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papergirllife · 3 years

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-nct dream and wayv reaction to a tiny / small chested ( sfw for 01 and 02 liners )

• Kun

Kun would be very likely to have a tiny s/o because he enjoys being protective towards his s/o, not necessarily tiny in terms of size, but more towards height, he's not one of the taller ones in wayv, so I think he’d enjoy the feeling of being older and bigger compared to you. He'd love to see you drowning in the many sweaters he owns, and as in terms of small titties, I think he's more of an ass man, so small titties don't bother him, in fact I think he'd be very adoring towards them, engulfing his whole hand around your tits sexually and non-sexually on a daily basis, just an emphasis of how tiny you are.

• Ten

Ten would love a tiny s/o, Ten himself is quite tiny, so if he ends up choosing a tiny s/o, it'll be because of the advantage of sharing closets, Ten would be the type of boyfriend who’d be quick to get comfortable in a relationship, and ask for your permission to share your closets. It would've started off as you staying the night and needing a change of clothes, you could practically see hearts in his eyes the first time he saw you in his clothes. Ten would use this an excuse just to buy more clothes, sometimes even doing the honours of dolling you up himself. Ten wouldn't have a particular take on tits, to him, smaller to average tits are more to his liking.

• Winwin / Sicheng

Sicheng wouldn’t have a preference towards his s/o’s height, but most likely he'd go for someone at least half a head shorter, I think Chinese men are more traditional in this sense, going for someone who’s shorter than them. I think Sicheng would be more particular towards his s/o’s size, he’d go for someone who is skinnier than him I have a hunch. In terms of small tits, I think he’d prefer ones that are more to average Asian size.

• Dejun

Dejun would be the one with the highest chance of having a tiny s/o in terms of size and height, in an interview, he chose Ten as the person he would date if Ten was a girl purely because he's shorter. I think Dejun would really dote on his tiny s/o, so she would look very much childlike in terms of tits too because Dejun wants to feel manly when he's with his s/o.

• Hendery

Hendery is a wild card, he's the must open minded one among wayv in my opinion, and would most likely date a girl of any size and height, and wouldn't have a preference towards titties either. But if he did choose to be with a tiny s/o, it’d be because he could easily win when him and his s/o are play fighting or have a liking towards teasing his tiny s/o, even purposely putting the kitchenware in higher shelves just so you need him to get it for you.

• Lucas

Lucas would probably have a tiny s/o as well in terms of height and size, just like Kun, this sweetheart would strive to be your knight in shining armour, just like how he protected his fellow co star in keep running, this man is raised to be a gentleman and a tiny s/o would be perfect for him just so he could easily care and protect you. In terms of tits, I think he’d like average tits at least? Since his hands are so big, I think he’d prefer bigger titties.

• Yang Yang

Yang Yang definitely would go for a tiny s/o, idk if you guys know this, but he likes it when fans call him oppa, so I think this liking comes with certain particularity towards how his s/o is physically. So he’d go for someone who's shorter and smaller in size just so he could feel older (regardless whether she really is or not, it's just the aesthetic he wants). Like Ten, I think he'd love to see his s/o in his clothes, especially if she doesn't have a similar style, he’d bring over his sweaters just so he could see you drowning in them. As for tits, I think he’d love smaller ones, I think he enjoys how pretty they look, nothing like the ones in porn where he always see and finds them overrated.

• Mark and Donghyuck are in 127’s reaction.

• Renjun

Renjun himself is very much tiny, so looking for a tiny s/o who's just as or is smaller than him would be like winning the lotto to him, he’d love to hear the member’s gasp of surprise when he lets them meet her, putting a stop towards all the teasing of how he'd never find someone who’s tiny and doesn’t mind a tiny boyfriend. Renjun would also love small titties, the way small titties look in old paintings (since he loves art and I bet he's seen some), he’d love the aesthetic of small titties. In fact this infatuation might even lead to him asking to paint you nude one day, with his s/o’s consent of course.

• Jeno

Jeno would love and absolutely adore a tiny s/o (you can't tell me this man doesn’t have a size kink). He'll love to have his s/o in his lap, arms caged around his s/o small waist. He loves how he could easily carry his s/o, as if she’s just a feather in his strong arms. Small tits would be to his liking purely because he could engulf the whole titty into his mouth (you can't disassociate oral fixation from Lee Jeno). Did I say his liking towards manhandling too? I genuinely wish his s/o good luck.

