I don't know how to tell you that you should care about other people.
I keep reflecting to determine if there's something more within me that's causing me to still feel so incredibly sick by it all. Really trying to expose the raw roots of the feeling to see if it stems from some kind of selfishness. And I suppose it does. But to reduce it to just that would also be lying, because it's a combination of poisons down in that soil. It's betrayal and a feeling of isolation amongst a group I thought I once knew, and then that selfish and bitter root grows in like a weed. I can only quietly observe to myself: "ah. this is where the radicalization and rampant nationalism come from. this is why I see it flowering in my family."
It's because I feel my trust breaking all over again each time I forget about it and try to go on with my business. I remember that I still can't mourn publicly without someone educating me on why obviously if I'm mourning, I must have Insert Political Alignment Here. I remember the utter silence and the downright celebration of more civilian deaths because "oh, fuckin Yaya or whatever deserved it after what Israel does."
For the record, Yaya-Or-Whatever didn't deserve it, and I still remember the lead dropping into my stomach upon hearing that from a friend. No one deserves it. No one ever deserves it.
I don't know how to tell you that you should care about other people.
Maybe that's a quote leftists recognize, but I realize now that few of them actually stick to it across the board. And I'm admittedly selfish, because I hoped that leftists could at least have a moment to care about my people suffering too before getting back to helping the people who currently need the most help. But instead we got "Yaya-Or-Whatever Deserved It." And I've been laying here for months watching everyone on the left just go back to the usual armchair activism as if they didn't just fucking say that, and when I do bring it up, suddenly I'm the problem for pointing out that it was fucked up.
You won't erase it, fyi. We saw you say it. Some of you said it with your full fucking chest. You were callous and let the antisemites into the bar by openly celebrating Jewish death. Then you pretended we were talking about Palestine when we pointed out your antisemitic actions. You know that's not what we were even pointing to as an example. But it's very convenient for you to pretend we don't know the difference, isn't it?
I don't know. It's just a reminder that most of you are actually all talk and virtue signals. There's no actual substance behind your ideals, you're just adhering to the party line, same as conservatives do. I guess I was naive to think otherwise. It's disingenuous for you to wonder why people leave the leftist movement as a whole and "suddenly" flip sides. You know why, and it's reasons like this - you're just covering it up and pretending it's a totally different, more convenient reason.
Tldr; you're hypocrite ass leftists and fuck you. You should be ashamed of how you acted.
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im a sucker for romance and a bigger sucker for TRAGEDY and its HITTING me now its fucking HITTING me
gummy (pronounced goo-me. very important) is an irken that has never stepped foot on irk. he doesnt know anything about his own species other than things that hes heard from secondary sources. ruthless savages and lazy pigs that want nothing than to kill and conquer every single planet in the galaxy. and these sources arent wrong! irkens really are Just Like that
gummy wasnt raised by the empire. he never meets any irkens until later on in his life. hes so far away from any irken territory that it was basically impossible for him to meet any, up until recently/in the future.
he was found eating some gourds and other plants in the backyard of a random retired alien. retired alien who completely accidentally raised him into a mini-grump, even teaching him to speak and read, imparting knowledge on the tiny little irken pest, for a total of five months-ish before his landlord came in and found out he was providing an irken with refuge, and caused gummys sorta-parental-figure to kick gummy out and ultimately end up dying because of him.
all because that alien showed some mercy to an irken. pity? i dunno what goes on in grumps mind hes a complete enigma to me. all i know is that hes an ass and him dying wasnt any grand act of self-sacrifice, only an inevitability.
but gummy still sees it as sacrifice, years later.
he hates irkens.
he holds on to that view when he meets bink! his second guardian-of-sorts. kinda. shes a teenager still at this point but gummy is also like the irken equivalent of ten so it works out.
he was living rugged for a bit. without grumps, he had no steady roof to live under. stealing bits and bobs and food to carry him along, until he stole from the wrong person and ended up a captive to binks crew. space pirates.... i love space.
but wait! theres more!
gummy had a map. one he kept from grumps! he lies and says that its a treasure map, and that the place marked on it holds riches beyond any of the pirates wildest imaginations!
he doesnt know if it actually does, or not. hes never been, and grumps had gummy leave before telling him anything about it.
bink reveals herself as the ship's captain and chooses to take gummy's word as truth. hes still a captive, and if this results in a wild goose chase, she and her crew get to punish him as they please.
when the marked location ends up having nothing for them, the crew get angry. this irken lied to them! they should throw him out in deep space and watch his body implode!
bink. comes from a species that had their planet conquered by the irken empire, under miyuki's ruling. she hates irkens. dedicates herself to ruining the lives of as many irkens as she can. she holds that dedication one step below keeping herself and her crew alive. she believes that no irken is capable of good. no irken deserves to live, if she has any say in it.
she has every reason to follow through with her threats, to take her crews advice and let him die painfully.
she doesnt kill him.
she lets him live. forces him to become a crew member. not a respected one! hes like the towel boy of space pirates. worse than an irken drone -- and those have literally nothing.
eventually, he gains... somewhat of a place, with her and the rest of the crew. they start recognizing him as a person. it helps that hes grown up quite a decent bit.
bink even starts to enjoy having him around. his position was meant to be something to be hated, a power she could hold over him -- but he wormed his way into her heart. a terrible thing.
something happens. something big.
bink gets hurt, half of the crew wiped out.
and its gummys fault. proving what bink, and what everyone else thinks about irkens, to be true.
they have no good in them. not a single bit.
gummy is forced into a bad position. there is no place for him in this universe, and he isnt taking his chances with the irken empire -- most hated enemy by literally everyone that's ever heard of them -- so he takes his chances in other places.
space clowns. are an entirely separate ordeal that i wont explain fully here but basically its like a cult where you lose all your sense of self. if youre a space clown you are no longer an individual. youre expected to do everything for the cause. mayhem and mischief and suffering and mania everywhere.
gummy didnt really understand the whole loss-of-self part of space clownism... his personality is a bit too strong for it to be completely erased like that. but his time as a clown still has some of his most miserable moments!
he hates irkens more than ever, but more than that, he just really hates himself.
he wasnt raised irken, but he still ended up becoming one.
the only one that breaks him out of it is another irken, years later.
they taught him to be better. taught him how to show the kindness that hed forgotten, taught him how to fall in love -- and even they still end up dead.
it was a completely avoidable death. they didnt tell him how to save them. they didnt want saving.
they hated irkens too.
i already have every major point of gummys story fleshed out..., the only conclusive sorta ending i have in mind is him reconciling with and hugging bink. thats it. shes an old coot now. her species doesnt last as long as his does. shes going to die too, eventually. everyone just fucking leaves him man and i made it that way. this is awful. i love it. i should create more people for him to befriend and lose. its a beautiful horrible cycle.
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