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roadhogsbigbelly · 4 months

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newsflash: people reblog objectively correct posts without knowing the CROSS SITE DISCOURSE of OP all the time. she didn’t fucking know who op was until people told her (which you can do if you care, instead of calling someone a pedo supporter behind her back). she has been vocal about not supporting rape or pedophilia, and yet your dumbass posts are talking about her linking ‘’’loliporn’’’ to being queer for literally no reason aside from one reblog that lacked context. everyone has blind spots, yet for this single one of hers, one that she has clarified her stance on over and over, you say all this about her supporting whatever sex crime feels easiest to accuse her of! the least you can do is apologize

even if she didn't reblog from an actual pedophile i still would made fun of her for agreeing with a post that said "you're a fake queer if you don't support incest fantasies" cause even if that's not morally abhorrent that's a still a fucking stupid thing to say. i never even straight up called her a pedophile i said she "thought loliporn was queer expression" which was just a roundabout way of saying "she reblogged and added on to a post that said "don't say your pro kink if you don't support ageplay, , or incest fantasies" but apparently there's a such a wild difference between "loliporn" and "age play and incest fantasies" that she views the former as such a wild condemnation but the latter is perfectly harmless and not even worth caring about.

like again even if the original post she reblogged wasn't written by an actual pedophile i would of still made fun of her (while keeping censoring her name which i did but that didn't seem to work i guess) for it because it's a bad fucking post. i made fun of it actually way before i even saw her stupid stardew valley post. i made a post talking about how it's perfectly fine to have standards between "weird kinks that are perfectly fine that you should probably ignore" and "weird kinks that are actually potentially harmful" because i think not having any standards with "people's fantasies" as if they inherently exist in a vacuum in really dumb! and bad!

but i think i do need to stress that i did not know she was a trans woman when i made my post, and in fact i have made similar posts about people who were cis women or cis men or trans men or non binary, people of all genders and sexualities, that had bad opinions on incest kink. there was this pretty popular cis gay bara artist who drew alot of incest porn and porn of underaged male characters (but "aged up") and it honestly made me uncomfortable but i kind of bit my tongue because they were popular and i didn't want to rock the boat, and than later they got called for having a sideblog where they drew actually straight up toddler porn and than i didn't feel so bad about being suspicious.

so bascially i do not think she's a pedophile, i never thought she was a pedophile, i made a post vagueing her for having a bizzare take on a video game while thinking that "loliporn" was something worth defending because she reblogged and agreed with a post saying "don't say you love kinks and sex freaks if you aren't supportive of actual sex freaks who enjoy ageplay, and incest shipping" and i assumed loliporn was included in that, because why wouldn't it be, it's "fictional age play" if she doesn't think loliporn is good that's great but weird with her reblogging and agreeing with said post, but basically no i don't think she's a pedophile. i think she just has a really bad opinions. if she thinks actual pedophilia is bad that's wonderful great, noble peace prize, but if she still think "incest and ageplay fantasies" are "above criticism" because some queer people have them. uh no i disagree, i don't think she's a "bad person" for having them but uh. not that's really dumb

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misc-obeyme · 8 months

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Helloo, I’ve been thinking lately— how do you think the brothers/dateables would react to MC coming out as polyamorous/wanting a polyamorous relationship? I think weeks or even a month ago you reblogged a poll with OM threesomes? After I saw the post I kept wondering how Solomon would take a poly (V/pivot, with MC as pivot) relationship lol (because he tends to be jealous/insecure at times, but baby so am I :’))

Yes this is super super random lmao— in my defense my heart would absolutely break if I were ever forced to choose between Sol and Barbatos. I just can’t— thus I won’t I also wouldn’t reject Simeon ansbd I may (accidentally) have my favorites but it still would shatter my heart if I had to choose just one person (maybe even two’s not enough)

Hello there, anon!

Ah yes the poll I reblogged is here! @devildomwriter (I hope you don't mind me tagging you!) has been posting polls regularly and there was a series of them for who you'd like to threesome with. They might still be going! Last time I saw one, I think it was on part 11??

Anyway, I have thought about this very question because of the exact situation you describe - having to choose. Uh, I'm gonna put this under a read more 'cause it got kinda long!

The interesting thing about Obey Me is that MC can date everybody. If you always choose the romantic options for all the characters, then they all have to be okay with MC being poly. However, the jealousy between the brothers alone is a big theme that happens all the time in the story. They're constantly fighting over who gets to spend time with MC. I always felt like the OG deliberately made it seem like the characters were somehow unaware of the fact that MC might be dating all of them lol.

The brothers especially seem to be oblivious of this since there's no way they haven't figured it out when all seven of them plus MC live together. They must know they're part of a poly octopus, right?

But a more choosy MC might only have a poly V or some other configuration so if we consider how they'd all react to being in a V with MC as the pivot, then I think some of them are going to be able to handle that easier than others.

For instance, I think Solomon would struggle with a V situation. He would try to act like it doesn't bother him because he wants to support MC and he wants them to be happy. But he definitely gets jealous. I think it's something he would be willing to work through and I also think it could change depending on who the other part of the V is. I think he'd be more jealous of Lucifer than Barbatos, for example.

However, I very much think that Solomon would have a lot less of an issue if he was in a triad with MC. I think you could do this with Asmodeus, Barbatos, Satan, or Simeon and he'd be okay with it. Mayyyybe Levi too.

I kind of think in a lot of cases, it really depends on who the other person in the situation is.

I think generally speaking, Satan, Asmo, Beel, Belphie, Diavolo, and Barbatos probably wouldn't have any major issues with either a V or a triad/throuple situation. They're all confident enough in themselves and their love for MC that it wouldn't be a problem. Beel and Belphie are practically in a V with MC already anyway.

Lucifer is too prideful and I think he'd have a problem with the V if the other person was someone he didn't think was worthy of MC. Solomon? No way. Diavolo? He'd be okay with that. I also think a Lucifer/MC/Diavolo triad would work.

Mammon freaks out any time MC so much as looks at one of his brothers lol. However, I think he would want to do whatever makes MC happiest. I think he would struggle a bit with a V situation and he would need a lot of reassurance from MC. I think his insecurities would make him question himself unless MC was always telling him how important he is to them.

Levi probably wouldn't do well at all. I mean, he's the Avatar of Envy himself, do you really think he could share MC with anybody?? I just can't see it. I think a V would upset him. I think he'd be much happier with a triad situation, but he might still struggle with it.

Now Simeon is interesting because I personally think he'd be okay with it, but I do think he'd have opinions about the other person involved. Kind of like Lucifer, he'd want them to be someone he thinks is worthy of MC and if they're not, he'll make sure they know it.

Anyway, all of this is to say that I think you would be able to do a V with Solomon and Barbatos if that was your desire! I think both of them would just want you to be happy and in the OG, they're actually friends! So I think it'd be fine!

And since they all don't seem to be bothered by the fact that MC can date all of them, I'm of the opinion that you don't actually need to choose anybody at all. When I play, I choose the romancing options for all of them because I love them all so much lol.

#honestly this is one of the best parts of the game imo #though it would be nice to have routes too #I dunno I'm wishy washy about it #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me solomon #obey me barbatos #anon asks #misc answers

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g-on-ef · 1 year

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Helluva Boss season 2 episode 4 Rant Review IDK but be prepared to hate me Stolas/Stoliz lovers

Okay guys I'm not gonna come down from the high of seeing my baby Striker so I might as well get this review out the way while it's still fresh on my mind ^^

Striker my gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous snake boy you've done me proud !!! Love how bad ass he looked with the Pancho it further feeds my head canon that Striker is Mexica {yall free to disagree but thats my personal head canon} !!!

The fighting scene guys I loved how smart and agile Striker is. The way he used the environment to his advantage as well as all parts of his body.

Feet, arms, tails, hell he was amazing with both the rope guns knife it showed Striker isn't just good with his body but also different types of weapons.

Hell rewatching the fight scene and imma be honest Striker has more experience with his body as well as weapons than millie and moxxie.

Again the way he used his body showed guns weren't the only weapon he had the environment the way striker used everything from Millies ax sticking on the ground to the railroad tracks showed how he uses his surroundings to work for him and the weapons showed this guy is a deadly fighter and not one to be messed with.

