#But nobody will fucking teach me

[possuminabathtub]

I don’t know how to smile.

Not properly at least. I always smile too wide, show too many teeth, my eyes close too much and my cheeks crease and wrinkle. A big smile means joy, right? Until it turns garish

Imagine being told that, Imagine knowing that you can’t smile properly, because you hold too much joy, too much excitement, showing too many teeth and too much too much too much, always just a little bit too much

But nobody will teach you how to smile

#Idk wtf this is #I do look truly awful in photographs because I don’t know how to smile #But nobody will fucking teach me #Which is irritating as shit #Do I practice in the mirror? Wtf #neurodivergent #I could turn this into a poem if I felt like it #But nah the themes are already here i think #idk it’s late and I’m tired #I’ll delete this in the morning if I still hate it #vent post

[tectoniccyborg]

Newest drawing!! I will never not draw Ashley where I can

#the boys #the boys tv #homelander #the boys homelander #the boys ashley #ashley barrett #she has seen that scene in Saltburn #they watched it together to teach him the zeitgeist that he refuses to read every month #why the fuck did nobody tell me drawing was easy when you use reference??? #I’ve been so jealous of so many people who can draw him so he looks like him and the second I use reference it’s easy as FUCK #this is ridiculous

[1mnobodywhoareyou]

let's kill the idea that someone's opinion, knowledge, or lived experience is more or less valuable based on how old they are, yeah?

#god the way we treat teenagers #(and old folks) #ageism #childism #this dismissal of “oh of COURSE you think that - must have 14 in bio” absolutely enrages me #does lived experience teach *some* people “more” things? #yeah #but there are plenty of people who have lived LONG lives and hold shit opinions #and there are plenty of young people who hold incredible insight and perspective #not to mention that like... lived experience matters #and some teenagers have fucking BEEN THROUGH SHIT #maybe consider listening to them some time #ANYWAY #nobody rants

[friendlyorange]

The weirdest thing about going to college for teaching in the united states is the giant CANYON of disconnect between what we're taught and what we actually do in a classroom.

like we're taught how to diversify methods of instruction in order to most equitably reach the diverse populations of our classrooms and inspire them to do their best writing/reading/speaking (im an English teaching major) but then in reality the students in your classroom are insanely below the level they need to be at in order to engage with age-appropriate lessons for them

we're taught how to take common core standards and transform them into meaningful and deep lessons but we're only given 45-90 mins of planning per day (if we're lucky) and the rest needs to be done outside of school or after hours if you can't do it quickly enough, and teachers are always expected to do research outside of the classroom, as well as collaboration, tweaking of lesson plans, etc.

we're told that students crave learning and they crave fun projects and they crave kinesthetic exercises, but then when I try those things in the classroom everyone complains and halfasses their participation, and im lucky if half of them actually pass something in, whether its an assignment, a test, a project, or an assessment.

we're told that we need to have open communication not only between teachers but between teachers and admin and parents, but then im lucky if one of the ten parents I email about their kid failing emails me back, and im luckier if admin takes a behaviorally disturbed student out of my class for insulting me or other students.

like... i guess my point is that teaching education is so idyllic and utopian, and actual classrooms are a goddamn nightmare of behavioral issues, lack of time/resources, exhausting interactions with students who don't want to be there or participate, and insane expectations from students, parents, and admin alike.

Like... no wonder the teaching field is hemorrhaging teachers right now. How can ANYONE work under the insane conditions we're forced to try and teach in. I'm so tired and I'm not even out of school yet. It's actually psychotic.

#education #teaching #english teaching #teaching issues #education issues #new hampshire education #ive had students verbally abuse me until ive had a breakdown #ive had dozens of students with a 10% or less for the semester #i had a student get arrested and he still got to graduate #somethings gotta give or nobody will want to teach anymore #this is actually insane the amount we're expected to do #im sick of reading the same 5 things in all my textbooks #like clearly this shit isn't actually preparing me for what its really like #this is for teaching like... the best of the best students #what about inner city kids?? #cause thats where i live #and its a fucking nightmare #what am i supposed to do with my degree now honestly #im so tired #anyways #rant over

[evafhernee]

I love love love that the ccs will be forced to use the translator in order to communicate with the new ccs joining qsmp because that’s what it’s there for!!!!! it’s a translator!!! use it to translate, even if both of you are able to speak the same language!

