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[empathetichumans]

I have never been in love but I am heartbroken.

I am heartbroken because I have never been in love.

I don't think I was built for love. I don't think I would be a good lover, and I certainly don't know how to be loved.

I don't know what to do with love- how to hold it, feel it, comfort it- how to make it stay, keep it from running away.

My mother told me in her last years of quiet wisdom- love is like a fish, darling- if you don't hold on to it, it will slip away, but you hold too tight and you might end up killing it.

The key is care, she said. Be caring in your hold- be gentle with love.

But I don't know what care looks like. I don't know what gentleness is because I have always walked the razor edge of a blade- barefoot and bleeding and barely noticing. The love in my life is a thing for me- something I have to carry, the weight of which I am yet to understand.

Solitude seeps into my bones and I wonder- is this where love is supposed to be? Inside of me- where my bad things are?

Is love a bad thing? Is it a good thing?

Is it a thing?

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Admin’s 2 cents :

An achievement is an achievement, there is nothing big or small about it. Be proud of yourself, and acknowledging these small moments of happiness is a big step towards self-love.

Story by : Anonymous 

Music : TWICE - Feel Special | Piano Ver.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_gKjYLsYzc

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Part 2

I continued taking tuition but I had to undergo multiple operations and chemotherapy in the coming years and in order to remain consistent with my work, so that my income doesn’t stop I appointed teachers (women like me who needed work but couldn’t find one for some or the other reason). Financially things undoubtedly started getting better - my small tuition turned into a big coaching class along with a batch of kindergarten. Overall I had around 200 students divided into 5 batches, 5 days a week. But my health wasn’t getting any better. I didn’t realize this physical strain was taking a toll on my health. I was diagnosed with cervical dislocation - caused by sitting in a fixed and wrong position for hours; and by this time I had already stepped into the 3rd stage of ovarian cancer (this was in the year 2013). Just then my husband told me he was promoted and was being transferred to a different city, I didn’t need to work anymore as his salary will be sufficient enough for my medicines and our daughter’s education and other needs.

Just when I thought life was getting better, everything fell apart. One night I got into a big argument with my daughter and realized that even though I provided her with every materialistic thing possible, I was emotionally really distant from her. I felt ashamed and was angry at myself, thinking what was the point of all this when the one I love the most in this world felt lonely even though I thought I was always there for her. I don’t know if it was that fight, stress or something else but I had an ovary rupture at midnight and was rushed to the hospital. I was in a critical condition and to be honest it wasn’t death that scared me, the fact that I failed as a mother and my daughter didn’t really need me in her life.

I honestly thought, this was it. So decided to tell something to my daughter before I leave. She came to visit me at the hospital and I told her how sorry and ashamed I was and I could never forgive myself and I loved her the most in this world. She burst into tears and told me, which I remember word for word till today, “You never did anything to be ashamed or sorry for. Yes I feel lonely, but I know it is not your fault. You worked day and night for me, and any sort of free time you had was spent in the hospital or in dealing with excessive pain. Please remember, nothing in the world can change the fact that you are the strongest woman I know and I am soo soo proud of you. You give me strength and now since you aren’t working as much as before things have started to get better…”

Here I am 7 years later still dealing with my health complications with my daughter’s support. Back then somewhere down the line I had no will left to live, I honestly thought I had failed miserably as a mother. If my daughter had not told me how much proud she was of me and how much she wanted me by her side, I probably wouldn’t have survived.

I’m not proud of myself because I did a lot of work while fighting for my life, I always thought of it as my duty, I’m proud of myself because I could be a mother whose daughter looks up to her as an inspiration and is proud of.

Story by : Anonymous 

Music : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GnVDPD01as&t=8377s

Picture Courtesy : @man-has-no-name

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[empathetichumans]

Hi, I am a 44 year old woman. I would like to share my story, because I want to tell the world, I am proud of myself.

Back in the year 2005 I was a school teacher. One usual day I was in my school teaching, as I must, but suddenly I started having a severe stomachache. I ignored it thinking, must be some acidity issue, and it was actually fine after a few hours. Such sudden stomachaches went on for months (and yes I regret ignoring them). During that time me and my husband decided to buy a small apartment - our very first own house, and we did! And now both us were working even more harder to get rid of our EMI as soon as possible and to save for our daughter’s education. It was already 2006, we had our own house, were doing great at our respective jobs and our daughter was studying in one of the most reputed schools in the city - I couldn’t be happier. But amidst all this, my stomachache was getting worse so I finally decided to get tested. I recall that day as one of the worst days of my life (apparently there were more to come). I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer - 2nd stage. That is when life started going downhill.

