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thebunniesgrim · 7 months

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I'm getting way too much enjoyment watching how some of Helluva Boss fandom is raving over the popular current theory that stolas is going to die in the series.

Because of the Oops episode and how the skull and cross bones in the smoke clock landed on Stolas and other stuff

I.e.

Having imp assasins in LooLoo Land

Stella

Striker

His lullaby saying that when he’s gone Octavia will be ok and that today could be his last (I could go on a whole tangent about that lullaby it's so good)

Western Energy (that's it)

I'm not saying I want stolas to die but am I also saying it would be funny to watch the fandom go up in flames about it?

Well call me Phineas and Ferb because

Yes

yes I am

You can stop reading here if you want. Under the cut I'm just rambling justifying why I think what I think. there are some jokes and lighthearted critiques, but you know... you have the option to look and give your own opinions :)

I mean I have my grievances with him like I've said in my other post (shameless plug Warning I'm very illiterate in case you haven't noticed) but like I don’t wish death upon him I still like Stolas believe it or not

lol.

In fact I hope stolas doesn’t die and mostly I don’t think stolas is going to die at all frankly. I highly dout the writers/viv/whoever is going to actually kill off stolas mostly because like any time stolas is in danger its so underminded like- ok LooLoo land is mostly a joke (good joke too I like the end where Stolas turns the imp guy into stone good pay off), Stella played for laughs beacues shes making the hit right in front stolas and it doesn’t get paid off till the next season which is fine the seasons are short, Western Energy he was fine like an episode later.

If home boy cant be hospitalized for more than one episode he isn't dying

Granted I will allow some leeway as we don’t know how much time has passed since Western Energy to Oops but it- I don’t think stab wounds and broken arms heal that fast regardless of that :/ if I'm being honest especially if it was a holy weapon just saying.

Even if he did die that brings up a lot of questions like what happens to demons when they die? Are all demons immortal and can only die due to physical damage? are Asmodeus and Beelzebub going to outlive Fizz and Vortex if imps and hellhounds/other demons aren't immortal. Were the 7 deathly sins ever babies like everyone else? If demons are immortal and can live forever and the Ars Goitias can only be killed by angelic weapons that are hard to get, I'm assuming, why do, they need to have children or heirs? Why even have children at all? If angelic weapons can kill demons do demonic weapons exist and can they kill angels or other holy beings?

All this and more on You Can't Answer These Questions at 8

Lol

anyways

but in all seriousness

Here’s the real question

If they did actually kill Stolas, will they bring him back?

Riddle me this batman

there's a very the very real outcome of them bringing stolas back through some magical demonic bs anyway so like it really won't matter. They're not going to have Stolas bite the dust permanently and if they are... respect honestly (the balls frankly).

People will cry, I'll laugh because I'm heartless, he’ll be like resurrected or something, and everyone will be happy or mad idk.

Like it's one thing for Millie to get hurt in the other episodes because there wasn’t a major plot point you know? (and she’s not important) There was no lingering scene on it with sad music. In when stolas got hurt it was this big thing and for him to just be like fine an episode later is like what? How are you going to have this big emotional climax with no emotional orgasm (sorry) afterwards. And like no I'm not letting this go what the heck? You had the whole fandom screeching about Blizto going to sloth just to do nothing with it and put a twist about Barbie and then also have stolas be perfectly fine and dandy the next episode afterwards. Are there no stakes in this show? Like I get that Helluva Boss wasn’t planned in the beginning but like come on... When Viv approves of the episodes does she look back at the other episodes? Is she even there? Is she ok? Is she and everyone else seeing a bigger picture that I'm not? Has she sat down and watched Helluva Boss from the very beginning and watched them from episode one to now? I mean really not just a once over to send it off to youtube I mean really took a good and hard look at the episodes? The way they mix episodic, and story is really messing with me I'm going to go back and watch all the episodes from the beginning just to make sure it’s not me.

I like how I said in my tangent about Hell fire (shameless plug part 2) I said I liked the new episode over all give or take some extremally small nitpicks yet here I am complaining :) guess I'm a liar

soo yeah, I really don’t think they're going kill off their golden child, their best boy, their little botanist boo, their dopamine deficient dandy, their booboo bear, their uwu baby boi, their uke wukey cinnamon roll, their twinky little baby owl, their Boo thang, their stary eyed savant, their sad beige gay, their smoopy woopy do, their snoogum-boogums, their skidamarink a dink a dink skidamarink a doo, their-

I'm done

I'm so sorry

#helluva boss #helluva boss stolas #helluva boss criticism #helluva boss critical

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sugar-glaze-donut · 7 months

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What about aruji-sama who came into akuneko very early? And let’s just say that aruji-sama can’t age like the rest of the butlers maybe because becoming aruji-sama also requires making a contract with a devil or they were secretly a failed angel

Top 10 Anon big brain moments

The "failed angel" and "contract with a devil" theory is pretty cool since we don't know much about Aruji-sama's origins

I know some people out there might say "Aruji-sama is a human though?", but let's think really carefully.

➤The first time we wore the ring it was in the middle of the road back home. We are then transported to the Akuneko world and end up in our room in the Devil's Palace.

➤The first time we take off the ring is in our room in the Devil's Palace. Once we take it off, we are transported to our room. Not the middle of the road back home, OUR ROOM IN THE REAL WORLD.

➤The second time we wear the ring is when we hear Berrien's voice from the ring. We wear it, and we're back in our room in the Devil's Palace. To confirm this isn't all a dream, we take off our ring in Berrien's lab with Berrien and Muu as the witness. And once again, we are transported to our room in the real world, not a random place.

It could be a coincidence, it could just be Studio Wasabi making a plot convenience

But yeah... other than that! Allow me to fulfil your request my dear anon :D

Check list time!

➤Immortal Aruji-sama? Yes! ➤A somewhat supernatural Aruji-sama? Yes! ➤The first and only Aruji-sama? Yes!

It'll be so interesting! Since Aruji-sama may seem like a normal human, but they don't age at all like the butlers.

It'll be so funny to see the reactions of the butlers >:D

~🧸~🎀~🐾~👒~

Lucas: Hey Berrien... why isn't Aruji-sama aging?

Berrien: What do you mean Lucas? It's only been a few months since they've arrived?

Lucas: Berrien, it's been 13 years. They haven't grown or changed a single bit

Berrien:

Lucas: ...it's been 13 years Berrien

~🧸~🎀~🐾~👒~

You and the older butlers would be the grandparents of the whole group! It'll be so funny for you and Berrien, Lucas and Miyaji to reminisce the old times while the new butlers are staring at you four in confusion

~🫖~💍~🧪~🕯️~

Aruji-sama: Hey Miyaji, remember when...

Miyaji: Oh yes, it was so funny when Berrien...

Berrien: H-hey! We agreed not to talk about that! Right, Lucas?

Lucas: Fufu~ but it was so funny though, right Aruji-sama?

The newer butlers: ...what are they talking about???

~🫖~💍~🧪~🕯️~

But do you think there will be a moment when Aruji-sama gets really injured and dies?? Cause in the story (mostly Episode 1) it's so clear (but really hard to notice) about the fact that there was an Aruji-sama before us in the original story. Since we came at the start of the story...

And the fact the story tells us that there was another Aruji-sama before the OG storyline...

That means we are the previous Aruji-sama

The one that dies

Not from old age, not from sickness

But from injuries

The butlers that were here from the beginning, and the ones who came after and were with you will forever remember you

They will always remember the kindness you gave them

They will always remember the way you gave them a place to belong

They will always remember...

The important person you were to them

But maybe...

Reincarnation is possible

(If anyone remembers the words that the official Akuneko Twitter posted waaaaaaayyyy back when the game first started then you'll know...) (For those who don't, the post is really old and I couldn't find it anymore, but it had very important words. "Reincarnation" and "Let us break this cycle")

~💍~🥀~☔~🫖~

New Aruji-sama: Hey Berrien... is everything ok? You've been staring at me for a while...

Berrien: Oh! My apologies Aruji-sama... it's just that... you remind me of someone I knew...

New Aruji-sama: ...

