#there's a little bit of ear missing

[hedgehog-moss]

Here are the donkey news I promised :) You'd think spring would be Pirlouit's favourite time of the year, what with all the delicious new grass, but it's the time when he feels the most persecuted, because he can tell I'm doing everything I can to prevent him from eating said grass.

It's just too rich a diet for him... Last year I tried making him wear a Hannibal Lecter mask, but he looked miserable and everyone felt sorry for him, plus he kept rubbing the muzzle against trees to try and take it off, which chafed his skin raw. He wasn't able to stuff himself with grass and didn't gain too much weight, but at what cost.

This year I wanted to try something else, so I moved him to the part of the pasture that's mostly bushes and brambles and not much grass. It's not an ideal solution either (from Pirlouit's pov) as he hates being alone, and he can see the llamas on the other side of the fence eating the delicious new grass to their hearts' content even though they're miscreants who keep escaping their pasture while he is a lawful donkey who has done nothing to deserve this.

He will be freed as soon as the grass gets a bit drier and less nutritious, and in the meantime he is very useful to me as a landscape architect, creating lovely meandering paths in the woodsy part of his pasture, like this one:

I used my sheep netting to divide the pasture, and of course I hadn't bothered to roll it up properly the last time I put it away in the barn ("that's a problem for Future Me"), so I had to start with sitting down to disentangle the knots for 15 min.

The children helped a lot.

Another important problem to solve was water for elephants donkey. The main spring that provides water for the llamas' trough (and for Pandolf's cows, and my own house) is on the other side of the pasture, but I had noticed small trickles of water seeping from some rocks on (what is now) Pirlouit's side, so I went exploring to find them again.

Here! these rocks are crying. Unfortunately my bucket was too tall to be placed under the trickle, so I started with digging a hole. It took forever, because anyone who has ever tried to dig a hole anywhere knows there is always That One Massive Rock.

Pandolf also helped a lot.

A hole for the bucket was successfully dug, but the water trickled down the crevices in the rocks and didn't fall into the bucket. I tried to use a piece of plastic pipe, but the opening was too narrow to catch more than a few droplets of water, so I went back to the barn and rummaged around, looking at random objects and waiting for inspiration to strike, until I found the missing link—a dustpan. Here's a little 30s video of my revolutionary water system:

The dustpan is pretty solidly wedged between rocks and Pirlouit has been invited to drink delicately so as not to dislodge it. It's been a few days and so far it's holding up :)

Conclusion: Pirlouit is now a forest donkey.

We'll have to see how the Diet Pasture compares to other solutions, like the Diet Muzzle, and the Diet Pen (two years ago I tried keeping him in tiny pens so he didn't have a lot of grass and was forced to eat some hay as well, but I had to move him every few days, plus he didn't have a lot of room to trot and exercise, which was counterproductive when it comes to keeping him fit.)

He is not enchanted with this new situation and sometimes brays angrily to demand explanations when he sees me on the Good Side with the llamas, but he does get visitors every day (dog and cats and chickens) and it's only for a few weeks. And for his own good.

#crawling along #i took the first pic in this post with a wide angle so that his ears would fit in the frame and #it still wasn't enough #there's a little bit of ear missing #i don't know what can be done about those ears pirlouit #they're extravagant

[ryllen]

Look what came through the mail today! The letters & ( •̀ω•́ )σ 3 little gremlins from letterstoear.

Just wanna say i adore the flower stickers on the letters too much, they are that much worth mentioning.

