#tumblr compression and i are gonna fight

[tarabyte3]

Have some hand porn

Andy Serkis, Dawn of the Planet of the Apes interview with ScreenSlam

#andy serkis #interviews #dawn of the planet of the apes #his hands 🫠 #i adore his thinking/listening face #once again he never stops moving while he talks #my gifs #tumblr compression and i are gonna fight

[kozachenko]

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I FIGURED OUT A WAY TO FUCKING MAKE THE IMAGE SMALLER FOR POSTING ON TUMBLR WITHOUT SACRIFICING THE ACTUAL QUALITY OF THE IMAGE OH MY GOD

Ok so, what I did is go into the clip studio paint file, make a new file, copy and paste the group in the original file, merge everything, get rid of the extra stuff outside of the canvas, and then make the flattened image smaller and crop the canvas. Once you have that, export it and you're done. This helps maintain the actual quality of the image and also helps shrink the file size down to something actually postable (if anyone has a better way of doing this please tell me)

[Edit]: Ok I guess posting something to Tumblr just naturally compresses the image a bit more somehow because I'm looking at it now and zooming in too much makes it a bit blurry so I'm still gonna have to futz around with image quality for future pieces oof

Artist's Note:

I'm so glad I figured out a way to do this because I like working on a big canvas so I can get as much detail in as I possibly can. Only problems are how laggy it gets while drawing lol.

I had an idea for a drawing with Reimu and Zanmu because I really like thinking about their potential dynamic a lot. I also wanted an excuse to draw Zanmu again but in my normal rendering style because last time I drew her she was in my more sketchy style with generally flat colours so I wanted to draw her again. Speaking of, looking at the sketch for this is a jumpscare that I never enjoy seeing, like, man am I glad I didn't use those for my final piece.

Also about her spear. I was originally gonna make it like the ones she had in game, but it kinda threw off the whole piece. It was too big, too blue, and too flat, so I just went "fuck it" and gave her a different one instead. My headcanon justifying this is that the ones she uses in game are for danmaku battles whereas in any other fight she just uses a proper yari, or she still uses the yari and just makes it all glowy to power it up, maybe both lol. I pulled as much inspiration as I could from Sengoku era spears, and even put in some blue into the decorative part of the spear and also added a little skull to pay tribute to the original spear. Also, in my research I saw some art of izanami and izanagi making japan and saw that the yari izanagi has had a little decorative tassley thingy on it so I took some inspo from that and just made it one of Zanmu's tassles (Idk when that art was from or if the spear was still accurate to Sengoku period Japan but hey, probably the same reasons Eirin puts little bow ties on her arrows, it's just for personalization purposes).

I love rendering hair and clothes so much omg, while I like the super curly hair Zanmu, the longer, wavier hair suits her better for this drawing (I imagine it only does that like how Ghibli characters hair moves when they feel angry lol). I love making Zanmu's hair all messy and crazy, as well as giving her grey hairs, this woman has aged like a fine wine. Also, if the hem on the ends of her sleeves, top of her shirt, and her pants look like gold to you, that's because it is! It's fairly light so she's not collapsing under the weight, but it's gold! (I don't care how impractical it is, it's just cool). Not the undershirt though, it's made of a gold fabric. I had a cute idea with Reimu's hair to make it have a red shine to it. I also changed up Reimu's outfit so it isn't just a blob of red. I like it a lot when Reimu's skirt and outfit is segmented into different layers, so I wanted to incorporate that.

I tried to draw their hands differently as well, but IDK how noticeable that is. Also, I am super happy with how the side profiles for the two of them turned out, I used to struggle a lot with how to make the side profile of a character actually look like the character, so I'm really happy that they actually look like themselves.

Also added in the tree and rocks in the background as an homage to Zanmu's character art in Touhou 19, just because I was getting kinda stumped on what to do with the background lol.

In terms of a story idea with Reimu and Zanmu, idk why but the potential plotline of Zanmu wanting to ascend to godhood is so fascinating to me. Like, it is very possible that if she just convinced everyone she was a god (which would be very easy for her to do), she would become one in a heartbeat. Also, if she were to become a god, with her ability to return stuff to nothing, could she hypothetically get similar abilities to (Jojo Part 5 spoiler btw) GER? Like, idk about the death timeloop stuff, but the concept has been haunting me every night as I have been trying to find loopholes in GER's ability for a while now ( for no reason in particular). Back to the main topic, I imagine that she would probably tell Reimu that if she were to become a god she would take over the Hakurei shrine since the god there might as well be dead, and Reimu just says to her, "Over my dead body bitch." Like, I have no idea how to summarize their dynamic but like, it's the type of hero-villain dynamic where the phrase "We're not so different, you and I" would definitely be a phrase said during a fight. I think that if another IN style game were to release, Reimu and Zanmu would be in a team together. They could also have an interesting mentor and pupil kind of dynamic. Can you tell that Zanmu has been charging my mind rent these part few months? Like, instead of living in my head rent free, she kinda just uno reversed the whole situation and now she's the one charging me rent. What happens if I get evicted from my own brain? Actually, scratch that, I don't think I wanna know.

#touhou project #art #fanart #touhou fanart #touhou 19 #touhou #東方project #zanmu nippaku #unfinished dream of all living ghost #reimu hakurei #東方

[puzzleemerald]

Please don't reblog!

I had to compress/scale down this beautiful piece so much in Clip Studio to make it fit Tumblr's 20 MB demands, hnnnnnng—

Coughs in complete absolute professionalism

The first of my OCs have officially had their links posted on my pinned Master Post! This is one of them: my beautiful, beloved, and tragic Inuyasha OC Amaterasu. This is a piece of art I commissioned earlier in 2023 from the lovely ItsNattie, from whom I've been commissioning art of many kinds for over a decade now! It's a massive poster-esque piece for Amaterasu's FanFic I've been slowly working on (it's one of uh... many... I have a draftaholic problem), and, if you hadn't guessed, she's a Sesshōmaru pairing!

That said, I consider an OC's FanFic version and their RP versions to be entirely separate for the sake of exploring ✨ infinite possibilities! ✨ So, while Amaterasu is paired with Sesshōmaru in her FanFiction, that doesn't mean I'll only allow Sesshōmaru RPers to exclusively pair with her romantically. I like to leave that up to vibes. If I feel like she's got chemistry with someone, you bet your zeros and ones I'm gonna ship it!

With that out of the way, allow me a moment to wax poetic about the weight and meaning behind this gorgeous piece of art to end the post.

Ahem.

TW: Death

Amaterasu is a character who, in essence, is supposed to be the sun goddess herself—the name isn't just for show. However, through the circumstances of her story, she's been sealed in a mortal body, and much of her power is diminished throughout the series. Like everyone else, she's out for Naraku's head. However, she ends up encountering Sesshōmaru. At first, they seem as if they'll kill each other. The reason is pretty straightforward. Sesshōmaru is an Inu Daiyōkai and the Lord of the West while Amaterasu is the Head Kami and Ruler of Takamagahara. Their very existences challenge each other and, by nature, they feel an instinctive loathing of the other.

However, due to their equally calm dispositions, instead of a fight, they have an interogation a conversation instead. Sesshōmaru questions who she is, and Amaterasu does the same. Jaken gives a fussy introduction on his Lord's behalf, and Amaterasu gives her name... before promptly telling them both to turn around so she can get out of the spring she was bathing in when Sesshōmaru sniffed out her divine aura.

They end up having several more encounters with each other, but Amaterasu has far more interactions with Inuyasha's party initially. At least until Rin comes into the picture. Then, she travels strictly with Sesshōmaru under the pretense of protecting Rin from him. Over time, the two become more tolerant of one another until they start checking over their shoulder to ensure the other is still there, using each other as a leaning post at night or entrusting the other with safeguarding Rin, Jaken, and A-Un when the other leaves for one reason or another. It borders that fine line of respect and affection; Sesshōmaru is aloof and apathetic, while Amaterasu unabashedly loves life and is compassionate. She learns through him that not all yōkai are out to kill humanity, and he finds a new warmth in life with her presence. Like winter in the face of spring, they need each other to complete a cycle or, in this case, each other. By "The Final Act," they are pressing their palms together to be sure the other is okay, staring each other in the eyes and covering each other in a fight.

However, I call Amaterasu a tragic OC for a reason. In the end, once Naraku is slain, Amaterasu's seal is undone, and her mortal body slowly breaks down. Without the seal, her power returns to her in total, and its too immense to be contained in such a shell. A kami of her magnitude cannot sustain a shape on the mortal plane. With what few hours they have left, she asks to return to the place they first met—the spring surrounded by sakura trees—which Sesshōmaru indulges. Flying her there in his arms with Rin and Jaken riding his mokomoko-sama. There, she has her farewells to each of them, praising Jaken's loyalty and courage despite his stature and weakness, telling Rin that she will watch her as she becomes a lady with the utmost warmth and character, and telling Sesshōmaru that he has changed her. That she can never be the same person she was before, but she wishes that she could, if only to relive it all. Because it was the happiest time of her life.

Under the shining sunrise, Amaterasu promises that, so long as their feelings remain unchanging, she will find a way to meet him there again. Every time he feels the sun's light and traces its beams, it will be her smiling and touching his hand, praying for him to live.

