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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year

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When I’m playing genshin, I’m mostly listening to either Paternity Court, or Steve Wilkos. Imagine the characters hearing all of the stuff and being so scandalized by the results and comments. Or being genuinely disgusted and heartbroken for the victims in more serious cases. I can def see a good chunk of them being invested

I don’t think I’ve listened to those yet! I do occasionally get on a true crime binge listen, however the weirdest thing my characters have heard has gotta be Game Grumps episodes or compilations lol

What if i listened to every season of Buzzfeed Unsolved.

What would we do then my Genshin characters, my people, what then.

I saw someone else write about this true crime documentary thing but they described everyone being pretty terrified or disgusted by the podcasts

Which I definitely think some would be literally horrified lmao

But also I think a lot of them definitely would be invested-

I mean shit,

you're listening to your God and they just start playing this like uncomfortably detailed intricate crime case/murder report???

I would be so interested in what kind of person they were, and why they were listening to true crime stuff,

so needless to say characters like Heizou and Yelan would definitely be into it, maybe Kujou Sara as well?

I can see Zhongli getting into it too and Raiden

I mean don't get me wrong plenty would be disturbed

like rest in peace Barbara 🙏

but like it would be fascinating to them too!!

cuz they don't know anything about our world so they could learn a lot about it thru listening to this stuff

tho it probably cause a lot of confusion whenever they hear things like phone or computer or car lol

you know stuff that hasn't been invented yet for them or there is no equivalent, but they

would deffo interrogate u about ur world when u get to Teyvat

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okay but on a more silly motherfucker note-

what if I was playing Game Grumps around them lol, would they be like oh my God our Creator has the best comedians or hilarious friends

like you know how a king has jesters? 😭

I feel like they would think that instead of a recording definitely, especially because most of these things are just people talking and not like, a speech or something

because audio recordings could exist for them, they would probably get it in concept, they do have Ley lines that do that afterall (and now Kameras)

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Omg,

oh no, would they think that you're getting these reports in person?? Or even like your SOLVING all these crimes??

esp bc I know myself and I tend to sometimes be talking to Genshin characters like,

"damn that's how he got arrested? How stupid he could've blah blah blah i sound like a hardened cop playing a gacha game lmao blah blah...."

it'd be so funny to see that one play out

when u get whisked away to teyvat and Heizou and Yelan are just:

"oh my God can you help us with all these cases we love your mind, or get your servants to help us?"

THEY WOULDNT EVEN BELIEVE U IF U TRIED TO BE LIKE "no no please ur the professionals idk wtf im doing guys-"

Heizou/Yelan: 🤨🤨

"likely story Most Honorable God, but we heard quite the fascinating theories just last week before u descended, hmmm...."

u cant win,

honestly everyone would probably just assume ur not only the god who created/built teyvat but also have a domain in justice, comedy or honestly whatever u be playing all the time, including music, people would definitely think ur a music god too

esp if ur like me and u just turn on a cool Spotify playlist while u play sometimes, like they've probably never heard so many radically different genres songs, and so many back to back

(could definitely see a myth about u having an immortal inexhaustible musician band that has access to all the songs of the universe that u make them play for you, once again, would be hard to deny bc that's a pretty accurate description of spotify lol)

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srry abt my ✨️ass writing✨️ anon!!

I am getting to these old asks so late I hope u guys r alright with getting answered so late, ya boy has been busy

Im busy partially bc i have a end of year art exhibition!

Basically at my university, if ur an art major, u have to have some of ur best work from ur time at university and display it in a Senior year art exhibition in the university's art museum! Its super cool! And stressful! :D!!

Anyway im so happy i have no object permanence bc everytime i open my drafts or my inbox, even the old asks :( , are a new surprise every time :D lmao

Safe Travels,

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♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

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magicwhiskers29 · 4 months

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So... Prime Season 3, huh?

I guess this is somewhere between an analyss and just general thoughts post. Probably too incoherent to actually be an analysis, but I just finished the season, and I'm going to talk about it.

So for this post? I want to talk about Nine.

Okay, so, yeah, Nine was FANTASTIC. His solo conversations with Sonic were brilliant, and so many of them hit so hard. His taunting of Sonic when Sonic first gets back to New Yoke is so good. Just. Wow.

"Don't you realise the power I have at my fingertips?" I love the delivery of this line. It isn't said as particularly menacing, as a typical villain line -- Nine sounds curious, really. Slightly irritated too, but he's not just raging, because all the time he's been convincing himself he hates Sonic, and that what they had really was just a lie. He wants to believe that so badly, because it justifies this, and what he'll have to do to Sonic.

We see things like Nine getting shocked, maybe even a bit upset, in episode 2 after noticing the citizens he's put in danger. His goal isn't to cause hurt, but he's just not above it. Despite it all, he trusts Sonic too. Trusts that Sonic will just keep everything safe, so he can do what he likes.

Later on, this even goes so far as he trusts that if lets the Shatterverse decay as far as it can go, Sonic will then come back to him, o save it, and give him up willingly. It's extreme, and it's villainous, but it's a gamble reliant on trut, and an understanding of Sonic's good character that isn't quite the same as just the 'You're like this because of guilt' type that he accuses Sonic of before this.

And oh. Oh. I cannot not talk about Nine and Sonic's conversation at the end of episode three...

SONIC: Ever wonder where we'd be if things had gone differently between us?

NINE: Not anymore.

SONIC: ...I do. All the time.

Nine: You had your chance.

Sonic: Right back at you, bud.

I really don't think just a transcript can do this scene justice, because the voice acting (aghghhhhh it's so good) and pauses in this exchange really give it life.

Despite what everyone says about Sonic, I think this scene really demonstrates that he does see Tails and Nine differently. He's clearly thinking of Tails when he asks about things going differently, because he knows a universe where things have gone differently, and Tails is his best friend, Tails his 'Always his wingman'. But it's more than that. He wants a universe where he and Nine are friends too. he says he's missed Tails so much, when he sees him again at the end. Nine can't just be a replacement Tils to him, but he still cares about Nine, because he knows the kind of person Nine could be.

He cared first because of Tails, and now because he believes in Nine. throghout the season, he always does. Even when he ahs to fight him.

And augh, if that "Right back at you, bud" doesn't half hurt... He says it so bitterly.. He admits here, that he wasn't all in the wrong for what happened. He has Nine telling him that he was cruel to him, that he used him, and he has everyone else telling him he was a fool to ever trust Nine, but he wasn't. He didn't listen, and that's what he later apologises for, but he wans't a fool for believeing in someone like Nine, and Nine just as much didn't listen to him. They never talked.

Nine had his chance to explain to Sonic what he really wanted. He didn't take it. this is on both of them.

Seeing Nine get all mad scientist at the slightest thing going wrong was fun, though, on a different note. I think Nine has always really worked because he's just kind of eerie. So much more jaded than Tails, so he often feels just sort of... off. So them leaning into Nine being kind of creepy like that was fun. Whilst still feeling a very Tails-y direction to tke villainy.

Alright, light note over. Sonic himself? Also fantastic.

Nine is right about his guilt, but he's wrong to call it Sonic's only motivation. He wants to save his friends because he cares about them, not just becaus ehe destroyed them accidentally before. But Nine has never felt like he's had anyone to look out for him like that before, so he doesn't get that. But Sonic sees Nine that same way. It's why Nine doesn't believe him when he tells him that. And it's why Nine is so eager to believe Sonic betrayed him, and is a bad guy, because he wants to reduce Sonic down to a guy that's just all about himself because that's easier to picture as the bad guy, easier to picture as the kind of bully he's always been dealing with.

But Sonic isn't that. Sonic is ready all season to die to save the Shatterspace, and that isn't just because of guilt. That isn't just because Shadow beat him around a bit and told him this was his fault. This isn't because he's seen the chaos that he's caused the alternate-universe versions of his friends. And isn't just because Nine told him that, once again, he hadn't listened.

No, Sonic can't fathom him having hurt his friends, and yes, he'd do anything to not do it again, but... He'd have done that before, right? His flaw was that he didn't listen to his friends, and that he didn't rely on them, not that he was ready to leave them behind, or that he wouldn't have given his life for them before. He was careless, but he always had a big heart.

Nine keeps calling him predictable, but he never predicted Sonic's biggest motivation, because he never wanted to consider what it was, because that would mean Sonic actually cared about him, and he would have to care if taking Sonic's energy killed him.

It hurts Nine to do that, in the end. It hurts him to have to potentially kill the only guy who ever did listen to him, and speak up for him. But he does it because, like always, in the end he does believe in Sonic.

Their hug at the end is very sweet. Sonic listens to Nine, and Nine admits that he can care, and does care, to Sonic.

Nine will never be, and would never have ever been, Sonic's best wingman, not like the Green Hill tails, but he could be Sonic's friend, and a very different kind of Right-hand Man.

If the ending was a tease for a season 4, I definitely hope we get a Sonic and Nine reunion in it!

#sonic prime #sonic prime spoilers #prime spoilers #sonic prime season 3 spoilers #sonic the hedgehog #tails nine #analysis #long post #whiskers rambles #I still have more to say about the season. so uh. Onto a new post!

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Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls, Season 2, Episode 10, "The Bracebridge Dinner", Part 2

You can read my previous reviews here.

I'd say someone needs to put Miss Patty on a leash, but she'd enjoy that a little too much. Down girl Down! My homegirl Paris is exhausted sitting next to Patty all night, having to hear about an elderly woman's insatiable cravings for young meat. She's also depressed because she was hoping to be sat next to Rory, the love of her life, but the stars did not align in her favor.

