#tw: cancer mention

[bad-blood-animal]

Regarding the future of certain projects TLDR they are on hold due to my health

Hello everyone and good day/evening/night. Not that I'm super active on Tumblr anymore outside of my projects, but I figured I would explain that these projects are now on hold until further notice. My plan was to continue to translate SINo content. I have a few EoS character gacha messages finished, as well as some job/weapon stories. Summaries of Aoki's streams. Break down of lore exclusive to the JP server. Chapter 7 of Act of Desire nearly done for a few characters. I had planned to scan and maybe try to formulate a team to translate the official movie pamphlet and the light novel. I spent my time on Tumblr from the start of the game in JP gushing about this game, and it still means a lot to me, but in regards to editing, scanlating, translating, ect. It's gotta be on hold. Medical vent: For two years, I had drastic changes in my body. This included a cyst that needed to be surgically moved inside of my body. Eczema, suddenly, with no history of skin conditions. Hormonal changes. Two years of it being hard to swallow, my throat always hurting, and having a cracked voice. Two years of never having energy, always tired, constantly having throat and ear problems. A few weeks ago, I went to do a check-in in regards to the cyst removal almost two years ago. Apparently my thyroid had gotten so large that my doctor noticed right away. Blood work, ultra sounds, several tests later, we're looking at a papillary thyroid cancer diagnosis. It's a scary thing to hear, but it can be treated. Mine is contained to the thyroid. Sadly, I won't even be able to book my surgery until the end of April. This has understandably taken a toll on the ones close to me, so I ask that people who know my circle respect them. This is not the end or a goodbye from me. There's so much I want to do and share with you all, but it is beyond my capabilities for awhile. Thank you all for all the support over the years. This site from my dinky little preci0us m3tal days before SINo came out to now, to the people who supported my writing and art before I started tl projects. I thank all of you. Whether we are friends, followers, or just passerby's I got a lot of love and support over these years. I will be back better than ever soon. I will need a removal surgery of my thyroid first. I will share a few things I did manage to finish in the coming days [job/weapon story-wise].

#blood speaks #tw: cancer mention

[surrogate-fawn]

A Reflection on 2023

Needless to say, 2023 was a hard year for me. I hit my rock bottom this year. Financially, emotionally, mentally and personally, I hit rock bottom.

Many bad things were ultimately because of my own action/inaction, such as being fired from my job for being late. The worst things were beyond my power to control, such as my mother living with cancer and my rejection from a life-changing job opportunity.

My biggest hope for 2024 is to get back on my feet. I would love to actually make progress towards my future again. Right now I'm treading water and I would love to rest on some dry land.

But 2023 had some good moments. I decided to get serious as a content creator and made this new main blog. I met some very good friends, whom I hope to have in my life for a very long time. I pray to the cosmos that's the case.

I discovered some things about my sexuality (though labels are unimportant to me) and overall have come out of this year with a deeper understanding of who I am and what I want out of life. For that, I can be grateful for.

This year, I connected to myself on a deeper level.

This year, I fell deeper in love with my partner.

This year, my creativity burned like it hasn't burned in two years.

This year, I came out broken and held together with duct tape.

But with my history being what it is, it's a victory that I made it to today at all. That deserves some celebraton, doesn't it?

🎊🎊🎊

Hoping for a Happy New Year, now more than ever before.

#mun in the flesh (irl stuff) #tw: cancer mention #tw: mental health #Unlucky Number (20)23 #Thank god this year is finally dead.

[tirsynni]

First thing tomorrow morning, I hit the road to head home after visiting my dad and family for Thanksgiving and Dad's first year anniversary of his successful stem cell transplant. It was a good trip and I'm very happy I came. I'm still not looking forward to the drive home tomorrow. Wish me luck. ;_;

I have a full work week next week, but my bosses are cool. Beyond getting one thing finished and turned in on time and one phone call made, no one is expecting anything of me on either Monday OR Tuesday. Lovely. I'm good with it. I'm going to spend pretty much all day on the road tomorrow, hopefully avoiding the worst of holiday traffic, and driving several hours in the dark because it's that time of year. Whee.

I'm currently spending my last night writing fanfiction while everyone else watches wrestling. lol

#personal #tw: cancer mention #tomorrow will be a caffeine day #all the caffeine #and snacks #because they don't exist at home #not THESE snacks #bastards

[irondadmadlads]

Irondad Prompt #38:

Peter: Mr. Stark, I’m dying! There’s a weird bump on my ear! Mr. Stark, avenge meeeee-

Tony: Peter, that’s just a- HOLY FUCK YOU DIDN’T TELL ME YOU GOT STABBED!

