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1moreoffkeyanthem · 21 days

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what do you like most about writing each south park character?

Oh MAN I love this question! I’ve only ever written from the perspectives of Stan, Kyle, Kenny, Cartman, Butters/Marjorine, Craig, and Tweek, so I’ll be focusing on those seven!

Stan I adore making him a massive simp like ohhhh my god Stanley Down Bad Marsh my son hes kind of a loser sometimes and we love him for it! He’s definitely one of my favorites to write and I project onto him a good deal and have a few running gags with him, like a lot of the time I put him in clothes that I actually wear, have him reference media I enjoy, make him vegetarian every single time, just… Stan. What an icon. I love when he’s just so Done with the shenanigans around him too lmao

Kyle is my other favorite, easy, like he lends himself out so well to serve as the voice of reason and there’s so much to do with his character over every au! The majority of my Kyles are very empathetic to a fault, mostly idealistic in their worldview, very introspective, which is super fun to explore! It’s also fun to delve into his hypercritical side, when he portrays a false confidence that he doesn’t feel, when he’s everyone’s go-to. I really enjoy writing style because like yeah they’re in love, but they’re best friends at the root of that, and it’s important to me that their relationship is built off that bond.

Kenny! Dude Kenny is such an inherently complex character, whether you factor in the immortality or not, but he’s so interesting because he’s kind of a comic relief character on the surface, but holds this deep melancholy. He’s another favorite of mine to write and I have so many headcanons for him, like how he’s incredibly good at reading people, super good at making friends and cheering people up. Also I LOVE making Kenny unhinged as shit, like he is my vessel for inappropriate jokes and out of pocket comments, just so much eccentricity because he deserves it damnit! King shit. Or princess shit, perhaps ;)

Ok Cartman, I had SO many hang ups writing Cartman when I first started. I had absolutely no clue how to tackle him, because I don’t really like writing truly evil characters, and when I was super new to sp fanfiction I thought that was the only way I could really do him, that or leave him out. But YALL!!!!!! Once I realized I could write him as actually caring for his friends but just being an abrasive fuckwad for the hell of it, everything changed!!! He is SO GODDAMN FUN TO WRITE like the Cartmanisms are delightful to come up with and he is EASILY one of my favorite characters to include now! His commentary is fucking hilarious and he will deadass just say anything, I can’t BELIEVE I spent so long avoiding writing him bc he’s a blast and the most unserious guy you will ever meet also he absolutely reads fanfiction that guy is devouring dead doves. One of these days I’ll make a list of my favorite cartmanisms I’ve written.

Butters/Marj, so I don’t necessarily have more of an attachment to either version, but I think my favorite thing about writing them is the speech pattern! Butters has more of a hesitant way of talking and that’s honestly super fun to translate into writing. I like making them a really nurturing character, like as the station medic in ATLCTS, but also pretty gullible to shit like pyramid schemes like in the OrangeJuiceVerse. Another character that I hesitated to write from for a hot minute because I wasn’t sure how I wanted to go about it, but Butters/Marjorine is really fun to switch up the rhythm of the prose!

BY FAR my favorite thing about writing Craig is giving him pointless beef with Stan, like when this mf does not care about shit except his bf and stripe it’s so fucking funny to me. In In The Truly Gruesome I had SUCH a blast making him so quick with the comebacks and the nonchalance like bruh he is so damn funny for no reason that’s probably one of my favorite Craigs I’ve written. His relationships with people in his life are really cool to explore too, like in the later OJV he’s really good friends with Kyle, and their differences in personality that au are super cool to work with!

Similar to Butters, Tweek is fun to write because of the distinct speech and thinking pattern! His prose, the slight stutter and hesitation, like you can tell when it’s Tweek talking. That’s part of the reason I alternated chapters in Broken Bottles From Apartment 2 between him and Kyle, because of the juxtaposition of their ways of thinking and talking. Whereas Kyle is concise and deliberate, Tweek is more scattered and sporadic, which is an interesting contrast!

Aight man that’s it for this ask, I hope I made some semblance of sense, thank u for asking about this!!!

#asks #south park #my shit #star seven #sp kids #PCE speaks

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shockwave-princess · 2 years

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South Park Concert Spoilers and Long Post About My Experience

It was an absolute fucking dream come true - I am so happy with my experience and I can't wait to do it again tomorrow

We got great seats about 6 rows from the front - Boogie and Betty were directly in front of us in the first row

We were there for a while when they were setting up. Betty and a friend (possibly Matt's daughter?) were walking around and waving to the audience. It was very cute.

They showed a Casa Bonita update video - very funny and it got me even more excited for the documentary. I'll upload the video ASAP. It makes me want a Matt and Trey reality show

Ween opened with a couple songs, then Primus came out. Instead of doing separate sets, they sort of took turns/played together throughout the night with south park songs interspersed.

Trey was wearing pretty much what I expected, but Matt's blue tracksuit caught me off guard lmao

We were so CLOSE to them - and we were in their line of sight pretty often. My energy level was at a 10 anytime Matt or Trey did anything, and in my heart and imagination, they looked at me a few times.

From my perspective, a large portion of the audience was much more familiar with Primus/Ween/mainstream SP songs (which is to be expected). At one point they played "Man Up" from BOM and I swear to god, after they finished Matt turned to Trey and said "they don't know that one" and laughed.

TREY PLAYED WHEN I WAS ON TOP OF YOU I was so fucking happy. Again, not something I think a lot of people knew unfortunately

When they weren't playing - and Primus or Ween were on, Matt and Trey sat in chairs on stage. They kept looking out into the audience and smiling - it was very cute.

Each of them totally killed it - Matt on ukelele, guitar, bass, and drums - he was so good and I love seeing him smile. TREY ON PIANO WAS A FUCKING DREAM - I can't remember which song it was, but he did some fancy shit it was crazy. Les Claypool is a god, Bruce Howell killed it, and Dean Ween was awesome - and I'm also certain I made eye contact with Les and Dean a ton, but again, that's probably my imagination lol it was a big crowd

Several mics on stage were set to different pitches so they could do the boys' voices as they needed. For one song, Matt was singing as Butters but also playing guitar - he explained that they tried a lot of things, but if their voices are pitched up while they are playing an instrument, it will be in the wrong key. So for that song, he played guitar while doing Butters' voice, but the pitch was his normal voice.

There were hat changes that I enjoyed very much. Matt in a cowboy hat 10/10

They did the ballad of lemmiwinks - everyone on stage was in these funny costumes, and throughout the song the different characters were supposed to come out. I think the people in the costumes kept missing their cue and Trey was trying to wave people on and off lol. He recognized it wasn't going as planned and said "the animals are fucking it up you guys!" It was very camp.

They had these awesome backup singers - a very talented group of girls and they killed it.

They did the DVDA version of Brain Boitano - I was jumping up and down the whole time

The America Fuck Yeah encore was awesome - they kept faking us out that the show was over and then coming back

I might add more as I process everything - but they guys seemed so happy and I am so proud of them. Matt and Trey did such a good job

#south park concert #sp spoilers #south park spoilers

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kushisone420 · 8 months

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Realizing Self isn't selfish. In fact not realizing self is selfish

This might be a ramble, but here we go.

Like a decent percentage of people who got into the law of assumption, it was all because of a person. Before I got into this rabbit hole of law of assumption and nonduality I had manifested a man into my life who was perfect, basically somewhat of a guy version of me. I made a list of everything I desired in a man and let it go and it just happened. However, my beliefs, unhealed attachment issues, putting him on a pedestal and seeing love as something outside of myself turned into undesirable experiences. I then turned to the law of assumption after coming across a Reddit post of women getting her SP back. I saw it as some magic spell to get the love back that I craved. It worked for the first three months but I still wasn't getting the desired results I wanted. I then became obsessed with my desires from the month of March to June. Constantly wishfully thinking, not being. I stopped meditating, a practice I had cultivated for over a year. Then.. a 3P came into the mix. My ego and mortal mind was really upset because I had been doing everything right, or I thought I had. Then a good friend in Early June got me into the work of John Paolucci and that got me into non dualism.