And once again, once again my boy is spitting facts !!! I said it once and I'll say it again my boy sees Hell for what it is and how he and his people are at the bottom of the barrel and he's not afraid to do what he sees is right if it means saving his people.

Argue with the wall yall fuckers aren't gonna change my mind about Striker and his actions.

Now onto his personality okay I know some people don't like the unhinged way he is but if I'm honest it was good granted I would've loved this to be seen as the show progressed but I guess I'll take this wit a grain of salt.

Okay I may anger some of my fellow striker lovers but I did not like his new voice honestly I'm still gonna use Norman's voice when I read fanfic cause I loved how Norman voiced my boy and that's the voice I'm sticking wit ^^

Speaking of voices yall I did not like Stella's brothers VA like that art style with that voice did not fit him, gonna be honest I was imagining something like Stolas not that.

Also side note did something happen wit Lunas VA i saw a post talking about it but exsit out Tumblr before I could like or reblog it.

I also hated how they reduced Stella into I don't even know what to call that mess cause you mean to tell me this woman is once again treated like a 1 dimensional wet piece of paper that can't think for herself and is just a spoil brat ??? !!!

Like Viv keeps adding these characters that are big and bad but are just become a joke towards the end.

Also that incest plot ... ... ... someone tell viv that this is not game of thrones/house of the dragons please.

I'm not touching that because if I tell yall that Stella might be a victim of incest abuse yall would have my head and viv and crew will not know how to handle something like that.

Like you mean to tell me not once Stella thought that she wouldn't get anything from her divorce unless Stolas had a say so ??? Like come on man.

Also Viv, you and your little crew can shove whatever bullshit down my throat to convince me Stolas is an innocent soft blue and I'll choke on it till I'm blue in the face.

Like someone remind her that her show is in Hell and no one cares if he cheats or not.

Like Stolas I knew you were dumb but damn I didn't know you were THAT DUMB.

You still cheated, you still betrayed an agreement you made, you are still an asshole for cheating.

I'll already made a post on Stella and the bullshit that is her marriage so again argue wit the wall.

Stolas, Stolas, you got shot by an assassin, he has a blessed rope, and he obviously has angelic weapons and you have the audacity to ask if your endangered ... ... ...

I have no words for the sheer amount of stupidity of that question -_-

Also why in the fuck did you call Blitz ??? Why not your guards why not someone who can save you before the threat kills you ??? !!!

The anger and annoyance I felt when he called for him knows no bounds especially when Blitz told him he had a very important appointment to get to and that fucker just had the nerve to try and convince him to still save him ???

Again why not call your royal body guards ??? !!! Like dude i know you're horny and want to live every fantasy that involves you and Blitz but the man has a life outside of you let him live it !!!

Also can we all agree that the sex jokes are getting old/boring like viv sex jokes do not make your show for a mature audience if anything it's for an immature one instead.

Case in point you trying to say the R slur but ended wit how you can't say it anymore after being called out on it

Funny yes but not funny haha funny you ass needs new material cause your jokes aren't funny.

I love absolutely love how Blitz rather be at the appointment for his daughter than save Stolas like him complaining about Stolas {rightfully so} and how he rather focus on making sure his daughter is comfortable and safe really warm my heart.

I find hilarious how viv tweets/likes shit like this

And yet the only time she remembers that imps are at the bottom of the barrel or needs to remind the audience that the citizens of hell hate imps and they are horribly mistreated is when Striker is involved.

Like you mean to tell me Striker is a simple minded bigot and yet he's the only one that's called out how fucked up Hell is for imps AND episodes that surround him show how the royals and others view imps ??? !!!

Pick a side and stick to it.

Said it once and I'll say it again Viv is not gonna make me hate my gorgeous snake boy.

Cause seeing him stabbing that bird seeing him torture him I was cheering him on !!! Like I was seriously smiling and praising him.

Like yes amor torture that bird make him pay !!!

Millie and Moxxie ... ... ... you had me and you lost me that's all I gotta say

The ending gonna be honest the ending made no sense.

Blitz your boyfriend had a blessed tip rifle pointed at the ditzzy blue blood had a blessed rope like OF COURSE HE CAN GET HURT !!!

Anywhore there's more but these were my main issues ^^

#anti vivziepop #helluva boss rant #helluva boss criticism #this is a striker simp blog #striker #helluva striker #anti stolas #anti stolitz #reviews

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noeggets · 2 months

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Just came hear after seeing your post on Espio's feelings regarding the Mr. Tinker situation.

I've always thrived on the idea that, at some point, some of the fellas (let's say Shadow, Espio, Whisper, Omega, Lanolin and screw it let's throw in Surge and Kit) have had it up to Chaos with Sonic's pacifism towards Eggman and decide to take care of him themselves. This would eventually lead to a Civil-War situation where Team Shadow's hunting down Eggman while Sonic and his remaining allies are forced to protect him not just from the others, but maybe even the entire public who would somehow be swayed against Sonic's ideals.

So yeah thanks for coming to my TED talk or something off I go into the abyss never to step foot on your grounds ever again/j

thats a interesting situation

i don't like giving my opinion because i feel like someone is going to take this as me putting down your idea but im really not this is just how i feel with my characterization of shadow and the other guys im sorry tjnsfdkbg

i feel like a civill war could break out where the citizens of the town Sonic lives in would do this but i don't feel like Shadow would only do this if there was a driving force either between G.U.N telling him too or if he had a really strong reason (like if he thought Eggman was going to do something truly diabolical that hurts the world Shadow lives in, like doing the zobot mess again) cause he gave him a chance for Sonic already so this time he gets 0 chances

i don't think people like Sonic as a pacifist but i think the characterization of sonic being a pacifist to the point of it endangering others is really good for him and for story telling, that's his flaw, i saw somebody reblog my Espio post and say something like they hate that Sonic's pacifist but i love it jdsrhfdhgjf that's why Sonic would form a "Protect Eggman" thing because he's gonna do it with or without the help of his friends, Sonic does not care he will not let them do that to Eggman that's why he wanted to send the Zeti home cause he values their life.

Back to talking about Shadow, remember when he was talking to Sonic and Sonic said something like: remember Eggman may done a lot bad things but he helped us when it really counted and if somebody does something bad once they get no chances i should be trying to take you down with Eggman even if your not that same person anymore.

I can get on board to the idea of Espio and Whisper agreeing with Shadow that if Eggman did such a thing they shouldn't let him live anymore but i don't think Espio and Whisper would go against Sonic as to hurt him or his friends that are agreeing with him to protect Eggman, Whisper has been taught Tangle and Cream killing isn't worth it and i just don't think Espio has it in him to assassinate he'd agree with Shadow in the moment but when it came down to it i feel like Espio would rather have Eggman locked up in a high security prison over ending his life even after the whole Zobot thing cause i remember he was really pissed when he was talking to Knuckles who tried to comfort him.

I don't think Surge cares enough about Eggman but i don't im not caught up enough with the idw comic to say, her feelings but whatever she does Kit follows and i feel like she'd only be on the Eggman hunt to make Sonic's day worse and difficult, she doesn't care about Eggman she only cares about how this affects Sonic

Omega is a complex thing cause he hates Eggman and any opportunity he gets to do away with him i feel like he'd take it but Omega has a heart and if Rouge begged him not to i feel like that could end it there

i don't know enough about Lanolin but i feel like she wouldn't agree on killing Eggman but she would agree that the world would be a better place without him i feel like she could be manipulated into the idea of "if Eggman was dead we'd have less problems in the world" to the point where she thinks this is the righteous choice and let her morals take her places they shouldn't until somebody knocks her to the reality of "ending a life is bad"

THIS IS ONLY MY OPINION don't let me stop you from making cool AU's how would you rationalize these characters thinking Eggman's death is for the greater good? cause i could not and could imagine some of them thinking this way but in some lights put in the right/wrong situation i can see it

#fazar234 #questions #i can see Whisper Shadow and semi Espio going with this plan but it's hard for me to think the others beside what i said about Lanolin-#thinking this way but if you have something to add im here to listen #or if anyone has anything to add

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knife-enby · 5 months

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I'm really hesitant to post this off anon, but I will:

As someone who identified with the label endogenic for a very long time, and has now realized I most certainly have osdd,

We seriously need to be nicer to systems who don't think they've got osdd or did

I found you from a reblog of the "ingroup language" post and I saw you mention syscourse, yet you seem rather nice and I wanted to reach out to see what you thought.

