#which will fuck you over in the end

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[chibiveneficus]

IT'S LITERAL ROBOT NOISES

#bang brave bang bravern #no lie i've been thinking about what gagapi means this past week #how these super advance robots came to communicate with gagapi #and NEVER in a MILLION FUCKING YEARS #WOULD IT HAVE THOUGHT #THAT THEY WERE LITERALLY!! GOING!! BEEP BOOP!! #im crying #tbqh this makes the end scene of ep5 with the deathdriver monologuing over burning tokyo a hell of a lot funny #which you know what? is perfect for this show.

[midnightdemonhunter]

But don't worry. By then, he wants to.

(@romanromulus :D )

#saw movies #mark hoffman #peter strahm #hoffstrahm #midnight draws #sdate #op found the first art piece so i was obligated to finally properly draw the second! #i dunno if i can pick a fav between these fics honestly. the time loop is a comfort fic and i dunno if i can ever read this one again #the ugly sobs it got out of me....but so so good #disturbing highlights include: #strahm's thoughts on being quiet when hoffman gets home shifting over the story from ironic to unironic. incredibly cool and fucked up #uhhhh all the dad stuff. WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME....... #everything about the ending. HOFFMAN WAS IN THE FUCKING BASEMENT!!! HE WAS TRAPPED. HE WOULD HAVE COME BACKKK #i didnt wanna die...i didnt wanna die either....the final dream....... #death of the self vs death of the body....which is worse.... #anyway yeah this fic. god #one day i will leave proper comments too!!! for now: normal art. anyway please read into this

[grand-line-shenanigans]

And the dance floor is filling up with blood

But oh lord, you've never been so in love

#hxh #hunter x hunter #hisoillu #hisoka morow #illumi zoldyck #my art #FREAKS. TEAR EACH OTHER APART. #i dk if i. actually am satisfied with this one? but idk what else to do with it so #here it is #i DID research cartomancy for this but ultimately decided in the end to go off vibes more so #second time drawing hisoka. i hate him i hate him i hate him i h #damn it. hes so fun to draw #anyways you know that instrumental solo bit 3.18 mins into Welcome To The Jungle by Guns N Roses #you know thatone #that fucking slaps. that instrumental bit... #sorry im like a dad the way i go feral over classic rock #but anyways #lyrics from Mermaids by FaTM which i love i love i love i love #listen to Mermaids. do it. listen to Mermaids. #another good hisoillu song in my hyperfixations playlist is The Innocent by Aurora #id in alt

[somewhereincairparavel]

lmao I just finished defending an artist who got dragged into negativity unnecessarily simply because he drew Jason as a volleyball captain instead of Percy in an AU.

The comment was basically whining that Jason shouldn't have been better at volleyball than Percy, and that Percy should've been drawn as captain. Can y'all obsessive Percy fans/Jason antis stop pushing your opinion onto other people for once and make them uncomfortable? Like womp womp, Jason can be better at stuff than Percy, stop projecting your hatred onto him, Percy doesn't need to be good at everything, well, Unless you want him to be an invincible, one dimensional, all mighty Gary Stu who is the only one who can shine. It's giving a cartoon hero with all the plot armour and powers. Y'all r ruining canon Percy's depth with this aswell by giving him no minor flaw. But That's on you.

They're fictional characters for fucks sake, leave artists alone, stop coming into their page and tell them what to do or how to imagine a character. That's like going into someone's house and telling them to change the interiors. Get a life.

The percy obsession coming at the expense of disrespecting others, artists, specifically for having contrary opinions is seriously going to be the downfall of this fandom, y'all are going to drive ppl away with this bashing, and it better fucking stop.

Either appreciate their art, which they spent hours for, or go cry elsewhere, stop killing their mood and vibe with baseless opposing opinions when all they want to do is share their work and headcanons. It doesn't contribute a thing.

#Sometimes obsessive percy fans get real whiny till the point it gets fucking irritating #Like no you are not 'cool' if you hate Jason nor are you cool for commenting that on someone's art which they spent time and effort for #Boohoo ig just bc u indulge in Jason slander doesn't mean everyone else does #Jason Grace slander is overrated anyway periodt. #Jason Grace is allowed to be drawn a volleyball captain over Percy. it's not a big deal. Percy won't be cryin his eyes out for this shit #the world isn't gonna end if a fictional character is not drawn as a sports captain goddamn it. #pjo #percy jackson #pjo fandom #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #pjo hoo #jason grace #heroes of olympus #pjo fanart #hoo #the heroes of olympus #riordanverse #annabeth chase #leo valdez #piper mclean #frank zhang #hazel levesque