#letterstoear #nui #twst #twisted wonderland #sebek zigvolt #malleus draconia #twst grim #mod posting #okay but i love squishing the bears with my thumb; they just have the right thickness to be pressed on #i really like the flower stickers; they look like romantically artistic wax seal #the letters are pleasantly nice #i love the part where cheka personally request for an audience with yuu thru sebek 🥺🥺🥹🥹 too cute hnggh ....... #sebek becoming our little mailman for our little invitation aw 🥹 for those who wanna know the context of the letter; #i requested a letter from sebek that he sent home while he was away accompanying malleus on other country duty #my other favorite part is just him simply opening the letter with 'My love' #i'm sealed 🥹 the first paragraph is written so sweetly #i enjoy reading the letter slowly outside in peaceful afternoon today; i ran it through together with sebek nui #this will be my treasured keepsake from now on 🥹; it seriously made me miss letters and wish i have someone to send this kind of letter to #it was a bit funny how the envelope sebek's letter came from is sticked with the guys from free! sticker fhsdsh 🤣😂 #and me with the white haired guy like WHo are u?? fsjdsdjsd (´つヮ⊂); but it's a really nice service #the thank you letter came with such a cute and yummy folding paper; thank you for the stickers too #i feel like there's a bit whoopsie on grim's winky eye fshfh like i think the sharpie just blurs the separating space '<' supposed to have #and just combine it all together into one angry eye; and sebek bear's eyes are just a little bigger than i expected it to be #but the more i look at them i think they are just having a little individuality & still cute #i embraced it all together while knowing the fact none of handmade thing would always be the same one with the other; hehe sebek nui has fr #i kinda forget that there's this kind of clip earring fshd; because i always get the ones that work like screw from aliexpress #i know that the literal clip one would just be literal meaning of pain fsh; just like the magnet one my father once got me when i was a kid #it was painful but pretty; tho i lost it quickly bcs magnet easily get loosed once one part of it moves around when u touch ur hair or face #anyhow i had a pleasant day because of this; thank you very much ! sebek nui said 'thank you' too! ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. ❀ ✿ 𖤣…

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#eric at it again with the cameos #i cant with him right now #hes driving me crazy #what a messy king am i right? #he said breakup and then he said love and then he's like grinning ear to ear about chenford #so like can it really be that bad even if its bad for a little bit? #eric winter i missed you bud #im so glad you are back #eric winter #he definitely knows more then he lets on #im okay with that #ill hope for the best and expect the worst at this point #the rookie #chenford #tim x lucy

[hiatus-queen72]

I’m really hoping I don’t look this confused all the time. I took these without posing to see what I look like and now I understand why people talk to me the way they do.

#me #cute #girl #love #selfie #fashion #photo #brown hair #blue eyes #hot #I am a little bit confused at all times I won’t lie to you #it’s just that my ears refuse to work well and I miss half of what you say and then I have to piece it together but you’ve already moved on #I promise I’m not dumb I’m on my third degree #what is your first impression from these photos comment that below #I am low key curious what people think of me #that has to be an every human thing like you can’t sit there and tell me you wouldn’t want to know peoples impression of you #either that or I’m a paranoid piece of trash which is 87% likely #I’m going to smoke weed now to sleep but I hope everyone has a fantastic night/day #I also hope that your burn out goes away and you find a 20 dollar bill in your pocket #what else can I tag #pizza because I ate that today #house because I am in one in this photo #margaritas just because I’m thinking about them #I want to go dancing guys I need a fun clubbing girls night #I wanna get drunk and pretend I’m on step up

[maulfucker]

Star Wars oc time,, the most pathetic looking bounty hunter you'll ever hire

#hm i should make an original art tag #star wars oc #zabrak #latros omiss #maul is just there for reference #and because i like drawing him #anyways back to my guy #his markings make him look like he's always doing a pathetic little meow meow face. like 🥺 but crying #but he's actually pretty competent #if a bit of a loser #no one who tries so hard to look cool is actually that cool #the long earring has no meaning i just think it's fun and cool #idk why he keeps all his horns at the same tip height. he's just a freak like that #the horns get him to 5'7'' (1.70 m). the boots get him to any height he wants. but usually 6' at most #(for reference maul is canonically 1.75m (5'9'')) #i'm not one to enjoy making ocs interact with canon but i think he would get along with savage better than with maul #they can talk about missing their villages. and not wanting to meet a nightsister ever again in their lives <3 #he Would flirt with maul more tho. just to annoy him. and to see how far he can get before maul kills him #my ocs

