#Gabi protection squad

[touchlikethesun]

if i think about gabi braun for too long i start to cry she is a textbook case of an indoctrinated child soldier, her fiery righteousness and seeming bloodlust reminds us of eren - but that’s not actually who she is. when you strip away years of propaganda, she is a girl who loves a boy more than she thinks she should and a girl that will stand in the way of fire with no regard for her own chances of survival because she wants so genuinely to protect people. everyone hates her so much but she’s just a kid, a kid trying to do what she thinks is right what she’s been taught is right god i love her so much

#i am legit sobbing #which may be irrational #but i have such a soft spot for girls that everyone hates okay sue me #i am the president of the gabi braun protection squad #gabi braun #snk #she’s so much like sasha and it’s not fair that people hate her for killing sasha #don’t you see that that was kinda the point of her character??? #sasha wouldn’t have hesitated in taking out a threat and neither did gabi #gabi just didn’t have the info we the audience did #you should read every word above as if someone is saying them they gasping sobs bc that is how im writing them

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Gabimaru & Chobei; Their Humanity & Some Parallels

Both Gabimaru and Chobei are one of the most dangerous, strongest, violent criminals of the story. Even though, they dont interact much because they have their own story and journey, its like there is this Aza brothers and Gabi-gang. Be carefull for the spoilers :)))).

1- Humanity of Two Crazy Savages;

Those two characters are easiely one of the most interesting characters in series because of humanity in them, despite the fact that they are bloody criminals and what makes it better is its different for both of them.

With Gabimaru, every interaction and connection he made with others shows a different side of him. First, with his wife Yui, first person who ever kind to him and we get cute, blushy side of Gabi and later with Sagiri, she saves his life and despite the fact that her job is killing him, she empathise with him as person, not only it helps her to grow better and she also helps him to grow too, they connected deeply. And his interaction with Yuzuriha is sassy and they dont really get along but it still feels geniue, like sibling relationship. And with Mei, he decides to help that little girl because he remembered that she was treated horribly, just like Yui was and he empathize her desire to live normal life which is something he desperately wants too. And with other comprades he made with Tamiya, Fuchi and others, he naturaly gets along with him because why not? They dont have any reason to fight and all so we get this another side of Gabi with the connections he made with multiple people. We get version of him being flustered, sassy, grumpy, nekomaru etc, its fun to explore of him because he is not hollow. And the fact that he is small guy makes it funnier, lol.

With Chobei, another criminal we explore his humanity, during the story but in opposite way because Chobei doesnt really care about other people the way Gabi did. He has no interest in them and he has no motivation to change and to him, he already has everything he needs. Power, respect, Toma. He is egoistical barbaric guy who can easiely get along with others but he simply dont want to so what makes his character interesting isnt the ‘interaction’ he had with multiple people, it is just one person, his little brother Toma. Everything he did, his beginning, his ending, his motivation, everything is connected to his love for his brother. Chobei become a bandit to survive so that he could protect Toma. His one of the most important memories are being big brother. ‘Break down. Come apart.’ Something he repeatedly said from that specific memory. He doesnt mind dying for getting hurt for him and always ready to protect him. He loves Toma, he wants to protect him, he wants to be with him. It is interesting because he is very self-absorved character who couldnt care less about other people, except he will throw it all away for Toma.

If this story was longer and if Toma wanted to have normal life, i think Chobei would abandon his bandit king life. Their relationship is easiely one of the most interesting thing in story because it affects each others character, they mess each others up by only closing theirselves off from others, they are trauma bonding and has several abandonment issues but also their love is so pure that at least they have each others. Its just, no matter what happens, they will always be each others number one. (One of the funniest thing about this is the fact that only reason Chobei didnt try to/murder main squad is simply because they just little take care of his precious brother.) And no matter what kind of life they have, they would most likely still be close as possible, because thats how they are. (Relationship between Aza brothers is too much to talk so for now, thats it.)

Both characters want to go home, something they mentioned during the story. Gabi wants to Yui and Chobei wants to Toma because its their home, their humanity. I guess, what makes Gabi and Chobei different is for Gabi had nothing, so its about him finding people whom he can see as family, friends, lover etc while Chobei lost all of it at once except Toma, so he wants to protect that one family he has forever, he doesnt need others because to him, Toma can fullfil all roles for him.

2- Parallels; The Hollow and Bandit King

Gabimaru was born into nothing, he lost his family before able to knowing and fully connecting with them. He has nothing, this is why he was empty, until he met his wife. Chobei was once had everything. He was royal boy who has nice family and cute little brother but then, one boy one, he lost all of them except his little brother. Ironically, the reason they become ‘villain’/criminals are opposite. Gabimaru became criminal because he had nothing, Chobei became criminal because had something to lose. And ironically, being criminal made Gabimaru prisoner of his messed up village while it made Chobei free from messed up rules of society.

Gabimaru had no reason to feel any feeling for those he killed because thats how he was raised but Chobei wasnt raised that way but he still had to survive, he had no choice but to adapt to protect the one he care about. Chobei mirrors the people who stronger than him to adapt sitution which eventually turn him into bandit. We can say they both didnt have much choices in life.

Later after meeting his wife, Gabimaru found something he doesnt want to lose, he started to regain his humanity and during his journey, he regain it more, with the help of Sagiri and other people he encountered during his journey. He and Sagiri connect and later, he decide to help Mei anyway and he connects with others.

Though, unlike Gabimaru, Chobei is a lot closed off towards strangers. Thats why while Gabi changes during the story, Chobei remains the same at core, only his little brother who learns to connect with others change and Chobei adapts to it. While Gabimaru wants to redeem and live normal life, Chobei wants to continue live his life as criminal. Gabimaru is a lot like hero while Chobe is a lot like villain but they are very human characters in the end. Despite they seem opposite, i think it is important to remember that their beginning is different and they both are ready to give up on their humanity to return to ones they dont want to lose. Their home. Their family. For Gabimaru, its his wife Yui and for Chobei, its his little brother, Toma.

They both have compatible partner, (platonic soulmates) in a way. They have opposite, perfect match partners for them.Gabimaru’s partner is Sagiri, even their element are matching. Fire and wood. For Chobei, his partner is Toma, their elements are matching too. Metal and Earth. Sagiri is tall, black hair girl while Gabi is short, white hair boy. Sagiri has mature, compatible, mother energy, she is obsessed with rules while Gabi is cat like, stubborn, desire his freedom but also obedient. Chobei is dominant, masculine energy while Toma is obedient, feminine boy. They match perfectly. (Sagiri and Toma are kinda parallels too, in a way with their loyalty and support, etc.)

Whenever Gabimaru and Chobei about to loose their humanity, Sagiri and Thoma are the ones who reminds them to their humanity. (Though, in Gabimaru’s case, its both his wife and Sagiri.).They do their best to help them.

Another difference is about their desire to live. Gabimaru wants to have normal life for himself, thats why he tries his best to survive during the story while Chobei only wants to survive to protect his little brother, its for someone else’s sake, the moment he thought his brother can handle things by himself, he was okay with dying, thankfully he didnt.

At the end of story, both Gabimaru and Chobei die and become plant-person and saved by Sagiri and Toma. Gabimaru finally receive the normal life he wants with Yui and Chobei continue to his weird adventures with Toma.

There are many things to say but for now, thats it. Jigokuraku specifically focus on humanity of criminals and craziness of samurays so its interesting to explore, especially Gabi and Chobei gets many focus so i would like to talk about them more. There were too many pics that fits here but well, i didnt want to use too much. I read this manga years ago, kinda in a mood to talk about it more.

#jigokuraku #jigokuraku meta #jigokuraku analysis #hell's paradise #hells paradise #gabimaru #gabimaru the hollow #yamada asaemon sagiri #Sagiri #aza chobei #aza chobe #aza toma #aza brothers #jigokuraku spoilers #jigokuraku parallels

[redskull199987]

Betrayl

Eren Jaeger x female!reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warnings: none basically, making out?

Summary: You couldn't believe that Eren would betray you and your friends. As him and the Jaegerists capture your squad, an exiting talk awaits you...

Masterlist

All I could do was watch in Horror, as Eren slowly sat down at our table. Gabi next to him had the most frightened look on her face, I've ever seen.

Armin and Mikasa looked even worse. To say they were shocked, was an understatement.

"Eren", I mumbled.

He didn't even look at me, he kept his eyes focused on Mikasa. And then he started talking and talking. He said all those horrible things. I didn't even notice him anymore. Where was the Eren that I fell in love with? Where was the sweet boy, who always stood up for his people? The boy whose only goal it was to protect and fight for his island? Where was he?

"Y/N?"

I looked up from my place in the cell. It was Jean who said my name. He smiled sadly and slowly said down next to me.

"How are you doing?", he asked.

"I wish I could say that I am fine", I mumbled and leaned my head against his shoulder, "But what Eren did back at the Restaurant...I didn't even notice him. What he did to Armin and Mikasa..."

I stumbled over my own words. I couldn't say it, to afraid of it. Because as soon as I said it, I knew that it was true. That Eren had...changed, and not for the better.

"I know", Jean mumbled, "Armin told us"

A sigh left my lips, I just couldn't believe it. Why would Eren do such a thing? Why would he betray us?

"I like to believe that he's still in there, you know", Jean mumbled. I looked up at him perplexed.

"That the little suicidal maniac is still inside him, somewhere. But, I refuse to believe that he's gone."

I smiled at his words:"Hopefully you're right."

"Yeah I hope so too-"

Jean was interrupted by the sound of the cell door opening. It was Floch.

"Y/N, Eren wants to speak to you", he said and walked over to me."

"She's not going!", Jean jumped up, "Not alone"

I slowly got up and put a hand on his shoulder:"It's alright"

"But Y/N-", he mumbled.

"I just hope you're right", I said and squeezed his shoulder a bit. Jean seemed to understand and slowly stepped aside.

I followed Floch as he stepped out of the cell. I looked at Armin and Mikasa on my way out. Both of them looked concerned.

"Be careful", Armin mumbled, as I passed him. I nodded and finally stepped out of the cell. I watched as Floch closed the door and waited for him to tie up my hands, but he never did it.

Perplexed I followed him. He guided me through the building, through the floors I've walked so many times, together with Mikasa and Armin, with Jean, Conny and Sasha...and with Eren.

"We're here", Floch said and stopped in front of a huge wooden door. It was the bureau of the late Secretary, if I wasn't mistaken.

"He's waiting", Floch mumbled before leaving me alone in front of the door. He knew that I wouldn't try anything. The Jaegerists were stationed everywhere around the building. I wouldn't even make it back to the others.

So, there was only one way left and that was the door right in front of me.

I breathed in shakingly before I grabbed the handle and pushed the door open. I stepped inside and closed the door behind me.

I glanced around the room and noticed Eren in front of the Windows. We were alone.

"Y/N", he said.

I gasped. It had been so long, since I heard him say my name. So long, since we had a quiet minute together. It was so long ago, that he confessed his feelings for me. Back when we were still cadets.

