#'to measure my ability'

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat. #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance... #you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match. #and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc. #just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

[boyhood]

Anyway my life really changed when I stopped thinking of people as either intelligent or unintelligent and began thinking of them strictly as either curious or uncurious in their approach to things 

#i have absolutely no ability to measure intelligence #like am i smart am i stupid #idk but i would like to learn more facts about whales #i think this might actually be my only advice to my largely teen and early 20s audience

[terezis]

my girl

for posterity please also view the oldest terezi i have on my computer from 2016

#homestuck #4rt #every so often i must draw her to Measure my Ability

[bespectacledbun]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ a little lovemail for Emma ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

because I went on a little rant on discord recently about how capable she is and how much she’s overlooked by the fandom. too often I see comments saying she’s weak, or incompetent, or a glorified therapist for the princes when she’s not; Emma is honestly incredibly intelligent, but I feel people always forget to consider that she’s a) a commoner b) a woman c) in a medieval fantasy setting, and hold her to modern standards, which is... a little unfair

so I wanted to give her a little love too 💌

she knows three languages, two of which are entirely self taught—court french (Chevalier’s route) and japanese (Rio’s route)

she doesn’t stop there, though; she proceeds to learn even more languages after getting her happily ever after. in Luke’s post-route stories she knows at least 4 languages, and in Chevalier’s post-route stories she knows more than 5 languages and is actively learning more

while I’m on the topic, LITERACY. I think people often forget that “education for all” was not a thing until the 18th century, and before then only merchants and nobility got proper educations. Emma holding a clerical job as a commoner IS an admirable quality for her social status and the time period ikepri is set in

she’s a great entrepreneur. she opens a book-lending business (Chevalier’s route), as well as her own bookstore and a school (both in Clavis’s route)

not only does she pick up on court etiquette and skills (music, dance, diplomacy, politics) in less than a month, she’s also able to learn ministerial duties and absolutely kicks ass at it (Sariel’s route)

she knows how to play not only to her own strengths and weaknesses, but also to that of others around her. she’s able to broker bargains with many of the suitors (Chevalier, Nokto, Silvio, Sariel) across routes to get the information and/or help that she needs

another thing I see often is because she doesn’t say “no” to the princes and that somehow makes her weak, or easier to push around—there’s a world of power difference between her and the suitors. emma being able to hold her ground against the princes as she does, while navigating an entirely new battlefield of court politics and high society, is an excellent testament to her mental fortitude and character

she’s a skilled horseback rider (all routes) and swimmer (Jin’s events) way before she comes to the castle, and she eventually learns martial arts for self defense from Licht (Licht’s events)

she taught herself first aid and nursing, and is proficient enough to become a battle medic in many of the routes (Chevalier, Licht, Yves). emma also goes on to properly learn medicine to become a licensed doctor (Keith’s route)

“Belle” isn’t just a role that Emma plays for a month; it’s a political position with a LOT of power. there is a reason why she observes the princes so closely, there’s a reason why she hides it and why she doesn’t let her feelings for the princes determine whether they are fit to rule or not. she can change Rhodolite’s governmental administration entirely, whether it’s directly, by naming a particular king, and thus a particular set of policies that will affect the entire kingdom— or indirectly, by influencing their views on how to rule. her first priority will always, ALWAYS be protecting her home and her people, regardless of who she’s in a relationship with; Emma is a kingmaker, not arm candy. 

there’s probably more that I can’t remember off the top of my head but my point is—– Emma isn’t just a pretty face and a kind voice to the princes. the reason the suitors fall in love with her isn’t because she’s the therapist who “fixes” them, it’s because she’s intelligent, brave, and a really hard worker. she stands by her convictions and morals no matter who she’s against and is determined to achieve her goals regardless of what stands in her way

is emma a little idealistic about her job and wanting a fairy tale romance? yes. does she try to solve her problems through nonviolence instead of action? also yes. but it doesn’t make her any less of a person or diminish her skills and worth because she’s not ambitious or assertive enough. she’s content with her life and her relationships, but she still strives to improve herself and help the people around her, and I think that makes her both a great character and a great woman