[oatbugs]

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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon #im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels #cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho #for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her? #im going to look someone else in their eyes today #im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow #i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for #him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over #it made things a bit clearer #he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend #and he wanted his friend back #so im going to go back. #he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true #im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl #and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner #ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful #person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up #anyway lets go

[elibeeline]

Why was the claw clip ever socially shunned

#this is the best #it keeps the hair out of my face without pulling and without attacking my ears #its sensory good!!!! ive fallen in love #also built in stim toy what more could i ask for #and if i miss a little bit i dont have to completely undo it i just have to tuck it into the claw!!! #consider me influenced i love it so much

[waywardsalt]

so. i've had an idea for a warrior cats fanfiction story, and have spent the last few years hammering out characters, the clans, how they work, the story... a whole lot of stuff. i've tried writing it before, and right now i don't have a current draft of early chapters, but I did recently write out a scene from much later in the story, and i'm pretty happy with it, soooo... here! a warrior cats fic scene i wrote in like an hour a week ago

By the time she led ShadeClan to the Gathering site, Emberstar felt her anxieties lessen. Her foreleg ached from the effort of the journey, but she kept her head high. Beside her, Acornfall glanced back at their clan, then nodded over to Emberstar. He led the clan down into the Gathering hollow, and Emberstar padded over to the slope up to the leader’s perch. PineClan and CliffClan cats were already quietly milling about in the hollow, and up on the overhang she could see Lakestar and Wolfstar waiting. There was no MoorClan scent among the gathered cats.

              Emberstar made her way up the slope she’d seen Gorsestar and Froststar before her traverse. It was a thin path, slowly becoming steeper and steeper as she slunk closer to the overhang, finally reaching the steep, gravelly slope that led up to the leaders’ perch. Down at the base of the cliff, she could see Acornfall joining the other deputies with a polite nod of his head, and Troutfoot was carefully weaving her way through the crowd to meet with the other healers. Emberstar twitched her whiskers when Lakestar and Wolfstar noticed her. She crouched and tensed her back legs and leapt up the slope.

              It wasn’t enough to reach the top, but she reached out with her forepaw and sunk her claws into the loose gravel and dug her back paws into the ground to keep from slithering back down. She slowly inched forward, moving a kittenstep at a time, but she kept her eyes fixed on the other leaders, more determined than ashamed of herself. Emberstar forced herself up the slope, but her heart skipped a beat when the gravel under her paw proved too loose to get a good enough grip- so close to the top, too. What a shame she had no other forepaw to lash out and find a grip with.

              Emberstar felt herself begin to slide back down the slope, but a pair of jaws grasped her by the scruff and hoisted her up onto the overhang. She clawed at the grass and stumbled a step when let go and turned to meet Wolfstar’s amused gaze. “Careful there, three-paw,” the CliffClan leader gruffly purred. “It’s bad luck to fall at your first Gathering as leader.” She brushed past Emberstar to sit back down next to Lakestar.

              With a huff, Emberstar followed her with a shake of her pelt. “I appreciate your help, but I would have been fine on my own. I suppose I owe you now?”

              Wolfstar’s whiskers twitched. “Are you saying ShadeClan is now in CliffClan’s debt?”

              The young leaders stared at each other, then broke out into amused purrs. Lakestar rolled her eyes and wrapped her tail around her paws. “So, you are ShadeClan’s leader now, Emberstar? Or is it still Emberblaze?”

              “It is Emberstar now. I visited the Moon Cavern for my lives only a few sunrises ago.”

              “May StarClan light your path as leader, then.” Lakestar stiffly dipped her head. Despite the brusque words, there was genuine respect in her pale eyes.

              Wolfstar’s own eyes were still bright with humor. “You’ll be great, I know it. What happened to Froststar, then?”