I personally have the tag blocked along with anti-endo because it's so toxic. Why do we as a community spend so much time excluding people?

i'm not a discourse blog. i have better things to do with my life. like, for instance, recover from the childhood trauma that gave me DID.

i have witnessed harm due to the misinformed and demedicalized mindset the endogenic community spreads. i find the way they discuss polyfragmentation particularly aggravating. the actions of natural multiplicity groups in the past are vile to me, and the the person who coined the idea sure is... something. rarely if ever do i see endos acknowledge the above history - their history. this, too, makes me bitter. not to mention the racism of tulpamancy, which isn't even syscourse it's racism but it sure doesn't help my opinion.

the post you're referring to, i was specifically referencing the way pro-endos handle syscourse. by equating systemhood with identity the same way being queer is, it is significantly easier for them to explain their position to singlets than it is for us to explain ours. sysmed comes to mind.

i'm going to have to share community spaces with endogenic systems and pro-endos forever. they're always going to exist. there will always be discourse. this isn't the first time i've been asked about syscourse and it won't be the last. if i tried to isolate my internet use so i never saw an endo or pro-endo, i wouldn't have any fun being online; i'd be too busy being stressed about it. live your own life with whatever stance you have. quite frankly, i have better things to do than care. i'm never going to be friends with an endogenic system or pro-endo because i am anti-misinformation and i believe, based on what i have witnessed, that it is impossible to be in the endogenic community and not be misinformed. endos can can reblog my posts or follow me or whatever the fuck, it's not like i can physically stop them even if i said they couldn't. i reblog from endos sometimes 'cause i don't keep track of that.

#asks #syscourse #.txt

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dxncingwithastrxnger · 2 years

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I'm sorry ahead of time, but apparently it's this kind of day, y'all 💀💀

I just have to address this yet again, cause I really feel the strong need to today. I already said a few of my thoughts on this awhile ago, tacked onto someone else's post that I reblogged, but I'm just gonna talk about one specific moment.

I don't think this will be very long, but who knows

So, I wanna talk about a moment in the van scene between Will and Mike. Yes, yes, so much to unpack there. But more specifically, the moment when Will is crying and Mike turns to look at him for a moment before looking away.

I've heard so many things about this scene. But the most popular one, or at least the one that I come across the most, is that Mike knew that Will was crying and just purposely ignored him because he didn't care or because he's an asshole or whatever.

Guys, Will was facing the window when Mike turned to look at him. Mike saw the back of Will's head. Maybe he realized that Will was upset, but he had no idea what about, and Will was obviously trying to hide the fact that he was crying. IF Mike even realized that Will was crying, and that's a big if, he probably realized that Will didn't want anyone to know he was crying and decided he should leave Will alone.

I mean, personally, if I'm looking away from everyone else and trying to hide that I'm crying, then I'd prefer no one notice and start asking me questions about it. If I'm hiding something, I obviously don't want anyone else to know. That's the whole purpose of hiding something.

Will didn't know that Jonathan saw him crying, either. Jonathan knew but said nothing because he knew Will wouldn't want to be called out like that or have attention drawn to the fact that he was crying. Which, yes, some of you might point out that Jonathan also clearly knows exactly why Will was crying, and therefore, that's the real reason that he didn't point out Will crying. Soooo, what? Do any of you really believe that even if Jonathan didn't know why Will was crying, he still would've pointed it out? Just like, "Hey, Will, are you crying back there? What's up, buddy, are you okay?" In the middle of everything with both Argyle and Mike there to hear it? When Will clearly was trying to draw less attention to himself, not more? No, he wouldn't of done that. And Mike would've been the same way, had he known that Will was full on crying beside him.

Mike and Will are very different in a lot of ways. Where Mike is very outspoken and open, Will is very quiet and private. So while Mike is okay having that conversation about himself and his and El's relationship where other people can also hear, if the situation were flipped, Will would prefer to keep things a lot quieter, a lot more secluded, because he's not someone who's as okay with outsiders in the same area hearing a private conversation as Mike would be. Will hides things and prefers to keep a lot of things to himself, and Mike, being Will's best friend of nearly a decade, would know that. And Jonathan, having known Will all of Will's life, would also know that.

So, even if Mike realized that Will was crying, he wasn't ignoring Will because he didn't care. It was actually the opposite. He was allowing Will to have that moment by himself, just as Will would've preferred to. If it was up to Will, he'd be in a room by himself while he was crying, not in a van with 3 other people around.

So please, stop hating on Mike for that scene. He probably didn't realize that Will was crying and even if he did, he would've just wanted to give Will some privacy, as much as possible in their situation at the time. Mike doesn't deserve all of the hate he gets, guys. He's literally just being a 15 year old boy, living his life the best he can with everything that goes on in it. And again, I remind you all. You can't get mad at Mike for not noticing things that Will is actively trying to hide. It means that Will is successful in what he's trying to do, therefore, he wants it that way.

Anyways, that's the end of this post guys, thanking you for reading through all these thoughts in my head if you made it all the way here, I tried to make it all as understandable as it was in my head. Have a good day/night, y'all <3

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butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway · 2 years

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The gender non conformity post you reblogged, it really hits for me in some ways (you reblogged something else that hits even more, but it's taking more time to figure out words since it hits deeper)

Like... well first off I don't really like the term gender non conforming cause it's just like... GNC... like the damn vitamin store my mom used to blow all out money at? Just don't like it as a term, but never thought of better. Not really a label kind of person, but it probably describes me... but only in a way

See I like what I like and I do what I do. I don't really divide any of the world up into masculine of feminine. I like woodworking, I want to learn sewing, these are just activities

Thing is I also liked My Little Pony Friendship is Magic, and I'll tell you that a lot of the people talking big talk about gnc stuff now sure were happy to complain about a guy liking that show and say all kinds of stuff about what a monster you must be

Makes it real hard to really want to interface with that crowd, that and that I feel like I can never actually say what's on my mind and have them listen without trying to decide for me either that it means something about my gender or sexuality, or that it means I'm a bad person

Like for instance I can talk about how I often wish I was a woman, but at the same time I don't particularly feel like one and don't have any interest in presenting differently. Just kind of wish there was a girl in my place instead (could have something to do with me preferring women's company and being raised by a mom who always was talking about how terrible men are)

It's more like if I were a shape shifter I'd probably spend most of my time as a lady, but sometimes shift back to this, or maybe something else... I don't know... don't think on the details much cause doesn't really matter, and can't talk about it much cause when I do people just tell me I'm trans and it's like... I don't think that's it, I've known trans people, actually had someone ask me if I was ftm or mtf cause I made them feel understood enough they just assumed I was... and I don't feel like that

(In part just think that everyone would like me much better if I was a girl, me included, but I really wouldn't want to be a part of it and have her be someone totally different)

Anyway... as far as gender non conforming goes, I'm probably not if you mean not identifying as a guy, but I am if you mean just thinking people should be left alone to do their own shit. That a guy wearing a dress isn't wearing women's clothes, he's wearing his cloths and why should I care or bother him

...don't know... who knows, might even just be being an asshole or a fool with all this. You know, I'm pretty damn far left on a lot of stuff, and like... just want to let people be themselves and be into who they want, called them what they want me to, and doesn't really matter to me their gender. You want to be called he and wear a dress, don't see how that's my business or problem sir, you know?

So I don't know... just don't feel at all like a good fit for most spaces. Kind of ends up feeling like a lot of them despite saying they're against gender bullshit fall right into enforcing it, just from new angles if I'm honest

Not to mention I don't trust a lot of these people cause like I said, you get nothing but horror stories if you ask people about bronies, and whatever I guess that's their prerogative to tell it like they think they saw it

But me, I just saw a bunch of people like me who thought it was a well made show and liked it, who had a big focus on charity. Sure felt a lot like it was people not really liking men engaging with non masculine stuff and then making up reasons to be mad after the fact and looking for stray cases or just making stuff up but... you know that's just my perspective

Not to mention I feel like a lot of these circles don't particularly like straight cis guys, and like whatever may be going on under the hood for me, that's not really anyone's business, and I'd rather them see me as straight and cis if they aren't gonna like that, cause I don't really care to be given an exception... you know?