New Aruji-sama: Oh... it's alright Berrien

New Aruji-sama: You must miss them so much, right?

~💍~🥀~☔~🫖~

(Thank you anon for the request <3)

#akuneko #devil butler with black cat #aknk #あくねこ #devil butler and black cat #悪魔執事と黒い猫 #devil butler with black cat x reader #glaze anons 🕶#glaze asks 🍩#but still reincarnation Aruji-sama anyone??#aknk au

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starrtoon · 3 months

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Question pal, have you had any interest watchin' H*zbin H*tel now that its out (just censored in case you wanna avoid having the fans on your tail) & if so, what did you think and if not, I'm curious as to why! Just because I know you've done art for it & stuff before. (Obviously you don't need to explain yourself, I'm just curious. I know that I watched the whole thing because I couldn't suck myself out of it and there are bits and pieces I enjoy in a more solo-context but others I (Christian) take pretty heavily as like....I don't like it. Big parts feel very off, even with the themes on redeming sinful souls and such. So I just wanna see your thoughts on it if possible as another Christian for some perspective.)

ok, so... yes I watched the first 4 episodes. (through Kimcartoon 😏)

possible spoilers below(?)

besides the OBVIOUS blasphemy and biblical inaccuracies, the show does have a lot of issues with writing and pacing. I didn't laugh at ANY joke in those 4 episodes (though Angel calling Vaggie the actual V word almost got me for some stupid reason 🤷‍♀️)

I don't like some of the VA changes they did, Vaggie sounds bland, Husk's voice doesn't really fit the design of the character IMO, and even tho she isn't a big/important character I DO NOT LIKE THE NEW VOICE THEY GAVE KATIE KILLJOY. I got used to all the other VAs, and kinda prefer the new voice for Alastor over the old. also I would like to congratulate the show for being the first to make canon ships feel like unbelievable cringe fanon ships (the cat and spider, and snake and cherry)

I'll also sometimes scroll through the tag on twitter to see what's going on and what criticisms other people have, like with the whole Angel Poison episode (and which imo when she hires a storyboarder that has a r4p3/n0nc0n f3t1sh to do it, I think that's pretty messed up)

and of course I find out in the episodes I haven't seen they added St Peter and made him a white guy with blond hair, same with making Adam white (I dunno if Adam coulda been darker irl but 🤷‍♀️) as I said in a post on twitter, it's clear Vivz has some animosity towards Christians/Christianity so she's gonna twist and be inaccurate. (true accuracy wouldn't even allow her show to exist, as Adam's song has some truth in it "Hell IS forever" so there'd be no chance of redemption)

[SPOILER] I've noticed from some posts that they got Pentious to heaven, so I see that it actually IS possible for the sinners to be redeemed.

will I watch the new episodes? when I get around to it. I'd say the show is 90% trash. and even tho I don't necessarily like it, nor Vivz as a person, I still like some of the characters (and their designs) even if I don't agree with their actions. if anyone has a problem with me still drawing characters while '''hatin''' on the show, they can just deal with it tbh 😏

#starryask #starryart #I wouldn't call this show a guilty pleasure. but bc I was interested in the pilot and concept of the story-#-I can't help but to watch to see how it'll all play out.#also I read her Z00ph0bia webcomic and watched her animations long ago so she was kiiinda an 'art inspiration' for me.

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nerves-nebula · 1 year

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Ok I've already talked about how your Donnie is just like me fr but Splinter taking all of his things really made me actually think about how my parents would threaten to do the same. I haven't thought about it in a long while but my parent's go to punishment was to threaten to throw away all of my things. They never actually went through with it but there were times when my dad would take a big trash bag and start putting my things in it. All the while my little child self (age 4-12) would be screaming and crying and pulling on him until he would "give in" (they never planned to actually take anything, just traumatize me) and dump everything out on my bed.

It also reminded me of how my mom would go into my room when she was pissed at me and throw shit around. Like, if there was stuff on my floor or on my window seat she would toss it every where, specifically on my bed. She mostly did this if she wanted me to clean my room, because in her mind if she made an even bigger mess then I'd have to clean it up. Jokes on her though because nowadays cleaning my room brings me so many negative emotions that I avoid doing it at all costs. So I forever live in filth >:)

Sorry for rambling but your post really just made me stop and think about how messed up that was. Because for years I thought that all parents must do that from time to time. And since mine never went through with it it must not actually be bad. So it was pretty nice to have someone call out that shitty behavior. Thanks bestie (⁠づ⁠｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡⁠)⁠づ

what is it with moms and traumatizing you into living in filth?? my mom did that too, though not so much later on (she got too busy to care I think) but she'd get really, really mad and be like "ok FINE I'LL DO IT FOR YOU" and rummage through our room "cleaning" for us but really just moving everything around and getting annoyed when we told her to stop cause she didn't know where things belonged/which things were important.

and obviously she'd say then WE should clean our room but like,,, we don't care about it being dirty. you're the one making up this whole issue ??

and its not like HER room was even that much cleaner than ours fasfashdhughdugs

anyway, i've gotten more into like, the ABUSE abuse in this AU recently, but there's a reason I called it neglected turtles and not abused turtles (other than TMNT acronym). i think a lot of the stuff im talking about here happens and people don't recognize it as the abuse it is. i personally relate to the label of neglect more, cause as much as the stuff my parents DID do sucked, a lot of the situation had to do with what they DIDN'T do.

we had food, but weren't always fed. we had bathrooms but weren't really taught hygiene. we had books and could read, but weren't taught the days of the week or the order of the months. and yet we were expected to fully know all of these things anyway.

and i think that's abusive, yes, but i feel like its abusive the way pretending to throw out your kids stuff is abusive. or yelling at them and tossing around their shit is abusive. which is to say, not technically bad enough on its own to get you taken away or anything, but certainly deeply damaging in a way i don't see talked about a lot. so im talking about it. cause its my blog and i want to!

AHH but now I'M the one rambling. idk if what I'm trying to say here makes sense haha, but even if every parent did that from time to time it'd still be shitty.

#nnstuff #child abuse tw #ask #asks are sweethearts

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ayaitch · 2 months

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10 Fandoms, 10 Characters, 10 Tags

Ok, after agonizing over these choices for days, I'm just posting lest I overthink it any further.

Thank you for the tag @robo-dino-puppy! I hope I do this right. I'm also not very good at ranking things, so this is mostly in the order the character comes to mind. Also, I am not sure I can come up with ten fandoms I'm involved in, so a few may just be me reaching for something to list.

Horizon Forbidden West - Ikkotah

Was there any surprise he would be on my list somewhere? There should not have been. There is literally nothing special or compelling about him, he is just a heartbroken guy who stole my heart.

Stargate SG-1 - Teal'c

Teal'c was an awesome character, and I will forever defend his sense of humor. He made so many jokes that were intended to fall flat, but I could never help but laugh at them, even while the SG team gave him sad/confused looks.

Star Wars: Rebels - Zeb

I'm stealing this from @robo-dino-puppy, but it can't be helped. Zeb is the best. He is such a great character, and has such a tragic backstory and compelling story in the show. He was so underutilized and his live action model was incredible. They need to get him in the Ahsoka show! (And let him have Kallus back too!)

M*A*S*H - Charles Emerson Winchester, III

I loved Charles in MASH. He was such an arrogant guy, but he was also very competent, intelligent, and would help so many people without question, because it was his duty as a doctor. He had a very soft side too that was just wonderful to see come out here and there.

The X-Files - Dana Scully

Scully was so awesome. She was very rarely a damsel in distress, she was so damn smart, her sarcasm and wit were what I dreamed I could also have someday.

Sailor Moon - Sailor Uranus/Haruka Tenoh

I thought Sailor Uranus was the coolest. The first canonically gay character I encountered, and I was a vocal angry fan about what the dub did to her and Neptune. As an early teen, Sailor Uranus was everything I thought women needed to be. Awesome, buff, no-nonsense, no men.