Peter: Mr. Stark, what if the bump is cancerous?

Tony: How are you worried about a small bump when you’re still bleeding? Medbay. Now.

#iron man #irondad and spiderson #irondad and spiderson prompts #irondad prompts #spider man #spiderson prompts #iron dad #irondad #peter parker #spiderson #peter parker & tony stark #tony stark #marvel mcu #mcu #marvel #peter parker whump #tw: stabbing #tw: stab wounds #tw: cancer mention #stabbing #stab wound #cancer mention #tw: blood #blood

[punk-and-anxious]

*Gets lung cancer*

Oh my goddddd John Constantine Coreeeeeeeeee ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

#hellblazer #john constantine #tw: lung cancer mention #tw: cancer mention

[hermesserpent-stuff]

What is beck's backstory? Like there's hints and stuff in hollow and accidental nephew

Oooohhhhh okay! I got so many ideas.

So!

Early life: raised by a single father in a small dingy apartment. He got left alone a lot, and filled silence with music and TV. His father would bring home vhs' of Broadway shows from the rental store. His neighbors would also share the vhs' they had around.

His dad brought home a lot of books and movies, picking up things from the trash and second hand stores to flood Quentin's environment with words and thoughts. His father didnt have much free time trying to keep a roof over their heads, but he always has a moment to spare for Quentin.

The old lady next door would look after him sometimes and treat him as a grandson. she taught him how to bake, stitch, and stretch. Gave him and amulet but died when he turned 11.

Mid life: in high school he spend all his free time in the theater class, working on props, getting ready for rolls and talking with the teacher. He spends time picking up odd jobs around the city and being exposed to crime. His father makes time to see his plays and always always has a few flowers. His father also makes time to help him apply to film colleges and helps him best he can as a man with a GED can.

College: second year of college Quentins father gets cancer. And Quentin finds himself burning through money. He doesn't have enough to finish his last year of college and is only hired in minor jobs on movies on professors recommendations. He drops out and starts working in crime circles to make gear to make money. His dad ends up living a few more more months than he would have, but still dies. (The dream that Quentin mentions in hollow is a dream he had based on sitting in the waiting room)

Crime life: Quentin find himself drifting. He meets tinkerer on a job and then tinkerer scoops him up. He latches on and comes to really rely on Tink. Then Chameleon comes along and takes advantage of the fact quentin is still weak and looking for emotional supports in his life

The rest is sorta more spelled out. Chameleon leaves. He becomes Mysterio. He becomes pals with Montana and then the Enforcers yadda yadda.

Hope this makes sense!! Thanks for asking

#tw: death #tw: cancer mention #hermes speaks #spider nephew au #tssm mysterio #tssm quentin beck #ask hermes

[monsieurenjlolras]

I've been having what feels like bad migraines with blurry vision and nausea for over a month (unusual for me), and have just generally not been in good health, and today I found a hard marble-sized lump at the base of my skull that definitely wasn't there before.

I'm really worried that it's a tumor and its pressing on something in my brain because it would explain all my symptoms, but I don't have health insurance right now and probably won't for a couple weeks so I can't afford go get it looked at till like mid june. And I know a couple weeks shouldn't make a difference, but not knowing if freaking me out and I'm in so much pain

#tw: cancer mention #sort of #tw: tumor #health #live from the musain #personal

[mortuaest]

Large rant, sorry. Please ignore if any of the trigger warnings are going to be an issue. I need to get it off of my chest because if I rant on FB I get hit with a character limit and I should make a personal Tumblr which I think I have but dont remember shit about.

Ive been having severe, and I mean severe as fuck mental and emotional breakdowns because of the fact that its literally been almost a year (Its going to be a year October 29th) since I've had to put down Ice Cube, my ESA of 14.5 years. He had cancer in his cheek and it was placed right to where it would effect his quality of life severely negatively if we tried to surgically take it out, and he would possibly die on the table if we did it because of his age, and he was declining (He wasn't eating, he was drinking, he really wasnt eating as much as I wanted him to, he was spitting back up the pills I was giving him, he was suffering) and my mental and emotional health has been severely suffering each and every day that passes without him.