I see this so often with many people manifesting SPs. It takes them so long or it never happens and they manifest/experience someone else because they see their SP outside of themselves. They obsess, watch every move their SP makes and often them wanting their SP is a sign of an unhealed wound they need to release. I know mine was along with my beliefs that I wasn't perfect, men would leave me, and only want me for my body and looks.

I don't identify with that person anymore. Since walking towards realizing self I love everyone and everything. I look at my dogs with so much love because they are me, everyone around me and I have so much love for my SP,. I love him because he was the person who pushed me to walk down this path and I love him because he is me. I don't really need him right now and I let go, and let god.

Here are some takeaways from my experience:

Like Lester Levenson mentioned in his book Key to the Ultimate Freedom, realizing self benefits the world more than you think. A lot of my friends have gotten into spirituality more and non duality. I find myself to be a better friend than I once was, I am more caring, I listen better, I love unconditionally. I let people be who they are and I expect nothing but the best for them.

In my journal in January I wrote "All my life I had been filling other's cups up expecting them to fill mine in return, how selfish of me to do so. I want to fill my cup up so much that it overflows and others can drink from it". Fill your cup up first, give without expecting a return.

Love is so fucking powerful. Actual divine love. Not the egotistical/mortal love. Love is so free, relaxing, powerful, and blissful. I am convinced that experiencing love with another person or what John Paolucci calls "dream people" is just a cherry on top.

If you are reading this and are into LOA, please just ask yourself why you are manifesting an SP. Remind yourself who you are.. Dissolve any ego regarding it. LOA can be so misunderstood, people often think they are doing techniques to get something but that is far from the truth. You are doing the techniques to feel. You are touching your pure source, who you are.

At times when I want to feel the source of love, I sit in my heart chakra, asking myself "Who am I?" and I just feel it glow and it is so powerful and blissful. I have started to do this often whenever I have a thought. I love it so much.

I still do want to experience love with another person. But healthy love, preferably with someone who is open to nonduality and wants to learn or someone who already knows. I don't need it, but it is something to experience. I manifested/brought to awareness the body of Kush on this planet to experience, have fun, play, and learn who I am. Earth is a playground for gods, I want to dig my toes in the sandbox lol. For now I am just focused on Self. Anyways, just a ramble, experience sharing and some of my thoughts. I don't really identify with my human self as much anymore so this post could be deleted as it shares some of my past. But for now, I wanted to share this, maybe someone who was in the same spot as me.

#non duality #reflection #advaita vedanta #non dualism #law of assumption #law of consciousness

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sherwoodknights · 5 months

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SP 1999 EPISODE 5 LIVEBLOG

And thus begins the final 2 parter of the series!!!!

Uh oh its 1794 and they're at an orphanage in paris

I'm gonna get my heart ripped out by the Dauphin aren't I goddammit

THE KIDS CALLING HIM YOUR MAJESTY LMAOOO

MY POOR BOY STOP SHOUTING AT HIM

I don't care what version of the story it is, I can and will get emotional over the Dauphin

LEAVE THE CHILD ALONE HES A LITERAL CHILD STOP MAKING HIM INSULT HIS PARENTS FFS

Who is the spooky man in the mask

Richard E Grant are you the spooky man in the mask

HE JUST FULL ON PUNCHED A WOMAN IN THE FACE AND STABBED A MAN IM NOT SO SURE THATS RICHARD E GRANT

Transformers wishes it has explosions like this

Awww percy being nice to the painter what a king

Women in pretty dresses yes please <3333

Marguerite in red dress is GORGEOUSSSS

Suzanne is also gorgeous for the record

PERCY AND MARGOT STOP HAVING FIGHTS IN FRONT OF THE PRINCE

SHES LEAVING HIM?????

Please tell me that was all part of a plan

I do not care if you are the Prince of England sir you will not touch my wife

Oh no

Oh I don't think it was planned at all

Margot you know what happened the last 2 times you were alone in france

Ugh ffs Chauvelin leave her aloneeeeee

"Your English is better than mine" says the British actor to the American actress

God they're so bad at small talk

Yeah Marguerite why have you left Percy we'd all like to know

Stop enjoying this so much Chauvvy damn

GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER SHES SLEEPING

Oh wait he was waking her up my bad

What do the French government want with Marguerite thoooo

OH SHIT MAYBE IT IS A PLAN

GODDAMN THEY HAD ME FOOLED

Robespierre has a model village akdndjeksndnd??????

Robespierre rolling his eyes and looking disgusted while Marguerite talks about falling in love with Percy lmaoooooo

She is a person thank you very much don't call her a piece of propaganda

Omgggg do we get to see margot back on stage lets gooo

"You should be in politics" oh robespierre if only you knew

WHY IS ROBESPIERRE LIKE A SULKING CHILDDDD

Chauvvy with a cigarette is kinda hot????

Andrew in a silly revolutionary beanie is too cute lmao

Who are they looking for

OH SHIT THE GUY THEYRE LOOKING FOR IS HANGING FROM THE CEILING

Yeah you go you funky actress stick your scene partners head into your chest

Oh god margot had to share a carriage with Chauvvy AND Robespierre?? That must have been the world journey in the worlddd

Oh nevermind the actress is a raging bitch

Aksjejskekrkrk she insulted robespierres playwrighting abilities

"It's an honour, Citizen robespierre-" "no, its an intrusion" lmao what a line

PERCY STOP KISSING YOUR WIFE CHAUVELIN IS RIGHT THERE

PERCY AND MARGOT REUNION AGAIN <3333

Uh oh the shaver cut Robespierre he's gonna dieee

He doesn't believe Percy is the Pimpernel despite the fact that he admitted it to Chauvelin??? Trust issues in full throttle I see

You go percy save that woman I believe in you

ROBESPIERRE BALANCING THE GLASSES ON THE WIG AGAIN LMAOOO

SIR THE DAUPHIN IS A CHILD DO NOT DARE BRING HIM TO TRIAL

The only time I will agree with Robespierre in this series is when he refuses to put a 10 year old on trial and execute him

Honestly Andrew looks so fit in his revolutionary disguise

Oh no where's the woman they were gonna save gone

OH FUCKED SHES BEEN DROWNED AND HER NECKS BEEN BROKEN

Stop bullying margot you bitch she's more of an actor than you'll ever be

We get a lot of sassy robespierre this episode and I'm enjoying it honestly

I hope the guy on stage rips his pants

Not out of spite or anything I just think it would be funny

I swear to god if she sabotages Margot ill cry

Girl what the fuck kind of Epilogue is this

DONT CALL MY WIFE A TRAITOR YOU BASTARD

Shoutout that one random man in the audience for starting to sing i guess????

Look he saved Marguerite from looking completely stupid good on him

Two seconds ago they were insulting her and now they're carrying her through the streets on shoulders??

Aww percy looks so proud of her <33

Another episode done!

Only one episode left this season now, I can't wait to see how this goes!!

#the scarlet pimpernel #sky liveblogs #sky watches sp1999 #the scarlet pimpernel 1999 #richard e. grant #Martin shaw #elizabeth mcgovern

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facelessxchurch · 11 months

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SP HeroForge: The Unnamed (1)

“The breakers of worlds reckon themselves mighty, but I mock them, for I am drinker of suns.”

“I am immortal. Your true death is when I forget.”

“All things that live are born already Named. I am Unnamed, yet I live. All the magic of sorcerers comes to them by their Name. I have no Name, and yet the doors of all magic are thrown open before me.”

I initially tried to stick to your ref sheet of the original Unnamed, but HeroForge’s options do not lend themselves well to that corporeal-Nazgul look. Not enough chains or billowing sleeves and the tattered robe options look bad to me. So I gave up on that and went off-script entirely with this immortal mummified pharaoh vibe, mostly of my own invention.

HeroForge doesn’t have an option for floating pieces around the head for that King of the Darklands crown, (these models have to be 3D-printable) but I got reasonably close with a ring of horns.

Guess what sword that is he’s holding?