#random ramblings #ikepri emma #emma de villenueve #sorry I always get a little mad when I see ppl complain that she doesn't stand up for herself and act the way a 21st century woman would #because it diminishes a LOT of her strength and intellect and makes it feel like you have to be loud and aggressive to be strong #particularly as a woman in a medieval fantasy setting. it's like measuring a fish by its ability to climb a tree #I will defend her until my dying breath idc emma is incredibly accomplished for a woman of her status in the setting she's currently in #you play a game that’s explicitly a medieval fantasy setting and then act shocked and surprised she acts like a medieval woman?? #the tags a much angrier than theyre supposed to be all of this is is semiserious lmao #but also stop slandering my daughter she's way more capable that ppl give her credit or acknowledgement for

[zorawitch]

the more bad takes i see about leah jeffries's acting in percy jackson the more convinced i become that she and i are the only two people on the planet earth who understand annabeth chase

#yeah her performance lacks emotion in most moments but that's because ANNABETH lacks that emotion #shes a twelve year old neglected child who has a ton of walls up because she measures her self worth through her ability to be a commander #she doesn't show emotion because it actively contradicts and compromises her idea of self-worth. #the difference is that the books are solely from percy's pov and he believes every breath she takes is a blessing to the earth #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #percy series #annabeth chase #annabeth pjo #leah jeffries #that's MY annabeth because I have taste and a good understanding of character and themes #i just think her performance is very layered. #*shrek voice* annabeth is like an onion... #a.t. shrieking #annabeth

[bright-and-burning]

scrolling through the last 22hrs of posts in one sitting and damn if this christian horner situation continues to evolve as i presume it will can we please tag it. please

#not to sound flippant . #but there are posts i saw reblogged like literally fifteen times and not a single one got tagged w something blacklistable #and quite frankly i would like the ability to opt out of things that are *shocker* reminiscent of my own traumatic experiences #in male dominated fields. thank u <3 #not a specific call out and mutuals w very measured and intelligent responses u have my love #and ur thoughts have made me feel better/less alone/etc #but damn the posts w like 200 notes that are just screenshots of shitty tweets… can we please tag . please #christian horner //

[izzyspussy]

i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore

#jack facts #people be banging on about empathy this empathy that #and like sure maybe people have a measurable capacity for it but i can tell you what #that sure as fuck don't mean any fucking one of them ever bothers to make use of it when it matters lol #and i mean on the other hand it's hard to conceptualize how you would feel going through something you've never experienced before #i just wish people would be AWARE of the fact they don't know! #or like that there's a difference between ''i can't afford anything but instant ramen'' and ''i can't get any food or water'' #or a difference between being freaked out by spiders and having clinical arachnophobia #or a difference between ''my loved one is sick and i'm really worried about them'' and ''my loved one is dying in front of me'' #etc etc etc etc etc #anyway the longer i live the more i'm convinced that empathy is a garbage concept #and actually a more reliable way to act with true compassion is through at least some capacity for relative objectivity #the ability to say ''i don't know how that feels and i cannot understand it through comparison'' and to be able AND WILLING #to take people's self reports on their feelings thought processes or lackthereof in good faith and with sympathy #and also the ability to acknowledge that doing a bad thing for good reasons does not negate the bad thing being bad #but also should and does change what consequences are appropriate and/or most effective #and also like............... things people do in desperation or other irrational states do not represent Who They Are As A Person #or what it's like to hang out with them in a day to day situation #another thing i keep getting more and more aware of is like. if y'all can't even handle an irrational or impulsive choice that does harm #done by an otherwise ''good'' person under short term desperate situations #that they then do their best to reduce the harm of after the situation is over #i can not even imagine how absolutely unforgiving you must be of anyone who has delusions #and i mean real delusions and real psychosis not the hyperbolic babytalk version lol #like i don't think most of you even know what the fuck a delusion even is the way you act about things as simple & straightforward as like #fear. hunger. pain. #absolutely fucking exhausting

[divinekangaroo]

a home painted bright with blood and thorns - pettiot - Peaky Blinders (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Ch 1 | Ch 2 | Ch 3 | Ch 4 | Ch 5 | (COMPLETE)

After the S4-S6 election/marriage, pre-S5. Some months into Tommy and Lizzie's marriage.

This frequently absent father and husband considers that he often does his best work in extreme circumstances: time pressure, resource constraints, situational uncertainty, high stakes, and gross emotional wounding. He knows what to do, doesn't he?