Anyway, this went way too long and probably is just a bunch of trash, but don't really ever get the chance to talk about this stuff... so there's some of my thoughts on it

Just want to be left alone to be my miserable self however works for me, and kind of just want to see everyone else also left alone to be themselves, and it feels like a lot of people who say they support that can't even manage to just like let a guy were a skirt to the office... I don't know that I've really articulated myself great on this but... I kind of give up

Have a nice day, might be tossing a thought at you about something else you reblogged but... like I said, that one hit a lot deeper. This is just me kind of frustrated, other one... yeah

Take care

I'm a big fan of words like genderfucked that rather aggressively refuse to be comfortable about how they assert themselves in the mental-emotional sense for a lot of the same reasons you describe. I like being imposing rather than ostentatious if you know what I mean about the difference innflavor between the two.

I honestly don't know much about the MLP community. Never really watched it as a kid, couldn't really get into it as an adult, but I knew folks that were and like. It seemed like a pretty great exercise in gender exploration and emotional intelligence skill building.

I think people get unpleasant when they feel uncomfortable, and as much as we are making waves in what's considered normal and fine, there are still these culture lines that are really harrowing to cross for most if not all. I used to play around with that when I still had all my hair. Doing aesthetics that, at first glance maintained a veneer of professionalism and compliance, but which were clearly antithetical if you looked any closer. It made people nervous. Which ironically made them much less likely to be shitty to me. Something about my choices made it hard for them to figure out how to do me harm. Some didn't like that I took that away as an easy option so they doubled down on it instead of being thrown off guard. Not ideal.

Anyway, I suspect that a lot of the reaction to MLP was the same sort of deal. You require me to confront how pissed I am that I can't immediately identify how to do you harm, so I'm gonna start flailing and biting at random like a cornered prey animal.

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amateur-madder · 1 year

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I posted 319 times in 2022

That's 41 more posts than 2021!

33 posts created (10%)

286 posts reblogged (90%)

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I tagged 116 of my posts in 2022

#maladaptive daydreaming - 74 posts

#immersive daydreaming - 41 posts

#actuallymadd - 39 posts

#immersive dayadreaming - 20 posts

#actually madd - 15 posts

#madd - 12 posts

#paraportal - 10 posts

#paracosm - 9 posts

#madd memes - 7 posts

#maladapting daydreaming disorder - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 125 characters

#and by random i mean i'm forcing my friend to help me chose which paracosm i daydream with but without explaining i have madd

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So like I started writing about my paracosms and I think I finally cracked the code on how one goes about that. There's that huge meme going around the community about how if you tell someone about your madd good chances are they're gonna tell you to write about the plot but like how???? How plots often time are so confusing and massive with AUs out every crevice and if you were like me and wanted to write about your paras but also had a confusing plot of was kinda of frustrating. And then I had an epiphany while thinking of a new thing to write.

If you wanna write about your paras instead of writing down your plot and all that stuff why not instead write about the stuff that rarely gets mentioned. Like maybe it's how 2 paras met/started dating, maybe it's the backstory of a para that you don't think about much. If it's an action packed paracosm write about what they do when things are calm, if it's a calm paracosm right about them dealing with something more exciting.

I don't know if this makes sense or helps anybody but I figured I'd share what I figured out with everyone else, also maybe writing about the stuff you don't think about might help you come up with new daydream plots

TLDR; if you wanna write about your paras but your overarching plot makes too little sense to write down write about the smaller events you haven't fleshed out yet

61 notes - Posted February 4, 2022

I just realized something... It doesn't matter if someone out there is reading your mind (even if you're having sexual/violent daydreams) because what are they gonna do???? Out you? Tell someone about it? That would require them to not only tell people that they're a mind reader but also have to say out loud whatever it was you were thinking. So like who cares if someone is reading your mind while you're having weird daydreams, in fact make them even weirder, make sure that mind reader is terrified to repeat anything from your mind out loud

89 notes - Posted November 6, 2022

Explain your paracosms but badly, go!

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I saw a post talking about how losing MADD would suck because it's sort of become apart of their identity and that even though it's "maladaptive" it feels like it would genuinely suck to lose it and like I totally agree.

Like personally I wouldn't be bored if I stopped daydreaming (mostly cause I've been using madd to avoid my responsibilities and hobbies) but I would feel like I've lost a part of me. Thinking about not daydreaming feels scary cause like I'd be opening a hole that madd was filling and by getting rid of my daydreams I'd never be able to close it

I'm like honestly frightened about losing my paras. At this point they are a permanent part of me and who I am and to lose them feels like losing me

170 notes - Posted May 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I hope that wearing masks is still normalized if the pandemic does end because I can't stop myself from laughing at my paras jokes but I don't want people to notice me busting out laughing randomly

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alondradina · 1 year

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I posted 6,209 times in 2022

That's 6,209 more posts than 2021!

56 posts created (1%)

6,153 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 1,815 of my posts in 2022

#dragon age - 726 posts

#solas - 223 posts

#dragon age inquisition - 192 posts

#da2 - 175 posts

#solavellan - 100 posts

#fanfiction - 73 posts

#dragon age 2 - 69 posts

#fenris - 69 posts

#anders - 64 posts

#fanfic - 62 posts

Longest Tag: 130 characters

#solas *strutting around her like a peacock*: ''i am grim and fatalistic. getting you into bed is just an enjoyable side benefit.''

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Domaystic day 26!

Prompt: Losing each other in a crowd

Fandom: Dragon Age

Pairing: Solas/Ellana, Solas/Lavellan, Solavallen

Rating: G

Modern day AU

Solas trailed along behind Ellana as she investigated the various booths and 'oohed' over the random offerings of the street festival they had accidentally discovered. She didn't know what event they had wandered into, but she was willing to party for whatever cause. It didn't really matter in the end, though, she supposed. They weren't going to kick her out, and she was determined to get into everything she possibly could.

While examining a selection of strange looking candies, a disturbance caught her attention. A densely packed crowd milled around something on the other side of a large tent.

"Hurry!" A man yelled to someone behind him, "They're leaving!"

Curiosity piqued, Ellana left Solas behind as she threaded her way through the crowd. Breaking out into the open, she found herself facing a group of Qunari. One of them turned and rumbled something in Qunlat to the man behind him.

"Uh… Shanedan?" She greeted cautiously. Their heads whipped up, and she would have laughed at their shock if she knew they wouldn't get offended. One of the most important lessons she'd learned from Sera's ex-girlfriend, a Tal'Vashoth called Adaar, was that insulting someone of the Qun was a very bad idea.

A harried looking human pushed his way between two of the Qunari to grab her by the shoulders. "You speak Qunlat?!"

"Not all that great, but I know some basic stuff yeah," she answered, nervously eyeing the Qunari men who were watching the interaction intently. "Why?"

"I don't speak Qunlat. The only people I know who do are considered Tal'Vashoth, and these gentlemen will not speak with them."

"Ah." This sounded like the exact sort of situation she'd rather stay out of, but the guy was practically crying and the Qunari were looking antsy. She sighed. "What do you need from me?"

It didn't bother him, at first, when he turned around and found that she had disappeared. Ellana often wandered off to investigate whatever caught her interest. She would then return and regale him with whatever details she thought most interesting. It wasn't until it had passed the fifteen minute mark, and four unanswered phone calls later, that Solas started worrying.

Pulling up a photo of her on his phone, he began asking random passersby if they had seen her. Most of them answered with a no, but a couple dwarves said maybe and pointed him towards the most populated section of the street. Wading through the crowd, getting discouraged by the negative answers he was receiving now, Solas was about to give up and head back towards the car when someone said yes.

"Yeah, I saw that little elf girl. She's parading around with a gaggle of those Oxmen following her around like ducklings," an older man answered. He spat to the side and earned himself a glare from the woman he almost hit. Seemingly oblivious, or else uncaring, he nodded to the right. "They were headed for the bakery, I think."

"The bakery?"

The man shrugged. "Elf girl told the guy bossing her around that Oxmen love cookies."

