#told* he shouldn’t

[dash-o-frost]

A Cinnamon roll that deserves the world and more importantly a basic understanding of good game writing (nearly a decade and I still need to defend this man

😭😭)

#I feel like #DONT GIVE RADIENT QUESTS TO THE COMPANION #shouldn’t need to be told to seasoned video game designers #but here we are #I would die for man #GLADLY #also can we have horses in fallout #some ghoul horseys #please #least we deserve #no #it’s what HE DESERVES #real rooting tooting cowboy #fallout companions #preston garvey #fo4 #fo4 companions #fallout #fo4 preston

[chandralia]

any genuine iteration I try to imagine of Ochako’s confession is her being like “you inspired and motivated me, I thought of you to guide me through my battles. But I kept it from you so I could focus on being a hero”

and Deku’s just like “oh my god I’m in love with Kacchan”

#the realization hits him like a brick ! #I just feel like no matter how you look at this… Deku’s reciprocation to her crush is lacking SEVERELY #HE IS NOT GONNA SAY ‘ME TOO’ WHEN SHE CONFESSES BE SERIOUS. #at the very least he’ll be surprised and it’ll be a ‘you shouldn’t bottle up your feelings’ thing… and then what?? #’I’m so glad you told me. let’s go out’ ??????? REALLY??? #THAT’S IT???? THAT’S THE CONCLUSION TO THIS DETRIMENTAL ARC OF HIDING A CRUSH FOR THIS LONG????? #😭😭 #THIS is what people want? the bare minimum…? #bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekubaku #:’)

[shepscapades]

Hey! i’m really into the dbch story and i was wondering if doc and xisuma ever tell bdubs the specifics of why etho lost his memories, cause if they do that is prime self blaming angst for bdubs

I’m inclined to believe they don’t. Actually (and maybe I should do a small comic for this so more people see it) I imagine, once a month or a few pass and they finally return etho to bdubs as reset, I imagine they are VERY serious about warning bdubs not to try to force Etho to re-deviate— they don’t go into specifics, but they probably tell bdubs that whatever happened had to do with something that was emotionally overwhelming, and that forcing him to redeviate/not letting it happen naturally could trigger the same error. They have no idea what could happen so bdubs needs to be very careful and let Etho find himself again on his own.

Whether or not bdubs gets impatient or can only go so long before he doubts it would be that bad if he tried pushing Etho in the right direction is another story.

But yeah. I don’t think Xisuma or Doc really… tell anyone that this happened. Etho’s error seemed like a very specific one-off scenario, so it’s not something the other hermits should be trying to avoid or be careful about happening to their own android friends, and the only thing telling people would do is make them worried about the situation. All they need to know is that etho was broken and that they need to be careful with him. I don’t agree with their decision to keep what happened to themselves but I understand it I think. Xisuma “i don’t want to worry the hermits” Void and Docm “eh this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this arm, people won’t question it” 77

#that’s a lie actually I think xisuma ends up telling Cleo :> #but only because Cleo is very smart and I think they should be close in this au :] #but no she would clock Tired Overworked Existential Crisis Xisuma in an instant #Cleo calls them both idiots and gives them big hugs and tells them they need therapy. also that they’re welcome by her place anytime to talk #it’s very sweet and healing to me #this is where “all things end’’ on Xisuma’s playlist comes in actually #oh my god I got so off topic #BDUBS IS GOING TO FEEL GUILTY NO MATTER WHAT THOUGH #like okay. technically #the reason etho shut down is because he was freaking out that everything was his fault #(last life—not giving bdubs a heart— trying to win for bdubs and then losing— coming back to s8 feeling like he can’t face bdubs—> #ending up leaving him alone when the moon hit #and bdubs was hurt by these things. no doubt #but bdubs just wants his friend back and maybe he’s a little reckless about it #bdubs hides his emotions behind cartoonish frustration and complaining but he feels bad #he feels like he should be doing more to ‘save’ etho and bring him back even though he was to #told* he shouldn’t #dbhc ask #dbhc #dbhc bdubs #dbhc etho #dbhc doc #dbhc xisuma #ask #anon

[glfry]