No matter what sort of internal spiralling disaster cascade he's busily ignoring inside. No matter what badly considered spur of the moment decisions he makes to get through the moment that he might pay for later. No matter what—

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Tommy Shelby/Lizzie Stark, Charles Shelby, Ruby Shelby, Arthur Shelby, Frances, Various Shelby Household Maids, Charles Strong, Cyril the Dog, | Domesticity, Intimacy, Menstruation, Bodily Fluids, Bodily Solids, Bodily Functions, Babies, Lactation, Mental Health Issues, Repression, Abusive Families (Past), Attempts at Communicating, Trying Hard, Family Trauma, Family Feels, Nail-Biting, Household Dynamics, Absent Father, Avoidance, Deflection, Trying Sooooooooooo Hard, Distress, Comfort Sex, Dysfunctional Family, Contraception, Spiralling, Intrusive Thoughs, Mild Paranoia, Grief, The Lasting Legacy of Catholicism, Fear of Mental Illness

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#peaky blinders #my writing #peaky blinders fanfic #tommy x lizzie #charles shelby #ruby shelby #arthur shelby #Guest Starring the Ghosts Of (Mrs Shelby)(Alfie Solomons)(Grace Shelby)(all them other hauntings on the January) #the many times i weave sabini's assault into things; of all the horrible matters inflicted on tommy it's *that* one which burns me #i think it's because S2 is where the things done to him and that he is forced to do collapse the possibility of his recovery #so it's almost as if childhood was being forced to line up for war; wwi was being forced to climb the cliff; #s2 is where he's kicked off the cliff despite him clinging on all season; then it's all hitting the rocks on the way down from then #this was a fascinating writing experience because i handwrote it all first in one week late Feb then did a type-up and detailed edit #still contemplating what this experience has taught me about writing mediums/forms #certainly i could not do it with longer chapters but i *could* do it with a longer story #seems 2500 words makes a decent scene/chapter size of managable editability on a progressive basis #i know lots of fellow writers do the 'why do you talk so much about wordcount just write' but when time is limited the size/format- #-significantly impacts my ability to be productive. like the difference between doing a full scale wall mural versus a handsketch i need to #-match the form to the available window to produce the form #(remembering that one time i did a full wall mural: duration measured by all 6 seasons of X-Files running in the background whilst doing it

[bloodstonefemme]

The Eternal Alchemy told me it was my turn to be the great cosmic mechanism 

#gw2 #guild wars 2 #asura #gw2 asura #guild wars 2 asura #gw2 oc #guild wars 2 oc #this is my to measure my abilities sharingan rugrats inquest #inquest asura #bsf art #inquest

[1o1percentmilk]

goof ass game that i have to play for an interview

#has anyone else played the game they make u do for the roblox internship application. well this one isn't for roblox but same idea #it's to ''measure our cognitive abilities'' #bro i already bust my ass for the online interview what more do you wANT #its ok im gonna have fun. im gonna slay at digitspan

[vwritesaus]

talking with @astriefer about Thomas and Alastair being excellent cooks/having a love of cooking. i mean, Thomas has Sophie Lightwood nee Collins who is in her own right a FANTASTIC COOK, and how can Alastair not be? Risa is right there.

however... Alastair being a great cook but a terrible baker? that's actually so funny to me.

it's perfect because cooking is based on intuition as well as technique and flavour profiling, and if you do it enough, you just cook without thinking or measuring anything (teaspoons who? just a handful, or a dash, or this looks enough).

but baking. baking you need to measure everything down to the last gram/ounce or there'll be hell to pay (not that i personally measure out vanilla extract or teaspoons of seasoning i.e. cinnamon like cmon :'D)

Alastair not measuring anything, just chucking it all in a bowl like yeah that looks fine, only to then get a cake that's so dense or biscuits that he added too much honey to and now they're swimming in a pool of melted sugar on the tray. just him staring at it like what'd i do wrong??

can picture the conversation between him and Thomas like

Thomas: did you follow the recipe? Alastair: of course Thomas: did you measure everything as it says in the recipe? Alastair: Alastair: yes Thomas: you liar! i saw you dump nearly half a bag of flour! the recipe calls for 1 and 1/2 cups! Thomas: and don't even get me started on the insane amount of honey you put in your dough. 3 tablespoons, Alastair. that's all you needed, not half the jar Alastair: who has time for measuring?? see, this is why cooking is better. who has time for baking, seriously...?

says the man who, also, makes exceptional nan-e barbari/Persian-style flatbread.

