#<- perhaps unwell

[sunlightfeeling]

Yu Yu Hakusho: Episode 3 (2023)

#literally sakyo’s only crime is always contrasting all the bright colors in this drama #<- perhaps unwell #jdrama #jdramaedit #jdramasource #lextag #mostlyfate #yyh #yyh la #yyhedit #tvedit #netflix #netflixedit #yu yu hakusho #yyh live action #yu yu hakusho live action #yyh spoilers #yu yu hakusho spoilers #spoilers #tsukutta #drama gifs #inagaki goro #稲垣吾郎 #goro inagaki

[leavingautumn13]

why does he have fawn spots, anyway?

[i have commissions open now]

#hircine #the elder scrolls #daedra prince #daedra #tes #tesblr #autumn.art #''autumn didn't you make this joke already with x6'' perhaps #i may be unwell about the elder scrolls for a little while don't mind me #anyway if i had to pick one daedra prince to give a sick high five to it would be malacath but this guy's a close second #i get that the fawn spots are part of his duality of being the hunted prey as well as the hunting predator. don't explain it to me pls&ty

[squarechublover]

im so normal (thinking about 500lb boys)

#feederism kink #im. SO fucking normal guys #perhaps a little unwell #but only a little

[lovesickeros]

☆ what a kind god, what a cruel god

{☆} characters zhongli {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood, light angst {☆} word count 0.5k

You are a kind God - with hands that heal instead of hurt. Words that forgive, instead of rightfully insult. The stories do little justice to the breadth of your gentleness, extending your love to the slimes that coalesce at your feet, eager to know the touch of the Divine. The birds that sing with the wind your praises from upon your shoulder.

But to him, your kindness is so very cruel.

They do not deserve it. He does not deserve it.

Your forgiveness should be a blessing after all they have done, but it feels like swallowing acid instead. It makes him feel sick and lightheaded, throat constricting until he struggles to breath against the weight of his sins, heavy upon his chest.

He wonders if your hatred would be easier. Even apathy, he thinks, would be preferable to the way your screams intermingle with the softness in your voice as you cradle his face between his hands within his dreams. Even in the waking world, your every word is shadowed by broken pleas, drowned in golden ichor as it rises up your throat, silencing your screams - it haunts him, and he cannot handle seeing the way you look at him in concern. He does not deserve it.

Try as he might, he cannot forgive himself. He does not think he ever can - not when he wakes to the feeling of blood on his hands, his tongue, filling his lungs until all he tastes and smells is blood.

If you had been a little less kind, he thinks he would find comfort in your cruelty.

Your anger would be a mercy.

But you are not. You are..kind. Gentle. So many things he once praised on bruised knees at an altar that towered far above him, drowned in gold and silks, every word he speaks a prayer to the most Divine. And he cannot bear the weight of knowing that he could have destroyed that part of you - he cannot bear knowing that he didn't, and you look upon the man who wore your blood like a second skin with a kindness that burns him like a hot iron.

He did not deserve such a loving God.

"..Zhongli?"

He pauses in his internal struggle, hands shaking on his lap. He clenches them into fists, blunt nails digging into his palms until they stop - yet you look at him with furrowed brows, concern gleaming in your eyes, and he feels sick all over again. But for you, he would do anything. Even if it meant pretending he did not feel like a monster in a mortals skin when you smiled at him like he was worth anything.

"Yes, Divine One?"

He chokes down the phantom taste of iron upon his tongue, forcing himself to smile to soothe the worries that crease your brow.

"You said you'd take me to the Chasm today."

He feels..relieved as the worry melts away from your features. It is the very least he can offer - he shall take upon your burdens, your worries, so that you may look upon Teyvat with love, and not fear. He will carry the sins of the many, so that you may look upon the nations with pride, and not horror.

It is all he can do, to ease the way his chest aches when you smile at him, hand tugging at his sleeve and forcing himself unsteadily to his feet.

He does not deserve you - but for today, he can pretend. Just a little while longer.

#sagau #self aware genshin #self aware genshin impact #genshin sagau #imposter au #sagau imposter au #fic tag #angst #zhongli #sagau zhongli #pulls out the whiteboard who wants 2 hear my psychoanalysis of zl in sagau!! #imposter au zl who resents himself and is just a little fucked up over what happened and refuses to accept that he can be forgiven :) #he needs therapy bc he refuses to accept that hes allowed 2 be a little traumatized!!!! #as u can see he did not handle anything well ever and he is mentally unwell. perhaps a little unstable. #making the genshin men as pathetic as possible one man at a time #I JUST THINK. there is a lot of potential 2 be had for post imposter au characters. #slaps zl this bad boy can fit so much self hatred and internal resentment and trauma and lack of self worth and #yeah :) #writes the most unhinged shit ever. refuses to elaborate. leaves

[sapphic--kiwi]

Sprawled across Matt's chest, Gus smiled up at him—squinting a little in the bright morning sunlight streaming through their bedroom window.

Matt laced their fingers together, grinning at his fiancé in a way that showed off his chipped tooth. "Happy Bleeding Hearts Day, Gus."

