#so not only is it CLEARLY NOT SAFE

[bedazzlecunt]

i really do have to emphasize that like. horny tumblr is a fucking horrible place to learn about kink. at least half the people here have never had sex (or done kink without sex) beyond sexting on omegle, and even the ones who do have any experience with sex and and kink and IRL kink spaces (including myself!) are mostly engaging in fantasy and theatre and performance. that's fine! that's fun! there's nothing wrong with that. but i do worry so much about all the 18 yr olds i see on here who've never had sex, many of whom have never been in a relationship, and who are building ideas about kink and sex and health based on the most deranged fantasy-of-the-sort-you-literally-cannot-do-safely-irl tumblr posts. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not take any tumblr posts as actual kink education, including and sometimes especially the ones claiming to be actual kink education. there are actual books and groups and dungeons for that.

#wren speaking! #im not saying that theres 0 good advice but i am saying that like #there is so little good advice compared 2 the utter nonsense #'how to safely choke someone' you cannot safely choke someone. it is literally impossible #'aftercare guide!' clearly written by someone who has never so much as gotten 2 third base let alone done aftercare #'what to do if you cant communicate with ur dom' the only thing To Do in that situation is not 2 play

[vaguely-concerned]

I'm playing through Dragon Age 2 again and I just can't get over how... idk how to say it exactly, but the way you feel, in every moment of this game, how much Varric loves Hawke. It feels entwined with everything, it breathes through every part of the narrative, it blooms diegetigally through the integration of story and gameplay, makes you a co-conspirator in that love in a way maybe only a video game could.

It's in the way I don't think this story is a defense of Hawke only -- or even primarily -- directed at Cassandra, but at Hawke themselves. Beneath everything else going on there's the quiet, utterly unshakable refutation of Hawke's worst fears: Did you think you mattered, Hawke? Did you think anything you ever did mattered? . . . You're a failure, and your family died knowing it. Rising through the story as Varric tells it there's a fiercely tender voice saying: Yes, you did matter. In tragedy or in triumph, for better or for worse, in love or in hate, you always mattered. The ultimate tragedy of Hawke is always right there in the open before the story even starts letting you in on telling it; they couldn't fix anything. They couldn't stop the downward spiral Kirkwall was set on -- the real truth is that no one person ever could. And yet the point of DA2 is that it matters that they tried, and it matters that there were people who loved and were loved along the way, however badly it all failed in the end. Hawke is the Bioware protagonist who succeeds the least, and they're the character who matters the most, to me. (This is also why the Absolution reveal did not shake me in the least haha, my love for Hawke has nothing at all to do with whether they succeeded or failed at anything.)

What Varric is saying, in the only way he seems to be able to say the really real things -- through stories -- is so simple and so fundamental. You were here, and I loved you. There's the emotional heart of it, at the end of it all, that love and grief and recognition. It's so dizzyingly intimate. There's so much distancing, layers upon layers of obfuscation, to be able to say it. It drives me insane!!!! It makes me feel the same way that 'Poem' by Langston Hughes does:

I loved my friend.  He went away from me.  There's nothing more to say.  The poem ends,  Soft as it began,— I loved my friend. 

He loved his friend. They went away from him. What more is there to say. (Many, many, many things, when you're a compulsive liar and storyteller, but hey sometimes you have to deploy a whole armada of lies to tell one simple truth, I understand, I'm a writer too lol)

#dragon age #varric tethras #dragon age 2 #dragon age meta #hawke #on second thought let's not go to kirkwall; it is a silly place #when merrill says she just says 'I love Hawke' to herself because it's the only thing in the world that makes sense sometimes... #varric clearly Felt That lol #how can I have played this game so many times and still have such intense feelings about this. help. the unreliable narrator got to me ok #dragon age absolution spoilers #it's real vague but let's be safe. anyway meredith can come back idc. the dragon from the bone pit could come back. #Hawke could keep falling on his face forever and I'll still be out here like 'You're doing amazing sweetie don't worry ;____;' the whole wa

[erabu-san]

Hmm I apologize again for the rant !

It is not the first time I am doing it. I might forgot to put "please don't tag it as ship" under my drawing of tighnari cyno. Please, do not !

I love them as best friend, I love them as brother/found family, I don't mind the queerplatonic relationship at all

But their romantic side make me pretty uncomfortable. No hate ! It is my own taste.