Finally, as her body crumbles into glowing flowers, they share a first and last kiss... until all that's touching his lips are cherry blossoms that fall through his arms to the ground of the clearing... blooming wildly with flowers and other foliage and surrounded by onlooking wildlife.

Thus, the feudal fairy tale of two tragic loves from completely opposite realms of existence concludes in the only way it ever could.

#Please don't reblog #Commission art #Art commission #Inuyasha #Anime #Manga #Inuyasha OC #Sesshomaru #Rin #Jaken #Amaterasu #OC #OC x canon #Sesshomaru x OC #Tragedy #Opposites attract #Enemies to lovers #Fanfic #Fanfiction

[starvin-darlin]

happy halloween! I just sorta wanna get to know some cool people on tumblr! any little hc’s about any of your favorite characters????

hey happy halloween!!! omg here’s some off the top of my head :

damien’s sport of choice is indoor rock climbing. he brought his friends a couple times and lasko surprisingly loved it, so now it’s a biweekly hangout followed by takeout pizza

huxley exclusively wears tank tops. damien bought him a long sleeve compression top to wear to the gym but this backfired on him as gavin refuses to call it anything other than huxley’s “slut top”

lasko definitely owns several of those nerd graphic t-shirts from like 2012. im talking periodic table “UM : the element of confusion”. “i paused my game to be here” vibe. they are now his pyjamas and he swears other people bought them for him!! he didn’t buy them himself !!

gavin is randomly very attentive to when his friends complain to him about something. he always brings it up the next time he sees them to ask how they feel about it now. even if he disguises it as fun gossip

sam chronic falls asleep during movies sufferer.

asher chronic “asks questions during movie about what’s gonna happen even though ur both watching the movie for the first time” sufferer

david swears he’s not good with kids but they love him. the pack kids find him very comforting

darlin had very short hair with quinn and when they were by themselves as it was harder to grab in a fight. now that they’re with sam they’ve let it grow out

vincent will ask to move tables in a restaurant if he or lovely don’t like the vibe of their given seat

antons listener crochets and is making him a blanket as a welcome home gift. it’s gotten way bigger than they originally thought it would be…

anyways! had more on my mind than i thought i would lmao. i’d love to hear some of yours !!!

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse

[cutecherrygirl]

Hii

Rage-Vamp!Hyunjin x Vamp!Seungmin x Human!reader.

I always see everyone do this kind of stories with other members but never with Seungmin do im here to change that 😈. And you better enjoy it 😋

This story will be in few parts cuz Tumblr wont let me write long ass stories.

Warnings: Vampire AU, blood, fights, im gonna add smut if you want me too 🤭🤭, angry Seungmin 😡.

Rage

Surmarry: You have changed. The former golden girl and queen of the school turned into what you wished for. The bloodlust is insane and even though you barely manage to keep yours under control, at least Hyunjin is by your side.

Hyunjin finally succeeded in his plan and won you under his influence. But is Seungmin's desire for revenge stronger than the sweet taste of victory?

Seungmin is devastated at losing You and is ready to do anything to win you back. But when it turns out that his brother is not his only enemy, him and Hyunjin will have to join forces in a common cause against an unknown enemy to protect the one they both love.

Seungmin's voice was muffled with rage. "That's what you wanted, wasn't it, Hyunjin? And now you got it. You had to make her just like us, like you. It wasn't enough to just kill her."

Hyunjin didn't even look at him. He watched you carefully through his droopy eyelids, still kneeling and holding your chin. "This is already the third time you've said that and it's already tiring me a little," he commented quietly. Ragged, still panting slightly, he was still calm, restrained. "Y/N, did I kill you?"

“Of course you didnt ,” you said wrapping your fingers around the fingers of his free hand. You were getting impatient. After all, what were they talking about? No one was killed.

“I never thought you were a liar,” Seungmin told Hyunjin, an equal amount of bitterness in his voice. "Almost everything else, but not that. I've never heard you try to cover something up before."

"Just one more moment," Hyunjin spoke, "and I'll lose my temper."

What more can you do to me? Seungmin retorted. It would be a mercy if you killed me.

"I ran out of mercy for you a century ago," Hyunjin said loudly.

(they turner you into a vampire. And when Hyunjin turned you you became sired to him and in love with him. But before that happened you were in love and in relationship with Seungmin.)

You stepped into the clearing.

The rags of autumn leaves beneath your feet froze in the slush. Dusk fell and, although the storm died down, the forest grew colder. You didn't feel the cold.

You didn't mind the dark. Your pupils dilated, absorbing tiny bits of light that would be invisible to a human being. You could clearly see two characters fighting under a huge oak tree.

One had thick, dark hair that the wind blew into a tangled sea of curls. He was slightly shorter than the other and, although you couldn't see his face, you somehow knew that his eyes were brown.

The other also had a lock of dark hair, but his was soft and straight almost like the fur of an animal. His lips were pulled back in anger, and the slow gracefulness of his body was compressed into a predator's squeal. He had black eyes.

You watched them motionless for several minutes. You forgot why you came, why you were attracted by the echoes of their fight in your mind. This close, the noise of their anger and hatred and pain was almost deafening, like the soft cries coming from the fighters. They were caught in a fight to the death.

I wonder which one of them will win, you thought. Both were wounded and bleeding, and the left arm of taller one hanging was hanging at an unnatural angle. However, it was precisely because of the impact of the other one on the gnarled oak trunk. His anger was so strong that you could feel and taste it, as well as hear it, and you knew how it gave him indescribable power.

And then you remembered why you came. How could you forget? He was injured. His mind summoned you here, blasting you with vibrations of rage and pain. You came to help him because you belonged.

Now two four-legged figures stood on the frozen ground, fighting and cutting like wolves. You approached them quickly and quietly. the one with wavy hair and brown eyes - Seungmin, A voice in your head whispered - was on top, his fingers scratching at the other's brother. Anger swept over you, anger and a protective attitude. You reached between the two of them to grab that hand that was choking him and forced its fingers apart.

It never occurred to you that you might not be strong enough to do it. You were strong enough, and that was it. You shifted your weight to the side, forcefully tearing your prisoner from his rival. in order to be stronger, you lowered yourself onto his wounded arm, and stuck his face in the slush covered by the leif . Then you started choking him from behind.

Your attack took him by surprise, but he wasn't nearly defeated. He hit you back, looking for your throat with his good hand. He reached for your windpipe with his thumb.

You realized that his target was your hand, going towards it with his teeth. Your mind couldn't understand it, but your body knew what to do. Your teeth were weapons and they cut into the flesh, sucking blood.

But he was stronger than you. With a jerk of his shoulders he forced you to loosen your grip, with a twist he freed himself and knocked you to the ground. And then he was above you, his face contorted with animalistic rage. You hissed at him and moved your nails towards his eyes, but he knocked your hand away.

He will kill you. Even wounded, he was much stronger. His lips pulled back, revealing teeth already stained crimson red. Like a cobra, he was ready to attack.

Then he paused, hesitating to look at you as his face changed.

You saw his brown eyes widen. The pupils that had been narrowed to evil spots widley dilated. He stared at you as if he was truly seeing you for the first time.

Why was he looking at you like that? Why wasn't he just done with this? But now the iron grip on your shoulder has loosened. The animalistic snarl disappeared, replaced by an expression of confusion and wonder. He straightened up and helped you up, all the while staring at your face.

“y/n,” he whispered, his voice breaking. "y/n it's you." That's me? you thought. Y/N?

It didn't really matter. You glanced towards the old oak tree. He was still there, standing among the uprooted roots, breathing hard, leaning on the tree with one hand. he looked at you with infinitely dark eyes, his eyebrows drawn in a sullen look.

Don't worry, you thought. I can take care of this one. He's stupid. Then you threw yourself back at the one with the brown eyes.

"Y/N!" he shouted when you pushed him away. He pushed your shoulder away with his good hand, holding you back. " Y/N, it's me, Seungmin! Y/N, look at me!"

You watched him. all you could see was the bare skin on his neck. You hissed again, upper lip pulled back, showing him your teeth.

He froze.

You felt the shock reverberate through his body, you saw how his gaze sank. His face turned white as if someone had punched him in the stomach. He shook his head slightly on the muddy ground.

"No," he whispered. "Oh, no…."

He looked like he was talking to himself, like he didn't expect you to hear him. He reached his hand towards your cheek and you tried to bite him.

"Oh, Y/N...." he whispered.

The last traces of anger, the animal thirst for blood, disappeared from his face. His eyes were confused and full of sadness.

And vulnerable. You took advantage of the moment to rush to the bare skin of his neck. His hand went up to reject you, to push you away, but then it went down.

He stared at you motionless for a moment, the pain in his eyes peaking, then he simply gave up. He stopped fighting completely.

You could feel it happen, feel the resistance leave his body. He was lying on the icy ground with rags of oak leaves in his hair, staring beside you into the black and cloudy sky.

Finish it, said a tired voice in your mind.

You hesitated for a moment. There was something in those eyes that triggered a memory in you. Standing in the moonlight, a bed in a room in the attic... But the memories were too hazy. You couldn't master them, and the attempt made you dizzy and nauseous.

And this one here must die , this brown-eyed one called Seungmin. Because he hurt Him, the other one, the one for whom you were born to be with. No one could hurt him and live.