The Lord of the Rings - Eowyn

I wanted to dislike her so much when the Two Towers came out, because she seemed so extraneous and convinced of her own importance to the plot, but she wiped the floor with my expectations and I fell in love. She was just so awesome. Then I was disappointed she got together with Faramir, because she shouldn't need a dude, but I loved Faramir as well, so I accepted the match. (Yes, I was one of those people who saw the movies before reading the books...)

The Legend of Korra - Asami Sato

Smart, capable, and compassionate. Asami was one of my favorites from go, even though the narrative pitted her against Korra for the Mako love triangle thing at first. She pulled her weight within the group, and I loved how resourceful she was.

Animorphs - Marco

Marco was so lovable as far as I was concerned. He was that oddball guy who hid all his pain and neglect under a front. He was very relatable when I was reading those books, and I was so invested in his story.

Gargoyles - Brooklyn

I liked Brooklyn a lot when Gargoyles was on. He had his act together most of the time, and I liked his overall character. I like that he wanted to do right by his family/friends, but wasn't serious all the time.

I haven't thought about some of these characters in a very long time, but I liked revisiting some of my favorites. This was fun!

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shadeswift99 · 2 years

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Ok i saw your tags on that last post and i am BEGGING you to elaborate on your Minecraft villagers' religion/mythology that sounds amazing

HELLO YES. I have a limited amount of time right now but let's see how much I can get through by the Power of Insufferable Nerdness

(Edit: apparently that amount is A Lot, I'd apologize for this absolute essay but I am in fact not sorry at all, woe, lore be upon thee :))) ) (there's pictures too I promise)

Okay so. Welcome to the village of Abyss. I discovered it while I was exploring the 1.18 update and I somehow managed to leave my shulker box of rockets in a cave along with my enderchest, essentially stranding me here with what I had on me until I could resupply. I could have just saved the coords and died, come back later for my stuff, whatever else, except that. The village spawned like this.

Directly next to this massive, abyssal ravine filled with impenetrable darkness. Upon closer inspection, there were only three villagers left in the place. Upon even more inspection, several of the village paths seemed to lead...directly over the edge.

Hm. I wonder where the rest of the villagers went.

The lore developed slowly as I fixed the place up and built it out more. Abyss is the "god" of the village in the same way rain falling is music - it's not, really, but the act of observing it as such makes it so. The longer a villager looks into that darkness, the more they realize that it's not just darkness: it is inhabited, made of hundreds of rattling bones and groaning once-living throats, crawling the floor of the canyon just out of view through the shadows. Together with the darkness itself those voices make a will, and that will thrives in the unknown, and the longer one spends looking out and down, the more that will can be felt and understood.

The closest building to the ravine got turned into the Church of Abyss. Inside is more of a town hall than a place for religious services - Abyss doesn't really have values that can be verbally taught - but its most important purpose is as a lead-in to the observation platforms:

Where the priests of Abyss sit and look into the ravine. There are three levels (screenshot only got the last two). A priest moves down a level when they feel they've gained enough knowledge of the unknowable, and unknown enough of the knowable, to move into a deeper space of reflection. One of the three key principles of the Abyssians is that there MUST be at least one person observing Abyss at all times.

[tw: death talk in next paragraph, stops after that]

The lowest level of the platforms is the walkway. The Abyssians believe that the greatest fate in death is to join the infinitely knowable unknown, to become one part in the collective un-soul of the mob hoards in the darkness, in unity becoming both everything and nothing at the same time. The walk is their final destination. A body will be carried there and released if a villager dies elsewhere, and a lot of people who can feel their death coming will go down there and meditate for a few days while their loved ones make them as comfortable as possible until they die. However, elder priests and people who have either achieved high honour or done a great deal of harm that they regret will walk the precipice themselves, disappearing into the forever-dark.

In practical terms for day-to-day living, there is an Abyss shrine in most households. I haven't built an example to show yet, but it is a very deep, narrow hole in the floor, dug deep enough under the house to create a piece of the same shadowy can-stare-into-it-forever effect as the ravine has. Villagers will put small offerings down the shrine on special occasions, like a birth in the family, or they'll give a tiny part of a harvest or mining haul. That way, the event or good/bad fortune can be symbolically connected to the whole and added to the depth of the knowledge Abyss stores within its unknown.

Above every household Abyss shrine is a copy of the Tome of Abyss, which outlines the three main pacts of Abyss (which if you don’t care to read six pages of my drabble, roughly amount to “do NOT light up the ravine” “Abyss is revered as an afterlife or sacred lack of afterlife” and “at least one person must be watching Abyss at all times”)

As for the motto in the back, I have a feeling that I used a slightly different translation than the common usage for at least one of these words, but I can’t for the life of me remember it now. -_- Just by running it through latin to english translation though, it roughly amounts to “Without light, without end, without fault”.

You could call Abyss a death god, or a knowledge god, or a type of void god (although it's really quite the opposite, with the Void being an entity of paradoxically absolute nothingness and Abyss being the infinite multitude and possibility contained in darkness), but it isn't really any one of those things. It's a bit debatable whether it even existed before the villagers found it, or if their observation gave it its will in the first place, but whatever it is and however it came about, it exists now. It exists, and I like it the normal amount. Yup. Definitely the normal amount. :)

#ask #village of abyss #tw religion #sort of?#anyway please feel free to ask me any more questions about abyss or the town or the world #i didn't think I had much lore in it but now that i think about it I've been passively worldbuilding this place SO much #it's so easy to accumulate random lore and wonder how it all fits together and then fit it together #while you're just chopping spruce wood or whatever #it's so fun

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yisanged · 8 months

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8 10 orvie

HII ELISEYY my friend. thank you for the ask! and sorry it took so long the sleepies and school and etc. I HOPE COLLEGE IS GOING WELL FOR YOU BTW!!!!!!!

this got so long sorry you know how it is with novels. but hey before i read more the rest of this guys if anyone else wants to send me hater asks you still can... i only got one 🥲 does nobody else want to send asks to their friend nico? i've actually been so dead lately guys that is on me. but i still love you all.......

anyways um 8 is "common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about" and 10 is "worst part of fanon" pretty similar really going for the haterisms here okok. hmmm i honestly don't even interact with the orv fandom that much like most of the orv posts that aren't just art that i see are mine and my few orvie mutuals' which i usually respect i don't see a lot of posts from outside of this orv echo chamber i've created for myself which i'm ok with tbh. but something i see a lot that i don't like is the depiction of kdj as a scammer type like the breed same as cale tcf and others? i haven't read regression instruction manual but like he's a common comparison and such. and it's true that they're all from the similar mold of like "isekai/fantasay coming to real life but i have an upper hand because i read the book it came from nyeheh" and in that specific aspect yeah kdj has his moments where he takes advantage of his knowledge but it seems like some people attribute him being a liar an unreliable narrator etc to that part of the story also and i don't totally agree with that. he's not an unreliable narrator because he's trying to be sneaky and smart the dude is depressed. he's been so depressed since he was like 13 and he's a grown ass man now it's totally changed his outlook and makes him unable to see the world and his interactions with others properly for what it is. he didn't lie to our faces about smiling when he was actually crying because he was trying to be smart and sneaky it was cause he's sad as fuck and can't even recognize it because he's lowkey wanted to kill himself since middle school. i do agree that cale is similar in that he downplays how insane he is almost dying all the time and getting hurt forever but not caring and driving all his friends up the wall with it without even realizing and like he's also depressed as fuck but when people group them together for being self sacrificing bastard scammers or whatever i just feel like it's different a lot of the time. we aren't seeing the same thing there.

i guess that's my soapbox for 8 umm for 10. the way yoo sangah gets pushed aside so often peeves me for sure. she's so everything where did you put her....? and the kids too the kids are so important to me and to kdj but they're never given justice i feel. honestly i think all of kimcom doesn't get enough love most of the time or maybe i've just been bad at finding content that actually does them well it just feels like there's so much joongdok yaoi and not enough friendship and mentorship and everything. jihye and joongdok are so everything but i never see the two of them together ever. heewon and hyunsung also. even if you're not the biggest fan of them romantically like i respect the lesbian heewon grind don't you care that they're the sword and shield.......? and of coures sys and yjh have a lot of interesting potential but no one ever does anything with it. and there's never enough lee gilyoung anywhere i love you gilyoung. yes that's my fanon complaint. too much yaoi focus... there's so much love everywhere it's a main theme but the story ain't a romance there's so much more out there. take my hand we can discover friendship together

#ask game

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ask-pinkiedash-au · 2 years

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[ADMIN ANNOUNCEMENT]

Hello people, admin here!

