#I just can’t quite explain it

[cerealforkart]

There’s something to Lark wanting to be hated in the church of the doodler, and there’s something to Sparrow wanting to be forgiven with code purple, and there’s something to both of these situations and desires contrasting with each other that I can’t quite figure out in words but it’s been on my mind

Do you think Henry is as upset with Lark as he is with Sparrow? Because I don’t think he is

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #noodly #there’s something here #I just can’t quite explain it #I also think it would be fun if another unspoken thing norm and sparrow have in common #is the feeling your parents like your sibling better #and by fun I mean devastating #it’s also fun because I see a lot of fans the same way #forgiving lark and vilifying sparrow #dndads spoilers #something about mistakes you wish you could take back #and choices you felt you had to make

[runraerun]

there’s just something so juicy about those early seasons 2008-2010 Destiel fics where everyone is still writing Cas as this creepy, cunty, alien weirdo who has this psychosexual obsession with Dean. Like his whole personality is just intensely observing the righteous man as if he’s a really really really interesting bug that for some inexplicable reason gets his vessels’ pee pee hard

#I could quite literally spread it over a piece a toast and eat it up #like I love all cas’ #this is a cas positive space #I’m just showing my appreciation for creepy alien weirdo cas who wants to lick Dean’s face and sniff his boxers or whatever #like I write Cas as sweet and neurodivergent and deeply caring towards Dean in the most unselfish sort of way #but DAMN I love reading creepy early seasons cas #inject it directly into my veins #I just found a really good one and I hnnng #bless the fanfic writers who still write cas like this honestly #I like all walks of life cas but that one stirs something in me #I just love it #like him turning and being like what do you dream of 🤖🤖🤖 #LIKE CHEEZUS #you should show me some respect version of cas #SHIVERS #SO CREEPY AND YET #PEE PEE HARD #can’t explain it #I pulled you out of hell I can throw you back in #AND THEN AGAIN I LOVE LATER SEASONS CAS #I love I’m your huckleberry cas #dadstiel #castiel #cas #deancas #destiel #supernatural #spn #Dean Winchester

[synonymroll648]

headcanon that as sophie ages, she gets more and more off-put by how she still looks twenty at some age past 40. the only wrinkles she has are smile lines and a barely-there crease between her eyebrows that never leaves. no gray hairs. it doesn’t feel like there’s any physical evidence of how much stress aged her too fast.

(maybe she dyes more grays into her hair to feel better about her reflection, the more time passes by. maybe, on bad days, she contours wrinkles into her skin with makeup. maybe the bad days get more frequent as she ages outside the human lifespan. maybe.)

#i feel like fitz and dex are the only friends of hers that really get it #since fitz understands more surrounding human cultures than most elves thanks to his firsthand experience in the search #and dex grew up with his mom’s romcoms #which would probably show some human perspectives on aging #and his mom explaining some things that didn’t quite make sense to Smol Dex #but i’ve always imagined sophie turning up on fitz’s doorstep in the middle of the night #with tears running down her face and saying she didn’t know who else to talk to about almost-immortality feeling so so so wrong as she #gets older. not necessarily just because he knows more about humanity than most of her group #but also because like. there’s some part of her that says ‘if he can help you through learning to be an elf at 12 maybe he can help you at #42 too’. and they’re cognates. and they’ve gotten old enough to set aside teenage grievances with one another #and i like the idea of them sitting on a couch together by lamplight and trying to navigate the cultural and personal differences #in how the two of them and humanity and the lost cities view mortality #and not really reaching a concrete conclusion. but rather. a conclusion that keeps the two of them sane until they reach triple digits. #and then they have the conversation again. and come up with a plan to stay sane in their triple digits. and the same thing pops up in their #thousands. idk man the whole thing screams trust down to the bone and that’s what they should have when the war is over #is there anything more Cognate than talking through wildly different fears surrounding the same thing that make both parties #super vulnerable??? down to how your minds work in the face - or lack of - death? #maybe so but i can’t think of them off top of my head #kotlc #sophie foster #kotlc headcanons #keeper of the lost cities

[fruityfroggy]

I have no clue how it took me this long to realize that Medicine Pocket’s banner is called “Level Seven Biter”

And you know what? I’ve never really thought about it until now, but yeah,

They would bite people

That is all.

