#yeah i'm never deleting them

[kdramaxoxo]

Never forget that Lee Junho’s instagram account used to be nothing but grainy pics of him and his cats. 

I’m so glad I saved a bunch of them so we can still get our dopamine!

#lee junho #bias #2pm junho #king the land #masterpiece #not that i don't enjoy his photoshoot selfies #and set pics #but listen #these pics are the literal best!! #soft kitty boy #I think I have like 30 more?? #yeah i'm never deleting them

[nikatyler]

missed his lighter hair era a bit

#ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims #simblr #breeze nsb legacy extra #oc: ross #for those who weren't here abt 5 years ago #he was turned as an older man so his hair was a bit lighter colour #but he 'got younger' during the transformation #well his hair stayed. and he has a tiiiiny little bit of wrinkles. just a little bit barely noticeable but he has them (and i love that btw #then he got burnt to ashes lol what a time #and when he was brought back for some reason the game gave him his original haircolour #which i'm not complaining about bc it's such a nice colour. one of my faves #but the lighter hair was a vibe too #he also really pulls off black imo but he never canonically had black hair. not even dyed #blonde was a vibe too. i think he briefly had that after i accidentally deleted the recolour and then put in the wrong one lol #did i ever bleach his hair for a picture to like really pale blond white or something. don't think so. well. well... #you know what's coming your way soon because of course it is #for reasons. iykyk #listen it's canon that every media that has a vampire in it that i'm obsessed with ross is also obsessed with. soooo yeah

[hamartia-grander]

Hi so ao3 decided to suspend my account until march 3rd because I added the tag "this is an ada wong loving zone. ada haters die" to one of my fics, which they have also hidden, and I'm incredibly fucking frustrated for obvious reasons but yeah uh if you can't see my fic Another Time it's because ao3 fucking took it down without warning me or letting me remove the tag. So there's that.

#I'm literally shaking #“harassment” for fuck's sake I'm not attacking anyone I'm telling idiots to stay away from my fucking fic #like yeah okay maybe i shouldn't have said the word “die”. in technical terms that is considered bad. #but still wtf am I gonna do like it's a stupid tag #they said they'll put it back up if I delete the tag once my suspension ends but until mar 3rd i cannot post edit or delete ANY content #INCLUDING comments on OTHER PEOPLE'S fics #which is fucking insane #also who fucking reported me because this fic has been up for MONTHS and I never got word so there's no way it's just ao3 doing it randomly #what misogynist was so pressed that i don't want them reading my fics #edit: i double checked the email and they straight up said someone reported me. lol.

[felizusnavidad]

if there's one thing that is absolutely pissing me off it's my irl friend who wanted to see my instagram account

#i didn't really want to show it to him but i may have mentioned that i started this account #because he keeps talking about tiktok all the time #and he said he wanted to see it so i was like yeah ok why not it would be nice to know i have his support #and ever since he followed me he never liked any of my posts #any of my stories (& he keeps viewing them all the time literally seconds after i post them) #he never said a single word about this account #he even resists texting me there even tho i said i don't use my priv anymore #(i deleted facebook & messenger so we only text on instagram) #& it drives me crazy because i feel like he's probably just laughing at me in secret & i feel embarrassed #& i regret showing it to him #i don't even need him to read my stupid posts but it would be nice to hear one good word like #idk #it doesn't matter ignore me i'm just mad #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[veilder]

Chapters: 6/6 Fandom: Detroit: Become Human (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Connor/Gavin Reed, Gavin Reed & Upgraded Connor | RK900, Connor & Upgraded Connor | RK900, Hank Anderson & Upgraded Connor | RK900 Characters: Upgraded Connor | RK900, Gavin Reed, Connor (Detroit: Become Human), Hank Anderson, Tina Chen, Chris Miller (Detroit: Become Human) Additional Tags: Secret Admirer, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Romantic Comedy, Oblivious Gavin Reed, NOT Reed900, (But their friendship is very important to me), Does Connor know what he's doing? Probably not, Warning: Gavin's Potty Mouth, Nines is a Bro, Nines' POV, Connor & Upgraded Connor | RK900 are Siblings, Good Parent Hank Anderson Summary:

Detective Gavin Reed had quite the reputation surrounding his name. Needless to say, no one had ever referred to the mulish, belligerent, often downright hostile detective as a hopeless romantic.