"I missed you", Eren mumbled.

He turned around and looked at me. A light smile was lingering on his face.

I didn't know what to say, so I only stepped closer to him.

He had changed so much. He was much taller now, his hair so long now, he was wearing it in a bun.

I couldn't help myself and raised my hand to softly caress his face. I watched as Eren closed his eyes and carefully put his hand on top of mine.

"I missed you too", I confessed and looked down. I couldn't bare looking at him. I couldn't bare the fact that I still missed him, after all he did to us.

"Look at me", Eren mumbled. I shook my head. I just couldn't. I already felt the tears slipping down my face. I feared that if I looked at him, I would loose my mind.

"Y/N", Eren said softly. I felt his hand slip under my chin and he pulled my face up to look at him.

He watched with a sad smile how the tears ran down my cheeks.

"I am sorry", he mumbled and slowly wiped away my tears with his thump.

"Why Eren? Why did you do all this?", I asked. My voice was so quiet and shaky, it was a wonder if he even understood what I said.

"For you", Eren said, "And for Armin, for Mikasa, for Jean, for the Captain. For everyone on this island. I did it all to save our people"

"And what about all the people who died?!", I yelled and slapped his hand away, "What about Sasha, hm!?! What about her!?"

"What happened to Sasha...", Eren pressed out, "That is something that will never happen again. I will make sure of it. I will make sure that all people of Marley will be wiped out"

My eyes widened at his Words:"What do you...?"

"I was never working together with Zeke, or Yelena. I'm only using them. All I want from Zeke is the power of the founding Titan. His plan to make all Eldinas infertile is ridiculous! That would be the end for our people!"

"So...Everything that you said, was a lie?", I asked perplexed, "Everthing that you said to Mikasa? And everything that Yelena and the Jaegerists told us?"

"It's all a lie", Eren nodded. He cautiously stepped closer to me again, "Y/N, I will always be on your side. I would never betray you. You and the Levi squad, you guys are my family. How could I betray you?"

"Eren, I-", I didn't know what to say. Of course, I Was beyond relieved, that Eren didn't betray us, but on the other hand, I didn't know if I could trust him? Was he telling the truth? What if it was just a trick?

"Y/N, I'm-", Eren started, but it seemed like he was out of words himself. So he let his actions speak.

Eren stepped forward and grabbed my arm, pulling me into his chest. His arms entangled themselves around my waist and as I looked up at him, his lips were on mine. I was a little shocked at first, but after mere seconds I gave in. Our lips moved together in sync and I felt him pulling me impossibly closer, while my hands wandered up to rest around his neck.

I felt Eren sigh against my lips and used the opportunity to sneak my tongue into his mouth. Eren was eager to respond, his lips working against mine, as we fought for dominance. But ultimately Eren won and he pushed me against the desk behind us.

"Jump", he whispered against my lips and I obeyed immediately, as I felt how he pushed his lips against my jaw and made his way down my neck. I felt Eren's cool hands slip under my uniform shirt, as he started roaming the exposed skin.

"Eren", I sighed against his shoulder, as he kissed my sweet spot. It felt heavenly.

But suddenly I remembered, What situation we were in.

I pulled away and pushed Eren off me. He looked perplexed.

"Eren, I-", I mumbled again,"Waht are you gonna do next?"

"I will-"

He was interrupted, as we heard explosions go off in the distance. The building shook multiple times and I fell off of the desk, that I was still sitting on.

"Y/N, are you alright?", Eren shouted and jumped over to help me up.

"I'm fine", I mumbled and walked over to the windows.

"It's them, it's Marley", I stated as I saw the airships, "Reiner and the others two Titans are a hundred percent with them"

"Y/N, you need to go and get the others. Explain it to them. We will need their help", Eren said and pulled me back against him.

"I am going to finish this, once and for all. But I will need your help", he said and grabbed my hand.

I was still not very fond of his plan to kill all of Marley, but right now we had no choice. They were attacking Paradis and we had to work together to survive.

"We're gonna win this", I said sternly and nodded. I felt Eren slightly squeeze my hand. He smiled and pulled me in for another kiss. He pressed his lips against mine passionately. This kiss was different then the one before. It was full of emotions and unspoken words. Words we didn't have time for now. Words that were going to be spoken in the future...Hopefully.

"I love you", Eren mumbled as we parted.

"I know", I smiled, "And I love you"

"Go now!", Eren said and pushed me towards the door. His hand left mine and I looked back one last time, the look on Erens face was concerning. He looked like he could destroy the entire world, and I was afraid that he would do exactly that...

#Aot #attack on titan #attack on titan edit #AOT edit #aot oneshots #attack on titan oneshot #attack on titan fanfiction #Attack on Titan fic #AOT fic #Eren Jaeger #eren jaeger x reader #Eren Jaeger x female!reader #Eren jaeger one shot #Eren Jaeger fic #Armin #armin arlert #Mikasa #mikasa ackerman #Jean #Jean Kirschtein #Levi #Levi Ackermann #Zoe #Zoe Hange #Levi Squad #sasha braus #conny springer #Attack on Titan final season #attack on titan season 4 #x reader

[m1ckeyb3rry]

STOP! THANK YOU! I love when someone says skmeth8ng about art!

Also drop those spark notes, I’m too impatient 😭🤭

IT’S SO PRETTY YOU’RE SO TALENTED!!! Sorry for taking forever to respond the sparknotes were extensive 😭

OKAY SPARKNOTES TIME:

Swear

— with may ducat’s help, Y/N escapes solitary confinement and they go to help rescue eren from reiner and bertholdt

— Y/N pretends like she reciprocates bertholdt’s feelings so that he lets down his guard and she manages to free eren but is injured in the process, the scream scene is basically the same as it was in promise i think but I’m undecided whether she and eren would’ve kissed and gotten together at that point or not

— the first part of season 3 is also generally the same as promise was except levi is the one that kills rod reiss as he promised to do so right after Eren’s trial and Y/N becoming the commander of the first interior squad wasn’t a surprise, it was actually historia’s condition for becoming queen

— after rod reiss dies, levi gives Y/N a dagger so that in some way or another he’s always protecting her

— she confronts lord maiar (the one she was like engaged to??) and he threatens her life, which allows her to lawfully kill him as because she is his fiancée, by threatening her he is technically attempting to end his own family’s line of succession, so as his fiancée she is able to attempt to kill a family member of equal importance to him as herself (which is him) (it’s complicated but it’s basically the same rule that gave lord maiar control over her father’s family line after he killed her mother, lmk if you want me to add the direct quote explaining the law)

— during return to shiganshina, Y/N is ‘killed’ while fighting the beast titan with levi. floch saves her instead of erwin and levi has to choose between her and armin; he ends up choosing Y/N so she inherits the colossal titan instead of armin

— when they reach the sea, Y/N finds an oyster and decides to keep it because she thinks it’s a cool shell or something idk it’s just a memento for her

— while visiting marley with the scouts, Y/N and levi end up together by themselves while everyone is drunk because they’re the #responsible friends, she asks him if things between them would’ve been different if she wasn’t a lady/noble and he’s surprised but tells her no, eren then leaves as per canon which ofc upsets everyone especially Y/N

— attack on marley follows canon but it’s Y/N instead of armin, sasha is the one who dies at gabi’s hand

— during the table scene eren tells Y/N that she would be nothing without bertholdt and that she took everything from him (she is still wearing the black cloak at that point as well as having the colossal titan) and she also is the reason armin died and she’s unable to protect anyone

— Y/N is the one to find levi and save him from the jaegerists, they are together when the rumbling begins and consider just hiding away but they both know they can’t ofc

— i believe the rest of season 4 would’ve progressed like it did in canon

— once everyone else has been turned into titans and Y/N enters the paths, she meets eren and he tells her that armin was the true savior of humanity before having her open the oyster she found at the sea, revealing a pearl in it (pearls in this story represent justice), Y/N realizes that she has to find justice no matter what and returns to the present timeline

— on falco’s back, she thanks levi for helping her believe in herself, helping her be strong, and for giving her his dagger. She then takes off her black cloak and gives it to him before going into the mouth of Eren’s titan and apologizing before swearing that she won’t leave him ever again

— using Levi’s dagger, she stabs herself through the heart and uses the pain to transform on final time, knowing that it’ll end the curse of Ymir and she won’t be able to regenerate, effectively killing both herself and eren

— the reason why it works is because ymir chose levi to watch over, and when he chose Y/N over armin back in Shiganshina, he chose love over justice; however, when he doesn’t try to stop Y/N from killing herself for justice his mistake is fixed because he chose justice over love the same way that Y/N did

— the first epilogue shows the aftermath of everything, levi marries may ducat, everyone else i��m not quite sure about but i do think i planned on tullia and reiner getting together?? idrk i think that’s one of those things that would’ve developed naturally with the story ykwim

— the second epilogue is Y/N and eren in the afterlife sitting next to each other at the beach; Y/N says that it feels familiar and asks eren if there’s any universe where they’re happy

— eren tells her that them meeting and losing each other in every universe is inevitable while they watch scenes from their past lives reflected in the water; the scream scene from promise comes up and eren tells Y/N that that was the moment that their fates were set in stone because his soul formed a contract with hers, causing the repetition of their reincarnation cycle

— eren reveals that the reason why things never work out for them is because they are not each other’s soulmates; Y/N’s soulmate is levi but she is forced to be apart from him because of the promise eren made to her. however because she made the choice to die with eren instead of fully losing him, she has the chance to break free from the promise and be with her actual soulmate. the visions in the water change to show her having a peaceful and/or happy life with levi, but she refuses, saying she doesn’t care about who her soulmate is as she only wants eren

— they sit in silence for a while before eren warns her that she’s condemning herself to an eternity of pain if she continues to abide by the contract as there’s no chance for them to ever be happy together and there might not be another opportunity for her to break free from it again. Y/N says that she can bear any amount of pain as long as he finds her in every life they lead; eren swears he will and she swears to always stay by his side, as long as she can

— they sit for a little while longer and contemplate things and wonder where they will go next; they end up hugging, Y/N asks if they can stay there together for a little while longer, to which Eren agrees and says there’s no rush

Hostis Humani Generis

— this fic was tough because the problem with Y/N Ackerman is that she was just too strong; several of the problems in canon simply wouldn’t have occurred if she was there

— most of the fic followed canon; jean had a crush on Y/N and mikasa liked eren, tullia reiss was in love with armin and he loved her as well (they had a relationship)

— the ackermans don’t have hosts but they are born with innate protective desires and wills to fight; they usually associate their desire with one person, hence the host misconception, as it’s usually someone who they have strong feelings for — for Y/N in this fic it was tullia reiss as Y/N was illiterate due to coming from the underground and tullia taught her how to read and write so that she wasn’t kicked out of the cadet corps

— right after trost, it’s revealed that levi is Y/N’s ‘brother’ (to the characters, obviously we as the readers know based on context clues), levi tells her that farlan and isabel are dead and that she should stop going by “Y/N Church” as that’s not really her last name and it’s okay to not have a last name as he doesn’t either