I have another cat, I got him in April, thinking I was alright. Which I was I guess. Im being reminded via FB memories and just my own fucked up brain wanting me to join him to where I'm legit giving myself until December 31st, 2023 to have someone. Anyone give me a fucking sigh to keep on living. Im going to be going through a program my friend suggested to make a will, making her I forgot the words she used but shes going to make sure that my will is listened to and Albert Whisker, the cat I have now is taken care of.

I cant keep on living, and the fact that this heartbreak is fucking me up so badly to the point where the large baggie of medications (ranging from insomnia medications to Very STRONG painkillers and such, as well as my daily medications the day of me going to attempt) is very tempting to take now. And I mean very tempting. Meaning I almost took it yesterday, after my first mental break and me physically hurting myself by slamming a brush ungodly hard into my head because I legit believe I deserve everything that has happened to me (The physical, emotional and mental abuse that I got for 20 some odd years from my mother, the severe car accident from last year, the rapes, everything. My friends being murdered or dying around me, loosing the only thing that even brought light to my life).

No one in my life cares. No one seems to care. Ive been severely struggling and each time IVe even bothered to reach out for help via friends. Since my father hates me for being trans and my sister doesnt give a fuck to even bother to help me. My mother was the cause of my two rapes/sexual assaults in my life and wants me dead because Im autistic. No one wants to help, or no one seems interested in even keeping me around.

Cosplay isnt helping. Video games aren't either. I havent felt any happiness since last year. I could deal with this if he was still alive. But at the same time Im lying to myself, I havent known what made me happy other than my past cat Ice Cube. I stayed for him since I love him. I had him since he was five weeks old. We bonded. Its not the case with Albert and I feel he loves me but we dont have the connection and never will.

Im never going to feel anything other than severe misery and depression. At least, that's what I 100% believe.

TLDR: Im severely struggling and dont know what to do anymore. I dont trust my new therapist even though she has stated more than once and my friend who also goes to her has stated more than once she wont send me to inpatient or CPAP and she tries to avoid hospitalization if we can. But because of multiple decades of PTSD, abuse, and being denied the proper treatment, help, support from friends and family that I should of gotten Im at the point where Im giving myself until December 31st to find a reason to stay alive and if I dont then Im letting my queue run out.

#狼{out of lusty ambitions} #狼{out of lusty ambitions}狼 #tw: negative thoughts #tw:mentions of death #tw: mentions of suicide #tw: cancer mention #tw: mention of loosing a loved one #tw: suicide mentions #tw: suicide idealiation #tw: plans of suicide #tw: mention of assault/sexual assault

[cfimmoralcs]

❝ I never lie because I don’t fear anyone . You only lie when you’re afraid . ❞

        javier morales  ›› underboss of the control mafia and mechanic in the Bronx  ››  manny montana   ››   tw: death mention , killing mention , cancer mention , child loss mention 

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✘ ╱ manny montana + male + he/him ╾ better keep an eye on JAVIER MORALES whenever they are around. Some say the FORTY year old made their name by being a(n) UNDERBOSS for THE CONTROL. Feared by their RECKLESS + ARROGANT tendencies, however, their PERSISTANT + RESOURCEFUL side helps maintain the facade. Can be easily found in BRONX working as MECHANIC. ( Lexi + 27+ she/her + est )

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full name : javier ignacio morales

nicknames : javi

age : 40

date/place of birth : july seventh in bronx, new york

occupation : mechanic

affiliation : underboss for the control

language(s) spoken : english  ,   spanish 

hair color : brunette

eye color : brown

notable scars : couple of scars scattering his body from bullet and stab wounds

PERSONALITY ​

positive : persistent , resourceful , honest , decisive , perceptive , disciplined

negative : arrogant , reckless , impulsive , callous , manipulative , ruthless

moral alignment : chaotic .

deadly sin : pride

hogwart house : slytherin

element : fire

emotional stability : stable 

alcohol use : regularly

prone to violence? : very

habits : tbd

drives / motivations : tbd

aesthetic : rio from good girls , miguel galindo from mayans mc , manny from mayans mc , thomas shelby from peaky blinders 

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mother : maricela morales  ( mother )   

father : ignacio morales  ( father )   †  

sibling(s): césar morales ( older brother )  † , unnamed morales ( younger sister ) 

children: unnamed morales ( 21-year-old son ) , isabela morales ( daughter )  † 

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―  Javi was born in the summer in Bronx, New York. His father was one of two Capos for The Control and his mother a doctor for the same gang. 