You dug your teeth into his neck and bit down deeply.

You immediately realized that you were not doing well. You didn't hit an artery or a vein. You tore at your throat with your teeth, angry at your inexperience. It felt good to bite something, but not too much blood came out. Frustrated, you raised your head and bit down again, feeling his body twitch in pain.

Much better. This time you found the vein, but you didn't bite it deep enough. A minor scratch like this will not be enough. You should have torn her open wide to let the juicy warm blood flow out.

Your victim shuddered as you tried to do so, scraping and gnawing with your teeth. You were just about to feel the flesh give way when the hands pulled you up, lifting you up from behind.

You hissed not wanting to let go of the throat. But the hands were persistent. His hand made a loop around your waist, and his fingers got stuck in your hair. You fought, clinging to your prey with teeth and nails.

Let him go!

The voice was sharp and commanding, like a strong gust of cold wind. You recognized him and stopped resisting the hands that pulled you away. When they laid you on the ground, you looked up to look at him, and a name came to mind. Hyunjin. His name is Hyunjin. You stared at him sullenly, offended, because you were torn from your catch, but you were obedient.

Seungmin straightened up in a sitting position, his neck red from the blood running down his shirt. You licked your lips, feeling the pounding was like a piercing hunger, which seemed to be coming from every fiber of your being. You were stunned again.

"I thought," Hyunjin said aloud, "that you said she was dead."

He looked at Seungmin who was paler than before if that was possible. The white face was filled with immense hopelessness.

"Look at me", was all he said.

A hand wrapped around your chin, lifting your face up. You faced Hyunjin's watery dark eyes directly. Then long, slender fingers touched your lips, groping between them. You instinctively tried to bite, but not very hard. Hyunjins finger found the sharp curve of your fangs and now you really bit down, biting him like a kitten.

Hyunjin's face was expressionless, and his eyes were hard.

"Do you know where you are?" He said.

You looked around. Trees. “In the woods,” you said slyly looking at him again.

"and who is that?"

You followed his pointed finger. "Seungmin," he said indifferently. "your brother."

"And who am I? Do you know who I am?"

You smiled at him showing your pointed teeth. "Of course I know. You're Hyunjin and I love you."

#straykids #stray kids imagines #seungmin #skz hyunjin #hyunjin #hwang hyunjin #vampire

[stele3]

hi, just wanted to wish you well with your back problem (know how horrible those can be), hope you'll have a quick recovery! (been lurking around your tumblr for years, enjoying your insight on things)

Hey, thank you! I’m feeling a little better today but still can’t stand up for more than half an hour without my back hurting. I’ve taken pretty much this whole week off work, which sucks, but there’s no way I can do any kind of physical job rn, I can’t even sit up for very long. I’ve got a massage tomorrow, which was already scheduled before this happened, so hopefully that’ll help.

I’m gonna take this opportunity — because I’m fucking bored as shit lying here — to tell everyone what to do after a muscle strain like this one. The best thing you can do is RICE: Rest Ice Compress and Elevate. Now, obviously Elevate applies mainly to limb injuries; you want to Elevate the limb above the heart to decrease swelling. I strained my back so that isn’t really possible here. Compress means to wrap the area of injury tightly to prevent further injury; this is what you do with an ACE bandage or a back girdle. I strap a belt around my waist whenever I have to get up.

The main things I’ve been doing is Rest and Ice. You don’t want to do heat in the first few days after an acute injury! This is the number one mistake my clients make all the time! Putting heat on an injury increases inflammation. It feels good but you’re fucking yourself up worse by doing it. Looking back, I realize that I was feeling stiff and took a hot bath, and the acute muscle strain happened shortly thereafter. Which was dumb, I know better, but it’s cold out and a warm bath sounded like a great idea. Don’t do it! For 48 hours after an injury use only ice.

And now I’ve just got to rest. Ugh. I’ve watched both seasons of Young Royals and the cats keep fighting next to me on the bed. Otherwise I’m terminally bored.

Pictured: my view for the last two fucking days.

(ALSO: massage therapists are not supposed to prescribe things but I will tell you that ibuprofen is an anti-inflammatory, and after an acute injury it’s VERY helpful, if your stomach and liver can handle it. Consult your doctor beforehand and take only as prescribed. Ibuprofen specifically, not Tylenol or Aspirin.)

#physical health #facts of life

[anonnymouss]

I posted 20 times in 2022

That's 20 more posts than 2021!

19 posts created (95%)

1 post reblogged (5%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@giggly-squiggily

I tagged 12 of my posts in 2022

Only 40% of my posts had no tags

#shigaraki tomura - 4 posts

#mirko - 3 posts

#tumblr milestone - 3 posts

#dabi - 3 posts

#toga - 2 posts

#eri - 2 posts

#dabi x hawks - 2 posts

#dustbunny - 2 posts

#touya todoroki - 1 post

#uraraka - 1 post

Longest Tag: 26 characters

#shiggy needs to laugh more

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

5 posts!

I was late but ok

1 note - Posted September 3, 2022

#4

I WILL MARRY YOU!

~This is Shigaraki x Mirko if you do not like then please leave

~K:KUROGIRI ~S:SHIGARAKI

~D:DABI

~T:OGA

M:MIRKO

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Shigaraki was sarcastically crying

K:"why are you crying"

S:"BECAUSE SHE GONNA MARRRY ME UHHHA AND THATS WHY IM CRYING"

K:" You're crying because you don't' marry her?"

S:"Yeah..."

dabi and toga laughing in the background

M:"I WILL MARRY MARRY YOU!"

S:"NOOOOOOOO NO!"

M:"YES I AM!"

S"NOOO!"

M:"YES!"

S:"NO"

moment of nothing

M:"YES!"

S:NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

Toga and dabi dying in the background

2 notes - Posted July 9, 2022

#3

If you want blood than "_______" for it

So i can tell you there is no and i mean NO ticklish toga and this world needs more so imma change that

Toga wanted Dabi's blood but she had to do something for the blood. Let us see what Dabi makes Toga do.

This has Ticklish Toga if you do not like than please leave

Lers:Dabi-------Lees:Toga

"Hey Dabi~" Toga said. "What .... can't you see i'm napping right now!" Dabi said looking a little pissed. "I ran out of your blood i need some more please" toga said with a smile that looked like a yandere. "Hmmmm, Nah i'm good" Dabi said starting to go back to his nap. "B-But Dabi i reallllly need it" Toga said almost pinning him to the couch.

Dabi saw what toga was trying to do so, he dodged Toga and pinned her to the couch. " oh, so you really want it, if you want then you have to call Endevor and say ' hey bitch what up aka the -100 pro hero oh wait i'm wrong -1000000000 pro hero' and the hang up" Dabi said with a smirk.

"no no i cant do that Dabi even if you tickle-" Toga paused there. " ohoho there is no turning back now is there vampire" Dabi said as he started tickling toga's sides. "dahahahbie sahahahp" she giggled."Not until you do it" Dabi chuckled. "Nhoohohoh" Toga helplessly giggled as Dabi started to go up to her ribs "ok ok ill do ihihit ill do ihuhit just shahap" Toga said." ok" dabi said.

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In the end they both got what they wanted

6 notes - Posted July 4, 2022

#2

My L.O.V ships

hotwings (both are switch) Dabi x Hawks

Izutogaocho izuku(bottom) x Toga(top) x uraraka(Middle)

DustBunny Mirko(top) x Shigaraki(bottom)

12 notes - Posted July 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

You need to have more "fun" in life (part 1)

Lees:Shigaraki/kurogiri|lers:Kurogiri/Shigaraki

As a Leader you must have everyone in the right spot so then they can be put in the right spot to make a good team but, Shigaraki was only so young and expected to run a team very well. Lets see what Kurogiri does about that

This is inprired by:@giggly-squiggily

Ty:ill make more part and this is part one.

There's barely any Ticklish Shigaraki so imma change that

{Ty:this is a tickle fight}

"Kurogiri could you pass me a glass?' the dusty villain said as He groaned at the same time. "Of course young master" as the Villain said and passing the glass. "Hard day? you look mad' Kurogiri said."mad? i'm not mad....I'M.PISSED.OFF" Shigaraki said and oh boy did he look pissed off,yep he was. "first off,Dabi is most likey to be off who knows where. Second, Toga and Twice went out to go murder some people for some "ShOw", And Compress lost my GLOVES, so now i've gotta where my artist gloves" Shigaraki said. "some days like these i wonder if i'm in a villain group or a babysitters group"

"Really, As a leader I must get the rhythm so then I can Assemble them in the right places" Shigaraki said as he finished his glass and put it to the side. "It's like a Puzzle But, you have to put all your effort into it" Shigaraki said. Kurogiri replaced it with "fun".

"Not eveything in life will be fun Kurogiri" Shiagarki said. Even though it was Expected of Him to run a Team, he was only 21 and it really hurt to see him like this it really did.

Before Shigaraki knew it Kurogiri was behind him, and he Didn't become Aware of that until he felt...something............Unexpected.

"What the-EK" shigara`ki said without getting to finish his sentence. He looked behind him and he saw Kurogiri wiggling his hand on his sides. "kurhohhaahhahaheheheahigii! whahaahaat thehehehe hehehehHAhehell!" shigaraki said while giggling. "see! It's good to have some fun at times! even when you're feeling down!"kurogiri said while tickling shigaraki "swapaahahahhahahp" shiagarki said.

