What wonders me is that not more genderqueer folks are into kpop or general asian idol or japanese fashion, visual kei or even just gothic. Like that's such an A+ fucc gender norms style source and inspiration.
Instead I rather see more people who mock it or disregard it. But for me it was a revelation. I was looking for a style for me since years, but in my area all genderqueer folks go with the hipster vibe and that is so not my thing at all (which even had me questioning myself if this identity is what I am looking for, little bit dumb in hindsight but hey). I grew up as goth and in the visual kei scene that already had me steering in that androgynous & asian style direction anyways. Till college and uni days made me tone it down cause everyone was so serious and kinda posh in uni I couldn't be the weird goth kid anymore. We had to look professional and mature. Felt awful but I generally lost myself during uni days and had to find myself back.
So yea (re)discovering Taemin and kpop a few years ago was like an eye opener and jumpstarter to finally pull through with the outer genderqueerness adjustment of myself.
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alright guys ramble time but about one of my classes I have ok (boo tomato tomato)
I've been thinking about this for so long at this point but it's crazy how there can be a whole room of people who you are comfortable being with at first right until they start talking about their opinions towards queer people/trans people
Like . Even if they aren't hateful towards them, but yet just "don't agree with their beliefs" or just don't. Understand much about it. And aren't really willing to learn more I guess?
I have a 7:30 am class, in which it's basically career exploration and helping you figure out what career you want, etc etc whatever
One class period we were supposed to be researching for scholarships, but due to it being like. What, middle almost the end of the semester nothing much would show up (to me at least). Which is fine, the class always ends up getting derailed somehow.
This time a classmate of mine brought up how this one classmate in her psychology class pissed her off bc he was the kind to openly speak up and oppose to whatever discussion there'd be, and that he always somehow manages to victimize himself I guess (saying this from memory so obviously it's not like. Exactly what she said to the class). By victimizing I mean that he either gets offended by a lot of the topics they discuss or just in general speaks up about the topics their class discusses. While I do not know much about him, I got the general idea that he is a white trans man who feels that his transness makes him oppressed like the other marginalized people (which is not wrong, just the way that the girl worded it made it seem like he would use this fact to "victimize" himself. Whatever that means)
That this one time she had saw him drop his pencil and she had told the teacher (when being questioned as to what happened I think) "she dropped her pencil" and he (her classmate) had gotten angry, because she misgendered him on accident.
And she kinda explains that how was she supposed to know what his pronouns were if she hasn't ever really talked to him at all? All while still like, using she/her pronouns.
It kinda just dove into the conversation of trans people in general, and how some people's beliefs don't agree with the concept in general. Some guy said that while he can kinda understand going ftm transition that he couldn't accept it the other way around, because of how he was raised and about how he felt towards his own manhood. His pride in being a man.
The same was discussed between the girls in my class, with the girl who started the conversation saying that her womanhood means a lot to her. That "those types of people like the concept of becoming a girl up until they have to get their period ....etc etc"
And at that moment it just kinda. Sunk deep in my stomach that oh yikes. wow I would never come out to any of you. I'd rather not explain my feelings of my own gender, hell one of them didn't even know what non-binary was!!!! And so I explained to the guy who didn't know that, and corrected him that what he thought was non-binary was actually called being gender fluid. Which well. ya know.
They weren't being mean about the discussion at all, at least not from what I remember it. They were open minded and calm, but the thing is that they were with people who thought the same as them (or well, I guess presumed to think the same, some of us just stayed silent for most of the discussion)
Would it have been different if someone, who was actually trans, sat with them? Would it have been different if I came out to a random group of strangers I don't know that well?
It stuck out to me that the conclusion everyone had come up with was to bring someone in who was trans, to ask them questions and "pick apart their brain" (as one guy put it) and they had suggested to bring the guy my classmate had talked about in the beginning.
My friend (or acquaintance, not sure tbh), who is in the same class as me had said that she knew someone who was ftm, someone who was way older and had raised his kid after transitioning
Some suggested to bring both of them in, to see their differing views on their transness and experiences, and I agreed on this too because I thought it'd be interesting to see and talk to other trans/queer people
It's just, I don't know why this has stuck to me. It's been weeks since I had that discussion. I'm sure that it's because I have my own conflicting and confusing thoughts on gender, and that the way some of them just. Worded or talked about trans people almost made me want to tear up? It's hard to explain the feeling I got, to hear someone bring up a point where i shit you not was "oh yea i remember hearing that theres a statistic saying that trans people are usually connected to being mental ill/autistic"
Like .blinks slowly. Do you think that being autistic just . automatically makes you trans? I've seen autistic people who are not, and I've seen trans people who are not autistic. The only reason why hearing statistics like that is possible is because people want to say that being trans makes them mentally ill.
Which is not even the case most of the time because it's really the way that people treat trans people !!! That makes them feel that way. The way they are treated are what makes them unhappy, what makes some not even want to come out.
It's just. I don't know man, would they have the same thoughts on seeing a drag queen/king? Would they think that's the same as being trans or what's up. If anything I'd want to pick their brains. To see what is it about transness that they don't understand. If I can help them become more understanding so that things like accidentally misgendering someone wouldn't become such a frustrating process to them.
Hell, even with me being confused and closeted I just. I don't know. I wish I spoke up more during that conversation. But the fear of giving myself away would eat me alive as it always does. I keep thinking, well what would their reactions have been if I did come out? They obviously wouldn't see me the same, hell I don't even think I'm trans but surely since they just. Their opinions on trans people would surely make them change their view on someone who they see as "normal" . It makes me want to rip my hair out because of it
I literally thought about this while working on Friday and I don't even have a specific thought or point to bring out, so I apologize deeply for that. Thanknuou for coming to my Ted talk auuuuahhhg
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Idk what it is about the kinda lonely, goofy & playful, but can be serious, mostly male presenting/identifying, protagonist with blonde hair, who has at least 1 prosthetic arm, who’s friends with an older male with black hair &/or multiple incredibly intelligent woman, who’s good with kids and animals, who has a brother or is a brother, that gets entangled with something magical that’s immortality/religious related, while dealing with abandonment trauma/parental figure issues, who has to save the world, & also clear their name and/or make up for past actions that has writers in a chokehold but yeah it’s a thing
Finn, Edward, Vash, & Link are basically the same person in different fonts. They all even have a similar color palettes & are just the 4 extremes with Finn being the most talkative and Link the quietest.
Tbh I’m tempted to call it the “1 arm blonde twink trope” because Edward & Finn imply losing their arm/limbs can be a temporary state that goes away or a permanent disability that grows with you depending on the writer, but they were all twinks /twink adjacent when they saved the world in the main story.
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