First of all, I wanted to thank you for the great support you have given to the ask and to my tumblr in general. I never expected anything, I just did this for fun and to save these drawings somewhere JADJSKSK I'm so happy and excited to see that there are people who are interested in Pinkie and RD and genuinely want to know more! Thank you, it really is you who wrote this for now :')

Ok, now to the important thing; Why haven't there been more responses? The main reason why I haven't uploaded anything is because this year I managed to get into college and I'm in my first year of digital animation! I am very proud of myself and what I have achieved, and for that reason I am very focused on my studies. As I said before, I did this Ask for fun, not as something to go on forever, so I didn't have the time to continue.

Likewise, at the end of 2021 and the beginning of this year, I was in a very strong depression, to the point that I could barely get out of bed. Because of this, I didn't have the heart to continue with this Ask at the time.

And well, also one thing that delays responses in general is the fact that I am not an English speaker, my mother tongue is Spanish. That also hampers my writing and the thought process I have to translate each question/answer (I also apologize if I have any spelling or wording mistakes right now, as well as any answers, sorry!!!)

But well, I imagine that now you are wondering: And what will happen to the Ask? Will follow? And the answer is yes! Lately I have had more and more ideas to continue it, in addition to already having a somewhat constructed narrative line.

I really want to continue and bring to life everything that I have thought of for a long time. The truth is that I was excited about the idea of continuing with this little project, and I hope that you will also support me in my return jshdks

Again I remind you that I am in college and I have a life outside of the internet, so if I am slow to respond or bring a new drawing, I ask for patience and understanding! Thanks again for your support and I promise you'll see an update to the ask very soon!

Also! Follow me on IG @/Anxious_Rat ! where I post more frequently and I have more content <3

#mlp #septiembre2022 #mlp ask blog #admin announcement

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missbrunettebarbie · 1 year

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Midnights - a review 3 months later and my tracklist

I've made a post about the album back when it came out, but I do think TS' songs in general are growers, not faders or instant hits, so here are my thoughts after having some time with it. Tbh, what really annoys me about Taylor's albums is usually the tracklist, which makes no sense, so I remade ir, using 16 out of the 20 songs (we don't count Hits Different bc I haven't listened to it). I am gonna talk about the 4 songs I left out at the end. My order is something like: from nightmares to sweet dreams, with track 5 being the darkest before dawn. So, in order:

1. Anti-Hero - 10/10. Perfect album opener, sets the tone for the rest of the songs AND establishes Taylor both as a person you want to root for and an unreliable narrator.

2. Maroon - 5/10 Still not a fan of this song, but it's a good second track and it fits the 'thing that keeps you up in the middle of the night' very well.

3. Midnight rain - 6/10 Pretty much the same as Maroon (yes, the voice distortion still grants on me).

4. Question....? -8/10 This is such a grower. I love how much more assertive and quite bitchy the narrator is here compared to the previous two. Like, all these 3 songs talk about past loves, but this narrator is less introspective and more like 'we were a meteor strike, babe!'.

5. Would've, should've, could've - 10/10 I mean, come on, this is the true track 5 of the album. Everything about it screams heartbreak and vulnerability.

6. Bigger than the whole sky -6/10 The saga of grief continues. And this song makes so much more sense next to WCS. They just fit, both musically and lyrically. Look how the new placement improved its rating, from 1 to 6!

7. Labyrinth - 8/10 When you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up! Spmetimes against your will. And this is the perfect song to describe this.

8. Glitch - 7/10 We are almost out of the nightmare realm, and into the sweet dreams world. This topic and its narrator are much more uplifting, but there is still a sense of....haunting here.

9. Bejeweled - 10/10. I feel like the sweet dreams section needs to start strong and what better way than with Bejeweled? This is the narrator who went out tonight to make her dreams come true xDD

10. Mastermind - 9/10 Perfect transition from Bejeweled. Again, a very confident narrator who took matters into her own hands, and refused to believe in pesky little things like fate. This is also the first long song where we get to see a bit of the other partner's point of view as well.

11. Sweet Nothing -6/10. After 2 "I am that bitch" songs, I feel like Sweet Nothing is an welcome change of pace. It calms you down and shows you the other side of love.

12. Lavender Haze - 9/10. It's a bop, but it also is a very....limited point of view, of someone who refuses to let the relationship follow its natural course, because the narrator wants to be stuck in the pavender haze forever. I feel like this, alongside the next 2 songs, make their own story arc.

13. Paris - 8/10. Another romantic bop about how great it is to be in love.

14. The Great War - 10/10. But all lovers fight, and this song shows that the important part is 'surviving the great war'.

15. Karma - 8/10. This is such a positive song, that it needs to be towards the end of the album.

16. You're on your own, kid -10/10. This is A Journey. Most people say it feels like Taylor giving us a hug, so IMO, this is the best way to close the album. It is vulnerable, yes, but it's very uplifting and is a perfect closer to the Midnights chapter.

Overall score: 8.125/10. Pretty good!

Songs that didn't make it on My Midnights playlist won't get a score, but here are my thoughts on them:

Snow on the beach - Not only doesn't it add anything to the album, but it doesn't even fit the midnights theme in any way shape or form!

Vigilante shit - It's ok, but very manufactured! And we have Bejeweled and Mastermind to give us the same vibe, but better, so it adds nothing.

Dear Reader - I mean, it could add somthing, but I feel like it doesn't fit the theme at all.

High Infidelity - Eh. It's ok, but again, I feel like it adds nothing.

#taylor swift #midnights #my thoughts

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urmommies--girl · 2 years

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'end call'

Pairing: Billy Russo x fem!reader, slight Frank Castle x fem!reader x Bily Russo

Warnings: Smut (16+ only please), oral (f receiving), exhibitionist, Billy Russo being…well…Billy Russo, poorly written because I haven’t written smut in months (and posted it)

Words: 525

a/n: I haven't written in forever but i feel like getting back to it so I guess will see. I'm horny for Billy Russo so heres a personal fic that i altered for your own gratification <3

You knew Billy should be at work. And Billy knew he should be at work. But instead he was nestled comfortably between your thighs as his tongue lapped hungrily at your cunt.

A wanton moan spilled from your lips as your hands reached to grab onto his perfectly done hair but it was cut short by Billy pulling away, leaving you feeling unsatisfied.

“Keep your hands up for me, princess.”

You whimpered but nodded and obeyed nonetheless.

Whilst wrapped in the midst of your pleasure you were oblivious to the sound of your phone vibrating beside you until your boyfriend pointed it out, “You gonna answer that, love? Could be important.”, Billy knew damn well you were not in a state to be talking to anyone except him but he was definitely going to enjoy your embarrassment.

You reached over to the device with shaky hands and let out one last whimper before answering, “H-hello?” You unwillingly stuttered, “Hey Y/n. S’Billy on his way to work? Got some forms I need him to sign.” Franks coarse voice came from the other end, your eyes widened at the caller.

Billy’s teeth grazed over your clit, enticing a loud gasp from you and a low chuckle from Billy, “Y/n? You ok?” Frank’s voice brought you out of your pleasure-filled daze, “Yes.” You blurted, “Sorry- um- Billy- uh- Billy already left. There m-must be traffic, I’ll let you know if I can reach him.”

The proud and almost amused look on Billy’s face made you want to slap him but also cum on his tongue.

“Thanks Y/n.”, You pressed the ‘end call’ button before discarding your phone to the other side of the bed and finally released the loud moans you’d so desperately been trying to suppress whilst talking to Frank.

You could no longer keep your hands at bay as they dropped down to Billy’s hair, pushing his face slightly to get your desired pleasure.

Soon Billy’s tongue was hitting new and foreign reaches inside you that had you releasing all over him with loud cries of his name.

