#I am slowly getting better

[aphaty2220]

Attempting to Draw Hands Pt.3

#i am slowly getting better #genshin #genshin impact #eula #arlecchino #yelan #shenhe #dehya #yanfei #lumine #hu tao #amber #kokomi #sangonomiya kokomi #sucrose #xinyan #kuki shinobu #ayaka #kamisato ayaka #lavender melons

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have! #I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play. #I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks. #Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere. #Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios. #The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*. #This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those. #Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human. #Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her. #She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist. #The damsel was the dragon all along! #...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

[myheartxmyman]

Right now I feel so old and sad at the same time. Those feelings are so strong I feel paralyzed and slow.

#right now it's all too much #got so many problems and they are going round in circles through my mind-uncontrollably #my mind jumps from one painful thought over to the next and all I currently manage to do is stay calm #endure this vicious cycle of traumatic events #and stop myself from screaming #I am calm I do endure and I suffer #maybe in a bit I will help myself out of this situation I am currently trapped in #right now calming myself down despite of all those things is hard enough #tonight I am drowning in waves of heart wrenching and soul crushing sadness #after a good night of sleep everything is gonna be a bit better I am sure of that #currently I am fighting I am crying I am breaking; but that's alright #when I endure feelings like this now then I don't have to endure them on another time #Life is an up and down #it will get better again #I remember the years when I got so depressed or whatever it was that I felt like everything just got worse and worse and worse #that's one of the things I feel sad about currently I am not doing well at all but nevertheless I KNOW there are gonna be better happier #lighter times #that's a huge step in personal growth and I did it on my own #I am slowly healing myself #I am changing #I am evolving #I am slowly getting better #and it hurt me a lot last year that you didn't acknowledge mile stones I reached all by myself you didn't see me as me #it felt like you looked at me with what you wanted to see and then you blamed me for not being that version of your #as you also mentioned 'dreamwife' #you also put me under pressure with saying things like that it made me feel like I am not good enough #like you are looking down on me #like I've to change and get better so you are getting the 'dreamwife' you perfected in your brain #I mean how old are you? #also you said things that forbid me grieving over the loss of my father and Louis

[panukkie]

silver foxes

#ethoslab #hermitcraft #my art #etho #etho fanart #i am slowly getting better at drawing mec

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I imagine barnaby trying to be all cool and flirting with howyd subtly but his smoke gives him away fjsns

he thinks he's smooth smh...

#cracking up thinking about this ngl #like howdy continues on with work #and whoever's at the table with barn - lets say uhhhh idk julie #is like 'awww your smoke turns pink when you talk to him' #and barn just freezes a la 'excusemeitfuckingWHAT' #aaaand Slam that panic button #bbg didnt know.... #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #anyway i think ill never draw a better howdy #i squandered my Him points on an au scribble- AN AU SCRIBBLE #ive peaked ill never get any better! #< lie. there's always room for improvement and reaching new heights #on the flip side i had such a rough time with barn #its always an exchange - i can either draw a good howdy or a good barn Never both smh #still though idk How this came out as good as it has i have not drawn in days #nary a line nor doodle to be found... #but covid is wearing off and babey i am BACK! #slowly. it beat me up pretty good ngl #it took me tf out im gonna be extra tired for a while... #but since my congestion has cleared up and im not Hacking and Sniffling anymore #stream soon probably! Normal Stream To Get Back In The Swing Of Things #it feels like ive been sick for a thousand years but i think its been like #three days??? i really dont know... #i hope everyone is doing well and Not getting covid. wear your mask #i wore mine but my stepdad didnt and Look What Fuckin Happened

[skibasyndrome]

Something about them refusing to break contact, even in between kisses... Something about the fact that they feel the need to keep hovering, basking in the moment of closeness, when the tension between them is palpable, and they don't dare to fully let go... Something about the fact that when they need to let for air they simply aren't willing to let any more distance get between them than absolutely necessary... Their passion is unparalleled.

They always kiss like they have been yearning for that kind of contact for years, and like now that they've gotta a(nother) taste they never want to stop again, it's honestly mind-boggling.

