#sadtm

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#sol #hell #estigma #stigma #666 #Aesthetic #black #white #pale #Illustration #design #Flash #sadtm

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#sadtm #pale #dark #aesthetic #design

[whathorselegs]

I've talked a bit recently about how I want Fyodor's arc in BSD to match the themes in 'Crime and Punishment' but boy, am I a hypocrite, because I don't want that for Dazai.

I will be devastated if his story follows 'No Longer Human'.

Yet, the more I read the manga, the more I feel it's already going that way. I have a list of all the comparisons I've made so far, which I do intend on making into a post itself one day. It would require me to re-read 'No Longer Human' so idk how long that post would take me. Plus I'd have to find the willpower to get real sad about Dazai for a while.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #bsd #rambling #I just want him to be okay by the end of the story #I've also been thinking about how Lucy's arc matches her author's book recently #and plan to make a post on that #but that also makes me think more about the possibility of Dazai and NLH and I get sadTM

[honorhearted]

Happy Mother’s Day, Major Tallmadge!

Tell about Suzanna Smith Tallmadge?

Benjamin's smile grew soft and wistful, as it often did whenever his mother came to mind. "I've never found it easy to describe an entire person in only a few words," he murmured, "and least especially someone who was so warm, so vast, and left such a lasting impact despite only being around a short while."

He looked away then, absently fiddling with a stray piece of lint on his sleeve. Susannah had breathed life into him on a chilly February morning, holding him as a tiny, squalling babe in her arms -- and then at the end of her life, it had been Benjamin holding her, clinging to her frail, weakened frame until she'd breathed her very last.

Swallowing at the memory, his smile grew threadbare and he lifted his head. "She often had a smudge of flour somewhere on her face, because she loved to bake," he deflected. Finally, his expression grew genuine again and Benjamin grinned, his eyes eclipsing with fondness. "If she wasn't in the kitchen, she was outside tending to the garden around the house -- the roses were her favorite. I'd often sit out there with her, reading my scripture and listening to her sing. She was so soft and kind... I doubt she would have survived a w.ar such as this, had God allowed her to live." His throat ached and his chest shivered with breath. Are you proud of me, Ma?

Perhaps it was childish to still think of her as a towering, larger than life figure to reach for -- to cling at her skirts and bury his face into her warm hominess and safety -- but even as a grown man, he often awoke afraid and alone, wishing he could somehow crawl into bed alongside the one who'd always made everything secure. He didn't have that any longer. He had to slay the monsters on his own.

Smile wobbling, Benjamin cleared his throat and choked out, "Thank you... I'm always pleased when someone else remembers her."

Regardless of her impact there on earth, she would always remain entangled within his very heart, much like the unruly plants she adored so much.

#Anonymous #//ah yes thank you for the sadTM <3 lol

[bluebudgie]

my life is sleep, eat, work, unicorn overlord + witnessing the horrors of trying to open stardew valley with smapi saying "running the game with 89 mods" after the big patch

#like 50 or so broke lmao but we're mostly good now #couldnt find replacement for 2 of them so thats sadTM and one has a few missing textures now #which looks funny enough for me to keep it #shoutout to the goated people who post github links to unofficial mod updates in the NM comment section

[emo-markie]

"House of Gold" by TØP is so Spencer and Diana Reid coded like omg almost every verse applies to them 😭

#criminal minds #spencer reid #diana reid #was just enjoying some music and then BAM Big SadTM #Spotify #emo-markie

[frmulcahy]

Once again listening to the Alienist audiobook and once again distraught over the adaptation’s butchering of the characters

#FUCK YOU HBO FOR ALWAYS HAVING TO MAKE EVERYTHING ABOUT DARK BROODING SEXY LOVE TRIANGLES #the found family dynamic is So Strong in these books #Sara and John have a sibling dynamic and it’s just so much more sweet and funny and natural #book!Sara is so fucking badass I love her so much #Laszlo is still SadTM but he’s also So Enthusiastic and loves his friends and is very sweet even if he sometimes says things Bluntly #in the books it’s more ‘he sometimes doesn’t understand social cues’ #in the show it’s more ‘I’m the smartest person in the room and I’m going to be mean to everyone’ #they bbc sherlocked him #Laszlo is adhd because I said so #and Stevie and Cyrus my fucking beloveds!!!!! #they’re largely written off in the show and they have so much more going on in the books #the alienist #angel of darkness #caleb carr