[arthurtaylorlester]

so like do you ever think about john doe

#sorry guys hes taking over ny brain again #his situation is so fucked up what the hell 😭😭 #like yeah ok objectively arthur kinda has it worse #but imagine #you get torn from your former self and trapped in a book #then after killing multiple people you finally find a suitable host #but then you get attached and now youre no longer your former self #then your new human friend (who is quite literally all you have (and want)) kills himself to save you #even after you betrayed him and lied to him. multiple times #and you get separated and when you come back hes angry at you for having changed #but you had to make a deal with the literal devil to keep him alive and be together again #you work through it but then you have fulfil you end of the deal which indirectly causes him to meet this fucking priest #who is MONOPOLISING on your person’s attention #and since you seem to be suffering some form amnesia you desperately cling to normalcy – to when it was just the two of you #(but you know deep down you’re never going to be enough for him because he deserves more than a fractured monster imitating humanity) #(because he deserves the /world/ and if you could you would give it to him) #so you try to chop that priests arm off (he asked to be fair) #wouldnt that be fucked up #malevolent #unhinged aromantics #malevolent podcast #arthur lester #john doe #john malevolent #arthur malevolent #malevolent john #malevolent arthur

[purplink8]

Can I be real for a second? I don't think L giving a foot massage to Light was very in-character of him. Like manga!L would've totally scoffed at how pathetic anime!L appeared when he did that.

I like the rain scene bc it's really pretty (also Light MOANS bc of L? *sighs* yeah i ship lawlight) but I'm always so ?? at anime!L's behavior? The anime made L way too melancholic and y'know self-deprecating kinda guy. In contrast, manga!L (whom I love to death) is so so confident in doing what he's doing and has the time of his life during the Kira case as he's intellectually challenged (by Light) as he figures out the case little by little.

I don't get where the anime creators got the idea that L is a very sad character who cares about justice so much so that he's actually Justice itself? Manga!L enjoys solving cases. I'm not saying that L doesn't care about justice at all- just that he cares more about winning.

So, the anime creators looked at a character who cares about winning (& his own ego) than everything else and decided to... make him give a foot massage to his nemesis (surprise surprise bible symbolism featuring L as Jesus *🤮* coming up) apparently due to accepting Light's (boy's first debut as Judas) 'betrayal' how can there be betrayal when there was no trust between them in the first place and saying "It is the least I can do to atone for my sins"...

The only way I could've made a little sense of this is if L was mocking Kira with that line but the anime just had to go above & beyond to make it (L's actions) seem too genuine for that to be true. which is. so. FRUSTRATING

Manga!L wouldn't have done anything like that. Not even ironically (he'd have thought it to be below him for pretending to be accepting his defeat mockingly to Kira). Even Manga!L's not enough of a bastard to try to compare himself with Jesus (and just after knowing (god knows how) that he's going to die)- like that's too stupid omg: even for a mockery.

Does he actually think that Light would pick up on the (him as Jesus) symbolism and be like 'oh no! L is too noble like Jesus to die by my betrayal i'm such a bad judas how come i NEVER NOTICED THIS BEFORE'... and decide to spare L's life? Or embrace his inner Judas like the bad bitch he is and finish L for that godawful mockery of Jesus?

Whenever I think about Anime!Light's in-character reaction I crack up as it would be smth like 'wow this guy who graduated summa cum laude from torture university is pretending to be Jesus? lol what a real piece of work. would've expected better from you L: so pathetic lmao i hope rem kills you soon i'm so done with you rn- rip 💀'

Manga!L (if he knew he were going to die (don't know how that's possible in the anime; still we're talking about how the anime creators seem to see L as Jesus so ~anything is possible~) that is) would never go 'guess i'll die' accept his defeat offering a foot massage to his enemy and inwardly throw a pity party being all "… It'll be lonely, won't it?" GIRL you were the one going on & about how you'd EXECUTE Kira once you catch him on live tv (also saying that you'd bring Kira's head to the task force) I REALLY doubt you'd feel lonely if either one of you were to die- that (killing each other) was the point!!

Manga!L is a selfish character: he values his victory above all else so the anime making him accept defeat that easily + gracefully doesn't sit well with me.

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #manga vs anime #manga!L #anime!L #anime!Light #the rain scene #the foot massage scene #yes i ship lawlight; no i don't think the rain scene was very faithful to L's character in the manga; yes we exist #as you can see i rlly RLLY don't like anime's take on L: i prefer the og manga!L :) #anime!L just isn't my cup of tea #manga!L's confidence in his assholery is much rather appreciated #i keep thinking about how i don't like certain parts of dn anime: the first of which being this rain scene #the second being how the anime handles Sayu's kidnapping and Light's reaction to it #but that's a can of worms i'll open later #i can't shut up apparently so here's a teaser: Light wouldn't have MURDERED Sayu OH MY GOD READ THE GODDAMN MANGA #in which he bends over backwards to protect her! and succeeds!! (at the cost of losing the death note to Mello) would you look at that?? #yeah i'm aware anime!Light doesn't kill Sayu but the way he's shown seriously considering it #(and choosing to let her live only so as to not increase suspicion) #leaves me so ANGRY #SAYU MEANS A LOT TO LIGHT OK? #he would not fucking do that #aaaaand....end rant #p #my meta #sorta #100

[tswwwit]

I want a bill whump so bad, if dipper falls in love with bill every time he reincarnates but hes also a little bit different in every reincarnation, could there be one where hes almost entirely replused by bill, or already in love with someone else?