So in the Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead, there are a few lines that have been stuck in my head ever since I learned them. Echoing around in my mind, like I was always meant to hear them, like they were written for me. Which I guess in a way, they were. The Book of the Dead, which is also called the Book of Going Forth By Day, is actually a religious text, not some kind of spellbook of Old Kingdom necromancy or whatever it is depicted as in historically illiterate fiction.

The Ancient Egyptian religion is actually the source of True Name lore. For example, Isis, daughter of Ra, learns Ra’s True Name. She does this by poisoning him with an enchanted serpent she conjures, then tricking him into revealing his secret name to her so she can heal him. When he does so, she gains his power. Does this event remind you of anything that happened in phase 2 of Skulduggery Pleasant? I can think of one in particular.

Anyway, the lines are thus:

“I am the Great One, son of the Great One”

“I am fire, son of fire, whose head was given to him after it was cut off.”

These refer to the god Osiris, torn apart and later retrieved, stitched back together, embalmed and resurrected by his wife, or more generally the souls of the dead on their journey through the underworld to new life, who Osiris serves as a kind of exemplar for. But I found myself thinking about them again while customizing the Unnamed in HeroForge, and thought, what about a special version just for him?

“I am the Nameless, child of the Faceless.”

“I am no one, son of no one, over whom death has neither call nor claim.”

Thank you for coming to my dark magic TED talk

SP HeroForge: The Unnamed (2)

“Sorcerers become great when they own their Names. I own the ink with which those Names were written.”

Here are close-ups of his face, including some editions with sigils blazing with power carved into his skin.

I remembered that sculpt you linked before and tried to make his eyes look as much like it as I could. I also gave him the nose ring from that sculpt. Hope you appreciate

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Ya trying a bit to hard on the quotes ngl. The only quote I like is the one based on the Book of the Dead. Tho the Unnamed describing himself as Child of the Faceless feels ooc for him. He infantilizes others by calling them ‘boy’ but not himself. Him calling himself ‘heir’ to the Faceless would seem more fitting to me.

Is he holding the Godkiller Sword?

I love that you based him off Egyptian lore. I’m pretty sure that Landy actually admitted in one interview that he based the name system on the Egyptian three names lore, yet you’re the first I saw do something with that information. So big bonus points for including that lore The only thing I don’t like is that the bandages don’t cover him completely.

(I’d imagine Mev and Nef hate it too lol no one wants to see that nasty old man skin. Imagine this scene but with the Unnamed and Mev/Nef .3.)

But HF’s limits options are to blame for that and not you. That’s why I hardly play around with HF tbh bc not being able to do what I want drives me nuts haha.

You did an absolutely fantastic job on the eyes too! 👀 They look properly otherworldly and dripping with power! I’m a bit torn on the nose ring, but it does low key remind me of the main baddie from 300 which I would say fits thematically.

#skulduggery pleasant #the Unnamed #HeroForge #submission

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rikeijo · 1 year

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Today's translation #186

Yuri!!! on Life Official guidebook, Yamamoto Sayo's interview

Part 10.

So [Shimizu-san] knows a lot about figure skating! I've heard from a cast member, who had to do many retakes, that recording took quite a lot of time. Was it because you were so particular about voice actors' performance?

Shimizu-san is really into acting, and always aims to achieve even better results, so I would say that he doesn't just give an okay after one take, but rather his style of work is to retake the parts he feels are not quite right and via trial and error method then choose the best version. Also, when he starts to talk about figure skating it gets quite long (laugh). I'm the same, so it creates a synergistic effect.

I wouldn't expect that he's such a passionate figure skating fan! How about the staff members who didn't know much about figure skating? Have you done anything to share with them what you want to pay special attention to?

So first of all, I thought that if I try to explain it myself, they wouldn't understand, so I created a "Compilation of God-level Performances" (laugh). I collected [videos] of all the programs I think are God-level and after adding my comments, I sent them to main staff members. I had to restrict myself to only the most recent programs or it would be a colossal list, so I only chose men's singles programs from after 2011, that had an influence on "Yuri!!! on ICE". From what I can remember right now, Machida Tatsuki's SP, FS, EX from 2014, Takahashi Daisuke's FS from Japanese Nationals in 2012, SP from NHK Cup in 2013, Hanyu Yuzuru's FS from Worlds in 2012, Patrick Chan's SP, FS from Eric Bompard Trophy in 2013, Jeremy Abbott's SP from US Nationals in 2014, FS from Worlds in 2014, Jason Brown's FS from US Nationals in 2014, Denis Ten's FS from Four Continents in 2015 and Kozuka Takahiko's FS from Worlds in 2011, FS from Japanese Nationals in 2014 were on the list… The last one, Kubo-san and me saw live in person and we both cried, so it's a program full of memories. In addition, I also created a corner with legendary curious exhibition programs to widen the range. It was a "legendary" corner, so without restriction in time range… (laugh). Evgeni Plushenko's 2014 special version of his EX "Sex Bomb" - The Shrine of Male Deity* version, as I personally call it, Sasaki Akio's ninja? - ah, but it's not an exhibition program… it's SP from 2011. The next one isn't "curious", but it became a cue for me to start watching figure skating live in person - Johnny Weir's "Poker Face" EX from 2009 - I thought that this one just had to be included and that it maybe can make them fall in love with figure skating. As a bonus, these are programs from before Vancouver Olympics, but I also carefully selected Stephane Lambiel's programs to be on the list. I really wanted the staff members to watch them before they draw Victor. There were many more, but if I keep on going, it'll soon get out of control, so I'll just stop here… (laugh).

[Notes: She calls it "otoko mikoshi" - portable shrine of male deity, which is usually carried around by men wearing nothing but fundoshi, a loincloth - so that's probably where the name came from!]

#yuri on ice #yoi translations #yuri on ice translation

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melanchoise · 1 year

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HELLO I LOVED YOUR OD B'DAY ART SM !! (pls tell me you didn't see me clowning in the tags haha–) would you be willing to elaborate on why you chose the flowers you did for the 999th gang ? i was curious abt the flowers especially since im a sucker for flower meanings <33 have a good day / night ^^

UHM UHH HI 😳😳 i actually saw your tags before i went to sleep and i was planning to do a rb to my art after i wake up to explain to you further but since you sent in an ask thats awesome LOL

first off i'm glad you liked the art so much!! it is my pleasure to make art that twists the soul

actually you were kinda on the spot with everything! but some flower symbolism additions were part of my own hc for each member and i didn't know that someone would ask about it (nothing bad that you did!) so i'll elaborate below (also spoilers haha)

uriel: yep, lilies! i think it can mean affection for loved ones, but when i was thinking about it i intended for it to mean rebirth, devotion and longing at the same time. i think 999th's uriel went through too much and suffered a lot under bearing the weight of the inevitability of fate, but with OD i felt like her newest family may be a fresh start for her. she seems the most likely to cling to the past, but when faced with the most powerless existence in the universe, uriel would only feel pity and sadness for the god who never lived.

lee jihye: yippee you got it, hydrangeas! i didn't color these in, but the hydrangeas i was thinking of were pink and purple - heartfelt emotion as well as a yearning for compassion. all of the 999th, and i think especially ljh, felt an intense desire for the lives that the 1864th versions of them led. in the end, i would love to believe that they achieved peace, but i think the ancient sorrow and yearning that plagued them will always stick with me.

lee hyunsung: it was obvious from the start but sunflowers - an eternal adoration and loyalty to those around him. i have a lot of feelings about 999th lhs due to the fact that it just hits So Hard that he tries So Much just like in all those other rounds. and yet, despite everything, he will still look towards the light, like a sunflower :) you will never lose the shell again, lhs.

kim namwoon: those are actually wild daisy weeds! thought it'd be funny and a little in character if everyone else chose carefully while he just grabbed some off the sidewalk LOL - on another hand, daisies also symbolize rebirth and motherhood. knw seems like a lonely little fellow to me, and maybe he'll be a mom friend/babysitter figure to OD, who knows? new life, new start.