Michel is me during every episode except this one and maybe 5 others.

Dear God, Patty. He's spoken for.

My two favorite Party Poopers. (later after the dinner, Rory and Lorelai are in their room at the Inn). Rory: Have you heard from Dad yet? He usually checks in this time of year. Take a minute to dissect that sentence. Take 5 minutes, if you need to. Let it sink in. Crusty: "Is it December again? Golly, I almost forgot. It's that special time of year where I call my daughter. The annual Daddy-Daughter Phone Call." Lorelai neglected to tell Rory that Crusty "checked in" and invited her to stay over. Rory: Why didn't he ask me? Lorelai: He's pretending to be considerate by running it by me first.

Oh Rory, my sweet summer child in oversized blue floral pajamas. No. Rory: Why didn't you tell me? Lorelai: Because I have dibs on you this time of year, not him! I want to know what kind of strip-mall custody lawyer these two visited where they called dibs on their child lol

She also goes on to say "there's something wrong with that woman" (a woman she's never met, by the way). I am going to utter a very cursed sentence: "IN CHRISTOPHER'S DEFENSE" (*VOMITS*), Lorelai is acting like Christopher wanted Rory to live with him for 6 months or something. He asked her to visit for a weekend over her winter break.

Justice for Sherry, she did nothing wrong. Justice for all the women on this show whose only crimes were having questionable taste in men like Dean and Christopher and end up in the crosshairs of their jealous ex girlfriends or not-yet-girlfriends. Sherry did not deserve to be called "your stupid stepmother" (and understandably, Rory interrupts her mother's insane rambling to question whether Sherry has even earned the rank of stepmother yet)..Justice for Lindsay. Justice for Shane because Rory was nasty to her for no reason and because she didn't deserve to be brutally murdered by Jess and end up swan food at the bottom of the lake. (more on that in season 3).

Yeah, so nice of him to invite you to visit him once a year.

Whuuhh? Why? Can we have a Jimmy Mariano Vs Christopher Hayden Deadbeat Father Death Match? I'll make popcorn. Lorelai: Okay, maybe I was being a littttle possessive and insanely jealous of his pretty girlfriend. We love to see moments of self awareness here at TWWGG. Bless. Instead of weekly fundraisers to fix a bridge, couldn't they have used that money to pay for desperately needed therapy for Rory and Lorelai instead? During dinner, Richard accidentally revealed he was retiring and Emily didn't know and now they're mad at each other. They have a conversation about it that drags on way too long. I don't care.

Uhhhhh. I'm uncomfortable. Anyways

Listen to her. She may be seven but she's very wise.

Hi. Bye.

The wretched Forrester parental units. I will never forgive you for unleashing your demon son onto the world. NEVER.

Three guesses to what Butthead just witnessed. You're really gonna thin out your lips, get all scowly and constipated just because you saw them make eye contact across a room? Okay, it was pretty good eye contact, he should be concerned. In the beginning of the episode while Rory and Lorelai are building their snowman for the contest, their competition includes an advanced snowman sculptor who seems as if he was planted to throw the contest in his favor ("a ringer") and they conclude it would be impossible to win against him. Rory tells Jess about The Ringer on their sleigh ride. At the end of the episode, L&R notice his snowman has been destroyed. I never connected the dots the first dozen times I've seen this episode that Jess destroyed that snowman to help Rory win the contest. And that's why I love this show. You can watch it over and over will always pick up on something new.

(Want to know another reason this is one of my favorite episodes? Nobody gets mad at Jess or gives him any bullshit. The Chuck thing doesn't count).

#gilmore girls #lorelai gilmore #rory gilmore #jess mariano #literati #denise rewatches gilmore girls #gilmore girls season 2 #The Bracebridge Dinner

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mischief-lies-and-stories · 6 months

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Loki Episode 4 Coherent Thoughts

Spoilers for Episode 4 and before, obviously.

Christ, I have come up with ANOTHER fic idea that has to be posted before Thursday if I want it to be relevant for a little bit, and boy howdy, it is not short.

I think Sylvie got to Mobius. I'm gonna time it next time I watch it (and report back here when I do), but I'm pretty sure even if Loki and Sylvie's conversation happens at the same time as the scene in OB's workroom that immediately follows, there was still enough time for Mobius to look into his memories and get hot cocoa before. Even if he just finds files somewhere and tucks them away to look at later. [EDIT: YES. Sylvie and Loki's conversation in "pie land" takes about 4 minutes and 31 seconds. If we assume the hot cocoa machine takes 1 minute roughly, the total time he's with OB, Casey, and Timely plus that minute is 2 minutes and 42 seconds, leaving 1 minute and 49 seconds to do something that helps him figure out his memories. What that something is in that time, I don't know, but that's still almost 2 minutes of time unaccounted for.]

Listen, I know it's episode 4 so it's too early to be in pain. I know it. But goddamn I still feel bereft. That look on Loki's face that they left us with HURT MY SOUL. (And also I was there (kind of) for Supernatural at the very end and shit went down two episodes before the finale and DID NOT GET ADEQUATELY RESOLVED and I'm not gonna say I was traumatized because that's dramatic, these are tv shows, but I'm a milder version of traumatized. I've been burned by bad endings that started two episodes before the end before.) And I'm just really upset about seeing Loki in pain in general (don't get me wrong, DO IT, it gives me writing ideas and hurts really good, but ouch), and the comics seem to be implying some worrying shit coming down the pipe for my boi, so I don't like shit happening from both ends. I DON'T HAVE THE CAPACITY TO HANDLE IT, Y'ALL!!

I feel like we're going to restart the clock next ep, but I DON'T KNOW HOW WE'RE GONNA DO THAT. The Loom (or timeline, I'm gonna get to this thought in a post tomorrow) exploded without any time for the main six to turn back the clock.

I haven't talked about it much on here, because I don't want to address a rumor and I don't want to believe it, but I have been dreading episode 5 since ep 1 because of Mobius and the Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Spoiler. If you don't know what I'm talking about, I'm very suspicious of this rumor and also a little superstitious of looking at it head-on because I don't want it to be real, so unfortunately you're gonna have to go into the lokius tag yourself to see if you can find it. It might also be in the Mobius tag. There is ONE good-ish possibility for this possible spoiler if it's legit, and it would be that it might prove one of my theories (plus maybe something else if they do it justice, but I don't have too much confidence they will), but either way it kind of upsets lokius and I'm not thrilled by that. I have a theory that's coming tomorrow that could have this happen while still giving us lokius endgame, but given how much time is left in the season I'm not very confident so I'm just gonna sit here for the next few days and pray it was a troll.

Also: "oh no" is a code phrase I've started with my friends that has made its way into my personal reaction notes, and now congrats, you've been (unwillingly) witnesses to it now, too. It means "I am starting to ship this and I don't want to-slash-I know I shouldn't, but I am." And (yike) if you recall this showed up on the reaction about Sylvie jumping into the lokius bickering. I'M NOT SAYING that I ship sylkius. I'M NOT SAYING that I'm GOING TO ship sylkius. I'm just saying I had THOUGHTS when she did that and I didn't love the thoughts I had. I think episode 4 of season one was when I started shipping lokius, though, so...fuck. (It should be noted that 90% of the time I go "oh no" just in general, though, I forget about it pretty quickly afterwards, so statistically it's unlikely.)

#loki #loki tv show #loki theories #loki season 2 #sylvie laufeydottir #mobius m mobius #loki season 2 spoilers #lokius #loki 2x04 #loki 2x04 spoilers

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sophsun1 · 1 year

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Gale and Randy were really doing one insane sex scene after another in that first season 😭😭 But what would you say are the top 3 from s1?

Hey anon!

Listen Gale was not lying when he said that he dove in so deep, so soon, so quickly with Randy. They really threw them into the lions den and said "Here you are, now get to it!" in the first season!

They kind of covered this in the 10 year reunion panel I giffed (which if you haven't seen and you're a fan of qaf you should definitely check it out, it's so funny and such a joy to see some of the cast together. I adore Peter, Randy and Gale so it was like a dream for me to watch)

Gale talks about the logistics behind filming those sex scenes and how he kind of had to get into the right mindset doing them. They suffered for their art especially in that first season because apparently they had a terrible costume designer who hadn't quite worked out a comfortable and easy way for them to cover their modesty and they were gluing fabric onto themselves asdfgjhkdhd.

For us watching it's like a quick two minute scene but for them it's hours and take after take. You can tell he really, really cared about getting it right and getting the character of Brian to be an authentic portrayal of a gay man and what the writers had written for him. He talks about having gay friends who were out and some that weren't and even though he was straight he didn't want to get it wrong and not do it justice. No wonder he developed that really close bond with Randy on and off screen it absolutely helped with making it so believable along with their mind blowing chemistry. There was a lot of pressure on those two as they were the first pair to shoot the sex scenes and the writers were like "You're setting the standard for the rest of the show and the rest of the cast would be watching and taking your lead." type of thing. I mean we only got Justin topping Brian one time because Randy insisted on it so you know, it was a difficult process for them at times.

Also being arguably at your most emotionally and physically vulnerable, totally naked with a new co-star you've just met and having it all be filmed, whilst it's your FIRST tv acting gig - crazy.

Anway that was me going off on a tangent - sorry!

Now to answer your question there isn't actually that many sex scenes between britin in season one, surprisingly when you go back and watch.

