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Check-in

So I wanted to write to check in. I am here I am queer and I write on tumblr. Yay, it dope. So I am going to Cordoba, Argentina this month I am super pumped to be doing that, especially after surviving Dengue Fever. To my few followers my millions of readers - don't get Dengue it sucks.

To have power over Dengue I wrote a poem to Dengue -

Fuck you Dengue, you are the shittiest bitch on the block.

I wish I squashed the mother of a mosquito that nested you inside of me.

You make me shiver in a not-cool hot sweaty non-sexy way.

-Scene

So there you go power to the survivors. But yes, I am alive. I am back to working as an English Tutor in the interwebs, as I make enough money to do what I want to do with my life. Let's be real that is everyone that works, does it happen - no we all get stoned or drunk to forget about existence - But I am going to Cordoba, so yay spending further away from my goals, but it will be dope. I will share pictures.

I don't know if I wrote about seeing the Whales in Chubut, this is actually happening - it's not some OMG I can't do it because migrations is being a kill-joy, no I am doing this one.

#poetry #travel #cordoba #check-in #dengue fever #fuck dengue #writing #work

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Lost Carrier Pigeons I

Dearest Pierre:

I know it has been a while. I know that time doesn't heal all wounds. I just wish I could speak with you once more. I wanted to let you know that I finally got a home. I finally have a house. I know it is a rental, but I fought the rental crisis and I won. You would be happy for me.

I know that living at your parent's place was the worst defeat after our manic journies from one end of the U.S. to the other and back again. Know, know that someday that home will be your home just keep your head up. I know that there are thousands of miles between us and a gold-digging plot to divide us, but just know that I am safe. I made it I used my craftiness to get a roof.

I ain't no homeless hooker on Central no more. Regardless of what that central ave is. I made it. Find someone that brings you joy. I am just working to someday have my moment in the sun. It will happen.

I wish I had been there for the SuperNova. I wish I had the time, the money, and the energy to be there, but at least you were there for her. At least you were the strong one, even though you see yourself as the weak one. That is the funny thing about life, we are not as we see ourselves. We are just and only how we are. That person is the reflection of those that are around him. Be proud of yourself and what you have accomplished. It is great.

You might have been discriminated against, you might have been a guinea pig for ableist experiments, but you survived. You are here. I hope you can be strong. Someday we may meet, but I do not know when I just keep working for my future, so that I may have a lease, a light bill, an internet bill, a heating bill, a water bill - all in my name and no one else's. It will happen. I am close. I hope, but your strength and struggle with that man that hurt you - your story gives me strength in the moments when I need to fight for my future.

I chose one bad situation for another, but you forced me out of yours. You didn't want me to keep working. I kept working for the future - so that I might have that lease. There were no leases to be had and it ended us. I drove 4 hours each way to work since that was the only place that had a job - and your parent's house was the only place where we weren't homeless.

I hope your sisters don't lock you up, I hope your sisters show you how strong you are. Keep going against the nation that imprisons you.

The Capitalist persuasions that keep us out on the street at night, make it so that we spend years without seeing a doctor and days hungry. The system has benefits, but you're denied for filling out line 7D wrong. How can you fill out the form if you're too hungry to think and how can you wait 3 months before submissions. I do not know.

All I know is that at least you are safe and I am safe. We have roofs, we have food. I have medical care, but you don't - I am sorry about your tooth.

#missed connections #letters #letters that I wish I could have sent #former lovers #capitalism #creativity #poetry #lamenting #remourse #relationships #housing crisis #accounts from capitalism #healthcare #food stamps #inheritance #ableism #intellectual disability

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If I could see you again...

I had a dream of you last night

I saw you on the train, two men going in opposite directions

I wedged myself between you and your fiancee. It was obviously a losing choice for me.

You're smooth skin, your musky smell - I will only be able to remember. I know you needed him to survive. To continue and my high life wasn't the winning ticket.

I just hope you're happy. I continue along. I know that you would invite me in your bed for the night, but a night would be all that I would have.

Your blonde moustache how I wish to be able to touch it again with my thumb. How I wish.

If I could see you again I would be inappropriate. I know that your decision is only for the best. I know that I cannot provide. All I can do is enjoy and take.

If I could see you again. I would ask for a future - one that I know you wouldn't understand.

We are on either sides of the marble. You above and me below. Maybe someday upon the passing of them might we see each other again. Might I feel you again between my cheeks. But I am not counting on it.

