#so i'm serious about getting straight!

[sob-dylan]

i quit smoking weed a few weeks ago on account of my being a dumbass, and i have replaced that addiction with a newfound crochet addiction. so yeah. i guess you could say i'm doing "sobriety" better than any other "sober" person in the history of "sobriety."

#i've been crocheting a bunch of little necklaces and giving them to all my friends #and now i'm crocheting a tote bag with granny square hearts #and next i think i'm gonna crochet a capybara for my siblings birthday #i hate “sobriety” but i'm fucking crushing it tbh #(i'm putting “sobriety” in quotes bc i'm still drinking #but i'm not doing any other drugs #except for the poppers i did last weekend but to paraphrase the late great dr. wendy carr #how could anyone get satisfaction out of something that only last 19 seconds? #but fr i just learned that one of my friends had to go to the hospital after taking too much acid and a bunch of other shit last week #and there may even be some permanent side effects #so i'm serious about getting straight! #i'm serious!) #personal

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

putting my prediction on record now that the coming decade is going to see the rise of viral-marketed fancy at-home water filtration systems, driving and driven by a drastic reduction in the quality of U.S. tap water (given that we are in a 'replacement era' where our current infrastructure is reaching the end of its lifespan--but isn't being replaced). also guessing that by the 2030s access to drinkable tap water will be a mainstream class issue, with low-income & unstably housed people increasingly forced to rely on expensive bottled water when they can't afford the up-front cost of at-home filtration--and with this being portrayed in media as a "moral failing" and short-sighted "choice," rather than a basic failure of our political & economic systems. really hope i'm just being alarmist, but plenty of this already happens in other countries, and the U.S. is in a state of decline, so. here's praying this post ages into irrelevance. timestamped April 2023

#apollo don't fucking touch this one #serious post #not a shitpost #hope i forget about this post and have no reason to ever look back on it one day #fyi i'm aware that access to potable water is already a major issue in parts of the U.S. yes i know flint michigan exists #i'm saying that this issue is going to GROW unless local & federal governments work together to fix it. #so it's a matter of if we trust them to fix it. And well--do you? #what are the chances the government just denies there's a problem until the water actually turns brown #at which point it's already been common knowledge for years and people have just become resigned and that's our new normal #i'm mean come on. how many of us already believe that we're being exposed to dangerous pollutants we don't know about and can't avoid #like that's pretty much just part of being a modern consumer. accepting that companies will happily endanger your life for a few pennies #and the most you'll get is like a $50 gift card as part of a class action rebate 20 years down the line #probably the history books will look back on Flint as a warning and a harbinger that went ignored #luxury condos will advertise their built-in top-of-the-line filtration systems--live here and you can drink water straight from your tap! #watch the elite professional class putting $700 dyson water filtration systems on their wedding registry #while the rest of us figure out how to fit water delivery into our grocery budget while putting 90% of our paycheck towards rent #also eggs are $15

[clar-a-m]

Imogen and Laudna bouldering AU, inspired by @theunqualified1's fic Chalk It Up To Luck

More drawings for this fic here

#critical role #critical role c3 #imogen temult #laudna cr #imodna #my art #my stuff #not sure if i should really tag this as imodna but it's an imodna fic so hope it's alright #i'm actually very proud of these they look very nice #this was not intentional but i like the contrast between these 2 drawings #imogen looking very serious and focused and the background being very stiff with lots of straight lines #and laudna looking super happy and just having fun in a natural environment and being her weird self #but they're both in their element #also i love arm #best part of this au is that i get to think about arm 100% of the time while i'm reading it #doesn't matter if they're mentioned or not i'm thinking about it!! #anyway yall should read it it's an amazing fic

[devouringbodies]

Need an au where Will is a waiter at some diner in Louisiana and Hannibal is down there for whatever fucking reason but he stops in everyday cause despite the ....charm of the place not being his usual dining deal it's actually pretty good and the waiter is super cute. Anyways. Hannibal kills all the customers who are rude to Will.

#🪰 #hannibal #hannigram #will graham #hannibal lecter #living through this vicariously #straight up if you're rude to food service workers/cashiers/receptionists for just doing their jobs literally die I'm so serious #I'll say it again hannibal lecter was right if you're needlessly discourteous go get hit by a truck about it #waste of air fr

[giantkillerjack]

ur post about queerbaiting and the dismissal of people in fandom to critical analysis is so incredibly true thank you. i feel like marcille's writing in the anime has been super misogynistic a lot of the time and every time i bring this up all anyone wants to say is "well maybe this isn't for you! and you shouldn't watch the show!" like. i don't think this is about taste lmao, i am analyzing the text in front of me and coming to conclusions about the craft of it.