I will always maintain that for me the scene in 1x10 in the hotel is the hottest scene they ever filmed. Again the first season y'all!!! The chemistry and sexual tension is literally on fire and popping off the screen. From Justin undressing them both to the soundtrack playing over them as they make out 🔥

The one in 1x04 in Michael's bedroom when Justin runs away and Brian is supposed to get him to leave and instead they fuck of course. Once again the soundtrack and music choice always adds to it- the qaf soundtrack is just the best. Plus Justin coming downstairs with that "I just fucked your best friend in your childhood bedroom face" is goals. Teen Justin ftw.

The one in 1x07 is the most graphic I think for the first season but the montage of Craig finding the picture of britin together with them fucking in the background. The writers really went for it.

Also I can't not give special mention the pilot episode. The perfect mix of comedy with Justin saying he prefers Cheerios, is allergic to Tylenol and then proclaiming he's a top and bottom who loves to rim. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Also that scene set the bar and they only got better as the show went on.

As much as a lot of the relationship had sex scenes in it, the chemistry between Gale and Randy and the story made it so much more. That's why I love them and why they are such an iconic pairing.

#britin #soph asks #sorry for the ramble but im incapable of being coherent about the show #qaf cast #brian kinney #justin taylor

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oozeofthecovenant · 9 months

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Plans and Sabotage

Leo is THE strategic genius of the gang. He has amazing visual imagery and he's great at formulating plans... under controlled situations. He likes to be calm, collected and in the lair when he formulates his strategies— it's where he thinks the clearest. However, the high-stakes nature of the situations they end up in causes him to shut down and be unable to make proper, rational decisions for his team...

...Which is where Mikey comes into play. As the team's second-in-command, he's always the person for Leo to fall back on. His ability to remain calm in chaos paired with his impeccable intuition skills makes Mikey very important when bailing the team out of whatever high-pressure last-minute sticky situation they manage to find themselves in. One thing that's for sure; when Mikey realises something is wrong, you LISTEN, or face the consequences.

Since they don't have time for him to explain his idea, the brothers can only trust him and hope that he's right; and to make things worse his plans are often so chaotic and nonsensical that even Donnie has doubts as to whether Mikey can actually pull it off, but they never have failed in doing so. Yet.

Donnie and Raph are usually comfortable with taking the sidelines, but that doesn't mean that Leo doesn't include them when strategising though, he needs them for other things and needs to know if they are willing to/can do it. Plus, they're family! Of course they're included!

Donnie handles nearly everything behind the scenes, since he is the weakest compared to his brothers due to his upbringing prior to being found by the Hamato Clan, he would always be placed far from the battle site when it can be helped. Don't be fooled though, he's usually the most important part of the whole operation; as the resident science and machines guy he's mostly responsible for all the tech involved in that operation, as well as a lot more others. He's occasionally the errand boy. While Donnie focuses on all of the technical aspects...

...Raph is always situated at the frontlines of battle. Being the most built paired with his special interest in boxing, sparring and all things battle?? This makes him the PERFECT person to be fighting in the frontlines, and he loves the job that he is assigned. Plus, whenever he feels like he's fighting for his family, he feels a sense of... serene.

However, Raph has a problem with controlling his temper. He's impulsive, and he has a strong sense of justice. Those three traits are a recipe for disaster especially when dealing with big bad people who are out to kill your family. He'll jump at them and once his sense of justice gets in the way of his rationality there's no stopping him.

Afterwards comes the guilt: After the rage episodes— often once they're safe at the lair, Raph would express intense guilt, apologising profusely to Leo for ruining his plan and always needing Mikey to save them. Leo understands and would respond with an "It's okay, you couldn't control it, I'll help you with it."

Raph is aware that this is a problem and has been trying to stop himself from losing his temper. He'd try everything under the sun to keep his composure but it's just so hard, especially when you're in a stressful environment full of people you detest who just made a threat to your family's safety, where natural instinct overrides everything you've tried to rewire about yourself.

And while Leo understands that Raph doesn't mean to do this, he does feel hurt deep down when this happens, since that was HIS plan that he carefully constructed, and yet it almost never works out. Sometimes, he doubts himself as a true leader because of this, and other times, he can fault Raph for ruining it. I wouldn't be surprised if he snapped at Raph once or twice for going off at the bad guys, or even hurting him to some capacity in a fit of panic, trying to stop him from sabotaging the plan he just constructed.

Leo would then realise what he just did wrong, and then feel guilty HIMSELF for his own panic/anger induced episodes.

While Raph is the main perpetrator for the group's sabotage, the others also do ruin plans half the time as well. Leo for one wishes he were Leos from other iterations: as disciplined as he wants to be, he's secretly a fun lover. Well, it's an open secret, his brothers KNOW this, and oftentimes use this to their advantage.

They tempt Leo, "ooo you wanna do something fun with us instead of patrolling for Splinter so bad ooo" and 9/10 times he gives in. Of course, this leads them to a lot of trouble a lot of the time. Leo's also known to ignore Mikey's gut feelings, because sometimes his feeling goes against what Splinter says, and Leo would always pick Splinter's order over Mikey. He knows the consequences, but he doesn't wanna disappoint Splinter. Mikey always has his "I told you so!!" moment afterwards.

Donnie isn't immune to this BS even if he's the most cooperative turtle most of the time. He's usually honest about his abilities, but sometimes ego can get in the way of what he can do. Especially after meeting the big shot scientists, like Honeycutt or Mr O'Neil, he tends to constantly try to prove his worth by overestimating his own abilities.

"Oh, er... of course I can hack into this never-seen-before Utrom security system!" and he ends up setting off an alarm. Most likely, Honeycutt would talk some sense into him after he finds out about this.

Mikey can screw up, too. He has ADHD and can be impulsive, so he's known to act against his own gut feeling when his heart overrides his gut. Having extremely high empathy, and just generally being a silly dude overall, he tends to drop any and all existing plans if there's a [perceived] life at risk. For example, a hologram injured cat. Even though his gut feeling is telling him that this is wrong, he could ignore it because he doubts his own intuition, refusing to risk a life just because "he got cocky with his abilities."

#leo #raph #donnie #mikey #idea

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nokingsonlyfooles · 1 year

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Woo, Autism is Coming for Your Kids - I mean, oh-no

I was just going to say something cute and funny about the societal model of disability today, but I read the news - oh boy - and saw this:

Autism now more common among Black, Hispanic kids in US

Note that the headline is "more common" and when you actually click the article says, "diagnosed more frequently" which is not the same thing!

So let me unpack this for y'all, if you've got the time, and the stomach for a little light discrimination, eugenics, and abuse.

Do you watch or listen to Well, There's Your Problem? Well, you should, but I have the 9/11 episode in mind. You see, about halfway through that episode, the gang find out Ruth Bader Ginsburg just croaked, and Liam... Laughs. He just laughs, like Mark Hamill's Joker, for a disturbingly long time, cradling the desiccated corpse of American Justice in his arms. He can't stop. He doesn't want to stop. Because if he stops, he'll have to think about what's gonna happen.

That is the noise my soul is making as I consume this article, especially this part:

AHAHAHAHAHAHA *gasp* AHA-AHA-HAA... Ahhh... I have some thoughts.

First of all, EVERYONE is fuckin autistic. OK? You can trust me, I'm an internet stranger. I've diagnosed you, I've labeled your brain, and that ink don't come off. Get on the goddamn short bus with the rest of us, we have seatbelts and snacks. (Full disclosure, I rode the short bus for a few years, it's actually not that fun. Kinda loud, 'cos there are people on there who don't wanna be there and can only express this by crying, moaning, or otherwise melting down. And you're not allowed off.)

That weird, inconvenient thing you do that helps you feel a little bit better and get through your day? Do people look at you funny and want you to stop doing that? Fuckin autism! You're SICK! Get on the bus!

Do you need a little help sometimes with something other people can't easily see and diagnose for themselves - maybe something a little less obvious than missing a major limb? Is it inconvenient for others to give you that help? Fuckin autism! Get on the bus!

Do you need to disengage and destress and do some self-care at times when it's bothersome to other people, or when you're supposed to be cranking out capitalist value in the form of labour or academic achievement? Fuckin autism! I'll save you a seat! You like the window or the aisle? Stop stimming, it makes the underpaid teaching assistant nervous.

Get out of the mainstream, lower your expectations (and your standards) and let us store you somewhere that's a little more convenient for all of us. It's not anyone's fault, there's just something wrong with you (OK, maybe that IS your fault, but it's not society's fault, that's the main thing). Just sit here quietly, accept it, and maybe you can have a juice box - if we can convince the government you're enough of a problem that we need more funding to deal with you. OK?

A spectrum does not consist only of the bright, obvious colours your eye picks up when we go out of our way to filter light through a prism. Some people are ultraviolet - so nonverbal and dissociated and disconnected from this broken world that their parents are using them like human Ouija boards to get the level of social interaction to which "normal" people feel they are entitled. And some people are infrared - they can navigate this broken world with little more than what it's willing to give them, call themselves "normal," and keep their discomfort internal. We teach those people they're not on the spectrum at all, and praise them to high heavens, so they'll see human beings in obvious pain who need help as lesser, "other," pitiable, and sick. Conveniently, it also makes them more likely to hide their pain instead of asking for help when they need it, so they don't become lesser, or "sick." Who wants to be sick?

