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goldkirk · 10 months

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March 13, 2018

TW: PTSD episodes, traumatic memories, dissociation, death, murder, natural disasters etc etc frankly there’s just a lot. This whole thing was a vent I think I wrote while avoiding sleep. You don’t need to read this, I’m just posting it here as more evidence in my collection of how the past used to be for me. I’m okay about this now, and I’m just posting it for reference. Please don’t read this if it might be triggering for you. It’s very first-person and fast-paced.

Poem:

I launch awake in sweat, I am

sweat, my sheets are sweat, my blankets are sweat, I am soaked head to toe with hot sweat and my blankets are chaining me and I do not know

who I am and all I know is confusion and fear and I have vaulted out of the bed and onto my face before I even know that I am awake.

I have no idea who I am or where I am, it's dark,

and I don't know what is happening, I stumble into my wall

and I am hot.

I am suddenly up the basement stairs and tripping over the living room couch on my way to nowhere, I don't know where I am, I don't know who I am. All I know is I'm somehow awake, I am moving, and I feel like the world has ended and everything has crashed down around me in ruin and I feel

like I am not alive.

My mind is trying to piece together what I am, what has happened, what time is it where am I, I'm at home, oh,

there's my mom, there's my dad.

I don't remember anything I don't know what happened why does this all feel so wrong?

I think I died

while in my dream.

That is

the only explanation I can find for how I feel, to wake up like this,

I feel

like I did not exist. I had blinked out. There was terror and I

did not even know my own name for the first minute after waking up,

I didn't realize I was alive for seven awful seconds and

it must be hours after I went to bed right, oh lord God please what is happening to me it's

1:27 in the morning.

this hasn't happened since Junior year of high school when I

was a camp counselor,

when I was in a sleeping bag at night in

someone else's living room with all my peers and

was woken up for the night vigil shift I'd signed up for and didn't know my name.

I didn't know I existed I didn't know I wasn't floating in a void

suddenly things were real and I was trying to catch up with whatever the hell just happened and somehow

I'm expected to form coherent sentences to

reassure the 16 year old next to me that

no I'm fine. I don't need an ambulance, I just

maybe need my soul to come back to my body?

Can you tell me please, who am I.

I launch awake from a dream

I can't remember, but in it I die.

It's not as terrifying as my lucid dreams of

that one genocide that lasts

the whole night. or that

time where I watch my nephews and nieces get

shot one by one and I can't help,

And I watch my family die and

I can't stop the train crash or

the volcano or the pain

and I watch everyone I cannot save

die a thousand times this year but

at least when I wake up I know my own name.

Sometimes,

I die in my dreams, but it's not pretty,

its not poetic I don't know what I can say about it, it's just, I'm gone. I wake up

and don't remember I'm alive.

I don't know what my point is

in this poem. I mostly need to scream.

I just

forgot what it was like to die in my sleep, I guess,

and I wish I could remember, just

once, how it happened.

#I’m holding a lot of space for 2018 Katie rn #I didn’t remember sleep being so bad back then #but that’s probably because my memories are so spotty of that time FROM lack of sleep etc #I’m so glad I’m much better now. I’m so glad I got myself out. I’m so glad I had a village of humans catching me step by step #I love you all #and I’m very grateful #shh katie #my poetry #oof tag #hey little star whatcha gonna queue?

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saturnsorbits · 2 years

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Torn between throwing up the last of these draft fics (I still have 8… 3 ficlets: 5 fics; so I’d have to stick one up like every week) before the one year anniversary of the blog so I can start with new, fresh stuff again; or just condemning them to draft Hell where they may never get posted?

#saturnsays #Idk - I feel like switching it up when I hit a year?#And some of those fics are like 7/8 months old now - so it feels weird still having them?#Like I went through a really inspired stage (Who is she; I know) where I ended up with 20+ fics and I’m still trying to post them all…#And then everything ‘new’ I write ends up in this awkward queue.#Part of me just wants to write/post when I have stuff… Like I finish something - and can just post it.#Bc rn it feels like I’m on some kind of weird schedule (Which I am) and idk; there’s no point to it?#(Idk - It feels like I’m caught in this liminal space of not wanting to be annoying vs being stifled by those drafts…#And idk what to do).#Anyway… That was a rambling trip to no-where…#(I think the problem is it’s making me feel kind of like a content machine? I write for fun and I want to be excited about what I post again #y’know; instead of losing my connection w/a piece before it gets to live out it’s posted life bc it’s been done for so long -#and I’ve moved on from it?#Idk if this makes any sense what so ever; but yeah.#Might just box off these drafts - Get the rest of Play Away written/posted (So it’s boxed off) -#and finish off those few little things I have planned for Kaminari’s birthday -#and then just start fresh with those WIPs?#I think that’s probably what’s best - even if it does mean the blog being super busy for a hot second).#Also it might be cool to do something special for 1 year! I feel like that’d be a nice ‘turning point’ although I have no idea what to do!#Anyway; anyway… I really should sleep.

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girasollake · 4 months

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Hi! Can I request a smut imagine with prompt 48 and trope 8 with Theodore Nott.

She’s a slytherin too and a badass bitch who everybody wants to be or date

Thank youuu!

✧ theodore nott x fem!reader x jealousy x "you. are. mine."✧

(this request is a part of my writing event, here is the link to the masterlist of the fics i'll be publishing from said event:) )

this took longer than i expected, thank you for your request anon! x

told u guys i’d post smth… surprise!!!!

warnings: 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, p in v sex, some swear words, some slight cedric x reader, theo being bitchy ig, fingering, general sex stuff, orgasm denial, ummmmmm yeah i think that’s it

i’ll reread it later to fix mistakes cuz rn it’s 2 am where i live and i’m going to bed bye

•❅───✧❅✦❅✧───❅•

Your relationship with Theo was complicated. At least in your mind that was the most suitable word for this dynamic, you could never find anything else that would quite describe it. You were friends, that’s for sure, this was the only thing you were certain of. Some days you had found yourself tangled in his bedsheets, his soft fingers caressing your back as you lingered in his scent. But, there were also days when you didn’t speak to him at all, strolling through the halls and seeing him tug a piece of hair behind the ear of some Ravenclaw girl while simultaneously giving her his infamous smile. Even though you also flirted and went on dates with others, something inside your guts sunk down each time you saw him with a girl who was not you. And you could barely handle it. Every time you promised yourself you’ll never sleep with him again or give him your attention, you’d always end up doing the opposite. There was something about him that lured you in, it was toxic, but so divine. So, whenever his lips connected to yours in a hungry kiss, you’d forget about all of the other women he probably does this with. It was just you and him and your only thought during these moments was to stay with him like that forever.

‚-it’s not like it’s that important.’

‚Huh?’ You lifted your head and met Pansy’s annoyed face. ‚Sorry, what were you saying?’

¨What is going on with you lately?´She shook her head and sighed. ´I asked if you have a date for the ball.’ She then added.

‘Oh, well, not really.’ You shrugged.

