama Lottie or mc/Rocco/Marisol drama and 4, the whole Lexi/Kobi/Valentina.

If this is an attempt to bring back the story line of MC and Bruno, they are failing horribly.

At this point, i just feel like Ozzy is obviously the main character, I like him, but i really wanted to pursue and look into the other routes before his slow burn.

I did like that we finally got to interact abit with amelia and she wasnt mixed in the drama, but Pls for the love of god just get over what you have to say because i promise you i dont care if its anything Zeph involved.

I liked Lewie getting jealous, and im not gonna lie. i liked the whole (Suresh/Arlo) moment looking at each other through the dates, i wish we could have flirted like we did then, but i was a Suresh Girlie. But definitely, last season gave me whiplash, and i was hoping for a cleaner route the first time around.

The whole recoupling was so rushed like i was literally just coupled up with Lewie the night before????

Also once again FB WHY ARE YOU MAKING HIM GO TO TALK TO CHLOE BEFORE US, then coming to me to sneak away with you at the day beds???

I'm calling it now, FB IF I SNEAK OUT AND I FIND THIS MAN WITH CHLOE IN A COMPROMISING POSITION IM RESTARTING MY ROUTE AND STICKING IT OUT WITH OZZY.

Like i love Lewie but i hate how they are doing his route filled with sneakiness.

Something bugging me is that we can't seem to talk to other ppl unless it's LI related. In Season 2 my MC was hooping around in my noah route. Right now, i feel like i barely spoke to Jamal or Roberto. it's either flirt with your first LI or Ozzy. Maybe they change it later. Sorry for venting!

no bestie dont be sorry because I feel the same right now!!

Every single season since s2 we've all been like bring back s2. give us what we had back then. and I know when s2 was out people complained that MC was constantly in someone else's drama and it was too centered around the villa and not us. but why didnt they tweak that just a tiny bit instead of giving us the most boring season of life with s3. s4 I think is the closest we ever got to s2 because we actually had routes that season but we also had one of the ugliest MCs of all time. no need to drudge up the past on s5...I was a suresh girlie too and man they put literally everyone in hell every single week. I have some ptsd after that season and still havent been able to replay it. I know we said we wanted recouplings back after having zero last season but we actually wanted some control over them!! we didnt want fb to just dictate them all over again. fb lowkey has ruined the LJR route for me. one I hate that those THREE guys all have the exact same route. and then if you aren't romancing the other two u literally never see them or talk to them. S2 I never romanced Ibrahim or Gary and was never coupled with them but I actually got to know them and even though we were just friends I knew so much about them. We know nothing about the other guys. Some people have sent me asks about head canons for Roberto and I havent been able to answer them bc I literally dont know that man. the only people I know are Ozzy and Lewie and even then the convos have been kind of surface.

ps you can vent anytime!! 💖

#litg double trouble #litg s6 #love island the game

[bugborgs]

tangentially related to that last reblog i found out last week that my mom kind of?? ships peter and nebula and it’s so. 

mom why

it’s exceedingly funny to me bc she’s almost 60 and as far as i’m aware she has never been someone to engage in any sort of fandom-related activity and she brought this up somewhat unprompted (i was taking my brother to see vol3 that night, mom had seen it the week before, we were not previously talking about the movie when she steered the convo in this direction)

of all the ships she coulda picked lmao

#on the other hand she seemed to like nebula as a character based off other things she said so like. #at least she has Some taste. just a little #she scene she brought up specifically was the orgocorp scene where peter comments on nebula's eyes #and then she more or less called him an idiot (affectionate) #text #im still amused by this and that last reblog reminded me of this. absolutely did not expect this out of my mom #froposting

[introvertedlass]

Something intrigues/confuses me about the Lonesome pic they received of AB and another guy last summer.

So, when this happened, it was right during the smack middle of fans melting down bc Tara posted Queen on AB's IG.

According to Lonesome, they had received previous info from an anonymous source saying they had proof AB was not dating CE but someone else. Then on the night of that comment and subsequent fandom meltdown, the mysterious source pops up again to provide "proof" of AB with another man.

They proved to Lonesome they were legit by sharing info about how they were to close AB (work, association in some way) so they were able to get this candid of AB and the other guy. They also said the man was not famous and so his identity had to be concealed, and that Lonesome could not post the proof bc this source could lose their job.

This confirms that the source is on AB's side and maybe works for her? Lonesome never confirmed what their relation to AB was, but that they had direct ties to her.

So why would someone close to AB come to a CE fan gossip blog to provide such damning proof she was someone else, at a time when CE/AB weren't even public yet? Why didn't this person go to an AB fanpage, specifically her Russian one that has followed her for quite some time, and even talks to her mother directly?