The tall man stood from between you legs and smirked as he picked your phone up and put it to his ear, “You enjoy the show, Frankie boy?” He asked as his eyes practically tore the only dignity you had left into shreds.

A satisfied grunt came from the other line, “You guys coming on tour?” A soft laugh came from Frank and then a more clear one from Billy, “You might have to start paying then.” He replied.

Your eyes widened as the two continued to talk about you over the phone while you simply laid there helplessly, trying to come to your senses and rational brain after the mind-blowing orgasm you had received mere moments before.

Billy hung up the phone and crawled over to kiss you, “You alright, blossom? Wasn’t too much for you?” He hummed, you shook your head and smiled softly, “Not enough.” You whispered, he kissed your cheek before standing up and tidying himself up, “Fraid’ you’re gonna have to wait until I’m done work to get my cock, baby.” He teased.

#billy russo #billy russo smut #billy russo x reader #billy russo fluff #dark billy russo #billy russo x female reader #billy russo angst #billy russo x y/n #billy russo x frank castle #billy russo x frank castle x reader #frank castle smut #frank castle x reader #the punsiher #frank castle angst #frank castle fluff #frank castle x billy russo

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writerdream22 · 3 years

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requested by: no one, but I sincerely hope you like this anyways ✨🌻💛

pairings: levi ackerman x wife!reader, eren jeager x reader (platonic), hange zoe x reader (platonic), erwin smith x reader (platonic), etc.

warnings: none

taglist: @randomfandomimagine (let me know if you want to be added to the taglist!)

a/n: I know I haven't been posting in a long while, and that I have lots and lots of pieces to work on. I've been watching aot for a while, and I wanted to write something regarding that fandom

You and Levi had met when you were just teenagers; you were the daughter of a scouting legion commander, and Erwin's new friend had caught your attention

Just like an ordinary introvert person, you were really shy, and it was Erwin himself who introduced you to Levi, Farlan and Isabel

“They seem like nice people, you know?”

“Uh?”

“The kids from the underground city. You should go introduce yourself”

“They're criminals, Erwin. I won't go talk to them. They will surely snob me as soon as they see me”

“Trying doesn't hurt. And if they say something, just use the moves you learnt while training.”

“If you say so”

You were intimidated, especially by Levi. But it seemed that he was willing to talk to you

“Hi, uhm, my name is— my name is y/n”

“We know who you are”

“Erwin told us lots about you! I'm Isabel, and these two boys are Levi and Farlan”

“I just wanted to know if the three of you needed someone to show you around”

“Kids, cadet y/l/n will show you around. All right?”

“Yes sir!”

You immediately thought that it was a bad idea to be left alone by yourself, with people you didn't know. Erwin knew well that you felt anxious around newcomers, but he sincerely wanted you to have some friends.

The tour went all right; you and Isabel had immediately gotten along, while it took you a few months to warm up to Levi and Farlan

As time went on and you were slowly becoming autonomous, people started to think that you and Levi were actually related and that you had somehow been separated at birth; you were both quite short, with dark hair and light-colored eyes

Not to mention that you both loved tea

When you became part of the scouting legion, you were happier than ever even though you were fully aware of the risks you were taking

When Isabel and Farlan died, you and Levi were devastated. You had set aside your grief, and stayed by Levi's side

“What are you doing here?”

“Couldn't sleep. You?”

“Neither could I. I was making some tea, do you want some?”

“Yeah, Levi, thank you”

“Would you like to talk about — about that?”

“No, not really”

“Oh, well— can I braid your hair instead? It calms down the two of us. Me and Isabel had so much fun doing that, remember?”

“Tch, I hated it. But yeah—braid my hair, y/n”

You and Levi shared a sweet moment. You didn't talk, nor you wanted to, but you comforted each other just with your presence.

As time went by, you and Levi got extremely close. The two of you became corporals, giving Erwin the condition of always having to work together no matter what

The only people that the two of you became friends with, or just cared about, were Hange and your squad

One day, while you and the other corporals of the scouting legion were having breakfast, Hange made a sarcastic remark about how you and Levi were close

“Can't you just leave each other alone for a minute?”

“We just care about each other, and we respect our boundaries”

“Seems like you have some— that you share romantic feelings for each other, eh? ”

“What do you mean, Hange?”

“Yeah, this is ridiculous. Let's go, y/n, we need to prepare for our next mission”

Hange's words really sparked something in your soul. You started to think abot the relationship that you and Levi had, the special treatment you reserved for each other even though you were famous for being strict...

One day, you decided to confront him

“Hi”

“Hi, y/n, is everything all right?”

“Yeah. Have you— have you thought about what Hange said?”

“Yeah...”

“I did too, by the way”

“And what did you want to tell me about it?”

“She was right. I do have romantic feelings for you, but I need to know that you feel the same before I pour my heart out to you”

“Levi, please say something”

“I don't just like you, y/n, I love you. And now, come here—”

Then and there, he kissed you. Your first kiss, just like you had imagined.

You decided to keep your relationship a secret for a while, as you didn't want Hange to know that she was right. She found out anyways, and she told everyone.

After a few years, you decided to get married. You were extremely happy, and you couldn't ask for anything else in the world.

“With this ring, I give you my soul. With this ring, I put my trust in you, and hope to live by your side until we grow old. Meeting you was one of the best things that could have ever happened to me. I wanted a splinter of happiness in that pathetic, dark void I had grown accustomed to call life. Meeting you fulfilled my dream of becoming a better man. With this ring, you make me happy, and I hope that I'll make you happy as well. Meeting you made me learn what true love is. I love you, y/n, always and forever”

As a team, Levi was deemed as more important by your superiors. Sometimes, they didn't even address themselves to you and just talked to your husband.

“Sir, my wife here also contributed to the mission. I think that you should congratulate yourself to her, as well”

Levi always looked out for you, making sure that every single detail was to your liking. As everyone knew, he showed his vulnerable self to only you, and you were grateful for the trust he had given you.

“Are you ok, darling?”

“Yeah. You're still working on those papers, eh?”

“I just have to sign a few things, then I have to meet up with Erwin. Tch, this stuff is so tiring sometimes”

“We can take a walk around the compound later, if you want. Then, I can make you some tea”

“That would be fantastic, y/n. You're really the best wife in the world”

“I'm your only wife, Levi”

The whole situation that emerged from the apparition of abnormal titans stressed you out, quite a lot nevertheless. Levi had noticed it, and saw that you were more nervous than usual. He made sure to always ride by your side, to always be able to keep his eye on you.

He knew what stress did to you. It made you more vulnerable, more subject to distractions, and he didn't want to lose you at all.

During one of your many missions, where you had the unpleasant surprise of meeting the female titan, you got severely hurt.

“What were you thinking?!”

“I wanted to save our squad! I wanted to save Petra, Oluo, everyone! But I couldn't!”

“You risked your life, y/n! You could have died, you know that?”

“I sure do, Levi! That's what soldiers do! They die, after having done something good for humanity, and I lived a pretty decent life! I got married, I had friends, but I am alive now! I am all right, it's just routine”

“You can't just do things recklessly. I can't stand losing you. Not now, not ever. I want to build a family with you, I want to live my life with you and only you. You can't die, you got it?”

“Yes, Levi. I'm sorry”

“Let me get you some tea, now”

That's when you fully understood that Levi loved you. You had managed to warm up his heart with your sweet and kind words, and he'd managed to conquer yours with just a look in your eyes.

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therivergirl · 2 years

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While I was slightly disappointed by the end of DT that it lost a bit of found family angle by making Webby Scrooge's daughter, I still disagree with people from the fandom who bash the series entirely now and say it's completely lost for a few reasons (if it's your opinion, it's fine, I just disagree with it).

First of all, found family is still there. Webby was already part of the family, this was just a cherry on top for her. But it's heavily present with both the main cast, with characters such as LP or Beakley or the supporting cast, with the Sabrewings, Drake and Gos etc.

However, one thing that I haven't seen discussed much is how non-traditional a lot of family dynamics are. I'm mostly referring to parental figure-child dynamics here.

