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meander1995 · 7 months

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i think the world would be a happier place if we were all permanently stoned

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meander1995 · 8 months

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I’m having the 2nd and 3rd Episodes recorded this afternoon. They will be on Van Halen and Coldplay. Excited to get this one in--and the fact that I am a trans woman is a non-factor for them.

I am currently also managing a secondary Tumblr for my music podcast that I run.

#personal #algorythms #thealgorythms #thealgorythmspodcast #podcast #reblog #musicpodcast #music podcast #Spotify #Van Halen #vanhalen #coldplay #Transwoman

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meander1995 · 8 months

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burning man 2023 explained

burning man is a festival for rich white people who want to smoke weed and trip acid in the nevada desert and pretend they're one with the earth. it's not a music festival or anything that serves any purpose, it's just vibes

a hundred year flash flood just hit nevada, including where burning man is being held this very weekend

dry desert ground can't suddenly absorb water, let alone that much water all at once, so now burning man is a giant mud pit with THICK deep mud

nobody can get in or out, so they closed all the roads

FEMA just told the *73,000 PEOPLE* stranded at burning man to shelter in place, ration food and water, and essentially "you're on your own, good luck"

the port-o-potties are overflowing into the mud they're all walking around in

the official CDC twitter account tweeted (and then deleted) that there's a confirmed ebola outbreak at burning man, but people are pretty sure it's just trench illnesses. like actual WWI trench illnesses

earlier this week, climate activists protested against burning man, and all the attendees drove right past them (and yelled at them, and tried to get them arrested, etc)

there's a private jet at burning man where people can join the mile high club. it just takes off and lands all day and lets people fuck in it. no word yet on the fuck plane's current status/location

and lastly: when the ground here gets wet, the sea monkeys hatch

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meander1995 · 8 months

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I am currently also managing a secondary Tumblr for my music podcast that I run.

#personal #introduction #music #podcast #algorythms

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meander1995 · 8 months

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So now, I have a project that I thought up the seeds of for a little over a year before it actually happened.

Introducing: The Algorhythms Podcast. Every (main) episode, we will be ranking (from least-to-most) all the main albums of a band's discography. In the future, there will be side episodes (like Top 10 Songs, Top solos, etc) to accompany the main episodes. But I figured I would have the first episode serve as an extended introduction and as a training ground for establishing a groove between the co-hosts.

I know my cohosts through convos one-on-one with me and them. But this is the first time my co-hosts (Soren and Duke) have spoken with each other. I think they hit it off pretty well.

I am also in-talks with a potential video editor for eventually uploading these onto YouTube. This same person I'm in-talks with is also an artist and I can commission stuff like character portraits and a proper logo from him.

While this episode is focused on Queen (and yes, we are counting Flash Gordon and The Cosmos Rocks, so 16 albums total), the 2nd and 3rd episodes will be recorded within the next month. Episode 2 will be focused on Van Halen (Soren's pick) and Episode 3 will be based on Coldplay (Duke's pick).

I personally don't care if this blows up or not. Sure, becoming huge would be nice. But I like doing this enough that that is--in a way--it's own reward.

I may ask some folks affiliated with a given artist in the future as a guest someday. For instance, I know that one of my old college professors would not pass up appearing on a future David Bowie episode someday.

I should note that the mic quality is rough (the episode was recorded with laptops and phones) and I did some sorting about, but it IS a first episode. I think of it as a raw pilot episode that serves to establish the foundation that I will later refine.

#personal #podcast #spotify podcast #algorythms #music #discography #queen band #Queen #van halen #coldplay #musings #rankings #Spotify

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meander1995 · 8 months

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This is a collage I made of my transition via HRT so far. Two weeks in and doing fine. Amazing, in fact.

Also, I feel more sensitive nipples and a tenderness in my chest over the past couple of days. Which means I could have breast buds appear sooner rather than later.

Also, the sperm will be banked on Monday for absolute certain. I've been low-dosing the Spiro so I can prolong fertility in order to make the sample. But after the sample is made on Monday, no need to go lower than recommended dosages anymore. It's full-tilt transition time!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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As of this morning, the GoFundMe funds have arrived. I have ordered a Legacy mail-order sperm banking kit that will arrive on Thursday, August 17th, 2023 and have a decent amount of money left over.

I will be temporarily stopping Spiro until after the donation as a precaution in order to ensure I can maintain fertility until Thursday. But once the sperm is banked, I will begin the transition full-speed-ahead.

Although the goals of the GoFundMe have been met, I will leave it up for now. Anything that can keep a trans girl on her feet is good news.

An update.

I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.

Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.

Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.

Donation time (Link to a GoFundMe)!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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An update.

I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.

Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.

Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.