Solas rubbed the bridge of his nose and thanked the old man, before forcing his way back into the crowd. Everyone seemed to be heading in the same direction, which made his life easier at least. He would have passed right by the bakery if he hadn't crashed into a Qunari Ashaad standing outside.

"Beg pardon," Solas said, quickly stepping away from the man.

The Ashaad's expression didn't change. The only indication Solas had that he had been noticed was a slow blink, before the man turned to a companion, and said something in Qunlat.

Pulling his phone out, Solas brought up the picture of Ellana again and pointed it in their direction. "I need to find her."

The Ashaad didn't respond, but the Karasaad he had been talking to leaned forward to get a better look. He elbowed his companion and nodded towards the bakery.

That was a good enough answer for Solas, who immediately moved around them and headed for the building. He'd only taken a few steps when he was hauled back by his arm.

"Hey!" Ellana's voice yelled. Solas jerked his head around to see her ducking under a Sten's arm.

The Ashaad released his hold, and let Solas go to his girlfriend. He resisted rubbing the sore spot on his arm, and instead focused on Ellana. "What are you doing?"

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Domaystic prompt event!

Day 1: Sticky note

Fandom: Dragon Age

Pairing: Solas/Ellana, Solas/Lavellan, Solavallen

Rating: G

Modern day AU

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/38724966

Ellana had been in his office again. Solas sighed and wondered what prank she was trying to pull on him this time. His papers seemed to be in order. None of the books on his shelf were upside down or flipped so the cover was facing the wrong way. According to the marks he'd made on the floor after the last time, all his furniture was in the correct position.

He was starting to think she might have actually left everything alone, for once, when he spotted a pale yellow sticky note on his desk. 'Buy more sticky notes' was the message, laying on top of an empty package. Rolling his eyes, Solas wondered what had happened to the last package. He had bought it only a few days ago.

The library was full of frantic murmuring as the undergrads studied for midterms. Spotting an unoccupied table, and then a group of girls heading for it, Ellana rushed forward to plop into the hard chair. She smiled at them while opening her bag to shuffle through her notebooks. One of the humans scowled at her before directing the mixed group to take over a nearby table instead. One of the dwarves nudged the single occupant over, and he got up and left.

Ellana shook her head and turned back to her work; glad that portion of her life was done and over with. Chuckling, she finally dug out the notebook she needed and flipped through it to find her spot. She zoomed right past the sticky note at first, not even registering the flash of sky blue, but after a second her brain caught up with her hands and she flipped back.

The note was placed square in the middle of the page, with her partially translated copy of ancient elvhen runes scrawled around it. In his infuriatingly neat handwriting, Solas had written 'I bought more' and underneath he'd drawn… An egg. With a frown.

Clasping hands over her mouth, Ellana attempted to smother her laughter. The girls shot her dirty looks, which only made her laugh louder. Tears streamed down her face as she took a shaky picture of the note, and sent it to her group chat with Isabela and Sera.

'I think he heard you call him an egghead, Sera.'

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My first ever perfect drabble! Done for the 30+ Drabble Prompt.

The cold crept through her suit, and in minutes Jane couldn't feel her fingers and toes. The others were huddled inside the Mako; impatiently waiting for her. She tilted her head back and watched the snowflakes drift in the wind. Something bitter gathered in the back of her throat. Her first snow. It should have been on Earth. It should have been clean, pure. She should have been able to taste it on her tongue. Instead she was on a planet hostile with cold and howling blizzards. An adult who had never been a child; mourning experiences she never had.

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Domaystic day 21!

Prompt: Staycation

Fandom: Dragon Age

Pairing: Solas/Ellana, Solas/Lavellan, Solavallen

Rating: G

Modern day AU

Ellana knew well before Solas that they weren't going out of town that weekend. That was because she decided it Thursday night, when he came home from work and immediately dropped face down into the couch without even taking his shoes off.

"Rough day?" She asked after a moment. There was no response. Glad that she had ordered food earlier, Ellana left the cartons on the island and approached her boyfriend.

Grabbing a foot, she pulled a shoe off without untying it. Solas grumbled and toed the other one off. He sighed and sat up when she went after his socks, though, taking care of them on his own before flopping on his back this time.

Ellana picked them up and put the shoes and socks in their appropriate places. Seeing that he still hadn't moved, she started dishing out their dinner and brought it to the coffee table.

"This isn't where we eat."

"Well, this is where you're at, and you need to eat, so here's the food," Ellana said with a shrug. "If you don't like it, then get up and we'll eat at the table."

Solas groaned and slowly sat up, wincing and rubbing his neck. She hadn't seen him since the night before. He had still been working in his office when she finally gave up and went to bed, and had left before she woke up in the morning.

He had bags under his eyes and a seemingly permanent furrow in his brow. Ellana could tell that he was truly exhausted, though, when he gave in and started eating where he was instead of insisting on the table.

She put the back of her hand to his brow, which he smacked away in an uncharacteristic show of irritation. "I am not sick; just tired."

"Well, alright then," she said, doing her best to not be offended.

Nothing else was said while they ate. Towards the end his eyes started drooping shut, and he set his plate and fork on the coffee table before leaning back into the couch. He fell asleep shortly after, leaving Ellana to clean everything up with only his soft snores as company.

After some debate, she placed a spare blanket, a nice one that they had recently purchased, on him before going to bed on her own.

She woke the next morning to warm puffs of air on her ear and an arm slung over her stomach. Sighing happily, she pressed closer to him and giggled when Solas burrowed his nose into her hair.

"What time is it?" He rasped.

Ellana lifted her head and looked at the clock. "It's quarter 'til seven."

Groaning, he rolled away from her and started sitting up. "We are supposed to leave in fifteen minutes."

"We're not going anywhere."

"We are going to the reserve, Ellana. I promised you we would, and we will."

"I'll take a raincheck. We're not going anywhere."

Solas finally turned around to glower at her. "I promised-"

"I know you promised," she interrupted, rolling her eyes at his frown, "but you are a mess. We're just gonna hang out at home. Do the whole 'staycation' thing."

"Do what?" He asked tiredly, laying back down and rubbing his eyes.

She rolled closer and draped an arm and leg over him. "Staycation. We'll take a break from life and just chill out here. No work, no socializing; just the two of us doing whatever we want."

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Hi! You're probably not going to like this ask, but before getting into it I'd just like to say that this isn't meant as Kamala hate or anything, and I don't really want to offend.

Having said that, wouldn't it make sense that we get to see how Kamala treated Anna after she came out? It's in all likelihood one of the things that's weighing on Anna the most.

Obviously Kamala had her valid reasons: her parents aren't as liberal as the Lightwoods, she believes (knows?) their love is conditional as she's adopted, she's not white and not being heterosexual could further any treatment she's suffered from being different... Her reasons have already been listed multiple times by multiple people. Kamala has the right to stay in the closet and fear coming out. And while that shouldn't be villianised, we can't forget that closeted people can harm those around them.

If Kamala had kept treating Anna like a good friend, rumour would've sparked, and even if it was denied, she'd have been harmed by merely associating with Anna. Especially with the life Anna began leading; she could have been labelled as one of Anna's 'conquests' by the Clave. That, as we've established, is detrimental for her safety.

But at the same time, it would create a breach between Anna and Kamala. And Anna had the right to be hurt by it and weary of it when Kamala said she wanted a relationship.

If we look at it from that perspective, Anna's actions (though inexcusable in how they treated Kamala --who was also at fault for not accepting a negative for four months) make sense. Kamala wasn't only a fling of a week*, but also the girl she lost her virginity with, who asked her to be her secret (until she married Charles, after which Anna's affections would be discarded), who hid her sexuality for two years and sat back while Anna suffered from homophobic commentary, and who now wants a relationship hidden from most of the people that know her.

Kamala shouldn't be forced to come out; but the harm that can do to the women she may engage with is reflective of what happens nowadays. I can mostly think of examples with gay men, so my apologies in advance. But how many women have seen their marriages ruined by their husband having affairs with men?

