#too busy trying to survive

[nighmoons]

i enjoy how in the percy jackson fandom whenever the demigods are being drawn they are given outfits and accesories that play homage to their godly parent (e.g nico with ghouly tshirt motifs, percy with shell bracelets) when in canon these demigods are wearing an assortment of shirts and pants that they find at the bottom of a bargain bin at target, whatever that has not been destroyed in the recent war or camp shirt.

#will solace canonically wears CARGO shorts #i dont think the demigods care much about the concept of fashion #too busy trying to survive #but i appreciate the artistic sentiments #pjato #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #nico di angelo #annabeth chase #will solace #grover underwood #rachel elizabeth dare #percyseries #hoo #jason grace #piper mclean #leo valdez #hazel levesque #frank zhang #other characters etc etc u get my Point #pjo fandom #disney plus

[vroomian]

so if most of the revolutionaries, philosophers, and strong-minded leaders are in hell, how come it's still //gestures like that. i don't know much about hazbin hotel, but i'm assuming yrz's whole stacks situation is pretty unique so i'm wondering why no one else did it

Uuuuum well the answer is probably exterminations and overlords. Like also the ‘morally good’ leaders are in heaven. So why would the ‘morally bad’ ones do anything to help hell?

The acceptable ones eventually get got by extermination while helping others because they end up not being strong enough. The bad ones usually end up as overlords! (Like I’d probably consider vox a popular and strong minded leader of sorts while he was alive.)

Yrz is just the right balance of selfish and Commuity minded to both survive and gain power in hells politics. Yrz doesn’t help hell because it’s the right thing to do, he did it because he lives there and he doesn’t like chaos where he lives. It was the same for when he was alive. It offended how he saw the world and how humans should be treated as a part of a society.

#you've got questions we've got answers #Hazbin au #like the not good ones end up in hell so why would hell improve when they’re added? #everyone is too busy trying to survive or escape pain or gain power #hell is not conducive to self improvement hilariously

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Thinking plotting scheming of pt, but make it diceyd/ungeons. I think it fits so well; the plot of dd is so cute and its easy to smush existing characters into that universe.

Peppino wishes for his debt to be cleared and for his shop to be successful. Pman wants him and his art to be famous and revered beyond his wildest dreams. Vigi wants Justice or whatever (but hes actually here to be nosy about the ins and outs of the show itself). Noise wants MONEY and FAME. Mysterious man who looks like peppino wants his own shop :). All the pt bosses are dd bosses before going ‘hey, u know what? This gig kinda sucks ass. If u think u can take on the big cheese im jumpin onboard w you’.

Thats all i got LOL i am debating if i still want lady luck to be the boss or let pizzaface be the big bad and just remove the existing dd characters entirely. Pizzahead would always be the jester, and therefore, always be your last die/teammate, which i think is cute heehee hes tired of being a silly little guy no one takes seriously! Hes got silly dreams too!!!! Hes a silly guy w dreams!!!

#chattin #much to think about :) #this is bc i was playing sts and i remembered i made a mockup of his cards and stats #(UNFINISHED; i dont have anything to show im so sorry 😭) #peppino would fit SO well as a modded character in dd too #hed be a brute w shielding mechanics i think #or maybe weaken ? 🤔 #hes not complex like thief hes just gets dice and works w what he has which i think is very fitting #low rolls for weaken; high rolls for damage. very basic #or maybe try to implement his speed by having lots of dice and lots of low roll options for equipment?? i dunno #weh #anyway #cute game #i love it sm and the ending is silly #putting peppino in situations is my favorite pasttime #any kind of roguelite or survival game fits him so well #this is also why i think he would fit PERFECTLY in dont starve #he doesnt want to be broke and he wants to keep his shop in business?? what if i show u the path to riches…. #and now hes like dammit. now im eating bunnies and weird berries to stay alove >:( #ALIVE. my phone made me type alove like eight times and i still fucked it up lmao

[icedteaandoldlace]

I will never understand why people hate Cisco because of that one time he got mad at Barry for indirectly causing his brother's death. First of all, that was a very short period of time, he forgave him VERY quickly, and that doesn't define his entire character or his entire relationship with Barry. And second, HIS BROTHER FUCKING DIED. Like, that's kind of a big deal. Does no one in this fandom have siblings??