#like I can definitely see medpoc doing that #and I can’t quite explain why #it seems so in character #the name is likely just referring to their doggos #but I like to think that Bluepoch’s just like #yeah they bite sometimes #like really hard actually #we’re sure that that’s not surprising but just fyi #medicine pocket #reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 medicine pocket

[venti-death-watch]

my current genshin thought is that…. diluc returned to mond for a reason. he learned something, met someone, found something out, and now he’ll be in mond until the incident passes

#i can’t explain it bc it’s really just a vibe. but. he returned bc he knows something that’s gonna go down #genshin impact #diluc ragnvindr #diluc #thoughts #don’t quite know what the incident will be or whatever but. i have a feeling that there’s a reason #mond is a ticking time bomb and diluc knows more of the cards than most ppl do

[caffeinefire]

Even with everything else that happens in Trimax, Colorless Expression is the only chapter I was actually viscerally dreading having to reread. It’s one of the only chapters I remembered by name. I put it off as long as I could but I didn’t want to fall behind and finally pushed through it today.

I was moving SO fast on my first read through (which was only earlier this year, January/February ish) just binging multiple volumes in one sitting. And obviously I noticed before volume 6 that it was a lot darker and a lot more serious than the 98 anime was. Idk if it was because of my pace or if I was just a little bit in denial, but Colorless Expression is where I really felt the tone shift for the first time.

This is where I realized, oh, this is going to hurt hurt.

#it upsets me in a way I can’t quite explain #particularly the placing of early-manga-Vash’s grinning wanted poster #over his current expression of just misery and self-loathing #I think I actually had to put my phone down there the first time through #trigun #vash the stampede #trigun maximum #trimax volume 6 #trigun spoilers #trimax spoilers #trigunbookclub

[simcardiac-arrested]

#i wouldnt usually care about stuff like this. but every month or so i get two or three asks like this and i just got one earlier today #and look. i’m not saying u can’t hate ns or dislike them. feel free to send me asks that are like ‘ns you are stupid and you suck and i hate #you’ he IS stupid and he DOES suck and he is quite hateable. that’s fine #it’s just when you start sending me wholeass paragraphs explaining every single detail you hate about ns and how they deserve a slow and #painful death that i think two things: 1. you are finite waves reincarnated 2. you are weird! and strange even! #what are you on about! ns absolutely does NOT deserve a slow and painful death! and you absolutely do Not have to be so hostile and #aggressive towards them as a character! like Please relax. we serve bullshit here sir #most anti-ns asks i get are funny and are light hearted because it’s just people messing with ns on purpose or mocking him and making him #mad because he easily gets mad and it’s funny. Like those asks are fine. it’s another deal entirely when you send me this detailed and— #honestly—really mean message. I guess i am not surprised considering how similar ns and pebbles are in terms of personality #(and circumstances somewhat) and we all know how the fandom treats pebbles. even worse than ns. but yeah anyway #they are not an irredeemable unforgivable monster and they do not deserve to die. Hope this helps #to me even calling them a Bad Person is kind of a stretch. let alone the shit some of you are saying about them #we have to get normal about mentally ill and traumatized and autistic characters gang! #crammerposting #i also do not appreciate when people insuniate that ns is stupid for overworking himself and damaging his structure and so on and so forth #yes it is his fault but that didn’t mean he deserved what he had coming to him or anything like that. be nice to him

[fastsalad]

posting this because i feel like i’m the only one who isn’t a fan of it

#i can’t even really explain why. it just feels wrong #maybe we should call it quits this game shits 4ever #falsettos

[emizzzleblur]

I asked my friend to place drivers on a political map based on vibes:

#i asked my friend: f1 edition #ok so it all makes perfect sense once we explain it like it’s so good #it started with Carlos likes he’s so fiancé like not innocent enough for boyfriend but not quite serious enough for husband but not an ex #seb is the fiancé on ur wedding night like he’s sitting against the door talking all night bc he respects tradition but can’t stay away #mick is just always ready to propose to you #Lewis is the worst type of situationship #chalres is the ex you never want to see again you loved him so much but you can’t stay away from max or Pierre #Valtteri is the most devoted husband you’ll ever see this man will love you forever once you have him #George is in the honeymoon phase like constantly he just loves talking ab the wedding so much and how it was so perfect #Daniel is the forever boyfriend like never gonna fully commit but you’ll spend forever waiting for him to ask the question #Nicky is the most insecure and sweet boyfriend to exist like he loves going on dates but is too anxious to go any further like move in #Lando is the party boyfriend with Alex and Yuki like just for having fun sorta relationship #Checo is the fun easy going husband that still acts like ur dating but will hold you so tight at night you can’t breathe #lewis hamilton #max verstappen #charles lecrelc #Carlos Sainz #sebastian vettel #daniel ricciardo #lando norris #valtteri bottas #george russell #checo perez #nicholas latifi #mick schumacher #alex albon #yuki tsunoda

[raetreaderarts]

I was blessed with the power of draw anime husband at the ripe hour of 5 o’clock in the morning and oh baby!!!!! It’s him!!!!!!!!