―  He’s the middle son of 3 kids but the oldest one living. His older brother died at 23, he was a soldier within the Control.

―  At 18, Javi’s girlfriend ended up pregnant and had a son while Javi enlisted in the United States Army. He would spend another 6 years with the military before his father would be killed and he would return home to take his place as Capo, leading the Control Soldiers using his knowledge and skills gained while serving. 

―  His girlfriend became pregnant again around this time and gave birth to their daughter, Isabela, and the two married.

―  Five years after the birth of his daughter, grief struck and they found out that Isabela had an incurable cancer and within a matter of months she was taken from them leaving Javi distraught and colder than ever.

―  The death of his daughter was extremely hard on him and with her death a ruthless, reckless, and impulsive monster was born. This only saw Javi rising in rank to a region manager.

―  It would be no more than a year before his wife would die, taking a bullet that was meant for him. Unable to feel much of anything, Javi’s son went to live with his Javi’s mother, Maricela, his only desire to protect his son’s innocence that remained.

―  Another few years and Javi had risen to Underboss under Adriana Ribeiro. When Adriana passed away and her daughter, Sloane, took over, Javi was understandably, visibly, and vocally upset by it. The girl knew nothing about any of it and he had little faith that she would be able to lead the gang. Of course, he stood corrected and quickly found himself giving the girl a chance and now stands by her and is rather protective of her.

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―  There’s only been one girl since the death of his wife that has managed to break through his cold and callous exterior aside from Sloane and that was Reina Castro, Underboss of rival gang Coalition. They broke up about a year and a half ago and he’s been trying to get her back, to show her that she can trust him.

―  Javi loves his son even if it didn’t seem like he cared. In truth, he cared too much about the boy which is why he chose to have his mother raise him, his way of protecting his son and ensuring he didn’t follow in his footsteps.

―  He’s got a 7 year old Pitbull named Papi Chulo

#mafiahq.intro #tw: cancer mention #tx: child loss mention #tw: murder mention #tw: death mention

[anyamacs]

"Have you seen my friend? Curly hair, glasses, came in with a boner?"

Full Name: Anya Marie MacPherson

Age: 21

Gender: Cis Female

Pronouns: She/Her

Orientation: Pansexual

Occupation: Unemployed

Major/Minor: Psychology

School Year: Sophomore

Clubs: LARP Club, Power Team, Drama Club

Positive Traits: Loyal, Open-Minded, Friendly

Negative Tratis: Self-Destructive, Pushover

History:

Anya grew up an only child and has lived in Toronto for almost her entire life. Her parents were always really good about letting her grow up into her own person, though as she’s gotten older she fears that she hasn’t quite lived up to their expectatons. 

TW: Drug Use She’d never been an amazing student but Anya’s Senior Year hit her hard. After being rejected from the schools she’d applied to and spiraling she got extremely into partying and developed a drug addiction. With her parents help though she was able to get herself clean and back on track. 

She joined the military soon after high school and while she absolutely hated it, she tried to power through her time. She even almost did but a severe ankle injury caused her be medically discharged.

TW: Druge Use, Cancer Mention After getting back home she was able to get herself into school, hoping to make up for the time she’d lost. Things started out really well and she quickly fell back in with her friends but a few months later her mother’s cancer came back and unable to cope with it Anya relapsed. She’s been trying to get herself together again ever since for her mother’s sake but has had trouble and her school has suffered because of it.

Right now she’s spending most of her time going out with friends or out LARPing, trying to distract herself from what’s going on with her mom. 

Wanted Connections:

Best Friends: The people she’s closest with. These are the people she’s probably hitting up most often to spend time with!  Friends: Anya is super sweet and doesn’t have many problems at all with people, she tries to be as friendly as possible and make as many friends as she can.  Exes: People that Anya has dated in the past, these could have ended amicably or even with some drama.  Tutor: Someone that’s helping her with her schoolwork, she definitely shows up late to sessions all the time and even misses them but she’s still trying!  Anything Else: I love brainstorming, so I’d love to figure anything else out!

#intro #tw: drug use #tw: cancer mention #i stayed up so late for this and its so bad but pls love her anyway! <3

[queenidinamenzel]

Just me?