#The Flash #Cisco Ramon #Barry Allen #Barrisco #and like I was annoyed with BOTH of them during that storyline! #still on both of their sides though! #I cannot honestly say that if I lost my parents and I had the ability to time travel that I wouldn't try to bring them back #or that I wouldn't be pissed as hell if I lost a sibling and my best friend who could time travel refused to bring them back #PLUS kind of got them killed in the first place #their friendship survived only because Cisco had enough compassion to put himself in Barry's shoes and see the issue from his perspective #Barry was too busy feeling guilty and trying to give Cisco space to bother trying to explain his side of the story #Cisco had to do the hard work of trying to understand Barry's side and then choosing to forgive him and let him be his friend again #that says SO MUCH MORE about who he is than a little grief induced passive aggressiveness does

[rusquared]

i miss learning dont let the world fool u and desensitize u. learning is meant to be fun. school and college shouldn't make u want to kill urself. learning a new subject is exciting you get to watch yourself have little wins with every quiz u get right.

#gonna cry i wanna learn #i didnt do enough of it in uni i was too busy trying to survive #can i learn?

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #personal whining feel free to ignore #on every level but physical I am screaming and clawing the walls today #it was another no-human-interaction weekend (for reasons beyond my control which is frustrating) #which was a mistake I think #and then everyone on campus whom I can comfortably talk to is absent or busy today #and my coworker is being The Human Humming Machine #it's spring break but only for students and faculty - staff gets only Friday off #and I'm trying to survive till then but apparently we're also getting great weather this week until Friday when it gets cold and rainy #which isn't ideal when you have to walk everywhere #which opens a whole nother box of frustrations #sorry to complain it will be fine but I have been stuck in my head too long and I hate it there please let me out

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[thatgirlonstage]

Deep breath. Steeples fingers. It’s the way Arthur never needed to know Merlin was part of his destiny to be on his side over and OVER again

#merlin #they’re a true have your cake and eat it too ship #on the one side merlin who feels the full weight and pull of a destiny he can’t escape #that he chooses to run towards with open arms #on the other side Arthur #who has NO obligation to merlin except the one he feels and creates for himself #opens the forbidden ‘what if merlin….was good’ book #do you think about how often kilgarrah talks about them as EQUALS #two sides of the same coin. two souls meant to be one. #but merlin always ALWAYS ALWAYS casts himself as lesser #he sees their joint destiny as one where he is subservient to Arthur #less important #he is constantly willing to die for Arthur’s sake and he TRULY THINKS IT DOESN’T MATTER #merlin is constantly of the view that if he dies so Arthur can live that is *fulfilling their destiny* #what a cruel trick the end of their story is #but that’s my point kinda: merlin never actually understood their destiny #that’s why he fails the test and mordred survives #because he tells Arthur magic can never be allowed in Camelot bc he is too busy trying to save Arthur to save himself #and as a result he gets it wrong #if you look at the whole show but s5 especially as a tragedy the arc is absolutely classical #meanwhile Arthur never knows about FUCKING ANY OF THIS #and yet and yet and yet #call it destiny or love he still finds his partner in merlin. the other half of his soul. #he never needed to know what they were supposed to be to see what they could be

[elshells]

Hey there tumblr, I've missed you. How's it going?

#this past month has been so demanding (still is) and I'm physically and mentally drained of energy more often than not #and I haven't written in so long #but you know what? I'm okay #it hasn't been easy but I'm surviving #and right now life isn't too heck #I'm pushing myself out there more and I'm seeing my friends as often as I can while still prioritizing my own health #and I'm finally starting to feel excited about my own WIPs again! #the spark to write has been out for a little while and I haven't been able to drudge up the interest until now #so hopefully that means good things for the near future! #plus I've missed talking to my online writing buddies and I wanna see how y'all are doing!! #my life hasn't gotten any less busy but I'm gonna try my best to hang out every once in a while #anyway love y'all #rambling in the reblogs as usual oops sorry #life update kinda #ella thinks

[emuwarum]

sometimes when playing ark you completely forget about something you’ve read.