We all love to see that terrible little man struggling! Typically hurting Bill is accomplished via Dipper-death, but this is a neat alternate scenario. You know he's definitely going to start out totally full of himself! Winning his husband back should be easy! Until he realizes he has no idea how he did it in the first place.

#answers #To really squeeze the good Angst Juice from a ripe Cipher you gotta put him in a position where he's helpless *despite* being so powerful #Killing Dipper off is a classic; Bill's got a lot of skills but full-on resurrection is outta his wheelhouse #The 'not in love' scenario offers another route that would be fun #One neat part of Bill is his lack of introspection #Sure of course Dipper fell for him! Why wouldn't he! He's great! #It's only when *forced* to look over the situation that Bill has to face facts: He didn't do that on purpose #No manipulation; no clever trick. Not something he can just *repeat* easily #He's gonna be REAL unhappy with trying to get THAT going around again #Of course it ends with him finally winning Dipper over once he STOPS trying to manipulate him into it #For that full-circle narrative #Which is a Good Ending for Bill! But leaves him with the lingering 'what the fuck' of STILL not knowing how he got it done #That's gonna bug you for ages now isn't it Bill

[silo1013]

salvaged from the office fire in 1998

#my art #the x files #dana scully #fox mulder #alex krycek #i was talking about this on twitter yesterday but #i have a LOTTTTTT a lot of thought about this part of season two #mainly because i think that while scully probably realized she was never going to find peace ever again after emily #i do believe that the last time mulder ever thought everything would be okay was right before scully’s abduction #which is also kind of why i think mulder was closer to killing himself in ascension than in gethsemane #at the end of season four mulder is kind of resigned to his and scully’s lives unravelling #he’s more suspicious and slower to trust then he ever was #while ascension was the first time he was like. Oh okay. It’s over for us forever and ever #and the fact that he was still open and still kind of okay before that just kind of makes it worse #that he was just betrayed and left hanging and lost everyone he thought he had in one fell swoop #ascension jades the fuck out of him and you can see it. like through the whole series there are threads of it #his tendency to rely on skinner regresses for a while. he becomes even less functional when scully is gone. #he has far less patience for his informants and he refuses to rely on anyone the way he tried to on krycek #like it’s just. such an obvious shift in his character that you can tell his mindset about his and scully’s life has changed #and that’s a huge part of the show’s tragedy i think. ​there is no peace. there is no rest. it’s never going to be okay

[oifaaa]

You're the only person on this hellsite that I actually respect

Dude fr im honoured but Markiplier is also on this website

#ask #anon #and im not that respectable #fun fact #i got a huge nostalgia kick today #and for some reason #decided to read a yoai i had not read since i was like 15 #bc i was curious how it ended #turns out it hadnt #the last chapter i could find #the main boy still hasn't confessed #which its been over 10 years #you two fuck every chapter #how the fuck are you not official yet #anyway i dont think this is the behaviour respectable people get up to

[nayruwu]

went back to try and count our dead shinya flashbacks!

number 1, chapter 54

number 2, chapter 99

number 3, chapter 110

number 4, chapter 113

number 5, somehow also chapter 113

number 6, chapter 131

so that means six and counting!

#unless i missed something in which case please tell me #i am once again crying over the fucking artstyle... #it was fine last chapter but that was the little ones #they just don't seem to be affected #anyway. did you guys know shinya died? #owari no seraph #seraph of the end #shinya hiiragi #guren ichinose #gureshin #other people collect postage stamps or pretty rocks #i collect dead shinya flashbacks

[haemosexuality]

why are so many adventure time fans just straight up stupid. about how stories work. and i dont even mean kids i mean like adult fans just with the absolutely dumbest takes