Do you ever just have a scar from your time in cancer treatment that you’ve been deeply insecure about for 20 years and you’ve dreaded it receiving attention but then you meet a guy who becomes your boyfriend and his first instinct is to use the freckles around it to make a face?

#personal #life is UNREAL #tw: cancer #tw: cancer mention

[tirsynni]

Me: There is no way in hell I'm going to visit my family on Thanksgiving. That's one of the busiest travel times of the year. Hell, no. Dad: Thanksgiving will be the anniversary of my stem cell transplant! <3 What are everyone's holiday plans? Me: ...goddammit. Okay, so this will be my end-of-the-year trip then. No other trips. Sister: I won't really be able to visit that weekend due to work and I won't have my holiday stuff ready by then. :( Me: GODDAMMIT.

#personal #tw: cancer mention #apparently i'm making two trips #one during a horrific time of year #fml #so much fml #i bring this on myself

[sophiagallos]

Full Name: sophia isabella gallo

Gender & Pronouns: cis female & she/her

Neighborhood: downtown

Occupation: journalist at glacier times

Positive traits: organized, creative & fun

Negative traits: bossy, lonely & stubborn

Length of time in Anchorage: five years

Faceclaim: monica barbaro

TW: parental death, TW: cancer mention, TW: breast cancer mention

The 5th of February back in 1988 was a special day. It was the day that Alexandria and Christopher had welcomed their second child, and second daughter into this World. While their first child, and first daughter named Gianna who was just three at the time waited impatiently for her new sibling to arrive. Sophia Isabella Gallo was born, and she came out kicking and screaming. Beautiful olive skin, brown eyes and dark brown hair she was perfect they thought to themselves, and loved by so many. A little firecracker as Christopher nicknamed her. That’s exactly what she was.

Growing up, life was full of adventure for Sophia. She was spunky, free spirited and fun. Never had a dull moment. Always making things up with her older sister and causing mischief. The two were inseparable, but that changed when Gianna was eight, and Sophia was five when Alexandria and Christopher had welcomed their last child and final daughter whom they named Averie Caroline Gallo. The two older girls made a pact, they made a pact with one another that if anything ever happened to their parents then they’d be the ones to look after the infant. They’d be the ones to protect their baby sister. That’s exactly what they did.

Sadly when Gianna was fifteen, Sophia was twelve, and Averie was just eight their mother was diagnosed with cancer. Breast Cancer, stage four and non curable. It was late, too late in the game and it killed them as a family. It killed the three girls as they watched their mother get sicker and sicker . It killed their father as he became quiet and distant. Not really knowing how to handle three teenage girls as a widow. The man did his best. He did his best and even if Averie was still young after her mother passed, Gianna and Sophia knew that their father was trying.

It was hard, there was no doubt about it. Growing up without a mother especially during your teenage years was never easy. Though their father became their best friend. She tried to be good and do good as her mother would always say when they left the house, but there were times when Sophia would test her fathers limits during her high school years. Partying way to young and falling in love way to young. Though it wasn’t till her Junior year when Sophia realized she didn’t want to continue her bad ways. She wanted to make her mother proud.

So she studied hard and got into Boston College. Sophia decided to take after her father and found a love of writing. The young women studied Journalism and got Straight As while graduating at the top of her class. It wasn't until Sophia was twenty-eight years old when she got a job offer at Glacier Times in Anchorage, Alaska to be one of the lead Journalists on their team. After much consideration, Sophia decided to take it and has been in Anchorage for five years.

POTENTIAL PLOTS:

Currently thinking about plots for her, but maybe I would like to see her be the owner of Glacier Times at some point in her life? She's been on the team for five years now & she's working her way up.

Maybe she gets back into her bad ways, partying & drinking?

POTENTIAL CONNECTIONS:

PLEASE bring me her two sisters!! Gianna & Averie. Maybe some coworkers or a male best friend?!

#anchorageintro #(an aspiring beam of light: intro.) #(intro.) #tw: parental death #tw: cancer mention #tw: breast cancer mention

[unrequitedloveletter]

Hello! Can I ask what working in a nursing home is like? Like the training & how hard it is,, it’s one of the careers I’m interested in doing :^) 👾

Hi, anon! I work as a long term care assistant (LTCA) which is a temporary position wherein I basically just kind of assist the continuing care assistants (CCAs) so I probably don't know as much as CCAs or like,, registered nurses who work in a similar environment to the one I'm in, but here's what I can tell you after exactly four weeks of working in a seniors/assisted living home.