Donation time (Link to a GoFundMe)!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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The same day I got the HRT, I thought to myself “Just one dose of HRT should not be enough to nuke my fertility, right?” and took my first dose shortly before dinner.

I felt an instant warm calm flood every nerve in my body the instant the pills touched my tongue. At which point I thought “I have a great reward for me once I bank my sperm.” Turns out that trying to hold off going full-tilt on HRT after having a taste is a bit of a ‘fuck-around and find-out’ endeavor. Because the instant the HRT wore off, it was like every nerve in my body was now being endlessly brushed up against pins and needles.

So now I had a choice to make: see what mail-order sperm kit (probably Legacy) I can order with what I’ve raised so far and see if I’m still fertile in under a week while reducing my dosages of HRT (specifically, halving the Spiro) or continue being miserable while holding off full-tilt transition.

As much as biological kids would be nice one day, I feel like I have to listen to my body on this one. Listening to my body was ultimately what led to the realization that I am a trans woman, so doing so has served me well recently. The fact that I’m still willing to try to bank sperm is evidence that I will try my best for a bio kid still, but if the sperm sample is non-viable, I’ll take it as a sign that bio kids were just not meant for me. But I won’t be too upset that I chose to listen to myself instead. Besides, I can still have kids one day even if this doesn’t work: adoption, step-parent a cis woman’s kid(s), having frozen sperm from a T4T partner + a surrogate mother, and probably a few other ways. And just because they wouldn’t be mine biologically doesn’t mean that I’d love them any less.

In other thoughts, the walk from my house to the post office after I produce the sample will be a 10-15 minute walk. As such, it’ll be the first time that I have walked outside my immediate neighborhood in full-blown femme attire. If I feel comfortable enough doing so that I’d be willing to do it regularly, there is also a Planet Fitness right by that post office.

So I may listen to my body again once I start full-tilt transition (with no reduced doses) and start working out on my health. Funny how when you start liking who you are, you feel the need to start taking care of yourself.

Once the sperm is banked, I will also set my next hyperfixation: finally working on getting my driver’s license.

As for what the extra amount of money in the donations will be used for? I’m thinking of splitting it into two halves: half for emergency stuff, half for what I’m referring to as #TransGirlStarterPack , for lack of a better term.

An update.

I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.

Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.

Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.

Donation time (Link to a GoFundMe)!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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Just a few minutes ago, I ran an errand with mom. And in the passenger’s seat of the car, I see a package addressed to me.

The HRT is here. But I'll probably have to hold off on starting until after I bank. Hopefully, I’ll be able to ride out euphoria until then.

An update.

I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.

Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.

Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.

Donation time (Link to a GoFundMe)!

#trans #personal #gofundme #transgender #lesbian #mtf lesbian #hrt #mtf hrt #fundraising #trans mutual aid #transmutualaid

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meander1995 · 9 months

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An update.

I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.

Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.

Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.

Donation time (Link to a GoFundMe)!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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I have no qualms about being aggressive with promoting this fundraiser if I need to be. Much like transitioning itself, I’m going to treat it like a marathon, not a sprint.

Also, I updated the description towards the end of the GoFundMe. If I hit the goal and end up having a surplus amount, I haven't thought of specifically what I'll use it for. However, I feel as though it would only be right if any extra money is used for items, clothes, tools, etc that would help out living life as a trans woman. So a "Trans Girl Starter Pack," if you will.

Mutual Aid Request for future fertility before starting HRT

I looked up the initial cost of freezing sperm at my local clinics. For those that do not know, HRT has a chance of inducing infertility. Although SOME trans women have reported being able to temporarily come off HRT to restore fertility in order to bank, there is no guarantee of it being successful. There is also the fact that coming off HRT for any extended period of time induces a miserable experience in trans folks that I've heard horror stories about--one that I would like to avoid if possible. The more I think of it, the more that I want to be able to start a family with someone someday 10-15 years down the road--directly if my partner is a cis woman or with a surrogate if my partner is another trans woman. Sure, adoption is awesome and I'd still love an adopted child like my own, but I'd choose to have at least one bio kid if I can.

That is where you come in: I'm asking for your help. I am still in a state where job coaches are being met with (the process is slow, but I look to have a job by year's end--one which will allow me to transition openly in the workplace), so I don't have a stable income just yet. But I'm confident that I will by the time the annual fee comes about, I will have enough of an income to budget that accordingly. So any donations to help for this goal would be appreciated.