#i was watching a streamer react to f&c which ok i admit i brought this upon myself #but oh my godddddd #''i think farmworld finn's wife was pb'' even ignoring that one of his kids looks exactly like human huntress wizard WHAT #WHY IN THE HELL WOULD THAT BE TRUE. AFTER THEYVE SPENT S I X S E A S O N S SHOWING WHY PBXFINN COULD NEVER BE A THING #LITERALLY SEVERAL SEASONS SHOWING 1-PB WILK NEVER LIKE FINN BACK THEY ARE INCOMPATIBLE 2-FINN HAS MOVED ON HE HAS ACCEPTED THAT AND GOTTEN #OVER HIS CHILDHOOD LOVE ON HER AND ONLY AFTER THAT THEY WERE ABLE TO FORM A FRIENDSHIP #THATS LIKE ONE OF THE MAIN THINGS OF THE SHOW #WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY TAKE THAT BACK AND MAKE HIM HAVE FUCKING KIDS WITH HER IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE????????? #''did prismo just die in the end of episode 4??? oh no what a mystery'' oh yeah dude they totally killed off one of the most important #characters in like 5 seconds with almost no ceremony. without even acknowledging it. thats totally how character deaths work #this is totally plausible #''what the fuck im gonna get so mad of simon actually becomes ice king again'' ARE YOU STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF ''CREATING A CONFLICT AND THEN RESOLVING IT'' #HOLY FUCKING SHIT #sorry this is making me go insane a little bit. #adventure time #fionna and cake #every time i see some guy mention pbxfinn and a thing that could have happened i fly into a rage. you are so fucking stupid. you have the #mental capabilities of a child. never open your mouth again. #as a thing* that could have happened

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 Japan Post-Qualifying

#dedicated to the anon who asked me if i knew which gp this was from! i ended up being right hehehe #AND thank you so so so much to suzuki-ecstar for finding and sending me the clip!!!! i appreciate it sm!!!! <3 #(ik told you already but actually the clip you sent is better than the original archive i had so im very happy) #i know a super old post of this already exists but now pls take my offering of it w higher quality/frame rate!! #im usually not a huge fan of this seb hair era but godddddd he looks so good in this #i will never get over the 2nd gif of jense play-punching him #ive seen it a million times by now but this one is better quality than any of the others and im fucking dying #THEY'RE SO ENDEARING WHY WERE THEY LIKE THISSSSSSSSS #and mark's there too i guess...(kidding hahaha but god his live slug react game is strong) #okay also must say now that im in a different time zone i have absolutely no fucking idea when to post its so confusing to me #jenson button #sebastian vettel #sebson #mark webber #jb22 #sv5 #2011 japanese grand prix #2011 japanese gp #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #formula one

[ciderbird]

me explaining to people how preventing the assassination of Paul I of Russia would cause the downfall of the British Empire in the XIX century

#but some of yall are not ready for this conversation #paul i #paul i of russia #napoleonic wars #listen it makes sense i swear #why do you think England funded his murder? #because they knew he was planning a joint campaign against them with napoleon #and say what you will about Paul but unlike Alexander the man always put his money where his mouth is #he gave the boot to Louis XVIII as soon as he established diplomatic relations with Napoleon and told the english ambassador to fuck off #he was so pissed at england over the Ionian Islands he would have launched a campaign against them by himself #and unlike Alexander Paul gave 0 shits about what his nobles and courtiers wanted or approved of #which is why he got offed in the end BUT IMAGINE

[b4kuch1n]

The only thing I’ve ever wanted is to have total power over a single life.

#bakuspecial #eye strain #cw: gun #ask to tag #hi this is about hedda gabler #a translated version of which I went see last night! #it is! really good! I was like Insane over the stage and light design #like. the stage is tilted toward the audience. so whatever's going on at the back you can see the whole way through #there's an actual shredder on stage. hedda throws flowers in there whenever she gets mad #at the beginning of the second act a single bulb hung from a string lowered from the light rig #and then at the end the whole rig lowered and hedda swung on a swing made of the single bulb's strings #it was Fucking Good #so good that I drew. these #fksjfhdskj this is like. idk this feels like exactly the thing I did years ago for like. spirou and stuff #I probably understand colors a bit better than I did then? but I feel like the ~~aesthetics~~~ is the same lmao #well. it deserves it. that was once again Fucking Good #commemoration! #man. the chair. throughout the whole play there's this empty chair the characters keep dressing up in all kindsa clothes #and the servant character sat right outside the tilted stage #and by the end she's in the empty chair. I have Emotions about theater #my two years of prop work experience is coming back to me fskjdfhkdsj #I did have that to thank for a Lot of how I do my comic stuff tbh so! I think this is good. this is probably good

[kindaorangey]

worst part of the iwbft ending is rowan saying "not all maniacal fans are what i thought they were" and waving and smiling at the girls who stalked them to the hospital. like no king you got physically assaulted three days ago i think you're allowed to double down on your hatred actually

#iwbftreread #LIKE okay. he needs to get over his blind hatred of them. and he does. BUT #he's also been the person pushing the most for the new contract which robs him of so much more free time and privacy #the final note for him shld be an understanding that it doesnt have to be one or the other (blindly hating fans or smiling like its all ok) #basically i wish the ending of iwbft reasserted the idea that its okay for the ark boys to hear their fans say 'i love you' #and for them to respond with 'NO YOU FUCKING DONT' #bo burnham style #iwbft #osemanverse #thunder rambles