Shippers are always welcomed and I am so glad you like my content 💕 but all my art concerning them (unless I tag the ship) are purely platonic. I just ask for some respect of my taste and not reblog my art with the ship tag.

I don't want to block, because I am genuinely glad you enjoy my work and as a young artist, it means a lot for me. Thank you so much 🙇 !! But as a human, I can't deny how uneasy it makes me feel.

Thank you for understanding !

#rant #I blame nobody #i am clearly not used to block ): I should tho but I know those who tag ship are not mean at all </3 #it is fine if you don't know. #but i saw people reblogging my art with shiptag even if i said “do not” #my art is like my only safe place please respect it #this ship is so popular and I clearly stop to interact with the fandom because of that #i clearly ignore when I saw one in my timeline /dashboard becausz I can't do nothinf against it except masking the account #but I beg you. not. under. my. post. #not in my DM #why i feel obligated to justify myself 😭 #but yeah !!! the ship is valid and full of greenflag !! wholesome !! #but I only enjoy them platonically !!! please respect 😭😭😭 I SWEAR I AM DESESPERATE WHY IT IS SO HARD FOR SOME TO RESPECT THAT OMG #gosh on twitter someone said me “ignore ??? what did you expect ??? it is the most popular ship” #I AM TRYING I AM LITERALLY NOT SEARCHING FOR FANART 😀 #feeding myself with my own food #that's why I am so grateful for people who support me. thank you. 😭 #and how could I ignore a comment under my post ??? interaction are so important for me I read everything #ANYWAY SORRY FOR RANTING !!! IT IS CLEARLY A /NOTMEAN POST !!! #next time I won't forgrt “do not tag it as ship” #but urgh if I do this I have to do in every post ???? 🤨 #and what if I draw tighnari cyno kaveh but I don't mind ship with kaveh ??? 🤨🤨🤨 (plz still don't) #tHERE IS PLENTY OF CYN0N4RI ACCOUNT IF YOU WISH TO SEE MORE CONTENT OF THEM !! Please support them <<3 mine are platonic ! #but clearly. imagine you are obsessive about two characters <<3 #but their popular ship is the one who make you the most uncomfy 😀 #so you decided to just stop looking at fanart and not bothering anyone 👍👍 #but it came under your post and your DM 😟 #AAA SORRY I AM SALTY I SWEAR I AM NOT USED TO FEEL LIKE THIS ):< #anyway plz take care ilove you mwah 🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕

[violentviolette]

honestly real talk tho the longer and longer i have been really deeply involved with cluster b pd stuff the more i really do believe that the entire catagory needs to be dissolved, reevaluated, and remade. we need to radically change how we view and speak about these symptoms

i used to criticize the dsm6's decision to do just that, and dont get me wrong i still do think the new model needs work, but the current one we have is fundimentally broken and useless. getting diagnosed (or diagnosing urself) with a current cluster b pd is at this point actively harmful to ur own mental health and thats just unnacceptable.

no one knows what they're talking about, no one understands the criteria, no one can agree on the criteria, or understands the history of it, the cultural misinformation is too widespread and great to be properly divorced from it at this point and is infact leeching into practice to do irreparable harm to people, people treat them like hogwarts house identities, theyre not helpful for understanding core underlying disordered thought processes or unpacking where they come from, all 4 catagories are steeped in huge amounts of ableism, sanism, racism, and misogyny, new studies and meta data and long term case studies show most of our understanding is misguided, its really and truly just a mess and its doing more harm than good at this point

and like yea, some of that is because people are stupid and ignorant and dont want to learn and so it'll always be an issue, but when its at *this* scale its a foundational problem. because at the end of the day these diagnosis only exist to help people articulate their experience so they can be heard and get the help and support they need, and so if they arent doing that and the catagories are only making it HARDER for people to be properly understood then they're functionally useless

like at some point i think we gotta conceed that the problem isnt that absolutely everyone is just stupid and that if people are constantly disagreeing about basic criteria and tenants of a disorder, then the problem is the foundational understanding and it should be reevaluated. because peoples lived experiences and their emotions and their distress is whats actually tangibly real and its the catagories we use to explain that experience that is socially constructed and therefore should change

