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cacoetheswriting · 1 year

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I am loving Pearl so far, beautifully written, but WAIT because I have to know what the letters said 😭😭😭

thank you, anon! <3 i appreciate your sweet words 🥹 and thank you for asking, it inspired me to actually fill in this gap - hope you enjoy!

content warnings: best friends to lovers, slow burn, mutual pining, mature themes, adult language, death of a parent, topics of grief, emotional hurt / comfort, self-doubt / insecurities - unedited - if i missed anything, pls let me know!

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November 19, 1984

Eddie,

Sitting back in my dorm feels almost surreal. Everyone around me is going about their lives as normal, and I know I can’t be mad because obviously to them nothing’s changed, but how am I expected to join in normality? To just pick up where I left off at the start of the month?

You know what my chem professor told me? ‘We’ve all lost someone. The trick is to not make it your whole personality.’ In a way that makes sense to me. It’s logical. I can’t let my dad’s passing define me. And he obviously would want me to move on with my life. But Eddie, my heart bleeds.

This grief… This grief is swallowing me whole. This grief has embedded itself into my core being and on most days, it’s fucking consuming me. I lost a parent, a protector, a friend. There are memories I’ll never get to make because he’s gone. I really lost a piece of myself. How come no one seems to get that?

You get that, right Eddie? I know you understand. You always understand.

I miss you. I miss my dad.

P.S. Excuse this tear stained paper. It’s a mess. I’m a mess.

P.P.S I’m sorry for running off on you the day of the funeral. It was just… a lot.

November 22, 1984

Eddie,

Nothing makes sense anymore. (Also, I know I just wrote you, but I haven’t sent that letter yet so you’ll get both together and can respond to them as one.)

I’m trying to catch up on the material I missed and the words blend together before my eyes. Well, I only have myself to blame. My mom offered for me to take the rest of the semester off and start fresh from the new year, but I thought the distraction would help. I couldn’t have been more wrong.

I’m so sad all the time. And you know what the worst part is? Aside from the nightmares and this restlessness I’ve felt since the funeral, I just can’t stop thinking about you. What is Eddie doing, who is he with, does he think about me too?

Well, do you? God, this is fucking stupid. I know you do ‘cause you fucking call me everyday and I can’t bring myself to answer or call you back… Stupid…

I also think about our last moment together often… Actually, please ignore this letter, Eddie. Don’t respond. Like I said, nothing makes sense anymore, including my thoughts.

I miss you.

November 27, 1984

Eddie,

I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring your calls. I’m sorry I’ve had my roommate make up stupid excuses for me, that’s so lame. Most of all though, I’m sorry I haven’t called you back.

You’re trying to be there for me and I’m pushing you away. That’s shitty of me and really unforgivable. But the thing is, I think I’m doing it because I know you’ll always forgive me. That’s even shittier of me. I’m awful.

You deserve a better friend, Eddie Munson. You deserve the world and I only wish I could give you that. Instead, you’re stuck with a girl who runs away from uncomfortable situations and hurts you in the process.

I wish I could go back to the day of the funeral and change

November 30, 1984

I spent the entire day listening to my mom cry over the phone — tell me, does it make me heartless for not shedding a single tear? Thinking now, this is the first time I haven’t cried since the funeral.

Anyway, I’m failing the semester. Surprise, surprise.

Also, Jonathan and Nancy came to visit. Why didn’t you come with them? God, why am I such a loser? Won’t speak with you over the phone, but gets mad when you don’t take time from school to come see me. I’m sick of myself.

P.S. Thank you for regularly doing the groceries for my mom and helping her around the house. You have no idea how much that means to her, and to me. I love— Thank you, Eddie.

December 4, 1984

It’s been a month since my dad died.

The grief hasn’t surpassed. If anything, it’s gotten stronger. My roommate has to force me to do basic human things like eat and sometimes even shower. She’s really been my rock here these last few weeks. You’d like her, I think. She couldn’t be more different than you in style, but she’s funny.

I know you probably don’t have a high opinion of her now, considering she’s helping me avoid you, but—

I should really call you back. I’m sorry.

December 10, 1984

I haven’t sent a single one of these letters. You’ll probably never read them and know how truly awful I feel for ignoring you.

Eddie, how come things have gotten so complicated? You’ve done nothing wrong. It’s all on me. I wish we could go back to that day at Lover's Lake when you played your guitar for me. That was bliss.

I miss you, my Bobby McGee.

December 14, 1984

Eddie, you didn’t call today.

I shouldn’t be surprised. Not like I’ve given you a reason to call.

I wonder if you’ll even want to see me when I come home for the holidays. Probably not. That’s okay though. That’s okay…

December 19, 1984

Eddie,

Perhaps I’m saying this a little too late, but I appreciate you. Thank you for being my best friend and the entire reason why I know I’m going to be okay.