[scrapsofinspiration]

“only lovers left alive” is all i’ve ever wanted from a movie about vampires

#like come on #old married vampire couple who's constantly bickering but they're also madly in love #vampire tom hiddleston #VAMPIRE TILDA SWINTON #all history and historical figures references #cool music #said vampire couple disposing of a dead body #sadTM vampires #and it's so freaking funny #why did no one tell me about this movie before #only lovers left alive #tom hiddleston #tilda swinton #mia wasikowska

[vulcan-moon]

Next gore/sh reigen post when?

when i feel like it??

#weird way to ask???? #i draw that when im SadTM lol #asks

[frodo-with-glasses]

💖💖💖💖!!!! Frodo and Elanor!!!

3, 4, and 10!

HECK YESSSSS I’ve been looking forward to doing this one for SO LONG!! We’re gonna go with my Magnolia AU for this (the one where Frodo stays in the Shire long enough to meet all of Sam’s kids), since that’s the more interesting version of their relationship.

(Brace yourself, this is gonna get SadTM.)

3. “A random headcanon I have of them”

I haven’t settled in my mind when exactly Frodo sails to Valinor in the Magnolia AU (or whether he does at all). There MUST have been more elven ships that left in the years following the War of the Ring, so he could catch one of those, if he so wished; I assume that’s the way Sam got there in canon.

All of that to say, if/when Frodo ever left for Valinor—after doing all he could to find peace and happiness in Middle Earth, and managing to find some joy in the Gamgees, but never truly being completely healed—I think he left just about everything in his study to Elanor. Books, maps, scrolls, letters, half-scribbled attempts at poetry; anything he couldn’t fit into his pockets to take onto the ship, he left with her.

Elanor was his favorite of the Gamgee children. She was his brightest and most attentive student. She had the best of her father’s love for elves, and of her adopted uncle’s love for history and lore, and if any of Sam’s children could be found in Mr. Frodo’s study in their free time, it would have been her. All of the little Gamgees were distraught that Uncle Frodo had to leave, of course—and there were many tears and wailed “I don’t want you to go��s—but Elanor, being the oldest, and by then more of a young lady than a little girl, held herself together for the most part.

It was only when Frodo and Elanor got a little time alone in the study afterwards that she absolutely broke down crying. She knew he was in pain. She knew he was. She’d watched him suffer all her life. She’d learned to dread certain days on the calendar, because those were the days that her dear old uncle wouldn’t be himself, and it terrified her. But that didn’t change the fact that—selfishly, she called it, although he quickly and firmly assured her that it wasn’t selfish at all—she felt that she was losing her second father.

He held her until she stopped shaking, and brushed away her tears with his thumb, and whispered assurances through his own choked voice, and urged her, gently, wherever she missed him, to peel open these books again and imagine him there with her. He would miss her dearly. He would not do this if he felt he had any other choice. He feared if he stayed…he wouldn’t live to see another one of her birthdays, and he couldn’t do that to her family, not after they’d been so kind.

He urged her to take comfort, whenever she thought of him, in the knowledge that he was alive, he was healing, and likelier than not…he was thinking of her too.

He urged her to take comfort in the knowledge that he loved her.

Most of his books and parchments came with her in the move to the Tower Hills, but some days when she came to visit her mother and father in Hobbiton, she’d sit in the chair by the study window and watch the dust float lazily in the sunbeams, and think about her uncle’s voice.

When Frodo left for Valinor, he had in his pocket a “letter” from Elanor; one of the first things she’d ever written, back when she was a small lass just learning to hold a pen, and she’d scratched down in a child’s big, shaking scrawl, “DEar uncLe FRodo: I LOVE YOU! Sinseerlee, ELanoR”

4. “My favorite thing about them”

The best thing about the Magnolia AU is getting to watch Frodo pass on to the Gamgee children everything that Bilbo had given to him. Bilbo was the uncle who adopted Frodo; Frodo is the uncle who (unofficially, but undeniably) adopted Elanor. He gets to see what that relationship is like from the other side.