So when I read that AP article, and my soul howls with crazed laughter, a small, optimistic part of me says: Yay. We're filtering more light through the prism, making prism access more fair, and starting to see just how many people would benefit from being treated with care and compassion - as individuals rather than cogs in a broken machine. Maybe, if we keep it up, we'll begin to understand that light isn't just those bright colours we can see when we press our thumb over the hose nozzle and break the spectrum into pieces. It's all "normal," it all has value, it's always been there, and it's not going away. It's not an aberration that needs correcting, it's just how the world works. Instead of "curing" it or ignoring it, let's work with it.

And the louder part of my brain, the part that is laughing with my soul, says: Oh, look! People noticed that gifted education is fucking racist, so the US education system has found a new way to medicalize being darker than a paper bag! They've turned up a few people who fit well enough on the short bus, so why would they stop there? Wow! Look at all these sick fucking brown people who are genetically disposed to autism! Oh, god, they're expensive. We don't need more! What if we establish some more immigration laws? Or maybe forcibly sterilize them!

Even the optimistic part of my brain can't help but notice the AP seems oddly disdainful of the fact that we've lowered the standards for "autism" from just the really inconvenient ones to children who would benefit from more time, flexibility, and attention. What? Are we gonna start adapting to the needs of children so they can learn and be happy instead of warehousing them all day in preparation for their eventual jobs and kicking out the ones who can't handle it? *rolls eyes* Gawd. Will the "woke"ness never cease?

Ron DeSantis defines "woke," as (I don't wanna look it up, I've cited enough things and I'm tired) something like "an awareness of systemic injustices." So, yeah, I hope the wokeness does not cease. And I hope we start meeting the needs of human beings who exist on this planet with the rest of us - with equity, equality, and no shame.

I just really doubt it's gonna shake out that way, and I can't stop laughing.

#autism #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #news #racisim #discrimination #us education #inclusivity #disability #medicalization #oh god no woke culture i'm so scared vote conservative and hold meee

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WACKUS. I know this is a little late but oh wait

ML EMOTION SPOILERS BELOW

Okay

So I know this is a little late but I saw you saw emotion and I saw feligami in emotion and now I am ALSO ALL EMOTION

You don’t even know like I am a person who has this like— idk, let’s just call it a weird kink okay, I just have this thing for when in a ship, Person A’s ex is similar to Person B.

i know it’s weird!! I swear I know!! 😂

But like I just really like it when it’s framed like, oh person A was attracted to their ex because they were like Person B. So it’s like, even before they met Person B their soul always longed for them and they were attracted to people similar to them.

And it’s not like I want this for ships who are each other’s first love, like I don’t say oh if only one of them had an ex just like their partner it would be better, no! It’s just that if one or both of them already have an ex, I like it when the ex is similar to their current partner— I give up it’s still weird no matter how much I explain it lol

You can see why I ship feligami tho lol like even tho Adrien and Felix are VERY different in many ways, I like the thought of them being different senti sides of the same coin, like Kagami’s being attracted to one senti twin when her true soulmate is really the other. Listen I know I’m weird shhhh

But then like IN EMOTION when Kagami thinks she’s talking to Adrien and says to Felix ‘lately you’ve become more how I wished you’d be, more assertive and brave’

Listen okay- I— ‘screamed’ is a word which does not do justice to the noise which ripped out of my throat. My head went blank.

Now obviously Adrien is a lot more emotionally mature than Felix, a lot more caring and compassionate and overall Good, yes yes I know.

But.

I like to think that Kagami’s ideal is actually post-character-development Felix okay. All the assertiveness and bravery, with some well-earned morality. Let me dream.

I’m sorry also for assaulting you with this weird kink ramble but you’re like the founding mother of feligami so it just seemed right 🤣

Also ur odnlb got me into it in the first place so really this is all your fault take responsibility

what a fantastic ask 😂 emotion is probably one of my all time favorite mlb episodes now! i'm glad it was as impactful for you as it was for me hehe 🪶

also, i see where you're coming from. the problem with adrigami's relationship was that she wanted him to be a certain way. but with felix, she liked him as he was from the start. i was screaming a little too on the inside, believe me.

as the founding mother of feligami, i'm beyond honored you came to share the hype with me. it is my fault, i take the blame. whether or not feligami actually happens now, i'm going to be thinking about your dated-the-wrong-version-first kink and screaming about every feligami crumb that comes our way 🐉🦚🐉🦚🐉🦚

#miraculous ladybug spoilers #miraculous season 5 #miraculous season 5 spoilers #ml leaks #ml s5 #ml s5 spoilers #ml spoiler #ml spoilers #miraculous spoilers #miraculous s5 #emotion spoilers #ml emotion #felix graham de vanily #kagami tsurugi #feligami #odnlb #one does not love breathing

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Devaluation and invalidation.

I cried myself to sleep last night and will probably do it again. I rescheduled my therapy appointment to next week. I am hopeful that this episode or phase will pass. Eventually, I can look back on it and figure out what triggered it. For now, I'm sitting here wanting to throw up.

I have a meeting in 15 minutes in which I will put on a charade to pretend that nothing is bothering me, my work has gone fabulously this week, and I am so strong. I'm all business. Truth be told, I am passionate about my career choice and it provides some relief. Still, there's an emptiness as I think about what it would mean to cocoon myself in work and school. It's easier to think and discuss a concept that isn't anchored in emotions and trying to figure out what someone else is trying to convey in roundabout ways so it's left up to interpretation.

I saw it. I read it. It's wrong and it's been wrong. I'm not surprised. As many times as I maneuvered myself into being an enabler under the belief that I was doing to the right thing to be supportive rather than be on the brunt of the anger, it only makes sense that I'd get to play the part of the fool again by joining the incinerator with the others. There are too many times to count that I let something slide despite knowing it was a lie and that it hurt me, but if I were to bring that up now that then reinforces the fact that I am a villain. That's where this almost always ends up. They're never going to admit to any wrongdoing, not when doing so is far more difficult than finding any reason to justify whatever was said or done. It's all or nothing.

Lately, it's as if everything I do is wrong. I'm supposed to know the ins and outs of all things, no matter the subject. What the fuck is wrong with you? Why is it that you can't get it right the first time? We know it, why don't you? Why can't you act, say, and do the things we expect from you? How dare you have any reaction to what you're told?

All I can focus on is my heart breaking. I grieve every day for so much of what could have been. If I've always meant so little to others, why did they bother with me at all? Why am I so inept at recognizing who doesn't care an iota about what happens to me or only cares to see that I take all responsibility for everything that goes wrong? I'm kept in the dark and fed shit, and then when I don't do exactly what someone wants me to do or I dare share my feelings/thoughts, I get the axe. Other people are worthy of redemption, grace, and honesty. Not me. And I'm so fucking stupid that I give out second, third, and fourth chances because I want so badly to believe that there is humanity in other people.

I cannot share my feelings with anyone else in my life anymore unless it's my therapist. What I've learned recently is that nobody truly gives a fuck about mental health and they will leave as soon as you mention any word of fighting a war in yourself. You're damaged goods. Who wants anything to do with garbage? Even when I was at my lowest and I put the gun in my mouth, I was still lower than dirt to them, all because I should have known from the start how to handle everything perfectly. I should have known it was time to lock up a box of memories of being repeatedly beaten, raped, and torn down, of not being wanted by my own dad, and being ostracized by my peers because I wasn't normal and I never fit in. There was never any justice. Why didn't the jury just say it outright that everything that happened to me was justified? I have tried so hard to be what everyone else has wanted me to be and I'm still rejected. They know. They will always know.

I have never felt more alone in my life than I do right now. All I've ever wanted was to be loved and valued and listened to instead of being so easily discarded, like I don't have any right to feel anything or be my own person. It will never be enough for me and never enough for anyone else.

#106 #jr #meltdown 3 #cw self loathing #cw ideation #cw sa

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It looks like every time I gain a sense of confidence, out the other end of the effective pipeline is another psyop all but explicitly citing this origin

Talking about that isn't just a truth where the channel will be taken down, again - I'll get *killed* over it! - but I can't manage to get myself to care about that

10/22 I don't know why it never occurred to me before I was just listening to the playlist of downloaded TRS freefag episodes because of the recent Israel happening, and it just hit me - when a leftie went semi-viral saying this country is not your personal church over Roe v. Wade being aborted, I got on them over that through this blogging, but you *should have* applied that to the memorials being taken down across the country for being "white" - this is not a playground for your personal beliefs, and I never said that

Update What I *have* said is that leftists know what they're doing wrong best, hence the principle of everything being projection at its root unless it's for something so basic, even they won't feel anything over it because it's simply outside the realm of acceptable thought and doesn't affect anyone. That proves true in ways I still don't know because I just don't understand them.

Update But, when you think about it, at core, it seems to be the leftists making the claim that all subject matter is ultimately the do-what-thou-wilt of white *men* just existing as doing their thing and nothing else. What is science? The scientific method, and it is obviously the leftists who are not doing it. (They make post-hoc rationalizations in the sense that atheist logic was called out as circular logic.)

I mean, you can easily discount that with, then why do you have things like Christian Zionism? They're obviously not doing it.

If it were the case that true conservatives wanted to justify their positions based on the mean or average of their population base, you would have to proceed on "people are idiots theory" as an apologist - that's not a good look.

As in "you can't have your cake and eat it too", you can't make the claim to being the one upholding the scientific method and not dissociate from the lowest common denominator of your base.

Update What it comes down to with people is, what leftists espouse is simply at too high a level to understand, hence rightists stating "I'm not reading all of that." What leftists type in their walls of text is what can be called *empathetics*, meaning if you had empathized with the lowest common denominator of their base, you wouldn't have had to work through all the logic and reason of their wall of text. It just would have flowed naturally, and it have been like, as with them coming up with it, you're just going down a slide from one end to the other as it is a natural conclusion. But you didn't, and so you rushed to the defense of "muh scientific method". Pleh.