              Emberstar narrowed her eyes and turned her gaze to the gathered cats. “I’ll explain that once the Gathering begins. MoorClan is late tonight.” She surveyed the crowd of cats, peering straight down at the huddled healers. Sitting with her back to her PineClan clanmates, Flarelight was sitting close to Troutfrost. After a moment, she gazed up at the overhang, and her eyes met Emberstar’s. Her eyes grew wide and she stared at her littermate for a long moment until another healer got her attention. Then, as if she’d seen nothing, Flarelight flicked her tail and joined the conversation. Her twitching tail-tip was the only hint that she was distracted. Emberstar blinked. She’d become leader so recently that not even the other healers knew, much less the other clans’ warriors. In the crowd of CliffClan cats, she spotted Sunscorch, sitting with his fur brushing Moonwhisper’s, his eyes wide and his body stiff while he stared at his sister up on the overhang.

              Poor Sunscorch, so softhearted under those honed claws and strong limbs- he was likely to take the news of Froststar’s death the hardest. Emberstar held his gaze, blinked slowly, and turned her head to the sky. The moon was nearly overhead, and still MoorClan was absent.

              “You ought to start the Gathering now,” Wolfstar growled to Lakestar. “It’s newleaf, after all, and if MoorClan’s late then they’re late.”

              “We should wait,” Emberstar sharply mewed. “This is my first Gathering as leader, so it would be disrespectful to me as well as MoorClan if we begin without them. It may anger StarClan as well,” she finished in a murmur, flicking her tail-tip up at the sky. Wolfstar just bushed out her stormy gray fur and huffed.

              Lakestar gazed up at the sky. Emberstar looked over at her. For so long, as an apprentice, as a warrior, as the deputy, she’d never dared to be so close to the cold PineClan leader. But now, she was barely a tail-length from the sleek silver tabby, and they sat as equals in standing. Lakestar was likely at less than nine lives and Emberstar was without a right foreleg, but they were equals nonetheless.

              She was knocked from her thoughts by Wolfstar headbutting her. The larger cat nearly shoved her off-balance. “Glad to see that we’re both finally up here. I was waiting to see when you’d catch up, three-paw.”

              Emberstar licked Wolfstar’s ear. “You know I must take things slower than you.”

              “Who’d you pick as deputy?” Wolfstar leaned over the edge to inspect the group of deputies. “Hm- Acornfall?”

              “He’s a good warrior. Older than me by four seasons, so I trust his advice and his skill.”

              “I thought you would have picked Lavenderflash. Or maybe Darknose, you two always seemed close.”

              Emberstar gazed down at Lavenderflash, spotting the pure-black molly quickly- she was almost certain there was obvious fondness in her eyes as she looked at her former apprentice. “Lavenderflash is… young and still training her first apprentice. She is a good, loyal warrior, but not fit to be deputy or eventual leader in my mind. And Darknose…” The tom was sitting at the edge of the crowd, alone. “He is a possibility, but he still mourns his brother even all these moons later, so I don’t know if he would be the best choice.”

              Wolfstar made a sniff of approval, then her gaze snapped to the far hill. A yowl rang out, and the three leaders pricked their ears and the cats in the hollow turned to see MoorClan finally arrive, led by Applestar. Emberstar sat stiffly until she spotted Glowflame in the crowd, side-by-side with Orangeclaw. He joined the cats in the hollow with his clan while Applestar broke off to climb up to the overhang, and he seemed to murmur something to Orangeclaw before she angled her ears up at Emberstar. Glowflame looked up and spotted her, and his jaw dropped open. Emberstar couldn’t help but let out a purr of affection for her brother as he gaped in amazement at her.

              Applestar greeted the other leaders when he finally joined them, nodding briefly at Emberstar, and hurriedly sat down next to Lakestar, his mottled fur standing up along his spine. The leaders gave the cats in the hollow a few moments to settle down. In that time, Emberstar saw her littermates make their ways through the crowd towards each other. By the time Lakestar threw back her head and yowled to signify the beginning of the Gathering, Flarelight, Sunscorch, and Glowflame sat huddled together with their eyes trained on their sister. Emberstar met their gazes for just a heartbeat and felt the final icicles of her anxiety melt away.