‘Seriously? Is this about Theo again? I’ve told you multiple times that there is a fucking queue of guys just waiting for you and all you do is always go back to him.’ She huffed. ‘What about Mason? Louise? Henry? They were all head over heels for you, I don’t believe they didn’t ask you at least once.’

‘They did. I just said no.’ You mumbled and avoided her angry gaze.

SShe groaned and took a sip of her butterbeer. ‘I was not going to tell you this, but I see there is no other option.’ Pansy took a deep breath. ‘I heard the boys talking about the ball and Nott wants to take Arisa.’

You swallowed a big gulp in your throat and looked down into your drink. You expected that something like this would happen, you just didn’t think you wouldn’t be prepared to hear it.

‘’M sorry.’ She looked at your numb expression with caring eyes.

‘It’s okay Pans.’ You gave her a soft smile. ‘Maybe you’re right. Maybe it’s time to move on.’

Even though you tried to not think about him for the next few days, it was unusually hard. He was on your mind non stop, like a song playing on repeat. On top of that, everyone was talking about the upcoming event. While walking through the halls you overheard people gossiping about the pairs, discussing what they are gonna wear and you were also a witness to roughly 7 performances of the boys creatively asking their crushes to go with them.

You walked into the courtyard and took a seat on the nearest free bench. You pulled out your sketchbook in hopes to finally draw something. Truth is, you didn’t remember the last time you practiced your beloved activity, not that you didn’t have time, you just didn’t have any ideas. This time wasn’t different, you looked around and then your gaze rested on the empty page before you. You made a soft line with your pencil and stopped, it was like your hand didn’t want to listen to your mind. You groaned and closed the sketchbook to put it in your bag again. While doing this, you felt a presence in front of you. Looking up, you saw Cedric Diggory, a charming smile plastered on his face.

‘Hi, do you have a moment?’ He asked and you stood up to face him.

‘Of course.’ You smiled.

‘I have a question.’

‘If you want my help with something, then no. I can barely finish my own essays and-‘

‘No, that’s..’ He chuckled. ‘I was wondering if you’d want to go to the ball with me?’

‘Oh..’ You bit your lip softly from the inside. ‘I.. I’ll think about it. Is that okay with you?’

‘Surely, just don’t take too long, darling.’ He sent you a wink and walked out of the courtyard.

Later that night you were studying in your dorm, soft music was playing in your headphones as you scribbled some sigils for one of the classes. Your back was turned to the door, so you didn’t hear that someone came in. It was the feeling of being observed that made you move your head to inspect the room and there he was. Theodore Nott stood next to your door, his arms were crossed and you couldn’t quite read his expression. You grabbed your headphones and took them off.

‘Knocking exists.’ You told him.

‘Not for me.’ He replied sternly.

‘What are you doing here, Theodore?’ You fixed your position on the bed so that you were fully facing him. ‘Don’t you have any other hoes to tend to?’

‘Are you going to the ball with Diggory?’ He avoided your question.

‘Why do you care?’ You stood up.

‘Answer me.’ He took a step closer to you.

‘Maybe I am, maybe I’m not.’

‘For fucks sake, stop being a brat and answer the question.’ He said through gritted teeth.

‘It’s none of your business.’ You replied while stepping closer to him and poking your finger into his chest.

His scent filled up your nose and you felt this forbidden feeling again. Your body was lustful, for him, but you couldn’t let him win again.

He chuckled, ‘See, that’s where you’re wrong.’

You scoffed, ‘Fine. Yes.’ You spat at him. ‘I’m going with Cedric. Is that what you wanted to hear?’

His eyes darkened at the confession, which wasn’t even true. You just wanted to get on his nerves and see what he would do. You didn’t even have time to react before he pinned you to the wall and hovered over you. Your breath hitched and you tried your best to avoid his eyes, because if you looked into them, you’d lose.

‘No, you’re not.’ He stated. ‘You are not going with anyone.’

‘Why? Why the fuck do you care so much?!’ Your eyes were glued to the ceiling.

He gripped your face with one of his hands and forced you to look at him. You closed your eyes.

‘You.’ He whispered and brought his lips closer to yours before breathily adding the rest. ‘Are. Mine.’

The sound of his voice was angelic and it sent a certain feeling down to your core. You tried your best to resist but your eyes fluttered open and met his. You lost.

He grabbed your face and connected your lips in a hungry kiss. You whimpered into his mouth and cursed yourself in your mind. Why was he so addictive? Why couldn’t you quit? He just felt too good to be true. Kissing you in all the right places, his fingers touching where you needed him most, every time you felt him inside of you, it felt like heaven.

He took a few steps back and tried to not break the kiss. He pushed you onto the mattress and with one of his hands he pushed all the books off the bed. He left wet kisses along your jawline and you moaned at the feeling. He discarded both of your shirts and attached his lips to your chest, leaving a couple love bites along the way.

‘I want you to say it.’ He mumbled into your ear.

‘Hm?’ You were brought out of your trance.

‘I want you to admit you’re mine.’

‘But am I?’ He stopped kissing your neck and gripped your throat.

‘Are you?’ He raised his brow and smirked challengingly, knowing you’d fold under him.

You stared deep into his eyes and swallowed harshly because of his grip, before replying, ‘I’m yours.’

‘Good girl.’ He let go of your neck and connected your lips once again.

Soon enough both of you were a sweaty mess, clothes laying somewhere on the wooden floor, soft sounds escaping your lips as he pumped his fingers in and out of you. His breath on your neck and occasional kisses made you feel dizzy, his fingers making you squirm from the pleasure, but it wasn’t enough.

‘I need to feel you.’ You breathed out and Theo didn’t waste a second.

He positioned himself on top of you and slowly entered your aching pussy. You threw your head back and he used that to immediately attach his lips to your neck once again.

‘’S okay, darling. You’re doing so good f’me.’ He whispered to help you relax.

His voice made you let go of the tension in your lower body, finally allowing him to move at a pace so perfect for both of you. He lifted you up and spinned both of you, so that you were on top of him. His thrusts became quicker and stronger, one of his hands was caressing your breasts, while the other rubbed your clit so deliciously. You cried out his name a few times when you were close, but he always stopped just then. He just smirked every time and continued his actions, it turned him on, watching you whine on top of him. He felt he was getting closer to his release, so he sped up again, and this time his hand stayed on your sweet spot. You reached your high with a loud moan and threw your head back, your hand grabbing Theo’s arm. He released inside of you with a loud groan and you used that to push away his hand which was still rubbing circles on your bud, too sensitive for more. You collapsed on top of him and gave him a peck on his collarbone. Theo reached for the blanket and covered the two of you.

‘I lied.’ You mumbled.

‘What?’

‘I’m not going with Cedric.’ You replied softly. ‘I told him I’d think about it and..’

‘Good.’ He interrupted. ‘You’re going with me then.’

‘Am I?’ You looked up at him playfully. ‘I thought you were taking Arisa.’

‘Who?’ He replied and you giggled. ‘She asked me to go. But I refused.’

‘Why? She’s a nice girl.’

‘Maybe. But she isn’t you.’ He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. ‘And I belong solely to you.’