Which is why Nines found the current proceedings so fascinating.

 Or, the one where Gavin has a Secret Admirer and Nines discovers his surly partner has untold depths.

#Veil's Writing #dbh #detroit become human #fanfic #fanfiction #gavin reed #connor rk800 #nines rk900 #hank anderson #convin #posting this because I never have before on Tumblr and I'm super excited about the milestone it just reached!!! :D #thank you so much to all my readers!!! y'all gonna make me cry wow 😭😭😭 #I should like... go find the deleted scenes from this and post them or something #I still have them all saved XD #that'd make for a cool little celebration yeah? #idk I'll think about it XD

[arrietty-rune]

Sometimes i feel useless and annoying

#//vent #my vent art is... normal sometimes like this one so okay to rb but idk might delete later or removing the tags #i use a lot the wilsons as confort ch actually #idk sometime i feel like i'm not that appreciated in the fandom idk despite my heart know it's wrong #i think it just bc i overthink about some tawog artists that i enjoyed giving support for months but they never interacted with me #and for one of them their art and cute doodles helped me in personal stuff + brought me back to tawog fandom #and i hoped to make them smile with my art but.. yeah they just... don't care after these months #I get sad and disappointed that now they art send just... /neg vibes so i unfollowed them #idk i just feel guit that i made them upset for... unknown reasons #sigh i should just don't care about that and keep to draw dor myself #cringy or not #i'm mostly an optimistic person but overthink a lot when i feel anxious haha #i'll be probably smile and enjoy life again tomorrow #if ppl wanna talk or sending cute ask ye you can #talking with ppl help me to confort so feel free

[silverselfshippingchaos]

hm.

#fucking hell. do you guys ever think about how normalized racism against indians is? I know i do #god.. why can't i just exist? why is it so normal to be so fucking disgusting about my people? i've spent my whole life thinking i'm #unattractive and ugly because of my body hair and my brown skin and the shape of my nose and the smell of my food #why can't i have all the sweet things the pretty girls have? will i ever be perceived as the same as them? will i always be unattractive? #my relationship with my culture is.. complicated. but still... it hurts so much. it weighs on me so heavily #sure i make jokes so often but i'm not exactly a shining beacon of peak self esteem. i think that how my people are percieved is a huge par #of why i feel that way about myself. it's to the point where i think my f/os would be better off dating someone else or wouldn't like me #because they'd think my culture is 'weird' #idk man. i've just been having a night #i saw some a.qua ship art and fell down a rabbit hole and spiraled. wow... would she even like me at all? or find me attractive in any way? #this is so unlike me y'all LMAAOOO you know how they say you should never listen to your thoughts past 9pm? yeah. it's almost 1am rn- #i should go to bed. i'll be okay. just been a lot going on and even more on my mind #sigh.. #vent #i'll delete this later gamers #goodnight pals

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

the MOST terrifying thing is getting a surprise message from someone you genuinely despise

#hush n shush wifi #not brainrot #NOBODY HERE DON'T WORRY #remember that absolute asshole of a person who said nasty things to me out of the blue months ago? #yeah it was them #i completely forgot they followed me somewhere else because i never use that account for anything #and when we did talk on there it was via a different account that they deleted #luckily it was a mistake and they meant to send it to someone else so heavy bullet dodged there #anyways they are now blocked there too like they are everywhere else #because after that happened i decided i was done with people being mean to me #i was ready to turn VIOLENT #i'm surprised they didn't block me there first since they initiated the split #but oh well more satisfaction for me #sorry seeing a message from them brought back all sorts of bad feelings #so i might be a little short and impatient today #need a moth to snuggle with right now