I don’t see enough people use the translator, especially when the ccs are both able to speak (usually) english, and it’s still great that they can speak easier if they speak the same language, but the language barrier is one of the causes for the creation of the qsmp! Let the language barrier be a barrier in the first place, and let the translator do the work it was meant to do!

Let people who physically can’t speak the same language interact! It’s part of what makes qsmp qsmp, and even though it has impacted hugely just from adding people who generally create content and talk in different languages, I do think it somewhat lacks in the people speaking different languages category, because while that is true, it is also somewhat untrue in that all of the ccs can speak one of the same language (usually english), even if they’re not a natural at it!

Now, that’s not a bad thing at all! But, it does blur the speaking different languages problem that was meant to occur in qsmp. They speak different languages! Let them speak whatever language they want and let the translator do the work! Again, that is what it is there for! It is a translator! (I’m looking at you twitter)

And even if it takes a million repeats of the same sentence for someone to finally get what another person is trying to say, a hundred fuck-ups of the translation or a thousand language barrier/cultural miscommunications, again, qsmp was made for this to happen! It was made so people who come from different backgrounds and are usually unable to interact because of cultural/language barriers can interact, whether it start out negative or positive!

And I trust them (the ccs and fans) to communicate if controversy/confusion happens culturally and language-wise, and (hopefully) for the fans to not turn anything minor** into a huge drama, so I am extremely excited to see the ccs be forced into using the translator!

#I love love love when people use the translator so much like YOU CAN SPEAK DIFFERENT LANGUAGES AND STILL UNDERSTAND EACHOTHER #I just find it so fucking cool as someone who can only speak english fluently #qsmp #qsmp 2024 #I love hearing people talk in their native langauges even if I don’t understand shit it’s like woah you can speak and understand this whole #vocabulary without a second thought and I can’t??? Speak to me more in hopes that I will someday because I WANT TO #I want to learn languages so bad but I am caught between two to learn first because i cannot speak my own secondary language that more than #50% of my relatives CAN so I’m like I should learn that first but also spanish french and portuguese is RIGHT THERE and the one I should #learn first is so much harder to learn because of accessibility to lessons and just people who can teach it in general and also school lol #I’m not gonna say the language because I’m 90% sure nobody will know what it is but it is a tonal language which makes it much harder to #learn

[blue-eli]

Ink October day ten: Dichotomy

A division into two contrasting things or parts.

The phase of the moon, Mercury, or Venus when half of the disk is illuminated.

Branching characterized by successive forking into two approximately equal divisions.

#luxord #kingdom hearts luxord #kh luxord #luxord kingdom hearts #Luxord kh #kingdom hearts #kh #Luxord my beloved #been playing Days and it’s really warmed me up to him. he talks absolute bullshit it’s so funny #he’s also just nice??? everyone else Roxas gets sent on missions with who isn’t part of his trio is at least a little mean to him #but Luxord is just chill. sure he talks gamblers bullshit but he doesn’t really get impatient with Roxas or anything it’s kinda sweet #like he likes battling people because everything’s a game to him and he loves games and gambles #but other then that? I’m convinced the only reason he’s with the bad guys is because he’s a nobody and he’s morally grey enough to be chill #with the bullshit the orgs pull. he’s just cool with this #who is his somebody. what was his name. who is he. was that him who was driving Yozora??? what the fuck #he would teach the kiddos how to play poker I think. #so glad the one world he goes to with Roxas is Wonderland I think that’s very fitting. card man in the card person place. #also I feel like his bullshit gambler logic works out in wonderland #he just takes this shit in stride

[thewhizzyhead]

recently I've been seeing a shit ton of discourse about Princess Bubblegum on twt and how some people kinda view her as some sort of irredeemable bitch who does not deserve to be treated kindly by marceline or anyone and like,,,though couple of pb's actions are certainly morally questionable at best and outright unethical at worst,, people must know that adventure time has like 10 main seasons worth of pb character plot right? and like,,,doesn't the whole "we were messed-up kids who taught ourselves how to live" verse from the monster song like literally sum up why PB was the way she was until she decided to outgrow that-