I finally build a nice little enclosure for all (I think it’s around this number) 30 dodos. I put a feeding trough in and fill it up. I set everyone to passive flee, wandering, disabled mating.

I take a quick step outside to grab something, come back, look up in horror at all the mating hearts floating above the enclosure. I completely forgot that you can’t turn off mating when they’re wandering, and that they automatically mate when they wander.

so I guess I’m gonna have to deal with that tomorrow (use the resulting eggs to make kibble)

#Emu tries to post #ark #ark survival evolved #this is a lovely game in whyi go looking for a spino which I don’t find #I go down to rest my pteranodon #all the other pteranodons which were carrying the spino trap supplies and narcotics and such are being annoying. #a pachyrhinosaurus walks up to me #much shenanigans in taking her like losing half my narcotics when I forgot to feed them to her and she woke up #because I was too busy watching a pack of terror birds terrorise everything in sight #one is swimming trying to get me #i knock it out #take him #go back to the pachyrhinosaurus #in our way back to base there’s a higher level male #I knock him out after wasting many arrows hitting his head #I go to out the narcotics and food in his inventory #while exiting the inventory a dilo has murdered him #because I set all my tames to passive so they wouldn’t kill him before I knocked him out #so I had to tell them to kill the dilo #but anyway I go home to make saddles and dye them blue and red for the new guys #I think my best name for anything so far would be cowboy the fastest #my gallimimus #she’s wonderful #very good dino to command others from #since I can just yeet myself away at light speed

[hella1975]

hella idk what to send to you for aftg im either bored or annoyed and I don't wanna just say bad things about it 😭 like that's just rude and yall obviously like it I DONT WANNA BE SOME DEBBY DOWNER MDMWKEM

I looked at the anti aftg tag too to see if I could intermingle there and last I checked it was a mix of fans obsessed with the series and haters being just a tad harsh imo, so i couldn't even do that RIP. I'm so lonesome in what is maybe a whole group of people gaslighting me 😔👊

honestly ive said this before and i always have to tread a very fine line with it because this isn't me saying it's OKAY or like. promotable. but i do think to an extent that aftg's problematicness is actually an aspect of what draws people in a lot. like the characters and their reactions to things feel real for who they are, what they've been through and the environments they were raised in if that makes sense? and then you go in the anti-aftg tag and it's just again and again 'they said THIS thing and acted THIS way in response to THIS scenario and it was PROBLEMATIC' and like. yeah. outside of the internet bubble you're in people do actually do that. like that behaviour exists. it IS problematic, well done. you pointed at a wall and called it a wall. but like? in real life people - PARTICULARLY deprived, traumatised people that typically don't ever get therapy or community or someone telling them why something is bad - DO act this way. ive said half of my love for andrew is literally just because he took an awful backstory and let it make him a complete cunt and ive NEVER seen a character do it as shamelessly as him before. and yeah there's the argument for how it's never resolved in the book where nora ties it with a bow and points at the bad behaviour so the readers can go 'see, this is wrong' and we all clap, but idk it just for me feels that when people point at the aftg characters and go problematic! problematic! problematic! it's like they're missing the point a bit.

the point being? that we need to be putting WAY more heat on the author. i really dislike her and a lot of her writing choices and her insistance of using slurs that aren't hers to reclaim and just because it happened to make the characters feel just that bit more authentic i can still acknowledge that she CLEARLY wrote it without characterisation in mind and just added all that problematic shit anyway. like i never get why there's so little focus on nora's writing decisions and thousands of posts just fucking CRUCIFYING the characters themselves and 'let's explain in detail why this behaviour is Morally Reprehensible and they should be Locked Up Forever'. like if u want to focus on the characters so bad and pretend they're the sole reason why aftg is Problematic and Bad then why is it so hard to acknowledge that someone raised the way they were might have some misinformed, ignorant beliefs. idk lol