Was this really how "fun" felt, he couldn't agure with that he was feeling better...... but still!

Then he grabed Kurogiri. "tahahahke thheheheis" shigaraki said tickling the older mans sides while gilding them. "Hehehe pl-hehese" Kurogiri said. "HUH? I CANNOT UNDERSTAND YOU" shigaraki said tessingly."WHAT IS SOOOOOO FUNNY ANYWAYS?" shigaraki said sarcastically also getting behind him. Now they were near the couch. "Shiihihihihihehegarki pl-plhehehhese" Kurogiri said.

Without hesitation Kurogiri turned around and pinned him to the couch. "wait Kurogiri w-we can talk about this right?" shiagaraki said. and before he knew it kurogiri aimed for is worst second spot his underarms. "WHAIAIAIT ST-HOHOHP" shigaraki said helplessly, and with a rare shade of redish pinkish blush."OMG PLEASSESSE GAHAHHAHA" shiagaraki said with teary eyes. "hmmm..... bad spot?" Kurogiri teased. "NOHOHOHO TEASESEING" shiagarki said "OKHAHAY OKA-HAHA-HAHAH-STOHOHOHOP" Shigaraki said. "ok,ok i'll stop" kurorgiri said with a smirk. "heh..heh your....so....fucking evil" shiagarki said. "oh come one i know you liked it" Kurogiri said giggling he just could hold it in anymore. Shigaraki looked embarrassed "h-hey don't laugh i'm mad".

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Well that's the end also this my first post yeah bye :)

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[feralgoblinchild]

Fun facts that SUCK about chronic illness:

I have POTS-Postural Orthoststic Tachycardia Syndrome among other issues, but the POTS makes me pass out and makes me feel like I'm about to pass out. It also flares up REALLY bad if I have to miss my antidepressants (I can't afford $188/month for that AND another $188/month for my heart meds so sometimes I don't get to take either unless my mom covers the cost for me right now). Chronic illness is EXPENSIVE!!!!!!! This doesn't include medical debt I've accumulated. Thats literally just two of my medications monthly cost right now. Insurance systems don't work. They make people even more sick.

With antidepressant withdrawals, mine makes me violently vomit. One day when I was JUST BARELY able to not vomit all over all the surfaces in my work, one of my coworkers asked how I was doing on my lunch. I was honest and explained how shitty I felt. He said he meant it as a compliment, but you can't tell that in feeling bad at all. We learn to mask disability and illness because its so much easier than explaining to every customer or patient that you're chronically ill and drinking more water or meditating will not cure your neurological dysfunction. No matter how well meaning they are. We can be at an 8 or a 9 on a feeling shitty scale and a good percentage of people may not be able to tell. I've worked through passing out multiple times in a shift. No one would have known if it hadn't happened in the middle of a case or I hadn't told them. Couldn't move the next day, but I worked through it.

We have to be so obnoxiously careful to not overextended ourselves or we pay for it the next day/later that day. I take too hot a shower and I can't sleep for hours because of the palpitations. I forget my compression socks my head might become a fishbowl on a merry-go-round. I don't get to take my meds, I feel like I can't catch my breath. I let myself overheat, I hit the ground. But we've learned that we have limits, and we're constantly fine tuning those limits. Sometimes we push past it for one reason or another, but we'll always pay for it when we do.

I can't afford basic medical care. The US has an excessively flawed system. I literally can't afford medications to make me not pass out. I have to have help from my parents when I'm almost 30 just to afford my medical bills. And this isn't even doctors appointments. We CANNOT continue to allow this country to run healthcare on insurance. It's damn well past time for socialized healthcare. It took me a fucking year to get in to see my dysautonomia specialist, so don't you DARE tell me ITS gonna make it sO mUcH lOnGeR tO wAiT NOT THAT MUCH LONGER BUDDY IT TOOK 2-3 YEARS FROM WHEN MY AYMOTOMA GOT BAD ENOUGH TO SEEK MEDICAL CARE TO THE TESTING TO DIAGNOSE IT. TWO TO THREE YEARS OF MY LIFE LIFING WITHIUT A DIAGNOSIS TO AN ILLNESS THAT TOOK ME OUT OF MY DREAM JOB, ENTIRELY OUT OF MY FIELD, AND LEFT ME SCRAMBLING TO FIND ANY JOB I COULD PHYSICALLY DO

And I'm one of the lucky ones. I'm able to stand up to work sometimes. I'm able to enjoy active activities if I've spent enough time resting. I'm not entirely reliant on my wheelchair. I have a doctor who cared enough to get me a parking placard. I made enough money in my dream job to start looking into what was going on. My parents make enough money to help me. I'm LUCKY over here with my life falling apart in so many ways. There are people who can't even afford a diagnosis to take to a disability hearing, but disability will be damned if you don't have a diagnosis.

Disabled and chronically ill people struggle on the daily, regardless of government's decision on their disability, regardless of the degree of their illness. We fight tooth and nail and claw and every last possible tool we can find, down to the last dirt clod we can throw. If you're dealing with any disability or chronic illness, no matter the extent, no matter the type, know you're strong just for being here right now, even if scrolling on Tumblr is all you could manage today. Ita hard as hell dealing with this crap. And you're fighting every day to stay here. That's hardcore if I've ever seen it

#chronic illness #disability #disability pride month #my queer disabled ass over here SICK AS FUCK OF THE WAY THIS COUNTRY TREATS US

[princessslut6969]

Bad news, the ONE bad side effect I'm having from the Junel Fe 24 is suuuper sore breasts. Like, I don't remember if they were ever this sore during puberty. They're already on the second hook of my 34DD bras & better the fuck not get any bigger.

Good news, reddit at least has evolved from tumblr's opinion when last I saw it. Prevailing opinion is now "anyone can wear anything," withOUT the asterisk of "but binders are only for trans." I still don't know who would "count me" as cis or trans but I really, REALLY, REEEEEALLY do not care please leave me alone. Also anyone who would wanna fight is only online so you can't stop me.

Bad news, my old binders aren't gonna fit. (Yeah I didn't care way back when before opinion flipped either. idgaf what the internet says if something's just way too comfy. YOU carry these boobs around 24/7 for LIFE!!!) All money is going towards vacation. And the things they're selling at Target are "compression tops" anyway, not actual binders.

Good news, I do have 2 sports bras. 1 is good, the other awesome. Wearing the awesome one over a regular bra completely immobilizes them & pain is alleviated.

...also acetaminophen did nothing. Apparently, health sites say nsaids for this type of pain.

#have i mentioned finding out i'm actually intersex over here yet... #basically all female + too high testosterone #which is causing all sorts of internal health problems so #technically ''transitioning'' but back away from male #cuz it only started showing once hypothyroidism started getting treated 5 years ago #''afab'' but born intersex but only found out last month but transitioning... to female. #have fun with your labels. idc. i got better things to do.

[geemergoop]

Cuphead

TL; DR at the end.

Ok, today's Cuphead session was the end of Inkwell Isle two. After failing repeatedly against Grim Matchstick yesterday I took a break and finished Funfair Fever for a few more coins. Ultimately one of the easier run-and-guns, I struggled so hard against the pretzels and hot dog at the end - chock that one up to skill issue.

I was fortunate enough to encounter one "glitch" during the level, this little zoop maneuver that Cuphead pulled on these thin platforms, and just a straight up game issue that was kinda funny (audio warning, it gets really crackly and weird):

I was not gonna let the vending machine get away with that.

Coins in hand, I purchased the Coffee charm but did not have enough money for the Lobber shot (I wasted my money on Charge earlier and have yet to find a good boss to use it on). My saving grace was little Miss Jelly Donut here who just gave me a coin for free:

I owe her my life.

I moved on to fight Wally Warbles, probably my favorite plane level so far because the attack patterns felt a lot like a traditional shmup so it was pretty familiar until the third phase with the child bird. About halfway through my attempts I got smart and actually equipped the Coffee charm and supered my way through the fight.

Here is where I would post a video/gif of the fight but tumblr sucks and I'm not going to compress a gif or make another post to show a video.

I did also run into another glitch which I have seen documented where I got hit after parrying a projectile. Just look it up if you don't believe me.

With Wally's soul contract in hand I went back to Grim, prepared with Coffee and Lobber, which I had strongly discounted until I actually used it. It's range is actually really solid and helped a ton with the second phase. I found the second phase is much easier staying high on the screen and focusing on the fire dudes. The only time I got hit was when two jumped back to back because I would only hear the audio cue for the first one.

Then we get to the final phase of Grim, which was the toughest challenge so far. I don't know what it is but those projectiles were just too fast for me, I gave up and beat him on Simple mode.

Simple mode doesn't reward you with a contract.

Steeling myself, I abandoned my usual playstyle of high-risk, maximum damage for much more reserved. I used the peashooter and only pumped damage while he did his flamethrower attack:

Waited for coffee to build my super, and finally won after like 30 minutes of grinding.

A quick dance break for King Dice, and it's time for Inkwell Isle Three!