#jack.speaks #aspd #bpd #npd #hpd #cluster b #cluster b pd #cluster b personality disorder #npd safe #actually antisocial #im entering my abolishment era #if the current criteria cannot be understood and properly utalized to help ppl on a large scale it is useless and must go #and yall in this tag prove every god damn day that no one knows what the fuck theyre talking about #so clearly we need to restructure and redefine how we understand this #and i think the only way to do that at this point is to completely start over

[bhaalsdeepbat]

imo the thing about ascended astarion is that he does love his LI, but he no longer shows it in any meaningful way. everything he does is out of fear and he thinks he's performing a show of love, but has his vulnerability locked behind so many layers of a role he's playing. He's using this role as a layer of separation to prevent him from feeling weak and vulnerable in the way love makes him feel while also manipulating the LI into complacency so they don't leave him before the tadpoles are dealt with.

he can feel that flicker of what once was, but it's accompanied by feeling small and weak. the ways he doles out affection affirms that he is none of those things. so, no. not showing love, but showing how he's the one in control. like he tells araj, he needs people to know who owns who, now.

it comes back to "I can be yours, and you can be all mine. If only for the night," but instead of the the equal partnership that springs from the Graveyard Scene where they vow to be each other's for as long as the other will love them, accepting the uncertainty of that future because of the abundance of joy living a life worth living can bring when lived together, Astarion has to establish ownership over his LI.

He owns them, body, heart, and soul, but the only piece of him his LI has is the piece that no longer exists. the piece of him that was the sweet, vulnerable Spawn who was starting to see kindness in the world where it once was cold and unwelcoming.

he loves them, but it's locked up so deep, all he can feel is a flicker of remembrance, like he lost something.

#bat rambles #like he loved LI it's what motivated so much of his fear and just #confirming he ISN'T strong enough as is #he's gotta make sure he never shows weakness in the way LI made him feel through acts 1 & 2 #bc he feels SO weak compared to them especially relying on them to keep him safe #it's a flipping of that dynamic #rather than equally protecting each other and letting life happen #it traps his LI in a stasis and forces them to rely on him in ways he had to rely on them #also there's only so much they can do in a game where players have to make all the choices #so player has to consent to the relationship but it doesn't mean the relationship itself is consenting. especially since he promises #to eventually turn them into a true vampire but it's clearly not going to happen

[ozcarma]

combining some endings with a slash as I believe they serve equal narrative purpose. Feel free to elaborate which should go first or be omitted in the tags/comments if you would like :) I omitted the coffin ending as it’s not really an “ending” so much as it is a fail state for the true end

#zero escape #999 #9 hours 9 persons 9 doors #999 spoilers #ze 999 #this poll was originally gonna be ‘best door order playthru’ but that is WAY too long to put as choices #and it essentially asks what this is asking anyway #my choice is sub->knife->axe->safe->true #I could see an argument to wedge the coffin ending in before the safe ending and returning to true #if only for Santa’s ‘time to make a wish come true’ line be more at the front of the players mind #but that’s meh reasoning at best #I love the axe ending but I also like sub->safe->true and just dismissing the other endings #I think sub is so important to play thru ESPECIALLY get first because I think it sets the tone in its ending so so well #especially if you get the sub ending by choosing door 3 instead of 7/8 and then 2 #it very quickly and clearly shows off the protags cleverness and manipulation skills which come back again in the safe end #and then the ending itself being an Everyone Dies ending raises the stakes so much for ur next play thru #yes people die in other endings but this is EVERYONE #I personally think it’s good for tone #I really dislike the idea of people getting the safe ending first too #it reveals its hand SO early if you do - the antagonist of previous endings is just revealed #so if you get the knife or sub ending after the safe ending I think it ruins so much mystery #and I think a lot of scenes with Ace before the Safe ending are better when you don’t suspect him and see him as his Lame Dad persona #when u get Safe first and then keep playing with him after…idk u can still enjoy Lame Dad Ace but I think the betrayal hits harder #when u get Safe later after thinking u know about Ace outside of just the 6 door #but hey these are all my opinions - can’t wait to hear what others say :) #poll

[jimmyspades]

One more sappy post just to say happy birthday Jimmy, love you lots

He’s been one of my favorite actors for quite some time but it wasn’t until the last few months something clicked and I really fell hard. He’s what I needed when I needed it, a gorgeous bright spot in the midst of a rough personal time. Diving into his filmography has been a lot of fun and at times even challenging. There’s a lot about his best work that pushes me out of my comfort zone and asks all the painful, awkward, worthwhile questions we should all ask ourselves—and even harder, it confronts us with some of the honest answers.