#like i dunno isnt the whole point with like the adventure time main 3 (marcy bonnie and finn) #them learning how to live in the midst of isolation in a literal apocalypse- #like i dunno i havent even watched the entirety of adventure time but isnt that like a legit point the show made #which is why at the start of the show all 3 were kinda in weird places cause who else would teach them a solid moral code #who else would teach them to grow up at the start but themselves? #(i mean finn had jake and marcy had her mom and simon but still like u get what i mean) #its even worse on bubblegum's side like sHE HAD NOBODY SO NO WONDER SHE VIEWS CANDY PEOPLE AS THE LITERAL SIMS #and it is only with the help of her friends does she learn to like kinda deconstruct her micromanagerial dictatorial ways so like- #i DUNNO THE PB TWITTER DISCOURSE IS ANNOYING ME KASI LIKE MOST OF THE CLIPS THEY SHIT ON #R OUT OF CONTEXT #But anyways i'll save my 'PB is one of adventure time's most morally questionable characters aND THATS THE POINT' essay for another day #adventure time #princess bubblegum #marceline abadeer #but then again i cant like really fully defend pb with a fucking powerpoint and everything cause i havent watched the entirety of AT yet #so ummm save the debates for another reblog my dudes 😭

[sunnibits]

he literally. fucking. he wants to be better but he doesn’t know how. he wants romance deep down but he doesn’t know how to be romantic. he’s in love but he can’t even recognize it. he wants to be softer but he’s all hard edges and he just doesn’t know how!! he doesn’t know how to make himself gentle!!! he doesn’t fucking know!!!!

#and here comes this GUY who just knows everything and is everything he never even knew Ed wanted because he never TOLD him #and he thought he fucking NEEDED to be sharp and hard and cold like a shard of glass because nobody fucking TOLD him there was another way #nobody ever bothered to teach him how to be tender and Ed presumably never asked for it so how was he fucking supposed to KNOW. #how was he supposed to know!! how to be any different!!!!! #how could Ed possibly ever choose him now that he has all the tenderness he wants and Izzy is too mangled to ever be soft again!!!!! #how!!!! #he’s fucking lost and he doesn’t even know how to fight this battle!!! #izzy hands #ofmd #sorry but cons comments have been making me INSANE #and it’s 2am and I just can’t handle this right now #he literally wants to be better. he wants to love he wants to be loved but he doesn’t know how…. #something something when you train your dog for the pit fights then leave it on the street to go adopt a pretty little lapdog instead #I’ve just. had many discussions with my friend ab this concept and it murders me every tim wand cons fucking comments are just making it #so much worse

[crumbleclub]

Mike trying to rationalize why Henry is okay with his dad hurting him, even when Michael isn't okay with him hurting his siblings. Even when nobody is okay with Michael hurting his siblings.

It wasn't as bad, right? He never laid a finger on them. They were only words.

Maybe it's because Mike is older. This bleeds into his protests, his haphazard attempts to protect. "Please, he's only six." Don't hurt him. Don't hurt him the way that you hurt me.

William finds this entertaining. He makes note of these things, wonders if he'd respond differently if William tried something else.

Maybe it's because William is an adult. He learns not to trust anyone older than him, but to let them do whatever they want. He learns to freeze; to shut down.

This makes him an easy target later on.

Is it because Michael deserves it? After Evan dies, he's sure that must be it. Willian knew what he was, and he only gave him what he already had coming. Michael was a murderer, after all. He deserved everything anyone might do to him.

It was his own fault.

#really hinting at the plot point in ch 4 of blips here #i kind of talk around it bc people are cagier w that subject than physical abuse #but it's very important to me that you know it happened as a culmination of mike's conditioning #to just shut down and let people do whatever they want #it 100% wouldn't have happened without william being the way that he was. even though he wasn't present #and wouldn't be likely to do something of that nature himself #it's also related to michael growing up with a well meaning friend who doesn't respect his boundaries #as sort of a cautionary tale to actually teach kids these things #nobody commented on my themes yet so im just fucking telling you all lmao #fnaf #michael afton #william afton #character study #sort of #character meta #also sort of #mike's actual writing #cw abuse #implied csa #with the easy target line #and the ending line

[nat-20s]

If ur generally perceived as a woman I can't recommend looking a bit strange and off putting and maybe a lil ugly highly enough. 'you don't get harassed every time you leave the house??' no I'm fat have Milo thatch glasses and generally give off the vibe of caring too much about isopods. People either actively avoid me or think I'm the coolest bitch in this grocery store. Middle aged and older women fucking ADORE me they'll watch me manically solve a puzzle and call me an inspiration. Of course I'm not getting catcalled