secretive plotter: yea, tulip :) red and orange. it's simple, yet represents deep, undying and unconditional love. i don't think i need to talk much about that, i just think the SP's ■■ doesn't need a long explanation.

ough this is so long LMAO

anyway this is just my interpretation, which will be different from other people! so if anyone has any other thoughts feel free to scream at me etc etc i would love to hear about them :D

#orv spoilers #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #999 gang #the oldest dream #secretive plotter #asks

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diesoonandsuffer · 2 years

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sp ock

genuinely the guy of all time. i purposefully saved this for last so i could think about it more and i still don't think i'm ready so here i go.

favorite thing about them

to quote kirk "of all the souls i've met in my travels, his was the most human." i love how proud he is of his vulcan heritage and how he tries to honor them but i also love the way he just cannot fight off his humanity. and the way he eventually learns to accept that part of himself as well, become not two split halves but rather one whole complete and complex person. he can have a moral code governed by logic and see the world through a lens of science while also having passion for the arts, having capacity for empathy, knowing when to take a different approach. like THE guy of all time genuinely

least favorite thing about them

that he doesn't jump on kirk's bones sooner!!!!

no i'm kidding mostly uhh i mean we could go into all of the ways this little guy is messed up like he is repressed he is contradictory he is too mean he is loyal to the rules to a fault. but also most of these things eventually change or shift? so by the end of his arc those things don't really stick. i guess i wish he would open up to more people other than just kirk and occasionally bones, i do wish i could see his other friendships thriving

favorite line

god he has so many good lines.....like both spirk related ones that make me insane but also regular lines from the show he has so many bangers. okay i'm going with this one:

"after a time, you may find that having is not so pleasing a thing after all as wanting. it is not logical, but it is often true." like okay go off king of gay yearning. he walked so tumblr could run

honorable mentions: "JIM!!!" and "they are not the hell your whales."

brOTP

him and uhura <3 any time i see fanart of them hanging out im like YEAH!!!!!

OTP

you are my superior officer. you are also my friend. i have been and always shall be yours.

nOTP

him and uhura </3 KELVIN TIMELINE I AM LOOKING DIRECTLY AT YOU

random headcanon

i have a hc that kirk was like involved in theater in starfleet academy somehow. i don't know if they met at the academy but if they did i think spock would go to his shows

unpopular opinion

i don't think we should be making more spocks like i'm sure these new shows are good but this man already has so much lore and has been made and remade so many times like he has 15 versions of himself WITHIN himself and none of them really feel the same or capture the original. like just leave him be lol

song i associate with them

the first song i thought of was cold, cold man by saint motel. it's basically about someone who does not show many grand or outward gestures of affection but is assuring their lover that they are the only thing that matters.

favorite picture of them

this one

[image ID: spock slunched over on a table, head on his hands, near tears.]

send me a tos or tng character!

#like THE guy #spock #sam's thots #tos #ask

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crystalelemental · 1 year

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Okay, just a dev letter, no update, but update almost definitely Monday so we’ll see what the deal is. Oh man, let’s fucking go lads.

Steven Stone is the trainer lodge unit, which means he is in the Lodge rotation, which means I am spending until he’s 5/5 there. It’s time. After all this time, finally he’s ready. I’m stoked.

They’re going to allow 6* EX pairs to upgrade without changing costume. This is so transparently the answer to MU and Solgaleo, but honestly I fucking called it. I said this shit months ago on Reddit, that we’d definitely get the EX for them but there was no guarantee of a costume swap, and look who was right! The good news is, they reference multiple sync pairs. Which could, and goddamn better, mean the BP units. There is no reason for the Master BP units to not have EX, given how otherwise middling they are. I will EX Mesprit so goddamn fast...

I will state for the record, I fucking love that they’re keeping the mystery element. There are four sync pairs connected, and we get to know two of them. First is...Steven Stone. I said it in a separate post, but god I am living. “They only give girls alts, it’s gonna be Lillie lol, DeNA just favors waifus.” Shut your fucking bitch mouths, idiots! Steven Fucking Stone, first to six alts, suck his magnum dong! Interestingly, they went with shiny Stoutland. He’s a tech that “Weakens opponents and powers up allies,” which sounds very akin to Winter Whitney. The Buddy Move sounds pretty nice, though Atk/Spd are less valuable than if it were both defenses. But apparently he just gives allies SEUN, and can apply +3 physical moves up next on an ally, and lower the type rebuff of the target’s weakness, so this dude is...why is he not a support again? No sincerely, it sounds like he doesn’t do a whole lot himself, but he’s really good at supporting someone else’s numbers.

Shauna’s the other, and you know? I’m down. I don’t dislike Shauna, but I do dislike her outfit. This one’s cute. And her partner is Klefki, which isn’t what I would’ve expected, but it’s a cute partner for a detective event. Steel-type support, so like...guess I’m getting that one too. I already kinda love it; each time it attacks, it has Team Stat Leech 9, lowering a random stat on the foe then raising it for the team. The question is, if it lowers at random in 3v3, then if you hit Atk on one, Sp Atk on another, and Def on the third, does it raise all three for the team? I’m curious. She also has a randomized version of Dawn’s Power Siphon for all core stats, and trainer move applies status move defense (kinda mid, just make it condition shield), stat reduction defense, and +2 crit for the team. So she’s going to be great in Gauntlet, but CS is going to be too inconsistent to work with allies who can’t support their own offensive needs.

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH. Okay kids, here we go. 2500 points in Master Mode. I’m gonna be honest, half the time I don’t even like 2k. I don’t like a lot of the parameters, I feel like it can be annoying and frustrating for little reason. And more modern CS has a tendency to already cause problems. This feels like a little much. It might be fine, though. Truth be told, before the 2k meta, I practiced at 2.5k with way worse units, and I handled it fine with far, far fewer tools (context: this was like November 2021, when the biggest names were SC Diantha and Lear; I was using Summer Lyra). Still, I dunno. I guess it will depend on the rewards. It better be Champion Spirits. I have some needs. But hey, QoL improvement, we can save and load paramter layouts. And apparently they’re going to add new options, so maybe the new parameters will be less shit.

Okay, we have confirmation on the new CS mode. One type will be effective, which is...wild to me. I’m assuming that means you need five strikers in that type, what a nightmare. The mode focuses on E4 and Champions from across regions, so I’m assuming this plays like Karen/Grimsley/Sidney meet up as Dark-types and something like Bug-types are effective? We’ll see. But I’ve officially abandoned all hope of true joy, as they state there will be only one special sync pair, making an appearance as a champion. Which...I dunno, man. I want to twist the words to mean “They’re not usually a champion but they’re like the crowned champion for this event” and say “It’s Psychic types and Caitlin is supreme overlord!” But Steven just hit six alts which means it’s officially fair game for everyone else so like...it’s probably Cynthia.

New event called Trainer Files. That’s cool, little mini-stories with characters and-KANTO AGAIN, ARE YOU FUCKING REAL RIGHT NOW? Goddammit, fucking Kanto, go AWAY

Ugh. Well that ended on a downer. But by and large, it sounds pretty fun! I like the Steven and Shauna alts, I’m really excited about the other two they might bring in, and the new CS mode does sound legitimately fun. 2.5k Master Mode has me a little nervous about F2P clears, but we’ll see how it goes. And Trainer Files, while focusing on the blight that is Kanto, sounds like it will ultimately scratch my itch for more character-centric stuff. I’m happy with this update. Not thrilled. Not until they confirm a Caitlin alt. Or Roxanne, actually, I’d kinda settle for either at this point. In fact...why isn’t Roxanne in this detective event? She’s smart, she can be like the forensics character. Maybe in the second half, eh?