[This is in reference to this post]

YES!!! THANK YOU!!!!!

It is so so frustrating!!!!

It's like being at a restaurant and being served a bunch of delicious appetizers, but then one of the bread appetizers is literally just a plate of crumbs; and then when you're like, "Hey, uhh, why are we being served literal crumbs?", a bunch of the other folks eating at the restaurant are like,

"WELL HOW ABOUT YOU JUST DON'T EAT HERE THEN??!? YOU MUST NOT BE THAT HUNGRY, SO JUST FIND ANOTHER RESTAURANT AND DON'T EAT WITH US!!"

And maybe they say it politely, but "Aw, sorry, maybe this restaurant just isn't for you 💖" is just trading out an aggressive dismissive tone for a patronizing dismissive tone. It's the same message.

And it's like! I was honestly happy to move on from the crumbs once my complaint was acknowledged because the meal overall is still delicious, but then all these folks got SUPER WEIRD AND DEFENSIVE ABOUT IT, so now I find myself double-checking all the other dishes -- and, actually, you know what those eggs DO look a Iittle misogynistic undercooked!!!!

#original #queerbaiting #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #falin x marcille #marcille x falin #marcille donato #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi marcille #listen i like marcille but u r right she is basically there to be a wet blanket a LOT of the time and that is a sexist trope #i think the bar is super super low for female characters in adventure anime and the lack of constant ogling maybe makes the female #characters feel better written than they are. i mean falin basically has no personality. she's got an innocent heart but that's nothing. #and i think these conversations are worth having bc no piece of media is perfect and this is how we learn to do better #also like. I've seen media criticisms that make me go 'oh you straight up should reserve commentary bc you #haven't watched the show and you're wrong' or 'i see what you're saying but you are simply incorrect' but like #i don't think I'd tell someone to just NOT watch Hazbin Hotel bc they have a bad take - and certainly not bc they have accurately #pinpointed a real flaw about the show (of which there are more than a few but frankly not what became the biggest subject of Disc Horse) #Angel is actually an amazing character & i think people mistook a criticism on the way abuse is glamourized as actually glamourizing abuse #like his song about abuse is called Poison and he's trapped in an abusive performance contract - bringing to mind Britney Spears #i think it is a wildly triggering and painful scene but i think a lot of people took the pain it gave them to mean it was bad art #but tbh they are still allowed to eat at the table if they so choose!!! #sorry i got sidetracked - as an abuse survivor Angel just matters a lot to me. i have a couple serious criticisms of vivziepop's work but #Angel is very much not one of them #also in regards to the actual subject of this post i think the most audacity of the responses i got was the one that said #that by complaining about queerbaiting I was 'de-incentivizing writers to write any interaction b/t women that could look even a little gay #and I'm just like. good. I hope they stop writing entirely. if the takeaway from 'please don't sell me bread and then serve me crumbs' is #'WELL NOW I JUST WON'T BAKE ANY BREAD PRODUCT' then that person is a bad chef. they should find a different job. #or at least do a whole lot of work on themselves. but either way i wouldn't be too broken up to know i won't be getting any food from them. #'just leave then' is so obviously a gut reaction defense mechanism & it implies media criticism should only be for things you don't like

[pianokantzart]

Aaahhh you guys weren't kidding about ep 4 being uncomfortable

#which I get it? it's intended to be uncomfortable #it's just so weird that 99% of this show has sex as a punchline #and then they get all serious about a sexually & emotionally abusive relationship real quick #I guess I'm glad they're attempting to approach this? It's not a kid show after all #but it feels like a kids show so often that it definitely gives you whiplash. #It's a really strange combo of adult themes and kid plotlines #so many lines feel ripped straight out of a Saturday morning show #then Angel starts talking really seriously about his self loathing and self destruction and #like I said. Whiplash. #maybe the pacing is partly to blame. IDK #hotel watch

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly lmao 2024 lambda literary award finalist wynnstannery