Update One of the few on the list of ancient Greco-Roman logical fallacies used as a "claim to fame" by leftists, and the only one that seems to stand the test of time as part of their underlying mentality held against the right wing, is the "no true Scotsman" fallacy, which effectively says if someone takes an example of a misjustice (in social justice) and says that's not representative of our beliefs, just take them to such an event and show how some religious fundamentalist can go into their church, bring their conflict against someone over their prejudice as-is, and be *emboldened* by the preacher and such as that.

If that's what it ultimately comes down to, I've always lived in a place where people are actually self-aware when it comes to that. If that was all it was about, then that's because these people have just never even heard of it before

Update I know about this dichotomy that exists where leftists think it's either you're a fundamentalist on the "white" side, or you're not because you've already been visited by leftism. I don't know how to word the last paragraph in a way that doesn't play into this.

We're not fundamentalists; we didn't have to undergo deradicalization to do that. But this is a determinedly blue-voting county. The preacher I had was fiscally right-wing on account of religion and effectively has to work within this.

I really just don't get that vibe from that. I think, very subtly, the mentality was best encapsulated by a quote from one of our Boy Scout troop leaders during Philmont: "There are no bears here", which is a kind of rhetorical play on the fact that people were saying be warned, there were bears in Philmont

My own dad, being really into Photoshop at the time, made the edit to the trip CD, the man with the quote in the background with a bear edited in standing up behind him

Update Now, on a different subject, doesn't that sound like what "not all X are like that" implies, which comes from leftists? When you apply that as-is to the waves of migrants, does it matter when the overall quality of life's lowering is visceral?

And there's the question, which ties into something said just before - if it's the left whose lowest common denominator is actually unjustifiable even when it's their own argument that you can't defend yourself because of even an exception where people are so much as *exposed* (which applies *without* having to "put the square block in the circular hole" only in the case of dealing with feral migrants - the argument intrinsically *is* of the thought of having one of them living near your home, as it is.) They don't make the argument that it's "not so bad, you see" - they've leaped to putting black people and such above reproach. Why - even is that?

I was going to say, there may be deliberate simps, but I don't think anyone believes that.

Update Why is that? Well, at some point, according to most leftist narratives, there was a point at which everybody's worst traits were justified by the claim that it was just beyond reproach. Taking from the hot take (Imgur: The magic of the Internet) - it's like the only takeaway these people have is that they have to have any form of declaration of being a "have" as opposed to "have-nots" all to themselves. Of course, in Israel's case, they actually need to fight just to exist, because people living in these areas actively reject their existence despite and no matter how much Western power they draw from. It's a permanent process.

Update I've heard this said before, but I never really internalized it for what it means: all you have to do is shut off all the welfare, and the thing starts to dissolve. But I don't think anyone really planted that for the foundational thing it is, where you can parallel that fact with Winston Churchill's quote that where Hitler went wrong was that he denied the bankers their profits.

Update Is what I've implied true, where the political pendulum has swung so far the other way that Martin Luther King's own words can be used against him, with "I look to a day when people will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character"?

Probably not, but I'm going to try to square that circle anyway

Honestly, with the way politics is understood, that might as well be the summary of his leaning, even if it isn't.

Update And in that sense, isn't it ultimately projecting, that liberals find it their ace in the hole to get a white man fired from his job? They think these positions are really just welfare programs.

And there's some irony in that, because that's what diversity hires are.

And if you're thinking, no, I'm having to go out on a limb for every point I get to, take this into account

BlackRock CEO talk about 'forcing behaviors' may explain why 'woke' runs amok today · American Wire News https://archive.ph/wip/JJkft

""Behaviors are gonna have to change," Fink insisted. "And this is one thing we’re asking companies — you have to force behaviors, and at BlackRock, we are forcing behaviors.""

The only common thread here with the leftist argument is the cynical take - 14.2 Million Americans Work in Infrastructure. What Does That Mean? | Brookings https://archive.ph/wip/wKpL4

"Eleven percent of the American workforce is employed in an infrastructure job."

Update Honestly, I don't think anyone actually asked the question, couldn't the Rothschild-like families take the avenues they're gaining artificial profits from like African blood diamonds and trafficking in Haiti and exist autonomously by net gain?

I think I already used the Bug's Life villain quote before. That seems a little too convenient here. There's got to be something more.

Update Going all the way over lost sources of profits to our terms would be pure "asses and elbows"

Update The quote in context is presented in such a way that it's like it's the "straw that broke the camel's back" - imagine there being a country that did just that, shut off the central bankers' profits, and did *not* incite battle with all their neighbors

Update And honestly, when you put two and two together when you've heard that Europeans, unlike us Americans, have a more innate natural tendency to be against the conniving ways of the jews, probably inherited from Medieval times, why *would* Hitler find it in him to incite battle with all the neighboring countries?

Update I say this because that thing I heard is the reason given by someone who seemed to be "in the know" about these things that Europe has so much scaled-up online censorship compared to we in America - when you actually get to think about these things, you realize the two are running on opposite premises

All I can say is, if Weimar Germany is all Hitler lived through, going through a stage of his life homeless no less, that's all the world looks like to you. Also, most people haven't heard of what Weimar Germany was.

Update Because "Kapitulieren? Nein" as propaganda *definitely* entails starting shit with everyone surrounding you - and in fact, that's what the neighboring countries could have took ahold of given the fact that Germany was occupying everybody

Update And for all the disclaimers of National Socialist Germany on /pol/, no one really hits the road with the meta-religion of Christianity when they bank on whether or not it was denounced by them. When it comes down to reviewing things like this, it starts to become evident that the approach of being a shining light on the hill was not their foundation.

Shills are brainless (L O L) Honestly, and it comes down to "you just had to empathize" with them - if they had done that, given the gap in the culture between them and right-wingers, they would have accomplished their goals through taking their own advice and re-interpreting their leftist dogma into terms that we can understand - but they didn't do that - in that sense, they're truly dumb as a rock

What people go home and fuck their wives that legitimately said "we're going to square this circle all day"?

10/24 From early on in the wix blogging, there was an upload of a pink-lighting liberal lady going crazy. She started out with "I'm *terrified*", and then escalated from there until she completely blew up and then started raging too. When it comes down to the kind of addresses I was trying to make yesterday, what this is with the pink-cam liberal lady is of their argument, why do you have this phobia of us But this is representative of such a small portion of the actual population; these are what have been patently called the "liberal lunatics"

Update Are we really going to get through this before our kids' generations are dead of old age too?

Update There *is* theoretically a giant gap here - you can't definitively say that there isn't phobia from our side because, as people on our side have established, mob culture today is real.

Oh wait - isn't that the equivalent of what leftists imply when they say they can't stand the existence of *one* religious fundamentalist, like their influence alone is going to cause the mob in the town to come out ganging up on them? Well, that happens in real time with modern mob culture.

I think what really needs to be maintained here is that despite any flaws, never once has the right wing in recent history come down to the foundational accusations the left makes of us.

Update Compare what "the left are the real racists" is to that. That argument, quoted from neoconservatives, makes no acknowledgement of fundamentalism at play with the left. It's just a formatting to conversationalism, as in "you think I'm bad - don't get me started about this guy!" Does conversation flow from this? Does it really? Whites in their own self-defense are globally the most hated by everyone. Everyone will abandon this conversation who isn't a shill for its own side like you inevitably are, in an echo chamber. [And then like all the others, you'll wax the time away by your virtual campfire-side conservations until the day even your kids have died of old age with nothing happened (that's what they do!)]

And also, that meta-game to the neocon argument of "you think I'm bad - don't get me started about xyz" - that's in reality (as it is in play in real time) the leftist argument once it comes down to the simple fact that it, in that instance, has become undeniable that they are the fundamentalists. Leftists just have to point back to Hitler.

It seems like the term "meta-game" has only just recently existed, not existing eternally prior. What are we to do with this

I don't know what it is about all this. The meta-game of political arguments always boils down to what applies exclusively with the parties inverse - it's to be assumed it's universal when the Bible says "judge not, lest ye be judged", but this is a little simple in the head

For most conservatives, my take would be okay, since I can't do anything to convince you of your inadequacy otherwise, you just sit there by your campfires conversing, and the world will burn down around you. And they of course will just say fine! at least I had all my shit together

You'd think you have all this *manpower* around here, and it all goes toward being *stinky*

Update after sleeping My policy is that we absolutely should be sending foreign aid to Gaza

10/25 near morning I'm the butt end of every meta-game to society that has ever existed. I'm getting bored, and I would rather die than be conformed to society, because that means assuming an identity I'm not

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The Witcher S3 Ep4: The Invitation AKA I Was Definitely Not Prepared

There were moments where I had to fully pause the show and collect myself. Because I knew I only have 2 episodes left and there were a lot of things that hadn't happened yet. But I still wasn't expecting them to happen all at once or send me on that wild emotion rollercoaster

Is Emperor CreepyDad just like this with everyone? Just stolling into Cahir's room while he sleeps and eating his food. Boundaries dude.

Aww, Cahir actually cared about Fringilla? That's sweet. And misguided cus she didn't give two fucks about him

Also, Cahir's been back in the good graces for at least a day. Can't we get him some time to clean up? Greasy hair and a dust-stained shirt aren't exactly courtier attire...