• Jaemin

Jaemin loves to baby his s/o, and doesn’t have a preference to how she looks like physically, but since his babies (Chenle and Jisung) after both quite big, I think he'd want to baby someone who's actually baby sized. Just like Ten, he’d adore seeing his large clothes on his s/o's tiny frame, cooing at every chance he gets, if you think his adoration towards Jisung is bad, buckle up folks, this is going to be a bumpy ride. And as for titties, I think he'd love titties despite the size, but small titties? Catch him pinching and cupping them at every chance, it could just be a regular cuddle session, but his hands are definitely lingering upwards.

• Shotaro

Idk much about Taro, but what I can predict is that he’d prefer a tiny s/o, It might be the aesthetic that he likes, cue the ullzang couple photos on his camera roll, might have a thing for caressing your small fingers while holding hands, just a hunch, and likes to see his s/o in his clothes. I don’t think he has a preference for tits, tits are tits to him.

• Sungchan

From how big he is, I don’t think he’d make way to look for a tiny s/o, maybe a head shorter at most? I think Sungchan wants practicality in his relationship, so it’d be weird to him if he needs to lean down a lot in order to kiss his s/o.

• Chenle

Chenle would be likely to go for someone who’s tiny, at least a head shorter, he wants to feel more adult as compared to his s/o, he babies Jisung on a daily basis, so I think an ‘actual baby' s/o (unlike the giant like Jisung) would be more of his preference.

#nct smut #nct fluff #nct 127 #nct #nct dream #wayv #wayv smut #mark lee #jeno #jaemin #kun #lucas wong #renjun #jisung #ten lee

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bukojuiice · 3 years

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dancing in the moonlight ♡ @BUKOJUIICE’S 2.3k followers event!

❝ 'Cause I never knew, I never knew You could hold moonlight in your hands 'Til the night I held you. You are my moonlight.❝

EVENT STATUS: [OPEN]

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to participate in this starry event, please scroll further down to read the rules and comply with it’s policies. so you may be given the chance to have a night under the stars. ✧

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༊*·˚ — the contents of this event are the following: I will be curating a spotify playlist specially catered just for you and your chosen anime beau or belle! Complete with your own playlist description and moodboard. (refer to samples at the bottom of this post)

༊*·˚ — All you have to do is send an ask preferably not on anon (although if you’d like you can remain anonymous! to those who will request through anon, please refer to the rest of the rules below!), your chosen anime lover, a “scenario” or “date” you’d like to go on with them, indicate your nickname/alias, pronouns, what you like about my writing, and your favorite color or aesthetic (if you want to be specific!)

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mull3ts · 4 years

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Ok errbody, it's the peachy family's or neocrackheads group chat's 2nd month anniversary 🍷✨

*insert wine glass clinking coz fuck it*

Peachy family in a nutshell 🍑:

We’re all just Pokemon that type like t h i s

LETTUCE BEGIN!

@nct127grass | GRACE! 😎

Oh lord- OK SO gracie sweetie ✨ hello :D aH yEs the first person to litterally type

"hey fam 😎" with that exact emoji

Grace, you've lingered on my blog for a while honestly ahEm ik what u be doin to the point where I can say: I've known abt your existence before the gc. You've honestly made me feel like I'm in middle school again saying "fam" and "dope" so congrats ✨. anYwhOdLeZ you're vv nice and could be one of the nicest people I've ever met 👀. You're always vv supportive and understanding so I thank you for that 🤧 I dAre to say that sometimes, you're like the internet sister i've always wanted 👁💧👄💧👁.

What remindes me of grace: earrings, plushies, sharkies, smuts, more importantly my smuts 😏, asks, anons, cute goth lolita kinda things, bangchan from straykids dont ask, wedding rings

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@sunflowerhae | GWEN! 👼🏻

Hai gwennie :D The time we evolved from ot4 to ot5, thank you for being our pokemon evolution 🤧💫

Gwennnnnn, you just keep it real 💅🏻. The owner of the "👼🏻" emoji 😔✋. Gwen legit, I love you death. (boop period.) (but i wuv all of you to death so,,, 😌). You're the only calm-ish one. And I also feel like you're if not ooper then kinda adventurous with your collabs and ✨jazz✨. And I vibe 🤧. I shant forget when the group chat was so heated on everyone's face 😌. In a summary: I wuv you gwendolyn.

