#so this might be more of a vent I guess

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt? #i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other?? #why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this?? #i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us?? #im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent

[causeimanartist]

Guys, I'm trying - but FUCK I can't draw Bruce or anything

#I've been futzing with this for the last 34 minutes and 32 seconds #(I was watching a drawfee video) #I think I've tried to draw his hair about 6 times #I just #I'm struggling so hard and it's making my heart beat faster as I get more stressed and I just wanna cry #why is this happening #art never used to be like this for me #it was something I could do for hours #it was fun and relaxing #why is it now such a source of stress #I could cry #maybe I am tearing up a bit who could say #this started off as a joke post but it's also a vent now I guess lol #back to drawfee #or animal crossing I might give up #sigh #wip

[laniemae]

hey so uh I’m back

kinda

I don’t know how to word this. But my break is over I guess. I ended up leaving for longer as I didn’t know how to handle returning and I wanted to do it on a better day, and I’m sorry if I made you worried.

Although with all of this it feels nothing has changed yet again. It feels like forever since I’ve been here and my break consisted of highs and lows where I felt I could do nothing and desperately needed to go back to tumblr, or I feel relaxed and it was a good idea.

it’s very hard. I’m considering actually leaving for good because of how my break affected me. But I’m going to try to intergrate myself back here, but I think it’s going to be very hard.

I’m still scared staying here and I feel like I’m stuck in a narrow space with no exit no matter what I do, I just hate everything I hate myself I just want help but there’s no one to get help from I have no idea what to do I feel exhausted yet I haven’t done anything I just don’t know where this is all going and I’m scared for the future

#I really don’t know if I should leave or not #ive been saying this a lot but this might be the actual time I’m truly considering it as I had some experience of that #Whatever that means #i feel like it’ll be relief either that or I’ll be even more stressed #I can’t tell because i experienced both emotions simultaneously during the leave #There’s also so much I want to share with everyone #I ended up ripping apart the Milgramblr tree #I didn’t feel anything not happiness not sadness but nothing #I just don’t know if I can take it anymore but I don’t even know the true source of what’s bothering me #I probably won’t continue my archives for a while because of this #And I need to vent here #FOR WHATVER FUCKING REWSON AS SOON AS I CAME BACK ALL OF THE PHOTOS GOT SHUFFLED AGAIN #AGAINNNNNN #AND I SPENT SO MUCH TIME REOGANISING THEM EHEN IT HAPPENED LAST WEEK #AND I ADDED SO MUCH NEE STUFF #Hehhhh it’s just some annoying it issue #But I guess this has been a bad start to everything #I just wanna sleep forever and not wake up

[wanderingmind867]

I realize there may be people who want an update on school after my many vent posts. Not much to tell beyond what I've already said recently, sadly. Although my period 1 teacher started the day downright decent, he eventually told me to stop moving my leg so much (even though this is something I think I do subconsciously and instinctively). So there went all goodwill. I swear, the man is so unpredictable. I'm just glad I'm able to text my dad in class whenever I'm stressed. That does help me manage sometimes. And I'm still nervous for today, of course. But the ability to text my dad really does help.

#I don't know if I have much more I can say about school #so this may be the end of these posts for a bit #but it might not be #idk #i guess we'll see #if something agitates me enough #I'll post it to vent #otherwise I may just tell my dad #school #high school #school issues #school troubles #autism #asd #neurodivergent #autistic #adhd #audhd

[smalltimidbean]

It's probably bc my meds are fucking with my moods, but I was so weirdly upset last night with the last ask, bc I felt like I had just expressed it made me kinda sad when my non-clone characters didn't get as much attention as the clone ones do, and the phrase 'it kind of reminded me of your blog with all the cloning stuff with Pep' - like at that moment it was like 'okay, but clones tho???'