I am operating off the assumption you might end up as an LTCA or a CCA and giving you what I know based on that.

all of it is below the cut because I rambled off at the mouth a little, and just a note: all of the stuff I talk about is based on my own experience so far. Everything you're reading is from my own unique perspective and I, in no way, am trying to represent the whole of people who work in nursing homes under any kind of a position be it my own or something like housekeeping/working as the RN. This is just my perspective and how I feel about my job and the environment in which I have worked for nearly a full month now. As I keep working my perspective may change but this is my perspective on everything as of March 8th, 2024.

The training, for me, was very simple almost?? I had five shifts that week and two days off, and three of those shifts were spent orientating.

Before the orientating though, I had to go through about nine hours of training through a program I'm not going to list bc I don't know if it's used very commonly anywhere outside of my specific organization and I simply do not want to check right now. I don't know how other orgs will do it but if you do get into working in this environment you may end up with orientating shifts + an online training program.

If you're stuck with something similar, just try to keep a level head about it and unless you only have like, two days to do it (I had close to a week) take your time with it.

Even then, where you can, take a breather, bc if you have eight hours of training to do it will get very boring very fast and you'll be staring at your laptop screen like "aughhhhhhhh what" within thirty minutes. I speak from experience with that.

BACK TO THE ORIENTATING THOUGH!! I had three full days of orientating + one four hour day wherein I signed paperwork and took a lil tour of the building before the three days of orientation.

Orientating is the fucking worst imo but that's just because, when you're working in a nursing home with zero prior experience, it's not a fucking cakewalk, and you have to learn a lot of shit while you're orientating and you're going to come home and cry because it's new and your feet hurt.

If you're anything like me, you'll genuinely debate quitting multiple times in your first orientating shifts but stick it out my friend. it's gonna get easier as the routine gets settled into your bones.

HOWEVER, a piece of advice I have is this: ask your orientater if they've previously worked on the floor you'll end up working on after you've finished orientating if you're going to be working on different floors from one another. If your situation ends up similar to mine (wherein you and your orientater are the only two LTCAs on one specific shift rotation of the two) then the answer will likely be yes, though I wouldn't say it's a guarantee.

If it's yes and you'll be working on 1st or 2nd primarily after orientation but are being trained/orientated on 3rd, ask them to train you on 1st and 2nd or to spend some time there so you can familiarize yourself with it a bit. It's something I wish I had done--I was trained mostly on 3rd and had gone to 2nd maybe once or twice in three days of orientating, but since the end of my orientation I've been working on 2nd. Had I asked to maybe see about training on 2nd I would've saved myself the week worth of shifts it took me to adjust to working on 2nd and thus I would've gotten the hang of things quicker.

in terms of how hard it is, the truth is that once you get past the learning curve of stuff, the routines settle into your system and mentally it kind of feels like taking a load off, but my first piece of advice is this: either before you get paid or with your first paycheck, invest in some compression socks and good quality shoes.

I did my first eight shifts with crappy thrifted nikes and my feet screamed bloody murder the entire time, so with my first paycheck I ordered a pair of hokas, which are pretty expensive depending on the shoe you get, but i refuse to wear any other pair of shoes I have to work. My hokas are my favorite pair of shoes i’ve ever owned bc they’re comfy and while the pain in my feet hasn’t diminished wearing the comfy shoes makes it easier to handle most days.

ALSO ON THAT NOTE: regardless of the position you're in at the nursing home, walking a lot and standing the majority of your day is almost a guarantee. I wear my fibit to work bc when I first started I was determined that I'd walk 300k steps by the time my contract was done. The contract just got extended bc they're still providing funding for my job, and since I started working I've taken 150k steps.

To put into perspective how long the hours can get: when you're an LTCA or a CCA, you work twelve hour days. At my job, I work seven shifts in two weeks. Six of them are twelves, one of them is an eight, but the math adds up and I work 80 hours in those two weeks. CCAs can get mandated to work certain shifts + days as far as I know, but LTCAs can't and don't get mandated to work nights or anything like that (continuing care assistants who might be reading this ramble can correct me if I'm wrong, I've heard my coworkers who are CCAs discussing mandates though lol) I've worked at my place of employment for four weeks and haven't encountered mandates or anything like that in my own scheduling lol

time to talk about how hard it can sometimes be mentally bc despite how easy stuff gets once you learn the rhythm and figure out your own place in the work ecosystem, it's not always gonna be sunshines and rainbows. Especially not in a place like a seniors assisted living home.