Gwen thingz: tarot cards, the sun, the movie lolita, bright ass crayons, sunflowers, zenon the movie, yellow pencils

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@nanajaems0308 | JUJU!

Part one out of two for accepting them into the gc coz you think your kids know them 😌

Juju, hello :D. You were actually the first person that I talked to oUt of the gc, as in, sending eachother asks but them bAm we got discord 🔥. I've probably had the weirdest convos w you so thanks for accepting my "crackhead nature". and you're sucessfully my bro's favourite niece so congrats ✨ AND WE'VE TALKED AT WINX CLUB AND THE BARBIE MOVIES 😌✋ I FUCKING STAN. pLus you're on your way to becoming a comedic legend 😎 so in a summary: juju you're vv easy to talk to and you're ooper nice and i will deck any dood or woman or anYOne that tries to come @ you

Juju TiNgZ: my laptop 👁👄👁, my lotion 👁👄👁, haircombs, jaemin, seventeen's dino wtf ik , hulahoops, strawberries, the color teal or turquoise

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@kunswifegwen | GWEN/GGTRJ!

Part 2 out of 2 of accepting hoomans into the gc coz you assumes your kids knew them so you added them

GGTRJ HIIIII HOE~sOO idk if you count as my child or in law, but I'll count you as an in law just incase gwen and grace wanna adopt you 👀. anywaySSSsSsSs I distinctly remember having kinda of a awkward convo w you in the gc coz there was just a bunch of exchanges of "fam" and mOviNg oN. I'd be down to virtualy sip wine with you anyway fam 😎 you just give me those "clink clink bitch" sorta vibes. You've only been in the gc for like a month but whatever, wuv ya.

ggtrj tinGz: dilf jeno, pewdiepie, frogs, Lionel Richie, the titanic, Versace, that one juul ad i always see on tiktok, dinosaurs

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@huangvibez | Zainab

oMG hi! Lmao im sorry anywOdLez *iNhALe* an ot4 member 👁💧👄💧👁 hol up im switching tomy laptop coz tumblr's being wonky

oK IM NOW GOING TO MAKE THINGS SHORT SWEET N KINDA SAPPY

HAI ZAINAB you’re vv easy to talk to and I vibe w it. A moment I remember the most abt you is when I told you that Robert Paterson would yell at me if his ketchup packet was 1.4 ounces instead of 1 ounce and when you wanted to see a vampire fic and I told you I had a Jeno one and it still lays in my drafts to this day. Yeehaw wuv ya <3

Zainab tinGz: Zayn Malik idk, big time rush, blue pens, renjun’s shoulders, grapes, hello kitty lunch boxes, soccos, lemons and socks.

@bbjisungg | CISSY!

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oK sO,,,,we honestly don’t talk much but lEgiT i really don’t care tho coz I still wuv you thy talented child :D

cissy tiNgZ: grass, trees, basically pLants, bunnies, glitter, the we go up era, gummy bears

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@bbyyangiex2 | ELIE! 🍄

O heY elie :D sO Imma start off by saying that honestly,,,,you’d be gr8 friends with npc me 😌. She’s like me but only 4 months older than you 🤩. Anywhodlez let’s gOoOooOoo

oK so elie, you’re vv talented likE IDC WHAT OTHER HOOMANS SAY BUT I THINK YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. Like stop stfu- yOu cAnt cHangE mY minD eLiE yOure dOpe. Anywhodlez, I remember that one time although idk if you’d know but whAtEvEr. When we were dropping pics of ourselves and you suggested that i was like one of those ullzangs? idk, but then I got a pic of one and you didn’t question in so i was kinda sitting there like 👁👄👁 and proceeded to laugh my bOOty off. Dw tho, I still wuv ya sweetie, I wouldn’t question it either tbh ;-;

Elie tiNgZ: WayV, toenails, sprite, boba, matcha boba, any boba, eyeliner, the middle finger, roller skates, Yangyang, orange juice?, a kid that’s able to hold a convo with me even when you pee (if you know you know)