Aww, poor dear is having a crisis of faith. You shut the fuck up with your shitty advice CreepyDad. He needs guidance and help

Excuse you Artorius. Yennefer is a gift and you should be grateful. What, pray tell, have you fucking done lately to fix anything, besides sit around moaning about it all with Stregobitch?

"No more secrets" is a tough, possibly impossible, ask.

Also I hate that it's still The Brotherhood when at least half of them are women. And this weird vote by banging, which is new?

You would know all about that, wouldn't you Geralt?

Those are some dramatic-ass invites. I respect it

She's right Yen. You are good at this stuff

Triss is right to mistrust, but I'm worried for her investigating

Triss and Istredd? Not a pair I would have thought (and I suppose technically it's pair the spares) but it actually makes a load of sense, romantically or otherwise. I'm here for it

That's an interesting theory. A wrong one most likely, but interesting. And might put you in the right direction at least

Ooh here we go. This is The Episode. I'm not sure I'm ready, but I'm so ready

Don't forget, Ciri's granddad was from Skellige. She knows the sea (I almost did)

Jaskier's little perched pose and expression. He is loving this, and subtly egging the pocket-sized princess on

Hold on, I gotta put everything down and prepare myself. The moment I've dreaded and been waiting for...

He comes with backup singers?! Why didn't we collectively think of that? Of course he does!

His troupe are all much prettier than him

Are we still doing this between the two of you, Yen? It's just very strange and bordering on petty in a way you aren't usually

Oh right. I forgot the Queen of Redania was assassinated by "Nilfgaard"

Of course you and Sabrina knock boots and get along. You're both egotistical bitches who I want to like (but at least in her case I just can't. You still have your chance)

Vengeance, not scorn. Justice and Vengeance are two sides of the same coin.

Aww. Proud Dad

As much as I know this is important, I really want to know what any of Vizimir's half-comments in the background mean/the context where they make any sense

Hah! Outplayed the spies, nicely done Yen

These dramatic fucks. I think the whole band is "Valdo Marx" like Bon Jovi. That's what I'm going to run with.

Maybe listen to the professionals next time, Boris

Looks like all that obstacle-coursing with Lambert and Coén paid off

What and who the fuck was that? Because I am going to personally fight them

They got what they wanted from her though, in a way. Ciri's location is "with Geralt"

"Be careful who you trust" she says in front of the snakiest witch they know 🙄 I thought you were supposed be smart, Triss

Oh Ciri, you and your moral compass

Fringilla looks good with this vibe and crowd. Happy and free works for her

How is the bartender not noticing this?

Why are boats the interesting part?

Aww bonding time! I love Jaskier and his goddaughter/niece mocking her parents. 😂

And that they've finally reunited, but I do kinda want to know what was actually said to lead to that "sag into a hug" moment

Oh Jaskier, surely someone warned you about playing games of luck or strategy against Cirilla of Cintra, an absolute shark in the streets of her youth

Aww. Jaskier 🥺 that was really sweet. And probably exactly what she needed to hear. And then topped with a lullaby? I can't

Radovid, what are you doing?

The fact that Jaskier knows he's not a fighter, but is fully ready to throw himself into danger to keep it from Ciri, even for an extra moment. And risk his prized possession as a weapon. 🥺💖

Oh. Oh! I didn't realize this would be in the same episode! Oh god! I'm not prepared for Emotions!

"The only good part of this mess was meeting you." Bitch you can't just say something so gut-punching like that.

🥺😭😍🥺 the gifs were nowhere near enough for this. I need it seared into my brain. The emotion in their voices, and in their eyes, the desperation and terror in their breaths. It's all...perfectly heartwrenching.

I believe now, more than ever, that this is going to hurt Jaskier in some way, and that is going to break me. I would almost rather the strike against the show for "Bury Your Gays" and killing the Princeling than have him betray Jaskier

Careful Dara, speaking up apparently is a good way to get permenantly silenced around here

She's not wrong Cahir...you have proven fairly unreliable

What's the mission? Why won't you tell us?

Reinforcements? Are Philippa and Dijkstra planning to attack the Conclave? And if it's taking their messenger 2 days to get there, how are they getting back by first dawn? Not that they're getting there at all now, but I want the deets of what the plan was so I can decide how stupid it might have been

I support Geralt's plan. We just stab the shit out of Stregobitch until he stops smirking, or wasting oxygen

What the hell is Philippa wearing? And Triss's hair...

Ooh I love these parallel pairs plotting. But it makes me think Stregobor also has a second. It might just be Artorius but...I have my doubts

What is Tissaia unsure of? Not the conclave she's been so passionately backing, right? But what else is there?

Yen looks gorgeous, and I like that it's drawing from Anya's heritage with her hair but I don't know if I actually like her outfit. It feels out of sync somehow

Holy cliffhanger Batman

#Shye watches The Witcher #semi-liveblogging #The Witcher season 3 #The Witcher season 3 spoilers #Netflix The Witcher #ugh. the episode ends on a proper cliffhanger #and I have work tomorrow so I am already up past bedtime #I don't wanna wait :(

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an ethics of dying mad about it (Jetrel, s1 e15)

Welcome back to this queer Star Trek blog that is also secretly a humanist theology blog! Today it is not my fault, because we are talking about Jetrel.

A truth I brought to this episode: I do not believe in forgiveness. More correctly, I think there are like twelve different phenomena that we label forgiveness and the whole thing is a linguistic confusion. Let us indulge in a taxonomy!

Five ways to forgiveness:

Someone does something shitty. It's not a big deal and you let it go. Relationship is preserved.

Someone does something shitty. They make amends and you let it go. Relationship is preserved.

Someone does something shitty. They make little/no credible effort to make amends, but you let it go. Relationship is preserved.

Someone does something shitty. They make little/no credible effort to make amends. You end the relationship (or enact other consequences), and you forgive them.

Someone does something shitty. They make amends. You end the relationship (or enact other consequences), and you forgive them.

So what is forgiveness? Like a bad Supreme Court justice, let us inquire into its etymology. The word seems to have a legal origin, in fact - literally giving up the right to collect a debt or enact a punishment.

There's so much to unpack here! Is forgiveness transactional? Is it still "forgiveness" if the offender made full amends, i.e., has paid their debt to the best of their abilities? If the wronged party asks for accountability and consequences, what's left to forgive?

Jetrel is such a compelling episode that it's almost beyond summary. Ethan Phillips is at his absolute best, his performance and the script imbuing Neelix's character with welcome complexity. The episode unfolds organically, telling the story of a war crime with familiar contours that serves as the jumping off point for a narrative about trauma, guilt, and repentance.

I really liked these two men's parallel stories. Neelix's anger is paired with shame at being a deserter; he's vulnerable and struggles to put his experiences into words. Jetrel wants to right the wrong he's caused but still finds ways to avoid taking responsibility, speaking of his duty to science and drawing a false equivalence between his losses and Neelix's. He's absolutely credible as a powerful scientist whose ethics are warped by his positionality; no apology he can offer will satisfy.

Reading over the script, I'm surprised to find that the word "forgive" appears only once in the context of Neelix and Jetrel's relationship. Kes doesn't suggest that Neelix forgive Jetrel, but that he deal with his anger.

"But was it really Jetrel you're angry with? Is he the one you blame for what happened?" she asks. When Neelix says he can't stop hating him, she concludes, "Maybe you have to stop hating yourself first."

Kes's theory of anger is a common folk-theory of blame and forgiveness, and not one I have much time for. There are a lot of reasons we hang onto anger, but I'm not sure I'd characterize self-hatred as one - helplessness, loss of control, is more to the point. Anger can be corrosive, but it's also a proportional reaction to a continued wrong, and accessing it is often key to moving forward.

Obviously, I'm troubled by the end of this episode. Does Neelix's empathy for Jetrel necessitate his forgiveness? Does he even have standing to forgive Jetrel? To me, the question of forgiveness is so much nonsense - the debt can't be collected, and there's nothing to be salvaged between them. In this situation, I'm not sure what forgiveness is, except... vibes?

I was mulling over this question when I happened to listen to a podcast episode featuring the theologian Matt Potts, who has recently published a book about forgiveness. I haven't read the book, but the blurb summarizes his definition of forgiveness: "It is an act of mourning irrevocable wrong, of refusing the false promises of violent redemption, and of living in and with the losses we cannot recover."

Forgiveness as mourning ritual is a concept I can wrap my head around, and something I think the last scene of this episode embodies, even if it doesn't quite have the vocabulary to express it. Forgiveness as mourning ritual acknowledges this: that the bad shit we do lingers, immune to apology or amends. Any debt must be reckoned in a currency none of us has access to. We can't fix things.

And there are, after all, a lot of things that are not forgiveness. Neelix does not allow his anger to wreck his life. He does not throw Jetrel out an airlock. If forgiveness is "not throwing people out airlocks" I can generally get on board, at least much of the time.

I don't think I'll be making reference to this flavor of Christian forgiveness in my daily ethical calculations. It's one thing to acknowledge the profound brokenness of human relationships, another to get on with the business of actually relating to each other. If I was going to embrace forgiveness, the pragmatic Jewish approach gets a little closer to my views.

But on the whole? I think I prefer to die angry. 4.5/5 Wikipedia philosophy articles.