#OBVIOUSLY I AM NOT!!! SAYING THAT PEOPLE'S CHOICES MEAN THAT THEY SHOULD GET CAT CALLED AND HARASSED!! #NOBODY SHOULD BE CATCALLED AND HARASSED!!! #TEACH PEOPLE NOT TO LOOK MORE ACCEPTABLE BUT TO NOT FUCKING HARASS OTHERS!! #i am however saying that generally speaking being slightly strange and off putting and ugly makes ur day to day business easier #I'll never get three marriage proposals in one day and thats so nice #on one hand basically nobody hits on me :( on the other hand nobody hits on me :)!!! #u know?

[shy-little-lesbian]

Hi hi 🤗

Welcome to my blog! My blog is nsfw so it’s obv 18+. If I can’t find your age after 10 seconds on your blog please leave 🥰

I tag things randomly and they don’t always make sense but I’ll put some below. They’re really just for me to scroll through my own blog when I’m in one of those mood :p

Pls spam like and spam reblog and message me first 🥰 I’m a ball of nervousness cosplaying as a functioning adult. Try not to hate me if I suck at replying

✨ turn ons✨

Mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy

Tiddies

Body worship

Humping, especially thighs and shoes ☺️

Praise, omfg can never get enough

Just a liiittle bit of intox

Corruption

Pain 😳

Getting asks 🥰

Squirting

Somno

Giving oral

Being called angel, baby, babygirl, darling, doll, little girl, princess, young lady (HELLO ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL MEEEE)

❌ turn offs❌

All the -phobics and -isms

Being called kiddo

💩 and 🤢 and 🩸

Dms from men lol follow or reblog idc but pls don’t talk to me

Humping stuffies. Idk why y’all, they’re my best friends and they’re too innocent for that

Either of those list can change, that’s kinda like the point of this blog

‼️ sex without consent isn’t sex it’s rape

‼️ kink without aftercare isn’t kink it’s abuse

‼️PUT. YOUR. AGE. ON. YOUR. PAGE.

#lol :p #tiddies!! #oh 😳 #a lil somno never hurt nobody 🥰 #i wanna be bullied a lil #can you tell i’m in the mood for a spanking? #my mommy issues are showing #pls step on meee #audio #happy place 😌 #ugh i love women #if it will make mommy happy #wish that were me #so pretty!! #pretty ropes #kink edu #neeeddyyyyy #please 🥺 #breed 👏🏾 me 👏🏾 #me a virgin: #teach me? 🥺 #something about ball gags and kissing just #mommy wanda #vids #fuck 😩 #ask game #oral fixation going crazy tn #mocking hits different 🥰 #🥴 #yours <3

[bobzora]

what do i have to do to get more people to play persona 2. you guys would love persona 2 i promise. it's a little annoying to play but it's worth it guys. it's worth it. tatsuya. trust me guys.

#bobtalk #innocent sin set up to eternal punishment gut punch <- only persona game that made me full on cry. lmao #set that shit to easy grab a walkthrough and blaze through those dungeons for peak story. trust. #use save states. nobody needs to know! #i can teach you the emulator casino trick for basically infinite money....trust. trust. #i can help you set up the emulator in the first place...what do i have to do...ill do it... #do you guys like...repressed memories? gut wrenching sibling relationships? rumors made reality? #the lowkey feeling of dread sometimes felt in 5r's thirdsem but Way Way Way Worse? the unrelenting passage of time? #fucked up and evil god? daddy issues? identity issues? love was there and it mattered? theres lgbt rep if thats what it takes. #uh. k/atsuya suou moe....? #ok. um. playing 1 first is probably very well advised but well i didnt do that. i probably shouldve. but. LOL #trust. trust. trust. #p2posting #<-i guess.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

The painting I've been working on for way too long has started to look like shit and all I want to do is punch it to death and then burn the remains

#wasted the last six hours on a trash painting just making it worse #just a big reminder that I paid way too much for an art degree that didn't teach me shit #why do I keep trying to do portraits when I am terrible at them #garbage artist #I've had to cover it with a pillowcase so I can't look at it #honesty thank god I never had the balls to finish my great big portrait piece because i would have fucked that up too #i am incapable of not fucking things up #that's why nobody wants to be around me #the self-loathing is deep tonight #if someone also wanted to punch me to death and burn the remains I'd be pretty open to it #fuck i was also supposed to take a new set tonight but I got so wrapped up in painting and now it's too late and I have to go to bed soon

[mephorash]

what happened to all the shit you can buy in the duolingo store

this is all I can buy now... I have over 4k gems but sure I'll double 50. why not.