Yes, most of the main characters are blood-related but we don't have a single traditional, "perfect", nuclear family from the 50s, with mum, dad, two kids and a dog. Not that there is anything wrong with that but it's very nice to see a bit of diversity there, especially as someone who grew up in a non-traditional family dynamic. I still live and have always lived with my mum and my maternal grandparents. I don't have any contact with my dad. My uncle and grandpa both play an equally important paternal role in my life and my cousin is like a sister to me. Often times when you see families like mine on TV it's because they are broken, it's supposed to be tragic. Ok, things are not perfect, we do have struggles, but I've had enough of non-traditional families being presented as this horrible, horrible thing that will leave you a traumatized husk forever.

And then DuckTales came.

We have Donald, an uncle who is raising three boys as a single parent. And while there is an element of tragedy to this, it's not because he is a single parent raising kids, it's because he is a single parent raising kids with no support because his family, which was kind of non-traditional, to begin with, fell apart due to miscommunication.

Then we have Beakley, a grandma, who we later find is adoptive, raising her granddaughter.

Scrooge is implied to have raised Della and Donald for a certain portion of his life.

Della is a single mum and at no point does the show go "Oh, you need a father in your son's life!" (Yes, Donald is the father figure, but the show doesn't try to give Della a male love interest because "boys need a dad".)

Gosalyn is another kid raised by her grandparent and is later taken in by Drake, and, while the show never stated it they do have a bit of father-daughter dynamic, during what little screen time they've got. Not to mention that LP is basically the other dad. Ok, that is a bit of the general fandom HC, but LP is like "We're a family" through the entire LGD so...yeah, it's in text too!

Sabrewings are probably the closest to the "two parents, two kids" situation but they are two men, which I'm not saying is less "normal" than a hetero couple, but is still, unfortunately, considered less traditional. And they are a couple who adopted a teenager, who fully sees them as parents!

Ok, Daisy and Donald adopting May and June also fit the typical nuclear family bill, but that's essentially like a couple adopting one of their relatives who are without parents.

Of course, Gyro as a single parent to Boyd can't be left out! And a single dad while we're at it. (Ok, again, they kind of dropped the ball and they are not on screen much but from the bits that are there, it's not hard to extrapolate this.)

Fenton is raised by a single mother who also has a career and is very supportive of her son.

There might be more, but I think I covered the main characters.

I might be looking too deep into this, I'm probably looking too deep into this, but it was really nice to see it on screen. And see it represented casually! Like you see the McDuck extended clan/social circle as one big, weird, extended family but it's part of their charm. It's not an issue.

Ok, I have no idea how to conclude this post so...

TLDR:

As a person from a somewhat non-traditional family, I really like that, between the mix of blood-related and found family the show focuses on, they have a lot of non-traditional, non-nuclear families.

#ducktales #long post #river rambles #family #ducktales 2017 #analysis

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klugenjoyer · 2 years

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I'm gonna talk about my sekai au's body swap episode because yes

I'm only gonna talk about what I wanna because I don't wanna talk about stuff I haven't been thinking about or whatever

Sorry for uh clogging anyone's dash with tsukasa talk but here we are

So like tsukasa is prolly high key in sensory hell. Because you see he's the type of person who is almost always moving in some form but here's the thing

He has a tail

So like you don't really notice it so it just looks like he's sitting or standing still meanwhile he's doing them little tail flicks

But like

Ena (the person who he has the swap with) does not

And like tsukasa is just sitting here ridiculously over stimulated and he doesn't know why or how to stop it

Like he's never fidgeted with a pen or something. He always would look at people who fidget with stuff but like he didn't know that that was supposed to help with this kind of stuff.

So like he's just sitting here dying from just sitting still. Not to mention that uh normally his hearing is actual ass because of his hearing damage. Like he can usually hear everything fine and he hasn't really noticed that he can hear less then he used to be able to. But like now that he's Ena, a person whose like able to hear normally he's just sitting here like "why tf is there so much noise. Is this a normal thing. Why is there like so many small noises. It's not like they're loud but I can't stop focusing on them it's giving me a headache" or something like that.

ALSO Akito and An (An had a body swap with yukina who as we all know is akito's twin sister) are trying to teach him to like talk at a normal volume because he's gotten so used to having to talk super loud to actually be heard by people.

(Man off topic but I'm listening to ayano's theory of happiness rn and I am like crying. I literally cry every time this dumb song plays💀)

Also now tsukasa is actually like remembering the concept of height and that there are like short people and tall people because like it's not like he didn't know it's just that he had kinda forgotten ig. Like when you remember again just how much taller one of your online friends would be than you.

(Update I'm listening to dead and seek now. Man this song is so good. People need to give it more attention. It's prolly one of the most underrated kagepro songs I know. Like it's good come on people. Ig people just don't like ayano's dad and like fair 💀)

Oh yeah I forgot to mention but au tsukasa is uh a little guy. I mean it. So like not gonna go into his backstory here but something happened to him when he was like 11-12ish and now woopsies he's 11cm now (I always forget how many inches that was... Like bro I live in the us. WHY DON'T I REMEMBER IT IN INCHES. idk I think it was like 4.25 inches or sum).

So like he's got that little guy thing going on

Ok on to fun stuff he does during the body swap episodes.

He prolly downloads genshin on Ena's computer because he needs to do dailies. Que him having to learn how to play genshin on a normal keyboard and mouse. He'd prolly jump on stream and be all like "hey gang I think I might have possessed someone🤯. Like I didn't know I could do that😯. I didn't think I was a ghost but like guess I'm here now😜"

He prolly would be like "shi- since I'm like a hashtag girl now I should get Kiki (Akito) to make me a cosplay. This is a very important opportunity that I should use to it's fullest to wear cool clothes."

He'd prolly spend like forever in the bathroom trying our different hair styles with ena's hair. Since like when he was young he would style his sisters hair when it was at that length, but he had never styled hair on his own head when it was at that length. So like he's having fun with that meanwhile An and akito are prolly fighting for the second bathroom because they both need to do their long morning routines or whatever.

Well maybe I should rap up on my first post about this

Uh ok ok that smokes that that's a rap🤯/ij

#cw overstimulation #tsukasa project sekai #tsukasa tenma #random stuffs #prosekAU #when little guy #when tail #when tsukasa #ena is prolly keeping herself locked in the tsukasa cupboard ™#rui prolly forgot about tsukasa ngl💀#look its not that rui doesn't care about tsukasa its just that rui is out doing his own stuff in his body swap #akito hates tsukasa but does he really😱#an is uh there but shes kinda falling apart due to running on yukina's no sleep

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heresathreebee · 3 years

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A Real Date

[Ava Starr x Female!Reader]

Summary: You and Ava trying a dinner date that goes very wrong (just kidding it's actually fine).

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Word count: 1.8k words

Warning(s): 13+ | no-snap au, post-Ant Man and the Wasp, swearing, internalized homophobia(?), I think I’m working through something here this might be a little personal (sorry in advance), past relationship angst, presumed past of dating multiple genders but there is no definitive sexuality established for reader in the present, this was going to be something else but the story took over and I had to roll with it.

Author's note: no-snap au, post-Ant Man and the Wasp. I’m sorry I do not edit anymore, it only serves to stand in my way. This is part 3 of Ava Starr series beginning with Strawberry Soda. Art by Artmilla on DeviantArt (correct me if I’m wrong please)

It's important to note that not everything you see in media is the hegemonic truth. Take sapphic dating rituals for example: in media it’s a constant joke about how fast people move in together and own pets and plants like they were soulmates and always meant to be together. Which is nice to see– it’s not meant to be a cruel joke– but it does paint a picture of perfection. It doesn’t explicitly state whether your future wife is your first or fiftieth girlfriend but it sure as shit might lead you to believe every girl might be your last.

Real people don’t work that way. Real people have different interests, different lives, different traumas, different styles and needs. Every relationship is new and it has to be done deliberately and with care for what you and your partner want. So when you think about your relationship with Ava you can’t help but feel a little guilty.