#star trek voyager #star trek #neelix #forgiveness #science fiction theology corner

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i just listened to the you're wrong about episode on the uruguayan flight crash and it made me weep tbh it was such a beautifully human story and i think they really did it justice in the way they told it

god yeah ❤️ that episode plus the ones on the dyatlov pass incident and the donner party really rewired the way i think about wilderness/survival horror

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Hey, pretty sure you saw the news about the pilot orders on the 'you-know-what' network. Just wanted to check in and ask a few questions since you're one of the most knowledgeable people in the fandom (especially when it comes to television - I've learned a lot from your posts 😁)

Anywaaayyy... I'm just gonna list 'em out below one by one to make it easiest. Feel free to respond in public or in private your call:

1) Seeing as how Nexstar is now the majority stockholder of the network (or on its way to being), when these new shows premiere is the boycott still in effect? Because it looks like there's actual thought being put into what's being renewed or ordered (at least in terms of audience... Winchesters will focus on teen John and Mary, Gotham Knights and Justice U are either teen or college age, Powerpuff Girls and Zorro are young adult age, rumored All-American spinoff; only show targeting a possible AD2554 audience and not 18-34 seems to be W: Independence). If the boycott is still in effect, would this affect chance of renewal for The Winchesters? Or would it be a "watch and see but don't do any socials for it?" Or does it get pushed off onto HBO Max even if the show is watched but the network still fails?

2) Just because there's a pilot order for it, do you still think the W:I spinoff has more legs than it did the last we heard about it? At least the plot summary seems long enough that it'd need 2 napkins to hold lol. And, despite it paining me to say it - the plot summary for it does intrigue me, as it seems like they listened to some of the criticism (a more interesting overarching mystery, not being based on stories of kids being locked up). Then again, it's only a summary and there are still ways it can go wrong, especially if they don't do their due diligence when depicting native american characters (which, given the network's history with diverse voices, seems... something to definitely to keep an eye on). Also is it too early to start fancasting? Gen for the widow and J*red as the rogue 🤣

3) Is this like most other C-space-W orders and renewals where it's just throwing stuff against the wall to see if stuff sticks (which is why the W:I prequel got pilot greenlit if it's barely that far along) or do you see this as something with deeper impact as all the stuff that got ordered was either related to its old cash cow or its new money makers?

4) How insufferable do you expect *that* splinter of the fandom to be now that there's a W:I announcement? Also, if this prequel does come to order, do you think they're gonna take the L on the original series after season 3 and maybe tie the two together for a syndication deal (even if the prequel is only 1 season, they can probably meet the syndication 100 episodes between the two, though I doubt that's a legitimate way of getting to syndication).

5) Your odds on whether the prequels are gonna air on the same night, with W:I getting the 8pm slot with the Winchesters getting 9pm (W:I being first on the call sheet, in a sense 😉).

Thank you!!

1) I was already considering how to reroute the boycott into targetted demand, to be honest. Forcing a crash-and-change was the entire point, and learning what to support once Nexstar was officially in charge is the way to drive decision making in the future. The AA spinoff is more than rumored, it got a full announcement and panel. Honestly, the drive would ofc include supporting the WInchesters, and other shows doing things right. We can't decide what all that is, but for example Nancy Drew needs some live support even if its digitals are great. Now is the phase to start telling the new decision makers how to do it RIGHT, and that's just as much by demand. Make Nexstar start getting views and making money. Whether HBO orders it if CW goes under is in the air, but they can probably make CW last until at least 2024, and if it stops fucking itself, as fa ras 2026 or 2028.

2) Not really. The napkin thing was proverbial, there's a reason I mentioned Kripke's five year plan in comparison. Notice it's a very similar level of treatment. Same thing. Now they're saying "show us what that looks like." -- still not gonna support it, sorry. Not about to make the CW lean back into that aged demographic when it has decisionmakers able to do better.

3) Well this isn't a CW order, that's an error in reporting. While I'm sure they're coordinating with the CW, CBS has put in to order Independence to pilot and WB has put in to order Winchesters to pilot. Their child company is not yet involved beyond the standing episode commitment for the Winchesters, but the episode commitment is contingent on WB's moving forward. However, with Winchesters making it to pilot, that means as long as WB likes it, they show it to CW, and then CW basically auto-orders it to series, and fulfills the commitment. The order will be somewhat different with Independence and the others, but Independence is at least Optioned, so similar. Not as deep as an episode commitment but kinda owning the rights to the rights, so there's interest, but they can sit on that and hold that longer.

4) They're insufferable every day. Who cares? But yeah, I went over things like the "Taking the L" over here (x)

5) Yeah, I doubt it. They'll want to try to pose it as a money property and spaced out. Frankly I consider the spinoff more likely to be a summer show for next year, but we'll see where that shakes out. But otherwise Jared's gonna be double working his same writers and crew in the same season. Meaning they either need to be different airing seasons, one cancelled, or a bunch of exhausted and distracted creatives all around.

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YOU'RE AN AVENGER, A DEATH ANGEL. YOU KILL PEOPLE WHO ASK FOR IT, WHO DESERVE TO DIE. YOU'RE A WATCHDOG, A PROTECTOR OF THINGS DECENT. YOUR COMFORTS ARE SACRIFICED FOR EFFICIENCY -- YOU CAN'T DO WHAT HAS TO BE DONE WITH PEOPLE MOANING AND CLINGING TO YOU, YOU CAN'T STRIKE WITH POSSESSIONS WEIGHING YOU DOWN. YOU HAVE A CLEAR HEAD AND NO REGRETS. YOU CAN TAKE OUT ANYONE BECAUSE YOU'RE STRIPPED DOWN AND YOU DON'T DEPEND ON OR TRUST A SOUL. YOU ARE EFFECTIVE BECAUSE YOU DON'T LOVE ANYBODY OR ANYTHING. YOU'RE A ONE- MAN FORCE, THE PERFECT INSTRUMENT OF DESTINY.

– "INFLAMMATORY ESSAYS 5" by Jenny Holzer

(this is a companion piece to Love and Belonging, my early drama light analysis! [LINK] i heavily recommend reading it before continuing this analysis, as i reference events and ideas explained in that post.)

in my previous analysis of drama light, i focused on the events that led him to become the man we see in the beginning of the drama: a gentle, kind man who is underachieving but still brilliant, who takes a maternal role in his household after the death of his mother. This is all crucial to understanding Light’s character in the drama and how the events leading up to him becoming Kira change in line with his altered characterization, but that analysis only barely skimmed the surface of Light’s character development throughout the drama, and especially after L’s death.

the drama fandom--including me!--is somewhat guilty of making blanket statements about drama light’s morality as opposed to his manga counterpart, that drama light is kinder and gentler in comparison to manga light. this may be true early on, but i would argue that as the series progresses, drama light willingly and deliberately throws away his love and humanity just as much--if not more!--than his manga counterpart.

to understand what i mean it’s important to compare light’s relationship with his father between the adaptations.

in the manga, light grows up idolizing his father, loving and admiring him and wanting to follow in his footsteps as a police officer. his morality that leads to him ultimately becoming Kira comes from Soichiro, as does his dissatisfaction with the world as he sees his father work himself to the bone trying to eradicate crime that seems to never end.

there’s a lot more that can be said about the nature of their relationship and about how Light desperately seeks his father’s approval, but instead of typing out an entire analysis i’ll link you to this post by tumblr user mikami [LINK], which is a very good analysis of the two of them in the manga.

conversely, in the drama Light begins much the same, but Soichiro choosing to chase a criminal instead of being by his wife’s deathbed--leaving his children to witness their mother’s passing alone--strains Light’s relationship with him. Light has much of the same morals and worldview as manga Light, but now believes that his father’s morality is more or less worthless, since he had to give up his family to pursue justice.

Light: When my mother died when I was a kid, my father was off chasing a criminal… I thought my father’s form of justice couldn’t be worth much, if he had to sacrifice even his family to see it through.

– Episode 7

however, it’s important to note that while Light is cold with his father and resents his occupation, that does not mean that Light does not still love and idolize his father. he wants his father’s love and support, and he cares as deeply for him as does his manga counterpart. in fact, drama light only becomes kira out of a desire to protect his father--after his first, accidental murder, he throws away the Death Note and tries to forget about it. however, his father is taken hostage by a criminal who intends on seeking revenge for Soichiro putting him in jail years ago, and Light is forced to retrieve the note and write the criminal’s name to protect his father.

[photo: a zoomed in shot of the Death Note. Light is writing the name “Otoharada Kuro” in Japanese. the penmanship is shaky and nearly illegible from how hard Light’s hand is trembling.]

– Episode 1

Light is literally shaking with terror as he writes the name of the man about to kill his father.

and this is not something Light does lightly--after he saves his father and it’s announced that Otoharada is dead, Light is absolutely stricken with guilt and horror for murdering two people, including the man who was about to kill his father. he saved his father’s life at the price of another, because he loves his father--and his entire family--very deeply.

it’s also worth noting a slight difference between the manga and the drama; after the mock execution, drama Soichiro admits that he believed Light could be guilty and was prepared to die. Light--who at this point has no memory of being Kira and thus completely believes himself to be wrongly accused--does not blame his father for not trusting him. Light, who desperately wants his father’s approval, does not blame him in the slightest: instead, the subject of his anger is Kira himself for putting Soichiro in this position and making Soichiro suffer.

Light: I… I hate Kira. Kira, who made you suffer this way… I hate him so much. Soichiro: Light… Light: Please catch him. I believe that you can catch Kira, Dad.

[photo: Light and Soichiro in an abandoned parking garage. the two of them are crouching beside Soichiro’s car. Soichiro is hugging Light, who weakly raises his hands to hold his father in return.]