She then turned her head to watch Lakestar as she began to announce her clan’s news for the moon, and reminded herself of what she had to announce when it was her turn. She was ShadeClan’s leader, now. StarClan had approved of her. Emberstar lifted her chin and, with a deep breath, finally settled into her place at the head of her clan.

#woe warrior cats fanfiction be upon ye #my writing #fanfiction #warrior cats #hmmm... #waywardsalt's warrior cats #yeahhhh #anyways a few things abt this related specifically to whats in here #emberstar and wolfstar are not in any kind of relationship theyre just longtime friends n rivals tho at some point wolfstar had a crush #emberstar is meant to be aro/ace and otherwise has no interest in taking a mate at all but she loves her clanmates #glowflame and orangeclaw are mates and sunscorch and moonwhisper are mates idk if flarelight will be in a relationship #the map for this fic (clan territories and camp layouts and moon cavern/gathering spot) is based on a minecraft world i have its v helpful #i have a full alliances list for the living cats at the very beginning of the story but it lacks cats outside the clan bc uhhhh i dont #think there are too many that are present that early and also loners arent usually a big thing its mostly cats passing through #emberstar is mostly dark ginger and black flarelight is mostly just dark ginger sunscorch is gold/yellow and glowflame is yellow and white #all four of them have ice blue eyes and black ear tips i am getting funky with cat designs i do not care. they have teh most unique designs #calling med cats healers bc of. reasons you may know why. and she cats are mollies bc like. why not #emberstar is a tripod cat she is missing a foreleg and she is the primary primary protag she is the most frequent pov #so i have thought a lot abt how she would need to be trained and assessed differently and what she cannot do and how she does warrior dutie #ember flare sun and glow all grew up together but separated into the different clans for Reasons ember stayed in shadeclan bc she was deput #it was also for those Reasons but dw abt it. sunscorch is gay glowflame is bi flarelight is a lesbian #gorsestar and froststar (the previous shadeclan leaders emberstar thinks of) were both mollies and were mates. frost mentored emberstar #its a little bit of nepotism but ember was frost's like. third deputy so its whatever. i picked acornfall as deputy as a placeholder #and bc i couldnt fucking remember anyone else except nobodies in shadeclan but now that i think about it he's actually a good choice #aaaand emberstar is my oldest warrior cats rp character shes been with me a long time- second oldest is sunscorch #emberstar began as emberheart and sunscorch was an edgy murder rogue named sun i roleplayed them in a specific mc server

[lune-fox]

catboy yesod obtained

#project moon #library of ruina #yesod #yesod lor #musicians of bremen kicked my ass a little bit #its fine i kicked their asses back #hes just missing the ears

[benidudys]

Asmo but he got cursed to turn into a bunny heh _(:3」z)_

#obey me #obey me asmodeus #obey me mc #benistuff #pencil sketches #these are terrible hdjdhd but idk I still like these #I like the little animation tho hehe I wanted a excuse to animate cute ears >w> #I miss animating…. I want to try something like this for Christmas quick and simple #anyway these are a bit old as well not sure if I’ll post more of older stuff 🤔 #animation

[sleepyy-dakota]

Hermittober posting day 7 and 8, Egg and Eye :)

#hermittober #3rd life #3rd life SolidarityGaming #jimmy solidarity #art #I MISS 3L JIMMY AND HIS SILLY LITTLE EGG GAME <//3 #3rd life jimmy #last life martyn #martyn inthelittlewood #itlwart #Martyn's last life series made me insane /pos #i love his silly little lore and his cosmic binding to Ren #last life #does anybody remember the martyn-mumbo marrige bit or is it just me #they didnt get rings. instead they got silly little matching earrings with random metal loops martyn found

[s0fter-sin]

mic cracked his glasses when he was yelling at garaki but he wasn’t being that loud… what kind of ultrasound was he pushing beneath his voice to crack glass??