TL; DR

#lets play I guess? #more like lets post #cuphead #gaming #lgbtq #delicious last course #cuphead dlc #mugman

[thornonarose]

what happened to me!

we’re coming up to fall again in just a few months so Im gonna talk to myself about what happened to me last october aka the reason I post a lot about chronic back pain. 

its all kinda fuzzy but I got into a fight with my parents after weeks of declining mental health. it got scary and my dad said things I really didnt need to hear. i ended up stuck in my room which is on the second floor of the house. heres where my shitty impulse control comes into play. ITS SO DUMB. I JUMPED OUT MY. WINDOW. Im so mad at myself for my stupid stupid decision making. i just wanted to escape my parents and i made everything so much more fucked up than it needed to be. 

i estimated the drop to be about ten feet, it was more like fifteen and im 5′3″. I landed on my feet so my legs were fine but the pressure went up through my body to my back and I ended up at the hospital with a burst fracture in the lumbar part of my spine. a burst fracture is basically when your vertebrae compress until it pops. it really, really hurt. I can still feel it when I think about it hence why i dont usually like to think about it.

 surgery happened, the hospital stay was not good. it really got in my head. I nearly ended up in the psych ward for a second time but luckily I got discharged after a week to go home. lots of dbt therapy ensued. many xrays. i wore a back brace for like three months until my surgeon said I should be pretty much fully healed around march i think. spoiler alert though it is late july and my pain hasnt really gone anywhere. 

im regaining feeling where the incision was made for the surgery, though its still pins and needles-y. i have to lie down a lot more than i used to, and bending over even slightly still hurts. i have a lumbar pillow to help take the pressure off when im sitting in a chair, I cant sit up for long without it or else excruciating pain oh boy. /neg

back pain is just apart of my life now which i hoped wouldnt happen until I was older. Im hoping to eventually make a slow but full recovery though its not gotten any better since early spring. 

finding comfort in communities on tumblr has helped my mental health, though i still feel like I dont really belong. i dont know for sure how permanent the effects of my injury are, and even if they are permanent. I kinda did it to myself. its all my fault. wow i love dealing with the consequences of my own actions /s

#chronic pain #or is it #medical trauma #may be triggering #tw

[ilmhist]

As always, this was only meant to be a sketch. Anyway @coldshrugs take it before I get cocky and ruin it lmao

#ffxiv #ffxiv art #io laithe #gonna file this under uhh... #doodles i got invested in #there that'll do #anyway #like i said take it before i ruin it lmao #inb4 tumblr makes this into one of those gross embedded image textposts #it's 2am and i don't care though tbh #fight me hellsite #its def gonna compress the life out of it regardless

[appleciders]

Rachel + Leah + Water, the Director’s Cut!

Okay, so I made this gifset exploring Rachel and Leah and the ocean, but because there’s a ten gif limit and a major point of gifsets is for them to look nice, I had to sacrifice a lot of the behind the scenes thoughts and initial versions that came along the way. I still wanted to talk about them though, because I found a lot of them really cool, so I figured I’d stick all that in this post. It’s gonna get long, so you can find the rest under the cut!

So first up, we have Leah as we first see her in the water. (I’m using shitty screenshots because tumblr has a 2mb limit for gifs on text posts and I don’t feel like compressing these down lmao.) Here, she’s face-down, unconscious, floating on a fragment of the plane. This is the first time we see any of the girls in the water.

As Leah gives her dramatic speech talks to the detectives, we see flashbacks to the girl’s lives pre-island. There we see that one of them already has a very strong relationship with the water already, in her before-life: Rachel.

Rachel, as we know, is a diver. We see her take a magnificent tumble into the pool, but when she surfaces, her coach is sternly head-shaking. She corrects Rachel’s form, and after she walks away, Rachel echoes the correction, clearly frustrated with herself. 

Back to Leah. We next see Leah waking up on her lil chunk of flotsam. When she realizes what the hell’s going on, she does what we all would do and starts screaming in terror.

Her panic gets interrupted by Jeannette’s classic Raise Your Glass ringtone. (This was my alarm for two years in high school, and when I watched this for the first time I did have an out-of-body experience). She swims her way over to the Hello Kitty suitcase and—irrationally—unzips it, but we’ll cut her some slack because she’s in some serious shock. As she tries to get the phone, it slips through her fingers and starts spiraling down to the bottom of the ocean. She dives after it.

Unfortunately, she quickly runs out of air and has to give up. She then spots Jeannette floating nearby, checks her out, judges her to be “just a little roughed up,” and then sees land and has a big oh-thank-fuck moment. Because we saw Gretchen’s team placing all of the girls, we know that Linh and Leah were the only two that were put out in the open water. The other girls were put in the beach, or, in Martha’s case, near the shore. This was probably done to quell some of Leah’s suspicions about the crash, but it does give me a couple questions about how they got the other girls wet—did they hose them all down? Pour a couple buckets over their heads? Bob each of them up and down a couple times in a big net like fries in a fryer?? 

Anyway, not important. 

Next that we see, Leah has pulled Jeannette/Linh in from the water. (My Australian parents, who can never pass up an opportunity to give ocean safety tips, chimed in at this point in our first watch to say “See how she’s doing it! You always want to hold someone from behind and pull them in that way. Good job, well done.” So there’s some approval for you, Leah.) As Leah nears the shore, Dot and Toni come tearing in and they help pull the two of them out. 

The rest of the episode after that really only concerns fresh water—Toni and Shelby set out in search of it, to no avail, and Nora helpfully plugs Diet Coke reminds us multiple times that sugar’s heavier than water, so “sugar sinks.” We do set up a goal for the next couple episodes, though: Rachel says, “I'm gonna swim out to the plane tomorrow. See if I can find anything,” and Leah volunteers to come with. Rachel gives her a nod of respect.

Moving on to episode two, we have Rachel and Leah’s (iconic) first real conversation. Rachel says she’s still going out to the wreckage. Leah looks out and looks back at her, incredulous, and says, “Rachel, the water’s insane.” Here’s a big recurring association—the water and “insanity.” (I use insanity here because that’s the language they use, along with psycho/crazy. In no way does that reflect my actual beliefs about their behavior nor am I condoning the way they use those words.) Leah points out the rip current (“well done,” said my mum), and explains her very brief stint as a norcal surfer. Rachel still looks set on going, but then Leah says:

Turns out, Leah can be as ripe with foreshadowing as Fatin. This marks the appearance of their second main association with the ocean—death. After she says this, Leah turns Rachel’s attention inland, and the two agree to climb a big hill to scope out their situation.

Episode two is also obviously Rachel’s episode, so we see a lot of her relationship with diving. 

We see her plunge over and over and over again, drilling technique and form, but despite all her hard work, we learn her coach advised her to quit the team. Instead, Rachel throws herself in twice as hard, and ends up with an eating disorder. By the time the nationals come around, she’s too physically weak to dive safely, and she ends up hitting her head as she goes down. She surfaces in the pool with blood flowing around her.

She refuses to see that as the end of her diving career. She says she’s gonna “get back out there” and “be fucking great again” and she tells Nora at the end of the episode that she needs her to let her believe that.

In episode three, we finally see Leah and Rachel’s trip out to the plane! Nora comes along with them, her relationship with Rachel smoothed over after the events of ep two. “Nora’s a good swimmer,” Rachel explains as she invites her, “We were both water babies.” Water’s clearly been central to Nora and Rachel’s identities since they were really young. 

The three of them make their escape from the rest of the girls as the topic of building a shelter comes up. “Not interested in putting down roots!” Rachel calls. In keeping with the elements theme, Rachel isn’t looking to be grounded. She climbs super high into the air and she dives deep into the water, but earth isn’t her thing. (See: the quicksand scene. Whoops.)

Anyway, the three of them paddle out into the water. Rachel dives down, scopes out the plane, tells Nora she doesn’t expect her to “fucking free dive in open water,” and then looks to Leah and asks if she’s ready. Leah reluctantly agrees. 

We get our first shot Rachel swimming down into the ocean and our second shot of Leah (first the phone, second the plane). In the wreckage of the plane, they discover the black box, affixed to the wall. They keep trying to wrench it free, but it’s stuck, and Leah—who’s primary activity is, like, reading—keeps having to surface for air. Rachel gets frustrated and grabs her leg, holding her down. 

Leah screams and fights, but Rachel doesn’t let go. We cut away, and when we see them again, they’ve emerged victorious (Rachel) and drowned as dogs after a bath (Leah and Nora) with the black box in hand. Later, Leah mutters the above line to Fatin, calling Rachel a “psychopath.” For those keeping score at home, here’s where we refer back to the association between water and “insanity.”

In episode four, the ocean benevolently bestows a bag of takis upon Nora, and we have our whole shelter-building shebang. It’s all very land-based until Leah and Fatin go head to head, which ends with Fatin smearing her blood all over Leah’s face. Leah, with her usual flair, strips off her clothes as she walks into the ocean. She stays down there, passively letting the water wash the blood from her face.

This shot parallels a couple things. First, the drifting blood visually parallels Rachel in the pool after her diving injury. Second, we have Rachel staring out at the water where Leah’s disappeared and going, “Man, that is some real Virginia Woolf-type shit.” Dot has no fucking clue what she means, so Fatin interprets: “It means that bitch is crazy. She said you were the psychopath of the group.” Now it’s Leah who’s done something in the water that’s been deemed insane. The water and “insanity;” the water and accusations of insanity within their relationship. 