I’ve learned a lot about myself and other people and sexuality and fear/anxiety and how to be a real person in the world. And I’ve watched some really terrible movies. Most importantly, I’ve met some very very amazing people who love Jim too and we get to hang out on this silly website every day and have fun :-) I think the greatest thing art gives us is community (in many forms) and I’m just very grateful to James for being the center of ours and introducing me to so many wonderful people. And he isn’t too bad himself ! A pretty special guy :’)

Soooo happy birthday Jamesy, thank you for being you—you’re the only one who can get away with it. You’ve made the world a much stranger, much more exciting place in every way ❤️❤️

#hope ur pleasantly tipsy listening to jazz right now. or sailing this weekend. or something idk whatever old men do now <3 #james spader #much of last fall is a blur. maybe thankfully so #but I so clearly remember lying in a hotel room in the midwest before my uncle’s funeral watching tbl #just bc it was safe and familiar and funny and one of the only things that didn’t send me reeling with grief at the time #I kept calling him a distraction then. which he kind of was. but I’m glad he’s more than that #anyway. anyway #thank you james

[asmo-cosmetics]

it just bewilders me that anyone could write a character as perfect as julian and then so obviously begin to hate him. it's so weird how much open unabashed contempt these writers have for the character their game is basically about.

i've said this before but i think that the prologue was written for a different version of the game, before the team decided to make julian the heel to asra's face and the butt of every joke. "a gift from a witch who fears commitment" was so obviously meant to be foreshadowing for a major plot point, but they just hand-wave it away in the story with like two lines of dialogue and a prayer.

"no, no, that was a red herring!!" no it wasn't. julian himself is already the red herring, making his implied backstory another red herring is the definition of a hat on a hat. asra and julian were clearly written for asra to be the bad guy in the asrian divorce, but then someone (everyone? i don't know) vetoed it because god fucking forbid we make asra look like an asshole even once.

asra is the writers' favorite and it's extremely obvious. he basically has no flaws, to the point of legit cliche. oh mc my only flaw is loving you TOO much. so even though julian is already written with a very clear archetype of "guy who hates magic because he got his heart broken by a witch" that comes through in basically everything about him, they have to paper over it in the story because we can't make asra look mean!

so they just make up for their shitty coverup writing by being like haha isn't julian silly? he was wrong about everything and he doesn't like magic hehe haha. leeches! meanwhile the bones of the characters they actually wrote are in asra too, because it's clear he's meant to have his "villain moments," he's meant to have sharper edges and even be scary, but someone decided that he has to be an uwu softboy and ruined him in the process.

as always i am not looking for a debate, i will block you.

#the arcana #the arcana wank #wank // #not to conspiracize but because i know these people's politics it's difficult not to imagine this has to do with gender #something something only men can be truly evil #so julian and lucio are bad because they're cis men #but asra is 'safe' because he's nonbinary and muriel is 'safe' because he resents the type of masculinity he was forced into #and nadia isn't evil despite all the shit she does because she's a woman #also how volta is the most sympathetic courtier (woman) #and valdemar is clearly feminine but they're nonbinary because they're Bad and a woman would never do something Bad #and the same thing with nazali where he's clearly a guy but he's Good so he's nonbinary because a man could never be Good #etc etc #also i love asra too. by the way. that's why i think he deserves to be written better

[potential-fate]

So, reinstalling my game broke a few of my old houses, especially apartments. and the brokes for some reason? I don't really play in my uberhood anymore, nor do I really plan to continue my pleasantview story. (if you were waiting for that uh... congrats on/thanks for following me for 3+ years ig?)

I still have a billion headcanons for them, but I just find Arkhelios to be far more compelling and fun and also more original on my part writing wise so 🤷‍♀️

ANYWAYS, I had to move out a ton of sims and back in. and since The Brokes feel more like an apartment family anyways, I moved them entirely.

Here's some pics of Dustin's new apartment with his two baby siblings.