#have probably already heard of these awards w/o absorbing it but has a sizable [twitter acct you follow follows this acct] overlap for one #wikipedia blurb ''to recognize the crucial role lgbtq writers play in shaping the world...celebrate the very best in lgbtq literature'' #Lol! naturally everyone set to laugh abt Individually being lambda award finalist Authors amidst 40+ anthology contributors. sure #and of course oh absolutely crucial cam stone page. we did make the back of book blurb too after all #born of [crucially soph nothingunrealistic (a) investigates that akd role which (ai) leads to me also checking it out. later (b) #investigates this Call For Submissions For All Trans F&F Zine which (bi) leads to me going ''oh so true cam stone Needs to be there''] #all originating in The Wrong Fake ''Fans'' Show Up For Billions By Way Of Beloved Character Winston lmao #b/c fr imagine the trans f&f zine Doesn't have a Did You Know That???? page abt a delightful akd role & canon nonbinary f&f character #but this amidst Plenty of ''fake'' ''wrong'' ''fans'' messing around w/the concept of Fast & Furious as a Work throughout #as i said & got the feedback of [hell yes You Get It] that the premise Guarantees you get a very Varied & inherently Playful response #not b/c playfulness need be ''unserious'' but it sure need not be ''serious.'' like f&f itself; as part of [the premise guarantees it] #& that the Range of ways ppl can approach this broad concept is like the Range of ways ppl can approach the broad concept of Gender lol #& not Unearnest but needing no Gravitas / ''serious'' ''legitimacy'' guaranteed in turn to ''validate'' your efforts #and your not being the ''right'' or ''expected'' audience getting the perhaps straight(tm)forwardly intended experience here lmao #so in many ways it did feel very resonant / relevant to wynnstannery #embracing [the one use of: editor's note!] and [the one use of: the word ''autistic''!] #2 trans 2 furious #which is probably gonna get a physical reprint sooner than later; pdfs still available despite the lack of link there #was already The Intention if vaguely so; now with the added ''can put the 2024 Lambda Award Nominee / Finalist on the cover lol'' #page 54 (i believe) brought to you by a couple of quantnoisseurs; rushed to finish last minute then ft. some post deadline edits lmao #classic....nonzero other works i've Heard Of! nice #which: sure does seem like the focus here is like ''did you hear about these books? :)'' as many ''awards'' can ultimately be #like i Am hearing about them now. had seen abt Being Ace on twitter interesting interesting. hi honey i'm homo hell yeah #do we have one or two f&f films left? put cam stone cameo in there for real. Fast furious worth the effort worth the cost #& just shoutout to the like bifurcation of Akd Role Types. [intense in a relatively restrained affect way. some dramatic flair for sure] #and [spontaneous! vivacious! bright! playful! pretty emotionally open!] that's right lmao

[bearballing]

what qualifies something to be Queer Media anyway. does it have to be About being lgbt or just contain themes and or characters that are ?

if the latter then beast machines is the best queer media because there is a subplot that is a ""love triangle"" between 3 characters and there are themes of homophobia and self identification (gender allegory) and etc etc etc

i'm jk though. beast machines is not actually good.

#but it IS but it ISNT #but it IS but it COULD HAVE BEEN but i am So serious about this plot point with blackarachnia/jetstorm/thrust btw #also tenkai knights because as the show progresses you see granox and slyger go from #coworkers who get on each others fucking nerves to friends to lovers #and in sd gundam force zapper zaku and grappler gouf are married and that's that #and also zero and bakunetsumaru are definitely something about One Person Making You Realise Youre Not Straight #also zero is the robot equivalent of being a trans guy who is non-hrt #because i said so. #anyway the point i'm REALLY making is that the queer media tourney is dumb

[chamerionwrites]

Re: the so-called friendzone, it would be MUCH easier to date those whose friendship you deeply value if so many people didn't suck so hard at maintaining post-romantic friendships!