Those accusations pop up in episode five, but the episode is pretty focused on the inland search for Fatin, and revolves around fresh water, not salt water. (That could be a whole nother post lol.) It’s in episode six where we again see these two return to the ocean. 

Rachel is diving in the ocean! For fun! She’s picking up pretty shells (which granted isn’t the safest thing to do in the pacific, cone snails are not our friends), and she’s grinning, and she’s generally enjoying herself. With the, uh, finale situation, we’re probably not gonna get to see her smile for a bit, which is sad, because she should get to do this more often! This shot visually echoes her diving for the plane and Leah diving for the phone, except she can be in a better mood because there is no end goal. 

So she goes diving, ends up finding a bunch of mussels, gathers ‘em up, and brings ‘em back to camp. They all chow down, but wind up with serious food poisoning. Martha and Toni ring death’s doorbell a couple of times. Rachel blames herself—she’s the one that went swimming out there, she brought the mussels back. Again, we see that connection between the ocean and death.

And that association comes back bright an early in ep seven! The tide surges higher than they’ve ever seen, taking down their shelter and leaving them all scrambling. 

While Leah convinces Fatin that her life is more important than her suitcase, Rachel is left with a decision: help Nora, screaming to her from where she’s clinging to a rock for dear life, or grab the black box. In a move that contrasts Toni’s immediate and unquestioning aid of Martha, Rachel picks the black box. 

After, when they’re debriefing, Nora’s quick to bring it up. She doesn’t hide her hurt. “It happened so fast,” she says, “we all acted irrationally. Like Fatin, who jumped into a rip current to save her toothbrush. Or Rachel, who left me for fucking dead.” I think this counts as a double whammy for the “insanity” and death count—I think “acted irrationally” is as close as Nora gets to calling anyone crazy, and is honestly a better descriptor of all the other instances of “insanity” that we’ve seen, and the ocean was the source of the very real risk to Nora’s life. 

(Honestly, I think Rachel thought she was making a rational choice here—just with some grim fucking calculus. Still, given that nobody’d responded to the black box by then, I think it was a decision fueled by the need to keep hold of hope more than actual rationality.) In a fun contrast to the rest of the episode, it’s Leah that keeps a level head in this situation. 

The rest of the episode is low on water scenes, though Leah’s paranoia about Shelby is fueled by her sneaking off to the water, which could fall under the “insanity” category. It also marks where Nora begins to take an active role in breaking apart Rachel’s fantasy about diving again. 

Ep eight has one of the best montages in a series of great montages, with the playing in the water scene! A plane has seen them, they’re gonna be saved, and they all get to get high and act like kids. 

I have this lingering and probably irrational concern that the entire water play scene is choreographed and that it’s chock-full of foreshadowing. Like I know to some extent they likely were just like “yeah guys go goof off in the water,” but like...the wave pulling Rachel and Nora apart here...I mean.... (Rachel is probably gonna get more blood on Dot in the near future, too. ) That aside, their horseplay gets interrupted when Leah notices some blood on Dot, which Rachel realizes is her own period blood.  

Fatin then chimes in with her ever-gleeful foreshadowing: “Shark week for Rachel.” So while this whole encounter with the water actually seems mostly good for a change, it’s colored by the tie-in to what we know is coming.

In ep nine, reality has set in that rescue isn’t imminent. Everyone’s starving, Leah has started to spiral, and Rachel’s unusually skittish. By the tide’s edge, Nora asks for her help fishing, but Rachel refuses, saying that she’s weak. Nora flicks water at her, and Rachel flinches, clearly scared.

Starvation seems to have triggered Rachel’s trauma around the water leftover from her diving accident. In response, Nora reaches out a hand and says, “Let’s go for a walk.”

Meanwhile, Leah’s spiral has reached critical. She starts ranting about the ocean and the water and pushes past Dot, sprinting into the waves:

And so she’s taken to heart the way they think Jeannette’s body “escaped” the island—the tide—and it’s been spun like cotton candy in her head. She’s right, technically—Jeanette/Linh’s body was moved off the island by boat, and there’s definitely an argument that if they really did all swim out Gretchen’s team would save them, or at least try to. This is also a very real suicide attempt. So it’s kind of a culmination of the threats of death and mental health issues that’ve been wrapped up in the ocean since the start.

On Rachel’s end, Nora has taken her up to a cliff. Rachel calls the whole thing “borderline insane,” walking up when they’re so low on energy, but Nora tells her she needs to make a truce between herself and the water. 

“You’re afraid of it now,” she says, and Rachel replies that, “All it ever did was make me sick.” Nora immediately surges forward to say “That’s not true!” Rachel, incredulous, says, “Isn't this what you want? For me to hang it up? For me to forget the whole fucking diving game?” Nora says, “No. I don't know. I don't want you to forget you.” She then tells Rachel she should dive off the end of the cliff, that she marked it to make sure it’s safe. Rachel says she can’t.

There’s a lot here. First, there’s the first time we’ve seen of Rachel explicitly call herself sick. In episode two, even in a treatment center, she still denies it, says she’s just an athlete who knows what it takes. But now she’s reached a place where she acknowledges her eating disorder—and also probably her recent illness with the mussels—and ties it directly to the water. It’s the reason she’s sick.

Nora’s fear that Rachel will forget herself also just hammers home how central the water has always been to Rachel’s identity. Cutting herself off from the water would be cutting off a core part of herself. (...whoops) And we’ve seen that it does bring her actual joy, when she’s allowed to relax with it, but she’s had such traumatic associations rolled up into it now. Nora doesn’t want Rachel to do diving as a sport anymore, because of how badly it’s hurt her, but she does want Rachel to keep diving and swimming as like, a form of unevaluated personal expression.

At the moment that Rachel’s refusing to jump, she and Nora hear shouts from the mainland. They see Fatin and Dot screaming after Leah. Confused, Nora asks, “Where is she going?” but Rachel understands immediately, with absolute certainty, without needing to be told—“To fucking drown to death.” Seven episodes after Leah called heading into the water a death wish, she’s finally proving it true. Rachel squares her shoulders, takes a few deep breaths, and sprints into a dive. 

Unlike all her other dives high altitude dives we’ve seen her do, this dive isn’t qualified based on aesthetics. This dive matters because of what it will do, not on how it looks. And what it does do is bring her into the ocean, where she needs to be for her friend. So with strong strokes, she swims out towards Leah.

When she reaches her, she takes hold of her, pulls her into her chest from behind. She begins to swim with her back to shore. This rescue directly parallels Leah’s rescue of Linh that we talked about above. It also, as the Out in the Wilds podcast insightfully pointed out, really calls Rachel and Leah’s relationship back to the beginning. Whereas Rachel had initially held Leah down in the water, putting her in danger of drowning, Rachel here pulls her out of the water, saving her from drowning. Together, they make it all the way back to the shore.

Finally (and, like, if you’ve made it all the way down here? bless you. thank you), we have episode ten. The ocean doesn’t really figure into episode ten until the very end. Rachel has had a long episode of healing—she’s happy to be full and she’s in a good place with her sister and things seem to be going pretty okay. She decides to heal her relationship with the water, too. She heads out, telling Nora that she’s “Just gonna float, Nor. Just float.”

Just floating. After all the times we saw her plunging into the water, purposefully, with frustration, with drive, with so much to prove and with so much sacrifice and self-abuse to prove it with, Rachel finally just wants to float. She wants to let herself relax. She wants to let the water carry her.

Of course, that means there has to be, like, a massive marine carnivore waiting to mistake her for a seal.

Visually, this shot really parallels the opening shot of Leah on the fragment of plane. Instead of being face-down, though, she’s face-up, and she’s conscious, just not of the threat from below. 

The shark bites.

In a horrible parallel to Leah’s Virginia Woolf moment and Rachel’s diving accident, we see blood pool in the water. Rachel is pulled under. The girls on the land start screaming and running toward her. We know Rachel doesn’t die, but this is still a near-death experience, one that probably cost her her arm. Leah, covered in dirt and her own blood after crawling out of the pit Nora led her into, can only stand and watch, shocked and horrified.

So that got! Way longer than I meant it to! And honestly most of this was condensed into very concise tags in a post I made a few days ago! But if you made it all the way down here, you’ve now seen everything I wanted to fit into that gifset but couldn’t. Thanks for sticking with me, friend <3

#the wilds #rachel reid #leah rilke #the wilds meta #this got away from me a bit lol #there was absolutely no proofreading on this so if something doesn't make sense...oops #leah x rachel

[black-mesa-slut-voice]

THE ERRANTEL

[ More info below the cut! ]

Due to popular demand, I finally made a ref sheet for the species my Swap Benrey’s belongs to- the Errantel. 

Their name, originally, had no human translation, since they are not from Earth. Benrey himself describes it as loosely translating to “Unkillable hobo”, though Tommy thought it was too long, and seemed... rude, almost. So, with the help of his friend Forzen, they came up with the term Errantel; a combination of the words for “immortal wanderer” in french. 

Biologically, Errentel are very interesting species, as they’ve earned their reputation for being “unkillable”. They’re essentially the equivalent of giant, interdimensional tardigrades. They can withstand nearly all conditions- the vacuum of space, temperatures hot enough to usually make things combust, and temperatures nearing true zero. This grants them safety when they manage to worm their way through dimensions and travel to different planets that might be otherwise inhabitable. 