Ava seems to like to take things slow. Your relationship prioritizes quality time over physical touch which you're fine with, but you can’t help it if you compare the details to other people you’ve dated. You’ve known each other for three months and in every other relationship by this time, you and your previous partners had hit a ton of milestones that you and Ava had just… not. So when you bring up the prospect of a ‘real date’ to Ava one night while cooking pasta in your kitchen, Ava chuckles.

“And what exactly constitutes as a ‘real date?’”

The television is playing some daytime television game show and the volume’s on low. You pass her the salt and take a swig from your beer with a shrug. Already you feel silly for bringing it up.

“Dinner. A movie. Sometimes both, I guess,” you say, flustered.

Ava raises an eyebrow at the softening bowtie noodles in the pot. “We’re having dinner right now…? Name one time we haven’t come back to your place to watch a movie.”

“The time the power went out and we played jenga by candlelight. But I– I mean like a date outside of the house.”

“We go to out to parks, the antique mall, lunch, the arcade–”

“Well, yeah I guess you’re right I just don’t know I still feel like–”

“Again, how is any of it different from a ‘real date?’”

“I don’t know! Just… just forget it.” you’re trying not to be bitter about it but you don’t even know what you mean so how could you explain it?

Ava calls your name softly and you already feel hot shame lick up your neck when you see her face. “I didn’t mean it like that, I– I just don’t think I understand what you mean and I want to! Honestly…”

You sigh and lean closer to her, careful not to touch but you want her to know you’re not mad. “No, I’m sorry. I just… I’ve been stuck on it for a week but I can’t seem to figure out why. Everything you’re saying I agree with but there’s still this nagging voice in my head telling me it’s not fair or I’m doing it wrong but I don’t know what it even is and I–”

You collapse onto the kitchen floor breathless. What the fuck were you even saying? Why was this bothering you so much? What ‘s different about this relationship than any other relationship you’ve already had? Your eyes are darting back and forth and your head is a million miles away. You keep talking as if saying it out loud will make your impulsive and intrusive thoughts and motivations clearer to you.

“It’s out of order. No, it’s not but it’s… with Jordan and Becky and Hal, I went on three dates before it felt normal. We did the traditional getting to know you stuff. Damien and Palavi were straight physical– not traditional at all but that still felt good enough somehow. And– and it’s not that I don’t believe what we have isn’t real, I just–

“Fuck, I don’t know! It feels a little like my relationship with Kat.” You can’t believe it but then the words were out there. You had never told anybody about Kat– Ava was still learning about the rest of them– but the instant those words left your mouth you regretted them. Ava was not Kat.

For instance, Ava slipped down to sit beside you on the floor– Kat would never lower herself to meet your eye. Ava looked at you and she saw you– Kat chose to ignore your feelings whenever it became more convenient to do so. Kat made you feel special and yet not special enough– OK maybe they shared a little bit of that. A tiny, micro piece of that.

“What was Kat like?” She said the words softly and without an ounce of jealousy.

You gather your mind with a deep breath. “Dating Kat was like being strapped to a rocket. It was like being a part of something bigger and stronger than me. Being with her made me feel inconsequential and sometimes I liked that, but then… then I realized I was just a dirty little secret. Kat liked me because I was convenient to her, not because she actually cared about me.

“When we talked or hung out, it had to be on her terms. No public, no friends or family, no social media. No one was allowed to know. She passed it off as just wanting me for herself but after she dumped me for something better I realized she never saw me as her equal. And it just… I was already in a dark place and that place just kind of got a whole lot darker after that. I felt especially not special.”

You lean back and rest your head on the cabinet under the sink. “I know that’s not you. Maybe I’m just tired of feeling like I have to hide a part of myself. I did a lot of stupid things in the public eye with Palavi, maybe part of that was because I was proud of who I am and I wanted everyone to know it?”

“I think I care too much about what other people think of me,” you said closing your eyes.

You didn’t expect to feel Ava lean her head against your shoulder but you don’t pull away. God, you could never pull away even as you worry she may be causing herself harm just to comfort you and your rambling. Her hair tickles a bit and smells like strawberries and lavender.

Ava lifted her head after a moment. “Let’s go on a real date then.”

Why the fuck were you so nervous? This was your idea! You had trouble picking a restaurant and picking a day and picking your clothes out and picking where to sit. So many choices with so much meaning or none at all. You just need this to be perfect because you hoped maybe this is what you need to stop that nagging in your head.

You made the call to meet each other there. You made the suggestion that it had to be somewhere nice– as in get dressed up nice. And darling, sweet, patient Ava let you have the control you so desperately needed. She offered suggestions here and there, and it helped you narrow everything down to a science. You feel a little self conscious sitting by yourself in your get up but you knew she'd be there on time.

It's just a matter of whether or not you could sit still for five more minutes.

You hold the cloth napkin in your palms to try and soak up the sweat. Forcing yourself to sit unnaturally still and you haven't touched your wine because you just know you'll get it everywhere somehow. Your eyes trace over the table to stop yourself from meeting the eyes of other patrons. Do nothing, wait it out.

Ava is stunning and you don't know she's there until the wait staff places the dinner menus in front of you. So much for pulling out her chair like you wanted to– but she's here and you break out into a big smile.

"You look amazing," you tell her.

Ava smiles and takes a sip of the rosé you ordered. The dim lighting in the room seems to soften the contours of her face but never the sharpness of her bright eyes. Something blossoms inside you and you feel it– that thing that's been bothering you like a knot in your stomach turns into a seed and its flowering now. This is your girlfriend. Not your friend who is a girl– your significant other. She's important to you and she has decided that she feels the same way about you.

You feel your body unwind, reaching across the table like you might touch her hand then stop an inch from her empty plate. She watches you curiously but without fear. After a beat, it's Ava who finishes the contact. She slips her hand into yours and you are delighted to discover she's not a corporeal being you've convinced yourself is real. Her skin is a little dry around the palm and she has calluses you never knew were there and she's real and this is happening.

You resist the urge to squeeze her fingers. Let her lead. Trust her to move away if she experiences any pain. She looks away from you with a flustered face you've never seen her wear and takes another draft of her wine.

"This is nice," she says softly.

You eat off each others' plates and you laugh together, and if anyone's watching you wouldn't know because for once you couldn't give a rat's ass what anyone thinks. You're with your person, for now or forever doesn't matter because she's letting you hold her hand and talk about a play you want to take her to on Saturday. Your heart flutters in your chest the whole way home and it’s not until you’re standing at your front door does her hand finally slip from yours. The feeling lingers though and your face hurts from smiling.

“This everything you wanted,” she asked.

“Yes,” you reply, “yes it was. Thank you for indulging me, it’s exactly what I needed.”

“I enjoyed it too.” She steps closer, seemingly reluctant to leave just yet. “We’re still going to see Rocky Horror Picture Show, right?”

“Absolutely,” you beam, “trust me, you’re gonna love it, it’s wild.” You blow her a kiss to send her on her way and spend the next hour giggling to yourself until you finally pass out from exhaustion.

#three bees writing #ava starr #ava starr x female reader #just girls being girlfriends #I'll make a masterlist for this soon I just want like two more fics

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The Stigma Of The Trophy Wife & Why I'm Proud To Be One

Trophy wives and the never ending stigma... So much to say and so much to address. In this blog post as you read it in the title is all about why being a trophy wife (TW) is what I was meant to be. And most probably who you're meant to embrace too.

Keep reading Sister.

First of let me start with this mini clip...

This is all self explanatory to me and many other women who believe in hypergamy. The natural selection and order of things for women who desire to be married to a masculine man.

There's SO many negative cliche about being a trophy wife. The main one being a pretty air-head married to a rich old guy waiting to die so she can inherit all his assets and money.

And then you hear everyone around you saying things like: "why do you want to depend on a man? beauty doesn't last forever and some day he will replace you with someone hotter and younger"

But to me this is coming from such a small minded and scarcity point of view. These idea are filled with lack of everything.

There's SO, so, so much more than this about thinking of yourself as a TW!

Let's address a few of these points though because that is very important.

The "pretty air-head" Idea:

Who said that beautiful women were air-heads?