And just, I dunno…Frodo being a father figure, man. It just gets me. He’s not a conventional father figure by any means—how could he, when he didn’t have a conventional father figure himself??—but he’s a loving one, in spite of all his pain and mental issues, and there’s just something about kids and having someone small and innocent to love that I think would’ve been really good for him.

(Am I projecting a little bit?? Do I have at least one parental figure who struggles with mental health stuff and yet whom I love with everything I’ve got??? Would I give anything in the world to see that hypothetical parent finally be healed??? Maybe!! 8-D Maybe that just means I know what I’m taking about.)

10. “A song that reminds me of them”

I’ll go with my go-to song for when I want to be in PainTM over how it feels to love someone with mental illness: “Medicine”, by Daughter.

FRIENDSHIP ASK GAME!

#ask game #frodo baggins #elanor gamgee #lord of the rings #lotr #my writing #magnolia au #i dunno if it's just 2:30 in the morning but writing this.....literally put a physical pain in my chest #i think that means i'm doing the SadTM right

[iiryoku]

"Hey. Want to talk about it?" / @sagnaevi ( Cid )

If fair lips parted now, then all that would leave would be partly a lie. For truth be told, Clive did wish to talk about all the heavy feelings within his chest, but also not, in fear of letting it all ooze out, like blood from an open wound, which was exactly what it would turn into, if he let it. It was why, he was almost always observing and reaching out a hand, instead of being the one requesting help, for the only kind of help he needed, was the mending of his heart. After all, he would have accepted death with open arms - so he had told himself - before all of this, once Joshua's killer had be dealt with, which... had turned out to be him. What was he supposed to say? That the only thing keeping him from ending it all, was, well, his own useful, useless existence, that made him able to help those in need of it and Cid's words having pulled him out of the hole that he had placed himself in, where he had begged for the man to kill him. He had shed his tears, crawled on the cold, dirty ground, until he felt nothing and now, that had made him fear feeling everything again.

" What is there to talk about? "

Clive didn't know. He was still a monster, despite helping people. None of this made him any less of one and didn't erase all those lives he had taken that night, including his own flesh and blood.

#sagnaevi. ( Cid. ) #ask. #ic. - CLIVE. #I am sorry Cid awjoajw he is just sadtm

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#sadtm #sad #trademark #pale #Aesthetic #ignorant #art #arte #design #ignorantstyleart #flash #2023

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sadtm ☦️

#sadtm #clothes #roupas #fashion #fit #outfit #moda #weirdcore

[kellykadesperate]

i hate how much hormones and periods like mess ur brain up like am i feeling sad because of my period or am i sad sad ?? or am i sad sad but also extra sad because of my period?

#unleash me #you know when u just sit and think and .... SadTM #whose fault is that huh???

[honorhearted]

What was your mother like? If you recall, of course.

Ben smiled, a fond, rarely seen glimmer shining within his eyes. "Yes, I remember her," he murmured. "When I was very small, she'd take me out into the yard and we would garden together. Sometimes, we'd read scripture aloud beforehand, and then tend to the flowers -- roses were always her favorite."

Slowly, his thumb circled a nameless spot on his sleeve, and his expression grew wistful and far away. "She called me her little bumblebee, because I would flit from flower to flower, and was always noisy, excitable, and brimming with constant energy." Chuckling, he added, "Though now that I think about it, perhaps she called me that because I was also a bit of a pest."

A very specific ache flooded his heart, and Ben was quick to look away. "Mother was living proof that you didn't need to be in a person's life very long to make an impact. I miss her -- Father and I both do -- in more ways than I could ever possibly express. I always thought she smelled like bread and sunshine." Unbidden, his eyes grew wet, but he quickly blinked away the evidence. "She was soft and refined, and made sure no visitor at our door ever went home hungry. Father always said that she was his one great love, and someday, I hope to find the very same for myself." He shrugged. "No one is perfect, but Mother assuredly came close."

#Anonymous #about ben #ben and susannah #//UHHH such pain such wow </3 #thanks for sending this! even though ben's le sadTM now

[saturnchrona]

Besties this ain’t it 

#when will the sadTM stop #omg girlie you are so embarrassing stoppppp #like bestie get over it what are you doiiiiiiiiiiiiiing #>w< #gently throwing me off a mountain top #clown moment #zoglerika time #etc you know the drill #rant