Not only that, but they are also proficient at rudimentary “shapeshifting”- they can compress and expand the mass of their form, ranging from very very small to extremely large; rivaling skyscrapers. Their average size is normally a healthy in between- the size of a two-story house (the size that Benrey took during the final battle). 

They can also shift the amount of limbs, mouths, eyes, and other features they possess, with some restrictions mentioned above. This allows Benrey to take an arguably very humanlike form to better fit in with his coworkers.  Their diet is extremely varied. Their near unkillable state and rapid healing is because of their physiology. In short- their body is made of completely different things than ours, so they need a wide range of nutrients and minerals to stay healthy and unkillable. This is what causes the most competition amongst them- sometimes even eating other Errantels for the specific nutrients in their bodies. 

Socially, they’re sapient; generally human-level intelligence, sometimes slightly above (mostly due to their outstanding lifespans). How they are seen, however, varies wildly between dimensions, planets, species and societies. In some places, they’re considered normal people. They could, arguably, wander into a space McDonald’s and get a job, and be treated as a normal person. In other places, they’re considered wild beasts, to be avoided or even hunted for sport. 

Amongst their own species, they’re pretty extreme. Honestly, because of their extreme lifespans and nearly unkillable status, the only thing keeping their population in check is... well, their own species, and the fact that they’re so widespread. 

When an Errantel meets another (or honestly, any species they see as ‘equals’), they see them as competition. Rivals, in a sense. One of the few things that can truly threaten them. And so, their main goal is to remove that competition by any means necessary. This can go one of three ways:

Put enough distance between them that they don’t have to compete. This is pretty easily done, considering they can worm through dimensions and travel through the void of space to reach entirely new planets.

Kill each other. Errantels are, unfortunately, highly cannibalistic. The can and will eat other Errantels if they see them as threats, or even as weaker. Some of them will even eat their eggs and young in times of duress or if they simply don’t want to have any at the moment. 

Become partners. And I don’t put that lightly- Errantel ‘partnerships’ are almost complete codependency; putting their full trust, safety, heart and soul into each other. They’ll trust each other with their lives, share their food, young- and even other partners. It’s not unusual to have a group of 2-5 Errantels all in a polyamorous partnership. This eliminates the competition and threat of death through a much more friendly way.

So, a meeting between two Errantels usually starts as a long winded display at a distance, dancing around each other and judging whether or not they’re going to partner up, fight, or flee. There are no half-measures among them- you will almost never see two Errantel hanging out together for fun. Though, of course, in a social situation, most of them can behave long enough to share a space in a formal environment (think about having to go to a meeting with your ex. Sure, you don’t like it and there’s tension, but you put up with it for formalities). 

When communicating, Errantels use a communication system composed of a high-dense light, sound, and color they can expel from their mouth, which can help communicate emotions both visually and sensually (”Sweet voice”). My guide for Sweet Voice is the same one I use for the Errantels.  They’re very intelligent, however, and commonly learn other languages as well. 

When it comes to reproducing, Errantel can go two ways. They can reproduce both sexually and asexually! All Errantels have both bits, so any Errantell can reproduce with another. When done sexually, it’s pretty much only ever with those they’ve partnered with- there’s very little ‘infidelity’ amongst partnerships, or even one night stands for single Errantels. The children produced are just like humans in where they can have features of both parents, though other mutations are pretty common. 

When done asexually, it is something they can choose to do if they want a child but either don’t have any partners, or their partner can’t reproduce for some reason. Young produced this way are usually very similar to the parent- if not identical- but not always! Due to variations in DNA and self-alteration of sexual cells, as well as mutations, asexually produced young are usually slightly-off versions of the parent. Joshua, for example, was created this way- he’s almost identical to Benrey in every way except for a slightly different skin tone, and different colored eyes. 

Also, because they don’t differ at all between what’s in their pants and travel so many dimensions, Errantel have little care for gender or how they’re perceived. Most will go by whatever neutral pronouns a language has, or will simply use any pronoun- though of course, some do enjoy being gendered and are free to do so. 

Errantels also lay eggs. They’re usually in batches of 1-3; any larger and you risk the parents eating the extras to save resources. They’re usually the size of chicken eggs, and Errantel will often shift down smaller during this to hide away and go unnoticed. 

A freshly hatched Errantel simply looks like a very small adult- except for the fact that their ‘fur’ is white instead of black, and they’re usually much more covered in it. As they become juveniles, their white fur quickly starts molting away into the signature black color. 

Once their fur is molted into being fully black, they’re technically able to survive on their own. However, good parents often keep them around much longer than this, until they’ve reached full and true maturity. Once they’re old enough, they usually voluntarily leave to go find their own territories and partnerships!

 Errantels can continue to breed throughout their whole lifetimes, and so their territory will often be surrounded by the territories of their children- and so each child reared often has farther and farther to travel to reach an uninhabited space. This can be quite dangerous, but most make it. And thus,  the whole cycle starts again!

FAQ

So this is what your Benrey is? Sort of. Mainly just my Swap AU Benrey and Joshua- my other Benreys are all completely different, really.

What the fuck is your Swap AU? It’s my Roleswap AU for HLVRAI. Benrey is the scientist and Gordon is the guard, etc etc. You can find out more about it here, and this is the tag I have for it on my tumblr!

Can I make an OC of this species? Fuck yeah! Go nuts, dude! The only thing I ask of you is that 1) You give credit if anyone asks what they are, and 2) send them to me! I’d love to see them! 

If I do make an OC/Use this species, does it have to be HLVRAI? Nope. Because they travel dimensions, they can arguably appear in any media- if you want you can use them for anything. Original universes, other fandoms, other AUs of any sort, etc etc! Same rules apply as above- credit, and I’d like to see them!

Can they be albino/melanistic/piebald? I’m gonna say yes because it’s cool as hell. Love that shit.

My question isn’t answered here! Help??? I have an ask box and you are 100% welcome to use it! I’d love to talk more about these guys and anything I didn’t cover.

#my art #swap au #xenobiology #...fuck it. #hlvrai #ask to tag #potentiallly #eye horror #? #ok to rb! #errantels

[steve0discusses]

Yugioh Season Zero: The Yo-yo Crimes of Jounouchi Pt 2

OK, last we left off, we were in a different Youtube video. This one I grabbed off of 2 different videos (you’ll see their watermark in the corner change) and it makes me appreciate the quality that our other episodes have been, honestly. A little bit of compression going on in these, just to give you even more of that nostalgic feel of watching a bootleg anime from the 90′s your brother got from his weird high school friend’s Napster account.

Because this is done with subtitles on, it takes more caps to cover it. Part of why I rewrite the dialogue in these recaps is to help abridge stuff, and so consider yourself warned...there’s a lot of caps in this one. For most of you, that’s probably not much of a problem. But I’m just letting you know because...I sure wasn’t expecting it to be over 40 caps for half an episode, and I’ll probably just type less to make up for that. (Tumblr keeps Erasing All My Words anyway, so this is for the best, but that’s a tech issue I already went into in another post.)

(read more under the cut)

So, to start off, Yugioh and co. walk up to a bar like a really weird version of a bar joke and are like “do you know where we can find the yo-yo gang?” And, much like a video game npc, the bartender was like “I know EXACTLY what you’re talking about, and I heard every part of their intimate conversation. Let me give you all the details, children.”

Hey, PS, there’s an entire Wikipedia entry about the bar joke. And that is wild. Apparently the first bar joke was from Ancient Sumeria, and Wikipedia was like “Here is the Sumerian joke, but we Do Not Get it. Please don’t try to get it.”

The joke being: "A dog walked into a tavern and said, 'I can't see a thing. I'll open this one'."

Damn. I can���t believe the Sumerians were onto meme humor before we ever invented memes. They were in the Galaxy brain over there in the land before time, holy crap. Depositing their memes knowing that 7,000 years later mankind would look at the world’s first joke and be like “I don’t get it!” while all the millennials and zoomers with our MB of nonsense memes on our phones are like “No. I get it.” Good on you Sumerians, that is freakin the best joke ever made. 7000 years to get to the punch line of confusing the hell out of all us. Bless.

They promptly tell Miho that everything was resolved and that she should go to bed and she was like “Cool!” and exited stage left. Bye, I guess. Anzu also went home, but she didn’t have to be tricked into doing it, she just went the hell to bed.

(PS, I just realized that if I want to write less...I should probably not look up Wikipedia articles about the world’s first ever bar joke. But y’all, habits die so freakin hard, and I just feel like it’s very pertinent to this Yugioh recap, although I know it’s really not.)

Yuugi and Honda decide to visit the warehouse and harass Jounouchi. In the context of the show, they’re going out of their way to pull their best friend out of society’s systemic downward pull of a life of crime and most likely turning into exactly like his Father. But, the way that it’s storyboarded makes it look a lot like these kids just show up out of the corner and this gang was like “Damn it, again? OMG small children, please leave us alone!”

Honda hands over the symbolism sash, to which Jounouchi symbolically says “Nyeh.”

And Honda didn’t take it very well.

After tending to his kidneys for a little while, Honda decided to go back at it again at the Krispy Cream and do some sort of insane parkour over this completely ordinary fence.