#ive always loved the idea of him being able to two tone his voice #like speak in two different registers at once #sure he was yelling at garaki but what if above that he was letting out an ultrasound ringing? #could garaki feel the extra force from it? #did his ears ring as the glass cracked? #did he wonder why no one seemed to flinch at the noise he felt digging into his ears? #twices clones seemed a bit hardier than melting at a single stab #did mic soften him up? #just a little nothing anyone would notice when they took garaki in #i wonder how much longer the real garakis hearing wouldve lasted #ultrasound is a difficult thing to detect after all #such an easy thing to miss #especially if they had a hero guarding his cell #they wouldnt believe him if he said something was hurting him #present mic was there after all #and nothing showed up on the cameras #must be a trick of his old mind #i just think mic deserves to dole out a little bodily torture #as a treat #go beyond plus ultra #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #mha #bnha #mha spoilers #present mic #yamada hizashi #kyudai garaki #doctor garaki

[wereh0gz]

Idk if anyone's ever thought of this before but

That logo thing from frontiers

People said it looked like the word "zap" when the first teaser came out, and I think I saw someone say it looked like a key. And yeah I see that too but also

Doesn't that look vaguely like Sonic running?

I might be reaching here but. Look

(Sorry for the crappy handwriting)

That combined with it looking a bit like a key means that Sonic being this "key" the mysterious voice needs (as seen in some leaks) was foreshadowed since the very first teaser

#ramblings #sonic frontiers spoilers #look. look i'm onto something here #i also think the little spike thing on the circle could be his ear #and the way one of the legs kinda curves up into another spike looks like his tail #it is missing his signature quill style tho #but it does still look a bit like him running doesn't it? #sorry if i'm late to the party but i just realized this and it's very interesting to me

[1980ssunflower]

mmm ryan 💖💛

#f/o:💖what a fool believes🎸 #tape entry circa 1980 #i miss him so so much... #it sucks that i never get to dream of sweet things w him #i rarely dream of my husbands and when i do its usually min only #i dreamt recently of me and min cuddling in bed and my arm drapped over him and i pressed little kisses against his neck every now and then #it was nice #but i want to dream similar things w ryan #the only time i got anything similar was when i saw car headlights reflecting in ryans glasses w the other lights and colors of the city #reflecting on his glasses #as the cars driving by blew ryans hair back a bit #and i brushed his hair back behind his ear and i just admired his beautiful face #but i want to really hold him... press kisses over him... #i miss him so much #i was just thinking abt holding him in my lap to keep him form bouncing off the walls and telling him to relax a bit for me <33 #at first he just huffs but once he feels my lips on his neck he melts and wraps his arms around me as he relishes in the feeling #a cute lopsided goofy smile on his face as i keep pressing kisses over him 💖💖 #i hope i can finally dream w him sometime soon

[arcadian-vampire]

Thinking abt the time I was doing my makeup in the mirror, and paused like 'wait this looks familiar, who do I remind myself of'

It was Howl Smovingcastle. I looked like Howl Smovingcastle

#pikaposts #blonde twink w that specific haircut + dangly earring + loose white shirt. you know how it is #man i miss being 20. i had energy and excitement. then i got Sick and everything has been absolute hell ever since #i spent all of 2022 being either Extremely Ill or 'i feel sort of okay today. thank fuck i can eat a little' #remember when i planned to go to a gay bar when i turned 21. ahh the optimism. #i don't feel like i ever did turn 21 tbh. i just skipped over it #i was 20 then i was Sick then i got a little teensy bit better and turned 22. #i'd love to know if i actually did get covid and that's why everything got so much worse so suddenly #but! there's no way to know!! i just have to live w never finding out Why my Era of Decline (tm) started

[alagaisia]

So I mentioned this in the tags of something random today but I think maybe it would help to make its own post. I feel like I don’t want to talk too much about it in real life or to anyone I know, because I’m a little superstitious and so because there’s nothing to be done, talking about it would just make it more real when there’s nothing to really be gained by doing so

My little dog, Cosmo, has a tumor. We don’t know if it’s cancer or not, because getting it tested would be an expense, and it wouldn’t change the treatment; he’s sixteen years old, so an intense surgery of any kind is not recommended.