#but i do also think im prone to viewing these characters as TOO real and i understand there's a line to be drawn between media and reality #like at what point does 'life imitates art' become just a genuinely shit piece of media #and at the end of the day im fully aware which end of the spectrum aftg is on LMAO but this is my 2 cents #like ive met so many people that have said absolutely heinous things that the internet would eat them alive for #like homophobic sexist shit you name it they've said it and it IS problematic and uncomfortable to listen to #but i also know that while teenagers online that would call them problematic were busy claiming some new fucking buzz word to throw around #those people were actively just fucking trying to survive. like they weren't learning about why misogyny is bad #because they were fucking addicted to drugs or living through poverty or some shit like they had BIGGER PROBLEMS #like not everyone got the education or life experiences you got and while it's valid to assume someone saying horrible things #is horrible themselves there's also the times it's just genuinely a misinformed ignorant person #like they'll say 'problematic' things and i'll point out why it's bad and they'll literally go 'oh i never thought of that.' that's it!!! #like i have this childhood friend whose life has been an absolute circus start to finish like COMPLETE instability i wont even get into it #low and behold she had NO ONE educating her about things and one time i had to explain to her why having abortion rights was important #bc she just out of nowhere said she was against abortions. and i initially was outraged and disappointed that this came from her #but i didn't patronise her or shout i just explained my angle on why i think they're good and she was on side immediately #cause she always had bigger problems than researching ethics and no one to guide her so she just absorbed the first opinion she came across #and in a small town from a working class family that opinion is typically not the nice woke answer the internet demands #and with aftg particularly andrew bc he's the one who gets a lot of slack for being violent and generally unreasonable #you have someone who has literally not had someone treat him kindly a single time in his life and each new person is a genuine safety threa #like the average person just does not have to deal with that! ofc they have more time to decide their political and moral compass! #and that's so relevant to real life! popularity for the monarchy is highest amongst the working class! the people voted for brexit! trump! #the lower classes and marginalised simply do not have the resources that higher classes do #and someone fighting for survival is not going to be reading twitter threads on cancel culture in their spare time #so many issues in the world can be eased so much quicker by kindness and patient non-patronising education #than just. pointing and calling 'problematic' at anything remotely uncomfortable #idk where this came from its 2am i should go to bed and instead im ranting not even about aftg anmore this is completely it's own thing now #i feel like i worded this badly too im gonna wake up to anons in the morning accusing me of like. condoning spiking #also gloomy i am SO sorry you are the true victim of this i went ENTIRELY off piste on this one please ignore this 😭 #ask

[tricos-here]

going through HoT with thief genuinely is so

#looks at my measly 13k health and gets one shot by chak.... i should invest in some marauder gear #deadeye d/d is really fun because you one shot trash mobs and get plenty of boons but then you run into that one (1) enemy #that slaps you down so hard mama mia #tried soloing that one chak HP in TD and just sat there looking at my deafeat screen like. yeah #it did take a min to kill me but also! didn't do any damage on it bc I was too busy trying to survive (also forgot to bring cc so that's on #me)

[bericas]

she feels no control of her body. she feels no safety in my arms.

#twedit #twrarepair #josh x violet #violet x josh #spikeface #bericas winter break* #thank you for the request!!! i love lying!!!!! #this is only Kind of Sort of the vibe plot wise its just hard to lie too much with characters who have never interacted JKDFGHJKDHGDFG #cause it becomes a little like unrecognizable! BUT! violet can still begrudgingly march him out of the chimera pack later in the fake 5a #my Vibe for this stage of fake 5a is just that violet survives s4 by becoming a nagual and like evrey other villain she just kind of. #becomes vaguely part of the pack. #which would lend more tension of sciles earlier in the season too bc violet literally just tried to kill scott and now shes hanging around #i think violet likes to stay busy so she kind of gloms onto something she can do that wont end up with her dead #and also does whatever else she can do to distract her from her dead bf #enter clubbing! enter josh! enter violet knowing hes full of shit from the get go! #but she doesnt know how much!!! she just knows hes doing the same thing she is; hes just distracting himself from smth else #she doesnt know that they have throat-slashed solidarity or that would josh also died one time #just that hes a liar who likes to club. and same!!!! #and they end up a little flirty just bc its fun and feels good to have something their respective packs dont know #and they both dont rly feel aligned with those packs anyway. and suddenly theyre really close and both trying not to smile #but for josh it feels too big and heavy to start something up with someone rn so when violet makes a move he backs off #and then they probably dont talk. until. both packs go to break lydia out and they see each other there #oh im out of tags for my blog now. im gonna tag jsut in case #tw #josh diaz #violet #anyway this was so fun such a good lie thank u for this spike #lie josh and violet would have sooooo much to bond abt in terms of. obviously the throat slashing and the death #but also josh is a boy who died and came back and garrett died and stayed dead. so thats. you know. a lot. #and then also just the loss of autonomy. both of their bodies are unrecognizable and their rage disguised as nonchalance is wearing thin