This has always stuck out as strange to me. Bc AB fans, rightfully, should be privy to info like this before a CE fanpage. Bc AB fans were upset she was getting linked to him and thus the mean comments harassing her. But that person knew to come to Lonesome, follow the convo and come back on the day shit hit the fan, to provide proof and steer the talk away from CE/AB.

Lonesome never got any photo proof, that I'm aware of, of CE with other women, though there's been rumors the entire year of him supposedly hooking up with other women ( I don't believe these rumors). A blog that's dedicated to HIM gets no tea about him, but DOES get serious tea about a girl he was only rumored to be dating at the time? And the tea is hot enough that it really could mess with the existing narrative and have this person lose their job if it got out?

They must feel confident with the tea they are getting and have chosen to share it. We can all sip or spit. I choose to spit.🤷‍♀️

[pancakeke]

last night I asked my boss to call me because someone asked why a report for finished goods worked the way it did and when I looked for the contract that stated the parameters the report had to follow, I couldn't find shit.

I told her that there's no PSOW (preliminary statement of work, contract that explains responsibilities and stuff) or MSA (master service agreement, same deal) doc on the customer page and the convo went like this:

me: I'm working on the ticket that [salesperson] sent about [customer]

boss: yes I saw that.

me: I can't confirm how the timeframe is supposed to work. there's no information on their customer page or anything

boss: I found the contract it's right here

me: is it something other than a PSOW or MSA? I dont see docs with either of those in the title

boss: it's a PSOW

me: are you on [customer] page? there's nothing in the docs labeled PSOW

boss: yes there is, I have it open

me: for [customer]?

boss: let me check their APA (advance purchase agreement, contract where a customer OK's prebuying stuff and will take ownership of any unused product) and see what that says

me: [customer] doesn't have an APA... also this only relates to finished goods.

boss: yes they do, they change it every quarter and we have to deal with it every time and its always a huge pain.

me: for [customer]? I just checked the database and they don't even have an APA location

boss: yes they do

me: this is about finished goods though so it's not relevant to an APA doc.

boss: well do we ever put those on APAs?

me: no. what is the name of the customer page you are looking at right now?

boss: [different customer]

me: this is about [customer]

boss: earlier you said something about [different customer]

me: I asked if you were looking at [customer] a bunch of times

boss: but earlier you mentioned [different customer]

me: ok but this is only about [customer]

boss: let me finish looking at this APA doc

me: this has nothing to do with APAs. this is only about finished goods for [customer] and they don't use an APA.

boss: then what does this have to do with [different customer]

me: this has nothing to do with [different customer].

boss: ok. but you did mention [different customer] earlier

me: okay 😬

#bitching

[prismuffin]

OwO Anon, we need to stop sharing the same brain cell. I had it before my shift, did you take it??

Anyways, I noticed some of your tags and stuff about your snake and how crazy things have been for you. I'm not stalking your blog, I swear... I just have notifications on..

Please use this ask box message, to rant/ vent about what you are okay with sharing!

Because, you seem like the type to not bring up shit in conversation, snice you'll feel like an asshole if you took up space in a convo.

- Crow

CROW LMFAO not you calling me out perfectly with that last sentence-

yeah I practically have no one to talk to because of my current situation and I feel bad for ranting whenever but I'll take the invite and rant a bit- so with that in mind, you can ignore everything under the cut but thank you for this vent ask!

But yeah there's just a lot happening right now and it's all making me feel really bad which in turn is making me feel worse because I feel like I have no right to feel bad??

Things are pretty wild with my family right now- for some context my family is pretty big with my parents having 10 kids in total- my mom didn't have all 10 and all of my siblings are half siblings so growing up I was the only one with both of my parents present- the rest of my siblings were only related to my dad or mom. Now that mostly everyone has moved out or is living with their mom/dad they're trying to go into their retirement plan and the only problem with that is I'm still here!

my parents are trying to live in the US for certain parts of the year and in Mexico for the other parts which is totally fine but it's completely uprooting my life and I have no idea what to do. I already dropped out of my school because my depression was worsening (like it got real bad) and I couldn't take it anymore so I left it for college prep (which is online and allows me to control my hours and how much work I do) so I lost contact with most of my friends then and I'm losing time with all my other ones because I'm in a different country for half of the year- and in said country I also have no friends and the one friend I did make is leaving for Portugal so I can't hang out with them anymore.

Me moving countries/traveling often means that I have to sell most of my stuff since I won't always be in a place for too long. I already had to give away my dog and now I'm gonna have to sell my snake as well and it's terrible because I'm very attached to both of my pets. I also have to get rid of all of my clothes and throw practically everything in my room away to make moving easier and once again I'm very attached to all my stuff so it's really stressful.