#i have absolutely zero hard feelings about the mutually amicable breakup w my first v serious partner who was a close friend of many years #i STILL get hit by flashes of intense unexpected grief bc that convo included both of us saying ''promise we will stay friends'' #and i kept that promise and so did he right up until he got married :/ #like i get that it can be complex and also people can be weird about it but it doesn't have to BE weird if you choose not to make it so #and also. well meaning and understandable and unforeseeable as it may be. you lied to me bro. ://// #anyway sorry for inflicting my maudlin decades old and tbh mostly healed angst upon you all #usually i don't even think about it but once in a rare while it surprises me with how much it fucking stings #sorry maybe i'm missing something but idk why people act like this is sooooo unfeasible. rip to you but i'm different. #and so are several of my OTHER exes FOR THE RECORD #ANYWAY straight woman who fails hard enough at gender to make male friends more easily angst hours i guess #my posts #also #gender stuff

[syrenki]

travelling on a low budget is all fun and games until you have to share a small room with multiple people at night and you have to put your fantasies on mute........ how is a girl to daydream in these conditions

#this requires um. dubbing. facial expressions #well not dubbing but yk what i meannnn like i have to make noise when i'm alone i ALWAYS make like unhealthy amounts of noise #like man i'm gonna react to what's happening!! how am i expected to keep a straight face #i will randomly burst out laughing or get so embarrassed at myself i'll just like groan with dissatisfaction #and i know i gotta be real quiet about it when i'm so close to people #problem is i'm a little bit addicted to my lifestyle of constant undertones running parallel to the physical reality #and i can't live without it #but now i'm gonna live like this for liiiikeeeee a week? so. god. really idk what to di #i'm gonna have to close myself in the bathroom and let it out i suppose #get my fill and i'm good to go #truly like you don't understand how serious it is. to me. #mine

[bugsbenefit]

ST is much more inspired by Stephen King than we tend to acknowledge and i mean MUCH more

Warning: Major spoilers for Firestarter by Stephen King (also Carrie, IT and the Talisman but only teeny tiny one's)

some parallels on the show get talked about a lot, especially with how the writers are very vocal about them/them getting verbally mentioned in the show:

IT, by Stephen King, for example, gets constantly referenced in ST. it's an aesthetic inspiration: small town, townsfolk doesn't know about the HorrorsTM, kids riding around on bikes taking it into their own hands etc. they also took massive inspiration for Vecna and his visions -> classic Pennywise move. but even more specific things, like the balloons at the snowball exploding in blood, or the painting plot of receiving a love confession that gets attributed to the wrong person, are IT plot points

also easy to catch is, the Talisman, by Stephen King, since it gets read out loud by the end of s4. it will for sure somehow play into s5. even just with it's main premise being two worlds that are identical mirrors of each other and having to defeat the evil on the other side to save your own

those two parallels are obvious. but as someone who read Way too much Stephen King growing up, those two are not the only two works that were referenced heavily in the writer's room

for example: Carrie has crazy parallels to ST, especially El and Henry and the concept of powers as a whole. a really quick rundown of themes that get reflected in ST or even incorporated to some degree: (short, because i'll make an actual in depth post on this when i finally find the time to reread it properly)

the religious imagery and fanatic religious followers, the way powers seem to work to begin with (with negative vs. positive emotion as their source playing a big role), the way people respond to the powers (fear, attributing them to a demonic source, isolation as both punishment And a breaking point for Carrie) her relationship with her mother (an abusive parent), bullying tying into powers, and of course, Carrie's main rampage the book is famous

BUT. what i think is one of the biggest parallels on the show for how obvious it is -> the lab and El as a whole are 1000% inspired by Firestarter. i'm so serious it's not even a small reference. it's literally the exact same in large parts

the parallels of ST to Firestarter are absolutely Insane so to show how OH it is, here's the general plot summary of Firestarter (spoilers):

a couple takes part in an experiment while in college because they need the money. (can't remember if it was MKultra explicitly or just implied but yeah, it's MKultra) as a side effect of the substances and hallucinogenics (LSD) they were given the mother develops minor telekinetic powers and the dad has some form of mind persuasion abilities afterwards. they go home with the money, however, get continuously observed by the organization to monitor any additional effects but then they have a daughter who has Big psychic powers because of the tests done on them. the organization who did the original experiment finds out and tries to take the girl. (the mom dies as the husband and child manage to flee) long story short, after being on the run for a while, the daughter gets taken by the men and locked up in a lab facility. where she's confined to a room, has guards that keep her from leaving, and has to participate in "tests" where scientists try to figure her powers out. especially intense though is the director of the organization, who becomes obsessed with her and her powers while at the lab, the man, who was hired to kidnap her in the first place, now takes interest in her and assumes the identity of a worker in the facility, a janitor, to appear more harmless and get access to her. he manages to gain her trust with this disguise and convinces her to actually demonstrate her powers, which have become incredibly powerful and destructive after some HorrorsTM she witnessed prior later she manages to escape the facility when her dad shows up to get her back. however the "janitor" claiming to be her friend kills her father which causes her to express powers on a level never seen before with which she kills both the "janitor" in disguise and the obsessed organization leader (while also having almost everyone present in the building die as a result of her exploding it and any military vehicle approaching as she escapes) PS: she and her dad hide out from the organization in an old abandoned cabin of his in the woods for an extended period of time PSS: the book ends with her going to a newspaper and planning to reveal what has been going on at the lab to blow their cover and get them to finally stop hunting her down