#pokemon masters

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everybodyscupoftea · 2 years

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Oh my god hi ok sorry if this soesnt make that much sense it’s 2:30 am and I’m half sleep but I read your pro soccer dnf au and it’s so good??? Like ok I love dnf sports aus I always have but this one was especially amazing fr. Like ok established relationships aren’t really me thing hit this is SO good I love every single part of it, the college sections are amazing and I love geprges characterization sp much?? He’s an asshole but a sweet one yknow. The second college one with snf was absolutely perfect fr, it just hit such a good balance and I was living for George’s pov. I think I like out loud laughed at the third one where dream comes out like it was totally an important moment but it was also so funny. And godddd I don’t like homophobia that muc in fics but I think you handled it really well!! The fic where they get together as well made me feel so many things fr, the retelling of the movie scene from George’s perspective added sooo much detail and made everything amazing fr. And the last fic I think I raved about it in tags once or twice but like oh my gos it was funny. It was like had to put my phone down bc of how much I was laughing funny but then there were these really sweet moments that just came as a total gut punch. I always love alt universe versions of stan culture fr and this was no exception I loved it and the accidental closeting of dnf was so funny actually. I’m literally gonna recommend this to like everybody I know and I’m gonna leave some comments in the morning that have better thoughts and less misspellings but yeah I just really liked this!!! Going to go to sleep now but thank you so much for writing this hearthands

omg thank you sm!!! this is so kind 🫶

and thanks for checking it out. soccer george my soccer george he’s so misunderstood at the start but i’ve love explaining his character as time has gone on hehe

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I know the principles of the law and I’ve been manifesting my sp who I was with for 4 years but at this point in my journey I feel grossed out by him and his behavior in the 3d. It’s difficult to generate any good feelings about him with the way he’s behaving. I know in times like this it’s when you have to really persist. But right now I’m like do i even want him anymore, how could i continue liking him when he’s like this. But i also cannot/will not let go because I’ve gotten so far in my journey and i know who he is right now is my creation. I guess I could use some kind words because i can’t really talk to anyone about this. I keep reminding myself that God is real and is working miracles for me behind the scenes but I’m also just disgusted with what I saw. I know very well that this incident is probably part of the bridge since I’ve already been affirming heavily for a specific aspect of my sp and then I immediately see the opposite. Probably just the old story clearing out. Still hurts tho.

On the bright side i know my self concept has improved because in the past, i would’ve probably been spiraling right now but I’m actually weirdly calm. I’m also more accepting of the idea of life without him.

I’m simultaneously amazed and horrified that i created this version of him over the course of four years. I just cant let things stay the way they are because i know he’s so much better than this. It just hurts. 🥲😔🥴😓

okay i want to begin with words of love and encouragement bc you mentioned it <3

feel it. feel the pain. it’s okay, it’s always the right thing to do even when it feels so scary. confront it and release it, free yourself. i don’t know what your sp is out there doing. but i wanna say that there’s nothing wrong with wanting him anyway. idc what the world or your ego may make you feel like at times, your feelings are valid and so are your desires. they’re absolutely beautiful ane full of true love. like you said, thinking of your godself working miracles is the attitude to have. plus, if our desires are a promise and our godself sees the way even when we don’t, then know that even this craziness is perfect. it is. you deserve exactly what you want to experience. do not be afraid.

now for some advice <3

something i feel inclined to mention is in regards to this issue with your sp specifically. when i get asks, i usually don’t really dive into the circumstances because what’s happening outside of us is irrelevant. but i want to offer you another perspective. if it doesn’t resonate — you don’t have to take it ofc. but i want to mention this bc you’re feeling very off put by him. but what if you truly accepted him as your mirror ? not as “someone you created” bc actually… you’re not “creating” anything. you’re just experiencing yourself. this is what makes manifestation effortless. truth is, this isn’t the true him. at all. it’s a part of you that he’s mirroring. i say this to encourage you to let go of your judgement. you’re only judging yourself. and what we judge in this way, we often prolong the experience of. i think with sp manifestations they often hit deeper than mainstream info leads us to believe. and so i think it’s important to just breathe. and allow. and make peace with the entire situation. realizing how it’s only you being shown to yourself.

so yeah, there’s no point competing with resistance. the more you resist the more you breathe life into it. plus, you’re questioning him but really, it’s showing the wavering in yourself. do you want him ? yes or no ? i think your following sentence does yourself justice, because you’re right. all that matters is you and what you want, not these circumstances. because you’re only ever experiencing yourself. this of course isn’t done by outer force, but by changing your inner self. you’re obviously a bit too concerned with him ‘out there’ — when really the only thing that matters is what is happening within you.

i think that realizing the god within is unconditional love could help so much with your situation right now. you’ll extend that love to him and more importantly to yourself, and all the judgments will begin to fade. and love will shine through. and it’s such a beautiful feeling to choose love even when the world shows you otherwise. you deserve that lovely experience. <3

anyways, i hope this helps. let him be for now, and focus fully on changing self. even though it’s dark right now, remember that YOU are the light. YOU are the way. 🌤💙

#sp #eiypo

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honouredsatoru · 3 years

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JJK Characters x You on a date

notes : I tried including Gojo's love for Digimon since I also grew up watching Digimon and loving the anime with all of my heart, also because Gojo's seiyuu, both Japanese and English versions, voiced for characters in Digimon, so I wanna pay homage to the both of them. other than that, I also included my love for arts and history, something I tried to incorporate into my writing, just to make it like.. lilith's style, ya know?

extra notes : also I wrote megumi for Elli, just because haha.

warnings : slight cussing. not proofread lol. other than that, none. 100% fluff!

characters : gojo satoru, fushiguro megumi, kugisaki nobara, nanami kento, itadori yuji.

Gojo Satoru - Arcades, vintage shops, especially collectors, especially Digimon, comic book/manga stores.

[Your name]! [Your name!]! Look, look! It's the Digimon Adventure V-Tamer 01 series! All 9 of them! Let's get in!"

"Ahh hold on. Towu! We're supposed to visit the cat cafe, you promised that you would go with me and take pictures with the cat hairband on! And I'm starving!"

You jokingly scowled at him, tapping your Doc Martens feet on the ground, arms folding.

"Fucking adorable. Let me see if I can tease her more, hah." A smirk soon appeared on this blue-eyed darling of yours.

"Let me get the manga and I promise, I'll go to this cat cafe with you, baby. Hm?"

"Oh alright."

"I love you, sweetheart. I know how much you wanted to go there but the manga. I- ahaaaa"

He started pouting as he kept pointing in the direction of the Digimon manga by the window. You quickly opened your camera, taking pictures of him sulking, emitting a soft giggle that actually made his heart squeezed with joy.

He presses his lips against your forehead, thumb circling your cheek, gently squishing them before opening the door, yanking you into the comic book store with him. You vowed to hide the comic books once he goes on a mission. After all, he made you wait a month before the two of you finally get to go to this cafe you always wanted to visit.

"Baby, I can read what you're thinking. Your face shows it too. Hehe. Watch me hide your panties."

Taking in a few gulps of air to deepen your breath, you opened your eyes, to meet the love of your life's own eyes, snickering at you, his large hands on the crown of your head before ruffling your already messy hair. There is no way you can stay mad at this man, as childish as he is, you know he loves you and deep down? He knows you love him too.

Itadori Yuji - Thrift stores, internet cafes to play online games with you, cinemas.

"Candy! [Your name] love! Don't! Make! Me! Ahhh cover up for me! I am gonna lose! I am gonna-"

He turns around to face you with soft eyes, his eyebrows slightly droopy before looking back at the computer, taking in the seconds in his head to register the fact that he lost in his mission with you in Inferno.

"Awww sorry babe. I mean.. you just started playing CSGO, so tell me, why- again- damn it- you wanna- AH. Damn it! Throw the fucking grenade! I mean why you wanna play this game, you need more practice- FUCK YOU."

Gentle chuckles were heard, emitted from his throat, his soft, peach toned lips landed on your cheek repeatedly as he rubbed soothing circles around your back.

"Breathe, bunny baby. You're so feisty whenever you start having online matches. Breathe. I love you, and I don't want you to get your blood pressure rising because of these dumbos, hm?"

Your lips curl into a faint and appreciative smile, nodding while your eyes are glued to the screen, ignoring the fading laughs and snickers from the people acknowledging your mini rage.

"I love you too. If I win, I'm getting us boba and chicken nuggets. So let me fight them, okie?"