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OK SO mkAy peachy family! Hi it’s just mEeeeEeEeEe so in a summary I wuv you all...alot 💖💖💖

sincerely,

abi your resident milf <3

#peachy family anniversary #200812

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ullzang · 3 years

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make up for 6 hours 🇰🇷🇨🇳🇯🇵❤💚💜💙💛 @ulzangsdouyin _____________________ #mackup #mackupforever #tiktokjapan #tiktokcina #tiktokgeneration #tiktokkorea #tiktokphilippines🇵🇭 #tiktokmalaysia #tiktoksingapore #tiktokhits #ullzanggirl #ulzangboy #ullzanggirl #ullzangstyle #ullzangkorea #ullzangs #koreanhairstyle #koreanbeuty #douyinboys #douyinvideos #douyinvideos_黄明 #douyinvideos_黄明昊 #douyintiktok #douyinchinaboys🌈 #douyindance _________________________ 👥Enable notifications for all videos of this account. Support by following @ulzangstiktok thank you https://www.instagram.com/p/CPKOJP5HB1E/?utm_medium=tumblr

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frillypinkdreams · 7 years

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I think that's so great that you have the courage to change! What does that changing look like for you? What are you after?

Thanks! ^^ I guess I was just kinda fed up with a lot of my way of “being” basically. I am more mature now, more openminded about things I guess…. All of this kinda happend suddenly though so I´m still figuring things out. But I am more into styles like ullzang or larme-kei now, and I kinda wanna tone-down the whole “kawaii” aspect of everything. I don´t neccessarily wanna wear all pastels or surround myself with plushies anymore, and I feel like I am ready to try out stuff like going to parties (I feel more secure about my looks and I am more secure about my opinions and I feel more ready to take on the world without having to shut out everything and everyone because it makes me sceptical and I don´t trust them. I know I have deep issues with trust, but I wanna work with not just declining everyone off hand without giving people a chance. I suspect that last part will be the hardest. Now, in the beginning, everything is still new and exciting though, so I´m just literary re-inventing myself :-)

#answers #about me #personal text post #personal #text picture

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uyubs · 6 years

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Honestly I'm out of my whole fetishy kpop phase and thank fucking god because i see some shit thats hella embarassing!

#ullzang #like learn to do make up BEFORE you post a video #let it go sis they calling you nigger behind your back

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insolitus-academy · 7 years

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♚ // Face Claim of your choice

Full name Face Claim: Harry Styles

Group/ullzang/occupation: One Direction/Solo

Nationality: British

Faceclaim age: 20 years

♚ // Character ; The basics

Full name: Harry Miraear Althirn Styles

Nickname: Styles

Nationality/realm of birth: Realm of light

Age: 234 years

Gender: Male, but who really cares anyway.

Species: Wood elf/Cyborg

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual

♚ // Character ; The quick facts

Quote: “At night, when the sky is full of stars and the sea is still you get the wonderful sensation that you are floating in space.”

― Natalie Wood

Likes: Any large waters, gemstones, the silence of the stars, the sound of leaves being played with by the wind, the smell of autumn, a weak spring sun shining on your skin and the burn of alcohol in your throat.

Dislikes: Death as an occurrence as well as a creature, the very idea of being without water or trees nearby, souls that believe that there is right and wrong and nothing in between, locks that cannot be picked and pockets that cannot be rolled, small spaces and being locked in.

powers / specialty:

Excellent spacepirate; If you ask Styles himself he is the absolute best pirate around, but we won’t say that is true. Born and raised from tree right into the pirate life the elf knows everything about ships, looting, pick pocketing, lock picking and, of course, drinking.

Cybernetic implants ; Styles has implants that allow him to be more agile, strengthening the abilities he already had. He also has a sensor in his neck that has an unknown (to him) function.

Chatting with critters; It comes natural to the wood elves, talking to the animals around them. Styles is no exception, he is most fluent with birds and sea creatures, which should not be a surprise since he has been mostly on ships and living in trees.

Charming & a skilled liar; He has lied to more than he has been honest in his life. With twinkling eyes that seem to change from emerald to sapphire and right back again and a smile that kills he gets away with a lot.