#gustholomule #matt tholomule #gus porter #the owl house #toh fanart #augustus porter #toh mattholomule #bleeding hearts day #bleeding hearts day 2024 #theyre 26/27 here its about a year after they get engaged #two men in love. perhaps even kissing later. can you believe #theyre gross and i hate them (i love them and im obsessed with them) #they make me sooo unwell... #steph draws #x

[towl]

ZEN GAHO Paradox Live THE ANIMATION 💿 EP.09

#paradox live #paradox live the animation #zen gaho #akyr #akanyatsura #paradox live edit #paralive edit #dailyanimr #animeedit #* #*gifs #prdxlv #a/m #i am not well. #this is the most unwell i have been in a long time. #perhaps since baro with his hair down was revealed in anime #can i recover from this???? #dec23

[raveartts]

turt

#raveartts #wings of fire #wof #turtle wof #dragon art #kinda art blocked lately but at least dragons are easy enough to draw #i'd love to draw some warrior cats stuff too but like...cats hard #oh well at least i'm drawing SOMETHING #i promised myself i'd do proper art fundamentals practice this year #but so far it's been absolutely pathetic #i'm barely even drawing in the past month #though i shouldn't be hard on myself about it i suppose #i've been stressed and busy and mentally unwell and dying #and i don't HAVE to draw....i just feel obligated to because it's all i'm good at and don't have other reliable hobbies i enjoy #perhaps once school is finished i can draw more #though by then i might be having to move out and work full time and i think i'll just die when that happens #so i'll just never get better at art i guess and i'll just pretend i'm totallyyyyy okay with being subpar forever and ever #lack of perfection DEFINITELY doesn't bother me :))))) not one bit #anyways i have to go to work soon.... #at least my chores are done. perhaps i'll promise myself i'll do some gestures tonight since i'm not busy

[smellslikestranger]

Hello, returned with the same usual stuff (Trison, it's always Trison-)

Also, did a sketch of @girlygo2's Retorateras AU! I hope I captured his likeness

#dst #dst wilson #people what did you expect #i really like monsters #and dst and monsters?? bam they go good together #perhaps im mentally unwell #my art

[worstloki]

Thor 1 - 3 but every time Loki dies he returns looking a bunch of years younger and it's never explained. Thor seems the only one who notices and/or is concerned about it.

#Thor coming face to face with Loki in Avengers 1: wait something is different #Thor: *squinting in suspicion* perhaps he just looks unwell from his villainous bout of madness #Thor goes to meet Loki in his cell in TDW and he's younger again #Loki dies in Thor's arms and then when we see him later sitting on the throne he's clearly younger AGAIN #not by much just by a bit #since they live long lives #it's just enough that the hair isn't consistent across these scenes #less defined face etc.

[tebaragi]

Love Never Felt So Good 230114 P1ONEER cr.

#p1harmony #p1h #p1hedit #malegroupsnet #kpopccc #soul #jiung #keeho #haku shota #choi jiung #yoon keeho #flash tw #*mgif #giffed w permission ♡ #trying to get these under 9.5mb bcs new post editor is an ass #i dont know how many times ive watched this fancam #perhaps cried once #they make me unwell

[pigeonwit]

im having Ideas... terrible, terrible Ideas...

#listen i would never write a whole game of thrones au... #BUT... #wildling jack and nights watch davey? hm? perhaps? #newsies #btw im gonna be so unwell when season 2 drops #davey jacobs #david jacobs #uksies #ryan kopel #hotd

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

dawg my body is so ready for seeing your human versions of the gang. like the need to draw these sillies is JUST TOO DAMN GREAT--(please don't take this as "OMG HURRY UP", i'm just very excited to see your interpretations!)

well shit now i gotta buckle down on brushing up + improving upon my human scribbling skills, which - meager to begin with - have deteriorated due to Puppet Disease (and i say this with playful exasperation. i've been needing an excuse to Practice and this is a damn good one)

though i will say! i'll be adhering to the ~canon~ human versions we've been gifted via Clown's pokemon au. ofc since we don't know what Howdy, Poppy, Sally, and Eddie look like, i'll have to think of something myself

#like the canon designs we have are so so good why would i Not adhere... #i mean i might take some creative liberties here and there but yk yk #also... barnaby's kinda bear-coded ngl.... love that for him #and honestly i'm starting to consider like... writing this au??? tidbits perhaps??? #because i've got a lot more internal creative freedom since this au diverges so severely from The Main Thing #it's one of those aus for easter eggs & keeping characterizations accurate but some freedom to bend them #because of the circumstances of the au & the inherent changes involved #its a fun puzzle of balancing how the au affects things but also keeping things as recognizable / canon-compliant as possible #rambles from the bog #i really gotta make a tag for this au since apparently i will be posting more than Twice about it! lookie that! #ohhhh god i just realized im gonna have to do some outfit design #FUCK that is not something i'm very good at.... in my own life or on paper.... digital paper.... #well im gonna go do a human study #study some styles i like study structure etc etc #nothing like being truly Unwell about something to push that artistic drive & improvement!