#my posts #ts2 #sims 2 #the sims 2 #sims 2 builds #sims builds #my builds #if you didn't read my pleasantview story #Brandi disappeared in the middle of the night #leaving Dustin with Beau and Baby Broke (who I absolutely cancelled her pregnancy for and made Not Skip's) #The father is.... pretty obvious though lmao. #there's only so many men in town who match Noah Broke's complexion lmao #Dustin clearly knows a lot about baby-safeing an apartment (not)

[piosplayhouse]

Taking a seminar on toxic masculinity and monstrosity (othering) in modern medieval-themed media and literally every day I have to physically restrain myself from just applying everything in it to scum villain

#reading seven theses of monster culture this shit is so #'through the body of the monster fantasies of aggression; domination; and inversion are allowed safe exptession in a clearly delimited and #permanently liminal space. Escapist delight gives way to horror only when the monster threatens to overstep these boundaries..." #guys #svsss

[emile-hides]

For the ask game! Ramattra?

The man who got me my first 1,000 note post. Yeah I got the think thonks on him for sure.

One aspect about them I love

He's not as inherently cruel as you'd expect him to be. In fact, he's hardly cruel at all. He takes time before a mission to get to know his human teammates and is even willing to socialize with them, despite his apparent hatred for the species. Given how we know people who hate Omnics treat their Omnic teammates before a fight... It's rather surprising I think.

One aspect I wish more people understood about them

This is one I see in a lot of X Readers that make me regret making that gif but look. Guys look.

Just because a man is big with a deep voice does not mean he's going to walk you on a leash and call you his mutt.

Ramattra is not a dominator of any kind, sexually or otherwise. He's the only Overwatch character who actively kinkshames that very specific thing. He hates that Genji follows Zenyatta around like a little lost puppy, actively calls him disgusting over it.

He is not a violent person either. He didn't want any of this. He doesn't want to lead armies and have other tremble under his thumb and do every little thing he commands.

I'm just personally very tired of the Violent Dominate Ramattra X Readers... he's a softie actually... I would like more overrun with anxiety because he has no clue how humans work and actively fears hurting them on accident Ramattra X Reader...

Headcanons I have about this character

I've said this one to a handful of friends but one of my instant Ramattra takes is that he is constantly, beyond his control, scanning for threats around him, and all Humans as perceived as threats to his internal scanners. He's always hyper aware of the humans around him, how they're moving, breathing, speaking, their critical weakpoints, any potential weapons they may have, etc etc. To the point that he struggles to distinguish an ally from an enemy human while in the midst of battle.

Everything he does that might seem odd was in effort to appear more... Friendly to humans during his time in the Shambali. He's a very big Omnic, not the biggest, but bigger than average, and his model type being Generals in the Human Killing Army is enough to put everyone around him on edge, which he of course picks up, and it puts him on edge. So he does weird human things like Breath, Stutter, Hum, Cough. Anything to make himself a little more human.

He hates a lot about himself. He hates how big he is, he hates his original purpose, he hates the human traits he picked up and can't let go, he hates that his default is violence, he hates the sound of his voice when he yells, he hates the constant threat display in his head, he hates his creation and his creator and the brother who made him feel welcomed like he could be accepted despite all these things he hates about living as himself.

I don't think he wanted to lead an army or extinguish the human race. But it's what he was built for, and if no matter what he does people will only ever see him as what he was at the start, then why try changing that? He's on a self destructive mission, yes to save his kind, his dying race, his family, but also just to get away from the fantasy he'd built up of being someone different than who he is. Someone smaller and gentler and more... human. That clearly can't happen. It's not an option for him.

I think Ramattra's a Trans Woman.

One character I love seeing them interact with

I really love his interactions with Bastion!! And Zenyatta as well!!! I know it says one character but they way he speaks to them both is so!!!!!! Cute!!!

The little twigs comment in his canon interaction with Bastion!! The lore and bond he had with Zenyatta in the past!!! God it's my everything!!!

One character I wish they would interact with/interact with more

My friend @ow-old-men got me really really into the idea of him interacting with Orisa (curse you OW2) and just. Experiencing the world along side her. Two Omnics made for violence redefining themselves in familial rolls

Does Orisa know what a woman is? No. But she's still the first one to use She/Her Pronouns for Ramattra because she knows.

Headcanons I have that involve them with other characters

Orisa is Ramattra's egg cracker this is why Blizzard won't let them interact

I think he's the reason Mondatta was assassinated. It was part of the deal with joining Talon, he agreed to assist them if they could take Mondatta out. It was a deal he regretted making almost immediately

Because of his hostility to humans, Maximilien is required to be in every meeting Ramattra is in, for his personal comfort.