Which I highly doubt that was the asker's intention, and idk if they even read those tags, or if they did, got the impression I felt that way

And this probably sounds so selfish to be like 'I want attention on all my guys, all the time' and get upset when I have made myself to be 'the clone guy' and that's how people see me

I don't know, I am Going Through It Right Now, and it is not a fun time

#bean talks too much #vent tag #I am better than I was last night but I still don't feel great #but I am still only two weeks into the antidepressants so it does feel worse for a while and then it's better #and it also probably does not help that the other med I am taking causes depression so they might be cancelling each other out #which might be the case bc I do not remember feeling this bad the first time round - the intrusive thoughts are especially upsetting #although that was like four years ago now and I do not remember things well #I remember the drowsiness and being so ravenously hungry all the time but I do not remember much else #any way I guess it's time to draw bc that is all I can do apparently #or more likely stare at a blank canvas for hours bc I am not feeling it

[jjmej]

i hate being stuck at my parents house like this my dad is literally defending bombing a hospital

i sometimes just have to sit and listen to him having a homophobic and transphobic speech

and not only did he use that as an excuse for his phobias, but he also connected it to his fucking climate change denial because WHY FUCKING WOULDN'T HE???

#i used to have hope that he might nit be that bad but... #idk his just so much worse than i thought #actually i guess 'hoped' is more accurate than 'thought' here #palestine #israel #vent #vent post

[eldrichfuck666]

I recently feel so strange about having a simblr, because I just.. I feel like I'm in a time loop, like time is non-existent thing for me and I just don't have any energy to catch up with the posts and how fast and how much is everything progressing and going. I just can't, and it's really difficult for me to force myself to catch up, I hate myself for it since I want and always wanted to be in this community, but it all feels so intense and strange for me, I just... I feel like I'm so far behind, like I need to stop being here because I'm too slow, too tired, too overwhelmed by everything maybe?.. I don't know what I'm really trying to say here, but like... I feel so out of touch or whatever.

#nonsins #olya's rambles #delete later #tw vent #kinda #upd: I'm also really scared of interacting with other simblrs/people because I feel so... alienated maybe? #I have literally no friends besides my siblings and co-workers in real life and I just.. I feel hurt by the understanding that I'm cursed #cursed with loneliness and it feels so painful and I can't cope with it but making friends or frequently chatting with someone hurts more #I feel like I'm not made for friendship. eternal loneliness? yes #probably #might be weird to say but I feel so small so wrong so- I feel so fucking lonely but every time I try being friends it's not going well #am I too much? yes but it's me and I can't hide my feelings I can't hide my emotions I can't even mask well #I always talk too much I always say too much I always react too emotional #I just can't be normal I can't be like any other normal person because I'm certainly not one #do I even deserve to have friends in the first place? probably not I'm annoying as hell I'm loud I'm too much I'm overwhelming everyone #better stay away from friendship I guess better just... just be alone #I feel so nauseous right now I don't know just talking about it and acknowledging it HURTS.

[moonfableflor]

Honestly I'm just filled with rage that so many people are so fucking stupid they can't even begin to conceive the idea that people are literally just meant to eat and drink and watch the stars and be content with life and whatever helps you do that as long as it doesn't hurt anyone else is fine but then here comes along Moneys Richson Jr and he wants ALL the money and to make ALL the people suffer and to get in ALL of everyone's business and judge them for just feeling happy in themselves and OOOH NOOO A PERSON DOESNT FIT INTO MY TINY BOXES AND EXTREME STANDARDS IM GOING TO USE ALL MY MONEY (because I'm Moneys Richson Jr) TO MAKE IT EVERYONE'S PROBLEM AND SAP THE HAPPINESS OUT OF HUMANITY WHICH IN THE METAPHORICAL SENSE ALREADY DIED I just want to like punch some people or something,,, like WHO CARES IF HE FEELS BETTER AS A GUY WHO CARES IF SHE FEELS BETTER AS A GIRL WHO CARES IF THEY FEEL BETTER AS NEITHER WHO CARES IF HE USES HE/HIM AS A GIRL WHO CARES IF SHE USES SHE/HER AS A GUY WHO CARES IF THEY'RE BOTH A GUY AND A GIRL WHO CARES HOW THEY RELATE TO THEMSELF WHO CARES WHO THEY DO OR DON'T FUCK OR LOVE ROMANTICALLY OR LOVE PLATONICALLY OR LOVE QUEERPLATONICALLY WHO CARES IF THEIR BRAIN DOESN'T WORK LIKE YOURS WHO CARES IF THEY NEED MORE THINGS THAN YOU TO NAVIGATE THE WORLD BETTER WHO CARES IF THEY NEED HELP WHO CARES HOW OLD THEY ARE WHO CARES HOW THEY LOOK WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK IS ABOVE HUMANITY AND PART OF THE UNIVERSE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR HAIR OR FACE OR EYES OR ANYTHING WHO CARES!!!!! WE'RE ALL HUMAN AND THAT'S THE ONLY THING WE NEED TO KNOW AND WE SHOULD CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER!!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GODSDAMN MONEY-CULT