#thinking about Them (TM) again #wilmon #young royals #yr #simon eriksson #wilhelm #SOULMATES YOUR HONOR #it's brainrot hours #I am slowly getting better at the very cursed tumblr gif search btw

[shouty-y]

Ocean studies 🌊

#my art #studies #water is quite challenging to paint but I am getting slowly better 😁 #will do more as well 🤧

[shanicetjn]

Timothée Wonka Sketchpage

I did some studies of Willy in some of my favourite scenes from the movie! ♥

Check out the close-ups below.

Completed - 12 March 2024

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#Wonka #Willy Wonka #Timothée Chalamet #Wonka Movie #I KNOW they're not sketches #but study-page doesn't have the same ring to it #I took my time with these and I am so very happy that I did #Doodling himb the past few weeks gave me SO much serotonin #GOD- I love himb sm #i am a veri happi boi rn #These also gave me really good practice- #I am slowly getting better at drawing TianCha's face #Honka Bonka Wonkas #March #2024

[marclef]

guess who's (slowly) comin' back baby

wanted to try making the squishy boy more expressive 🤗

#hello. i am still in pain. i'm slowly getting better though!! #i would really like to not have these tubes inside of me any more though. i do not like the blood tubes. #what do you mean i'm gonna have fluids leaking from me if you take off a bunch of my skin and fat????????? #uhhhh. so anyways. the uhh. the normal tags yeah. #my art #pizza tower #pizza tower fake peppino #pizza tower noise #hopefully i'll be able to draw more now. drawing wasn't too bad and I WANNA DRAW MY SQUISHIES AGAIN DARNIT-

[inkskinned]

hey it's nanowrimo. i have tips bc i've done it about 34 times.

Don't edit. Ever. Stop it. If you just decide to start a new project half thru this one with all new characters, no problem. pick up and keep writing as if you'd already written the first half of that.

"but i spelled it wrong" whatever. "but the grammar" whatever. make it exist first. no time for sense. think like you're working on a typewriter. no backspace. only forward go.

Don't re-read further than a paragraph or two backwards. "did i mention the gun before?" listen - it doesn't matter. if you need there to be a gun there, the gun is there. put it back in once you finish the book.

"i forgot the specifics of X thing i already wrote" whatever. change it, make a note/comment to figure it out later, and just write what makes sense for the moment. "no raquel it's legit the characters name and origin" idc that character is now reborn as Claudius from Elsewhere. it's fine.

only you see your mistakes. nobody else knows. one of the ways writing and dance overlap - only you know the choreography. nobody else will know if you miss a step, so just keep dancing and pretend you meant to do it like that.

it's an illusion that you need to write linearly - from point A to point B to point C. Nah; that's just timeline propaganda. I've written a LOT of books out of order and just reordered them once i've finished. if you have a scene you'd LOVE to write but can't get there yet because of plot, just fuckin write the scene. I've always found its easier to establish "point F" "point J" and "Point A" and then wiggle my way between those scenes.

write what you WANT to write. 230 pages of smut? of well-researched discussion on bread? whatever. the point is to strengthen muscles however you can.

if you miss a day, a week, whatever. not the end of the world. we all have dry days. also time is a myth so u can do this challenge whenever u want.

as soon as you try to write for a specific audience, you kill your voice. you are writing for yourself. stop thinking about how people will take ur book. it don't matter. what matter is u, enjoying writing. i luv u.

play to your strengths. i have characters talk so much because i don't know how to write a plot if it kills me but i'm really good at dialogue so.

i love a flight of fancy. write a poem in there. shift tactics and write in code. keep it fun for yourself.

see what happens if you shift something major about ur main characters - gender, wealth, superpowers. or if you change point-of-view. or if you kill everyone in a big explosion. do NOT edit anything before this or after it. often these little weird one-off exercises teach me what interests me about what i'm working on. it is never what i thought. plus it is a fun way to add like 1k words.

stretch.

it's for fun and for practice. stop doing that project if it's giving you anxiety. once my nano was literally 50k words of half-started stories. just things i tried and tried and tried and wasn't able to flesh out. oops. but i am now 50k words of a better writer.

add dragons?

read books/listen to books on tape/etc. people often make the mistake of "buckling down" to just write. you need inspiration. you need to like. fill up on words. you need to remember how it feels to lose yourself in a story.

i don't have the time or space to really talk about this in this post but a lot of creative people turn to drugs/alcohol because it can help you be more creative. this is harmful, and walking a blade that only cuts deep. if you notice you and your loved ones are turning more to substances, please know i love you and i hope you are able to get help soon. i feel like this almost never gets mentioned because it's kind of a hazy underbelly to art. you are always more important than the work.

on that note. drink your fukin. water.

don't talk about a story until you've finished it. once you tell the story, it exists already, and isn't about discovery. i usually have a very canned "haha we'll see" response.

grapes :) tasty snack.

i love you be free.