Do they actually talk? God I hope so. I hope they kiss on the mouth while they're at it. But also I think Ram would hate Max, because he's just too human. Ramattra has no room to talk though, what with his bad habit of breathing and all that.

Akande really likes Ramattra, likes his manner of holding himself and his conviction. Ramattra hates Akande and really really really wants him to leave him alone.

I think the idea of Ramattra figuring out Reaper's identity and constantly threatening his life is incredibly good fanon content that should continue

Zenyatta, for a very long time, hated and was more hostile to humans than Ramattra. This is why Ramattra brought him to the Shambali, to get away from humans.

#Overwatch #Headcanons #Thankyou for asking #Sorry about that big thing in the middle there #I have. Many Ramattra feelings #I have many Omnic feelings in general but Ramattra specifically gets me running laps #He's just so????? *Rattles him* You know??????? #Ramattra plagued with intrusive thoughts and Eldest Daughter Syndrome decides to end humanity #because clearly no one else will #The Brother version of Encanto's Surface Pressure did this to me #It's a Ramattra song for sure #Mental image of Mondatta finding Ramattra in New York after his awakening #Ramattra the only survivor of a brutal battle caked in blood and oil with a gun with one round left #He points it at Mondatta in terror scared to death of everything shaking and full of new feelings #Mondatta hugs him staining his beautiful white robes in blood and oil sharing his brother's burdens #Ramattra clinging to him feeling safe for the very first time #This is a very important scene in my head and I would draw it if I had any artistic talent whatsoever #Anyway that's all my Ramattra takes on the table thanks for asking

[bananonbinary]

thinking about this post and i don't necessarily want to add this to a reblog because I think it might be sort of off-topic, but anyway.

i think the "woman and nonbinary" trend is obviously being transphobic by treating nb and trans people as "women lite," AND is just incredibly hateful to all men, trans men included, but i think it's ALSO borne of the radfem-type ideology that says "women are the oppressed and cannot be the oppressors." in the same way that white women say they can't be racist, and straight women cozy up to gay bars, cis women feel right at home in trans spaces. women in general need to get a LOT less comfortable treating their womanhood as an automatic buy-in to all minorities. you're welcome if you're an ally, but you have to actually do that work first.

#this is slightly off topic of the op bc obviously a gender neutral bathroom is NOT a trans only space #thatd be silly #but declaring it a WOMAN and trans space #when the original intent was clearly to be inclusive of trans people #is just. audacious. #im fairly certain white women do this shit with poc spaces as well #just sort of inserting themselves into racism-safe spaces on the basis of being women #but i dont actually have any concrete examples so im not going to make that a Claim in the Post #ive certainly met women who would do that tho

[rewh0re]

honestly why do men

rant in tags

#hana.rambles #it'll be a rant #god so i was talking to this guy and #he goes like women in our society are so privileged and have so much more advantages than men #whatever could you guys complain for excepting like 1% the rest of y'all r living the best life #my guy #WE BELONG TO A CLEARLY PATRIARCHAL SOCIETY #where men are viewed on a much higher pedestal than women are #where we are scared to even go out alone at night #where our parents are scared to leave us alone at night because they dont know what might happen #you think women in this part of the country are safe and living the best life free of any harm #god it just goes to show how fucking delusional you are and how you live in a bubble #you think being a man is the hardest thing in the planet and that we women are lucky #YOU MY GUY don't know all the things you have that we are deprived of #look this in no way is me hating on men #im just saying that you dont have tp say shit like being a woman is the easiest shit in the world #cuz it isn't it never was #like it really baffles me how one guy can be so idk indifferent to the difficulties women have to face #and I'm not saying men dont have any #sure they do but YOU think that its only the men who go through difficulties #while we live the best life #educate yourself a bit on social matters #you're almost in uni #god i just hate it when ppl do this #anyways sorry for the rant guys #i just needed to vent

[skunkg1rll]

when i love someone i WANT to learn abt their past traumas, their insecurities nd pain so that i can learn how to love them right. i want to understand how i should treat, reassure and comfort them. i want to learn their love languages so i can love them the way they need