"Yes ma'am!"

Megumi - Museums, art galleries, photo exhibitions, aesthetic cafes.

"Oh Gumi bear, look at that! That is the Raft of Medusa, it was done by Thèodore Géricault, he himself interviewed two survivors from the shipwreck."

He looks over your eyes that shine with excitement and pure happiness.

"Art"

Was what he thought every time he laid his sight onto you. God knows that he falls in love with you every single time he is blessed with your presence. Resting his arm around your waist, pulling you closer, inhaling the scent of mixed berries and wild roses, he swore he heard his heartbeat increasing every two seconds in a span of one minute.

"Oh really? What do you think this painting is all about?"

Glancing at him before returning to the painting, you puffed your cheeks, pressing your lips together with your index finger curled on your chin and your thumb under it.

"Lord, she is so cute whenever she does that. Can I kiss her? Should I? No wait, she's trying to tell me her own interpretation of this painting. To me. Oh wow. I'm gonna kiss her... later. I can't interrupt her." That is all he could think of. You. He is deeply, madly, beautifully in love with you.

"In my opinion, it tells me the ways of how men, or human beings, seek out in order to survive. When we are at the brink of desperation, insanity, happiness, greed, lust, desire, wrath, grief, don't we all do things unimaginable to help us go through the day? They even resolved to cannibalism. I think even I would commit to that if I was in an extremely dire situation."

You looked at him, a wide smile on your face, emitting a soft giggle that entered his right ear and stayed within the chambers of his mind. He closed the spaces between the both of you, sealing his lips onto yours, with the intention of making this very moment last a little longer heavy within his heart.

"Art."

Was what you thought of him.

Nanami Kento - Theatres, historical museums, fine dining restaurants.

You squealed, lightly clapping your hands as you ran to a block of marble, your foot tapping against the floor. He chuckles, hands in his pocket, taking fast strides towards you.

"Namnam! Look look! That's the Parthenon Sculptures! It was founded in hm... Athens, yes! If I am not mistaken, around 438 to 432 BC. These sculptures decorated the insides of the Parthenon, it is a temple located at the fortress of the Athenian Acropolis. It is said that this temple was built to appreciate and worship the Goddess Athena, she was the deity worship in Athens. Also, ah ah! Did you know that the word parthénos means "maiden", "girl" or ‘virgin"? And I-"

You look at him, your magnificent lover wearing a dark brown trench coat, with ecru brown trousers and a black turtleneck tucked in, his neck layered with white gold necklaces. Your hand unconsciously scratches your sideburns, giggling at the side of his stoic expression, eyes piercing yours beneath that yellow-green glasses he constantly has on his chiseled face.

"Oh... I am sorry... I didn't mean to bore you. I was just so excited because you know me! I love anything that is related to ancient greek history and mythology. I can't seem to get enough of it and it is absolut-

"I'm not bored, [your name]. I was just paying attention to every single word that pretty lips of yours uttered. It's magnificent that you knew all of this. It shows just how smart, curious, bright your mind and soul is. And darling?"

"Huh?"

"I am lucky to be blessed with someone like you. With Gojo constantly following me, there is no way I can read the books I bought for myself. However, having you around, breaking the ice with your random history tib bits, I feel like I am reading the pages, savouring each word, alphabet, sentence, thus expanding my quest and love for knowledge."

You looked down. Normally, you're not the type to tear up this easily but seeing how this man, this angel of a man, appreciates the little things you loved and adored, you can't help but let the waterworks out. You lifted your head up to meet his gaze, the tip of your nose slightly stuffy. You grabbed his arms, clinging onto him, the difference of height and size makes it sweet to the eyes of strangers surrounding you both.

"Oh Namnam. Thank you so much. This means the world to me. Shall we... go and see the best of Ramesses the Great? I've loads to tell you!"

Nobara - Shopping malls, ferry rides, beach dates, parks with cherry blossoms.

"Baby... tell me, have you ever seen anything as joyous as the ocean?"

You two stood by the seashore, fingers intertwined, your head resting on her shoulders, the sound of the seas splashing against the rocks and the warmth around your foot, it tingled but it feels good at the same time.

"I don't want this moment to end, [your name]."

"Why is that, pretty one?"

A faint sigh leaves her lips, you feeling her body loosen up.

"I just.. school is sort of stressful so my time spent with you liberates me from the pressure, fatigue, and image of curses embedded in my brain. Walking with you... through this airy womb of skies and clouds, don't you know it makes me happy?"

You leaned closer, pressing a soft peck on her cheeks, earning yourself a pair of scarlet cheeks with a gorgeous smile from the one next to you. You turned yourself to face her, hands on her shoulders, bringing her body closer to yours.

"Whenever and wherever you need me, I will be there. I might not be perfect, but I am gonna do my best to be the one you can always count on."

You pressed a kiss on her left cheek.

"I love you."

A kiss on her right cheek.

"I love you."

A kiss to the lips of the woman whom you shared your entire universe with.

"To the moon and back, I love you, Kugisaki Nobara."

The end.

tags : @tojisveryown @sookyshima @megumifushi @sixeyesgojo @sirthisisa-wendys @sasso-oda @fushigurocockslut @nkogneatho @kotarousgf @noritoshiikamo

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intyalote · 2 years

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watched フィギペディア羽生結弦 - I hadn’t seen it before (actually before this I hadn’t seen any of his documentaries oops) and it’s really fun seeing all the old programs again with commentary! making me very nostalgic. ended up having a bunch of incoherent thoughts about his entire career, don’t open the read more unless you want my unfiltered live reactions vaguely sorted by program.

mission impossible

- realizing yuzuru’s JGPF 2009 SP (the first win of his super slam) and sui/han’s Beijing 2022 SP (the last win of their super slam) were both to mission impossible soundtrack… there’s something meaningful there.

- lol the straight line stsq requirement I forgot that used to be a thing. can we bring it back please.

romeo and juliet 1.0

- ロミオでもあって羽生結弦でもあって 😭

- they’re showing GPF version hm. I prefer the worlds version, stsq fall and all, but this one is nice for being so sharp if not as personal and passionate.

- commentator calling the chsq カッコいい is absolutely correct. so good.

parisienne walkways

- “[parisienne walkways] is a very adult song with a strong character that I can’t put my own interpretation into yet” I want this 17yo yuzu to see his skcan19 gala performance of the same program… so commanding. and then that recording of the german commentator going “yes sir” to the 4S in LMEY lmao.

- “ここからのトリプルアクセル!” commentator is rightfully amazed. PW 3a is always so good because of how the beats line up exactly with the entering steps right down to the GOAT back counter itself.

- ok this PW commentary is just too much “完璧ですよ… なにそれっていう感じでね”

romeo and juliet 2.0

- ahhh R&J 2.0. never my favorite but that back counter 3a2t in the second half is still insane, and the layback ina bauer… momentous.

- random thought but I’ve missed seeing him do sit twizzles… he did them in beijing gala practice for white legend but I don’t think he’s put them in a program since 2014 rip.

- oh I forgot how absolutely deranged the GPF 2013 podium was with yuzu hardly believing that he won/still くやしい about the sal while chiddy looked about to crack. 13-14 chiddy really went through it huh, I don’t blame him one bit for going a little off the rails when yuzu scored over 100 and beat him again at the olympics.

phantom of the opera

- awww he’s singing along to the “softly, deftly” part he must have been so happy TCC finally let him do phantom. when you see yuzu’s dramatic teenager side come out it’s no longer at all surprising that mark is such a diehard fanyu they’re exactly the same.

- “not just the ordinary phantom, but the phantom as me… I want to make POTO mine” and he did! the only POTO program as far as I’m concerned davis/white whomst?

- that rocker-counter-loop right in front of the judges is one of my favorite one foot clusters ever.

- another random thought but the zagitova rule is really one of the worst things the ISU has come up with. now everyone does basically the same free layout and it’s Boring. plus it’s yet another advantage for high BV jumpers only since there are fewer ways to catch up now.

somebody to love

- oh my god why are they showing the bieber ex… yuzu’s dark past.