The twelve hour shifts can take a big toll on you, so just--be cautious! Know yourself well enough to know whether or not you can handle it decently and know when self care is necessary. Working back-to-back twelve hours fuckin sucks and bc that's likely how it'll be if you wind up in a seniors home, just do check ins whenever you have your break.

If you sit down to eat your lunch and think "three days of this bullshit but I'm halfway done til I have off days. I'm gonna watch my comfort media and eat the pint of ice cream in the freezer once I'm home" then go home at the end of your shift and do that. It might not be the most conventional form of self care necessarily, but after my bad shifts I always come home, cry for a bit and then watch either The Princess Bride, Saw, Shadow & Bone or one of the two Kingsman movies so I can't judge anyone who does what I do. Yesterday I had a shift that felt longer than half of the ones I do normally and I came home, took an edible, and then spent the next few hours high as a fuckin kite and had the time of my life. Self care looks different for everyone and just be mindful of when you need it.

Another thing to note: if you aren't really able to handle hearing about people dying, being moved to palliative care, or being diagnosed with cancer and other diseases, then working in a nursing home may not be to your speed. After almost a month, one of the things I've noticed by this point is that I'll hear about peoples deaths, people who've been moved to palliative care or have been diagnosed with something, casually and at least once every couple of days. It's a pretty commonplace thing to discuss, and I should also note that it's never EVER discussed lightly or maliciously--coworkers ask about things and stuff like that will just come up in conversation when residents are discussed as well, and I mostly just hear about it and then have to focus on something different bc hearing that stuff brought up so casually, even in that environment, is kind of jarring. I never hear that talk outside of work so it's taking a bit of getting used to.

I, again, am just an LTCA where I work and don't do everything that the CCAs do (like, for instance, changing residents, dressing or bathing them) but I'm going to tag this as needed and if a CCA sees this and wants to add their experiences, they can feel free to do so!

On a last note: nowhere you work is going to be drama free a hundred percent of the time, and you might just end up working with someone you dislike. At my work, there's really not much drama between coworkers (off the top of my head I can think of two instances, one from while I was first orientating and the other just from the shifts I worked this week) and that might be the case in loads of other places, but you might not be able to escape it and yes, it will always be annoying and make you feel like you're in high school again.

to touch on the working with people you dislike bit--that's not a guarantee but it's very likely. Let's just hope you don't go into working in a nursing home and then end up hating a coworker you see every single day because if you do, it'll fucking suck. I unfortunately strongly dislike someone I see every single day (sometimes for up to an hour!!) bc she's condescending in tone and also glance. She will look at me like I'm the dirt on the ground she blesses by walking upon it and talk to me like I'm three and don't know anything. I've cried four times in one shift bc of her and she is the reason I know it's safe to cry in the bathroom on 3rd and then act like you're fine and have people believe you when you say you are lol.

All in all, you'll love and hate it at the same time. There'll be shifts where you're like "I want to quit. what the fuck am I doing this job for when I hate it so much I want to quit working here and then never come again." but, as someone who's spent the last three weeks pulling through to see myself to the decent days, you'll make it past wanting to quit until the urge to quit comes up again, then you'll make it past the urge another five bazillion times before you stop wanting to quit, and by that point you'll probably either love your job wholly or be able to comfortably retire.

If I missed anything in my ramble, or if there's anything specific you want me to talk about more in depth, please feel free to reach out and I can make another post! I could genuinely probably talk about my job all the live long fuckin' day and if you want to know more I'll happily talk more about it lol.

#cal talks #nursing home #continuing care assistant #CCA #LTCA #assisted living #tw: death mention #tw: palliative care mention #tw: cancer mention

[thebookoflcve]

'ℂ𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕀'𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕔𝕣𝕒𝕨𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕣𝕜 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕨𝕖𝕣 - 𝕒 𝕞𝕦𝕤𝕚𝕔𝕒𝕝 𝕣𝕖𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕖

Re-Offender - Travis || Childhood - The Rose || Crawling through the Dark - Hoobstank || The Mixed Tape - Jack's Mannequin || Blud - Soak || High and Dry - Radiohead || This is How I Disappear - My Chemical Romance|| All of my Ghost - Lizzy McAlpine ||