I don't like to complain about all of this though because I think I sound ungrateful. Like- Wow, you get to travel the world often and at such a young age without having to worry about school? That sounds soooo hard, you're struggling sooo much. I feel like shit for hating the traveling because I know there's people that would do anything to be in my position and to see some super cool places that my parents are planning on living in for a while but the whole thing is really uprooting the comfortable life I built for myself within the comfort of my room with my snake and dog and classes that I could control. In a way it's like they're taking all of my control. I feel like I have none of it and in a way I kinda don't.

The whole thing is making my depression come back in full force- I was going to therapy for a bit but then that stopped.

Then there's the one time I was literally crying at a huge birthday dinner for one of my parents friends and no one noticed at all and at the end of the night I got yelled at in the middle of the street because I just wanted to walk home after the dinner instead of walking to the hosts house to continue the party. Random tangent I know but I think that's the night my depression fully came back and hit in the face.

Writing is a safe thing for me, I enjoy it and I enjoy making content for others and writing for myself even, at times. Recently I haven't been able to do much of that though not only because of school but also my motivation is dropping bit by bit which is why after these requests I might take break from writing while things sort themselves out in my life. I'll still be active on Tumblr and doing asks and such but writing full fics for others might take me some time!

But yeah, that's some of the things that are happening that I'm comfortable talking about. I feel like this post is too long already so I won't get into the other stuff that actually led to my depression worsening but-

thanks Crow! Even if you didn't read this I suppose it's a bit better to get this off of my chest.

#what can I say #Pris got Probs #thanks crow #personal rant #just some extra btw: #I was on my own for a bit and it was fine but then my parents got back and now it's all “get rid of the snake” “have you sold your pc yet?” #theres also some stuff with my ex and her relapsing and me wanting to reach out and help her but not knowing how #the way we ended things make them kinda complicated but hopefully I can get her a gift or smth for when she's out of the ward

[soulscribblingshack]

Ghosted.

This title, probably already has given you a hint of what this little write up is about. Well, I have a question for you, though.

Have you ever been ghosted before?

And for those who may be wondering, no, I don't mean haunted by a ghost, I mean, like dropped. When no warning is given to you or anything and someone you've had a personal relationship with just dumps you...starts to pretend you don't exist, you know, like you're some "ghost they cannot see".

If you haven't been ghosted before, then you probably would not really be able to relate to any of this. But if you have been, then, ah, my friend, you do know the feelings of humiliation, indignation and utter confusion that come with being "ghosted".

It happened to me quite recently. I got ghosted by my ex. We were not, in fact, dating anymore, but, we were still "corresponding", (much to the dismay of my dear, dear girlfriends. sorry babes, and I love you). I was still harbouring feelings for the guy and was at that delicate stage where I thought that we could somehow still work it out as "friends", (the biggest lie I told myself). And while that in itself was not a terrible thing, it appeared he had other plans. So, picture it. We're talking as usual with all being perfectly normal and all of a sudden, he stops responding. Just. Like. That. No warning at all. No, "Oh, I'm sorry, but I don't want to talk to you anymore." Just a cold, cruel dropping. Sucks, doesn't it? At first, (and at first had taken quite a while, to be honest), I was so sad. So sad and in denial that he would do that to me. I mean, it was a habit of his, and he had told me several times about how he had done it to other people, but I had just always thought of it with a detached sense of understanding, because I had been deluding myself to believe it was always going to be just them and never me, because I was special to him and, um, you know that sort of thing. So, to have it done to me was humiliating and surprising. I had really not seen it coming.

Eventually, (which came at long last. thank heavens), I left the losers club and began to feel quite vexed, (because, you know, I'm a queen and no one gets to treat me like that, blah the blah). I went ahead to delete his number and all that, until he texted an unsuspecting me one night. He said he was sorry for ghosting, you know. He said he wanted to check on me and all that, and I, of course, pushed whatever bad feelings I had been holding on to, just so I would not come off as confrontational or anything. We had started a small conversation and I had thought all was well again, until he stopped responding, altogether, because, maybe he had decided half way that, "nah girl. I ain't up for this convo", after all. Whatever. I was beyond pissed this time, and swore that you know, never again will I reply his texts and blah blah, but the joke is on me now, because, um, he never texted back. (so sigh. it appears that all my carefully plotted pettiness has gone down the drain).

But, you see, it was probably well deserved, because, (asides from the very glaring fact that I should have been wiser and quietly left that boy alone when we broke up), I had actually done this very disgusting, humiliating act to someone else before. Yes, I want to act self-righteous and play the victim, while rolling around in self pity and all, but what goes around really does come around.