#vent #i guess? #caps #trans rights #disabled rights #queer rights #youthlib #uhhhhhh there's probably more i can't remember #eat the fucking rich man idk what to tell you #as a disabled trans genderfuck (white-passing) poc im just tired. im. im tired #and yeah im white passing but then everyone's like ARE YOU REALLY A POC DO YOU COUNT AS A POC #just shut up and let me live my godsdamn life #but. yeah. im tired #just let people live their lives #if it doesn't hurt anyone shut up #anyway im going to bed goodnight folks and friendos im tired in two ways #and honestly i think the tired might contribute to the frustration #so #goodnight 🌙 #i mean we're all gonna die one day can't we just fucking enjoy what little time we have fuckin hell

[zinabug]

I’ve been posting like 0-5 note OC drawings for a while at this point, and not here to complain about the notes, but I hate that I’m seriously considering if it’s worth it to go through and take all of my art down to avoid getting scraped by AI. Because I hate the idea of my art being used to train AI, and I hate that every website is selling out to AI in one way or another.

I guess my point is that I don’t want to be living in a world where my art that maybe reaches 7 people on a good day has to have extensive measures against AI theft placed on it so it won’t get chewed up by a machine and spat out again.

#my posts #this is a vent I guess but whatever I’m just pissed #sure I’ve been worried about tumblr data being used for AI training models but I guess I didn’t expect tumblr itself to be the one selling #which is stupid never trust tech companies but whatever #glaze and nightshade are great! but they’re so much effort for me (trapped on mobile) that it might be more worth it to just stop posting #and I don’t want to take my old stuff down! there’s nice things in the tags! #and I seriously doubt their toggle will be the most effective. ai companies aren’t going to abide by a request not to steal data

[raksh-writes]

Having a casual breakdown, cause I just found out I might've somehow broken my toe in my left foot just as Ive barely started uni again and need to go to classes. Like.

Is this some kinda cosmic joke? Cause its not funny...

#personal #vent #rant #i haven’t really done anything that couldve broken it tbh #but it Has hurt the whole day yesterday and got swollen #and my doc said it looks like it might be broken the way its like sticking out to the side #so thats fun #when I have to go to and from classes on foot 15 min one way #and the soonest I can Maybe get it checked out with like na xray or smth is tuesday next week #I could maybe try tomorrow but I Need to go to classes #I was already absent last week cause of my lovely migraine and sinuses issues #which might actually be covid #I need to do the test I bought today to check that #Im... Im just so tired of this already #I was happy and excited about going back to uni #and so far with barely two weeks of classes behind me theres only been health issue after health issue #Im gonna go cry some more #maybe that'll help #and then I dont know #grit my teeth and survive I guess

[starheirxero]

RDHRSFG

XERO, HELP- THE NEW LAES EPISODE HAS ME SO CONFLICTED-

ON ONE HAND IT'S LIKE- HELL YEAH, GEMINI IS HERE!! WE EVEN GET LUMINI MOMENTS-

ON THE OTHER HAND- THEY WERE SO HARSH???

Don't get me wrong, I understand they're angry, they have every right to be! Lunar caused them a lot of stress, and quite a few problems!

BUT LIKE- THEY WENT SO OUT OF LINE!! This wasn't just blunt, this was downright mean, and rather cruel as well!

In their eyes, Lunar isn't trying hard enough, and yet they've been watching.

Lunar lost someone they loved, and still kept it together.

They talked to the cause of it, and didn't lash out.

Hell, they talked to Eclipse of all people, trying to make amence, and came out of that positively!

They've been trying so hard!

Now, I agree, that there needs to be more progress. But they just started, and are honestly handling it very well, and very fast!

Yes, people need to be more blunt with Lunar, and yes, no one was before. But as Lunar said, there's a line between being blunt, and being rude! This was just rude, and a lot of it felt…unnecessary, almost? I don't know, I'm conflicted-

Now, on the other hand…BY GOD, THE ENDING-

It was so sweet?? I still don't agree with what they did, but after letting out frustration, it seems all that's left is worry!