#the shadowhunter chronicles #tsc #the last hours #tlh #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #thomastair #thomastair headcannons #headcannons #alastair being a disaster baker while his boyfriend has the supernatural ability to do it perfectly every single time #the concept lives rent free in my head #also thomas trying to get alastair into the habit of diligently measuring everything?? #much harder than you'd think #two stubborn mules in the kitchen trying to bake at the same time = a recipe for disaster

[eggy-tea]

This fucking thing. You have no idea. 

About two months ago, I took this thing into work. When I was done with it, I brought it back home and put it away… kind of. 

See, "taking it to work" involved:

remembering I owned it in the first place

remembering I needed it at work once I was back home

remembering to put it in my bag to bring to work

remembering to bring it out of the bag to use at work

actually using the damn thing

remembering to put it back in my bag to bring home

remembering to take it out of my bag once I got home, and

putting it back where it belonged

Where it belongs is in a tool bag on a shelf above our dryer. The shelf is slightly above eye level, and the tool bag sits near the back where I need to reach a bit to get it. The tool bag location makes sense, because it’s something I use often enough that I want it visible, but not so often that I want it in the way of other things. That, of course, means that it's mildly annoying to get to.

So over the course of about a week I managed to get through steps 1-7, but when it came to step 8 (putting it away properly), well… I was tired.  I had a lot of other things on my mind. So I put it on the shelf near the tool bag, because taking the tool bag out added five more steps to the process (take bag, place on surface, unzip bag, place screwdriver in bag, zip bag up, return bag to shelf vs put screwdriver on shelf) and I just couldn’t right then. 

And so it sat there. For like two months. And every time I saw it I’d think, “Right, I should put that away,” and every time I couldn’t, because Too Much. And now, on top of the task itself, there was the Emotional Context of it sitting there, weighing on me. It had become the Screwdriver of Bad Feelings. Every time I noticed it while doing the laundry, I would feel ever so slightly like shit for not just putting it away already it will literally take fifteen seconds, but it never bothered me enough in the moment to flip the switch in my brain and force me to do something about it. 

Until today. Today, I got out a different screwdriver from the tool bag for a different task. When I was done, I :

put away that screwdriver

put the tool bag back

noticed the Screwdriver of Bad Feelings was still there

took the tool bag back down

unzipped it again

put the Bad Feelings screwdriver in the bag,

zipped the bag back up, and

continued on to the next task. 

Like it was easy. Like it was nothing. Because today, it was. 

What was so special about today? Ritalin. That’s it. That’s all. 

Don’t ever let anyone fucking tell you that ADHD isn’t real, that executive dysfunction isn’t a real disability. Because without something extra (high levels of stress, pressure, anxiety… or meds) to make my brain do the thing? I cannot do the thing. I am unable. If that's not the definition of disability, I don't know what is.

#personal #long post #adhd #ok to rb #for MONTHS i could not do this simple day-to-day task #i wanted to! i knew how! i was physically capable! but i *could not do it* #if i could have i would have! #the 'why' was different but the outcome was the exact same as if my arms weren't able to lift or my hands to grasp the zipper and pull #it will forever make me angry that the healthier solution - at least for me - is SO SIMPLE and yet it is so hard to access #because fucking neurotypical folks might abuse the meds that make my brain work #in order to give themselves an edge WHEN THEY'RE ALREADY PLAYING ON EASY MODE #and like. i always feel vaguely bad complaining about this because i don't even have it that bad #my husband's adhd is noticeably more disabling than mine #i have worked with kids whose attention spans could be measured in seconds #whose ability levels dropped at least three grade levels on bad days and who could barely stand to live inside their own brains #and that was never me #but honestly that just makes me ANGRIER #because if i'm dealing with *this* then HOW MUCH WORSE IS IT FOR THEM

[shiawasekai]

if your oc's had to choose a song to sing for karaoke what would they choose?

I'm uniquely unsuited to answer this (the person who does NOT do character playlists, or playlists honestly). I'm very much a "voice is just an instrument" kinda listener for reasons that don't matter atm, so finding a specific song that would suit them is... hard. I would have to care about lyrics actively to tell. I... Huh, don't.

I also don't want to have you waiting whilst I hunt for lyrics for who knows how long. I'll be out home all day.

So instead of specific songs I'll try to go for the vibe, I guess???