#edit: the command not to talk about it is from personal experience! #i have heard Otherwise in the tags so i will edit to say: #if you've noticed that you tend to like Talk A Lot about ur piece but never WRITE it - #consider voice-to-text #also #u might be like me and ... need to figure it out on the PAGE and not OUT LOUD #i am often an auditory processor so i wont tell people specifics but i'll be like #huh. so i have a character who is in love .... and they don't know it #and my friend will be like ''oh they should kiss' and meanwhile #somehow #saying it out loud im like #yeah thank u ur right the dress SHOULD be purple that's what the problem has been <3 #idk!!! it's up to you!!! my suggestion is to say LESS until you know for a FACT that saying MORE works better for you #-- always better to slowly unspool in ur exploration of that #than to accidentally talk too much and get Bored Of Project #idk idk idk #i have adhd so every book surprises me bc im like #wait where did any of this even COME FROM #and whatever little gremlin in my brain that writes is like :) #''heyyy girlie.......'' #WHICH IS A LONG WAY TO SAY: #i didn't know about Not Talking About It as an option until i'd ruined a few projects!! #but there are people who need to do the other thing!!! and i love us both!!!! #wow brains are so funny!!!!

[navithescribe]

So, to prove I am not dead, here's a WIP on a Yan!DonniexReader oneshot

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It was almost 1:00 in the morning. Donatello had spent all day working on a new circuit. He was close to finishing… but something was disturbing him. A pair of eyes were on the back of his neck, they had been for several seconds now. 34,07 seconds to be exact.

He smiled to himself.

“How long are you planning on just standing there and just watch?” he spoke up.

He pushed up his goggles and turned out on his swivel chair to face the doorway.

There you stood, half hiding behind the door, looking at him.

You were in your pjs and held your pillow in your arms.

This was the third night in a row.

While Donnie was working on something, which usually lasted until the late hours, you woke up and went to him because you knew he was still awake.

“Another nightmare?” he then asked right out.

You nodded.

“I’ll be right there.”

He put his tools away before getting up from his chair and walked with you to the living room area and plopped down on the couch.

You looked pale. You had dark circles under your eyes.

Donatello felt bad you had to suffer in through the nights, but it was the only way. It was for your own good…

“Tell me about it.” he commanded softly, as he reached a hand up to stroke your back your hair.

“It was the same as the others…” you muttered.

Your gaze was focused on your hands fidgeting, on your lap.

You were still wearing the beaded bracelet he had made you… Good.

“A dark figure… a man… or something else… chasing me…” Your voice was so quiet, “he kept demanding I returned to him… that I could never escape…”

“It’s only a dream, darling.” Donnie kissed your head.

“I know but-“

“But what?”

“… It feels like more than just a dream.” You sighed.

Donnie felt a lump grow in his throat. Dear god, don’t let her realise…

“It feels like… like a memory.” You finally said it.

Donnie pulled you close, hugging you tightly.

“It was only a dream.” He murmured more slowly.

You went quiet.

There was no way you could remember.

You shouldn’t remember.

He had made sure of that…

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Things are still pretty rough, but it's getting better little by little. I only ask for some patience because I promise I am working on the good days, and there are more good days than bad days lately. 💜

#wip #yandere donnie #yandere donnie x reader #oneshot #rottmnt donnie x reader #rise donnie x y/n #rise donnie x reader #rise donatello x reader #donatello x y/n #rottmnt fan fic #rise donnatello #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise donnie #tmnt #i am not dead #thing are slowly getting better

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it's only natural to feel anger when somebody isn't "taking your advice" or listening to you about their mental health or what will help them. People want to help people, and the anger comes when you are perceiving somebody as not being receptive but...