— post-stohess, Y/N sees eren and mikasa together right after he wakes up so she decides to leave the room as she believes eren deserves better than her and she thinks that eren and mikasa are in love (she knew that mikasa cared for eren since the cadet corp but didn’t think eren liked mikasa back until just then)

— during the scream scene, Y/N confesses all of her crimes — of which there are MANY because she was a little murderer in the underground — and tells him that she probably deserves to die for everything she’s done. Eren gets angry and tells her that she can’t die because she is the kind of person that will change the world someday. She is in disbelief, and he tells her that they will do it together before punching dina

— the only super notable thing that happens in the first half of season 3 is that Y/N sees Kenny again, revealing that he is her father (again, to the characters — it was obvious to the readers based on context clues) and finds out that she is an Ackerman as well as discovering that although levi isn’t her literal brother, he IS her biological cousin

— oh wait also tullia reiss is denied the throne in favor of historia because the military officials thought she would be too hard to control and she was too close to rod reiss as a child; they are afraid she will turn on them somehow

— during return to shiganshina and the conflict between choosing erwin and armin, Y/N gets into a fight with mikasa for pinning levi — she is loyal to her brother above all else and doesn’t give the others time to convince him to pick armin, leading to erwin being revived instead (i promise i don’t hate armin LMAOO idk why he dies in shiganshina in both fics)

— when zeke is trapped in the forest with levi, tullia somehow manages to inherit his titan, severely injuring levi in the process (he’s in a similar state as in canon); her beast titan has a deer-like form

— it turns out that Y/N, tullia, and eren have been planning to start the rumbling, and with tullia inheriting the beast from zeke, she fulfills the requirement of a royal-blooded titan. during the battle in shiganshina, Y/N manages to block gabi’s shot, so eren reaches tullia unharmed after she screams and they go into the paths and start the rumbling with 0 fuss

— Y/N wanted the rumbling because she didn’t want anything to hurt her brother or her friends, eren wanted it for freedom and safety for his friends and somewhat for himself?? and tullia wanted it to get revenge on the world for what they suffered and for what was taken from her (they are not meant to be seen as morally just reasons LMAO that’s just how they justify it to themselves)

— Y/N disappears at this point while the rest of the characters do what they did in canon

— when mikasa breaks into the mouth of eren’s titan, she finds Y/N is there waiting for her; once again, they get into a fight, which Y/N wins. Y/N taunts mikasa by reminding her of what happened in shiganshina and how Y/N won, how she will always win in any match between the two of them because she is stronger. She almost kills mikasa but at the last moment lets her go, remembering that they are sisters in a sense due to being from the same family

— once the rumbling is completed, the genocidal trio emerges and they are immediately punished for their crimes; eren is fed to reiner, tullia to erwin, and Y/N is locked away in prison for the rest of her life

— the epilogue is Y/N reflecting on her time in prison. She hasn’t spoken since the day that eren and tullia were executed — the only thing she does is sit in the jail cell and think. She remembers that reiner used to visit and sit with her in silence (likely because he had some sympathy for her) but he hadn’t come for some years; it’s implied that this is because his term ended and somebody else got his titans as the curse of ymir was not ended. Jean used to visit her due to being in love with her; his last visit is her telling her he married mikasa, and he never comes back afterwards. Connie occasionally comes just to yell at her.

— at one point, people trying to revive the jaegerist cause broke her out of prison in the hopes that she will help them overthrow the government and the monarchy, but all she did was sit in the grass until she was caught and sent back to the jail cell. she is very apathetic about life now that the rumbling is over and doesn’t seem to care about anything or react to anyone

— despite how many years it has been, levi has never visited Y/N. as she thinks that, the story returns to the present and levi appears in his wheelchair. he tells her that she looks awful and, in the first time in years, she speaks, begging him to kill her. he unlocks the door to her jail cell and enters it, she sits at his feet and lays her head in his lap like she used to when she was a child; beginning to cry, she asks him if he hates her now

— he tells her that although she might have been an enemy of humanity, she would always be his little sister. she closes her eyes and smiles slightly; he wipes away her tears and then stabs her in the back

— fun fact: Y/N escaped the underground because she wanted to see the sun; however, she spends the last few years and honestly probably the majority of her life in the dark/underground, even dying there. at least she had her brother in her final moments?? lol

#answered asks #the great m1ckeyb3rry cleanse #this is so much LMAOOO #but here are how i planned for swear and hostis humani generis to end!! #if you guys want the endings to any other victims of the great m1ckeyb3rry cleanse lmk and i will do my best to sparknotes it

[corriganatheart]

Disabled Levi Ackerman x reader

When Levi was severely scarred after the explosion set off by Zeke, he knew that he either wouldn’t make it out alive or would lose his ability to ever fight again, and he wasn’t wrong. Humanity’s strongest soldier was now chained to a wheelchair. Although the man shows no emotion in the situation, he is devastated that he would have to rely on others to do daily tasks. Although Gabi and Falco were one of his “main guardians,” he was still ashamed that he had to take their time away from exploring since they were still kids. Levi always suggested he could get a caretaker to take care of him instead, but Gabi and Falco refused, and although he doesn't want to admit it, he is relieved that someone who has been through the war is taking care of him. So far, he does what the kids do and allows them to wheel him.

Today was the day that you were coming back after months of traveling with Queen Historia to fix and make peace with other nations after the war. You were one of the remaining squad leaders, and you thought traveling was a good distraction from all the lives lost during the war. Not only was your best friend killed, but the majority of the kids that you trained and led were brutally murdered in front of you. The guilt that you are still holding on to became your nightmare every night.

You walked along the familiar neighborhood, watching some of the royal guards greeting their families. It still hasn't clicked in your mind that the war was over, no more killing titans, but sometimes you couldn't help but look behind you, fearing that a certain tall giant would be behind.

“Squad Leader L/N!” You heard a familiar voice call out. You turn to your left to see Gabi running up to you with Falco behind her back. It took you a second to realize that Falco was further behind because he was pushing the man you had meant to avoid.

You and Levi are acquaintances. You wouldn't call each other “friends,” but you wouldn't call him your enemy either. When you first joined the survey corps, Levi wasn't a fan of you. You were arrogant and were constantly arguing with the upper ranks. Of course, he knew damn well that you were forced to join the survey corps just like him because of the talent that you both display. Hange discovered you when wall Maria was under-attacked. You and your brothers were out pick pocketing when the walls were under attack and in order to protect your brothers from an approaching titan, you grabbed the ODM gear from the dead soldiers near you and killed the titans yourself. Apparently Hange was nearby and saw your incredible speed and ability to kill off several titans with no experience. After that, she tracked you down and Erwin threatens to put you and your brothers in jail for committing a crime unless you join the survey corps.

Your first few weeks of joining the survey corps was interesting to say the least. You were always bickering with your teammates and almost all the upper ranks. The only person that could stand you was Hange, who made you her assistant. You were called many names but after your first mission and being the only survivor left of your squad, you became less mean and started to be aloof. You first met Levi when Hange said that she found a fascinating person. You assumed it was a titan but was surprise when it was the infamous Eren Yaegar. Levi heard about you through Erwin, and he wasn’t very pleased with the information, so he was constantly on your case, from not cleaning well enough to breathing. You, of course, didn't take shit from him so you constantly talked back to him and ignored his request. You two did not get along at all.

It wasn’t till after Erwin’s death that you showed some compassion for him. It was late at night, and Levi was sitting outside of his cabin drinking a cup of tea; and you couldn’t sleep, so you walked outside and somehow ended up in front of his cabin. Without asking him you sat down with him but made sure to keep at least a five person distance while he keeps sipping his tea. It took a painful ten minute for Levi to finally speak and it was that you cleaned the best out of the soldiers. Although it wasn’t much, that was the nicest thing Levi has ever said to you, and when he pushed a cup of tea towards you, you knew that the differences you both had was gone.

After you and Levi make amends, he acknowledges your skills due to the amount of titans you were able to kill in a short amount of time. This caused the new commander Hange to promote you to squad leader. Your squad and Levi’s squad would often have missions together, causing you both to have a cup of tea at night and chat about work, and as time past, it became personal lives. Things never went as far as that though, and the last time you saw him was when he got severely injured, and your squad was deployed to a different area. You didn’t hear about Hange’s death until a week later, and during the war, you never bumped into Levi until the end when he tried to approach you, and you used your last remaining ODM Gear gas to pull yourself away.

“Gabi, it’s been a while,” you said as she put her arms around your waist. “I know! It has been ages for me!” She said excitedly and let go of you for Falco to hug you. “Falco,” you said and pulled him into a warm hug causing him to tear up. “We missed you so much,” he cried. You smiled and tried to comfort him by soothing his back. You looked down at Levi, who found the sight in front of him very unpleasant. “Hey, why don’t you guys go look around, I’ll stick with the captain,” you said causing Levi to glared at you. Gabi and Falco looked between you two and immediately excused themselves; giggling as they run away.

“Th, so much for always being there,” Levi mumbled as he watched the kids run off. “What’s crawling up your pant?” You asked. Levi glared at you like a little child and you couldn’t help but smile. “How long has it been?” You said. “Not long enough,” he said causing you to make a hurt expression. “We’ll damn, someone didn’t sleep on the right side of the bed,” you muttered. “And someone decided to show their presence,” he retorted. “Ok Mr. Grumpy pant, let’s go sight seeing,” you said and started to wheel him.

“Honestly compare to the places that I seen while traveling, this is far the best place to live,” you exclaimed. For the last couple of hours, Levi has been listening to you talk about all these stuff that you saw while traveling and you can’t tell if he is bored or is actually interested. “That is why you are always here,” he sarcastically joked. “Awe did someone missed me?” You tease. Levi stayed silent and you hear a slight, “yes” coming out from him. Flustered by his answer, you almost choked from your own self.

“How is Gabi and Falco’s assistant?” You asked, trying to change up the conversation as much as possible. “Fine, but they are kids, they shouldn’t be taking care of an adult,” he said. You clench your jaw when you hear his tone, clearly he is ashamed of himself. “Levi, it is ok to be mad you know,” you said. “Mad about what? The fact that I can’t even take care of myself anymore?” He clench his teeth. At this point, you stopped not realizing that you reached the cemetery. “Is it really ok for us to be mad at ourselves?” You asked as your eyes scan the numerous tombstones. Levi also looked up and saw where you guys stopped. His eye scans the names, landing on many of his comrades. “Are you?” He asked. You didn’t say anything besides continuing to wheel him and searching for a certain tombstone. Your eyes immediately diverted away when you saw Sasha’s name. “Hers is over there” Levi said and you looked where he pointed. It was a big tombstone with the name Commander Hange Zoe. You both headed that way.

“What were you doing this whole time?” Levi asked. You smiled and sat down on the grass.

“Was I selfish to leave and avoid the guilts to ever face you guys again?” You asked. Levi looked down at your form and diverted his gaze. “No, it’s not.”