I think I’m in love with you. No. I know I am.

And I’m going to give you all these letters. Hopefully, you’ll read them in front of me so I can see your reaction when I say:

I love you, Eddie Munson.

I’m coming home for the holidays. I’ll come see you and I’ll apologise. With any luck, you’ll forgive me for being a cold-hearted bitch. With any luck, although I probably don’t deserve it, you’ll be my person again.

I'm yours, forever.

thank you for reading <3

& tagging some cool people that expressed interest in this lil series: @cactusangie , @spenciesprincess , @capitanostella , @ashlynnkennedy , @ms1oftheboys

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#these are actually a little sad #pearl (eddies version)#eddie munson fanfiction #eddie munson fic #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson angst #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x female reader #eddie munson x female character #eddie munson x fem!reader #bestfriend!eddie #eddie munson x best friend reader #best friends to lovers

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chloesimaginationthings · 1 day

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Pomni and Gummigoo reunite in TADC!

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spoopdeedoop · 17 days

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WYD WHEN MY GANG PULL UP !!!

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soranker · 3 months

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tomorrow :)

#TRIGUN MAXIMUM SPOILERS #trigun maximum #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #ok...... one more......... yall can have a little vashwood as a treat......#i actually love them so much SO BADLY but u prob wouldnt b able to tell bc i dont post a lot of ship art #but trimax vashwood. holay shit. hydrogen bomb yaoi #ive also just been like. digging into so much post-canon vashwood (<- sad and delusional and coping)#LIKE DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVE LOVE LOVEEE WOLFWOOD'S CHARACTER ARC and i think [redacted] is SO IMPORTANT AND VITAL TO THE STORY #BOTH THEMATICALLY AND FOR VASH'S CHARACTER ARC. i literally would not have it any other way unfortunately </3 BUT A PERSON CAN STILL DREAM!#ok ya ill stop talking now bc i think i could talk about them and think about them forever.. *scratching the back of my head*

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kuttblueberry · 1 month

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GRRR I should have posted these on Jonathan's birthday,,I am a fool </3 happy late birthday to our favorite gentleman

Aaagh anyway here's a little more Ms paint stuff I had saved

#jojos bizarre adventure #jjba #Phantom blood #jonathan joestar #erina pendleton #Jonaeri #My art #I'm so sad I missed Jonathan's birthday I actually have this very old birthday art of him that I now don't really like buuut #It could be fun to redraw it and add a little more to it

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lotus-pear · 3 months

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VERLAINEEEE as promised

#HE IS SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE FUCK😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#YALL SEE WHERE CHUUYA GETS THE GENES FROM????????#BEAUTIFUL ELEGANT ETHEREAL TRAGIC SAD GAY FRENCHMAN #I CANT BELIEVE THERES PPL WHO DONT LIKE HIM WTF #PPL WHO DONT LIKE VERLAINE ARE EMBRASSING...........KEEP THAT TO URSELF😐#im actually so insane im im im im #i actually found a new brush and i've been absuing yf out of it if u couldnt tell the colorings a little different #anyway yea #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #bsd verlaine #verlaine bsd #stormbringer #bsd stormbringer #lotus draws

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lucabyte · 28 days

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Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat.#isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance...#you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match.#and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc.#just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

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ohmyglobwhatthefrickamievendoing · 6 months

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Love that Izzy got in one last shot at Stede in a situation where Stede could under no circumstances retaliate and won their two season long bitch-off by then immediately and permanently peacing out

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canisalbus · 7 months

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hello! i've written a short little machete fic, and i wanted to share it with you as thanks for all the incredible art and generous question-answering you've been doing these last few months. i hope that if you give it a look, you enjoy it. <3 keep up all your amazing work! archiveofourown [.] org / works / 50945128

�� A Voi ✦

#wake up honey new fic dropped #feeling blessed #eating this out of your hands like a baby deer #it's so good you guys treat my lads so well #and write so beautifully and vividly and eloquently #I rambled about this in length in the fic's comment section so I won't repeat myself too much here #but in this one Machete has a little breakdown and gets lovingly bathed like the sad and stunned dog he is #really captured his neuroticism and endless uneasiness #excellent Vittorio content augh I adore him #I'll definitely come back to this later and draw proper actual fanart because some of the scenes are so thematically and visually strong #I need to be able to see them with my actual eyes #dangit I forgot the cut on his lip #had a minor crisis over the color of Machete's robe but maybe it'd be white like the rest of his sleepwear #as a contrast to the usual blacks and reds #fic A Voi #doomcountry #own art #own characters #Machete #CanisAlbus #blood #I said this before and I say it again #if you read the thing and like it it would be very kind and appreciated if you left a small comment to doomcountry as a thank you #you don't need an ao3 account and you can do it anonymously