I wish you well. I wish you a happy life. Someday we will be in eachother's arms, someday.

#love #romance #missed love #forgotten lovers #wishes #wished to have said #passing time #stories #infedility

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Update:

Okay so I know that my Russian challenge kind of ended in a bust. It is okay, there is always another time to learn and get back on the progression of improvement. I think that this is symptomatic of having the time and the motivation to achieve a specific goal. Plus I am busy right now, I got sick this month and I am back to creating my goals.

I want to share one really exciting moment, which is that I got my Google IT support certification, which I hope will be my first step to being able to leave my ESL job and be a full-time IT specialist. We will see, only time will tell - but I have started working on my FreeCodeCamp certifications. This is something that I have wanted to do since the program came out. I am hopeful that I can complete the WebDevelopment/Design course and then a Python course within the next few months. Goals.

Later today I am going to put out some poems about my romances from the past. I really want to create a series of poems about what I wish I had said, since that is something that I think haunts a lot of people. Like I wish I had said to that ex - or it could just be me being stuck in the past. I also will be publishing here on Tumblr my writings on Runes and the Tao De Jing - so stay tuned I am really excited to be putting that out. Like a lot of things that I do it isn't complete, but I am hopeful that it will inspire me to put out more on the subject.

#challenge #faluire #update #courses #eduation #goals #conquer #future posts

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Russian Challenge 3/30

Okay so yesterday I hit a roadblock. Just I was hungover and did I study no. Today I have made an effort to study, by putting it in my calendar. So yay first roadblock. I am back I am typing so it is happening.

I am going to note that I need to review the present tense and just be as creative with it as I can. At some point I need to figure out how to type on my computer in Russian but that will come when it comes since Latin alphabet typing and what not. stay tuned yo.

#roadblock #russian language #learning languages

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Chanel Bibliotheque

What, no no you ain't

Don't look at me like that. fuck

Judge all you want, cuz this librarian chique is dang sexy.

I is clumsy, I is messy but I have taken so many men for the ride of their life. The rollercoaster is not out of service. It just got opened for business

New, Laminated, Pressed LLC : Strike 1, Strike 2, Strike 3 you out. Hit the road with your bottle of Jack.

You might have tried to get me caught, get me trapped

I bounce, I dance, I write.

I work, I am who I am, I create value - so there I am valuable.

I banish those teeth-grinding nights, cuz life is a trip and I will trip it in my joint not your's.

Take your drab-ass wear, and leave that sweet coin on the dresser. This Cyclone just got started.

I smart, I sexy, I valuable, I shiny, I wealthy, I fun, I bounce, I dance, I write all in this librarian realness. Cha!

#poetry tumblr #poem #fierce #strength #relationships #poetry #words words words #spilled thoughts #the tea

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Russian Day 1/30

Cool. So I did it I committed to it. I think the most important thing in language learning to ensure that you have a reason. Okay my reasons - I have wanted to learn this language for ages. I am only doing it for 30 days so yay that isn't too hard and Russian men are sexy. I am gay so ya the rights might not be phenomenal, but nevertheless, they're beautiful.

My format. So I got a book. a text book and I looked at the contents. Okay so I have 20 chapters in (Teachyourself Russian 2003) so that is 1 chapter per day and 30 days of revision or reading additional content to improve on the spoken language.

I began with the basics. So first I did the Cyrillic script. That was about 1 hour of pain looking at the letters and making the sounds, but I found that cursive English and cursive Russian isn't as different as the type script. Okay so that was the area where I could start to approach the language. Then it is just keep practicing the sounds until your brain hurts. We did that three times. At that point okay I have the written script down now the book is just like learning French the same way. Throw a word down, sound it out put it in the memory bank. Okay That was day 1. Now time for day 2...I better fucking get through the month.

#russian #learning #languages #day 1 #motiviation #langauge learning #journal

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Russian Language Challenge

Cool, so I have always wanted to learn Russian. I have been traveling in Argentina. My Spanish is at the point that I do not have to think about speaking or reading Spanish. It just happens naturally now.

I have always wanted to learn Russian so I am going to do a challenge where I spend the next month learning Russian and see where it takes me.

I am doing this because I want to show or demonstrate how to learn a language and put some of the suggestions that I give my ESL students to the test. Because you know if I say it I better know that I can do it. I am also going to be posting about my travels either through deportation or the next adventure which is to go Whale Watching. so I keep you posted and I will send you all Day 1/30 of this series.

#intro #series intro #language learning #russian #travel #tripit