“Ugh maybe I should move!” You complained.

“Move where exactly?” Levi asked annoyed by your indecisiveness.

“That’s the thing!” You shouted. “Idk!!”

“Oi brat don’t yell, everyone might think we are crazy,” he warned.

“What about you?” You asked. “Is there a place you would ever want to visit?”

Levi looked at you with his usual emotionless expression, and clench his jaw. “Do I look like I am in a position to go anywhere?”

You bite your lips, annoyed that you let yourself ask a question that you knew damn well would hurt him. “Levi, your situation shouldn’t stop you from exploring.”

Levi didn’t say anything, instead look down at his leg. He balled his hands in a fist but you put your hand on his to assure him that you were by his side. “They would all want you to live.”

“Oi brat get your hands off of me, it might be dirty,” he complains, but the slight blush on his face says otherwise. 

“Mmm, maybe you should come with me, my next trip,” you shrugged, “ I am sure you would be delighted to see all the cleaning products from different country!” 

“Don’t even bother,” he said. 

“or maybe I’ll let Gabi and Falco take my place and I take theirs,” you suggested. 

Levi eyes widen at that, and looks down at you. “What are you suggesting?” he asked. 

“Historia told me you refused all the nurses that wants to take care of you,” you said. “So I offered to take care of you, and in return let the kids go explore the world.” 

“But what about-”

“Levi, I can’t run away any longer.” You said. 

Levi nodded. He wasn’t particularly against the idea of you being his caretaker, but he was also embarrassed because that mean you would have to live with him and do everything for him until he gets a little better. 

“Maybe Eren was right,” he mumbled.

“About what?” you asked.

“Remember that particular night when we were bickering like brats at my office, and everyone came to watch?” He asked, “remember what Eren said?” 

Your eyes widen. You clearly remembered what Eren said, which at the time caused you to wrestle him, and Levi to give him more chores. 

“Yeah, I rememeber,” you said as you smile at Levi. 

“He said that he saw a memory of us living in a cottage, with a boy and a girl that have our features.” 

#captain levi #levi x y/n #levi #levi ackerman #disabled #levi aot #attack on titan

[mrsloveislandx]

Lulu & Finn Appreciation post 🥰❤️

I just want to say how these two need protecting at all costs..

Lulu finally a friend for MC she’s gonna be my new BFF ❤️ I was thinking WTF with her she arrived etc but honestly she is most loveliest character there coming to MC defence she is literally the only friend we have FB did her dirty with her hairstyle but I’m actually kinda glad Suresh brought her back “Hey Bestie” 🥰

Finn : another one of the most deserving character there. Defending us and no F**ks give in front of everyone admitting his feelings for MC 🥺.. this is a Man and I’m here for it 👏🏽 I’m torn now on Finn because he is handling things better than Suresh who literally won’t stand up for us or say his true feelings for MC in front of everyone is pushing MC into Finns arms.

I’ve been on the Suresh route and yesterday it broke me to see why declare all feelings before Casa and not really acknowledge MC or anything in the challenge yesterday him kissing Gabi actually stung like Bro why?? I think there’s something there between them 😔 I really hope not but it seems toxic of him to play that way 😭. If he doesn’t declare anything next weeks I’m officially handing in my clown card.

I do think though MC’s options are gonna get better because “Lulu” snogged MC though we friends. Gabi snogged MC, and Finn obviously choose us to marry 🥰. My “MC” snogged Finn, Married Suresh (that’s what she really still wants ) 🤡😭 and pied Meera because she’s worse than Arlo 😂😂. Was gonna pie Nasty Nic however my squad Danna, Lulu, and Finn did that for me 🔥

#litg 2 #fusebox games #litg suresh #litg s5 #litg gabi #litg lulu #litg finn

[suzaeuphysolos]

Seeing hate for a character you love can really hurt. It can feel really personal. It certainly doesn't help if that character, in a lot of ways, reminded you of yourself. When I first finished Code Geass, I remember being so confused and distraught. I had never actually experienced liking a character that almost everyone seemed to dislike. It sucked.

Sure, I had been known as the #1 Gabi Braun stan for years at that point, complete with my Gabi Protection Squad. I'd dealt with my fair share of death threats and insults because I liked Gabi. But I had so many people who cheered on my defense of her. And in time, I saw many people come around to liking Gabi.

I'm gonna be honest, I might have hated Nina had I not liked Gabi first. I hated Gabi at the beginning, but over time, Attack On Titan really began to push the message of children being a product of their environment, the cycle of hatred & war, indoctrination, and it really changed how I see the world and how I judge other people for the things they do. I don't hate characters anymore. Not at all. When a character does terrible things, I rather appreciate what their characters adds to the story, and I understand that there is most likely a reason they ended up that way. Even with characters who I feel no sort of liking for, I can still understand why they are the way they are, and be like "Yea, this is a good character that does their job" in my head, rather than feel hatred.

So, when I watched Code Geass, I never felt any sort of hatred at Nina for the racism she displayed. I felt a hatred that that was how things were, and that the Japanese people had suffered like they did. But that hatred wasn't directed at Nina, because to me she wasn't the sole representative of the issue. My hatred was directed at Britannia itself, not Nina, not any of the other Britannian kids. I certainly didn't think she was right, not in the slightest, but in my mind, I'm thinking that's just what to expect of a society like this. She's grown up in this world where discrimination is encouraged, from the adults to the children. I wasn't angry, it just made me sad. Besides, Nina was far from the only character that showed these traits.

I kept thinking that at some point, she was gonna change and have development. And she did. But, for some reason, everyone ignored it. To me it was so clear, and I'm not sure how Lelouch literally explaining how her reasoning to assist him in the Zero Requiem shows her personal growth, and telling her she is a wonderful person is not development. I don't understand how being the cause of the death of roughly 14 million people, both Britannian and Japanese alike, can't be the turning point that makes you start to rethink everything you thought you knew. I don't understand what people mean when they say she just "got over it" or "that it's unrealistic."

There is so much about Nina's character that I could bring up here. I've analyzed her, dissected her, and I have a full interpretation of what I believe her character is meant to be.

Over time, I've come to love her a bit too much. For some reason, whenever I talk about the joy she brings me, people assume I'm talking about all the bad things about her- that I'm glorifying those things. No. That's not it at all. When I say her smile makes me happy, I mean that seeing a girl who'd been manipulated and traumatized be able to heal and smile again makes me happy. I'm always talking about the good things I see in her. Someone once told me "she has absolutely no redeeming qualities" and I cannot understand that point of view. Seriously!

I love her irritableness, like how she'd get easily annoyed. It amuses me. I love her passion for science, like, the way her face lit up when Lloyd recognized what she was working on. I love how she's a little unhinged, it's just really appealing to me. God, I love mad scientists. I love the personal growth that she displays and how in time she begins to carry herself with much more confidence. I love her hair her eyes her glasses the way she dresses

I suppose I had forgotten that not everyone has such an open mind as me. Because the severity of the hate that Nina got really caught me off guard. I was only 14 when I went through some of the stuff I did on reddit, discord, twitter. I just wanted to talk about her. But it was hate everywhere I looked, and it was genuinely upsetting and terrible for my mental health. I've cried over it more than I like to admit. Sometimes I'll cry because I feel like I'm not valid, that I should hate her, and that I'm a terrible person for not hating her. Sometimes, a comment about her will be so disgusting and graphic that I just break down into tears and wonder how someone could be so vile to her.

I've had to stop myself from ever daring to look up her name on twitter. I have to make myself resist the urge to look at the comments on certain episodes of Code Geass. I'm even a little cautious when I google her, knowing I could run into something that sends me into a panic attack.

Even now, when I think I'm at a point where I'm certain that I've established my right to like her, I still get nervous. I had someone comment something really rude and aggressive on my art of Nina the other day, I was in a panicked state for around an hour. And while my past self might have argued, my friends told me to block them and delete it. Because I've realized that it's absolutely ridiculous that I have to defend myself in the first place. She's not real. As long as I enjoy her character critically without defending all the bad things she did, why is it an issue?

Whenever people bring her racism into the argument about why I cannot like her, I have to scratch my head a little bit. She...wasn't the only one? In fact, Cornelia, Jeremiah, and Villetta all displayed awful and even violent racism. But...people like them? I don't ever see anyone talking about that aspect of their character. That's the thing. You should! If you like a character that has problematic aspects to them, you should acknowledge it! I've never shied away from Nina's bigotry. I've never tried to deny it or defend it.

Sometimes the people I see bashing Nina are the same people that stan those characters blindly. I'm like...what's the deal? If we're going to call out racism in the show like we should, we shouldn't be cherry-picking it?

And the other arguments I get are much more annoying, because I find them much less valid than that one. "She killed people!" Okay??? Almost everyone in this show has killed people. "The table-" Oh don't even get me started on the god damn table. I could write a whole separate post about that godforsaken table.

When I say that I think a lot of the hate she gets is hypocritical, this is what I mean. What do you mean you hate Nina, but love Cornelia, Jeremiah, Villeta, ect? What do you mean you hate Nina for killing people, but Lelouch can kill people and get praised for it?

And I can't say that misogyny, ableism, and lesbiphobia don't have anything to do with it, particularly on the cishet side of the fandom. Because you would not believe how people seem unable to keep the word "lesbian, psych0, crazy, insane, bitch, wh0re, sl9t" out of their mouths when they criticize her. I've even seen lesbiphobic slurs used to insult her. You would not believe how often the table gets brought up when asked why someone hates her. I've seen the table, her lesbianism, her mental condition, fleija, all brought up first when expressing hatred for her, and the racism aspect either being ignored or listed at the bottom like it's a footnote.

The thing is, people can say they like Cornelia, Jeremiah, Villetta, ect, and not get met with insults and threats and have their morals questioned. So, how come whenever I say I like Nina, I get insulted and threated and have my morals questioned? Why does what I think about a fictional character determine who I am as a person? You know nothing about me! You cannot determine what kind of person I am based solely on the fact that I like Nina.

It's the fact that I panic at the discovery that someone dislikes Nina, because I've come to expect being treated harshly for it. I realized recently that my expectations of how to be treated are too low.

No one ever seems to want to ask me why I like her, either. Instead they skip right to making assumptions about me and being rude to me. Just... ask me? I have a reason! I have an argument!

I don't expect everyone to like her. It makes perfect sense to me why people may feel uncomfortable with her and not like her. But what I don't understand is why I've been met with the treatment I've received. So you don't like her, and I do. Okay? There's no need to be an asshole about it.

So, whenever I get angry, whenever I go "fuck Nina haters" please understand that I have been through some shit. When I say "Nina haters" I'm not talking about people that just don't like her. You can hate her guts, in fact, but as long as you can respect me at the most basic level, as long as you don't go around talking weirdly obsessively about how you want her to be tortured or die a painful death or... other things I won't bring up (and yes, I have seen so many people talk about her like this, it's alarming how many people I see talk like this) then you are not a Nina hater. You're not part of the group that I get mad at.