[metalhoops]

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tagged by @hellion-child. Thanks so much for tagging me ❤️

Last song: Gotterdammerung- Zeal & Ardor. It's been a long day and sometimes my brain just needs very loud music to chill out, counterintuitive as it might seem.

Currently watching: Like most of Tumblr, I just finished watching Good Omens season 2. I'm also watching the latest season of What We Do in the Shadows.

Currently reading: I just finished reading 'Our Share of Night' / 'Nuestra Parte de Noche ' by Mariana Enriquez. I would recommend it if you're looking for a tome of a horror novel that gets under your skin. It's not necessarily scary but it is haunting. Plus most of the main characters are LGBT+.

Like Lovecraftian Gods, cults, kids on bikes in the 80s, haunted houses, generational trauma, a capitalism hit peace, or a story where the characters become horrible people in order to do what they think is right only for them to become the thing they fear? Then this book is for you.

Current obsession: If I'm honest I don't have much time for my obsessions. I'm currently juggling a master's degree, placement and part-time work. So free time to exist is hard to come by.

I feel like it's obvious if I tell you I love reading or writing.

If I do have spare time I enjoy art, which you might not know from my Tumblr because I don't really do fan art. I'm not that good at digital art. I tend to do ink, Berserk-like stuff because hyper-focusing on tiny details or repetitive crosshatching also scratches an itch in my brain. I also really enjoy painting flower/ nature with a palette knife.

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#about me #tag game #not stranger things #this was fun #I'd love to see other people's answers #but I also get people might be busy #I've been flat out #Hence why I haven't written much lately #I'm trying to survive y'all #Also hellion #I get what you mean about TV #I can't binge watch anything #I am like a 1-2 episode max girl #then I need to go for a walk or something #also anyone feel free to ask me more questions #either as a comment or in my asks #if you do want to get to know more #I feel like I don't share too much on here #besides fandom stuff

[uservaulty]

oh look how empire doing everything to dehumanize and demoralize in order to keep prisoners fighting against each other instead of fighting against them

#turning prison time into competition to shift people's rage from them; so prisoners would be too busy trying to survive #instead of plotting and scheming #andor series #andor #sw #1x08

[titsoutfornature]

the op shut off reblogs, but this is a great point.

& i wanted to add that it's so so important that, in our fight against rich ppl, we don't use the words "lazy" or "parasite", bc it always rebounds to disabled and impoverished people.

the problem with rich ppl isn't that they receive a lot of support, it's that they maintain their support systems through unspeakable cruelty. they require complex systems of oppression to even purchase cleaning services. the system requires vulnerable ppl to exploit.

everyone deserves strong support systems, but everyone is too busy being exploited that they cannot create their own. the goal shouldn't be hyper-individualistic self-sufficiency (which abandons disabled ppl). nor should the goal be to exploit vulnerable ppl for a better cause (looking at disabled socialists who want to utilize a class of caretakers; it's still exploitation if the system requires making ppl vulnerable so they will be forced to aid you)

#dont want to clog this post with political anthropology but i highly recommend looking into the colonization of Akha ppl #(who are forced to pay property taxes and rent farmland- you can see how community support systems are dying bc everyone #is too fucking busy trying to make enough money to survive) #tit talks #disabled stuff