The entire ending section had me running up my walls!!! It was so tender, it was so soft!

The way they tried to make Lunar understand, they do things out of worry…and in a way, they want Lunar to get to know them better, see the real, true them!

The way Lunar asked, if they were okay with being so close, only to get a soft agreement as answer- AH, I CAN'T- Also, Lunar implying Gemini is in their dreams a lot👀

That all being said, I really don't like this whole "no powers" rule. With the Creator being after them, this might have consequences later on…

-Stardust

I KNOWWWW RIGHTTTT?????

LIKE. I can never tell if it's just a me thing or not but like u said Gemini just had NO MERCY FER A MINUTE THERE. Like, Lunar said so too, that there's a threshold for bluntness that crosses over into just Being Mean but then they were both like "but that line hasn't been crossed yet" LIKE. I FEEL LIKE IT WAS BUT IDK. idk!!!

like on one hand yea sometimes a wake-up call like that is needed. but also DAMN??? Handshaking u on feeling so conflicted abt it all bc MAN HFJDHCJK

AND THE ENDING..... HONESTLY THE ENDING WAS SUCH A RELIEF TO ME AHAJANA LIKE. It was just insanely reassuring to me to see that Gemini does still care, the fondness they had for Lunar before hasn't rotted away, it's just quiet right now because of the whole [vague hand motions] everything.

AND AOAUAGHH YEA LUNAR CHECKING THEIR BOUNDARIES AND THEM SAYING IT WAS OKAY MADE ME SO EMOTIONAL AHJSBSJD like [roommates vine voice] oh my god they're sitting close to each other....

BUT THE NO POWERS RULE,,, YEA. I had a similar thought that this is going to backfire on them horribly in some way. Like, it'll either be "Lunar has to use their powers and pisses off the astrals" or "Lunar doesn't use their powers when they should have and gets kidnapped or hurt by the creator/some other danger." Both options only lead to more trouble and its just so aoauaghghh

#asks #anon #stardust anon #yk. after this episode i think i'm actually starting to get one of my friend's astral body thoughts more #bc theyve talked abt gemini basically having no idea how to identify or express their own emotions #bc... iirc its just not something the astral council rlly needed to do. or maybe even discouraged #smth along those lines and so when they feel all these messy emotions in regard to lunar #they just bottle it up to such an extent they're basically Phsyically ill #but i guess in canon. its more like that bottle just sort of explodes. yk? #they have no other opportunity to vent bc theyre busy making sure lunar doesnt Die #so when they're face-to-face with them. they just kinda explode bc they havent had the chance to any other time #or... or something GDJABDJD #idk i dont fully remember their rambles so i might be botching this. shrug HDJSHDJ #lunar and earth show #the lunar and earth show #tlaes #laes gemini #laes lunar #laes spoilers #tlaes spoilers #long post

[swordsonnet]

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

#i feel pretty bad about it because my update schedule has been really inconsistent for the whole fic :/// #and now the final chapter is going to be even more epically delayed than the other ones #should've probably finished the whole thing properly before i started posting it but you live and learn i guess #my chronic illness really messed with my ability to write and i hate it #like the chapter is almost done. under normal circumstances it wouldn't take me long to finish it #but it's like my brain has forgotten how to make words happen. ugh. #i don't want to let people down by making them wait so long for an update #but i also don't want to let them down by giving them a mediocre chapter y'know #if all goes well the new meds might help with both the chronic fatigue *and* the depression which would be an absolute godsend #but ngl. the side effects are rough. and they can apparently last for up to six weeks #and i've only been taking the meds for about 2 1/2 weeks so i've still got a long road ahead of me #i also started my period yesterday which certainly doesn't help lmao #delete later maybe #just needed to vent for a lil bit. and as everyone knows there's no better place to discuss your private business than tumblr dot com

[suntraitor]

im sorry mom and dad, i know i messed up bad

#scp 166 #dr clef #50th fucking drawing of me in jacks necklace bc guess what #im sad about it again!!! #i remember 035 being pissed when he saw us after what i did and i remember kondraki trying to talk to us and i remember how much- #shame jack felt #im sorry jack #im sorry dad #i did what i had to do #lyrics are from parents by anna clending #vent #sorry to vent on main and in the scp tag guys #i will do it again #PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS ME//RI I HATE BEING CALLED THAT NAME SO FUCKING MUCH #i honestly just need to cry it out but i wanted to draw #someone talk to me about my memories i promise its not all traumatic #like fr one minute im making flower crowns for my friends and the next im killing myself for the ''greater good'' #fuck the foundation #and fuck you too jack but i forgive you #epon.txt #traitor art #or whatever the fuck our art tag is #might post more vent art later but t b h i just wanna sleep i oddly miss my cell. i miss cain and able #i miss my brothers ^

