#summer depression ig

[timeisacircleofangst]

"What do you want, Adam?"

"To feel awake when my eyes are open."

lol same

#feeling so mentally exhausted right now #like what am i doing #summer depression ig #or the fact that I have marching band practice 4 hours a day #sighhhhhh #the raven cycle #the raven boys #adam parrish #ronan lynch #richard gansey #noah czerny #blue sargent #dree's posts

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

hey guys :) depresso hit me pretty hard recently so i've been out but ill try to watch the junior year finale tonight and get some posts out <3

#first time in a while too. summer depression is real ig #but i gotta watch the finale for sure #personal

[multivstx]

“kiss me before they turn the lights out”

#like how am i supposed to be depressed about conrad when we got this kiss #the passion omg #these are my favorite clips from it #like stay sad ig haha #literally listening to xo by Beyoncé while editing this :) #the summer i turned pretty #the summer i turned pretty gifs #the summer i turned pretty season 2 #tsitp #tsitp season 2 #tsitp gifs #team jere #team jeremiah #team jelly #jelly #jelly gifs #belly and jeremiah #jeremiah fisher #belly conklin #jeremiah fisher gifs #belly conklin gifs #lola tung #gavin casalegno #lola and gavin

[kindahoping4forever]

AshtonIrwin: Back on the mic!!!!! 🎤 🤘🏼🫶🏻♥️

#it's the way i was about to take a 945pm depression nap and this dude said nah how about a lil bit of this 💋 and a lil of 🎤 🤘🏼🫶🏻♥️ #thank u sir #5sos #5 seconds of summer #ashton irwin #ashton #ai ig #Instagram #kh4f post #sigh #why i no can #also hey um how about we keep the beard for the show next weekend? thx #it's a smooch from me #why i no can kiss

[inkdrinkerofthevoid]

Seasonal depression

Winter depression: Wanting to just crawl under the covers and never come out. The world feels hostile, angry, and you’d rather die than face it for another day. You haven’t seen the sun in days- you feel weaker, deteriorated. You’re tired all the time and it’s unbearable to do anything. You’re supposed to be celebrating the holidays. You’re supposed to have your life together. All you want to do is stay home but after a time the being alone begins to kill you. Everything around you dead and feeling like the days are so long that they will never come back to life again. 

Spring depression: The sun playing tricks on you- it looks warm out but it’s not. This is also supposed to be a fresh start, a new day, but you feel like you haven’t shaken off the cold yet. The flowers are blooming and it devastates you because you don’t have time to enjoy them. Summer and winter both distant. Hating yourself for not loving it enough, breaking your promises. And then, that creeping feeling that it’s too warm this early in March. Did the daffodils come out as early last year? You can’t remember. Things growing and you, in the soil, stagnating, feeling like a swan among ducklings. 

Summer depression: The worst kind of depression in my opinion. Summer is life and death mixed in one. Again, the feeling of wasting days, because this is meant to be the best time of the year but you’re spending it inside. Again. Everyone seems to busy and away and you start to get lonely. You’re busy, too, you have to keep working, and if you’re not working, the thought always lingers in the back of your mind that you’ll have to soon. It drives you insane. You lose yourself. The days pass slowly but the months go by fast, and soon you feel like it’s all slipped away and you forgot to enjoy it. Summer is always yearning for summers past and then weeping when the flowers rot. 

Autumn depression: Again, so much beauty around you and not enough energy to appreciate it. It’s not always time, or society- after so long, you start to get scared that it might be you. Leaves falling everywhere and making you want to cry because it’s happening again but it’s never as magic as it once was. The chill in the air as you step outside, always slightly too cold to be happy. Everything dying again, and the wish that summer could last for just a moment longer, you swear this time you’ll appreciate it. The approaching dread of winter, trying ot savor the last dregs of sunlight, knowing it’s never enough.

#tag yourself ig? #tag urself #tag yourself #tag yourselves #depression #tw depression #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled words #winter depression #seasonal depressive disorder #seasonal depresh #seasonal depression #summer depression #spring #fall #mental health #types of girls #types of people

[tokyocyborg]

#is like reverse seasonal depression a thing bc i feel so much better in winter vs summer #anyway in bad (?) news #i am so lonely oh my god #please i need friends #been scrolling through pinterest for too long all of the pics of couples are making me so sad #it's even worse bc ik that no one sees me as a boy #like i'll never have a pinterest relationship #idk just bad dysphoria day ig #saw someone post on tt earlier saying no one is obligated to love you and that means you might never find it and that makes me so so sad #i just need someone ig #i keep going back to that mentor figure #and i read about lou sullivan a few days ago #his story makes me so sad #it's kind of like looking in a mirror #'they said i would never live as a gay man but it seems i will die as one' #still gives me chills #aesthetic #moodboard #mood board #aesthetic moodboard #messy layouts #aestheitcs #messy icons #icons

[spicyicymeloncat]

I saw in your notes that you had to cancel your birthday so happy (possibly late) birthday!!