[roobylavender]

although i have a lot of hard feelings about romance novels and often come out of them 9/10 times with hatred and embarrassment laced into my heart i do think most people can agree that romance novels at large have developed in response to the control over people's sexual lives and how that's subsequently led to a desperate desire from the sexually repressed to be equal participants in a sexual environment. it's not so much that women want to be in relationships with dominant men to whom they play housewife or baby incubator or worse. it's that women want to be in relationships at all. and because the standard for relationships at large is the nuclear family, this is what subsequently shows up in your literature. why do you think religious women in particular are such a huge audience for romance novels despite the often conservative environment they grow up in? it's bc the consumption of romance novels does not exist in spite of that conservatism but bc of it. to be gatekept from any expression of sexual desire until you marry or until you fornicate for the purposes of having a child is to breed in young women a desire for what we would now no longer consider practices entailing any self-respect. you're kept in an ideological cage all of your life, naturally you reach for what's immediately out of reach rather than consider that there could be more out there that is available to you. it sucks! it's sad, it's horrific, it makes me wanna cry. but i can also never quite blame women for it bc they're not the ones who've created this environment of sexual conservatism (ie the real puritan culture, the one that hypersexualizes virgins by obsessively protecting their chastity prior to marriage bc said chastity can only ever belong to one man). man has. religion has. patriarchy has. why would i focus my hatred on women who are merely coping with the status quo rather than the systems in place that we actually have to change to allow for more sexual freedom and agency?

#to be deleted #like to tell you the truth. do i consider myself to be more self aware than most romance novel readers. yeah #but i'm twenty six. i grew up in a household where dating and sex were completely forbidden and i still live in it #and at all times i feel like i am constantly yoyoing between 'do i want to get married just so i can experience what sex is like' #and 'sex sounds horrid and controlling and disgusting and i would rather die a virgin' #sometimes i feel insanely deprived of an outlet and yet i don't ever pursue one bc the associated psychological guilt is unbearable #and then on top of it i'm a born hater so whatever high i presumably /could/ get from romance novels i simply. don't #but that's not the case for every woman. not every woman is born a hater nor has the mental fortitude for that #some of them want to cope. and idk i feel so bad like it makes me feel actively. depressed that this is what they have to turn to #bc they genuinely don't understand that there's more. that what's being held away from them like a reward #isn't actually a reward. it's bare minimum. it's exactly what religion and patriarchy want them to do #and unfortunately i am nonetheless party to it! i am convinced i could never kiss or have sex with a woman even though i vaguely want to #bc the religious guilt is supreme. it rules my brain despite not ruling it in so many other areas

[taegularities]

being here has never felt this suffocating.. it feels impossible sometimes to continue

#i wish you'd talked to me about it instead of making a post with screenshots #because that was nothing i did intentionally... i didn't wake up thinking 'i will be racists today' it was a mistake i'm not proud of #i meant my apology and i said i understand when people are offended and that i'm sorry #i know it was wrong and i'm ready to learn from it to not hurt people anymore and idk why it warrants calling me a full racist #and i don't know how you saw that ask bc it was days (or yesterday? idk anymore) ago and you blocked me weeks (months?) ago #you'd have to actively seek that ask out or look through my posts if im blocked for you #and if it wasn't you but someone else who pointed it out for you idk how you guys got to the point of scanning my blog #if i ever hurt anyone im ALWAYS open to talking about it. i remember once using a word wrong and someone pointed it out on anon #and I've never used that word ever since #i would've immediately apologised and deleted that bit too if you'd texted me just one sentence a la 'hey that's so not okay' #and you did the same thing when i went alway last time... never communicating but going against me while so many others reached out to me #if i didn't see anything wrong about this thing now i wouldn't have made that post. im not scared of disagreeing with ppl #and i don't know what you want me to do? i didn't even know M when their thing happened and still felt bad for them.. me or those who are #defending me didn't go against M... how would you think it's the same people? idk man #idk.. i can apologise a 100 times and it won't be okay. and if i don't say anything im dodging the topic it'll never be enough no matter #what i do #reach out to me jords tell me what i can do bc i did NOT mean to ever hurt anyone and im so freaking sorry that i did #<— this msg especially to those who were directly hurt #idk what to do so you stop posting so many screenshots #if you want ppl to stop supporting me then...yeah idk guys stop supporting me — unfollow me it's absolutely okay bc i know that was #uneducated af of me #to all sweet ppl who reached out thank you i see your messages #i'll see all those that'll come too.. i just wont answer so no one drags y'all #thank you that's it #go ahead and screenshot this too. i can't do anything else anymore #also.. the only parts i edited in my apology were 'i didn't mention japanese' and 'i dont feel superior' which i did after waking up cos #my post was made at 5am after randomly waking up during the night #edit: stop sending my friends asks saying i deserved this. i never told anyone to defend me.. they CHOSE it and they're allowed to #that's it... thank you guys and ily #ill brb. not too long just a bit