Ah, the very first instance of real duel law where you duel over a relationship. In later seasons duel law is invoked for things like Mai’s marriage and the right to date Tea (and then just kind of forgetting you ever won the right to date Tea twice). But to think the very first time was Honda dueling for the right of Jounouchi to be part of nerd gang because Jounouchi had fallen to the dark side yo-yo gang across the street run by some 40 year old man with blue hair.

How many times is Honda gonna fight with a broom? Like are they just magnetized to his location? where are they even coming from?

Freakin janitor powers over here, put him in a Final Fantasy style RPG. I want to see what his limit break would be.

Not like it matters, because Hirotani very quickly explains why these yo-yo’s are at all a threat.

Which honestly shouldn’t be...so lethal? Seems like the weight is all you need, not really the spikes. But it’s at least stronger than Honda’s janitor stuff.

Unfortunate for Honda that he just destroyed an antique.

So with lightning reflexes, Yuugi does what he does most:

The death yo-yo ricochets back and does this little itty bitty scrape to this guy’s face and he’s real bothered by it. Although it’s like...well dude, you’re a 50 year old high schooler, I don’t think people will notice the scrape compared to everything else falling apart in your life.

And so then the Yugioh Season Zero team was like “oh shoot is it time to torture Yuugi???” and they got hella excited.

Like I thought it was just Yuugi’s class that were a bunch of disturbing criminal disasters, but I guess it’s the whole city. Like...was Yuugi’s class the good school?

I mean, it can’t be, there’s no way...

but like...is there a good school in this universe? How does anyone survive till graduation? If you so much as disgrace a yo-yo, you will get the torture treatment that I sure did expect in Yakuza games, but not so much in Yugioh, tbh.

Just a reminder: This is the third time we’ve beat up Yuugi this episode. Within the first meeting of Yuugi and Hirotani, he beat the tar out of Yuugi within eye shot of Jounouchi. So like...Jounouchi was reallllllllllllllllly lax on that deal, right? Like...he took his toot sweet time to realize “yeah this just ain’t ever gonna happen.”

And then the yo-yo wars begin.

Just like Solid Snake crawling through the radiation chamber.

Hirotani throws his Fyper-yoyo, Jounouchi intercepts with his Eireboy, and Hirotani’s completely terrible yo-yo just flies off the string again because Hirotani should have just sticked to using his fists. No wonder they wanted to recruit Jounouchi so badly, their yo-yo game is so off.

We never get a door to darkness in this episode, dipping our enemies into mind horrors. Instead, we get home-alone style traps. But, this makes sense. Not only do the show makers have to make Yuugi avoid solving problems with magic in front of Jounouchi, they also have to make it Jounouchi’s choice to leave Hirotani behind. If Yuugi did it for him in like...some sort of duel law situation...then that sort of leaves out Jounouchi’s choice in the equation.

Not like this ever really comes up in later seasons, since who even follows through with duel law and marries Mai? But like, it does feel like Season Zero calls out the later Seasons a bit in this regard. Honda got beat up because he tried to win Jounouchi back by force (or game, I guess.) That was just another form of coercion on the heels of Hirotani’s. What Jounouchi actually needed was to make his own decision to leave.

...most other anime I’d be like “I’m sure that’s just a translation error” but not this one.

So Yuugi runs to the roof where Jounouchi will never see this.

My audible sigh reading this line about fight club roof.

These stupid gang members went into Yuugi’s native territory, not just a fight club roof, but on a warehouse? They were dead before they arrived.

This was like maybe 3 frames of animation in just rapid succession, it was pretty silly and good.

Reminder that like 4 minutes ago, Yuugi was about to get like executed on a meat hook.

Speaking of getting executed on a meathook:

Hope you like the idea of glass in your eyes, because this anime’s got it.

They chase Yuugi around, in a sequence that was done mostly to conserve frames, so you rarely saw the ground until this shot:

Lots of falling down this episode, but unlike Tea, who fell from a warehouse ceiling once and just kind of rubbed her ass after and was like “ah damn it.” these guys won’t come out of it virtually unscathed.

Also, Honda is here now:

Jumping off of his symbolic sash trapeze, he decides to do in Hirotani for good.

Hey so like...walk the dog is a fairly gentle walk that a yo-yo does slowly on the ground right?

Just pointing out how sensitive Hirotani’s fingies are.

And he...didn’t appear to be dead, so I don’t have to add to the bodycount...but it’s gonna be a real long road for recovery.

And now, with the gang back together Jounouchi is back at school knee deep in make up assignments he’ll probably completely ignore since we know that in a years time, these fools are going to be trapped on Pegasus’ island, and at that point school will be just that place you talk about when you try to remember why you’re friends with Bakura.

---hey aren’t those chairs attached to the desks?

Because...holy crap, Anzu.

Honestly this is what you see before you die, but I guess Jounouchi died off screen after the episode ended, so I don’t have to add him to the deathcount (again). RIP.

Alright! That took like...8 tries to get Tumblr to save this one, but it managed! (well...I guess “managed” isn’t the word you’d use for a typing program that takes 8 tries to save)

Next time, we’ll be back to S5, for an arc I’ve heard is kind of boring. We’ll see. If it truly is, I can condense episodes into fewer posts. Or maybe it’s a secret gem? I guess we shall see.

And if you just got here this is a link to read all the Season Zero recaps from the start:

https://steve0discusses.tumblr.com/tagged/yuugi-muto/chrono

(there’s also a link to read all the Yugioh posts we wrote from the start in chrono order but straight up, this file won’t freakin save, and I just can’t even will myself to look up that link again. It’s on the home page of this blog on the right.)

#YGO #yugioh #yu gi oh #Yuugi Muto #Jounouchi #Honda #Anzu #Miho #yo yo gang #Hirotani #Yuugi and the gang do serious property damage

[etysky]

Just saw a person post screenshots of a very valid take on rpf but saying that the persons take was very badTM. Am tempted now to write a longer post but idk if ill have energy for it today lol. Anyways, my main points are:

1. You will never have complete control over how people perceive you. "Fighting" for the "rights" of everyone being able to control others perception of them is not a good easy to live because in the end, you are the one that loses. That goes especially for celebrities. As soon as you put something out into the world for a wide(r) audience to see, you lose most of control over it. Why? Because people are creative. And neurodivergent. And when they see something that they vibe with, they take the idea and spin it, make their own interpretation of it. And you know whats the funny thing? Thats how culture works as well. Old folk songs, mythology, stories of famous people, heroes, people with inhumane powers, etc exist here because people latched onto those people, whether they saw the person or heard the stories, they put their own spins on it those ancient storytellers, and they made them their own. That includes real people, you know!

2. Person vs persona. What I find baffling, is that often people seem to think that what we see of a celebrity is their whole personality while in fact, it is a persona that is composrd of style, etc that they like, yes. But that isnt their entire personality. The only ones that can claim to know celebrities, are their close ones. So, no matter how much fanfic writers would try, they will never be able to write an accurate representation of the celeb. And most dont want to do thatA So, what is there left to write about? Their persona, or rather, a writers interpretation of it, of course. And you have to understand: persona is NOT the same as the celebrity. One is a living, breathing person (the celebrity when theyre with the people they care about, when theyre working, etc), and the other is a bit more compressed idea of a person (a facade the celebrity puts on when theyre working). Fanfic writers latch onto the persona more than not because they vibe with it.

3. Attitude. Most of the time ive been on tumblr, the ones that are making a fuss about rpf are people who are either young, dont understand point 2 or dont know how to block tags. But then there is also the 4th type, the people who search for those properly tagged rpf things, in order to go and harass the people making them. Why, is my question. Why are you doing this? In real life, that would equal to a lets say, going to a vegan restaurant that has vegan written in caps over it, demanding they serve you nonvegan food and then harassing the people there for not accomodating your tastes! Thats really messed up! Why are you searching those spaces out on your own, if its not the content you enjoy, huh? Does it really bother you that much that people who enjoy a celebritys persona differently than you are having a good time, huh?

Im gonna add this here as well:

I cant talk about rpf without delving into the bad sides as well I guess.

1. First of all, again, I do not care what the rpf fics entail if the story is tagged properly and the fans are not bothering the celebrity about.

2. Yes, some people dont have a sense of boundaries and may share the fic to the celebs without realizing it is a bad idea. Is the fic writer at fault then, even though they tagged the fic and put content warnings? Of course not, the one at fault is the fan, who saw a thing liked it, and went to share it (point 1 applies here as well. Fanfic writers also dont have control over whether their story becomes popular or not, who likes it, etc).

3. Aannd my head ran empty. Feel free to add onto this post I guess.

Also, last point that I want you to dwell on.

Think about historical films about known figures. Like the british dramas. Those are in essence, rpf as well. Why are those series acceptable? They are, afterall, exploting real peoples lives also, and making money off of it! Well, for one, they are tailored for a wider audience. Then again, are the lives and personalities of the characters depicted there the EXACT same? Yes? No? Come on, we all know the scriptwriters had to add a little spice to the historical facts and story. None of those series is an accurate retelling. But, if its not accurate, doesnt that make it an au?

#ety talks #fanfiction #rpf #discourse #shipping #i guess??? #fandom #yeah you can see the post i am talkig about right above this one #am i digging my own grave here with this post? idk