Weapons; He is pretty damn good with his scimitar and cutlass. Yet even better with the bow and arrow, Not too big on guns and cannons however.

weaknesses:

Terrified of small spaces ; Once Styles was locked in a metal box and dropped to the bottom of a lake. He doesn’t really talk about it these days but if you have to believe the rumors he had been found in the room of an, engaged, daughter of a count. Long story short, he hates small spaces. More specifically, being locked in such a space. After his time in in outer space he hates being locked up even more.

Dead people make him shiver ; The elf is not fond of anything walking and dead. He won’t run away screaming but he will also try to avoid touching them. Lifeless bodies also scare him if he didn’t kill them himself, vampires and everyone else hobbling around after death make Styles a very unhappy elf. The reason for this is something he keeps silent about.

Electric charges ; Styles’ cybernetic implants are not a big fan of high voltage electric charges and can overload when he comes in contact with them.

Not that strong; Styles is perfectly able to fight, with a bow and arrow or with his scimitar and cutlass. He jumps from tree branch to tree branch to escape but if he is forced to actual hand-to-hand combat he will lose most likely (and try to bribe you to let him live).

♚ // Character ; The Villager

Job/Occupation: Bartender at “The drunken musica”.

Lives in: Vighulir

Lives in: Sunna apartment 1a

♚ // Character ; The Personality

Six personality traits:

Charming

Dishonest

Outspoken

Romantic

Persuasive

Kind

Personality description:

Styles always smiling, whenever he is angry, sad or actually happy. It is his way of facing the world, behind a cover of smiles and laughs and smirks and simpers. He lies, cheats and deceives. Nothing personal really, it is just the way he is raised, got by in life. The elf believes not in silly things like everlasting love if it is not as true as how his mom and dad are. And even that he doesn’t look for, he is still young and aren’t immortals forever young? He isn’t in a hurry for anything, as long as he keeps entertained he will generally be happy.

The elf might be dishonest but he isn’t mean, he can steal your wallet and still try to cheer you up when your girlfriend broke up with you. He will give his opinion but try to soften it if he thinks you are unable to handle the truth. Above all he tries to be kind to one another, if you are kind to him he will generally return the favor (unless you are dead, then he will have to try a little harder).

♚ // Character ; The Past

Has your character attended Insolitus Academy in the past?

Yes

Background:

It is a sunny afternoon somewhere in the summer months, a child is born with large eyes that shimmer both azure as cerulean. With pointy ears and already smiling, the simper would remain on those lips for the next 237 years to come. With some exceptions of course.

Harry Miraear Althirn Styles had been born in a family of elves that either became pirates or stayed at home taking care of newborns and trading with other families. he went with his mother on travels that included stealing gold from other pirates and terrorizing human villages for food and gemstones. The young elf decided that he’d rather be a pirate than stay at home and become a trader. So at the age of 53 he went out on a ship, without his mom or dad but with an uncle, to get trained as a pirate. His years as a young pirate went by fast, the elf had almost no idea he was already nearing the big one-zero-zero. That called for a change of pace. Styles left the ship belonging to his uncle and joined another crew, while his uncle only went as far as the oceans of his own realm, this ship sailed across all the realms. Demon, human and everything in between. Now this was a new life, one where he got to visit many cities, meet many wonderful people, escape many less wonderful people and every now and then he would return home to see his family and bring them back some precious, precious, gemstones (sapphires are his favorites by the way).

The story goes, when you ask Styles, is that he got kicked off the ship because he insulted a demon lord. Half of this is true; in fact he did insulted a demon lord but instead of being kicked off the crew was loyal to the young pirate and they fled together. However never underestimate a demon; for they are cruel and mighty. The demon and his minions came after the crew, slaying most of them before Styles fled; leaving the ship as the wood was soaked with blood and his heart filled with guilt.

Fast forward: Styles went to Vighulir, denying that the whole ordeal with the demons ever happened and lived happily for a while. Drinking, flirtin’ and fucking his way around. Not thinking anything could happen to him he even flirted with a high-ranking Ixtab officer that got a little too interested in his immortality. The elf did not see any harm in following the pretty girl up into space, not knowing he would be stuck there for over a year. Styles did not mind the experiments much but the fact that he had to give up fresh air for so long bothered him a lot. In the end the Ixtab went back to Insolitus and Styles, determined to find out what happened to his crew and if any of them are still alive, wanted to follow.