- plushenko’s face keeps showing up on posters in the bg making me wonder if yuzu ever tried to copy the sex bomb ex in practice.

- 3a-3a sequence... you little showoff.

hello, I love you

- he doesn’t know what he’s doing but it’s kind of endearing how bad it is.

- oh this is the origin of those blinding lights hip thrusts... yeah he’s definitely copied sex bomb in practice why did I ever doubt that. also who thought it was a good idea to let a 17yo do this program but I kind of want to see the current yuzu who actually has some upper body muscle do it.

- “a brief intermission before yuzuru hanyu loses all of his clothing” skam 2012 announcer you will always be famous.

notre dame de paris

- TEB gala might be the best he’s ever skated it... what an effortless and huge 4t that was.

- god the interpretation in these spins is something else, so much improvement in just a year.

- 4t-3a-3a... showing off again I see

PW again (2015 gala version)

- can hear the stars in the commentators’ eyes oh my god he’s really a legend by this point.

- 4LO+3A+SEQ??? HOLY SHIT I didn’t know he did that! why hasn’t he ever done a 4lo combo/seq in competition... he’s literally the best in the world at both 4lo and 3a it’s glorious I’m screaming

#figure skating #yuzuru hanyu #posting this for myself bc i just re-experienced the entire 2010-2014 quad and it was. something.#romeo and juliet 1.0 #phantom of the opera #parisienne walkways #notre dame de paris #hello i love you #mission impossible

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minithefutureawaits09 · 3 years

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To follow up on an earlier post

Link to AOS:

❤️Absolutely Smitten❤️

- TOS Spirk edition

A/n:

It gets pretty angsty so hold on.

Also know in this Fic, Bones doesn’t know the details about Tarsus IV that info is extremely classified and really, only select people know about it. So it’s really been swept under the carpet in this particular fic.

Spock heads down the hallway and to Jim’s quarters. Buzzing in as he always does.

....

No response.

So he tried again.

...

No response.

Now things were getting a little concerning. So when he buzzed for a third time and got no response he types in the override code for Jim’s quarters. Absolutely worried sick, and he realized standing there that...

Spock can’t feel their bond.

That prospect alone sends his heart racing even faster than his normal resting heart rate. Yet he swallows his panic as the doors open with their familiar squeak and he’s engulfed into a warm dark room. The doors squeak again as they closed behind him.

“Jim? My Jim, where are you? Are you alright?”

The worry while he can control it physically, slips into his tone. Eyes already adjusting for the darkness of the room, a small tribute to his Vulcan biology. His eyes adjust much quicker than a humans does.

“Go away Spock.”

Came the sharpest reply the Vulcan’s almost positive he’s ever heard. While the words themselves were not super harmful, the tone punctured.

On the bed was a small heep of blankets, he can only assume that huddled in all of those blankets was his Husband. He allows himself to frown and his brows to furrow. Jim never wanted him to leave whenever he was upset, always wanting him to hold close and not let go. So something, although going through his eidetic memory he doesn’t see anything.

“Jim, My-“

“I said Go. Away. Commander. Consider it an order from your Captain.”

Something was really wrong then. Yet he would not leave Jim’s side. Whatever it was, he had made a vow until death did they part. He wasn’t leaving.

“Then you will need to fill out the insubordination paperwork shortly.”

He sees the blankets move, and he can only assume he is being looked at.

“I am not leaving K’diwa. I am your bond mate, and I am worried about you. You did not answer your door, I cannot feel our bond, and your tone is enough evidence that there is something bothering you. I vowed to care for you and I intend to get to the bottom of it, so if that means facing insubordination charges then I will.”

More ruffling of sheets and blankets, and now he can see his bond mate. The dark brown hair, and make out his eyes in the darkness. Hand reached out towards him, and the pain is so sharp at the horrible broken voice his beloved uses. Their bond floods open and he can feel all of the jagged edges of self hatred attacking Jim’s mind.

“S-Sp-ock-”

His feet move on their own and in moments flat Spock had Jim in his lap still wrapped in a couple of blankets but held firmly. He sobs begging apologies from his lips and promises to never leave him. Every broken sound that leaves him makes the Vulcan’s heart ache, and wanting to tear apart whoever caused these precious tears to spill.

He assures Jim that he did no wrong, that he did not feel any hurt emotions at his words. That there was nothing there other than his overwhelming concern for the person he values the most. That he will always be there. Always.

He sends all of the pure intense love he feel for the brunette in his lap and reassurance through their bond to Jim. Using their physical proximity as an easy way to tap into his beloved’s head in gentle attempts to soothe the hurt he can feel. Whatever caused this got him good, where it hurt.

Eventually he calmed and Spock whispers gently resting his forehead against his human’s,

“K’diwa, My James, will you tell me now what is wrong?”

... There’s hesitation showing in those hazel eyes staring up at him,

“I promise you, no matter what you say, I will listen to every word.”

...

“Is there a problem with how I eat, Spock?”

What? That was such an odd question. Yet with those hazel eyes hanging onto his every moment for his reply he placed a gentle kiss to his forehead and answered,

“I have never seen it vary from normal that would produce the need for comment or medical intervention.”

...

“Do I hoard food, Spock?”

Spock instead of answering taps into their bond and catches just the thought of one event.

Tarsus IV

“Ha’su, does this have to do with Tarsus IV?”

He asks and Jim looks away ashamed- he knows he’s ashamed because he can’t hide it this close to Spock. Yet using one hand he guides his beautiful hazel gaze back to his own.

“My K’diwa, Tarsus IV is an indescribable horror you had to face at such a young age. I know you have tried your best to heal some of those wounds. I know this trauma will haunt you for the rest of your life, and it will always affect how you eat. A famine and genocide. Yes, I do notice you have a few non-perishable items around your quarters. However, I simply attributed them to the fact Humans need to eat more frequently.”

He runs a hand through those brown locks he loves so, so very much. He watches as those lips, a little swollen from his cries open,

“When food became such a struggle and for so long...I-I just—”

“Shh. You need not explain yourself to me. Your trauma and struggle with food is not invalid. It will never ever. Ever. Be invalid.”

This brings back a smaller wave of tears as his husbands arms wrapped around his neck rather then around his middle as they were originally.

“Did someone bring this up?”

“Yes.”

“Who?”

“Bones. Though he didn’t bring Tarsus itself up, he just made a comment on my eating habits and it well...Lead to an argument. He doesn’t know the full story though. I just haven’t told him yet because I haven’t been ready to. He only knows what my records say. Which isn’t much because the federation wanted to keep it hush hush.”

Spock nodded. So he would have to make a trip to Medbay and have an informative discussion with Dr. McCoy.

“Please don’t be mad at Him. He doesn’t know,”

“I am not mad because he did not know. However, I will be having a conversation with him if you are amenable to that to inform him of it so you will not have to.”

He feels a gentle nod at his words. Agreeing with him

‘I love you, and thank you for not leaving me alone and being willing to talk to Bones for me.’

‘I love you too, my Jim. I am absolutely smitten for thee, and I wish you to never forget that. Sleep now,’

‘I won’t, I promise I will never forget...’

Sleep the brunette does. It’s almost mere moments and he feels their bond gently going dormant. It’s still several moments before he gently rests his husband down and goes to speak with McCoy.

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(Bonus scenes because I feel like it)

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“Oh my god,”

Leonard’s hand his over his mouth. He was sitting at his desk as Spock had advised him to do so. Shock and guilt coated over himself.

“I didn’t know, I swear-”

“He informed me of such. I am not mad Dr. McCoy. I simply wished for you to understand.”

“I need to go apologize-”

“He is resting, however I am willing to let you know when he wakes.”

“Yes. Right. Thank you, Spock. I promise, I never would of said anything if I’d known. The only thing in his files says is he’s a Tarsus IV survivor. Nothing more. I never even knew what it was until now.”

“I understand Dr. McCoy.”

And he does.

“I will leave you to process this, and to go attend to Jim when he wakes.”

Leonard nodded as Spock exited.