He went into the vet about a month or two back because he wasn’t putting one of his back paws on the ground. He had knee surgery on that knee when he was five, and it lasted him really well for ten years, but when his vision went all the way out two or three years ago he stopped being able to do any stairs, and the vet said retroactively that not using the knee as much or in its full range of motion was probably what allowed it to degrade, and it’s basically fucked now.

So when they did an x-ray of his knee, they also did an x-ray of his chest, because for we’re not sure how long, maybe a year or so? He will occasionally do this weird hacking/gagging noise. And they found out he has a large tumor in his chest that’s started to press up against his trachea.

It doesn’t seem to be impeding his quality of life right now. And there was a scary week or two when he was adjusting to his new pain meds for his knee, and especially the day or two after the x-ray when he was still groggy from the anesthetic, when he didn’t want to eat much and he needed someone to go outside with him every time, because it’s his back leg, and so he would kind of just tip over when he tried to squat down to poop. But he can do it all on his own now, and we still carry him all the way out to the yard but he’s started finding his way up the ramp (my dad and I built a little ramp for him leading up to the porch a couple of summers ago when he couldn’t see to do the back stairs anymore) all on his own again to wait by the back door to come back inside. He’s really himself again and he’s such a good boy and he’s really doing so so well.

He’s loved that it’s getting warmer. I’ve started working from home on Mondays since that’s the day my mom has to go into her office and there wouldn’t be someone around to keep an eye on him and let him out during the day and things, and the last two or three weeks I will let him out and go check on him two hours later and find him fast asleep in some sunny corner of the yard. He’s so silly and so sweet and I love him absolutely to pieces. When we got him he was two and I was ten and I used to read in my room and look up and see just a little bit of fur peeking under my door because he had decided to just lay down right there and wait for me to let him in. He’s my best friend.

And he’s doing really well! But there’s this knowledge for all of us that like. The end is in sight. Which is just terrible. He’s the love of my life and such a good sweet boy and a good dog and he loves us so much and we love him so much. And we just don’t know. Do we have a year? Is that overly optimistic? Is that not optimistic enough? Every time he doesn’t feel like eating all of his food (which is unusual for him, he’s always been pretty food-motivated) I wonder if it’s his medicine or if he’s just tired or if it’s because he doesn’t want to swallow anything or if he’s in some other kind of pain.

He’s doing really well. We’re doing really well we’re just taking things as they come.

(Video ID: a slightly shaggy Yorkie asleep in a dog bed under a kitchen table, in a beam of sunshine)

#sometimes in rougher moments I think that maybe Ella can take care of him when I can’t anymore. #and Cosmo can look out for her the way he always looks out for us #and then I just cry because I miss Ella #she loved him though. and he loved her even before she knew she was Ella and he was still wary of men he knew and he loved her #and maybe they can take care of each other for me in the meantime #I mean Ella’s own childhood dog also passed a few years back but in real life she would’ve looked after Cosmo for a bit if I asked her to #oh it sounds like he is eating the rest of his dinner now that he’s back inside again #he’s my puppy love #last time my parents and our other dog were out of town visiting my sister we went through a whole routine figuring out why he was antsy #when I was hanging out in the kitchen with him the first night #and it turned out that what he wanted was for me to go downstairs for tv time (where the family usually goes after dinner) where I guess I #would be safe. and for him to stay upstairs in the kitchen where he could take his nap but with his ears perked up like always in case there #was any danger to protect me from #we tried every combination of the two of us in the kitchen and basement and that’s the one he wanted #he’s such a sweetheart I am in love with this little dog #I don’t know what I’ll do without him