it's LITERALLY THE LAB. IT IS. it's one of THE most obvious parallels in ST imo and i'm shocked i've never seen Anyone bring it up (also need to reread the book soon and make a longer post about it because there's SO much there) but this is literally the conception and later downfall of the lab in s1-2. and now with s4 it even covers some of the general conditions there with the tests and guards and Henry and. just. hhh. it's the SAME. Brenner, Henry, Hopper, Terry, and El are all in this book

also fun fact: the book is called Firestarter bc the girl is able to, duh, start fires. but it later turns out that her powers actually Aren't just pyrokinesis. she has general powers (very similar to Carrie). the fires only happen because of the insane energy levels she's able to channel, they're just the Side product. she can also just use normal telekinesis -> even robs an airport coin telephone at one point (El stealing is fun Hopper and Will let's commit fraud Byers would be proud of her)

Stephen King books like IT and Carrie seem like obvious inspirations for some elements of ST. but Firestarter especially is such an obvious inspiration and for Sure the blueprint of Hawkins lab it's not even funny. Stephen King in general seems to be a BIG influence on ST as a whole which makes sense with the way the Duffers talked about him before...

but i'm so serious, when i say Stephen King is probably the place where you'll consistently find The Most ST references and spoilers for future plot points, i MEAN it

#watching ST for the first time in 2019 coming right out of my Stephen King phase and having read a dozen of his books #''hm this seems oddly familiar...'' #no but i'm serious the parallels and straight up references are sooooo they're so out there #i really need to get around to finally rereading some of them #there's tons more parallels i didn't even touch on here #stranger things #st analysis #ST and King #<- tagging this for when i finally reread and start going in depth on this #el hopper #henry creel #<- IT is a general ST inspiration #but Firest. and Carr. are specifically about El Henry powers and the Lab

[11bountyhunters]

There's a difference between "all men are trash" and "all men are trash"

it's subtle but it's there.

#talk tag #radfems are so annoying!! #why are they so annoying? #i saw one refering to women as gyns? #gyn??? like gynecology????? like my fucking vagina???? #im cis and that made me uncomfortable! #gyn????? #look if i ever met a feminist who is a bit TOO serious about her dislike for men i'm walking away #and like #there's no way that all these radfems are lesbians #you see the queer community? it's vast! it's huge! it can accompany everyone if you let it! #it's not just the LGBTIA #so some of these radfems have to be straight right? #like just statistically speaking #what do they do when they get a crush on a man? #what do they do when they find themselves attracted to men?

[familyofpaladins]

Broke: Evil Doppleganger says something mean to Friend and creates mistrust between the Real One and the Friend Woke: Evil Doppleganger says something mean to Friend and is immediately taken out because the Friend knew they were a fake and "-they would never say that" Bespoke: Evil Doppelganger says something mean to Friend, and is immediately taken out, because Friend thought it was the Real One. And Real One should know not to say such mean things

#Real one off to the side helplessly watching: heh heh. That's right hit me in the face!!! I know I'm mean sometimes but that's too far #And deserves a good punch to the face #Friend to (unknown) clone: we may be friends but that's no way to speak to each other !!! *DECKS them in the face* #Just #Somethign something about evil clones being almost too good at saying what the real one would say #But gets to the point where it's taken too far. And the friend just decks them out of anger . Cause that's RUDE!!! #Bonus points if the punch/hit actually completely takes out the clone #And friend thinks they straight up killed them and feels so guilty for letting their emotions control them #(Not knowing that the clone was significantly weaker than the real one) #And the real one has to take several minutes to convince them that they're really alive and fine and - #'If I ever say something like that to you. I fully expect you to hit me in the face' and they're dead serious about it #Anyway uuuhhh #Tropes #Evil Doppleganger trope #Evil clones #Memes