Haha thanks it was last year in September lol!!

And actually I did get to do birthday plans it was just kinda miserably bc the reason I was going to cancel was due to conflicts with my mum (and her making me feel like an awful person about it), but my other mum didn’t care and we went anyways and it was actually fine (the concerns my mum didn’t happen)

Also I was going through basically a platonic break up as well so crazy month lol

But thank you, and everyone who sent me flags, it was nice to get some positive interaction during all that!

#i think I said I cancelled out of mental health reasons #yeah my mental health issue is my parents #they technically did give me mental health issues I definitely was depressed last year before this incident #full context is I have a brother who was 3 and my mum thought he would have a tantrum at the restaurant bc it would be late #and she told me in a way that made me feel like a horrible person for even suggesting going out and never considering other people #the whole summer beforehand was about similar conflicts #but we went anyways and my brother probably enjoyed himself more than I did lol #i just checked all my discord msgs bc I talk to my friends about my parents a lot (it’s good to have a paper trail so I can know exactly wh #and how I’m traumatised by my parents lol) #and apparently after days of me asking my mum if we’re sure we can go and she’s happy to go out and to let me know if it won’t work #she made a backhanded comment the day before we were going to go out #where basically my brother was asleep and she said in a moody tone that this is what it would be like if we went out #and I was just devastated bc I gave her plenty of ways out and at that point I actually had my hopes up about it #and she didn’t say we can’t go she just shat on the idea so backhandedly #oh wow it was such a headache #we cancelled and we’re gonna do it Monday #and then last second we went out that day anyways #yknow when I wasn’t prepared and didn’t get enough sleep #my god #worst birthday actually #at least my sister was there she was cool #anyways sorry for vent ig?? #anon #ask #personal

[lesbienneanarchiste]

So tired of complaining so just insert one of my many repetitive boring ass posts about how lonely and exhausted and ugly I am here to save all of us the time

#every time i start thinking hey maybe i should like... make an effort to connect w ppl.. and then it goes bad im like ok. killin myself ig #had too much caffeine so instead of being Awake im just so tired im nauseous but i cant even doze off nvm sleep #and as usually the summer depression is kicking in right on time #winter is bad enough but at least most ppl are staying inside doing nothing #summer when everyone is doing fun shit and having friends and otherwise having a half decent or even good time #while im stuck here rotting in the same way I've been rotting my whole life #is worse. I'd take the 'no sun makes brain bad' seasonal affective disorder over the intense misery of summer #disgruntled octopus

[popcorn-plots]

Trying not to be depressed and failing miserably

There's literally no reason to feel this way, I've meet all my needs today whyyyyy are you like this

#depression ig #personal #like whyyy #why do you do this to me #it's literally summer break i should be happy

[brilliant-soul]

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#i need to take a break from dating #but its the only thing ppl wanna talk abt #or maybe its the only thing i feel like sharing #but regardless #thats what the gurlies go at work #but idk everytime someone says to just focus on myself it makes me so upset #what else am i supposed to be doing? #i go out and do things i have my own place and a job and hobbies and a business and im learning a language #theres nothing else i can do #ive done so much work to be the type of person i want to be and ig thats just the most unattractive version of myself #theres just smth so sad abt it #im so honest abt what i want #i dont think its insane for just one person to take me on a real date where i can dress up and we go out for dinner or a movie or both #idk its just wearing me down that so far not a single person has wanted to be seen in public with me #idk what it is abt me that is so horrible to be around #im pretty i dress well i smell good im kind im affectionate #delete later #just feeling so depressed abt it #hot girl summer is over and i missed all of it #maybe ill get a date for halloween #but then would they even be taking me out of cancelling last minute like everyone else