The fact of the matter is that people like her. There's nothing you can do about that. I've met people from all over the world that like her. I'm nowhere near the only one. Being an asshole isn't going to change anything. Those little aggressive comments that you leave aren't going to do shit. So why not just spare me the anxiety of having to deal with it.

#it feels good to have this off of my chest #i'm done arguing if you insult me i'm linking you this post #code geass #code geass lelouch of the rebellion #nina einstein

[jaettps]

#falco grice #falbi #falco x gabi #gabi protection squad #attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin #ship #aot ships #aot #snk

[gabi-protection-squad]

THAT’S MY DAUGHTER

*proud mom crying*

#yes I actually cried #there were so many tears #look at her #she’s so beautiful #attack on titan #gabi braun #shingeki no kyojin #aot #snk #gabi protection squad #Gabi Braun Protection Squad #aot manga #aot anime #snk manga #snk anime #eren yeager #eren jaeger #sasha braus #sasha blouse #attack on Titan season 4

[urfavlovesgabibraun]

THAT’S MY DAUGHTER

*proud mom crying*

#yes I actually cried #there were so many tears #look at her #she’s beautiful #I love her so much #attack on titan #aot #aot manga #shingeki no kyojin #snk #snk manga #attack on titan season 4 #mappa #gabi braun #gabi protection squad #Gabi Braun protection squad #eren yeager #eren jaeger #sasha braus

[my-fav-snk]

I don`t understand why you all are hating Gabi. She is just a kid, who was brainwashed since an early age and later all here thoughts was strengthened by Reiner`s words. And then an attack on Liberio happened that only father justified her hatred towards Paradis Eldian. But look what amazing progress she did. It didn`t take THAT much to prove her she was wrong.

Like, listen, there were tons of investigations on USSR crimes, GULAG stuff and killing hundreds of people, but in my country, there still are people who love communists and want to vote for whoever will say something similar to their thoughts. It is not an excellent comparison, but both were taught lies from a young age and later was exposed to facts. Gabi changed her mind, but many people couldn`t do that and prefer to ignore the truth.

Gabi story actually reminds me story about neo-nazi who traveled the world and was able to change his minds after interacting with real people from different countries. But that neo-nazi was a grown ass man and Gabi is a kid.

Repeat after me

GABI IS A KID

When I was little I believed that my mission as a woman was to born as many children as possible. And also I was little racist homophobic fuck, but people change, guys. I know you all grow up in progressive countries, but for many people, there still are “devils” on the Earth and they teach their kid the same. But it`s not kid`s fault to believe that, it`s natural to take as truth whatever your parent is saying. We can`t blame them for that. You know why?

CAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING KIDS

#snk 118 #Gabi protection squad #gabi braun #ch 118 #fight me #fuck ussr

[blogboiwithtoomuchtime]

A “special” shoutout to Ragan of @gabi-protection-squad for basically admitting to spamming that dislike button on the following video:

So first of all, we now know that a good portion of “dislikes” are actually just her spamming the algorithm, so no, Gabi does not have any sizable support group despite what some would tell you. 

Secondly, for even more context...based on her Tweets, it’s painfully obviously she is so deprived of human affection in her own personal life that she desperately clings to this murder bitch as her only real emotional attachment. She honestly believes herself to be some kind of valiant warrior rallying other stans with a minority opinion instead of just some desperate fangirl flicking the bean to someone whose only purpose was to kill Sasha and be her unlikable and unworthy replacement. Heck, I’ll bet that in between spamming the dislike button on videos she doesn’t like (such as the above) and “bullying” Gabi haters (something she is pathetically proud of), she laughs at Sasha’s death as if being a light-hearted comic relief was somehow not worth keeping in favor of her Nazi loli waifu.

Well she did say she was ready to take on the fandom and the Gabi haters. Well then bring it on mf, because Gabi’s gonna get slandered to hell and back again in a couple of weeks and she will completely deserve the hate she gets.

#attack on titan #snk #aot s4 #gabi braun #tumblr user gabi-protection-squad #sasha braus

[gabibraunmustwin]

I'm proud of you for stanning Gabi! Us Gabi stans gotta stick together you know? The haters can stay mad!

Thanks so much! Gabi gang for life.

#ask #gabi-protection-squad

[sofijaeger]

hey, it's my first time doing any request so i'm little embarrassed but i'm excited too!! i love your writing so much<33 i had this in my mind for a while

Eren's s/o kissing his palms/hands or the spots where he usually bites his hand when he's about to transform

it can be anything(like drabble/headcanons etc. i hope you get me😭) once again I LOVE YOUR WRITING SM!!

that is so frickin adorable STOP I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN🥺 you can always request things to me, i’m not sure how soon i’ll get onto them but i will try my best and i love hearing from you!

okay i’m actually really proud of this one haha! the drabble will take place during the reclaim of shiganshina arc if that’s alright, and psa i scared myself writing a certain line because i had no clue how i was going to proceed after implying a major death LMAO. i think you’ll know what line i’m taking about but don’t worry nothing happens lol.

warnings: angst... IM SORRY🥲

words: 1.1k

kissing vow ~ eren x reader

Dawn quickly rose over the well-known territory. The part of land that was whispered upon for years ever since its fall, and a place strangely familiar to all your ears and hearts even if you hadn’t traveled there yourself. After the trip into the midnight wilderness you had arrived for a mission far greater than any other, and it was clear there were no visible signs of doubt from anyone.

Except for of course, the young boy with more pressure on his chest than anyone, one you cared for very dearly who’d call almost every shot with his actions. He was frightened beyond compare, so as the last few squads stood atop Wall Maria, urgently waiting for any signal, Eren was practically pissing himself right then and there. He had returned, devised a plan with all the leading commanders in just a few days, and was now preparing to risk his life for his homeland and people. There was no moment of rest for him or any of you. Besides the constant worry of succeeding the mission this very well may be the last time any of you see each other again.

You shout out his last name, once, twice, as he was too far in his own head to hear your first call and jog to him, gripping your delicate fingers over his shoulders. In the years you’ve spent together as scouts those small releases of tension-touching had become a clear sign you wanted each other’s attention, and you both caught onto the gesture quite quickly. Eren softened his eyes in your presence to notion just how focused he was on you. His subconscious would always allow his gaze to wander to you and what you had to say, he felt calmer that way.

“I already see you getting all inside your head, I thought talking about this on the journey here would be enough for you?” you whisper, leaning your head a little closer in attempt to understand what possibly was rumbling through his mind now.

“What if we lose”

“What?”

“I can’t bear to see us all lose! If we waited a little longer, a few more days, maybe we could have advised a plan that wouldn’t risk half the corps’ lives!” He tangled his hand in his hair, gripping the shaggy strands already coming loose from the stress he overdrove himself into. Your hands soften against the thick cloth of his cape, frowning at the few tears pricking his eyelids.

“Er, you’re more than welcome to cry to me later, just not now.” you chuckle.

“How are you so sure there’ll be a later y/n.”

You mouth opens before you can process your words, watching his cheek crane over to rest on the back of your hand that still lay against his collar. Here was humanity’s savior more worried than everyone minutes before call, but that you were perfectly fine with. This side to him was all the more proof that he was human, no matter what people labeled his being as.

“How am I sure? Bold of you to question my predictions Jaeger.” you exaggerate, placing your hands on your hips in a sneer. “I’m certain i’ll come back alive, and why? Because your protecting me with ever passionate fiber in your body, just as you will everyone else. You’re fighting for our justice against these monsters, the ones with no mind or cause. You have a cause to fight Eren and you have a heart too, a damn big one if I do say so myself. It’s the reason we support you with in the entireties of our own.”

With that, you intertwine your fingers around his right thumb, softly calloused to the touch he notes time and time again, and place it in front of your mouth to kiss. His body tenses at the feeling, but his eyes widen when he realizes where exactly you’ve placed it, your trust in him, where you’ve unknowingly hinted your years of growing affection for the boy in the heap of a split second.

Over the bitten scars littered down his radial.

He looks at you in confirmation of what he thinks it meant, and smiles into those fierce doe eyes of yours. A genuine emotion he hasn’t felt in months through grieving and loss, but could so easily melt into again with you.

So yes, he held a dangerous power, but it was all his. Something his true self was a part of that no one should ever neglect, and he found all the support he needed within the soldier right before him.

“Knock em dead Ren, do your best for everyone who’s lived and who will continue to. None of us would be standing here without you, so your presence alone is precious to us...

...We all believe in you, I believe in you.”

You guide his palm to your cheek, nuzzling into its claminess. As he engraves the plush feeling of his fingertips to your skin, a green smoke signal is fired.

And even when Eren was positive not everyone could be saved, he was reminded the ones following the biggest goals in the end would persevere and care for each other just as you had for him. He was confident you’d all succeed that way.

Like Armin now does over Commander Erwin,

Or little Gabi rather than Sasha, no matter what unjust brainwashing she believes.

But him or you, who would risk their own life caring for whom they loved most?

That was one thing he never wanted to find out.

Now he slouches in a rotten, stoned cell, contemplating what could’ve changed if only he had tried a little harder, or had this all been fate from the start?

His hand resting in his lap catches his glance, peering down at the bite marks still evident across his thumb. Surely if the marks he made as a teen persisted your kiss would too.

He slowly brings his hand up, cautious of any guards mistaking the move for another transformation, and presses his lips against the same spot you had. He closes his eyes at the warmth, sensing it was still emitting from your own lingering touch years ago. Unfortunately there had been no more little kisses, subtle clues of affection from either of you ever since. He liked those hints he really did, but now he was sure you stood a few floors above him, devising a plan to put an end to his scheme rather than caring over his emotions.

Weren’t you the one who told him to keep going though?

Perhaps if he had told you his motives beforehand rather than keeping them inside. How he appreciated every act of tenderness you gave him, more than anything he’s experienced before, how all this time he’s fought on this battlefield people called the world, for you and everyone else. Maybe then you’d stay out of his way and let him succeed, but his actions had no time for feelings or explanations. The freedom he desperately searched for in the future held no care for the past.

Yet he could never lie to himself and think you didn’t love him still, even after all this time. And Eren couldn’t deny anything about his own feelings for you, it’s what kept him going.

#JUST BUSTED THIS SHIT OUT MAN FEELING PROUD #sofi drabs #eren x reader #sofi time #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #anime #eren yeager #eren jaeger #eren aot #snk eren #eren x you #fanfic #eren jaeger x reader #eren yeager x reader #eren yeager x you #eren jaeger x you

[fanmoose12]

the devil you know

Сharacters: Hange Zoe, Levi, Moblit Berner, Zeke Yeagar, Armin Arlert

Genres: Action / Drama

Summary: Can you still miss a person, if everything you knew about them was a lie?

Сhapter 10/?

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Сhapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

"Enemies right ahead," Pieck relayed, coming back from her little survey. Fuck, subconsciously, Hange moved to protect their most vulnerable - Levi and the Queen. "A shit ton of them. Seems like they want to protect the port from us."

"It's the Yeagerists," Armin grimly explained.