[britneyshakespeare]

i had a really weird interaction on youtube the other week. i commented on a short tv clip of someone gay doing something funny a few years ago and i said smth sweet and generic like “oh wow that’s cute i love him” and it became a top comment so sometimes i still get notifications of ppl liking or replying to it. 

but for some reason, you know how faceless people on the internet will say their most shallow and judgmental thoughts to a real person like it’s not the rudest thing you can do? yeah that happened. i had left the most impersonal, inoffensive comment in the world but someone responded to me “just admit you’re only entertained bc he’s obviously gay and you project your lack of a personality onto that”

and i was just like. honestly shocked. like what? you literally don’t know me at all. i didnt even say I WAS GAY in the comment or anything about being gay it was LITERALLY just a tv clip i thought was funny and cute. but this angry homophobe who clearly just hates to see queer ppl have fun and make jokes on the internet made it *my* problem...

and like first of all i don’t do that. i don’t just identify w everyone i come across who is queer and funny and root for them for that reason alone. the only person i project my lack of personality onto is dave davies... ok... chill out that’s not what i watch jeopardy for, that’s why i listen to the kinks

#the clip itself wasn't even about being gay it was just a guy doing a snap #OBVIOUSLY GAYYYYYY #i mean the guy was gay but like. get a life? get a life #tales from diana #get it right. i'm very specific w how i project my lack of personality onto real people i can overly-personally identify w okayyyy #ok~ teehee :) #seriously though what a catty fucking homophobe #im not even a gay man. my life and my taste in art has definitely ALWAYS INCLUDED LOTS OF QUEER MEN ok but am i one? no #and that's fine. they're part of my community very much but i don't look at every single one and am like 'omg youre so me bestie' #dave davies is the only (arguably?) queer man i project myself onto. and he had to be a complete dandy and musical genius to earn that #(dave davies actually doesnt identify as queer but he does speak openly about his experiences w men... he grew up in a different time #and he's allowed to identify however he likes its not my business. debbie harry is kind of in the same boat saying shes straight now #but used to be bi... let the boomers say whatever they want as long as theyre not policing us which neither of those ppl are) #(personal identification is personal) #this whole post is Not That Serious btw in case this needed a tone indicator

[corbinite]

hot take: the main reason motivational bodybuilding videos always have horrible corny quotes and captions about “your only enemy is yourself you gotta grind every day” is so that the bodybuilding community never realizes that they just wanna look at other shirtless buff men. The quotes are just pretext

#mine #corbinite gets real #whether they wanna look at other men for motivation or gay reasons #and let's be real the boundary between those two things is not particularly solid #I'm not saying bodybuilders are all secretly gay #just that sexuality is fluid and even though most are probably ostensibly straight #they're in an environment that still is very conducive towards bringing that fluidity out #but at the same time the macho culture that bodybuilding demands is generally hostile towards anything other than cishet male norms #(this is changing) #and so the awful quotes are there to mask that fluidity and reassure them that they are in fact straight #they're just Really Serious About Motivation I Swear #and I mean yeah most of them are still straight cause labels always have some wiggle room #but try telling that to them #tldr intricate rituals yeah we know them

[louisdelac]

i physically can't write the roman/tom abo thing right now. like. i can't get my thoughts in order. i need you all to know that it boils down to alpha!roman/omega!tom, but roman can't top and tom can't top, but roman is such a stereotypical alpha that tom is sure roman is just being an asshole whose hazing him, meanwhile roman is just all posture no follow through, because all he really fantasizes about is another alpha actually confronting him and forcing him to submit. and it leads to the least satisfying cheat-bait relationship in the world. and greg is there.

#there's a version of this that makes perfect sense #but their abo relationship is simply too complex for my brain to explain right now #i also like omega!roman/omega!tom BUT i love atypical abo presentations and so alpha roman is close to my heart #also they both top if we're being honest but it takes 9 years to get there #and they just have weird posturing jerk off sessions alone in their rooms before that #um #what's my tag for this #omegaverse #i SWEAR i have a serious post about this. somewhere. in my nbrain. #it's complex it's real it's examining gender. i swear. #bella's drinking human blood rn to feed her baby and it's fucking with y ability to explain the extremely real and intesne abo thoughts i'm #having rn #i'll get there. #as soon as i can see straight i'll dig into this. #my ramen is getting col #d #i can't read any of this back. sorry #drunkposting