I think I hauve covid

#hes . yknow . #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #shuro #dunmeshi shuro #he shouldn’t be into falin he SHOULD BE INTO ME !!!!! AND ONLY ME !!!!!! #also apparently he’s voiced by rice pirate in the Eng version and that was such a jumpscare I had a guttural reaction to it. #i got told ghat the doesn’t keep this look and that made me so sad. what the fuck #let him be disheveled … #my jaw dropped when i saw him #My Ass went 'hottie hot hottie' out loud im not kidding

[designernishiki]

it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now

#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions #and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety #but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake #AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior #is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out #of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and #maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you. #I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it. #I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about #it?’ #that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words #I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him #and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can #trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me #it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways #at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison #and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane #mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed #patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused #all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona #(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage #does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head #kazumaji #majima #kiryu #yakuza #kiwami 1 #yk1 #rambling

[angelseverything]

I finally finished it!

#I feel like I don’t have to say this but the internet is scary NOT A SHIP!!! #would you guys believe me if I told you I started this earlier October #this scene had me sweating bullets 💀 #first time posting art since 2020 pls be nice to me #CAN WE TALK ABOUT UNDIVIDED OMGGGG I WAS NOT OK #honestly Risa shouldn’t be scared she could probably fold Divan in half with those shoulders #I could write an essay about how much Divan creeps me out #something about how gentle he tries to act around the children he’s literally harvesting #sorry I’m slow at drawing #unwind #unwind dystology #bookblr #books #divan umarov #risa ward #Risa

[foldingfittedsheets]

me realizing you visited philly like !!!!!! i could've seen my fav artist!!!

Yeah! I was there last summer with my betrothed visiting their dad. It was… a pretty bad time. I loved the zoo and the sculpture gardens.

The trees and woods were so lush and beautiful but then someone told me ticks are rampant and you can’t go walking without giving yourself a tick check afterward and I became very distressed about that. My betrotheds dad kept making it worse.

He also fat shamed us both, made it sound like my chronic fatigue was a tactic to keep my betrothed bound to me, and asked intrusive and upsetting questions about our student loans, and said some incredibly derogatory things about autistic people.

So if you had seen me it wouldn’t have been the best conditions under which to meet me.

#ask ffs #we were both hungry the whole time because their version of food was a salad #I’ve told my betrothed we shouldn’t visit him if he just makes us feel terrible but they don’t want to not visit their dad #it was super rough #I lasted one day before crying about how we were being treated

[snzluv3r]

i know there’s a lot of chronically ill/medically complex people on here so i was wondering, have any of you ever struggled with medical burnout (for lack of better words)?

(also gonna rant real quick under here sorry for the negativity)

i’ve been really struggling lately because it feels like half of my time is spent making phone calls and scheduling appointments and going to get tests and scans and spending months of my life just in limbo on waiting lists. i’m so sick of feeling like my health is a job and constantly being at the hospital for appointments like it’s gotten so bad that i can barely bring myself to take my meds anymore. it’s just so exhausting sometimes and i wish there was a way i could take a break from all of this without potentially making my health worse.

even today i woke up really sick and had to miss out on something i was really looking forward to yet i still feel this responsibility to make all of the medical calls i was planning to make anyway because i’ve been putting everything off for so long. it’s not like making those calls is that much work but it gets so frustrating being bounced around or not getting a straight answer because insurance or referrals or whatever other stupid healthcare system process that makes this all so much more complicated.

i also am still on the waiting list for my new PCP and have no idea when i’ll be able to actually meet her, yet my psychiatrist decided (without consulting me or my therapist) that because my meds haven’t changed recently (they absolutely have), i can just get all of my psych meds (including adderall) through my PCP….which i don’t technically have. i’m so frustrated because my nightmares have been so bad for years and they’re only getting worse and every med i’ve tried for PTSD nightmares is either bad for my physical health or doesn’t work at all and that’s really not something that i necessarily trust a pcp with??? it’s just not necessarily in their scope and i’ve had too many prescribers fuck up my brain and body by recklessly putting me on different psych meds without proper knowledge or research.

i’m just so frustrated and i’m so miserable right now i wish i didn’t have to do this for the rest of my life. and the fact that EDS literally just gets worse with age like? i don’t think i CAN do this for the rest of my life it’s just an endless cycle

sorry for complaining and ranting so much nobody is even gonna read this and that’s okay i just needed to get it off my chest