[girlscience]

trying to get to better as a person is so nauseating. was lonely yesterday so i messaged friends to try and plan hang outs. forced myself to ask about reference letters today even though i turned bright red and felt like crying. messaged friends tonight to ask if they could help keep me accountable so i don't feel like i'm doing everything alone. barf. i hate this. i want to hide in a hole

#THIS IS GOOD FOR ME IT WILL HELP BUT IT REQUIRES CHANGE #and i am realizing maybe i am significantly worse with change than i thought i was #ie my parents and sister and a few other people think i should apply to more schools #specifically more schools outside my comfort zone #and it would be so cool!!!! but it requires me to change the idea of 4 schools to like 6 or 8 #and change from a few hours from home to like a days drive away or FARTHER #and this is already going to change my whole life's routine #and i'll be away from all my friends and family already #and i am just remembering how awful that was the first go around in undergrad #and maybe i am super scared of that happening again #and also i need to reach out about GA positions and that means i have to talk to professors #which is scary and also a change from undergrad cause i avoided talking to them as much as possible #and i am just AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #so. hopefully some of this will help but also. i am crying inside. a lot. #i also need to change my fanfic habits because i honestly think it is like... the most time sucking thing in my life #and part of me wishes i never started reading fic because it gets in the way of me doing literally everything else i need to do #but stopping or even just cutting down on it is killer #but on the bright side i have been on youtube a lot less recently and leave it deleted off my phone for longer periods of time #which is good!!! it means i'm not on my phone as much #but yeah. stuff and things and trying to do stuff that's good for me is the worst

[thethingything]

I find it kind of interesting that we have a couple of delusions (and the hallucinations that come with those) that just kind of involve gruesome stuff happening to us, especially because they weren't as gruesome at first but have gotten more so over time.

the hallucinations are all somatic ones (sensations instead of visuals or audio) but they're stuff like I guess what our brain thinks it would feel like if our organs were decomposing, or being eaten by maggots, or just stuff with a similar vibe to that?

I can put up with it for the most part, but like I did nearly throw up on the bed because of it earlier and I'd really like to not experience that again

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #emetophobia tw #vent post #<- I guess? I mean it kinda sucks but I'm not that upset about it right now #anyway this is partly from the Cotard's delusion and partly because we also get delusions involving being parasitised #I think they're kind of linked together for us. like there's a similar vibe to them somehow #anyway the Cotard's delusion is like... it flares up every so often and gets really intense #but otherwise it's mostly just there in the background as like ''yeah that's a thing we experience'' but not affecting us that much #it's hard to explain how we usually feel about it when it's not flaring up really intensely #but at the moment it is flaring up so it's like... okay I guess this is what we're doing for the foreseeable future #idk we might just wake up later and be like ''oh never mind'' or it might flare up for a few weeks or whatever #also talking about this is wild because like I've definitely mentioned us having it but I'm still aware that everything says it's super rar #even though we've met multiple other people who have it and we had it for years without knowing it had a name or anything #but I'm still paranoid about getting fakeclaimed because people like to be like ''that's so rare. there's no way you can have that'' #like idk what to tell you buddy my brain is convinced that I'm dead and that my organs are decomposing. I'm not happy about it either #being able to double-bookkeep and know we're experiencing a delusion also makes it weirder #because it's like yeah I know it sounds ridiculous and is technically impossible but my brain has decided that none of that matters #and me being like ''well that can't be true'' feels like being in denial so even though I know it's a delusion #a lot of the time it's easier to just lean into it and go ''okay sure I guess I'm dead. who gives a shit'' #anyway let's see how I end up feeling after talking about this because either I'll post it and be like ''yeah this is fine'' #or I'll get paranoid about being fakeclaimed or people being like ''what the actual fuck'' and end up deleting it