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@ girasollake 2024

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fire-emblem-drabbles · 1 year

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Day 5

Pairing: Ren Hana x reader

Prompt: Meloncholy

Description: How did you get caught in such a surreal situation? You can't help but feel terrible, so much so that you end up crying. But, your new best friend Ren is here to help!

Rating: sfw

Content Warning: Past kidnapping, imprisonment, non con touching (nonsexual), mentions of hurting reader, collars, ask to tag

Word Count: 872

Notes: Ren is my FAV from bytd I would actually let his do anything to me. Even if I am like, way taller than him. He can be my short king any day sdfjldfkj have I mentioned all these have been written in a row? Thank u queue its 10:30 rn After I get "caught up" these might be longer but I aint forcing nothing

You couldn’t help but settle heavy in the bed given to you, dread and fear weighing you down to the nice duvet under you. You can’t help but curl your fingers into it as you stare out the window, to the winter storm raging outside. You reach up to touch the collar around your neck your body shivers at the memory of electricity running though you.

How did you get into this mess? All you had wanted was a night out but… Ren and that other man… the drinks… being chased and… Ending up here.

You had really wanted to believe he helped you. He was nothing but sweet and polite, so you wanted to return that generosity but… the anklet. The collar you still wore. That he tested on you. This could only end badly for you, couldn’t it? But you had to be brave in the face of this, this…

You feel your eyes tear up. You really don’t want to cry, not now. He was some sort of fox; he would probably hear you sobbing from where ever he went off too but… you can’t help it, your stresses piling up until your fit to burst, leaving you in the little tears that stream down your face. It isn’t long before you’re downright bawling, shoving your face into the too nice pillow in a feeble attempt to muffle your voice.

Obviously, it doesn’t work and it isn’t long before you hear the undeniable sound of feet bounding down the stairs. You attempt to collect yourself in vain, but Ren is upon you before you’re even done rubbing your tired eyes.

“_____? Is everything okay?” His voice is so soft, so very sweet. As if he’s not the cause of all your problems.

“I-I’m sorry…!” You blubber out, scared he might do something else to hurt you. “I-I just…” It isn’t long before you burst into another fit of tears.

“H-hey it’s okay!” You jump as you feel his arms slither around your waist. Ren doesn’t let you go, though, merely pulls you closer into his embrace. “I know you’re probably a little confused… but I’ll take care of you, I promise!” He coos. “You don’t have anything to worry about, okay?” His words provide little comfort to you but you try to convince yourself to calm down regardless, taking slow deep breathes to even your breathing and hopefully stop sobbing.

“There you go, easy…” He hums as you take another shuddering breath. “What’s got you all sad for buddy?” he asks softly, laughing gently. You consider your words carefully.

“I-I’m just… not used to this place, is all.” You mumble softly. It wasn’t a complete lie, but you weren’t sure if it was enough to convince him. “I um, still sleep with a lot of stuffed animals and plushies so… I guess I just got a little lonely here by myself.” You admit softly.

“Oh, is that it?” Ren laughs softly. “If it would make you feel better… I could stay with you?” Your eyes widen at his proposition. Was that an offer you could even say no to? “I’ll even bring down one of my favorite plushies for you, hold on!” Before you can even think to argue, he’s racing off again, up the stairs. It’s silent a moment before you can hear him charging back down, pushing right into your door.

Triumphantly, he hold up something round. In the dark of your room it’s hard to make out but… “Is that a pusheen plush?” You ask softly.

“It is!” He grins, climbing back on the bed and handing it to you. It was covered in… orange fur, you noted, but it was impossible to mistake. You had this same plush back home… It was one of your favorites to cuddle to sleep. “She’s one of my favorites, but I think you need her more than I do.” He gives you a grin, his features softening as he looks at you.

“That’s really sweet of you…” You can’t help but mumble, holding her closely. “I had a plush just like this one, so… yeah.” You don’t know what else to say, look away from him. You definitely feel better then the minutes before but spending time with Ren felt strange. Like you shouldn’t be as relaxed as you feel.

“I’m glad you think so. I just want you to be comfortable here. With me.” The smile he gives you has an edge to it, his voice sweet with a sharpness. “So… don’t hesitate to trust me, okay?” It’s as if he read your mind. Or maybe perhaps, was questioning your motives.

“I… won’t.” You answer softly, laying down in the bed with the plushie protectively held to your chest. You go under the covers and mumble out. “Good night, Ren.” This time, you openly squeal as you feel his hands circle around your waist. He happily cuddled up to you, tail and legs wrapping around your own and head nuzzled atop yours.

“Night _____. Rest well.” His whispered voice in your ear causes you to shiver. You can’t help but think that you’ve only gotten yourself into a worse situation than the one you found yourself in before…

#minors dni #btd ren #btd ren hana #18+#ren hana x reader #ren x reader #btd 2 #outing myself as gross #just wait it gets worse :)

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sporedruidoflight · 2 months

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~Heya, my name’s Garrus, I’m a 31 year old Autistic Non-Binary, Ace/Demi-Romantic who worked in healthcare, now had to step back start of summer 2022, severely mentally ill/trying to get better. Im trying my best tbh my mental health is fucking trash rn.

~Please don’t make any Mass Effect jokes about me being your husband, I’ve never played the game, the jokes will go over my head, and Ive heard enough of them.

~If my IMS dont work and youre trying to send me a message regarding like, any of my characters, the other side blogs I have or anything just send me an ask!

~I have my queue either filled with memes, character related stuff, and or Headcannons. Mainly memes. Don’t be afraid to send me memes or ask if I wanna plot!

~I am not a reblog source. Please reblog any memes, or items that I have reblogged regarding aesthetic, clothing, weapons, etc of my characters from the source.

~I love asks. I love threads. I am here as a hobby, and I assume we’re all adults here even though I say don’t assume.

~Im OC friendly, and semi selective. It doesnt mean I wont rp with you but Ill occasionally follow and unfollow.

~I prefer semi-literate to literate writing, and I prefer more than a few paragraphs. I don’t require Icons, and IDGAF if its one word if its crack. I dont have icons for Fox Yowl rn but. Mood

~Im probably also high half of the time when I have weed, I use it to help me with my period pains (I have PCOS) mood, or sleep. If you cant understand my reply please ask me to explain or fix it, and ask me to do it sober because legit I will and more than likely apologize for being high as balls.

~Also remember! This is a hobby like my cosplay and I do this for fun please have fun as well ;-; Also muse doesnt equal mun, mun doesnt equal muse. I am not my character and my character isnt me, thanks.

#Ⱄⱄ. .ⱄⰔ{Out of Cursed Flight}

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angryborzois · 1 year

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YOOOO

it has been a long time since I’ve hopped in the ask box but unfortunately it will be the last time for a bit since I’m prepping for my exams. Luckily it ends on the 9th of March so I will probably make my presence known by then. In the meantime, I’ve learnt how to queue properly and now have a bunch a stuff that can be posted in the wild so let’s enjoy that

Enough of that, today is Valentine’s Day and while my aroace ass won’t be doing anything, I hope you are receiving the highest quality chocolate there is and fun times with your friends.