#i’m so so so so so tired #all i wanted to do today was be productive and go to this thing #and i woke up at 6 am sick #got a cute three hours of sleep and am in too much pain to sleep now #and i have to be at the hospital at 7 am tomorrow #not snz #sorry ignore this just rantinf #cw mental health #cw medical stuff #sorry idk how to tag it #i literally showed up to my last appointment with my psychiatrist and he said “’well i’ll probably never see u again bc this is our last se’ #SINCE WHEN #like you could’ve fucking told me so i could make other plans #whatever #i shouldn’t be surprised anymore

[paladin-n-cleric]

GOD i love the fighting motif the idea that people decide to fight and it’s not actually rewarding and they should’ve run

#SO SO COOL!!!!!!!! #joyce was safe because will told her to run #eddie died bc he fought #will got possessed bc he fought #max was safe in ep4 because she ran #and also that’s not to say they shouldn’t fight ever. but if running is safe you should do it #byler #talia talks (about the 80s monster show)

[stabbistabb]

Headcanon:

Jake has a “suck it up and be nice” sorta mentality.. he’s had this long before becoming captain and when he does become captain it get worse.

He rarely gets pissy with people because of this but one time he was so overwhelmed with stressed he yelled at hook (calling him crocodile food) and immediately felt bad afterwards.

Hook being an ass basically makes Jake feel like the worst piece of shit possible by constantly reminding him about.

#disney junior #jake and the neverland pirates #jatnp #izzy #jake and #cubby #captain hook #captain jake #jake #headcanon #this a head canon #the crew has told him that he shouldn’t feel bad for the basterd #its not working

[orpheus-lovett-thenardier]

Sweeney Todd has the major advantage of having a landlady that’s madly in love with him.

I first went down this rabbit hole of thought a few years ago. My updated version is that Nellie doesn’t make him pay rent. She just doesn’t care. She already wants him to live with her, so why make him pay?

Back when I first thought of this tho, my joke was that they’re both extremely broke, so she maybe tries to get him to pay rent a little bit, but he’s got, like, no money, so he’s just like, “Sorry, can’t.” And she just lets it slide, ‘cause what is she gonna do, evict the love of her life?

He gets away with this all the time.

The other joke I made is that he very easily could use this whole thing to his advantage. Not in a “toying with her feelings” way, just in a “my landlady’s in love with me, what’s she gonna do” way. One day, he just buys her flowers and is like, “Do you except barters?” And of course she accepts because she loves flowers and she loves him, and even if it was to get out of paying rent, she thinks it’s sweet, and they both know deep down that she was never going to make him pay anyway.

#this isn’t to say that he never helps with her financial struggles he just does so in other ways #like unaliving his customers lol #maybe i shouldn’t say lol after that whoops #he lives in her house and her mind rent free #this whole thing made me come up with the phrases too cute to pay rent & too cute to be evicted #i want both on a t shirt #broadway #theatre #musical theatre #musicals #sweeney todd #sweeney todd the demon barber of fleet street #mrs lovett #nellie lovett #this kinda turned into an actual headcanon instead of just a little joke #whoops #sweeney todd and mrs lovett #sweeney todd and nellie lovett #i told myself i wasn’t gonna use tumblr much ‘cause the over-s3xualization of literally everything is getting on my nerves #but i’m still a nerd who likes to post

[pepprs]