Creating characters that reflect a toxic part of the 'hidden' LGBT community shouldn't be seen as hating or villinifying. Thomas isn't out and he isn't labelled a villain by the narrative --because his actions don't harm anyone. The hate Alastair gets in-universe is because of his past as a bully, not because he's gay. Matthew's not fully out and he isn't villianised --like Thomas, because the decisions he makes to keep his sexuality hidden don't impact anyone negatively.

I'll even go as far as saying that not even the narrative villianises characters like Kamala and Charles. If it were, they'd be seen more like Grace in Chain of Gold. We'd see how Kamala's actions are affecting Anna's in more ways than anger (that in itself put the fandom against Anna), and the characters would note so. We wouldn't see scenes were Cordelia empathised with Charles, nor Matthew said he loved him.

Be it as it may, Kamala and Charles represent ugly parts of being closeted that can naturally occur when someone is in their position. LGBT people are human. Humans, when put into very difficult situations (and Charles risks his career; Kamala her safety), can make decisions that harm those around them. Consequently, the people they're harming have a right to feel, well, harmed in whatever range of ways --this goes mostly for Alastair, and very partly for Anna, whose treatment of Kamala was horrible.

Readers need to understand what is pushing these 'villianised' characters to harm (again, mostly for Alastair) the more prominent characters and go beyond how they are instantly depicted. Because these are complex characters based on complex real people influenced by very ugly realities we will move on from someday, but sadly not yet.

By the way, Charles and Kamala's situations aren't that similar beyond the closeted thing, but I crammed them together because of a post I saw you reblog.

Please understand I'm not justifying Charles's actions; that I understand the pain he's put Alastair through, and know that he shouldn't ever be near Alastair. Nor am I trying to justify Anna's actions nor hate on Kamala.

I'll just finish my pointless rant by adding that I do think cc has sensitivity readers. I think she asked a gay man to go through tec (I don't know if he still revised her other books, though), and know she asked POC's input when writing someone for their culture. I don't know much beyond that, but I doubt who revises her stuff is up to her. Wouldn't that be something the publisher is responsible for (honest question)?

*I've also noticed people using the argument that they didn't know each other long enough for Anna to harbour such ugly emotions towards Kamala, but Kamala also remembered Anna pretty deeply and is 'in love' with her. I just wanted to say that considering cc writes (fantastical) romance where someone can ask a woman they met two months ago marriage, stressing over time spaces doesn't make much sense. Just my take.

hi!!

alright, where do I start? probably would be best with stating that while I can analyse Kamala's situation with what I know/see/read about racism and discrimination and reasonably apply things I've read/heard from PoC to the discussion, as well as try to be as sensitive about it as possible, I'm still a white woman, so not a person that's best qualified to talk about this.

that being said - if someone wants to add something to this conversation, you're obviously more than welcome to, and if there's something in my answer that you don't agree with or find in some way insensitive or offensive - please don't hesitate to call me out on that.

back to your points though: (this turned into a whole ass essay, so under the cut)

I don't think Anna shouldn't be able to reminiscent on Kamala's behaviour/reaction to her coming out, or be hurt by it. what bothers me is the way CC talks about it - I can't remember the exact phrasing, but the post where she mentioned this suggested something along the lines of "you'll see how Kamala sided with the Clave and didn't defend Anna after her coming out", therefore putting the blame on Kamala and completely disregarding the fact that Kamala wasn't in position to do much at all. It suggest that their situation was "poor Anna being mistreated by Kamala". therefore I'm afraid Kamanna's main problem/conflict will remain to be portrayed as "Anna having to allow themselves to love again and forgive Kamala", while Anna's shortcomings - and Kamala's vulnerable position - are never discussed. I think it would be possible to acknowledge both Kamala's difficult situation and the possible hurt her behaviour caused Anna without being insensitive towards Kamala's character, but it would take a really skilled - and caring - author to do both of the perspectives justice. CC would have to find a balance between being aware of the racism/prejudice Kamala faced/ writing her with lots of awareness and empathy, and still allowing her to make mistakes and acknowledging them. As it is however, I'm under impression that she's just treating it as a plot device, a relationship drama.

I'd say no one expects characters of color to be written as flawless or never making mistakes, it's mostly the way these mistakes are written and what things these characters are judged/shamed/

And that's - at least in my understanding and opinion - where the problem is. it's that the narrative never even addresses Anna's faults, and portrays Kamala as the one that caused all - or most of - the pain, without ever even acknowledging her problems and background.

White characters in TLH make mistakes and fuck up - because they're human and they're absolutely allowed to - but the thing is, non-white characters aren't afforded that privilege. Anna's behaviour is never questioned - none of it, shaming Kamala for not being able to come out, dismissing her desire to be a mother, or any of the questionable things she did in ChoI. Same with Matthew, James, Thomas. Alastair and Kamala however? they're constantly viewed through their past mistakes, and forced to apologize for them over and over, forced to almost beg for forgiveness. Moreover, those past mistakes are used as a justification of all and any shitty behaviour the other characters exhibit towards them now, which is simply unfair and cruel. They're held to a much higher standard.

So I'd like to say that yes, Kamala was in the wrong to keep nagging Anna after numerous rejections, and she was in the wrong to not inform Anna about Charles prior to them having sex - but that doesn't give Anna a free pass to constantly mistreat Kamala. And let's be real, Anna isn't stupid - while at 17 she could be naive and uninformed, I can't imagine how after years of hanging out with the Downworlders and numerous affairs and being out and judged by the Clave she's still so ignorant about Kamala's situation. I definitely think she's allowed to be hurt, but to still not understand why Kamala did what she did? Anna isn't blaming her for not telling her about Charles earlier - which would be fair - but instead for refusing to engage in an outright romance with her. She's being ignorant - and consciously so, I think.

Overall, I think you're definitely right about how coming out - or staying closeted - can be messy and hurt people in the process, especially in unaccepting environments/time periods, and I've seen enough discourse online to know there will never be a verdict/stance on this that will satisfy everyone. I, for one, would really like to refrain from putting all the blame on a single person - but, at least the way I see it, CC is pointing fingers. maybe not directly, but she is. Kamala, Alastair and Charles have no friends or support systems, and the only people in the narrative that defend them are themselves (ok, Cordelia does defend Alastair from Charles, but not from shitty takes about him and his "sins"). Also, sorry, but I don't like how you say "hid her sexuality for two years and sat back while Anna experienced homophobic comments" - it sounds very much judgemental. Kamala had every right to do that? The fact that she slept with Anna doesn't means she owed her something, and certainly not coming out and most probably destroying her life, or even defending her at the - again - expense of her own reputation, or more possibly safety.

As for Charles - it's a different issue here, at least imo - I fear that it'll be implied that his refusing to come out will is his main "sin", and therefore not something he can be judged for, which ironically, will be villainizing, but mostly will mean his actual sins are dismissed. This is where the scene with Cordelia feeling a pang of sympathy for him comes into play, and it worries me. I've never hated Charles for not wanting to come out, but rather for, let's see - grooming Alastair, disregarding Alastair's needs and feelings, disrespecting his mother, being a sexist prick, being low-key far-right coded "make Shadowhunters great again" etc.

As for sensitivity readers - I'm no expert, so I don't think my input is worth much. From what I've gathered from multiple threads/discussions on twitter, tho it is probably consulted/approved by the publisher, many authors push for that - and authors less famous and "powerful" than her. I'm not a hater, but seeing fandoms' opinions on much of her rep, I think she could do better. Because if she does have sensitivity readers, then they don't seem to be doing a great job - maybe they're friends who don't wanna hurt her feelings? Or maybe she thinks a gay guy's feedback will be enough for any queer content - which, judging by the opinions I've seen from the fans, doesn't seem to be true.

Again, these are mostly my thoughts and I'm more than open to reading other opinions, because *sigh* I really don't know how to handle this.

Bottom line - I really really don't want to be hating on the characters in general, playing God in regards to judging the struggles of minorities, or even criticising the characters too harshly for being human, flawed etc. What my main issue is is how CC handles those complex and heavy topics.

I hope I make sense and this answer satisfies you somehow - I also hope someone better equipped to answer might wanna join this conversation.

* I desperately need a reread of TLH before I engage in any more conversations like this, but I didn't wanna leave you hanging. So yeah, I might be remembering things wrong. Again, let me know, I'm very much open to being corrected as well as to further discussion.