Spock was holding Jim as he yawns and those Hazel eyes open. He doesn’t say anything but he can feel the gentle buzz in his head from seeing that his husband was still here just as he promised he would be.

“Commander Spock to Medbay,”

“Medbay here, What is it?”

“The Captain is awake if you wish to see him,”

“Alright. Be up in 15 minutes.”

“Noted. Spock out,”

The transmission was cut.

His partner seemed confused, so Spock relayed the message.

“He wishes to apologize directly, and I said I would inform him of your awakening.”

A simple nod comes from Jim.

...

It was actually less than 15 minutes when Bones shows up. Normally Leonard would say something to get them apart, but given what happened he isn’t going to say a thing about Spock holding Jim.

“Jim?”

The brunette’s head turns to look at his best friend.

“Hey, I wanted to apologize for what I said.”

He sits down on the edge of the bed. Spock watches as those hazel eyes follow him.

“Jim, god. I never, I never would have said any- any of that if I had known. I promise you. I had no idea what sort of demon you deal with every time you go to eat in your head.”

“It’s alright-”

“It’s not though Jim. I shouldn’t have said those things in-”

“Leonard.”

The doctors name makes him fall quiet.

“Leonard, You didn’t know. I hadn’t told you...Yet now that you know, could we schedule an appointment to maybe..do something about it?”

“Maybe try some anti-anxiety medications?”

Jim nodded.

“You got it kiddo. Whenever you’re ready you just let me know alright?”

“Alright.”

Bones gives a nod to Spock who had been silent for this whole time. He knows that means to gently and lovingly encourage him to do so in the near future. He leaves but not before Jim surprised them both by pulling the doctor into a hug. They held on for just a few moments and even Spock could tell the world was alright once more. The doctor then left, and Spock went back to holding his partner. Humming as he gently guided him back to sleep, and shortly drifted off after.

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『Wakana Anime Classic 2021』 Tokyo ~ Live Commentary

9/4(Sat)@Kioi Hall <Day> Open14:00/Start15:00 ¥3,500 <Night> Open17:30/Start18:30 ¥3,500 Archive: ~September 11 e+「Streaming＋」：https://eplus.jp/wakana/st/ If you have the means, please be sure to buy tickets (available for purchase until September 11)! It is important that we support Wakana.

I have tickets for both the day as well as the evening performance and am planning to watch them live so as always, I will be posting my initial thoughts and impressions. I wonder if she will have any cool announcements for us today? Maybe a new release? It’s been a while T_T I wish she would land an anime tie-in gig! It would do wonders for her popularity [This post will be updated throughout the day]

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1. Yasashisa ni Tsutsumareta Nara: Edit: Oh no, I actually missed this. THANK GOD I have a ticket for the evening performance as well (and there is an archive). Ughhh, why did I mess up the time?! I am stupid. 2. Kaze no Tani no Nausicaa (Day )/Kimi wo Nosete (Night): Phew, I almost missed the start. Anyways, Wakana looks GORGEOUS. So far I am really liking the piano-violin-cello arrangement, thought it would feel a bit lacking compared to last year’s live but it really doesn’t. Great start!!! I don’t think she sang this in Osaka. MC: Introduction of musicians. 3. Inochi no Namae: *sobs* Was dying to hear this live, it’s so much better than expected. I am blown away. This hits me right in the feels. How is her voice always going straight to my heart??! Goosebumps every single time! 4. Kaze no Toorimichi: Her voice is a bit breathy here, I think she is choosing this style on purpose but I am not a particularly big fan of it. Ahhhh, Loving her “ooooh”s! For the evening portion she changed her singing style a bit so she sounds less breathy. I like it much more this way. 5. Kimi wo Nosete (Day) / Mononoke Hime (Night): I think her performance of Kimi wo Nosete is much better than back in December. Maybe it’s the arrangement which is a tad slower so Wakana isn’t as rushed, not sure. Either way, her vocals are so much stronger here, at least imo. Ah, I see, her night performance setlist seems to be pretty much identical to her Osaka setlist. Makes sense to have Kaze no Toorimichi and Mononoke Hime back to back. perfect combo. Also, so happy I get to hear it again. This is one of the very few old-school anisongs I actually know. And Wakana’s version is to die for!! The arrangement was also breathtaking. MC The first half of her concert is dedicated to Ghibli pieces. The next piece concludes this section. 6. Toki ni wa Mukashi no Hanashi wo: The high parts are flawless here, love them so much. Her “dokoka de” at the end was a bit sudden tho XD INTERMISSION (20 min): She wore the lacey white dress we have already seen in pictures for the first half with her hair down and wavy. For the second half her hair is in an elaborate ponytail and she has changed into a gorgeous blue gown with a sparkling waist belt. So pretty!

7. Rain: Not my favourite cover song of hers but a lovely performance nonetheless 8. When She Loved Me (Day) / Utautai no Ballad (Night): Ahhh, so happy to have this back again. Unfortunately though, this was a bit shaky at times. Liked her version in December better. Will have to rewatch later. Rewatching it right now, my initial reaction was a bit off, Wakana’s performance was actually really good, not sure why I didn’t like it in the beginning. During the evening performance she sang Utautai no Ballad which was beautiful. The arrangement isn’t as epic as the one with 1966 QUARTET but Wakana’s vocals are TOP NOTCH, much better than last year (she ran a bit out of breath back then). 9. Bokura no Natsu no Yume: I suspected she would sing this because it was also part of her Osaka setlist. I listened to the original which didn’t impress me much. Wakana’s version on the other hand is absolutely beautiful, perfect for her voice. Her” whoooo”s towards the end KILLED me! SP FREAKING GOOD!! MC: Talk about the rainy weather. After all, she is the bringer of rain XD 10. Get Wild: Will never get tired of this. Such a perfect song for Wakana, who would’ve thought? Poor baby, I think she stumbled over her lyrics a bit in the beginning. But she recovered quickly. 11. Kimi Wa Taiyo: Another cover I was expecting since it was also part of the Osaka setlist. Everyone is clapping along and having fun. Not a huge fan of the original song or Wakanas version...Wakana is obviously having a blast but meh, she doesn’t sound too good singing this. Already liking this a bit more now that I am listening to it a second time during the evening performance. It will not become my favourite Wakana-cover but it’s actually a lot of fun (similar to Country Road actually). MC: She wants to hold many more lives like this in the future. It’s already time for the final song before the encore. 12. Ai ni Dekiru Koto wa Mada Aru kai: Nailed it. Perfection. EN. 13. Yatsura no Ashioto no Ballad: Wakana is back on stage with Sin. Initially I didn’t really like this song but by now I am honestly in love with it. MC: She wants to think of us all while singing this and brings back all musicians for this final song. EN. 14. Country Road (Day) / Yume no Yukue (Night): Ohhhh, I didn’t expect Country Road. Thought she would be singing “Yume no Yukue” from her album. Was so sad when last year the live stream didn’t include the encore so we weren’t able to hear Country Road and Magic Moment. So cute!!! I have never actually heard the Japanese version, so far I have only known the original English version but Wakana’s cover was so freaking adorable! Admittedly not her best vocal performance but she more than made up for it with cuteness. Such a feel-good song! During the night performance she did sing Yume no Yukue though (as expected). Always a pleasure to listen to this. MC: Wakana says she didn’t expect so many people to come to her live. Awww, I am so glad lots of fans showed up to support her even during these tough times. She briefly talked about her upcoming Billboard Lives but no new announcements :-(.

Summary: So for the day portion she sang ALL songs of her cover album with the exception of Yume no Yukue. In addition, she performed Kaze no Tani no Nausicaa, Bokura no Natsu no Yume (Summer Wars), Kimi wa Taiyo (Oblivion Island: Haruka and the Magic Mirror), When She Loved Me (Toy Story 2) and Country Road (Whisper of the Heart). For the evening performance she dropped Kaze no Tani no Nausicaa and sang Mononoke Hime instead. When She Loved Me got replaced with Utautai no Ballad. Just like in Osaka, she finished he concert with Yume no Yukue.

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