If you saw my last drawing of him, my condolences, it looks like hot garbage please don’t go out of your way to find it, so I wanted to redeem myself and draw him actually well. There’s like zero fan art of him out there and I can’t be out here giving the Minoura fandom a bad name (the Minoura fandom is literally just me probably but like hmu if he’s also your favorite character 💪)

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungo stray dogs fanart #bungou stray dogs #bungou sd #bungo sd #bsd minoura #this man literally just woke up and he’s already got a cigarette in his mouth whaddahell #every time this man shows up onscreen my brain neurons activate with glee #he’s so fucking hot stg like I would do anything for him fr #also is it just me or does his voice sound different in the season 5 dub #I usually watch subs so I didn’t hear his English voice till a few weeks ago #and it just sounds off like I can’t quite explain it #I’m the only person on the planet who cares about this #also I’m slowly converting my friends into Minoura fans so do with that info what you will #I’m creating a fandom with my own two hands out here #fighting on the front lines for this guy who gets like no screentime whatsoever #my art

[adaine-party-wizard]

i am so like horribly morbidly fascinated with the american phenomenon of homecoming and the amount of proms and dresses. like in canada there’s a lot of bleed of cultural stuff from the states but we don’t have any of this to the extent you do. we have senior prom. i didn’t know homecoming was a thing until uni and that’s more like a drinking excuse. but seeing all of these gowns and the hair and the makeup and the shoes and the excess and i cannot help but think about the just massive financial cost or like burden of participating in this but also the social cost of not. you have the get a new dress and get all pretty for homecoming or else you’ll be socially ridiculed. same for prom. for like four years it seems. that’s so excessive. the pageantry the putting on just the excess of it all really. i hate it but i can’t look away i will never understand but i desperately want to i am horrified i am fascinated

#it evoke similar feelings to bama rush content or sorority content generally #like i can’t quite explain my thoughts on this but like i have so many #i just saw a video of a teenage girl with the rhinestone prada purse for her homecoming outfit #that’s thousands of dollars! for a cheeky homecoming accessory! #and i know im only seeing a small selection of curated idealized american white teenage girlhood #but like… just the wealth and the cost of it all #i grew up fairly wealthy like better off than a lot of my friends #but my mom would’ve never let this amount of excess fly #it just seems like so much

[donnatroyyyy]

Batman has/had some kind of miscommunication going on with every single one of his kids. The bat family is just one big miscommunication trope after the other.

#him and Dick have miscommunication about how they see each other. Bruce sees Dick as a son and Dick sees Bruce as a father #but they didn’t think the other saw them that way so they never told each other. that’s what led to their fights in Dick’s later teenage #years and dick quitting and becoming nightwing. he thought Bruce only saw him as a ward/robin so he thought that as long as he couldn’t be #robin Bruce wouldn’t want him #and if didn’t help when Bruce stopped talking to him when he left. though to Bruce it was because he thought Dick didn’t want to talk to him #and also Dick really needs to tell Bruce like ‘hey you put me on a higher pedestal then you put even yourself which is saying something and #and I don’t like that cuz that’s too much pressure for me. and also since you did it everyone else does it and has done it since I was Robin #and it’s literally just a matter of time before I break from the pressure cuz I’m not fucking Superman and I can’t take it’ #and Jason with the whole UTRH thing. you know all Bruce had to say was that he had tried killing the joker over Jason multiple times and #maybe just explain to Jason WHY he doesn’t kill. a simple ‘you’re better than me because if I killed one person I’d kill everyone’ #or it could even just be a simple ‘I do love you Jason youre the kid that I felt most comfortable loving’ #and also maybe a ‘I don’t think anything changed after my death and that makes my death meaningless which I think goes against your no kill #rule because I hat is the rule of not a reminder taht death means something. and by that logic my death already went against the rule so why #can’t you do it again for the man that murdered me.’ and Bruce needs to make a presentation: ‘all the ways Jason’s death meant something’ #and Tim just needs a simple ‘I don’t see you as work I see you as family.’ maybe even a ‘you don’t have to be the grown up in this relati #anymore I’m sorry you were one to begin with. you should’ve always been the child’ #now his miscommunication with Damian goes much deeper but I’m one hundred percent sure if they sit down and air out all of their feelings it #would help a lot but I have a feeling that won’t happen #a ‘I have trouble understanding you because both your trauma and compassion run deeper than mine and I also never had to grow up to be a #weapon’ from Bruce and a ‘I don’t understand your optimism and moral stubbornness and easness why is it so easy to be good for u?’ #his miscommunication with Cass stems from two things a simple ‘why are you so afraid to show how deeply you love?’ from Cass maybe a #‘I’m jealous of you because you’re better than me not only in fighting but morally and emotionally’ from Bruce should fix it #and Steph— look I’m not even going to TRY to get into that that goes SO much deeer and wider than any one else’s miscommunication #but maybe a ‘you reminded me of Jason at a time where that wasn’t a good thing’ from Bruce should start things up #for Duke a ‘I can never truly understand what you’re going/have gone through and for that I’m sorry’ from Bruce should suffice #maybe also Bruce telling him that just because he sees Duke as a son doesn’t mean he’s trying any less to get Duke his parents back #oh and babs just needs to go up to him and say ‘I don’t like that what happened to me happened for your story and not mine and I don’t like #that you don’t let me make it into my story’ and then Bruce can follow up and say ‘I see so much of myself in you and it makes me worry and #also I can never look at you without feeling guilty cuz you’re right what happened to you happened for MY story so I’m at fault’ #then the two can go back to being too much like each other and sitting at their respective computers