* I use she/her pronouns for Anna because that's what she uses in canon

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thetimelordbatgirl · 3 years

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Lol, Piss Bottle is so stupid. I saw some of her comments on Youtube but I left her alone because I thought she was a 12-year-old troll. This grown-ass woman probably has a shrine of Adrien in her closet while getting down on her knees to worship Plagg. This bitch probably has a voodoo doll of Marinette stored somewhere.

She insults people in another language without knowing how to write in that particular language. She creates multiple accounts and has even impersonated users just to harass anyone who is remotely critical of Adrien.

This dumb-ass bitch thought she did something with that second account; posing as someone else to guilt-trip people when she used her ugly-ass art as a profile picture.

Not only does her artwork look like a 10-year-old drew it, but she somehow finds Omorashi innocent when it's classified as a kink/fetish.

I recommend a few things for Ms. Urinal. She can go outside and touch some grass, get a new and more healthy hobby, or get some dick/pussy (since the bitch probably needs it). She needs to get a life that isn't on Tumblr or any sort of social media outlet.

I mean....her blog is her shrine to Adrien let's be real....but I like to call her takes on Adrien and Plagg her takes....cause I am still in the camp of missing S1 Adrien and also hating Sad-Adrien to hell and back, let alone knowing Plagg wouldn't act like a pissing kwami who gets all defensive of Adrien suddenly and threatens Marinette with violence like any anti-marinette stan does. And if only it was a troll....wouldn't be at this point in that case scenario....

Don't remind me off the language thing....I can't get over her messing up google translate of all things- like I use it for my fics a-lot and can confirm, you never get fuck up like she did from google- that was a human error fully on her end, meaning she apparently couldn't even insult properly in russian. The alternate accounts things is still the most damming evidence to confirm she was determined to stalk and harass and even try and ruin other's life's by impersonating them in the process, just because of Adrien salt. And yeah, that second account was uh, something....its gone quiet since it was found she threatened someone with physical violence on it and that she was using it to guilt trip her former friends, but its old posts is basically her reblogging posts from her main blog but posing as someone else who also agrees with whatever pee girl said, so uh, ego much?

I'm not gonna judge her art-style....cause honestly, people don't have to always be an expert at art in my opinion, given I still struggle with my own art- but I can safely judge the stuff she puts within her art, aka the pee-pee kink with minors of all things who again, cannot consent to anything related to kinks.

Uhh, I do agree she should go outside and touch grass or something, cause lord knows she needs to get off the internet at this rate, but uh, don't exactly agree with the other thing, for obvious reasons concerning pee girl's private life and how I don't think sex fixes everyone's problems.

#pee girl salt #paabitb salt #like dont get me wrong i do agree with stuff here #i just feel uncomfotable with the thing at the last paragraph

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eyes-like-a-pisces · 2 years

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Hii, just sending this because I saw you reblogging that one post... I am just struggling so much right now with this feeling of never doing enough, never working hard enough, not meaning anything to society or even the people around me. I feel I am just taking up space at this point - and wasting it. I am a university student, I have good grades, my teachers are quite positive about me (I think) and I don't hear my classmates complain about me (with team work et cetera). Still, I feel such a failure, I have this feeling of restlessness. I feel extremely guilty for taking an evening off or a day off, I always feel I need to do more, to keep going, and despite it all, I feel an utter disappointment and a waste of space. Even while sometimes when I talk with fellow students, I find out they do as much as I do, or even less. Have you ever felt like this? What is the truth? Am I wrong or should I work harder? I'm not enjoying life tbh. Just felt like sharing it, curious to hear your thoughts/experiences on this.

Of course you are enough and you do enough. I know It may sound like a truism, but even if you wouldn't do anything, you are enough, just as you are. Despite of lack of academic success of career or whatever, but It seems you are doing a lot and keep trying. Give yourself some credit for that. You mentioned a lot of things you should be proud of, you try the best as you can. The best as you can is not over the limit. So why do you even feel guilty or like you are failing something or someone, if you are not failing anything?

I think It's really fucked up in our society that if you are not 100% productive all the time then you feel like a failure, while work/rest balance is soo important for our health and general well being. I see children spending most of their day at school and then doing homework till late hours and then they don't have energy for nothing more than watching tik tok or whatever. Is It how we should live? Then we grow up and do exactly the same, just realize how fucked up is that. While we could travel, sing and dance together... do anything we want. Sleep when we need, eat when we need and we can't even do that, cause we are living in this hamster wheel, all stressed and insecure, putting our frustrations on each other...

We are so small compering to the universe, It doesn't really matter what we do, but at the same time this life is all we have, so tell me what success means to you... Money, fame, praise? Or maybe you just want to be a good student for the sake of It, which is valid and I'm gonna support you in this, but not all cost, especially if It seams It all doesn't give you satisfaction. Do you remember all your grades from all the schools from the past? I don't, It doesn't matter now. I wasn't always a straight-A student, I cared about other things more in the past. Would you call me a failure or a social parasite? 😂 I even failed one semester at uni, but from the bigger, current perspective, I know It was for good, cause I had time to realize what I want to do next and what I actually care about and that I actually need money for It, so I found a job and now I'm back at uni with a different mindset.

I know It's also easy to say all this spiritual bullshit, while we have to survive, work for life etc. I also feel guilty for procrastinating or not spending my time more productively sometimes, but I know you could also live like the Dude from Big Lebowski and live to listen to your favourite music, just live for pleasure and take whatever this world got to offer and pay It back by radiating joy and chill and that would be how you would serve the society, why not? I think we all need this actually, cause this rat race is taking us nowhere.

I'm mentally hugging you sweetheart, take care of yourself 💜

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nelkey · 3 years

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Personal Ramble

So a friend was having deep thoughts, and now I'm rambling and I'm just thinking whatever, I'll post it and then bury it in my usual fandom reblogs so I don't annoy too many people xD

I've always idealized the concept of friend groups.

I've always wanted to feel the acceptance and sense of belonging within a group of people who trust each other and get along, and when I found it, for the longest time, I felt like I belonged in a very specific group of friends and I trusted them all with my life.

This is not going in the direction that something changed and I don't trust them anymore, because they're still my closest friends and it's not something that has disappeared, but in idealizing that feeling of belonging, I found myself unable to feel that way anywhere else, always feeling unwelcome and an outsider, and it caused me to really struggle when I started having a life away from them.

I had put friend groups on a pedestal, and as something I couldn't be a part of, because I thought they were formed by people who were very close and trusted each other a lot, and I wasn't that to others.

I felt very inadequate in other groups because I didn't feel like other people would want to be close friends with me or trust me, I thought I was not enough as a friend to be considered part of a group. I saw myself as a tolerable acquaintance, or, at most, someone who was sometimes enjoyable to talk to.

Since then, I've started to realize that sometimes, yeah, I have gotten treated as an outsider, so it wasn't always my own head playing tricks on me, and it was alright for me not to force myself to make myself "less of an outsider" to belong even when I thought I was supposed to, I wasn't necessarily doing anything wrong.

Other times, I've probably been accepted as a part of a group, but I was too scared of the reasons why I believed they wouldn't accept me as one of them, or as an equal, so I simply drifted away.

College hasn't been easy in that regard, but it hasn't gotten any more difficult than that either, and I'm learning how to do better.

The other day, I was hanging out with a group of both college friends and near strangers, and I realized that I couldn't feel any of the "outsiderness" that I used to feel all the time, and I didn't even need to know them very well, I just felt like I was enough as a friend and as someone to have in the group, and, even though that feeling still doesn't happen often, I'm willing to work towards it.

#personal #nelia.txt #idk why I'm posting this #this post could probably have stayed in my notes perfectly #but I guess there's something to be said for screaming into the void and putting some of your thoughts out there #and I'm also a bit proud of myself for the self-esteem I've gained #it goes to show that all my hard work in therapy is slowly paying off and it feels good

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softcherubhips · 4 years

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I need to vent. I'm aware this will probably cause some controversy. Please know that I am open to any and all interpretation and constructive criticism so please feel free to message me with ANY questions or concerns you have! I mean it when I say that I am here for you, even if you just need a shoulder to cry on or another human to vent to.