– Episode 6

the two of them embrace and weep before collecting themselves and returning to Countermeasures.

by this point in the story, it’s obvious that both versions of Light love Soichiro very much. Light is creating his “new world” for the good of humanity but also for the people he loves the most--his family.

later, the emotional death of manga Light comes after the passing of his father, which he never wanted nor planned for. he never wanted Soichiro to be in a position to get hurt and he is never, ever the same after Soichiro's death, especially because he never gains his father’s approval for his actions as Kira--in fact, Soichiro leaves him with an outright rejection of Kira entirely.

[panel 1: a close up of Soichiro’s eye. he looks like he’s in pain. the speech bubble above his head reads, “I still have the eyes. And according to that Shinigami… Ryuk, I can’t see the lifespan of someone who owns a notebook.

panel 2: Light is standing above his father’s prone body. Matsuda stands behind him, bandages on his face and arms. Soichiro continues, “Light, you’re not Kira… I’m so glad…” Light looks shocked in response, a speech bubble above his head reading only “!” Matsuda says, “O-of course he isn’t! You were still worried about that?"]

the fact that Light can never gain that approval leads to him becoming incredibly dissatisfied and simply going through the motions--it’s what leads to him treating other people like cogs in a machine that will listen to him without any free will of their own, which is what makes him not foresee that Mikami might take action of his own accord. this is how Light gets caught in the end.

in the drama, however, Light experiences more than just his father’s rejection. Soichiro confronts Light directly about being Kira, catching him in the act. this is, of course, Light’s worst case scenario--he does virtually everything he can to lie his way out of it, to get his father back on his side, but fails. Soichiro acknowledges the fact that it was his fault that Light turned out this way, and also that he failed to notice that Light was suffering up until now--and then begs Light to turn himself in, in a scene that echoes L’s confrontation with Light from a couple of episodes prior.

when Light refuses, Soichiro begins to write his own name in the book.

Light: No way. Dad… Stop it. Dad! Stop it! Dad! Soichiro: There’s a struggle going on in your soul right now, isn’t there? That’s what it means to take someone’s life. That’s the weight of a human life. Do you understand, Light? Light: If this suffering is the real thing, I really can’t forgive criminals. I realized it, Dad. Even someone like me… There’s something even I can do to serve the world. Soichiro: How does killing people serve the world?! Light: I’ve sacrificed a lot of things, too! You of all people must understand how I feel! We’re working for the same thing. To protect the peace for everyone. With that notebook, I can create a world without crime! I’m just like you! Soichiro: You’re wrong. Open your eyes, Light. Come back, Light.

– Episode 10

with this ultimate rejection of Light’s actions, Soichiro finishes writing his name and Light allows him to do so. it isn’t as though Light couldn’t have stopped him if he really wanted to, either; on one level, turning himself into the police as Soichiro requested would have saved his father. on another, we see him rip the Death Note from Soichiro’s dying hands moments later as his father attempts to burn the book. Light is perfectly capable of saving the book and only acts when the Note is in danger, not his beloved family member.

of course, we never see manga Light exactly in this position, either, and I can’t say that I think that manga Light would have turned himself in or physically ripped the Note from Soichiro’s hands. both Lights did virtually everything they could to never be in a situation where they had to choose between the safety of their family members and being Kira, and I doubt manga Light would have done well emotionally with Soichiro outright rejecting him, his actions, and his ideology.

however, their actions and behavior immediately after Soichiro’s death is extremely telling. when manga Light is rejected by his father, who died as a result of a plan gone awry, he is completely devastated.

[photo: a panel of Light Yagami screaming over his father’s body. tears are running down his face, and he yells, “Dad! Dad! Don’t you die, damn it!”]

he sheds tears--which are rare for manga Light--and he mourns over his father’s dead body for quite some time. as i said previously, he is never the same man again after his father’s death.

drama Light sheds tears as Soichiro writes his name and is clearly upset by his passing, but his mourning period is immediately interrupted by desperation to get the Note back. he spends Soichiro’s last moments wrestling with him for the Note, and once his father collapses he takes the note, wild-eyed, and holds it to his chest protectively. in this instant, he cares more about the safety of the book than his dead parent--because he had just chosen the notebook, and being Kira, over his father.

after Soichiro’s funeral, Light thinks this:

Light [internally]: Dad really did open my eyes. If I am to become a God, sacrifices are inevitable. No matter who it is that pursues Kira, I will erase them.

– Episode 10

this is Light implicitly saying that sacrificing his family members--sacrificing Soichiro, the man he began killing in order to save--is inevitable if they oppose Kira. of course, this is very similar to the way that manga Light distances himself from Soichiro after Soichiro’s death, to save him from the hurting that it caused him.

[photo: a panel of Light Yagami’s face, zoomed in close so we can only see one eye, his nose, and most of his mouth. He is scowling, most of his eye cast in shadow, and he’s sweating and panting. He asks, “Dad? Are you talking about Soichiro Yagami?”]

of course, all of this begs the question of how drama Light--who began a sweet, gentle boy who was more or less coerced into using the Death Note to begin with--got to a place that even manga Light didn’t have the chance to get to, where he was more willing to save the Death Note than his own father. it’s important to consider another relationship that drama Light has that’s much different from manga Light’s--his relationship to L.

manga light respects L's intelligence and sees him as an equal, as entertainment at times, but he doesn’t like him. not even during yotsuba arc, where they’re ostensibly on the same side--in fact, i would say yotsuba Light has more reason to dislike L, seeing as though he believes L to be falsely accusing him and having tortured him for virtually no reason. they're not actually friends--it’s a manipulation tactic. moreover, L sees him the same way. they were not friends and they both intended on killing each other until the bitter end.

by comparison, drama light and L's relationship starts that way--with the two of them wanting to kill each other, with a pretense of friendship that is actually an excuse to get close to each other to try and test for weaknesses--but the difference is that they, well, fall for their own bullshit. during yotsuba arc, Light’s memories are rewritten in such a way that he believes that L and light are genuinely on friendly terms, and L finds himself over the course of the arc going from respecting Light’s talents and thinking him as something interesting to genuinely wanting him to not be Kira and seeing him as a friend.

if you want to know more about L’s thought processes during the series and specifically the blue scene I recommend reading my analysis about him [LINK] but what is important to note is that L does not want to kill Light anymore by the time episode 8 rolls around. like Soichiro later will, he attempts to convince Light to confess--with the intention, we later find out, to potentially give him a way out. of course, Light doesn’t understand this and believes, for the moment, that it’s a fight to the death--so he writes L’s name in (what he believes to be) the Death Note.

this is intrinsically different from the way Light kills L in the manga. manga Light convinces someone else to do the dirty work and he is absolutely gleeful when L dies, gloating over his dying body--but up until this point L has made manga Light’s life an absolute hassle and expressed time and time again that he intends on executing Kira, who he believes to be Light. L wants to kill him, and they are not friends. while drama Light also believes it’s a “me-or-him” situation, he cannot deny that he actually likes L, that he wanted to be friends with him--he wanted, like Soichiro, for L to accept him and to be a part of the world Kira would create.

[photo: Light, cast in blue light, is bent over double. we’re looking at his face from below, from L’s point of view on the floor. his face is contorted with grief, face wet with tears and spit. He says, “I’d have wanted to be your friend forever.”]

– Episode 8

these are what Light believes to be his last words to L, so he has no reason to lie. he’s weeping as he says it, seeming absolutely heartbroken. this is the first time that Light kills--or attempts to kill--someone he cares about, and it’s the moment he decides to throw his humanity away. if he hadn’t cared so deeply for L before deciding to kill him, I don’t think the scene with Soichiro would have played out quite the same. Light even says it himself right before he writes L’s name:

Light: I can’t afford to lose to you. I’m creating a perfect world, without crime. To see that happen, I… L: Light… Light: I… I’ve decided there’s nothing I won’t do!

– Episode 8

these words are immediately followed by Light attempting to kill L. this is the fundamental moment that Light throws away his humanity, literally deciding that he would do anything for his new world, including killing his friends if they stand in his way. this culminates in him letting his father die and ripping the Note from his hands. he believes that the ends justify the means and that this is the only option he has.

it’s important to note that it isn’t that Light stopped loving his father, or stopped liking L--it isn’t that he lacks guilt over their deaths. it’s exactly the opposite. while their deaths--and the deaths of the Countermeasures team that he planned to take place, as well as the FBI and countless other people--are a necessary evil in order to make the world a better place, Light has to absolutely jump through hoops to justify it to himself and compartmentalize the guilt. as I said earlier, Light saying that Soichiro’s death was inevitable is a way to distance himself from the pain and guilt and rejection he feels, but as he’s dying that guilt cracks back open wide. when he sees that the Death Note is on fire, he panics and begins crawling towards it.

Light: Not yet. I can still do more. If I give up now… What was it all for?

– Episode 11

this is immediately followed by a flashback to Soichiro’s death, where Soichiro questions him about how killing people serves the world--after he crawls a little further, he flashes back again to L, recalling L’s desire to be friends with him.

these flashbacks go to show that Light feels a deep and profound guilt for killing both of them. he’s justified and rationalized it to himself as being for the good of the world--he chose being Kira over both of their lives. however, this means that if Kira fails, if he dies and the world goes right back to the way it was, then all of it was for nothing. he gets himself into a situation where he has to keep killing and killing people he cares about because if he stops then it means that all of it was for nothing.

it’s honestly an incredibly sad situation, that someone so full of kindness would become ultimately cold-hearted in an effort to cope with guilt.

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