Just like everyone in this world, God has created each one of us, and you, with a special gift that NOBODY will ever provide like you do it. And that's a FACT.

I personally have worked for the largest and most successful companies in the world during my corporate career. As a people manager in technical supports, and I was VERY successful. These are definitely NOT the type of jobs or accomplishments an air-head would ever reach.

(If you're reading my blogs for the first time, Hello, My name is Mrs Queen and I'm the proud owner of this eCommerce business.)

And so, since when do we have to chose? I mean, hello scarcity mindset!

How being attractive, and maintaining your physical appearance ever kept you from being knowledgable and intelligent?

The "You'll always have to look pretty for him to stick around" Idea:

I cannot explain how this idea to me is SO basic, and SUCH a poor mindset!

Whom ever said that, clearly DOEN'T understand what makes a man marry you, when he truly believe that you're the woman of his dream. Or what makes a man stay with you for the rest of his life. So I'm going to spell it out loud, and preach. I hope you're ready?

First of all, a man stay kept if HE wants to stay kept. That has nothing to do with you but let's not ignore the following because these are contributing factors.

As a woman you're a WHOLE soul and PACKAGE by yourself. You do NOT ever or ever had to be with anybody to complete you. EVER. let me say it again, never, EVER.

And men DO understand that. They're looking and craving for that ENTIRE package. They want to experience it they want to live in it, forever and ever. This is literally their number one reason of living and striving in this world.

Yes, their MAIN reason to be alive. I'm not exaggerating.

What package am-i talking about?

Ok let's start with the obvious one:

1/ Your beauty.

yes your face and body. And all appearances are appreciated in this world.

If you're thinking "high maintenance" and or "too exhausting" let me tell you the following very simply.

The way you care and take pride in your appearance has NOTHING to do with a man.

Never. EVER.

It has however EVERYTHING to do with how YOU, my sister, honor and love yourself. It's your way of respecting and glorify God's creation of you.

And if a man (your husband) gets to enjoy the perks too, that's his luck.

So don't allow laziness, or misconceptions to twist your mind. Taking care of yourself, and maintaining yourself is your godly duty as a woman. Let me say it again, it's self love and self respect.

Then,

2/ Your Feminine ENERGY.

I'm literally talking about how your presence makes him feel. Have you ever had a phone conversation or just met someone and the tone of their voice, their smile gave you goose bumps and elevated your energy right away?

Making you smile, and feel warmer inside? That's what I'm talking about. Some people have the power to project their amazing energies into you and make you feel amazing in split-seconds. Everyone is of course different but the ones who love you, DO feel the energy of your soul.

And masculine men CRAVE for the feminine energy. The loving, the kind, the healing, the peaceful, resting, warm energy. They NEED you to be fully immersed into it, and let him join you into it.

They will do and pay anything to help you sustain and protect this beautiful environment. And it starts with the place you live in. Your body (back to point 1). Then your home. and the rest of your universe.

3/ Your RESPECT for him: This goes way deeper than the way you love him. Men will ALWAYS prefer being respected than being loved if they had to chose between the two. If you haven't read them, check out these books:

Love & Respect: The Love She Most Desires; The Respect He Desperately Needs

5 Love Languages

These are most definitely books that WILL drastically improve your relationship for the better. Feminism has us fooled with many ideas, and yes I'm fully aware that this movement gave the western woman many rights, and I'm not talking about this.

The movement also pushes women to violently disrespect men in MANY different ways, on a daily basis. Making you believe that it's a synonym of empowerment. It's not, it truly isn't. It's the number one key to ending your days living in an apartment with hundreds of cats.

4/ Your brain & your drive:

Masculine men do not want air-heads anyway. They want smart driven women who know how to balance all the things stated before and their lives.

A woman who can literally put all this shit together. HER shit together I should say to be more exact. DO not try to rule his life. That's HIS job. Not yours.

A masculine man wants to lead most of the times. LET him. If you believe and trust him, this won't be hard for you to do.

If not, and I mean if you deeply believe that your man cannot lead the way in your relationship, then you probably chose the wrong kind of man for you. It's never too late to find the right one.

Please note: These points ARE the WHOLE package and aren't in any particular order. One doesn't compensate for the others. ALL, meaning EACH one of them are part of the whole package that is you.

So what's a TW then?

It's in masculine men's nature to want to provide, it DOES NOT mean that you shouldn't have your own. As a matter of a fact it is crucial that you have your own AND let him provide.

One idea that I love the most in Islam, is that it is clearly stated that a man has to provide for his household and his wife's need. Only then a woman will submit to him and respect him fully. She can however have her own sources of income and decides if she wants to participate in the household spendings OR not.

Other religions have similar ideas too.

A TW is literally what ever you want to be. But most importantly she KNOWS how to be the most unique version of herself. And that IS ENOUGH.

But then what if you just do NOT want to work?

It took me a while to come up to a very simple realization. And that's because while growing up my mother always pushed me to "be independent". And to this day she still does.

I had to pounder very deeply on these things.

First of all, your value as a woman does NOT depend on what you can "bring to the table". It never was and never will.

Your value does NOT depend on how productive you can be. How much money you can earn, how much achievements you can reach. NONE. OF. THAT.

You are WELL worthy of being loved and taken care of, and just simply existing because you do. period.

Let me say it differently. You were born WORHTY. There's NOTHING that you have to do to be worthy. Your man, husband should know and appreciate that at it's right value.

You are NOT a financial burden. You ARE valuable, without having to do or achieve ANYTHING.

Your value is in you BEING you. Going back to the "whole package" idea.

Is this laziness?

I know these days if a woman doesn't want to work, she's labelled lazy. It's not. It's about understanding that the "whole package" is contribution in itself. It's HIGHLY valuable.

As I said, it's a man's reason for living, so he can experience that "package" with you.

But the scriptures say that you have to be a hard working woman at home or an active member of the society....

Yes. And you already are. Directly or indirectly. A woman who lives in her "whole package" vibe is an inspiration of everyone around her. That's her CONTRIBUTION to the world if she feels that it's enough. So it is. And there should be no room for shaming this.

And the ones shaming these women, are the ones who don't understand what I just wrote about.

The idea of "Keeping your independence"

I cannot believe how much I have been SO stubborn in grasping, holding on SO damn hard on my "independence"....

As mentioned growing up that's something my mom kept on repeating to me. That's because her marriage to my father was far from being exemplary. And I get her from those circumstances.

Let me remind you if you had a mom like mine, you are NOT your mom and your husband is NOT your father. Therefore your marriage and experience with it ARE NOT the same.

My simple question to you is: Why would you want to feel "independent"? How does being married truly makes you feel? Trapped in any ways?

I pondered so hard on this one. As a married woman I DO NOT want to be independent. I am married. Independence is the complete opposite of marriage.

Do you want independence still? Then be single! you'll have plenty of independence.

Marriage and being a wife truly requires from you to completely abandon your maiden self. That's only then that true union is ever possible. Marriage is two people coming as one. If you have found a husband that you love and loves you back, you won't need to feel independent.

We very often take love and relationship advice from women who are still wounded. My mom for example is currently single.

And the teaching she can ever pass on me are the ones of a woman who's been through three failed marriages. That's precisely why I do NOT take marriage advice related to "staying in a successful marriage" from her.

Who have you been listening to so far? Are they in the type of marriage that you aspire to be in? If not, then I invite you to reframe your way of thinking around what they taught you to believe.

The "he will go for someone younger" idea:

Ok, yes that happens, because some relationships aren't meant to last forever. But who says YOU won't do that before he does?? Or leaving him for a better option? Who will treat you better if your current one starts tripping? THAT right there is the TW mindset.

Because you know your value, and the value of being the "whole package".

Your aging DOES NOT diminish your worth or value. It does NOT. The way you perceive yourself is the ONLY factor that can have that effect ladies. Not a man. Not what your mom would say. Or what your "friends" who mean "well", or your community members will say.

NONE. OF. THAT.

It's you vs YOU.

So why wouldn't you feel proud to FULLY be your own FULL package anyway?

You can have it, so flaunt it for you, for God, and your (future) lucky hubby sister.