For Rashmav, he has a beautiful voice. He definitely is the kind to mostly sing old vintage songs, if we are talking strictly about western music I see him favouring something jazzy or ballads. If we are including eastern, he would definitely sing some folkish Chinese ballad I have no question about it.

For Nela... Definitely something in the rock/symphonic metal genres. Definitely the sort of song you wouldn't expect ever coming from her mouth at a first glance. Just a tiny bit Angry At The World because my girl got a lot of pent-up frustration.

#you would be impressed by my ability to Not pay attention to lyrics #it's definitely easier when you're not a native english speaker ngl #when you don't care AND have to make an effort you tend to Not #ask meme #I was raised listening at celtic music and opera too it's not like I was expected to understand the lyrics of those #then metal thanks bro for that #I measure music on how interesting/beautiful I find the sound of it #there are very few exceptions to the rule

[daz4i]

my toxic trait is that sometimes instead of searching for a specific location in google maps i will "go" there by hand. just to feel smth

#only in cities i know well tho ofc #when i need a more general location tho like a country or a big city or area etc i will always use this method #to measure my abilities. 🧐

[mashkaroom]

Slowly but surely, my hands ARE unsyncing on the accordion! I started with just playing the 1st and 5th on the right hand, which meant that though the two hands were moving on the same beats, the right hand didn’t ALWAYS move when the left hand did* -- also, they didn’t necessarily move in the same direction. I’m fairly comfortable with this now, and I’m trying to move on to melodies, which before I could not do at ALL. Now, I can play (somewhat accurately) play melodies with the right hand, as long as the beats perfectly subdivide into 2 with the accompaniment lol. So if I’m doing quarter notes with left hand, I can do a melody consisting of eight notes through whole notes, but a dotted eight is, as of yet, beyond my capabilities

*for those who don’t know how an accordion is set up (presumably most of you?) -- some columns of buttons on the left hand side are single notes, and some are chords, and each row is a 5th higher than the one below. so let’s say you want to play the tonic, chord, 5th, chord progression that’s the classic accordion sound for D minor, you (and by “you”, I mean “I”, it’s possible other people do it differently?) place one finger on the D button, one on the A button (which is directly above the D button), and one on the D minor button, which is in the same row as the D button. Did that make any sense lol? The point is that when I’m only playing 1st and 5th on the right hand, they hit the keys at the same time as the left hand hits the 1st and 5th, but they stay still when the left hand is hitting the chord button. When I started playing, even this was tricky for me! Not sure why this was so much more difficult than, say, piano, with which I never had this problem -- though to be honest, I feel like it might just be an age thing rather than any particular quality of the instrument. It might just be much harder to unsync once you age out of some critical period. Though there’s also the fact that with accordion you’re pulling it side to side, which is an extra factor -- at the beginning, I struggled to unsync my wrist from the fingers of the same hand lol. i feel like this is an extremely unclear explanation for anyone who isn’t already pretty familiar with the set-up of an accordion, the point is i’m making progress and i’m pleased with that :)

#evil dotted eight in ale brider #oyy oyy oyy oyyy oy oyy #i can only play it as oyy oyy oyy oyyyy oy oyy #my rhythmic abilities in general are really weak #but also in lute class we're playing a polyphonic song in which the parts don't line up and i've gotten sooo good at counting #under my mask my mouth is fully making the shapes of the numbers the entire way through lol #through practice all things are possible so jot that down #the cool thing about both these instruments is that i went in not entirely without the desire to be good at them #but with that not being the primary goal. and so instead of measuring myself against what i think my progress should be #it's just kind of a pleasant surprise when in addition to having fun i also become good at something #thank you to *checks notes* competitive latin for teaching me this mindset

[fatechica]

If saying "El? It's me, it's Mike, it's day 352" it's not yelling "I love you", I don't know what it is.

Mike is the king of saying "I love you" without saying "I love you"!!!! And I'll stand by that for the rest of my goddamn life!!!!!

He! Counted! The! Days! Since! He! Last! Saw! Her!

A 13 year old boy FUCKING COUNTED THE DAYS FOR ALMOST A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR. IM JUST

IF THAT'S NOT WHAT A PERSON IN LOVE DOES, THEN LOVE DOESN'T EXIST AND THAT'S THAT.

#stranger things #mileven #my ability to be calm and measured when it comes to these two #is 1000% non existent #these two love each other so much and i will never recover from it