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carrotkicks · 3 months

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cupid depression edition

#doodles #soukoku #skk #so i started thinking about lore!!#chuuya is a very sad little angel boy who very much wants someone who will love and cherish him #so he starts shooting people with his love spell to see if they'll be the right fit #and he gets dazai who is. incidently. immune to love spells. Dazai's originally in it for the *benefits* but actually likes chuuya soon #so chuuya's worried that dazai's only pretending to like him bc the love spell didn't actually work.#while also trying to grapple the ethics of brainwashing someone into loving him and his own.. dubious morality.#also skk have loads of sex LOL #ahhhh au born from some niche valentines art and the need to see much angel chuuya wings art.#cupid!chuuya vs poor sod he shot!dazai

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crabsnpersimmons · 3 months

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Y'all liked raincoat chibi!DCA, well it's been snowing a lot in my neighbourhood recently, which means it's time for...

Winter coat chibi!DCA

Expectation:

Reality:

#fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf dca #dca fandom #traditional art #this au is just me putting chibi sun and moon in different outfits and sending them out to play #this began when I was out driving for work #and I saw a parent and toddler crossing the street #the toddler looked like a waddling little star with this pointy pom pom hat #and my brain just went “waddling winter stars sun and moon”#crab art #actually I've been thinking about an underlying plot for this au #yes there's a sad backstory #my writing muse already got to them #but afterwards it's all slice of life playtime shenanigans #it's also got a name!#I'm calling it the Rain or Shine AU #Rain or Shine AU

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personwholoveschocolate · 28 days

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dont tell me this is not how it went

#g5 huh?#do you ever think that sunny and company remind him #not the mane six #but his and fluttershy's little pupils?#idk i still cant tell their age #they feel younger then mane 6 #but idk #mlp g5 #mlp #mlp discord #discord #fluttershy x discord #discord x fluttershy #my little pony #fluttercord #actually this is so fucking sad i cant take it

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ryvdraws · 4 months

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every time i adjust the way i draw richies hair i level up

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moonhibs · 5 months

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I just feel like she hopes she'll become someone better but cries knowing she won't.

#sorry if it feels mischarcatery its just been stuck in my head #missy makes me so sad you guys :(#the doctor didnt even really know who she was in the end #and i feel like she wishes that he did. and that she got to keep being herself because Missy was someone she enjoyed being #compared to the master yknow?#doctor who s8 ep11 spoilers #shes so :(#missy #doctor who #the master #myart #im so proud of this actually i did it in ibit paint with a soft zero texture brush which is like woah #its a little dramatic for mtly tastes but oughhhh

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mikakuna · 2 months

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imagine being so insensitive that you would blame a child for their death and openly talk about how badly behaved they were right in front of their grave. oh and on said child's birthday-- the day he would've turned 18 years old. you spend your first official late child's 18th birthday calling him brash and impulsive, implying he got himself murdered, instead of mourning the fact that today is the day your dead son would've reached a major milestone in his life.

#bruce going to jason's grave and not even looking the least bit sad is fucking insane #he looked so indifferent to it #just casually talking to one of his other kids about how much the second robin had it coming unfortunately #like that is your fucking son #you adopted that child #to say something as vain as -oh he liked cars and girls- is crazy #like that's all you know about your little boy?? a kid who blindly trusted you with his entire life #oh and that he liked ice cream #woo hoo #when has bruce ever actually rejoiced his child's life and talked about jason's personality positively #when has he never talked to his other kids about jason in a way that actually appreciated him #it's the literal bare minimum of what he owes jason #jason todd #red hood #batman #bruce wayne #jason peter todd #dc #dc comics

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camthecatchameleon · 1 month

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a few days ago my brain demanded i draw polywitchlight RIGHT NOW and who am i to refuse

original and closeups under the cut

original/template is from “Go For It Nakamura!” by Syundei which i have not read actually

+ closeups; feel free to use as icons with credit smile

#legends of avantris #once upon a witchlight #torbek #gideon coal #morning frost #kremy lecroux #gricko grimgrin #meme redraw #cw possible eyestrain #polylight #polywitchlight #do i even bother tagging twig hootsie and duke/gorebek if theyre just tiny little guys #obligatory click/open in new tab for better quality.#cmon guys i spent so much time on this #i actually LOOKED AT A REFERENCE???? GASP wow that never happens !!!#anyways i love gricko and his fucking teefers #im realizing that i dont draw torbek as fucked up and sad looking as everyone else does which does make him look inaccurate but shut up #in my heart hes adorable okay

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