#buzgie ❁ #i want to pick up enough russian to make learning on my own easy because starting from literally nothing is hell by yrself #and duolingo is good for teaching you the donde estas la bibilotecha shit #also I need to refresh my finnish and spanish #i have no personal interest in spanish but im literally hispanic and live in the USA so i should maintain you know... #anyways all this is to say fuck duolingo use anki and a textbook once you seriously get into learning #my finnish textbook is too advanced for me rn though :') #hard to motivate myself with nobody to practice with and no interest in living in finland

[scaredsofmyguitar]

so the girl who doesn’t even prebus / bus her tables is allowed to skip being a trainee because she was already a server at a different location (THAT SHE GOT FIRED FROM!!!) but I’m not allowed to be a server because I’m “not ready yet”

#they’re not even telling me WHAT i need to do to be good enough #their first excuse was we don’t need servers at [restaurant 1] so we’ll put you at [restaurant 3] #but then the manager there says i’m not ready yet #and when i am back at [restaurant 1] it’s just to be a busser #BUT I STILL TAKE FUCKING ORDERS #literally the only difference between me and the other servers #is that i still haven’t gotten the hang of opening / closing #and that’s because nobody fucking teaches me!!!! #i need to apply to other places #venting* #jo.txt

[piplupod]

re: prev post, just an anecdote of my family's bs

i remember when i was trying to have a conversation w my family, esp my brother, a while back (last year) about the prev post's topic, and ohhh my fucking god. it was one of the worst convos I've ever had with them. my brother was whining about how difficult it was to not be racist and to know what qualifies as racist and what's "okay to say" etc (along with ableism, but racism was the main point of that convo at that point), so I said he just needed to go searching out some musicians and podcasters and streamers of colour and you'd pretty quickly diversify your media intake and pick up good habits and good viewpoints just through that one simple action. it's like,,, really not that hard to find POC to subscribe to/follow if you do a simple look-around in your usual spaces u spend time in on the internet.

and he said, and I quote, "i'm going to be honest, i just don't care enough to do that" and yet he had just been whining about how hard it is to not be racist and how he was stressed because people kept telling him he was being racist,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, head in my hands !!!!!! he went on to explain just how little he actually cared and how it seemed like too much work to him even though he'd literally just been complaining to me for like 20 full minutes about how he was so stressed and didn't like people telling him he was racist.

like i know what he wanted to hear was "its okay if ur racist, im sure ur just doing ur best :)" but i'm not going to fucking say that to him. even if it would make me safer in this hell house, i am not going to fucking affirm anyone's comfort in being racist.

#this family drives me nuts. i lost all respect for my brother that day ngl #and he has gone on to be continually racist and brush off anything i've brought up in family conversations about racism #like that one youtuber that he and another brother love so much that is white and bastardizing an indigenous spirit for profit #he got so fucking mad when i said the words ''white saviourism'' fdsjjkl i saw smth in him just snap when i said that about the youtuber #and then he uses ''tribal savages'' in his DnD campaigns and i'm just....... so tired. having to listen to him excitedly explain his- #-new campaign that he came up with and he's yet again using the tribal savage horrific stereotypes #and if i say shit about that then i get yelled at by the rest of the family and made to feel like im oversensitive and crazy #anyways. wah wah poor me etc. im sure this is somewhat normal and nowhere near the difficulties other ppl face #i just rly hate trying to slooowly teach them and suggest the tiniest steps towards being less racist and they get so fucking angry at me #im still smarting over yesterday bc i had to hold my tongue through a lot of shit and i feel awful about it #i want to teach them so they aren't going thru the world hurting ppl but i have to weigh my safety against it #and tbh they are not receptive anyways so i'd just be throwing away my safety for no real progress w them #but i feel like i have to try idk !!!! if i don't try then nobody in this family has any real hope of improving !!! #god knows theyre not going to take the initiative themselves. thats been proven repeatedly over my goddamn lifetime #sigh. head in my hands. tearing my hair out. etc etc etc #pippen needs 2nd breakfast