#but why.... does no one ever want to do that for me? #i always have to bend and reshape so im as little bothersome as possible #and ppl always say stuff like omg u need to communicate nd u need to tell them blah blah blah #ok but what abt when u actually do all of that but no one listens to u???? #i actually do communicate my needs. very clearly #yet... im never heard or listened to #am i just not worth that??? idk.. i dont get it #i just ache to be loved the way i love. bc i know that i love wholly and profoundly #but im gonna run out if i cant receive the love that i need #:(((( #also it just hurts to be so understanding and supportive and want ppl to be comfortable #but then i dont get to take up any space or i dont get to have needs #i should only listen but never ask for anything in return #it just sucks #have i done smth wrong??? or am i just an awful person? delusional? #bc i have NEVER been in a space where im safe to express my feelings #not w my family. not friends. not even my therapists lmao (theyve also criticized nd judged me) #so im starting to think that maybe i actually am wrong #maybe if everywhrre i go im met by this. maybe i just need to suck it up #and be grateful for whatever scraps of love im thrown #bc clearly i am doing smth wrong!!!!!!

[punkrogue]

some fucking idiot: when we say "magneto was right" we're saying he's right about society and shit not supporting his terrorist actions

me: don't lump in with your cowardly ass i'm in full throated support of his terrorism. sentinels, purifiers, the mardies etc are all real and exist and want mutants dead and literally no one gives a single shit. they'd rather pass the mutant registration act and make "scaly lives matter" jokes on twitter then help stop the genocide of mutants. it's a good thing actually he's blowing shit up and he should do more of it actually.

#xmen 97 #'his politics are good but i don't condone his plan to kill everyone on earth' my brother in dormammu-- #the earth is FULL OF UNKILLABLE SUPER ROBOTS WHO WANT TO ERADICATE HIS ENTIRE SPECIES AND ENSLAVE A FEW FOR A WORK FORCE FOR HUMANS #THEY JUST SENT AN ELDRITCH ROBOT SHAPED NUKE TO DESTROY THE BIGGEST MUTANT POPULATION AND ONLY SAFE HAVEN !!!!!! #WHAT PLAN DO YOU HAVE FOR THE BASTION ISSUE???? OR DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT WHOLE 'VIOLENCE ISN'T THE ANSWER' SHIT APPLIES #WHEN THE OTHER GUY IS SO TICKLED WITH HIS WORK COMMITTING A GENOCIDE HE'S PLAYING FUCKING PURPLE PEOPLE EATER ON AND TALKING ABOUT MEMOS #LOOK FOR THE DIPSHITS IN THE BACK-- DOCTOR FUCKING DOOM EVEN CALLED IT A WAR CRIME AND TOLD BASTION TO WATCH HIS BACK #WHEN DOCTOR DOOM THINKS YOU SUCK SHIT YOU'RE PRETTY VILE #BUT NO LET'S FUCKING TALK IT OUT #LET'S JUST ASK REAL NICE FOR THE UN TO GIVE MORE AID EVEN THO THEY'RE ACTIVELY PULLING OUT AND CLEARLY NOT INTERESTED IN GETTING INVOLVED!! #OR HOW ABOUT THE AVENGERS!!!!! OH WAIT!!! CAP WOULD ONLY WORK WITHIN THE BOUNDS OF US LAW AND INTEREST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #SENTINELS ARE REAL AND IN THE FUTURES OF RACHEL AND BISHOP MUTANTS ARE IN FUCKING CONCENTRATION CAMPS #BUT NO OKAY MAGNETO'S GONE TOO FAR OKAY I GET IT #i feel like i'm on crazy pills are before FOR REAL RIGHT NOW?!??!!!

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The only reason why my main paracosm will always keep its title as "main" even tho I have like a dozens more which aren't AUs & in which I pass more time now is because no matter how caught up in another world I am, the paras of my main paracosm will always find their way back to me as impulsive thoughts if not in another way

#my main parame spends a lot of time unconsciously popping up in my mind as if he was an alter fronting for someone who should not be real #like he keeps accidentally breaking the fourth wall except he doesn't know it but i can see/hear it all clearly babe i see u showering rn #not complaining tho i love his energy and his unexpected 3-hrs long monologues #also not trying to brag but i did pass years both irl and inside on that paracosm & its funny people #and its the only one that feels so natural to me like its home. its the first place i think of a safe place to go #its my whole world but so were other paracosms before which is why im so glad this one just refuses to let me go no matter what #these are my people in there and it feels good knowing theyre calling to me too like we all know i belong there #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #paras rant #paraportal #paracosm : Q