ℚ𝕦𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝔽𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕤

(—) ★ spotted!! ETHAN BRIGGS on the cover of this week’s most recent tabloid! many say that the 25 year old looks like FELIX MALLARD, but i don’t really see it. while the ACTOR is known for being HUMOROUS my inside sources say that they have a tendency to be MOROSE i swear, every time i think of them, i hear the song RE-OFFENDER - TRAVIS {he/him / cis male}

𝔽𝕦𝕟 𝔽𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕤 

Full Name: Ethan Michael Briggs Age: 25 Birthday: March 17th Birth City: Brooklyn, New York Reason for coming to LA: He was recently casted as Lucas Scott on One Tree Hill. He has come to confront his half sister, Felicity DuPont.

Stage Credits: Broadway: Next to Normal as Gabe ; Wicked as Fiyero ; Anastasia as Dmitry ; Jagged Little Pill as Nick Healy ; Moulin Rouge! as Christian Off-broadway Productions Dog Fight as Eddie ; West Side Story as Tony

𝔹𝕚𝕠𝕘𝕣𝕒𝕡𝕙𝕪: (tw: cancer mention)

From an early age, Ethan had an affinity for the spotlight; just not in the way you would think. Ethan enjoyed seeing the world through the eyes of another person and allowing their struggles to be seen. It was a defense mechanism to safeguard his own struggles. Born out of wedlock and abandoned by his biological father, Ethan had to traverse the world as both a young misguided man and the protector for his mother. He did his very best to protect her from the ugliness that often had been shoved onto a single mother. She had Ethan as an eighteen years old in search of a dream for the big time. Ethan was never made privy to the identity of his father; the topic always seemed too bitter of a thought for his mother to swallow.

Due to his mother's unrequited dream for the stage, he was thrust into the arts at an early age. After a few too many struggling evenings, his mother had landed a job as a seamstress for one of the local theatres which only further cemented his fate. Ethan naturally took to hiding in plain sight, in the folds of a well meaning book reciting the lines of the greats.

With much of his success, he was able to assist in keeping his small family afloat while pursing his passion. Ethan was narrowed minded in his pursue and did attend college for a degree in the dramatic arts and psychology. He swore if he stopped being able to sing and dance comfortably, he'd like to look into the minds of others. In all of his great stage success, Ethan was dealt a heavy blow. His mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. He dedicated every moment that he could spare to take care of her. He took time off from his role as Christian on Moulin Rogue to care for her.

After two years of struggle, his mother passed. Lost in his grief, he needed an escape and a role appeared for a new television show, One Tree Hill. Ethan auditioned for the role in hopes of reigniting his passions and got it. Just before landing in LA, he took a silly 23 and me test with a few of his friends as some soul seeking adventure prompted by a well aged brandy. When the results came in, he was in for a shock that rocked everything he knew.

He matched with an unlikely entity.

Felicity DuPont.

Ethan's desire to move across the country had only gotten more complicated.

ℂ𝕠𝕟𝕟𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤

coming soon!

#character : ethan briggs #eb ; bio #tw: cancer mention #tw: death

[symbioteburnout]

@baiika​ continued (x)

Andi wasn’t about to give Momo a lecture on how smoking could ruin her health. More than likely it was one that the Shinigami had already heard, and probably didn’t care to hear again. Andi herself didn’t really care about taking a moral high ground here either. Momo’s life was hers to live and do with as she pleased, it wasn’t Andi’s business.

Although she did have to wonder, could smoking really affect a Shinigami? Was lung cancer a thing for them? Shinigami could obviously get drunk, Andi had seen that with Rangiku a few times already. Keeping the flame focused on her fingertip, Andi touched her finger to the bowl of the tobacco pipe, wasn’t like she had any experience actually doing this before, but she had to assume she wasn’t supposed to light it up all at once.

“You know about my fancy alien suit, this is... something else.” When she brought up her Hellmark to the others, they hadn’t been able to see it, sort of.

Rangiku had said she could see a twisted spiritual energy around her chest, but that was about it, Momo probably couldn’t see the burning pentagram. “It’s a curse, my Coach made a deal with the devil, and then I got wrapped up in it.” She took her finger out of the pipe once she saw smoke coming from the bowl. “That’s actually my first time lighting anyone up... I tried cigarettes once, they didn’t agree with me.”

#baiika #-||[BLEACH AU]||- #tw: cancer mention