Thanks to your posts about Alice in Borderland I actually watched the show and it is REALLY GOOD. My favourite is Ann and Arisu though Kuina, Chishiya and Usagi are quite close. Im almost finished with 2 episodes left so when I come back I’ll probably chat more about it.

guess what. Finally named my oc after the many jokes. Their name is Tadaomi and I’ve been really invested his story as a consequence of the jjk brainrot I’m going through. Made a whole doc for them and everything. Maybe I’ll send it to you when It’s done ( do you have the tumblr dms open maybe I’ll drop it there).

thats’s pretty much everything i got here so I must depart. Here is a collection of all the cat photos I have rn. Hope you get plenty of water and sleep and see you on the 9th💫

AKAVABSHD YO HI

GOOD LUCK ON UR EXAMS U GOT THISS and ill be eagerly waiting till march 9

(also u gotta teach me how to queue things properly becuase last time I tried it didn't work...yes im a dumbfuck)

anyways thank youu, i prob wont be like receiving things because im not popular lol but like you said ill have fun with my friends as best i can <3

OMGOMG YOU ACTUALLY WATCHED ALICE IN BORDERLAND (not me being giddy and grinning nonstop at this) and in case it wasn't obvious enough kuina and chishiya are my top favs (kuina is such a girlboss i love her sm)

I DIDNT THINK YOU WOULD WATCH IT SO IM LIKE SUPER HAPPY AA

I've been dreaming about Borderland too much lately lol (im just too lazy to post them); sadly I haven't seen Kuina there but I have briefly seen Chishiya (honestly it's just Arisu and his og trio that I've interacted with). I gotta rewatch season one though because I actually don't remember anything from it and I get so confused when I see mentions of Season 1 because my brain goes "woah when did that happen".

But I only really remembered and started posting about AIB because of that one anon from Jojo's posts who talked about who Nijiro was (i gotta thank them cause they really got me into that chishiya brainrot and helped me get out of that damn geto brainrot)

actually ok maybe i lied because A SMALL PART OF ME STILL LOVES THAT DAMN MF GETO ARGHDGFHD I HATE HIM. (Speaking of that I never finished that animation of Gojo's Past Arc I was working on...)

ANYWAYS.

YES i'd love to see your oc's entire lore i have my tumblr dms open so 🤲🤲🤲 dont be shy drop the link 👀

Aww ok I'll be waiting until March 9 and in the meantime I'll be brainrotting endlessly for Geto ahem I mean Chishiya because Chishiya is just better. Make sure you get plenty of water and rest too bro (I'll make sure to get water but I prob wont be getting enough sleep lmao)

ANYWAYS SEE U SOONN 👋

#I LOVE THE SECOND AND EIGHTH IMAGE SM #it's downloaded now #ren's asks

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wistcrias-arch2 · 3 years

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@heldearth liked karou ✒ any of your shadowhunter folk!

𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝. it seemed impossible, but for karou who had already lived two lives, it was only the very tip of possibility. she wasn’t sure what caused it, but rips began to appear in eretz in the strangest of places. in the kirin caves, in the hintermost, even in astrae. and coming off the heels of war, the last thing the seraphim or the chimaera needed was more battle. they had already lost so much. and so it was decided to send teams bit by bit to explore, to report back, to keep the borders of either side safe.

karou was, of course, one of the first to sign up for this venture. which is what led her here –– in this place. this other earth. with its other demons and other monsters and other angels. it was... definitely weird. especially when these shadowhunters took one look at her hamsas, called them runes and took her away. yeah: weird.

❝ so... yeah. I know, that was a lot to unpack. but it’s good to know that there’s people here trying to keep this place safe. are you the only ones of your kind here? are there... others? ❞

#SO IVE ONLY EVER READ TMI #and like the first book w the emma series #but im a sham #so if i need to change anything lmk!!!#heldearth #❝ INTERACTIONS → ( threads. )#❝ I’M PROBABLY SLEEPING RN → ( queue. )#❝ I AM STARDUST GATHERED FLEETINGLY INTO FORM. → ( K: threads. )

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arhvste · 3 years

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hey kuroo just a reminder: i’m on the pill 😝 just saying

#mila.talks!✉️#queue!#do not rb #hi i’m probably sleeping rn #but #this is a test to see if queue works #idk what time it is for you but yeah #omg exciting after tomorrow i’m all yours ‼️#i also got caught ditching bio today 🙄#but whtvr bad bitches always do #yeah <33

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arch-wistcrias · 5 years

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ooc tag drop.

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theminecraftbox · 2 years

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please continue posting about every line actually, while I was watching the stream I was like oh boy I cannot WAIT to see what tumblr user minesbecraftin has to say about this! anyway smaller detail, I think c!sams attitude was really interesting, specifically how he really seemed to think he could get Dream to let him out? (or hoped he could at least) almost felt like he’s so convinced on what he did to c!Dream being right that he didn’t even consider that dream’d have the emotional desire for revenge, thinking he’d instead logically consider c!sams bargain and agree. c!sam be wild man, we love dream mocking his hypocrisy!!

💜💜💜 I WILL keep posting and no one and nothing can stop me 🥰 literally I am too wired to sleep rn. Should I queue some of these rants? Probably. Will I? Fuck no, I’m inflicting them on the populace as soon as they roll off my fried brain stem.

/rp/dsmp yesss I have so many thoughts about Sam’s entire attitude towards Dream ~obeying his commands~.

I think it’s impossible that some of it isn’t habitual, that Sam simply expects Dream to obey him because, ya know, he spent nearly a year ordering Dream around. He expects Dream to listen to him because Dream literally had to, under threat of starvation and isolation and physical torture and death. Dream fucking obeyed him. Dream begged him. Dream bowed to him.

But some of it is clearly just, Sam’s weird entitled logic. Sam assumed that Tubbo should, like, shrug off him murdering his husband and kidnapping his son! This is the degree of cognitive dissonance we’re dealing with. Sam thinks that, because he believes he has solid reasons for his actions, everyone else’s perspective is a) irrelevant b) should somehow, magically, match his. It’s like he thinks he can WILL the universe into matching his expectations or something.

He thinks he can bargain with Dream not so much because he thinks Dream is reasonable, or because he thinks Dream should forgive and forget, or because he thinks he has a good deal to offer—but because he literally can’t act like the world would treat him like this. It’s deluded.

If this were a more isolated case, I’d also argue that Sam’s desperate—but damn he really acts like this all the time. It also reminds me of when he commanded Dream to return to his cell during the prison break, and even when he asked for the revival book after Techno’s escape.