"We have to fight them," Hange agreed, after a pause - she expected her commander, Magath, to say that. But, apparently, this time, he was alright with being left in the background. Whatever, Hange had no time to ponder what was on the old man's mind. They had a world to save, after all.

"Are you ready?" critically, she looked at each member of Levi's squad. They were young, but then again— Hange was young too, even younger, maybe. There was no such thing as being old enough to witness the true horrors of the world. And they have witnessed enough of those horrors already. "Not gonna lie, not all of us might come back in one piece, but—"

"I've been ready since day one," Jean stepped out, a rifle in his hand. "And my baby here," he stroked along the barrel. Distinctly, Hange heard someone laughing and making gaging noises. She too couldn't help, but wince at Jean's phrasing. "Is very eager to have tete-a-tete with Floch."

"You know, Jean," Sasha gently rubbed his shoulder. "That's exactly why you can never find a date for yourself."

Jean grew embarrassed, his ears turning red, but everyone that were gathered around him started laughing, and bit by bit, the tension left their group.

Huh, Hange didn't know that saving the world could be that pleasant, apparently, you just had to find the right people (and then hope they wouldn't die).

"Now, everyone," she clapped to get everybody's attention. "Put your gear, take your weapons and let's move out. The two of you," she turned to look at Historia and Levi. "Are obviously going to stay here. And you," she looked at Yelena, “stay here and don’t you dare to even move. And you, my dears, “now she turned to Falco and Gabi. "Are going to also stay here and watch over them all."

Gabi obviously wanted to object violently, but Hange had known that girl since she was four, she knew how to handle Gabi Braun.

"It's an important mission," she crouched before Gabi and lowered the volume of her voice. "You have to protect the humanity's strongest soldier and the Queen. You have to keep an eye on our unreliable friend. I can entrust this task to no one but you."

Her little trick worked like a charm - Gabi beamed and gave Hange a very enthusiastic nod.

"Don't worry about them, Professor Hange. With me, no harm will come their way."

"I knew I could trust you," she patted the girl's hair, then smiled and winked at Falco.

At last, she looked at Moblit. "Will you help with putting my gear on? I'm not sure if I still remember how to do it."

"You got it," he chuckled, as he approached Hange. "But, of course, I'll help you."

They stood in silence as Moblit assisted Hange with putting on the ODM-gear. Even if their surroundings and circumstances were unprecedented, the scene felt familiar, they had repeated it countless of times - the ever loyal assistant of Squad Leader Hange was always there, when his superior was too out of it or sleep deprived to put the gear herself.

"I've wondered about it for the longest time," Moblit began, tinkering with the blades. "All these instances when you asked me to do the same thing for you, did you just not know how to do it by yourself? Or was it merely a coincidence?"

Hange scoffed, offended that Moblit thought so lowly of her. “I studied this thing day and night to understand how it works and how to put in on quickly and without raising anyone's suspicions."

Now, Hange was reminiscing about it with almost fondness, but, back then, when the smallest of wrong move could have led to her demise, it wasn't even half as fun. "It was a hell of a work."

"But you did it great," Moblit smiled, then grimaced. "I mean, you would have done great if you weren't working for our enemies, but— the past is in the past, right?"

Right, Hange rather enjoyed that philosophy. The past was in the past, and they were free to carve the new future.

But first— they had to go, kick some asses and ensure there was a future for them all to carve.

"Wait."

Just as Hange was ready to go with the rest of the team, a quiet and gruff voice stopped her. She turned around, meeting Levi's eye.

"Your gear is malfunctioning, let me fix it for you."

Could that be true? With Moblit the one in charge of putting the gear on?

Then again, it was Levi asking - what ulterior motive could he possibly have?

So Hange gestured for Pieck and others to start moving, and approached Levi.

"Well?" she meant to turn to the side, so he could have a look at her gear, but, all out of sudden, Levi raised his uninjured hand, fisted it in her shirt and tugged her forward, until their lips met in a kiss that took all of Hange's breath away.

It was just a kiss, a touch of two lips, it had no right to feel like an explosion of fireworks and coming home all at once.

Truly, she ought to hate Levi at least a little, for he was her only weakness in this world.

But she couldn't hate him, never could, and that's why she threw herself into that kiss without abandon, forgetting about their audience and the fact that Levi did have an ulterior motive.

Hange found out about it as soon as they broke apart and she saw Zeke, standing right beside them.

He looked furious, and most surprisingly - hurt.

Huh, interesting. Perhaps, she ought to think more about it. Not now, obviously.

Hange aimed her glare at Levi, her next words accompanied by the sound that was best described as a hiss. "What the fuck was that just now? Are you staking claim on me, Ackerman?" she raised an accusing finger, pressing it to his chest. "Didn't know you were that possessive."

"I'm not possessive," he huffed, still somehow managing to keep his self-composure. "I'm just telling that monkey that he shouldn't lay his ugly paws where they don't belong. And also," he fidgeted a little, his fingers playing with Hange's pants. "I know you said this shit was dangerous. But if you don't come back, four-eyes, I will kill you myself."

"How touching," Hange giggled, patted his hair, and, next, bended down to leave a quick smooch on his bandaged brow. "But I will come back, just..."

"Watch over this kindergarten while you're away?"

Hange looked around - Gabi was already chasing Falco with a rifle, Historia fruitlessly tried to stop the blood from spilling.

"I will be much obliged," she confessed to Levi.

"Go," Levi gave her a slight push. "Everything will be fine here, just don't—"

"Let Zeke get close me?"

"Exactly. And don’t die."

Hange laughed, saluted and hurried to catch up with everyone else.

___

At first, Hange was afraid of using ODM-gear. She thought she couldn't do it, thought she had already forgotten all the needed skills.

But soaring through the air turned out to be just as easy as it had been four years ago.

Gliding and making the graceful stops was starting to bring her genuine glee until...

Until the battle started.

Whatever Hange expected to see at the port, that was not it. The numbers were that much more uneven, the scale was that much grander. The kids they were going to fight with were that much younger than she had anticipated.

And there was a lot more of hacking and slashing than Hange was prepared for. Even so, every hack, every slash and every bullet that met its target meant the loss of another life that was full of wasted potential.

Hange wasn't sure if she could do it for much longer, if she could exterminate more of those kids.

Luckily, Pieck was right beside her, ready to help Hange out the second that she needed it. Luckily, they had their shifters, and with their help, the fight was almost over.

Hange was ready, was almost raising her hand to call for Pieck, when— When someone else landed on the rooftop next to her.

Someone red-headed, with a nasty face. Someone definitely not Mikasa who was fighting alongside Hange minutes ago.

Floch, Hange grimly realized. That rat-looking bastard.

She faced him, gun already raised. But there was no ammo inside of it, and so whatever Hange was going to say next would be loaded with shit-ton of bullshit.

"Run away before I shoot you," she took the word first, because it was important to settle the aura of dominance around her. At least, that's what her teachers had been telling her. "I'll do a favor and warn you that I'm one of the best shooters of Marley."

With no fucking ammo.

"They all trusted you?" Floch took a step, approaching her casually, but with a face twisted in rage. "All these idiots and traitors, they trusted you, a fucking Marleyan spy, before Eren and I? They all deserve to die for what they did! And die they will!"

Uh oh, Hange did a careful step back. Her companion clearly had a few screws loose. And arguing with him was completely pointless.

"Listen," obviously, the offensive tactic had failed her. Hange resorted to the defensive one. "Whatever is going on between your ex-friends and you, it's none of my concern. I'm just trying to save the world and—"

And the insolent kid had the gut to interrupt her. Mid-fucking-sentence. By firing his stupid rifle.

Luckily, Hange dodged the first bullet, but the second got her. Got her so good that she had crouch and press a palm to her face. The blood was already dripping from it, and her head erupted in an explosion of sudden, breath-stopping pain.

The darkness was already enveloping her, but just before Hange slipped into the unknown, two thoughts crossed her mind.

The first one was: fuck, it hurts like the bitch.

The second was: shit, Levi is definitely going to kill me.

___

He had to wait. Then, he had to wait some more. Then, he had to wait a little more. And then he had to do a shitload of waiting.

Levi was not used to this. Before, the battlefield always had him standing at the fucking center. And now he was on the sidelines, waiting for the barest amount of news.

But, of course, there was no fucking news. Only injured girl, teenage queen and two more children.

And no Hange, or Moblit or someone he was close with. There was no Zeke even, so he had no one he could make fun of to pass the time.

Levi was slowly going crazy. He was spiraling and spiraling, until— a tiny but strong hand gripped his. He looked up to see the one and only Queen Historia.

"It's hard to wait until the news come in?" she asked in that angelic and gentle voice of hers. "But you get used to that anxiety with time."

"I am no Queen," Levi replied bluntly. "I don't have the luxury to get used to it.

Historia putted - showing Levi that she was very much a child - and lightly swatted his arm - reminding him that she was very much a Queen. "You know what I mean. And also," oh that smile, that full of mischief smile, Levi didn't like it one single bit. "What's up with you and Hange? Are you—"

"It's complicated," he grunted because it was. Hange was an enemy and a traitor, and then she came back and still was an enemy, and then she saved him, risking her own life, and now was working towards saving the fucking world with them.

So yeah, fucking complicated. Especially if he were to explain it in his frail and near to death state.

"But you love Hange, right?"

Did he love her, what kind of question was that? Yes, Levi loved her. But then Hange left him, and he tried to hate her, but, in truth, he continued to love her. And she came back - unwillingly - and he still loved her.

So yeah, it was complicated, but, actually, not that much. Still didn’t mean that Historia had any right to stick her royal nose in it, no matter how much she enjoyed the juicy gossips.

"I'm just saying," she leaned a little closer to Levi. "I'm not asking out of simple curiosity. I have... a general idea of what you're going through."

"So what?" Levi couldn't help the abrasiveness of his tone. Queen or no Queen, he would let no one get inside his heart and assume that they know what he was going through.

"So what?" Historia threw her hands in the air. "So I can help you. With an advice or whatever else you need. Remember, Ymir?"

Levi racked his brain to find the answer. "Not that – the great and almighty - Ymir, right?"

"No, Ymir," Historia smiled. "The girl with freckles, warm hands and who could turn into a Titan. You weren't there, but she... betrayed us and ran back to Marley."

Ah, that Ymir. The one with the sad love story. The one who making their Queen depressed on certain days.

"I'm just saying," Historia squeezed his shoulder. "I know what you're going through. But remember - you got Hange back. I didn't get that luxury with Ymir."

Oh. Now he felt like sort of an asshole. He made his Queen and a pregnant girl all gloomy and sad.

"I just wonder sometimes," Historia murmured, eyes looking at the horizon and turning thoughtful. "If Ymir would be proud of whom I have become if she saw me now."

"You love your country, and you care for your people," Levi said, in an effort to stop Historia from shedding tears. That would be a fucking disaster. "She would love the new version of you as much as she loved the old one."