im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol

#i know i know. and i need to let the anguish motivate me to get out of here. but it feels like i dreamed it all #purrs #chicago #i had a rough time getting out of the hotel and through the airport to my gate and also im bad at math so i fucked up the calculation about #when my flight lands bc of the time zone change and i gave my parents the time in central time not eastern time so my dad was waiting for m #for like a half hour and texting me and i wasn’t answering bc i was still in the air and he was pissed at me and snarky in my texts with hi #and i was sitting there on the plane and could just feel his words ripping into me and the horrors rushing back in and i still haven’t #recovered from it honestly. it wasn’t that big of a deal he just said something that i misunderstood as him saying he was giving up waiting #for me and going home bc id already wasted his time and even though that was not what he actually said it just kinda burrowed into me that #my parents were mad at me and were probably also mad at me for not communicating with them AT ALL the entire time i was in chicago. and it #just was eating me alive. im home now and we haven’t talked about it but they did say things disapproving of the fact that i did a lot of #stuff by myself which i probably shouldn’t have told them. idk. it’s not even that bad i just am torn apart by their rejection of me and #utter inability to just like be happy for me without criticizing some part of it or restraining me. plus the house is just as much of a #biohazard as it was when i left and all the broken things are still broken and it’s like. a lot. i miss the hotel LOL #i think im just sleep deprived and not in my head right today but i do not want to be here. sinking in quicksand unable to breathe. but i #have to be the one to get me out of it and i should have learned how in chicago but i didn’t it was just a break and now im stuck again #delete later #kind of terrible that instead of being so proud and happy about what i did my immediate reaction is to be miserable that im home now lol

[gotyouanyway]

lol the other day i told my pt i always use my knee brace at work (3x 4 hour shifts a week, sometimes less) bc if i don’t then i’ll be in significant pain and she told me off for it bc i’m “relying on it” too much and it’ll make my muscles weaker and make things worse in the long run. and when i said “i understand that so i don’t use it all the time. but you told me to use it when i’m in pain or standing/walking a lot.” she said “i only meant to use it right after our last appointment because you were in a lot of pain. only use it when you’re in extreme pain” and i said “but if i don’t use it Then i’m in extreme pain. idk what you want me to do” and she literally said “okay” in her “defuse the aggro patient” voice and moved on. like truly these people do not give a fuck about your day to day quality of life they only care about your long term statistics

#this is after she saw me with crutches last time and instead of being like ‘oh you must be in a lot of pain’ she literally just told me off #bc ‘those are for people with real mobility issues’ #and then spent the last 10min of that appointment explaining to me like i was 5 that i shouldn’t be in pain bc my xrays look ‘fine’ #(they don’t.) #oh AND she ignored me when i said WHY i wasn’t doing my exercises (having a hard time mentally) and just lectured me about consistency #then she recommended me a meditation app. LOL. #oh plus the ‘learn to pace yourself ^_^’ info packet from last time that i tore into pieces bc i was so mad it was so insulting lmao #anyway that’s why i keep crying after all my appointments with her #but i can’t fire her! bc she’s seeing me for free and i can’t afford to go see someone else without relying on my dad #which i don’t want to do bc he has insane ideas about medical care #p

[quietwingsinthesky]

baby sadist kevin getting torture lessons from crowley…

#there will be nothing redeeming on my blog today folks #just ugghhh. imagine. #crowley’s tied down in the dungeon and Kevin uses him for stress relief… #knows he shouldn’t. that the Winchesters told him to leave Crowley alone. but he’s right there and powerless #and kevin can take out all his frustrations on him. #and kevin has No Idea this is going to be something that turns him on and that’s an upsetting thing to realize in the middle of hurting him #but now he’s hard and he’s got Crowley all bloodied up and crowley’s taunting him about it. telling him to hurt him as much as he wants #to really get off on it… 😳

[roylustang]

Me when my PT tells me I have an ass that won’t quit: 😏

#JK that’s not what he said #what he actually said was #‘I’m impressed. most girls—well I shouldn’t say girls—most PEOPLE can’t do this’ #this being me resisting him pushing and pulling my leg in different directions (due to my strong ass muscles) #and then he told me to thank my previous physical therapist #bc she’s the only reason I’m so obsessed with strengthening my BUTT #u can guess that the right side is not as strong as the left #which is why my knee is fucked up #it used to b the other way around #also I think wherever he did yesterday fixed me a lot #I can’t say for certain bc everything is sooooo…..minuscule when I don’t run #but it feels less tight when I do the things that usually make me notice somethings a lil Off #praying praying praying #running

[hektora]

telling my professor anything about myself makes me feel like my skin is gonna crawl off my body and lay in a heap in a corner

#just told him abt my iron deficiency bc it was either that or talk to him abt my more personal issues #and i’m like ewwwwwwwwwwwwww he shouldn’t know about my blood… Ewwwww #he’s being an asshole i just need 1 favor and then i can hopefully never see him again but he’s obviously being an ass about the favor #and demanding to know why i need it etc