#c!dream and c!sam #abuse.#daedalus arc

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i-am-the-balancing-point · 2 years

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It’s WIP Wednesday, my dudes!

thanky to a ~carefully planned~ queue I am finally participating in one of those on an actual Wednesday. I have been tagged by @adelaidedrubman, @scungilliwoman and @clicheantagonist, each TWICE already (I’m sorry, I am trying my best! thank you for still thinking of me).

alas everything I have on the burner has not progressed past what I have shown you yet so I‘m just gonna churn some ideas out I wanna brain-birth in the future:

ART

@josephslittledeputy‘s Deputy OC Willa teaching my Dep to use the rocket launcher. Willa is standing behind Gigi and uses the opportunity for some neck kisses 🌝✨

Jacob carrying a sleeping Faith in his arms (I need all of the soft sibling interactions between her and her brothers!)

Faith cuddling a little bunny while sitting in the middle of a field

a spicy bondage and knifeplay scene between John and my dep

Joseph holding my dep to his chest while they’re in the tub

so much Willa and Gigi smut. I made promises!

Gigi comforting a very tired Alex (@clicheantagonist’s deputy OC, based on this)

Imogene, Eli and their little fawn, (something from an AU @nonfunctioning-queer came up with for their deputy OC but I‘m not sure how much I am allowed to share so keeping it vague 🌝)

Joseph kissing Faith‘s forehead

@faithchel’s OC Lyra in a Seed family portrait (I have already done family portrait research for this ndishwvgwaown)

Dani on a horse!!!!!

speaking of horses: Deputies Alex, Willa and Gigi going for a ride together

Mary May getting railed by Skylar ✨

very wife-y portrait of my dep handing Joey a cup of coffee and smooching her on the cheek

I am deeply handshake emoji in love with @raccoondog3’s cult OC Hoot and just wanna draw my dep being nice to him 🤷🏽‍♀️

I also kinda wanna draw Citra but she is so perfect and I feel like I would eternally hate myself if I didn’t do her justice or if it at least would not turn out the way I wanted it to

WRITING

I still have this bit I started to write about how John gave my deputy the pride scar on her inner thigh (no idea if I posted it in the past but I‘d be too shy to to post it here rn) and would love to expand on that but I am just so awkward at writing anything sexual. 🥲 (cue me bringing a notepad to my next dique appointment and stopping in the middle of steamy stuff to jot some things down) The rough outline is that John kidnaps the deputy while she’s out hunting with Jess. She wakes up in his bunker tied to a chair and still pretty mushy from the bliss bullet. Johnny is angy™ at her for not even caring the littlest bit to even make a tiny move towards atonement. This is after she had her magical girl transformation moment and switched to the clothes that actually reveal her scars which he thinks is her way of taunting him (frankly, Gigi does not care about that. she is pissed about the scars but this is about her own comfort and letting lose a bit and definitely not about John). He has not only set his mind to marking her with another sin but wants to take more. It all goes into pretty uh dubcon territory from there and I get that’s really not everyone’s cup of tea. Also I am absolutely shitty at writing dialogue for John. He’s just giving me a hard time. I cannot really empathise with his arrogant bitch mind and I am not witty myself so it takes fucking ages to find something appropriate for him to say. (If anybody would like to help I’d greatly appreciate it!)

in addition to that I wanna write something about my dep being put on a leash by Jacob 😏 that man is into puppy play and just being a mean mean dom and I need this fic spiked with lots of praise and degradation to idk heal my heart or something!

I still have the idea for the fic of Vaas taking a special liking to one of his prisoners ghosting around in the back of my head but currently all it screams is CITRA so that will probably take a while too

tagging everyone who’d like to post some wip atm. I’m curious to see what you’re cooking up! :)

#tag meme #my writing #only queue can make all this world seem right

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thebeautyoffanfics · 3 years

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teru minamoto x gn!reader

a/n: “savannah, you have requests, you should really work on them” yes, i’m sorry but- you guys also seem to like teru so. Teru <3 it’s basically a drabble anyway <33 (aondofn how are. how are y’all teru fans feeling rn? like. just curious. nothing too particular happened in the latest chapter w him, i just wanna know.)

also, i just realized- tho kou is my favorite, and i nearly have a heart attack every time i see him solely bc he's so cute and i love him so so much,,, i think i've written for teru more- i should probably fix that hmm,,

warnings: none <3

word count: 518

“Hello, Kou!” You greeted, standing on the front porch of the Minamoto house. It had been a boring sort of day, and you had remembered the Minamoto family telling you that you were welcome to stop by any time. After finding a stuffed rabbit at a store that you thought Tiara might like, you decided to use that as an excuse to pay your boyfriend and his family a visit.

“(Y/N), come in!” Kou responded cheerfully, stepping aside to let you in. You entered the house, slipping off your shoes as Kou continued to speak.

“Teru-nii just got home, so I’m not sure if he’s asleep yet. Either way, you’re welcome to stay!”

“Thank you,” You smiled, holding the bag with the toy rabbit up a bit, “I picked something up for Tiara while I was out! Is she up?”

As if right on queue, the only Minamoto daughter ran towards you, arms held open wide. You squatted down, catching the girl in your arms as you happily accepted her hug.

“Tiara!” You exclaimed, squeezing her lightly, then letting her lean back. “I found something earlier, and I thought of you!”

You pulled the small, pink rabbit from your bag, offering it to Tiara. Her eyes light up excitedly as she took it, then wrapped her little arms back around you.

“Thank you, (Y/N)! I’ll name you… Fairy Minamoto Jr.” She smiled up at you, before making her way back into the living room. You stood up, waving slightly at Kou, before letting him know that you were going to go see if Teru was up. Of course, you weren’t planning on bothering him if he was- you were sure he was exhausted, and you didn’t want to deprive him of sleep any further. You just wanted to pay him a quick visit.

You knocked lightly on his bedroom door, then pushed it open, glancing around the dark room expectantly. As you should have guessed, you spotted your boyfriend sound asleep. Without thinking, you shut the door behind you, and walked over to the bed. It had been a rather long day for you- though you were sure it was worse for Teru- but still… there was no harm in a little extra sleep. That thought encouraged you, as you hopped onto the bed, and under the blankets. You wrapped your arms around the sleeping Minamoto, before closing your eyes, letting the warmth and peace lull you to sleep.

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Teru woke slowly, not questioning the other person in bed with him at first. It wasn’t unusual for his siblings to crawl into bed with him after all… though… Tiara was small… and Kou slept in incredibly strange ways, typically with his arms thrown wide open (sometimes landing perfectly in Teru’s face). Opening his eyes, Teru was greeted with the lovely sight of his sleeping s/o.

“(Y/N),” He muttered, the sleepiness evident in his voice. Well… Kou hadn’t called for dinner yet. “There would be no shame in just… going back to sleep,” Teru thought, wrapping his arms securely around you, before dozing back off.

#oneshot #x reader #gn!reader #x gn!reader #drabble #tbhk #jshk #toilet bound hanako-kun #jibaku shounen hanako-kun #teru minamoto #teru minamoto x reader #tbhk x reader #jshk x reader #toilet bound hanako kun x reader #jibaku shounen hanako kun x reader

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shatterthefragments · 2 years

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I posted 1,516 times in 2021

360 posts created (24%)

1156 posts reblogged (76%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 3.2 posts.