Here are some facts that I know to be true. I am white. I am an American citizen. I am a mother. I am a grandmother. I am a person who has lost someone who died from cancer. I am a recovering drug addict. I am a wife. I am bisexual. I am a Christian. I like to think of myself as a realist. I realize that white privilege exists. Do I claim to be knowledgeable of all things controversial? ABSOLUTELY NOT! Do I want to educate myself and try to learn all that I can about said controversies? ABSOLUTLEY YES!

I saw a post earlier that said, "can y'all stop reblogging those “i am not black, but i see you” post like im begging...." I consider myself to be an ally of many people and many causes including Black Lives Matter. As I stated earlier, I am white, which obviously means I'm not black. Does that mean I cannot get behind the Black Lives Matter cause? If this is the case then logically it would make sense for me to say hey you can't support ovarian cancer awareness because your mom didn't die from ovarian cancer. Right?

Listen, I know what it feels like to be in a minority. NOT in the black minority, but a minority nonetheless. I grew up on the Flathead Indian Reservation. There were 6 other white people in my high school and 2 of them were my brothers. I don't say this to gain sympathy or in any way compare it to being in a black minority. I am just saying that I had many friends that were kind to me and supported me even though we were of a different race. It's hard to be in a minority. It's very comforting when you are a minority to know that someone else supports you and cares about you despite your differences, your skin color, your customs or beliefs, your heritage and your history.

We all belong to the human race. In my heart of hearts I feel like I would categorize myself as an introvert. I often make up excuses and cancel plans so I don't have to interact with other people. I hate this about myself and it's something I am continually working on. Because I tend to isolate and use various "crutches" to escape and numb out (pills, fan fiction, food, sleep, books, movies/tv shows etc.,), it's nice to know that someone else has your back and sees you and wants to help you. It's comforting to have a cheerleader; someone who cheers you on from the sidelines and believes in you, your dreams, aspirations and potential. It's healthy and normal for us as humans to crave interaction, kindness, attention, validation, support and love.

You don't know if I have two first cousins who are married to black people and have black children who I have personally reached out to by phone and verbally voiced my support. (I do and I have.) You don't know if I have donated money to several different Black Lives Matter causes. (I have.) You don't know if I volunteered my time one Saturday afternoon at The Navajo Nation food bank in Salt Lake City. (I did.) You don't know if I own a hijab that I can wear when I visit the local Muslim Temple with my friend. (I do.) You don't know if I actively vocalize my belief that children DO NOT belong on motorcycle or ATVS; no exceptions. (I do.) *This one gets my blood boiling. I held my best friend in my arms as her 2 year old son lie dead in a little blue coffin because his father thought it would be fun to take him on a ride on his motorcycle around the block. I will not make any exceptions to this. It's not cute. It's not safe. It's not fun. Don't do it.*

You're a Catholic? GREAT! I'll quit eating candy for 40 days with you to make Lent a little less lonely. You're a Muslim? AWESOME! I'll cover your shift while you go do salat. You're a native from India? SUPER! I won't eat beef in front you because I wouldn't want to make you uncomfortable. You're a Jew? FANTASTIC! I'll help you make challah for Rosh Hashanah. You're a Native American? AMAZING! Please let me vocally support Indigenous People's Day instead of Columbus Day. You're a recovering/ active addict? REMARKABLE! Me too! Please tell me if I say or do anything that triggers you.

Do you understand what I am trying to say? We are all members of the human race. No one wants to be alone in this journey called life. It's nice to have someone there in your corner, cheering you on, whether they are quiet about it or choose to shout it from the rooftops. Call me naive, but I believe that we can COEXIST.

It all boils down to the first and great commandment....LOVE ONE ANOTHER. Even if you don't believe in God, I think we can all get behind this mantra. Just be a good human. Treat people with kindness. Choose love. Be nice to nice. Don't stand idly by while a fellow member of the human race is suffering. Do something. Say something. Stand for something. Educate yourself.

In conclusion, I will support you. Unless it is something inherently evil that you actively and vocally support, ie: nazis, white supremacy, homicide, rape, child pornography, domestic violence, etc., I will be there. In whatever capacity is comfortable for you, I will be there.

Take care my fellow humans. In my heart of hearts I choose to believe that Good will ALWAYS conquer Evil.

#i hope i was able to convey my feelings without offending anyone #although deep down i know people will always find offense in many things if it doesn't line up with their core beliefs #i am praying for all the families that have been affected by this ugly preventable tragedy #blm #may god have mercy on us all #george floyd #tpwk #eat the apple #let it burn #speak your truth #validate and accept #show respect #stand and deliver #lead me guide me walk beside me #help me find the way #speak up. speak out. speak your truth.#say my name #coexist #life's a dance #tread lightly #be gentle and humble and aware and polite and selfless and compassionate and kind and respectful and empathetic #just be a good human and do what you can in regards to your own individual situation #thank you for listening to my sincere and heartfelt opinion #✌🤟🙏🥰😘😇#if you are a person who prays i encourage you to pray for a resolution to the tragic and unfortunate circumstances that are affecting us all #i love you. i see you. i stand with you.#i bless it #all the love - liesl/lou/luna 💝#you can make a difference

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justsomeoneunordinary · 2 years

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For the fic questions themed around time: Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, August

lol i was so confused when i saw this ask cause i never reblogged that ask game. but then i saw the addition with the "sending asks in return" and got it xD

tuesday: name a fic you have posted which you think is overrated?

i don't feel like any of my fics are overrated? maybe the old drarry one but that one was while i was still on the german server so it doesn't count. i am, however, rather baffled at the amount of kudos this drabble got? it's literally just 200 words of dumb utter nonsense but it has a hundred more kudos than "on crossing paths" which is 5k long?? it's also my first and so far only fic that got translated? of all my fics this is what someone wanted to translate?? like, i wouldn't call it overrated, it's not like it's a popular fic or smth, but it did get more attention than any of my other drabbles and i just.. don't know why? but it's whatever lol

wednesday: name a fic which you have posted which you think is underrated?

"in another time" for sure. in comparison to my other winteriron fics, this one got much less attention and i just don't know why. it's still my proudest fic but... idk. doesn't seem to resonate with others.

also some of my sarahbucky ficlets, though ngl it's mostly the lack of attention on the boards than the fics that have me disappointed. i put way more effort into those than the drabbles, i'm not going to deny it. but the secret lovers fic and the last one i posted? i'm pretty proud of those, but those are exactly the ones with the fewest notes...

oh, and this pepperony ficlet too. i know it's just a nonsense ficlet but idk, it gives me lots of comfort? and it's a bit dampening that it barely got noticed at all... but that's my curse. it's always the fics i like the most that get the least attention haha :)))

friday: most self-indulgent fic you have ever posted?

difficult to tell since everything i write is what i want to read. except for a few prompts maybe. those just happened bc the muse happened to be there. but if i think abt it, it's probably "wonderwall" which is sort of an "anti"-soulmate fic. but ironically, i never finished it and therefore never posted it either so idk how much it counts

saturday: what gets you excited whilst writing?

getting to the scene i've had in my mind all along and being able to read it!!! one of the reasons why i prefer writing drabbles and ficlets is cause most of the time i just have one specific scene in mind but don't want to think of a story around it. and getting to that scene, esp when sentences already started to form in my head, is what makes me want to write, so i can read it then. it's why i write in first place

sunday: how frequently do you take requests or prompts, if at all?

lmfao uhm. okay so i still have 12 unanswered prompts in my inbox and they're all over a year old by now xD and i don't want to take new prompts until i answered the old ones' but at the same time i am just. not doing the old ones sooo... i'm not sure how i'm supposed to answer the question xD

august: are any of your fics associated with certain genres/artists/songs/etc?

i'm a bit confused at the genre part since every piece of writing belongs to a genre? unless they meant music genre? not sure how a writing could be inspired by music genre but maybe i'm just not imaginative enough. anyway, apart from one songfic from forever ago i can't think of one, no. some of my fics have song titles but that's bc i'm terrible at titling fics and just go through my playlist to see if a title fits lol. i rarely ever pay much attention to the lyrics, i just vibe with the sound and that alone is not enough to inspire me tbh

thanks for sending these! you didn't have to but thank you anyway <3

#sarahwilsonbarnes-main #may answers

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