[sallytwo]

sorry i haven’t been active on here lately sorry so much has been happening in my offline world. not in a bad way it would just take 10000 years for xplain

#so my graduated friend came back from the dead my other friends might be brekainf up AGAIN #i’ve gotten really werid privaleges with the seniors in a way that’s um. precarious i might be going to sea for 4 months. what else #got super fucked at a fair had a weird time visitng my hometown not bad just can’t make a sound elliot smith core. lots of things #there’s so much more i cant even get into it’s just kind of. well. like i’m loving life but it’s like. okay the sophomore curse is coming #talk #OH I GOT SUPER BITCHY AND WUIT BAND. AGAIN! they drafted me back so i acted like a bitch the entire time and they let me quit for real. #cuz i was such an asshole. oops! #i’m also just. kind of sick of tumblr right now idk what it is. i just get sick this stuff a lot. i hate having to explain my life

[iwantyoursexmp3]

don’t even know how to structure the bobby novella bc I’m not sure where his arc would end in that context because overall his arc ends with dying which is not something i would write in his pov, it’s hard to create an arc within his larger arc when it ends like That, and also i have visions from when he’s in his hometown before his diagnosis to the weeks after his diagnosis to when he’s in the middle of it, which all feel like separate parts to me of something and i can’t tell if that means multiple bobby novellas or one bobby beast of a novella spanning months. all i know is i will write that weird gay little dude and make sure he’s loved from all angles

#like I suppose his arc can end when he like. naturally resigns himself to it #which is hard to explain but the best way I can is like I can’t imagine writing bobby as narrator when he’s like. in hospice #at the end etc cause his ass is just sleeping and watching the muppets and busy getting ready to. you know #in the prettiest star Brian’s narration naturally fades as he closes in on dying so I’d like to reflect that #it’s just knowing when that would be for my best friend who I am so sad abt all the things I willingly did to him #he eventually gets to a point where he doesn’t want to think too hard abt anything and quite honestly he can’t #he just wants to chill out and rest…so that I think is the extent a pov of his could go #but idk if I want to write that far #we will find out though!!!! my biggest fear /pos is all of this culminating into bobby novel #thinking about this srsly fixing my trauma about earth it’s so fascinating and makes me feel more compassionate and considerate!!!!!

[rooolt]

Same genre of girl to me

#Send post #literally some tome frames in tonight’s episode I was like why is this just scary Marlowe #I can’t quite explain it but I know in my heart #dndads

[skhardwarevers1]

sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again

#Nothing new. Tbf I’ve done this a lot #I would say I’m focusing more on school and my personal writing but that’s more of a fucking lie than full truth #I genuinely have felt sick to my stomach posting here for whatever reason #Guilt shame anxiety paranoia etc etc you get the point. I feel like shit with no valid reason as to why #So for now I’m going to stop doing the thing that makes me overly emotionally sick to the point I have actual physical reactions???? #Yeah that’s the logical course of action. Might post small personal anecdotes and doodles and such to give off the vague energy that Im fin #But beyond that I quite literally can’t. I sat down and thought about writing this post and immediately broke down #I don’t know why I feel guilty over having inconsistent motivation for putting up shitty writing on a website for strangers to see #But I do and k think the only good way to get past that is this. Gotta stop acting Impulsively it’s ruining my fucking life man #There’s only one other thing that I’ll thank Eloise for #and it’s for getting me off of tumblr long enough to realize that I desperately need to get help #This is fucked I fucking hate it. I might be online if k can bare the possibility that people can see this #Namely people I’ve grown attached to in concept #Idfc at this point. it doesn’t change much about how things have been going for the past year #Vent #S.K explains that things never really got better they would just suck less for short periods of time