I added 1,225 tags in 2021

#i shatter queue - 713 posts

#art - 77 posts

#vent - 66 posts

#saved - 64 posts

#video - 57 posts

#quizzes - 56 posts

#uquiz - 55 posts

#yes - 48 posts

#and bc i love your tags: - 46 posts

#things that make me happy - 43 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#on a more serious note i still don’t really think anybody would ever want to date me and that’s probably a sign i’m not ready but alsolonely

My Top Posts in 2021

The Joy In Our Embrace

For @unaestheticbiostudent - Happy new year! Hope you like the art and drabble! :D

Created for @bentomodachi‘s New Year Gift Exchange

Kouhei and Taichi walked to the park, and were the only ones there, despite it being a lovely day. There was a bench over by some trees, and they sat down side by side, curling into each other.

It wasn't long before they were fully snuggled up together. Taichi brought his legs up and draped them over one of Kouhei's. They leaned in to each other. Kouhei's hands rested on top of Taichi's knee as Taichi hugged him from the side. Their heads leaned in towards each other and touched in a lovely head bonk of love. It was perfect.

Find The Joy In Our Embrace on AO3 here!

progress pics under the cut!

Progress pics!

Thank you to Senshistock on deviantart who had the pose reference that I based this off of!

There was an inked photo, but I didn’t like it, so I didn’t put it here. Pencil -> ink -> watercolour pencil crayons -> water -> watercolour paints for the background

Painting is hard, but I am still having so much fun with it, so I hope you like the end result too!

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tag people you want to get to know better/catch up with!

tagged by @rhubarbdreams and @boutiquetraveltravelboutique

Thank you both! For the doubled questions - doubled answers muahahaha

I got a bit wordy so under the cut it shall go!

Favourite colour: blue? Currently reading: ...like physically or digitally? Physically: Romeo and/or Juliet, but slowly. Digitally: trying to catch up on All The Things (like. I have. Over 600 email subscriptions to TOG alone...)

Last song: Holy by King Princess (as that was my sleep song last night) and before that it's hard to tell because I was queueing to see what I felt like sleeping to that night (I just repeat the song for an hour on the sleep timer) so probably either The Worst [Polyphia] or Soda [Nothing But Thieves] or Sleeping In Waking [Rina Sawayama]

Last Movie/Film: ok ok so. I thought it was Waves. But it might have actually been Wolf. Time is hard. Both of these were Quite Some Time ago now.... but since this is a doubled question: Waves and Wolf! Last Series: Leverage! (I haven't seen Redemption yet though) Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: oooh all of them <3

Tea or coffee: Ahhhh both? I'm currently not having coffee, nor do I go out of my way to make my own tea right now (but I will grab a mug when dad makes it). But during the school semester I'll usually have coffee in the morning (and maybe in the afternoon too if I'm tired) and keep adding hot water to my travel tea mug throughout the day, too!

Currently Working On: cleaning my desk so I can maybe start the art/pictures for the bottom Joe week belated thing haha oops... but who knows maybe I'll be in too much pain idk. Moving upper arm is not fun rn. But also sort of started the writing part of it~ Might make it sexy despite originally wanting to do it non-explicit! (I'm not sure if I'm good per se, but I'm less hung up over doing more explicit stuff after doing the top Joe pornathon) Then once I finish that I'm hoping to seriously rework my Etsy Chronicles (working title) and for that one maybe I'll even try to find a beta? idk. I am so excited for it though!!!!

Currently watching: ummmm nothing? Sometimes maybe youtube a bit? I'll loop a video of music (rn usually Ichika Nito or Tim Henson) for the background... intending to watch Hartenstraat <3

Craving: food: maybe chocolate mousse because I said I would make it as long as mum helped (limited use of the arm I got jabbed in rn wo pain so I just avoid moving it in ways it'll hurt). drink: we were going to get bubble tea after our second dose appts, but bc of the timing, they were closed. So maybe one of the fruity bubble teas!

I forgot to tag initially, but if you have time and want to!:

@alkaysani @caffeinatedbraincell @kiaya @nickydestati @posingasme @randofando-spoonie <3

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*screams “FUCK” like Roy but like. My voice isn’t anywhere near as fuzzygravelly as his*

Ted Lasso y’all are just fucking me UP I love it and I’m here for it but also it would be nicer if I had access to a counsellor or something right now bc FEELINGS.

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snapshots // my beloved // my heart

Filled my bingo card (at the last moment of course) for @yusufalkaysanibingo !

A collection of many things - art, drabbles, little ficlets, a poem, and photographic collages! (Little teaser shown above!)

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SAME IF I EVER WHEN I FIND SOMEONE

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Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #Shatters’ fragments #long post

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alexandrablake · 3 years

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hey! hi! it's me! here is my promised bigass update post!

i don't even know if anyone's noticed but i haven't been active in the past... ever (it's been a couple weeks since my queue ran out but in total i'd say maybe a month and a half since i've actually been "active"). i had/have a lot going on right now and i basically forgot i had a tumblr (swag) and i've barely been on the internet period (also swag). i've missed y'all ever so dearly and mutuals - i will be doing rounds to see how you are doing and say hello and scope your always amazing themes.

now. to get into the meat of things (i am coloring the important stuff because if y'all are anything like me, long posts are awful to read).

as i said, life has been pretty nuts lately, which is really strange to say because in retrospect not much has actually been happening. i'll give y'all a quick rundown of it though.

main thing - i got a summer job about a month ago which is what i've been doing lately. i live in the middle of actual nowhere so working is this whole thing (in addition to it being a whole thing of y'know... working) the management sucks so. i'm not vibing but it's just for the summer so i'm sucking it up

follow up thing - i'm in a weird place in my head rn?? i honestly think it's because i'm so bone tired (even though i am sleeping so much - more on this in a second) so i'm thinking a lot about a lot of things

second follow up thing - i've been sick (swag part two) so i'm just asleep . all the time . i'm starting to think the sleep is a real issue but i'm starting to feel better so who even knows at this point.

so that's where i've been! i hope that's like relatively cohesive because here's what's coming up in the future of the alexandrablake blog!

in my ... leave of absence we'll call it, i did do a little bit of reflecting about what i was doing on this blog and i realized that it's time for me and criminal minds to break up. it's amicable and i think we'll stay friends but we aren't the best people for each other and we've known this for a while

god i need to not take breaks

but yeah. i'm kinda stepping back from cm. i haven't been interested in the show in quite some time and i just cannot feel myself loving it like i used to. and quite frankly, i'm bored of it.

but only kind of! i still have some serieses to finish and i may have the occasional idea in the future and i'll definitely interact with my cm mutuals' creations but my focus is shifting!

i'm not entirely sure what to either! i think for now i'm just going to embrace the "multi" part of the multi-fandom blog i technically am. i will say - the amount of 911/911ls around here is going to pick up quick (stupid fucking firefighters making me feel feelings and fall in love with them)

other things i'd like to note in the form of a list!

i'm probably going to be doing a cleanse of who i follow! i may break some mutuals and i promise this isn't because of you, it's just me trying to get something other than cm on my dash

everything should be tagged for the fandom it falls under!

i still won't be the most active, but please come talk to me! i've missed talking to you guys!

i think i'm going to start editing more than writing because (once again (lets hope its not as bad as last time)) i have absolutely no drive to write

EDIT: i also promise i won’t be offended if you unfollow me / break a mutual / etc! curate your online experience and i promise i won’t be hurt if i’m no longer a part of that anymore!