Donation outlets:

Venmo Paypal

Have some recent photos of me, too. Complete with a couple of furbabies!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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i think one of the most important things you learn about making connections with others is that a significant portion of the time people just do not know theyre doing what theyre doing

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meander1995 · 9 months

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I made it even easier. Spread it around everywhere to help about! https://gofund.me/b6cfe272

Mutual Aid Request for future fertility before starting HRT

I looked up the initial cost of freezing sperm at my local clinics. For those that do not know, HRT has a chance of inducing infertility. Although SOME trans women have reported being able to temporarily come off HRT to restore fertility in order to bank, there is no guarantee of it being successful. There is also the fact that coming off HRT for any extended period of time induces a miserable experience in trans folks that I've heard horror stories about--one that I would like to avoid if possible. The more I think of it, the more that I want to be able to start a family with someone someday 10-15 years down the road--directly if my partner is a cis woman or with a surrogate if my partner is another trans woman. Sure, adoption is awesome and I'd still love an adopted child like my own, but I'd choose to have at least one bio kid if I can.

That is where you come in: I'm asking for your help. I am still in a state where job coaches are being met with (the process is slow, but I look to have a job by year's end--one which will allow me to transition openly in the workplace), so I don't have a stable income just yet. But I'm confident that I will by the time the annual fee comes about, I will have enough of an income to budget that accordingly. So any donations to help for this goal would be appreciated.

Donation outlets:

Venmo Paypal

Have some recent photos of me, too. Complete with a couple of furbabies!

#trans mutual aid #transmutualaid #fundraiser #transgender #mtf #mtf trans #fertility #family #fundraising #crowdfunding #gofundme

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meander1995 · 9 months

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Mutual Aid Request for future fertility before starting HRT

I looked up the initial cost of freezing sperm at my local clinics. For those that do not know, HRT has a chance of inducing infertility. Although SOME trans women have reported being able to temporarily come off HRT to restore fertility in order to bank, there is no guarantee of it being successful. There is also the fact that coming off HRT for any extended period of time induces a miserable experience in trans folks that I've heard horror stories about--one that I would like to avoid if possible. The more I think of it, the more that I want to be able to start a family with someone someday 10-15 years down the road--directly if my partner is a cis woman or with a surrogate if my partner is another trans woman. Sure, adoption is awesome and I'd still love an adopted child like my own, but I'd choose to have at least one bio kid if I can.

That is where you come in: I'm asking for your help. I am still in a state where job coaches are being met with (the process is slow, but I look to have a job by year's end--one which will allow me to transition openly in the workplace), so I don't have a stable income just yet. But I'm confident that I will by the time the annual fee comes about, I will have enough of an income to budget that accordingly. So any donations to help for this goal would be appreciated.

Donation outlets:

Venmo Paypal

Have some recent photos of me, too. Complete with a couple of furbabies!

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meander1995 · 9 months

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meander1995 · 9 months

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Some of you might remember a couple of years ago when Scarlett Johansson sued Disney because she was making significantly less money for Black Widow than was guaranteed in her contract because so many more people watched it on streaming than in theaters, how there was a massive misinformation campaign from Disney that a ton of people on this website (and Twitter and other social media) bought into: That she was a greedy bitch who didn't respect people who needed to stay at home during the pandemic (I believe the word "ableist" was thrown around with aplomb) as opposed to someone who just wanted to be paid what she was owed. What was literally in her contract!!! And where everyone who took more than a couple minutes to actually look into and think about the situation could figure out that her issue wasn't with streaming itself, but with how little streaming was allowed to get away with paying her and other actors. But of course, a lot of people just saw the chance to dunk on a rich woman, and didn't think about it beyond readying some snarky tags and hit reblog. And in doing so, threw their support behind a much wealthier, greedier studio head who is already using similar language to describe the current strike.

Anyway we're going to see a lot of that from studios now, especially now that actors have joined the WGA and it's easier to sell them as rich and greedy than writers, because of this cultural stereotype we have of all Hollywood actors as celebrities. Don't fall for it. SAG-AFTRA represents people like Tom Cruise and ScarJo but it also represents the kind of people who played a Borg in two episodes of Star Trek: Voyager in 1997 or who had one line in The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel as an enthusiastic audience member. Most actors are not crazy wealthy, and in fact, if you're a big TV fan (especially older TV and genre TV) that likely includes some actor names that you know, who played supporting roles in your fav shows, or who were even a star in something decades ago but haven't done anything major since. The AFTRA side also represents people like radio broadcasters. But even beside that, all workers deserve to be fairly compensated for the work they do, and the threat of replacing them with AI, or real actors being required to sign contracts to allow their likenesses to be used by AI forever without paying them, is an existential threat to acting as a profession in general. The actors are in the right. The writers are in the right. The studios are in the wrong. The studios have exploited new technology to get away with horrifying labor practices for years and their feet need to be put to the fire. Circulate the articles about how poorly the Orange is the New Black cast was compensated for making one of the defining shows of the early streaming boom, and of the studios saying they want to force writers to starve and lose their homes. Don't get distracted by propaganda aping progressive-sounding language about wealthy celebrities. Focus on the real enemy, the truly greedy fat cats who care more about money than people and art: the studios.

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