[musical-chick-13]

One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

#like. okay. for example. 2019 me: 'better do cleaning compulsions because oh no what if I get the Plague™' #fast forward a year to covid and that was genuinely a very real possibility. I could LITERALLY catch the plague #or on a smaller more personal scale: 'no one is going to screenshot a Bad Line™ of your fic and publicly make fun of it online-people #don't do that it'd be so extra why tf would you be afraid of that happening' except I JUST saw someone literally do that. so we engage in #Avoidance Compulsions™ as a protective mechanism because the only way to avoid a feared outcome is to never do anything! 🙃🙃 #and okay yeah these things are not created equal and one of them probably doesn't actually matter the point I'm trying to make is that #this shit affects my life on EVERY level and I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FOR IT NOT TO DO THAT #I AM TIRED OF THE BRAIN DISEASE BEING HERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE A MENTALLY HEALTHY PERSON PLEASE #*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun #mc13 and her ocd #I'll probably delete this later because it most likely makes me look completely and utterly absurd if not straight-up stupid #(no one ELSE with this disease or fears is absurd or stupid btw. just me. it's only me who is A Problem™) #(yes I know how that sounds. I know okay.)

[arcaneyouth]

i'm starting to think living with 5 other people may simply be a problem

#vent post #negative #i've come to the conclusion i'm not getting enough sugar in my daily meals #(which is. ironic in a lot of ways. but i don't know what else the problem would be) #and that's great that's cool that i've come to this conclusion. i don't think i can solve this one #we don't buy that much sugary or junk food stuff anymore #my dad's got diabetes that makes sense that's understandable #so a lot of our family meals are like rice and meat and a salad #but yknow i'm not really gonna ask my parents to change that! it's been like that for a long time now it's fine it's alright #but i don't think i can actually solve the problem #i. already have a lot of foods that the rest of my family isn't allowed to touch. because i am So Picky #and when they were eating my foods more often i was Starving #i don't. think. i can ask for more. and you know what that's fine! that's fine that's ok i like my meals they're tasty as hell #what about snacks then? can we get snacks for the whole family? well no #we stopped buying more junk foodish snacks because it was All my siblings were eating #and it was bad! it was bad they shouldn't have been doing that. but now i don't think my parents trust us to be responsible with snack food #so our snack foods are. protein bar. fruit snacks (i had to request these specifically). popcorn #that's. that's fine. that's fine maybe i should be focused on fruit instead! fruit is good sugar! #well we don't store fruit i like the way i like it (don't put it in the fridge) so i never eat any of it anymore #but everybody else seems fine with it so really i'm not going to win this argument cause everybody else actually eats it more when it's out #(i don't think this is true. but i think it's true for My Dad and My Mom specifically.) #and i just. it really got me thinking about how much i don't have foods that i like in the house or meals that i love because Somebody Else #likes it done differently and not the way i like it #and that takes priority #to the point where i don't know what the fuck kind of foods i like because we just don't. have. any #i prefer white rice. mom prefers brown so we get brown. i prefer crunchier potatoes. mom prefers them soft so we make them soft #i like my fruits cold. my parents prefer to be able to See the fruits so they stay on the counter. i only eat chicken breast not any other #part of the chicken. my parents prefer thigh meat so we get thigh meat (which i don't eat) #oh huh. this post was a lot longer but tumblr deleted half the tags. yeah that's fair

[boxwinebaddie]

me giggling and kicking my feet whenever i see the "(THIS IS A VERY LONG ASK)" message right before the read more 😍

AAAAAAAA!! PLEASE!!! literally I!!! was giggling and kickin my feet when I!!! got This ask message!!!! you are so sugar sweet, my darling!