EDIT 2: also please still tag me in your cm creations! just because i’m not going to be actively engaging with it doesn’t mean i’m not going to support you anymore!

and now comes the time for me to tag some mutuals (and i mean some, i'm literally tagging the first of y'all to pop up in that little box) so y'all can decide what you want to do! i'm not even sure if i'm still mutuals with all of you and i'll check in a sec but for now

@temily (hi grace) @tenemily (hi kayla) @moreidstrobed (hi adam) @qvid-pro-qvo (hi qvo) @literateleah (hi leah) @duchesschameleon (hi charlie) @kateemcgrath (hi abbie) @hotchsbabygirl (hi anj) and even though she kinda knows all this @hurricanejjareau (hi red)

#you can reblog this if you want but i basically just tagged y'all because i wanted to say and to let y'all know about me changing #i've also been doing this thing where the only music i want to listen to is poprock i am not sure what that says about my state of mind atm #and somehow adele falls into that category. but like only adele's big songs so they inspire nostalgia #i'm also starting to think i needed to get tested for adhd/add because i can definitely feel myself getting worse #and i would like some sort of answers because yikes !#eva rambles #< a lot.#also i think i'm just going to pull up into someone's dms to fill me in on everything i've missed. any volunteers???

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whootwhoot · 3 years

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»»—— 𝘚𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘢 2020 "𝘔𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘴" 𝘚𝘶𝘨𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘢 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 —««

(- author’s note: merry christmas @nixhinoya !! (damn it i choose the most general titles for my stories lmAO) its pretty late but i just got on the laptop rn, sorry for not interacting with you too much^^ but i’m your secret santa lmAO anyways its nice to meet you 😌 😍 i hope you like this owo!!)

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“You’re coming over to Japan?”

“Yeah! Hang on, give me a second.”

You fiddle with the headphones in your hand while pulling your suitcase over to a table.

“Should’ve put these on before calling you.” “Anyways back to what I was saying-”

“WAIT REALLY? IS THAT THE AiR-pORT?”

Your mouth twists as you hear Sugawara’s voice cracking, you just told your boyfriend that you’ll be coming over to visit him in Japan for Christmas, judging by his reaction he probably didn’t see this coming.

“Yeah Suga, I’m flying to Japan!”

“Well guess that means I just wasted my money for a flight…”

“Wait.”

“No way.”

You are speechless.

“Did I just buy a ticket to visit Y/n? Without knowing Y/n is already at the airport waiting for her flight in 2 hours? Yeah.”

You are really speechless, Sugawara bursts into laughter upon seeing your stunned expression, his familiar voice rings in your ear. The corners of your mouth uncontrollably quirks up watching your dorky boyfriend.

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You're in love, you both are.

You know you’re in love when you can listen to him all day but still laugh when he cracks a stupid joke.

He knows he’s in love when he has that impulse to make you laugh, as cliche as it sounds, your laugh makes his day so much better.

You know you’re in love when you can send him texts ranging from stupid puns to endless “I love you”s and midnight confessions every night before bed.

He knows he’s in love when he sets his phone’s wallpaper to pictures of you, or pictures of him with you in it. It may seem funny but he believes that way the last thing he sees every night is you, and every morning when his phone alarm rings, the first person he wakes up to is you.

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“Good afternoon passengers, this is the final boarding call for passengers who booked for flight JL122 to Miyagi, Japan. Please proceed to gate 3 immediately. I repeat…”

You stand up and stretch your stiff body while holding your phone.

“Guess that’s my queue.”

“You can’t call me on the plane?”

“I don’t think this plane comes with Wi-Fi, Suga.” “Plus the passengers are probably getting tired of me talking.” Right on queue, the old lady that’s been sitting behind you gives you a dirty look that can rival Tsukishima’s.

“Teenagers.” she mumbles under her breath.

You give an awkward wave as you make your way to the front counter, Suga giggling in the process.

“See you in Miyagi Y/n.”

“Can’t wait.”

You watch as your phone screen fades to black, chest feeling heavy, you miss him already.

This seems to be a short flight, but the longest you’ve been on too.

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The flight attendant leads you to your seat. You got yourself a first class window seat, to make yourself comfortable and maybe away from being too paranoid.

“Can I get you anything right now?”

“Oh thank you but I’m fine.”

You sink into your seat, fully utilizing the wide leg room it has. It’s been 6 months since you left Japan, your company promised a really high pay if you work in another country for a year. Your parents were in dire need of the money, and that was the last straw that made you leave Sugawara.

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The heart breaks you went through before leaving, the aching in your heart after you promised to never leave him. Sugawara was surprisingly calm with it, acknowledging that you should do what’s best for your parents. That didn’t stop him from giving you a paper with only “Stay” written on it, you were told to open it only when you board the plane.

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The feelings and memories all come back in a flash, your eyes slowly turning glossy, letting out a soft whimper. You rearrange your feelings and run your fingers through your hair before sinking back into your seat.

You tilt your head and look towards the window, all you can see is the sky, endless blue skies that stretch out far and wide, clouds dancing to the rhythm of the slow breeze.

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You can reach the sky, but have you ever touched the clouds?

You’ve fallen in love, but will your feelings resurface from the depths?

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Long distance relationships are hard to maintain, they say, you’ve never believed that, but the first week separated took a major toll on you. You could never anticipate the feeling, the yearning for someone, the longing to see his face, the need to hear his voice, the starve for his touch, so bad that it actually hurts. Your chest aches everyday, whether it was seeing something that resembled or reminded you of him.

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You close your eyes, trying to sleep all the feelings away. The paranoia you feel, the tingly feeling that something’s wrong stays with you and keeps you up as you toss and turn in the seat.

“How can I sleep when reality is already so much better than my dreams.”

These words ring in your ear, as you remember the night you video called Sugawara. You were rushing him to go to bed, but as these words slip from his mouth, you felt a warm feeling inside. Something about his confessions has always made your heart just beat a little faster, and feel a little better knowing that he’s here with you, he’s always here.

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The flight feels like forever as you make your way down to the airport, your body feels like it’s just moving on it’s own. You yawn and nearly knock into someone on your way out, mumbling a “sorry” as you continue to walk.

You shiver as you splash water onto your face in the toilet, your body feels even heavier now as you put on thick clothes to prepare for the cold weather in Miyagi. (also because Suga thinks the new coat you bought was adorable)

“Finally.” out of the airport, you took in your first deep breath in Miyagi.

“Does the air smell better here?”

“Smells like home.” you unconsciously answer

The voice rings again, this time it’s the familiar laughter that you were only able to hear in video calls for 6 months. You turn your head in that direction to see Sugawara with his arms open.