He is now back on Earth, still pretty much the same but with some new powers and a tiny sensor in his neck that emits light. He has no idea what it does but if his new (alien) Captain wants him to wear it, he will. What could possibly go wrong?

#Child of the light #Neutral #villager #submission #iacharacter

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zykjhrzqkn1h4m3xyine · 5 years

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1/01/2019

I’m sorry I didn’t write an entry for a while, but nothing actually happened just me sitting on my ass or on my bed using my technology, that’s just a couple of my days wasted. I’ll never get them back ever.

I think about all the happy memories back when Ameera, Ema and Gabby were my friends, to think that just 6 months ago, I sat laying in bed and thought to myself “This is the happiest moment of my life.” My friends genuinely care for me and love me, I have good conversations with my crush, I think he genuinely likes me back, and now half a year later, I don’t have close friends anymore, Alex rejected me. It’s all gone to shit.

I just wish I had a friend. I wish I had a kind family, who didn’t encourage me to stay friends with people who make me have mental breakdowns and make me want to kill myself. Now that I think about it, they’re not really all that deep to begin with, they’re just normal 8th graders. Shallow as fuck.

I spent New Years with my uncle and his girlfriend, I don’t remember their names. New Years was okay, I didn’t see the fireworks or do anything interesting at all, but at least I didn’t feel completely worthless.

Oh and also I have been using a skincare routine for a while now, maybe a week I would say? My skin’s looking so much better now, It looks clean and isn’t covered by pimples and red rough skin. I finished my toner today though

I’ve also noticed something, I get annoyed when people ask “Are you okay?” Even when I’m genuinely not okay like I feel like they’re saying “you look like shit.” I feel like it’s not okay to be not okay, It’s not okay to show your weaknesses. I don’t belong anywhere, the closest friends I have now is Richie, Blake and Lachlan, but I’m not close with them either. I just wish I was reborn.

I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live this life, as an unwanted disappointment. I want to be born in a rich family, with loving parents, friends who like me, to be pretty(or to look like an ullzang girl haha) and smart, and a nice life. But alas I have none of these things. I’m tired of using so many words to call Gabby, Ameera and ema, so from now on, I’ll just call them the three scrooges. Or maybe the big three from My hero academia? Actually, I will call them GAE, hell yes that’s the perfect name because they’re bisexual.) Okay so GAE hasn’t sent me a single text in about 2 weeks now, probably because they forgot about me. Or they just don’t care, or both. My heart sinks especially when I see Gabby’s name, probably because of two years trying to get her to love me.

I don’t feel hungry anymore, only peckish once in a while.

I don’t know when I got depression but I feel like it’s only been a while. I should check when I got diagnosed, Oh hey wow it’s actually been over a month. Time flies by when you do jack shit and so meaningless shit.

I wanna go for a walk, will update on how it goes. Aw man it’s late already, I wanna go for a walk but I don’t want to go with my mom, because the conversations I have with her are shit, first time it was just awful, No thanks.

I couldn't find my earphones, so I went to ask my mom about it, she said to use my headphones with I couldn't because I didn't have my adapter, my dad said to buy one in China, so I asked when we're going to China and they said it in Chinese, so I asked in English because then it's easier for me to process, they both got mad at me started talking really firmly to me and were scary, them talking over each other made it worse, I got really stressed out and ran back to my room and turned off my lights, because that was stressing me out to, I was breathing really heaving and a little bit shaky, but no I feel a lot calmer, now they're on the other side of the door. I'm still really uneasy, I guess I'm not going on that walk. I'll probably go buy it myself.

I really want my therapist to tell me to stay away from them.

I have a fantasy where they(GAE) try to talk to me and I say “Sorry my therapist says I need space from you guys.” and they’re like sad and stuff, I want them to see how much they hurt me. But knowing them, they’ll probably keep ignoring me as long as I ignore them, and that’s understandable, because they really don’t care about me. C’mon be realistic.

My mom just called me a rat because I didn’t want her to turn on the lights, it stresses me out and strains my eyes. I don’t like this. At least I feel less shit than when I was at school.

I hate depression, because it’ll fuck up any relationship chances, My depression while make me have doubts and be jealouse with serious FOMO, I’ll either hurt them, make them hate me or fuck us both up. Don’t date someone with depression, because it sucks.

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