"You know," Historia still wiped her eyes, getting rid of a few tears that had escaped. "You're much nicer than everyone thinks you are."

"I'm really not—"

And that it happened. Their fighters, the survivors had returned. Levi looked at each of them intently, recognizing each and every face. Every member of his squad looked worse to wear, everyone seemed— like they had new wounds in their hearts.

Connie and Jean holding Reiner. Gabi wearing victorious smirk and holding injured and exhausted Falco (how did Levi miss their missing?). Armin helping Sasha. Mikasa helping Annie. And then—

Oh fuck, oh shit, oh goddamn fucking shit, was he not allowed to have a single good thing in his life? He didn't want the gold or wealth or power, he wanted to have single person, she wanted him right back, why they were not allowed to do that? Why Hange - again, and again, and again was taken away from him?

Why her face was all covered in blood as Pieck, Moblit and Zeke helped to carry her? Why the blood inside Levi's own heart suddenly stopped pumping?

He stood up - his legs unsteady - and started to approach them.

"Captain!" just as shakily, Historia hurried to follow after him. The ones from his squad who still could stand - did the same.

"We are with you, Captain," Armin promised, hand on his shoulder. “And we're with Hange, oh my—"

How dare they? How dare, whoever did this to his Hange, whoever put so much blood on her face, did this? During the small moment when everything could almost work out? Levi would find them, oh he would find them and he would gut them, no matter what state he would be in.

He made unsteady step towards her limp body. Then, even slower, he did another one. Just as he was preparing to take the third one, Moblit looked up. And saw the pain inside Levi's eyes.

He gave Levi a smile, much kinder than Levi would be able to muster in the moment. And then, that smile turned into a grin.

"Hange-san is alive," Moblit said at last. "Badly injured, but— alive."

Alive. Was there a better word to console Levi right now?

Alive. He murmured it again, his knees nearly buckling underneath him from the sheer amount of relief he felt.

"Um, okay," Historia stepped forward, the royal aura reappearing around her. "Let's get Captain to the ship, and Hange—"

"Hange is going with me." Levi said resolutely, no sign of weakness showing in his voice, despite the fact that two teenagers were helping him stay on his feet.

"Hange needs someone to take care of her wounds," Pieck spoke out. "And you," she pointed at Levi, "can't even walk by yourself."

"Well, take Hange to the ship," he argued. "And I'll treat her wound there."

"Or maybe you won't," Pieck drew out, her hold on Hange tightening. "Because I don't trust you."

"I don't trust you either."

Oh, he didn't? The greatest titan, the biggest asshole in this world didn't trust Levi? As if anyone had fucking cared about it - or his stupid, monkey-looking ass.

"You better shut your mouth, Zeke," Levi growled. "Before I come over here and do it myself."

"Are you still up for that job?"

Levi clenched his fists, his anger rising. Zeke and his fucking taunts and his face and his everything, he had enough of it!

"Hange is coming with us," Pieck said, interfering with Levi's murderous thoughts. "And that's the end of it. She's one of us, we don't trust you."

"Pieck, please, at least, you have to be reasonable," the voice that joined the conversation surprised Levi. And let another wave of relief wash over him. "I didn't spend the last night trying to have you all to get along for you to start fighting over who gets to clean my fucking wound."

Beneath the bandages, Levi smiled. Ah, Hange, always the voice of reason.

"Just let Moblit take care of me, or else the reinforcements will come soon. I hope you all trust him?"

"How can they not?" Moblit chuckled. "Especially after that exhilarating trip we had with Zeke. The one when he kept threatening to slice my throat."

Zeke looked away, almost like he was embarrassed.

"He looks harmless enough," Pieck surrendered.

"Past is in the past," Zeke said diplomatically.

"I trust Moblit with my life, with Hange's life too," Levi added because who would he be if not a snarky asshole that just had to have the last word.

"Great, if everyone agrees who takes care of Hange, let's get moving!" Historia exclaimed, clapping two times in a row to force them to start walking.

Levi sighed, feeling weary, worried, annoyed and still very fucking injured. Then he let Jean and Sasha to wrap their arms around him.

Well, wasn't he just pathetic? Couldn't even move without the help of two teenagers. Zeke probably had the time of his life, watching Levi's struggles. He could laugh all he wanted, though, as long as Levi didn't see his ugly face. He'd deck him easily, even half-dead and with two children holding him upwards.

"So," when Zeke's revolting blonde head disappeared, Levi turned to his companions. "What the fuck had happened out there? With the fight, Yeagerists and—"

He stopped, taking a deep breath. The thought of Hange, coupled with the sight of blood on her brilliant head, was still terrifying to him.

"And Hange-san?" Sasha prompted, with a sympathetic smile. "It's all quite complicated but—"

"I'm willing to tell you everything, Captain," Jean said, chin raised high. "I was there, I saw everything. And it began with..."

___

Jean heard someone fly past him, raised his eyes and immediately narrowed them, in the expression of pure fury.

That bastard, Flock, here he was, just a rooftop away. Jean was going to make up to him for everything he had ever done, for every stupid shit he had ever uttered.

Floch was involved in all this mess, he was the one who forced Jean and others to kill their own friends. He didn't - couldn't - know, but suspected that Floch was also the one who gave Eren the brilliant idea to destroy the whole world.

Whatever, they would have time to stop Eren and his plan later.

Now, though, his focus was on Floch.

Who had remained on the same rooftop, talking with someone— someone, Jean squinted – ah, it was Hange.

Jean his hand already raised, preparing his gear and his trusty rifle, his dear babe. But a moment later, he heard a scream - a familiar voice, laced with fear and panic. Jean turned, and saw Mikasa, nearly falling to her death.

His muscles reacted faster than his mind, and so very soon, Mikasa had been saved from peril, protected by his arms.

He smiled at her, to give another bit of reassurance, but then tensed, when a gunshot rang through the port.

A gunshot, right above them. And another right after it. Coming from the roof where Hange and Floch were standing.

Holding Mikasa with one hand, and his rifle with another, Jean moved up, until he was on the roof.

The sight before him was nauseating - Floch, victorious and giddy, and Hange, bleeding out on the ground.

Jean didn't hesitate, didn't think about his loyalties and where exactly they were laying. He nodded to Mikasa, let her run to Hange, then raised his babe, aiming it at Floch.

He took a breath, and that was—

___

"And that was a foolish lie," Sasha chided Jean, confirming Levi's suspicions. "You weren't even half as cool and what was that again? You saved Mikasa? Mikasa was perfectly fine, fighting on the other side of port!"

"Well, everything was happening too fast," Jean mumbled, eyes averted. "And that's how I remembered the events."

"It's all a lie," Sasha waved her hand arrogantly, snickering when she met Levi's gaze. "Let me tell you the actual truth, Captain. First things first, everything was indeed happening way too fast and that's why—"

___

That's why Sasha had to keep an eye on everything, to make sure that everyone - Connie, Jean, Armin, Mikasa, even those ex-traitors Reiner, Annie and Hange and those kids she barely knew (and she was almost sure that one of them had nearly shot her once) were alive and uninjured.

It was a hectic, thankless job, but someone had to do it, and so Sasha perched up on the rooftop, doing what she was always best at - hunting. Killing.

Every bullet that flew out of her rifle met its target. And every time, Sasha prayed that it hit someone she didn't know nor care about.

The battle went on and on, draining all the energy out of her. Sasha covered for Connie, then got that guy that was chasing after Mikasa, helped Reiner evade the thunder spear. Slowly, the fighting was coming to an end, the enemy's forces decreasing. With a start, Sasha realized - she was all alone, no enemy or ally next to her.

She breathed out, reloaded the rifle and jumped to her feet, leaping into the air.

A few rooftops away, across the street, she saw the bright speck of red hair that immediately stirred annoyance inside of her. Floch, that damned fool.

He was approaching Hange, who clearly was struggling, backed up into the corner.

Sasha hurried to her rescue.

With a rifle securely strapped to her back, she glided through the air, heading to the rooftop where Hange and Floch were standing.

But Hange seemed tense, and Floch was actively approaching her, clearly, there was no time to spare, so Sasha landed on the nearest rooftop and raised her rifle.

She closed one eye, taking a second to get a better aim. She settled on Floch's arm, the injury wouldn't kill him, but it would make it impossible for him to use the ODM-gear. Even after everything he had done, even after every stupid thing he had said and done ever since he had joined Survey Corps, Sasha couldn't find it in herself to kill him.

With matters in such state of disarray, with Eren's true motives still unclear, they might need Floch and what he knew.

Or, perhaps, Sasha was just trying to placate herself. Went through so much shit already, and yet she hadn't learnt how to part with comrades, no matter how irritating and evil they actually were.

Under her breath, she cursed Floch's, Eren's, everyone's stupidity, and put a finger on the trigger.

She was ready to curl her point finger and end it all.

Floch was faster, though.

With a move that was more fluid that Sasha had expected from him, he fired his gun. Then, when Hange had dodged, he had done the same action again. This time, Hange fell down, with a loud scream.

Sasha's hands began to tremble as she held the rifle. She fired it too, the bullet getting to Floch's side inside of his arm as she had planned.

She didn't care about it now, however. All she cared about was a body of an enemy and a mentor and a friend, a person who had saved her own life not long ago. A person who was possibly now dying.

Sasha leaped from one roof to another, her eyes seeing only Hange. Floch was already forgotten, his grunts of pain entirely ignored.

A warm feeling went through her, as she saw Jean already by Hange's side. His face was terrified, but not— not stricken with grief, not even sad.

He looked up, met Sasha's eyes and mouthed, "Alive."

That's all Sasha needed to know.

___

"And that's basically it!" Sasha smiled, patting Levi's shoulder. "Moblit arrived soon too, and then Hange was carried here. You know the rest."

"I do."

The rest was already on the ship, probably getting her wound treated. Waiting for him.

"Thank you, guys," he did his best to give the kids the bright look. He was proud of them, truly. For everything they've done today. "You saved..."

"Your beloved?" Sasha winked, then giggled, when she saw the embarrassment, appearing in Levi's eye. "Don't worry, Captain, it's alright. We understand."

"Yes," Jean agreed, surprisingly somber. "The line between enemies and friends is lost already."

"And, personally, I always thought that you and Hange-san are meant to be," Sasha said, just to add to Levi's grievance.

In the face of their assault, he could only groan.

"Are you telling me this now, because I'm injured and there are no barracks I can make you clean?"

"Yeah," Sasha laughed. "And, you know, we also kinda love you."

Honestly? Levi felt the same. Those annoying brats, they were his only family. But he wasn't yet sappy enough to tell them that.

"You did good," was all he said, and wrapped his arms a little tighter around them, closing his eye while Sasha and Jean carried him inside.

___

Inside the ship, near cabins, where, as he thought Hange was, Levi met Historia and Pieck.

The two young women looked around intently, as though searching for someone.

"All good?" his hollow voice asked.

Historia gave him a tight-lipped smile. "We're just making sure that everyone is on board."