It can be a selfish impulse to say that your opinion about their illness is the only thing they need. It isn't about you, even though the advice you give is given by you.

Nobody deserves to suffer, this is true. But, also, nobody deserves to be forced to do things that either won't help or won't be genuine. If somebody isn't taking your advice, there's a reason for it (maybe it's not a good enough reason for you, but this isn't the point). It's okay to be disappointed or angry, but it's not going to help to lash out at them. That is only pouring water onto a grease fire.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #sometimes you DO need to freefall without a parachute. sometimes the 'just get better! ☺️' mindset that's given to us will slowly kill us #the whole 'if you take my advice you'll be free from your illness 😇' saviour complex is honestly something that would have killed me #because it wasn't coming from a place of genuinely helpfulness or what would work for *me*... #...those pieces of advice came from the mindset of how to make everybody else comfortable... #...because it minimized the fact that i was (am) fucking insane and unwell and ill and debilitated... #...the advice came across as sinister because it wasn't about me despite addressing my insanity. it was ABOUT everybody else #and i just got done watching a heartbreaking video about somebody else's decline and i don't want them to suffer... #...but i also don't want to be the cause OF their suffering. my advice for them would be unhelpful i think... #...so i am still heartbroken and sad and maybe angry but that... isn't their fault. they are SUFFERING and VISIBLY so... #...i want their suffering to end in any way that will actually help *them* and not my ego y'know...

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I saw @qourmet's young madam lan art, and knew what I had to do.

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan furen #horse #we need to name her horse IMMEDIATELY #Qingheng-Jun #She is stunning and beautiful and the design has me in a death grip #AND she's a horse girl? It was not even and option to not draw her. #Lan wangji has to get his biting and tearing and killing genes from somewhere. #Its maternal. He inherited the hunting instinct from his mother and an attraction to people who do crimes from his father #btw if yall haven't seen them; All of qourmet's prev generation designs are *so* good. I have genuinely gotten brainrot over CSSR and WCZ. #On every god that exists I WILL find a way to have them show up in the pd-mdzs comic canon. I've already scripted the comics. Its happening #Also it's been too long since I drew an equine. Why are there not *more* equines in MDZS. This is why I had to make the equineswap au. #I''m still not sure how a horse works. but I'm getting there. #Slowly I am creeping towards the necessary skill set I need to draw Qiyan Agula. #JQWS audio drama....I am gazing at you so fondly. I will return to you with power and strength (better comic skills to draw you) #we are a long way away but...that's the dream project.

[pdalicedraws]

Blitzmeyer and Nimona are minding their own business.

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#nimona #nimona film #nimona netflix #nimona movie #nimona comic #nimona webcomic #nimona graphic novel #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #dr meredith blitzmeyer #nimona nimona #nimona crossover #nimonaverse #pd alice draws #I think I am slowly getting better at drawing moviebal lol #also nims #she’s my fav why is she SO HARD TO DRAW kfdgbseifdk

[essektheylyss]

I realized that A Crown of Candy is actually the first time I've watched Zac Oyama play D&D, and it's frankly been wild watching how masterfully and quickly he sets up Lapin and the depths of this rabbit. I know it's been said that Zac's an excellent player, but it's one thing to hear and another to actually witness.

I feel like it probably shouldn't surprise anyone that the liar spellcaster with the religious bullshit is my favorite right off the bat, but it's funny because the first introduction of him did not endear me to him whatsoever, and in fact kind of off-put me, but every further piece of information about him, and in fact many of his offhand comments, feels like picking up a log on the ground and finding an entire microbiome underneath.

#yes I do know that his fate is not kind and frankly that makes it even better for me #I don't know how it happens (do not spoil it pls. I'm watching so slowly okay.) but regardless it feels fitting #also I was watching slowly but I will probably get through it faster now that I have motivation lol #me constantly: it's literally not that much content. just fucking watch it. #also me: but... I am so tired.... and so distracted.......... #lapin cadbury #acoc #dimension 20

[ofj-art]

Tsumugi piece rough draft

#i know i dont post enough but i am slowly getting better at art haha #art #artist #fanart #danganronpa #dr #tsumugi shirogane #danganronpa v3 #drv3 #drv3 tsumugi #danganronpa killing harmony #danganronpa fanart