I had to leave my job (and obviously no school was ready to hire me anymore). I had to undergo an operation immediately, which I did but the hospital fee cost us a fortune, and the fact that we were living in one of the expensive cities of India wasn’t really helpful, fortunately we had enough savings but that was for my daughter’s education so, I knew I had to start working immediately. My daughter was way too young to understand anything. All I remember is her crying face for not being able to see me for few days.

I decided to start taking tuition to save money; in the next few weeks I did. The problem was I used to doze off a lot of times while teaching the children (and ended up banging my head on the table several times which caused a big bump om my for-head) - which was surprising as I wasn’t that tired to doze off out of nowhere. After visiting the doctor I came to know there were sleeping medicines mixed in my painkillers which were resulting in this. This really bothered my work so I decided to not take the medicines (and honestly they were way too expensive for us to afford, hence, financially it was a relief). People might say this was a bad decision but as a wife I couldn’t let my family face a financial trouble because of my health - my husband has his parents to look after and we have our daughter, I can’t jeopardize her future in any form as a mother (I know there are a lot of counters ready but I can’t explain in words the terrible time we were going through financially)...

Part 2 of the story will be uploaded tomorrow.

Story by : Anonymous

Music :  [BT21] KOYA’s Sleep Music

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkCW7cfrgBs&t=580s

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I like to believe, I am calm and try to avoid conflicts with anyone. I personally felt proud and never thought of losing it before THAT DAY.

It was an unusual day. I saw my team members being treated unfairly during sports day practise in my school. I decided to tolerate it as it was a matter of few days. That day too, I was frustrated from inside but very composed from outside. An hour was left for the practise and school to get over. There was quite a crowd that day since it was last day of practise before sports day. A small accident occurred whereby a girl from 8th grade fell and the entire blame came to my team members. The sports teacher always had some kind of grudge against me and my team and she started yelling for no reason and threatened me to boycott the entire team from participating in any event the next day. That was it, I guess. I challenged her saying I am ready to face anything, talk to anyone but I won't sit and tolerate any wrongs against the innocent souls. I even yelled at her saying I have at lot of love and respect for my members and as a captain it was my duty to protect them from this crap. I agreed to talk to the principal and that girl's parents in front of my teachers and everyone. But the situation never came. I was pulled away by my friends and my teachers and they made me understand to handle the situation in some other way but honestly at that moment no logic made sense to me.

 In 18 years of my life, this was the first time I was so outrageous and had done something without thinking twice about it - shocking everybody and myself as well. After two hours I somehow gathered myself and went up to her to apologize. She looked up at me and smiled and said, “I never expected an introvert to burst out like that.”

 I regret shouting and creating a ruckus but I learned it's always necessary to stand against the wrong and stand for the people and oneself - just in a bit more smarter and calmer way. Since then I never ignored any situation where I felt voicing my opinion was necessary. It is a BIG STEP forward I have taken as an introvert.

Story by : Anonymous

Music : Meditaion by Monoman

             https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FjHGZj2IjBk

Picture Courtesy : @EmpatheticHumans 

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[empathetichumans]

Why EmpatheticHumans?

 As mentioned in the description of my account, the purpose of this account is to share our feelings and learn to empathize. I, the admin, grew up really lonely. Both my parents were busy working to save money for my future, amidst all this my mother was diagnosed with cancer (that didn’t stop her from working for me though). With everything happening, my parents didn’t realize how alone I felt, but I was never angry at them - they were either busy working or at the hospital. They provided me with every possible materialistic thing possible, even before I asked for it; nothing really filled the emotional void in me though.

 It wasn’t only the hard times, I wanted to share my happiness with someone, I wanted to brag about something good I did. My friends you ask - I was afraid they won’t understand me and judge me (I was 9 -10 years old). It was around 2015 I met my best friends and told them my life story - and that moment was the most relaxing moment of my life. I cried, I laughed, I bragged, felt angry but at the end felt free. It was at that moment I realized how important it was to let your emotions out. Probably it won’t solve your biggest life problems but empty the space in your mind to think clearly and take in more problems life is gonna throw at you, because let’s be real life is a bitch and that is what makes it fun to live.

Consider EmpatheticHumans as you Safe Place. Share anything you want and we will post it and hopefully the readers could help you out by giving you a wider perspective on life or just rejoice with you, anything you want.

 PS : I added the lyrics of Butterfly by BTS because their music has a huge part in helping me with my mental health.

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