“Welcome back, you haven't changed at all have you?”

You two topple over as you jump into his arms, the warmth of your chest on his, the feeling of being able to feel each other’s breath. He kisses your tear-stain cheeks, which taste a little salty but being able to hold you in his arms again was the biggest present he needs this Christmas.

Sugawara misses you too, he misses showing affection to you by hugging you, playing with your hair, holding your hands and kissing you instead of having to rely on hearing your voice every now and then. He misses laughing with you, singing with you, or having stupid pranks on each other once in a while.

Now that you’re here, he finally gets to do it all over again. The overwhelming feeling fills his chest, as he continues holding you in his arms tightly after standing up. Being shorter than Sugawara, you cling tightly to his chest as your ears pick up his speeding heartbeat as you smile and hug him back.

“I’ve missed you.”

“Me too Y/n, me too.”

“Also, you’re kidding.”

“Are you wearing a matching shirt with me?”

“Well, can’t help it. I think it’s cute.”

You can’t believe your dorky boyfriend found a shirt to match yours when you video called him before boarding the plane.

“Is that the only surprise I’ll be getting on Christmas?”

“Only one way to find out.”

“I’m taking you home.”

“Home…”

You mumble the word, a wave of nostalgia hits you as you smile and mumble the word again. It all feels so surreal, you're in Miyagi right now, with the boy you love, going home for Christmas. Home is where he is, home is always where Sugawara is, his arms, his hugs, it all feels like home to you. “Home.”

Sugawara leads you to his car, his hand on your shoulder while the other carries your luggage for you. You adjust your seat only to realize the front seat is still the same as how you left it.

“Suga… have you never let anyone sit here?”

“I've never adjusted it, that’s all.”

Hearing that makes your face heat up a little, just how much does he miss you?

“Hey, check this out.”

Sugawara motions his fingers towards the car ceiling, you look up to see a dangling mistletoe as he leans closer towards you.

“I’m surprised that’s not the first thing you saw when you entered the car.”

“Did you-”

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Something about this kiss feels so much different from before; it’s the yearning you have for each other, you need him so badly and now he’s here. He’s here kissing you. A simple gesture, but thousands of emotions pour into one passionate kiss, as he mumbles countless “I miss you”s and “I love you”s in between kisses.

His hands slowly move from your checks, his thumb stroking it softly then to running his fingers in your hair. You completely indulge yourself in this kiss, sinking deeper and deeper into it, your hands roaming his chest, feeling the warmth of your lover, something you’ve been longing for for so long.

Out of breath, you finally decide to pull away, you both laugh at the sight of each other’s fluster faces as Sugawara looks you directly in the eye.

“This is the best present I’ve ever gotten for Christmas.”

“You sure Suga? Not even a puppy could rival it?”

He chuckles “No, not even that.” “Merry Christmas Y/n.”

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nikatyler · 3 years

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random questions game

Tagged by @kbeesims. Thank you very much! I’m taking a break from studying rn, so let’s do this.

1. why did you choose your url?

Nika is actually one of the first things I’ve ever called myself as a kid and last year I decided to sort of “reclaim” this old nickname and start using it again in online places and I’m surprised by how right it feels.

As for Tyler, well. I think it’s obvious. In my head he’s the main character of this blog, the mascot, if you will. And also, and this is a bit embarrassing, but about a month or two ago I saw this post that was like “changing names shouldn’t be such a big deal, we expect trans people to do it if they’re uncomfortable with their birth name, but we should normalize EVERYONE changing their names if they’re not okay with it” (or something along these lines). And well, I like my name, but I thought, what if I didn’t like it, what would I pick instead. Immediately, this one popped up in my head. Yeah. I mean it makes sense to me, but it feels so dumb at the same time. So yeah. I guess if you called me Tyler, I would respond to it. I’m not sure how I feel about the fact that I would respond to it, but hey. It’s weird but it would work.

2. any sideblogs? name them and why you have them.

The only one that is still active is my cc finds blog @simmeronnie-cc (yes I need to rename it too, we’ll do that). I don’t really post on my sort-of-studyblr-but-more-like-a-rantblr sideblog or my simspiration blog anymore. Among other things, I rant on twitter again (@/nikatyler22 if anyone’s interested), and I need to bring back the simspo tag on this blog.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

Almost five years. I refuse to believe that.

4. do you have a queue tag?

I do. Well, I schedule my posts manually, I don’t queue them (because earlier this year I noticed it would eat at least one post a day, so I stopped using it), but still. I don’t know what I’d do without this function haha

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

There was this blog that did this really cool comic with very pretty characters. That’s what convinced me lol, even though my content has never been like theirs.

6. why did you choose your icon?

Because Tyler lol

7. why did you choose your header?

Because Tyler and Sharon and I want to have what they have dAMMIT

But I might change the picture for the one I posted yesterday, you know, the awkward one

8. whats your post with the most notes?

That would be the pride paints post I believe!

9. how many mutuals do you have?

I don’t know, but a lot I think? At least in the simple sense of “I follow you and you follow me.” I never counted it. I’m not sure how many people would actually consider me their mutual or online friend or something like that. I hope someone would haha

10. how many followers do you have?

Over 2 000. What the heck. I mean, not many people are actually active and I think most of them don’t even lurk, but it’s still a pretty cool number

11. how many people do you follow?

I checked and it’s 183. I can’t realistically keep up with all of them but at the same time I’d feel bad for unfollowing any of them

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

My entire blog is a big shitpost tbh, and I wouldn’t have it any other way ✌✨

13. how often do you use tumblr a day?

I usually keep the tab open all day and just check it from time to time. I’m not counting

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Oooooh boy

Yes. I was dumb, okay? Very dumb.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog” posts?

Those scared me when I was younger, I remember I couldn’t sleep when I was like 8 and saw one of those “repost this or you’ll die in 7 days” pictures. Now I’m okay with them, I just scroll past. Usually. Sometimes I still get nervous. Don’t post them, guys. You can really hurt people with anxiety and similar issues.

16. do you like tag games?

Y E S

17. do you like ask games?

Y E S Y E S Y E S PLEASE SEND ME ASKS

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

One that immediately comes to my mind is @berrysweetboutique. I can’t believe such a big simblr is following me and seeing my daily pixel clownery on their dash :D

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

I don’t, but back in the day, I used to sort of put some simblrs on pedestals and then act in a way that I thought they would like, if that makes sense, and I was really insecure about what they would think, and if we started talking I was so worried I’d say or do something wrong and it was all in all not a great experience. I know it’s not a crush in the romantic sense, but it reminds me of how sometimes you’d go and try to impress a crush and change yourself so that they like you too. I guess they were sort of crushes in the sense of “oh wow this person is so amazing and perfect, I’m so little next to them, they could probably never love me the same way I love them”. Anyway, once you let go of that mentality and just start doing whatever, without trying to impress anyone...oh that freedom is sweet.

Sorry, went off topic here 😅

20. tags?

I’m just gonna tag whoever wants to do this, go make another cup of coffee and go back to my 19th century poetry 😄

#tags #about me

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