( also, i really needed this today; the other guy who does my job is out today [ smh ] so it's only 9am where i am but i'm on my Second Cup of coffee because i have to cover a BAJILLION classes today...cryin )

no, this is seriously made me soooooo happy!!! bc i get worried that the messages are too overwhelming & i'm throwing way too much at you at once, so its very validating to know you like them so much!!! c:

i literally LOVE LOVE LOVE writing them -- i'm sure u can feel the passion which tbh is more like criminal insanity oof -- i think they're so fun and its nice to share something i love with people i love!!!

AKA all of you :)))) <3333

rlly the reason they're so long is bc i have mental problems, ofc, we already kno this, but also i feel like its important that, if you guys take the time to ask me stuff, that you get all the information i can give ya!

because you deserve it and i don't want you to feel confused ever. xx

( my storylore gets rlly complex/weird...so it can def be Perplexin rip )

i actually only like answering questions when i feel Strongly abt the answers ( which is why i held off on answering all the tkak/tsot questions until right now which...thank god bc theyre Girls now, lol!!! )

i also put a lot of love and my heart into those answers, honestly, its kind of a vulnerable thing to put urself out there like that: so it makes me feel really seen and treasured when you guys send me excited anons about receiving all my insane feelings and thots abt my fics!

which needless to say my angel, and all my angels, thank you for being fans of my fictions, interested in my crazy lore, waiting for my stuff and cherishing my cracked out ask answers. everything i do, i do for you my loves! and i am glad that my answers aren't Too Much.

-uncle nina, who again, really did need this today <3

#this made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #thank you baby #i am literally dying today the children of the corn are being so loud like brother i have a MIGRAINE CHILL OUT #anyays love them but oh my god i was going to bash my head in with a rock when i got this lmao #IM GLAD YOU LIKE THE LONG MESSAGES I LITERALLY GOT NERVOUS THAT THEY WERE TOO INTENSE #but like if u ask me specific qs i want to make sure u get detailed and specific answers bc i want u to have Content!!! #idk u deserve everything i can give u and i really like detail so im glad u guys also really like detail!!! i am Passionate okay #esp now that im writing a lot less my ask memes are my way of giving yall little stories/info abt my fics even when im not upHating #but yeah i like to be thorough and im glad you like that bc its hard for me to write short answers...i am a kp girl sometimes and like INFO #thank u for being excited abt my stuff that makes me excited abt writing my answers i feel so validated #idk i often get worried that the stuff im writing is weird or im spamming the dashboard so the fact that u Want them is cool to me #basically i love u i love u i love you THAAAAANK YOU BABES #ALSO IF YOU SENT ME A MESSAGE ASKING ME TO UNDIVORCE RAVESEY HAHA NEVER!!! #just kidding lmaooooooo!!! i will do it and i see them its gonna take a second to block out all that dialogue #hang tight besties #BUT LEGIT WHEN I TYPED THAT BEING TKAK MESSAGE I WAS LIKE THIS IS CRAZY I GOTTA DELETE THIS but just for u it can stay #side note sorry i'm being insane on pinterest i'm having a lot of feelings abt the tsot toxic yuri smh

[numetalpuppygirl]

sits in ur ask box and looks around

hi puts some snacks and magazines and such in my ask box so it's comfy for yoy ^_^

#fact about me i never delete asks ever #so any asks that i've screenshotted to answer instead of publishing. asks that i've ignored. asks i've sent to people who have #answered them privately. and so on. these are all still sitting in there and will remain in perpetuity #i'm sentimental :''3 #but anyway yeah when you look around that's probably what you'll see. it's good company they're mostly from other mutuals 👍 #&hi btw :3c #*char noises* #char asks