I had once ghosted someone just the same way I got ghosted. Nothing exactly happened. I had just decided I was disgusted with this person and did not want to talk to him anymore and I had done it. Even though he had tried, incessantly to reach me, even though, he had done absolutely nothing, I had just pretended like he did not exist at all.

And, that brings me to the whole point of my story. Ghosting shows you absolutely do not care about the other person's feelings. It is a cruel act that shows you are an unfeeling brute with zero regard for humanity, (or, maybe just the one person involved). It is hurtful, utterly and completely hurtful. It really would not cost you anything to just give a tiny explanation as to why you do not want to talk to a person you have been close to, anymore. Now, how they choose to take it is solely up to them. The point is, you have acted like a decent person, with morals, with, you know, an actual heart.

I, eventually resumed communicating with this mystery guy, (and I'm definitely not making this a guy-girl thing, only), but only after our mutual friends had intervened. I had not had any concrete reason for doing what I did, and explaining to him had just been extremely lame. But the one thing I would not forget is how bad he had felt. It had made me feel like such a shitty person, and there and then, I had vowed that I would never do that to another person. I vowed that I would be a decent person and point out why first before I altogether stopped speaking to someone I was close to, (if I ever have to, that is). Because every body has feelings and no one deserves to be treated that way, and you may not really comprehend how hurtful it is, until it happens to you, until you get ghosted.

To end this on a good note, however, me getting ghosted probably was the best thing for me at that point, because it finally made me see what my friends had been relentlessly warning me about, (bless their little hearts), and it helped me finally let go. It helped me see how unhealthy my preoccupation with this boy was. I had been holding on to him, still, even though we had broken up and that was clearly beyond pathetic. So, thank you, I guess, big guy. You have, howbeit unwittingly, taught me a lesson I may never have learned by myself.

#be kind to all kinds

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How did you get on the track of KE being possibly S's fling? Were there any other hints apart from that she liked his posts? That couldn't have been enough.

It started when we noticed he started following her and she followed him back, and his businesses (SS + MPC). Then Nicole and Valboo started following her too. (could be work related interest of course).

We noticed she had not posted for a while on her IG. Als had some chatter about how we already knew her as she was the ex gf of Philippe Leblond. Bit ago we posted pictures of that man over here. No punishment to look at that man.... cough

As he was filming and in Scotland, and we could almost follow each weekend in May and June of his whereabouts, she was not particularly on our list of 'interesting - let's keep an eye on it'.

But then after he had been mia for some days and posting the minimum on SM, people started to get suspicious. Saying he usually does that when he's with someone. (Personally I pretty much enjoyed to silence and the rest). Still KE was not high on our list, as we had no reason to believe she was anywhere near him.

Then after the bucket hat, he surfaced a week later at Zion. Giving away with his caption he was visiting National Parks. The fan pic confirmed it.

Now, there was only one that fit the picture. Having camped, roadtripping often around the Parks, outdoorsy type, likes working out, gym, yoga. Her promo by Outdoorsy, where you can rent camper vans and get advice on road trips etc. She became about number 1 on our list of interest. So far only in our DMs a little chatter, convo's, weighing pro and counter arguments. Discussing the options.

Curious Anons started to see what we in this little corner also saw, and started sending me messages and questions. I held them back for a while, not wanting to start all kind of rumours and... when I finally posted that is exactly what happened, and people even going to her IG bothering her... (don't do that ffs!) Yes I was pretty annoyed about that.

And while I'm at it explaining how this came to be. You see, at the time I decide to post, cause even if we do not have any factual proof, but a lot of puzzle pieces fit and start to fall at the right place, so no proof but enough connections to dismiss. At that time, we already have discussed all the pro and counter arguments, the options, the possibilities and the non possibilities if there are any. And then after I post, my inbox gets flooded with messages with the same (mostly) counter arguments. I get accused of spreading false rumours, while I emphasized constantly that it was simply an option we discussed and wrote in all honesty that there was no substantial proof of any kind.

Now I get it, I get that people start to question it, I remain calm and answer their counter arguments. I often use this emo 🤷‍♀️ since I do not know without a doubt, I do not have the agenda to convince anyone. But you might realize I have discussed all options, pro or contra, with my friends over here in DM. And yes, when people start to twist my words, run to IG to post it over there in a wrong version, bother strangers on IG.. I get annoyed, over that. Even a little angry when I was dead tired after a whole day posting all these messages and trying to keep up with the comments.

Anyway, the LA video added more to the list of KE, as you can see on her IG she posts a lot of these kind of videos. And finally last night my smartest Anon of all saw what we all had failed to see - The dog - (thanks again Anon!)

So and that's all there is to it. it starts with a little curiosity, an option, and then it turned out to be just that what we puzzled together all along. Simply by keeping our eyes open, our minds clear, and using our brains to make the connections.