[aluminum-angels]

Going through old tumblr blogs and or blocked tumblrs is really an eye opening experience. Like, good god of course I wouldn't wanna be friends with this guy, they're a fucking asshole and a jerk, or, God I miss being friends with that guy, they were really nice, I hope their doing ok. it really makes you think

#im sentimental i guess #i liked it back in the dick-scourse days when every rain world artist was posting and having a good time talking to each other #i think that if i had more confidence back in that time #i would've talked to more people #but now i have that confidence and like . two . three people to talk to? #maybe not even that? #im not in any of the servers i was a while back because i was so afraid of upsetting people that i just . left . #i deleted most the art and made a new art account because for like a good couple months i just thought everyone here HATED my guts #for whatever reason #and now im . alone . #and i kinda Hate that but to be honest its better to be alone in silence then try to bother everyone 24/7 with my presence #i might be a bit of a people pleaser idfk #does this count as a vent post? #sure why not #vent posting

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#argentina saw trump and went ''yeah we want one of those!''... #this absolutely insane man might become president and fully ruin the country (more than it already is) #which is never fun but even worse when you're queer... #today i'm glad i'm living with dysphoria every day but haven't started T #because as sad and absolutely awful as what i'm about to say is... #i can pretend to be a cis woman for safety... #which is a HORRIBLE thing to say or do #but i don't have to put myself out there trying to get hrt or anything like that #or legally change my name and gender mark while looking like i look... that might get me killed or something #bare in mind everything i'm saying A. hasn't happened yet #and B. is being said by someone with an anxiety disorder who can't see hope right now... so take it with a grain of salt #i'm just scared and i don't like the state of the world right now... #and we were somewhat safe in some aspects here and we're so close to losing them now #i'm scared and hate it here but i'm also broke and can't leave so... #we are where we are where we are i guess #angel talks #personal #sorry for the politics... i'm not going to start posting politics #the point of my blog is to escape the hell that is the real world... but i needed to vent and also you know me i love screaming at the void

[sysig]

Twisted Phoenix (Patreon)

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Villainsona #True Villainy AU #Vent I guess?? Lol #Features Kaiein: Checks out lol #Charm is just constantly the ''Aren't you tired of being nice'' meme haha #Got caught in a thought spiral the other day :/ Wanted that to change! Most easily summarized with what she says #Honestly kinda thinking that one along the lines of the Hero/Villain greeting/standoff #Gosh I want to redraw that one already hgg! It suits the TVAU so well!!! #Well I've got other TVAU stuff anyhow #More Classic first tho - no that's not blood lol it's just dyes #Anyone remember Pudding Layer Cake? Probably not I'd kinda like to draw them again too ♪ #It did make me consider how food-safe dyes might affect JDCitizens' blood tho - would it get into their blood stream or just be digested? #I have enough rainbow-blood characters lol but it Could be fun to have one more! Lol probably not tho #Anyway yeah she just wrecked shop but literally at the dye place - an easy thing to do when you're Literally on fire #Hurting people? ❌ Destruction of property? ☑️ #Okay Now TVAU stuff lol #Charm is not in a great place even when she retakes the throne #That's a weird thought haha - that she's been there before but was convinced she wasn't satisfied the first time so she did it all again #Guess that tracks at least - if the first time didn't soothe her why would it this time #Some Hamlet - dripping poison into the ruler's ear - fed lies and vitriol and pain to bolster her fear and desperation #Isn't he just so helpful #And ending off with a mirror motif!! Heck!!! Can't believe I haven't done it before now I Love mirror motifs and she has So many forms lol #Even if she feels like she doesn't have anyone else - doesn't trust anyone to not reject or fear her - anyone she hasn't irreparably hurt #There's always someone she could return to - return to being - and maybe start to build back up #The difference in their wings hh <3 And that Charm Classic isn't Evil Time! She just wants her back! She can be better she just knows it! #The TVAU is hard on her :(