Levi did a quick survey inside his head - he saw Armin, Annie, Reiner, Onyakopon, that fool Zeke, Yelena, Mikasa and the rest of kids, two children they've continued to carry with themselves for some reason, Azumabito and her people. That seemed to be everyone they needed.

"I think everyone is here."

"No. We can't find Magath."

It came from Pieck, who sounded surprisingly forthcoming, urgent even.

Levi realized everything at once, connected all the dots immediately.

"I'm sorry," he squeezed her shoulder, with more sympathy than he thought he could spare for the girl. Perhaps, Hange was onto something with this alliance shit. He looked at Historia, "You can say that we're ready to go," then back at Pieck. "I don't think he is going back."

"B-but!"

The loud explosion seemed to confirm Levi's suspicion. "I'm sorry," he repeated. "But your Commander seemed to make his own decision already."

Pieck lowered her head, her lips trembling. "If anyone needs me, I'll be inside my cabin. But don't disturb me without a reason."

She was gone, before Levi or Historia could say anything else to her. They've exchanged a look, and both had let out a sigh.

They were too familiar with the concept of loss.

"I'll go to see Hange," he told the Queen.

"And I'll check on everyone and rest for a bit."

And just like that, they went their separate ways.

___

Inside the cabin, as Levi had expected, Hange was not alone. Moblit was tending to her wounds, Onyakopon was right beside him, helping whenever needed.

Cautiously, Levi leaned against the doorway, his heart somewhere in his throat, as he saw what was hiding behind the blood on Hange's face.

The wound was disastrous, black and red mixing in the place, where Hange’s eye used to be.

"It's a miracle," Moblit murmured, casting a quick glance at Levi. "That Hange-san survived. If the bullet went just a few inches to the left..."

"She got lucky," Onyakopon agreed. "But she lost an eye."

Hange lost an eye. An eye! A vibrant, lovely color that hid inside the infinite intelligence and kindness? Now it was gone.

But, at least, Hange survived. Hange was still here, with him.

"I'll take care of her," he said to Moblit, when he finished dressing the wound.

"Of course," Moblit stood up, wiping the sweat that had gathered on his forehead under the influence of stress. "Call us if you need anything."

"Will do," Levi promised to both Moblit and Onyakopon.

The two men helped Levi get to Hange's bed, then laid him down beside still unconscious Hange.

"I think she wouldn't mind," Moblit hid a smile, when he saw Levi's outraged expression.

"She was asking after you, during a small moment when she had gained consciousness," Onyakopon revealed, following it with a pat on Levi's shoulder. "Hange would be happy to see you. Besides, it's not as though you can actually sit right now."

Levi could only grunt. Why was everyone touching and telling him the truth today? Why were people teasing him? Was it because of his weak state? Or the end of the world?

Whatever it was, Levi didn't get his answer neither from Moblit, nor Onyakopon. And so very soon, he was left alone with Hange.

He settled in more comfortably, and looked at Hange - it felt weird, almost surreal to have the opportunity to stare at her all he wanted after everything that happened. Her face seemed peaceful, only slight lines of pain visible in the middle of her forehead. Apart from that and white bandage running across the side of her head, Hange looked perfectly fine, quietly snoring with her mouth slightly opened.

If he strained his imagination, if he forgot all the horrors and tragedies and lies that laid between the two of them, he could almost imagine - him and Hange, sleeping in one bed, sharing their lives.

If that's how Hange felt? When she uttered those words he would never find the courage to say out loud?

If only we could stay here together, right, Levi?

That'd be wonderful, his all dreams would come true.

But was it truly possible? Would they be able to overcome everything in their history? Could their love be stronger?

Would they survive to see this future?

Only time could tell, Levi decided, and after another quick survey of Hange - still with him, still breathing, still alive - he turned his eye to the small window. White clouds passed by, hiding the bright blue sky, and Levi lost himself in watching all of it, waiting for Hange to wake up.

He didn't know how much time he lost, but the sky was already turning orange, when she came back to her senses, and the serene snoring turned into a groan of pain.

"Hey," Levi gently touched her wrist. "You're safe, we're on the ship."

"So we won?"

Levi remembered the sad expressions on the faces of his squad, thought about the explosion and Hange's injury.

"It's complicated," then, with numb fingers that weren't used to show affection ever since Hange had left, he started to draw circles on the inside of her wrist and added, "You lost an eye. And Magath is presumed to be dead."

"Ah," Hange nodded and closed her eye. "I suspected that he was going to leave. What other reason could he have for making me a leader?"

"Hange," he murmured quietly, as a precaution.

"I just think..." Hange rubbed at the newly applied bandage. "Maybe, my turn is coming soon. I've lied, I've hurt so much people... Could it be that—"

"Four-eyes."

His soft touch disappeared, and now Levi was leaning over Hange, looking into her only eye with a mix of anger and pleading.

"We've all done some shit in our lives. We all feel like shit because of it. Own to that, and if you get the chance - live for the cause, not die for it."

"Levi," there was a moment, in which nothing was said, not aloud. They simply gazed at each other, and Levi felt his chest constricting as he witnessed all the pain that Hange had previously hidden.

He wanted to say something else, something less strict and more uplifting, but as he racked his brain for words, Hange lifted the corners of her lips, and quite unexpectedly - started laughing.

"I'm sorry, sorry," she huffed another husky laugh, so merry that it eased all knots in Levi's stomach. "I just thought... well, we're kinda matching now, our scars, I mean. Can wear matching eye patches if you want."

Matching, Levi smiled to himself. Truly, a match made in hell.

"You're crazy," he said, with all authoritativeness of a person who was a walking wound. "We can," he added softly, his hand finding Hange's. He laid in bed beside her, letting the passing clouds lull him to sleep. "And we will."

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Our Days were numbered

SPOILERS FOR CH 138-139

(Y/N’S)’s POV

“Look, the bones are gone. The rumbling has stopped too.”

Jean spoke up “Is Eren..dead?”

Mikasa grunts out in pain.

Falco lands dropping us off. Gabi runs off to reunite with her family. People scream out looking for survivors and their families.

“It’s not like I have regrets but we did the right thing, didn’t we? We stopped the rumbling.” Connie asks

Reiner’s mom came to speak with us, I think her name was Karina. She spoke of how Mister Leonhardht led the people here.

“That shining centipede…” Gabi spoke up

“Reiner..where are they?” Connie said with curiosity

“Armin” Mikasa gasped out.

I look up to see Armin’s colossal titan climbing out of a pit.

“REINER” Gabi screamed out

“He’s okay” Jean mumbles

“Hey look!! Over there.” Connie yells

“What the hell is that thing?” I question

“Who knows, all I know is we can’t let it live.” Connie replies

Another loud explosion goes off in the distance. Another colossal titan appears, but with long hair similar to Eren’s founding titan.

Eren…

“We can’t let that thing get in contact with Eren!There’s no telling what could happen!” Gabi shouts in urgency

“It could start the rumbling again. That thing.” Connie speaks up “WE’VE GOT TO KILL IT!”

“How are we going to kill something that survived an explosion just now?” Levi asks

“We need to go for Eren.” Levi points out

“You all understand by now right? This nightmare won’t end until we take him down.” I add

A mysterious smoke starts enveloping the air around us.

“The smoke is coming from that shiny thing.” Gabi points out

I stick a hand out to hold her back. “Don’t lean that far forward you’re going to fall.”

“Did it die?” Mikasa asks

“No. That’s not the smells of a dead titan.” Connie replies “Isn’t this the same thing they did is Rakago?”

“The gas.. No..they wouldn’t” I question

All of our eyes fill with panic instantly.

“Mikasa! Pieck! Get on Falco! Get away from here!” Levi yells out

Pieck doesn’t move. “What are you saying?”

“Ackermans and anyone with the power of titans are exceptions. You should know that better than anyone.” Levi states

“No.. this is too much for me” Pieck choked

“HURRY UP!” he yells

“I love you.” I whisper out for no one to hear. No goodbye. As I looked into his grey eyes one last time I could tell he didn’t want to do this. I watch him and the other fly away trusting the future of humanity to them.

I pull Connie and Jean under my arms trying to protect them for the world one last time.

“So this is how it ends for us?” Connie contemplates.

“ Guess so.”Jean answers “We’ll entrust them with the rest. That’s what it means to die as a member of the Survey Corps.”

I flick them both on the heads earning a responsive “ow” from the both of them.

“Boys, that is no way to talk.”

“Heh, sorry Squad Leader.” Jean apologies

“Cut the titles. We are all the same now.” I say

“Do you remember, Jean? The night of the entrance ceremony?” Connie asks

“Yeah” Jean answers

“You know this is all your fault, right?” Connie continues “That we ended up stuck with the job of saving humanity.”

I close my eyes taking in my last moments alive. All I hear is explosions.

Levi’s POV

I look back. Titans everywhere. Everyone’s gone.

I’m sorry I had to leave you behind Y/N. I never said goodbye. We didn’t have the time. I wish we did. I already regret my decision.

I saw Reiner tackle that glowing centipede. Is he trying to buy us time? Pieck jumps off transforming to go assist Reiner.

I hear Mikasa grunt out in pain.

“Mikasa! Stay with me here! We’re the only ones who can kill Eren” I yell at her

“Eren’s inside the mouth.” I state out

“I’ll do it.” She admits “Everyone back me up.”

“Understood”

We both jump off. I aim a thunderspear at the mouth of Eren’s titan blowing a whole in the teeth. This gave Mikasa a big opening to go in and kill Eren.

The next thing I remember we were falling to the ground.

(Y/N’S)’s POV

The next thing I know I’m lying on the ground. A different type of smoke is coming off my body.

“ Am I human again?” I question

I sit up. I see Reiner and Jean. Gabi, Connie. They are alive too. So I’m not imagining things..

Levi…

I stand up looking for him.

“LEVI!!” I scream out loud enough to lose my voice

I scream out his name hoping he responds. I didn't even notice tears streaming down my face. I must look so stupid. My voice begins to start sounding raspy. I must be losing my voice.

I finally found him perched up against a rock, legs not able to move.

“Levi! Levi?” I yell out

“Y/N! Oh my god you’re alive. I thought you died back there.”

I cut him off pulling him into a tight embrace making sure not to affect his injuries any further.

“I’m here, you’ll never lose me again.” I let go putting my arm over him and putting my head to his shoulder. He lifts his head up to point to something.

“You see that?” he asks

I look up and see the ghosts of all our fallen comrades. Hange, Erwin, Levi’s Old squad. The rest of the veterans. That’s when I see them. My old squad.

“Guess this is the result of all your devoted hearts.” I hear him say

They all salute. Me and Levi bring up our fists to do the same. The last two veterans of our generation.

I hear him start to cry. I joined in with him.

“I'm sorry I left you back there without a goodbye.” he apologies through his tears.

“I forgive you. You did what was best. But if you pull shit like that again I will not hesitate to punch you.” I say with a hint of amusement in my voice. We sit there just with each other's presence.

If you want to run

To a quiet place

At the end of the world

Just run with me

-Alexandra Vasiliu

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