[basslinegrave]

i think there should be therapist aftercare cuz the one i went to opened up my brain but didnt close it metaphorically speaking, she just kinda ended the session like yeah ok thats it and since then i feel fucked up and empty and the entire month felt like 2 days

a friend messaged me if im ghostin and i felt like we talked like few days ago, looked at the date, saw june 26 like see, heh, then realization hit, its July not June, we didnt talk for an entire month and to me it felt like few days max

#ig im depressed again or something and its pretty bad cause i dont feel any joy in anything #but it also feels like time isnt real so at least its not like im suffering for months but like a week maximum #reality is different but well #also deadlines keep coming but the time inbetween these doesnt exist #aand i feel very odd and nostalgic when i go out and stare at the sky and such #smell the air and its cooler now and i smell like stuff ppl work with like metal and glue or whatever #like repairing some stuff in the garage thats summer! i feel like a kid agaon #which is NOT helping rn #chase vented

[coelakanths]

love having something wrong with my brain

#/gen i get to think abt su allllll day tomorrow and then i get to talk abt it and eat food based off it and OH man am i so excited #i feel like peridot explaining camp pining hearts. brain buzzing so hard #q dicit #man tbh last year i went thru this depressive summer spiral abt neurodivergency #like i was just so genuinely upset abt how the only stuff i could think abt was my current hyperfixation #i was embarrassed and miserable over it bc i didn’t want to talk abt anything else and nobody wanted to listen rlly #and ig part of it was that i was in a bad place with a friend who meant a lot to me at the time n stuff but like. man i did NOT need to be— #— so down on myself over liking stuff a lot!!!! damn!!!!!!! #anyways now im rlly accepting of it and im so happy #feels good to know everything abt something and to have friends who want to listen and who are interested to be a part of it #even if they aren’t into it the way i am n they probably never will be! but they’re there because they want to be #and dare i say it ! because they care abt me!!!!! #anyways just. soooo excited. feels so special. feeling so loved #im a little weird and there is something wrong with me but it’s in a cool way i think.finally accepting my brain

[philsmeatylegss]

Tw

#I’m ed relapsing but like in a subtle way and it’s just such a hopeless feelings when you’re aware #all of my relapses have been abrupt I’m not used to this slower kind #I really would do anything to not have a restrictive eating disorder #I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy #how much happiness I’ve missed out on and will continue to miss out on #genuinely do believe if my thighs were skinnier I’d be cured but my therapist says that’s just a symptom of my ED go off ig queen #yk it’s bad when i ghost ed tags #never interact ofc and usually report it #it’s such a fascinating thing to have an addiction to your own body #you can lock yourself away from drugs or booze or blades but you can’t fucking hide yourself from food and your fucking body #the abuse I’ve put my body through since I was 13 #sometimes I look at pictures of myself as a little girl and cry thinking about what I’ve done to her body #wow this is depressing lol #idk who needs to hear this but if you’re 13 and plan on ‘going anorexic for the summer’ #it doesn’t work that way you’ll still be going anorexic the summer of your 20s #serious buzzkill #tw eating disorder #rae’s rambles #delete later

[kindahoping4forever]

Island!Ash continues to be the 2022 vibe we didn't know we needed 🏝️🥰🏝️

#picture me laying in bed curtains drawn depressed feeling ill generally not having a good time. #opening IG and seeing This Man looking giant snackable AND snuggable in a tank and jeans #& me shrieking bolting up out of bed tigger hopping across my room & THAT burst of energy is what gets me to finally get out of bed & eat #thanks my dude perhaps i have feelings for you 🥹👉🏻👈🏻 #5sos #5 seconds of summer #ashton #ashton irwin #instagram #other ig #happy island baby man #kh4f post #sigh #why i no can kiss #why i no can live with forever in a beachside bungalow #I'm doing absolutely fine with how much chest and shoulders are on display here btw #absolutely fine with all that arm #in no way am i affected by seeing this much of this man's body #👹 I'm doing great thanks for asking 👹 #this is the most I've felt in a week lmao #thank you for witnessing this breakdown byeeeeeee 😘✌️

[gothcoast]

i’m so tired of school and being on my period and writing essays on things that i have no motivation to do and being tired all the time and mentally exhausted i just want to rest

#my period is killing me this month and then taking care of my dog who just had surgery while also having like 15-20 assignments due each #each week for summer classes is rly knocking me on my ass #I’m in my summer depression era ig but one of my summer classes is almost halfway over🎉🎉 #I’m still so fucking tired tho #d23

[teenagefreek]

summer is for killing yourself

#everyone ik rn is super depressed. that's just summer ig. #dext posts