[phantom-of-the-keurig]

The best way to explain how I’m doing is to tell you about the kid who stopped me as I was dragging my sorry ass across campus in a dazed fugue state just so he could hand me a fidget ring and say, “Hey, I think you need this.”

I have never seen this guy before and I haven’t seen him since but boy or boy was he right. Thanks dude.

#I think I may have been visited by god or perhaps even the devil in the form of this random dude but who knows #it’s a nice fidget toy too I’ve been using it non stop #imagine being so visibly unwell someone is like oh I gotta step in #and they do so by giving you a stim toy 😭😭

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I guess my outlook on Mori and Dazai's dynamic is - it wasn't abusive. Dazai was Mori's subordinate, yes, he absolutely could (and did!) manipulate him to an extent, and he had this weird need to teach Dazai everything he knew because he really projected hard on that kid, huh?

Thing is, Dazai held enough power in that dynamic such that he was never completely subservient - only person who knew the truth about Mori's takeover, threatening to overthrow him, etc. Moreover, abuse is something that is perpetuated over time and I really see no proof in the story so far that this happened.

However, one thing I'd like to make clear, and my true takeaway from this, is that just because a relationship isn't abusive does not mean that it can't be god-awful for your psychological well-being.

Mori did not abuse Dazai, but Dazai still does better (even if only a little) when he is away from him and his amoral utilitarian views.

#i have a previous post i made about dazai in the q chapter #and how he not only adapts to the situation and people but is also easily influenced by them to think in a certain way #yeah this is exactly what i mean by that #idk maybe this is an unpopular opinion #but i think mori respects dazai #but in turn he was not treated like a child or like a seriously mentally unwell person who could've used some help #and the idea that dazai got worse from his time in the mafia #like that's not headcanon that's explicitly stated in stormbringer #he was definitely off before he met mori and i have no illusions that he was completely innocent before that point #but all i'm saying is the abuse happened much earlier and it was someone else - perhaps the old boss??? #i'm still curious about that connection tbh they clearly knew each other #also i made a post earlier about mori and how he isn't actually that similar to dazai #all i'm going to say is that i genuinely cannot buy dazai's 'threats' to overthrow mori as serious #he's lazy as hell why would he want to lead the mafia outside beast #the only purpose that served was reminding mori that he did not have full control over him #or that's how i took it #bsd #bsd mori #bsd dazai #bsd meta #i guess? #storyrambles

[singsweetmelodies]

the way i just got stupidly emotional listening to an afrikaans christmas song, of all things... 🥹

#NO BUT HEAR ME OUT. you could piarlify it so well #it would be the kind of thing where you sob from happy feels by the end #(or maybe just me because i'm severely unwell about them) #but like. it's that time of the year #time for something that's perhaps a little cliché but SO achingly nostalgic and happy-beautiful at the end... #WAHHHH #''in 'n brief van later jare skryf ek liewe kersfeesvader; elke meisie het 'n spesiale wens... #vir 'n man so soet soos suiker en 'n motor sonder duike; en soen hy jou dink jy dis net 'n droom'' #AND THEN #''ek stap toe op 'n aand laat met 'n kêrel van die vrystaat en al bestuur hy 'n ou bakkie sê ek kersfeesvader dankie!'' #*AND THEN* #''hier's ons kinders om die boompie... hulle wag nou vir die oompie.. my dogtertjie is net 'n bietjie bang'' #what if i CRY #i know none of you understand me #and it's alright 🥹 #but i just think it would be THE most gorgeous nostalgic lovely thing. WAHHHH #🥹🥹🥹❤️

[leofrith]

once again thinking about how eivor is pretty stoic about death throughout most of the game up until hamtunscire, at which point she's suddenly reacting more emotionally than we've ever seen her. she's screaming for soma and she's crying over hunwald, and she sounds like she's straight up dissociating her way through that conversation with guthrum before the funeral. and she's never really reacted emotionally in that way before with the exception of her openly crying over ceolbert's tomb because this is the first time she's watched loved ones die without the comfort that comes from knowing she will see them again in valhalla. because she no longer believes in a valhalla. i am going to scream <3

#i am unwell!!! #and i mean i suppose you can argue that she's grown closer to all of these people by this point which is why it hits harder #but to me it seems that eivor's reaction to the death surrounding her is closely tied to her relationship with her faith #she's shaken because she is no longer confident in an afterlife!! she is no longer confident that she will see her loved ones again!!!!! #she is no longer confident that the gods exist!!! her entire worldview has shifted!!! #and the game doesn't address that enough because the post launch content addresses NOTHING!!!! #okay maybe not strictly true because i think SoP touches on it a bit but not nearly enough #anyway this also would explain why ceolbert hits her particularly hard so early on because yes he's too young innocent and it's tragic #but she also knows there is no hope of her seeing him again #perhaps i am talking out of my ass but i am Thinkingggg #ac valhalla #eivor varinsdottir #eivor varinsdóttir #ky posts text